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imagination-is-key-in-my-world · 6 years

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Party Frocks and Naughty Knocks

Summary: You had this condition called Multiple Sclerosis which half of the school knew about. This often resulted in you feeling like an outcast. That was until your best friend invites you to a party where you meet someone who knew nothing about you.

Pairing: Jace Wayland x Reader

Warning: Medical condtion and the obvious swearing that accompanies my work.

Word count: 2,883

It was a typical Friday morning. Also known as the main day in the week that all the students spent wishing the clock hands to move faster. Including you.

Everyone knew you as the girl in the back of the library reading quietly to herself. Only half the time you weren’t reading. You often used that as an excuse to get away from it all.

It’s not like you didn’t enjoy being at school. Learning was the one thing that actually made school bearable and meaningful. It was the stupid things like ‘socialising’ at lunch that killed you off.

Being a well known long term carrier of Multiple Sclerosis by the whole school, you’d often find yourself running off to your ‘safe haven.’ As a lot of the school pupils and teachers included knew about your condition, a lot of them would bug you constantly. Always interrupting you to ask if you were okay.

It was nice to know that they cared. Of course it was. But it came to that point when you stopped being known as Y/F/N the high achieving student, and became that girl with MS.

Since finding out yourself, you hadn’t ever let it define who you were. Or even stop you from doing the things that you wanted to do. Regardless of what anyone thought, you were handling it very well. You’d take your meds, you’d go to school, you’d even try and see some of your friends outside of school too.

You were a big believer in ‘everything happens for a reason.’ You we’re just waiting for your reason to show.

“Can I ask you a question?” A familiar voice filled your ears in first period. The voice belonged to a red headed girl that you had grown to love like a sister. She’d often get in the way of everyone’s ‘caring questions.’

“If the questions is ‘have I done my homework and would I lend you it’, then no. But shoot.” Clary was different from all the other students here. She held herself well in a fight, and excelled in both academic and physical subjects.

“You’re so funny,” she half laughed, half stared at you willing for you to spontaneous combust at any given moment. “Well... I am having a party tonight,”

“Uh, I hate this already”

“C’mon, you never know you might meet someone.” Clary was always trying to set you up with a strapping young lad. Obviously you refused, thinking that everyone would immediately only pity date you. Everyone at school knew your business.

“Y/L/N and Fray! If you were quiet you may actually learn the importance of quantum mechanics.” Mrs Mitchell also known as your least favourite teacher. Always blowing up over the smallest of things.

Instead of instantly silencing and turning to the front, like you had done. Clary continued to ignore her lesson despot her warning. “Fray!”

“Quantum mechanics explains the behaviour of matter and their interactions with energy. This typically takes place on a similar scale of both atoms and subatomic particles.” As usual, Clary is the smartest and most underestimated person in the room. Well apart from yourself of course.

Mrs Mitchell’s mouth immediately dropped when she understood everything that left the red head’s lips. In fact, the exact definition that she used was the line that Mrs Mitchell had prepared to try and humiliate her for not paying attention. “Shall I continue?”

Clary wasn’t exactly that bad girl of the school. Don’t get you wrong, she got sent to the office plenty of times, only it was for her smart mouth running away from her. Normally on purpose, but that’s besides the point. Associating with Clary Fray, often landed you in hot water too.

Somehow you didn’t mind. It was nice to be something other than the sick girl.

The bell rang before Mrs Mitchell could even think up a good enough comeback to the daring young girl. “So party tonight?”

You sighed as you lifted the strap of your bag that had been resting by the side of your chair. “But what would I even wear? Who would I even talk to? How long is that party planning on lasting till? H-“

As you tried to ask yet another question, a single finger rested on your lips. “Shh, so many questions and yet none of them matter because I didn’t hear a no.” You tried to open your mouth again to speak but she just pressed her finger further onto your face.

Sauntering up the driveway of your best friend’s home, you felt slightly over dressed. And by over dressed, you meant that you had more than just your underwear on which is what most of the girls were currently wearing.

There were empty cups lying everywhere, on every surface including the counters, sofas and floor. If the dog stayed still long enough, you were sure that there would have been a cup resting on his head too.

It was hard to pick out your friend in the crowd of drunks. Most of them you knew from your school. Some in your year group, some not from your year group. Then there were some faces that you wouldn’t know even if they told you their life story.

There were a few whispers going around you. Some of what you were able to pick up on were those of people who knew you and your reputation. “Shouldn’t she be at home if she is sick?” “What is she doing at a party?”

Things like this, are the reasons behind why you pretend to be studying in the library as much as humanly possible. About eleven pairs of eyes burned into every inch of your body. It was as if they had never seen a human being before.

Thank god for that. A delicate set of arms wrapped around your stomach. You’d recognise that particular perfume anywhere. “You made it!” You’d never thought you would be this happy to see a drunk Clary in your life. “I’m so happy you made it. Simon said you weren’t going to come.”

Simon Lewis was Clary’s best friend and now boyfriend. The three of you together were pretty much inseparable. Them two more than you which is understandable. Which also made you feel like a third wheel here and there.

Simon patted your shoulder and handed you a non alcoholic drink. “Saw your car out front B, before you go all ape on me for assuming you weren’t drinking tonight.” Not the one to stay long a these events whenever you were actually invited to one.

“Cheers four eyes.” B was the nickname he gave you, meaning baby. As in the baby of the group because you were a little bit younger than the pair of them. Four eyes was yours for him, pretty self explanatory.

“Oh Y/N!” You knew this excited version of Clary. This was the ‘I’m about to set you up with someone’ Clary. The one that you always feared. “I have someone here that you should totally meet.”

Before you could even place your drink down under Simon the bodyguard’s watchful eye, your hand had been snatched and you were being dragged through the cluster of human bodies. Not the mention the horrible smell that radiated off of them.

She continued to pull you through the party goers, that was until you collided into the body of someone that Clary obviously hadn’t intended. Almost instantly from the contact into his chest. Your red drink poured out of your cup and coated his white shirt.

The pair of you completely and utterly shocked as to the events that had unfolded in front of you. “I’m so sorry. My friend here,” you pull Clary over to the boy who you now owe money to for his dry cleaning bill. “Get’s a little carried away. Don’t you Clary?”

Too drunk to even register what you said. She remained silent, apart from a few moans as she wanted you to wrap up whatever was going on so she could introduce you to her mystery man.

“Y/N come on.” She moaned slightly tugging your hand for another round of human battering ram.

“Later. Right now I’m busy.” You say to her. She lets out a large ‘ugh’ like a child who is disappointed for not getting her own way. “I’ll come find you in a little while. Go find Simon.”

The mention of Simon’s name brought a smile to her lips. The next thing you knew she was skipping down the now cleared path, falling straight into her boyfriend’s arms.

“Like I said I’m really sorry for your shirt. I’ll pay you the money to get it cleaned.” You rambled trying to justify the actions that weren’t even yours.

The mystery boy laughed, quite attractively as he was amused at your fumble for words. “It’s alright. I hated this shirt anyway. You actually did me a favour.” The boy stopped dabbing his shirt with a napkin and extended a hand out to you. “By the way I’m Jace Wayland.”

Accepting his kindness and the fact he seemed to not hold any discontent to the whole drink debacle. “Y/F/N, nice to meet you Jace.”

“Hey um, do you wanna go outside? It’s a little loud and crowded in here. Plus, I think I saw a swing out of the porch.” You smiled, relieved to be leaving the party that you had only just arrived to.

You’d spent most of the party outside talking to him about his personal life. Who he was, what he did, how he knew about the party. Those kinds of questions.

“Well, I am in the protection business. I keep people safe. I heard about the party from a mate of mine, he knows ugh your friend.”

He got to know you too of course. He asked you why you weren’t drinking after he discovered the drink wasn’t wine which he originally believed, but Ribena. The one thing you held back was your condition.

“So do you not drink at all or just tonight?” Jace questioned his attention fell to your empty cup.

“I don’t typically get invited to things like this that often. The only reason I showed up was because the crazy red head who caused me to lose half my drink, is my best friend. I had no choice but to at least show my face. No matter how brief that may be.” You explain a little more than you needed to.

Jace became sort of nervous after a while, like he wanted to ask you something, but couldn’t bring himself to ask it. “So um, I was wondering whether I-”

“Y/N, I need to talk to you. There is someone here I want you to meet.” Clary stormed out of the house, screaming those words that interrupted Jace’s attempt. Those words caused Jace’s smile to fade till it was non-existent.

“Can I just apologise for my friend, she has no boundaries.” By this time, Clary had managed to appear more drunk than before you came out of the party.

“You better do as she says. I don’t think she will take another brush off.” You didn’t want to leave. More than anything you wanted to stay with him a little longer.

Clary’s hand had already wrapped around your bicep, practically dragging you to the door. Only Jace didn’t follow when he got to his feet, he trudged down the steps of the porch, and made his way towards the road. He made the decision to leave the party and you behind him.

After all, you were the only reason he stayed as long as he did .

You turned to your friend, “couldn’t you see that I was talking to someone?” Drunk Clary just shrugged and continued with her quest to find you a man. “Clary?”

“What! You need to meet him, like right now!” She cried as she tried to reason with you. “He is really cute. Exactly you’re type as well, quite moody and melancholy at the same time.”

Submitting to her insistence, you allowed her to pull you back into the party. All that remained of Jace’s presence was the napkin stained with your drink, resting on the surface of the swing.

Once you were inside you were greeted by Simon with a tale dark haired male. “Y/N, this is Alec Lightwood.” Simon said, pointing to the fairly attractive man. Attractive or not, he wasn’t your type.

From just the few minutes that you had been standing there, he had checked his phone more times that you could count. You’d tried to start a conversation with him, but his attention was clearly elsewhere.

Simon noticed that his behaviour was starting to get to you, but he bit his tongue. Not exactly wanting to get on the wrong side of his girlfriend. But that wasn’t just it. The way he was acting around this young man, gave the impression as if he knew him too.

“So, are you going to make the effort to talk to me?” You questioned, although he didn’t respond. All you received was a ‘mmm?’ confused mumble. His eyes not lifting from his little screen.

You turned to your friend who was watching you converse with this person she knew. “Clary, I think I’m gonna go home.” As much as you knew this wasn’t going to make Clary happy. The whole drunk matchmaker plan, isn’t working for you.

“What? Why? This is all going so we-”

“No Clary it really isn’t.” You interrupt, which did make you feel bad. “You interfered when you didn’t need to. I was more than happy talking with Jace, but you pulled me away.”

Her face fell. If it wasn’t for the fact that she had gotten in the way more than once, then you’d feel worse than you did and probably apologise for your words. “He was absolutely amazing. Finally I could talk to someone who I actually liked. Someone who was sweet and considerate to me when we talked.”

“I’m sorry Y/N. I didn’t know you liked him.”

“That’s because you didn’t ask.” You talked over her as if she were a wack-a-mole arcade game. Every time she spoke, you dominated her. Something you never did with her before.

Just as you were about to open your mouth, a voice interrupted you. “I wouldn’t exactly say ‘absolutely amazing.’” His voice made you jump. As you turned around you saw him standing there with his arms crossed. His tattooed naked biceps were huge. “Although, I do like it when you say it.”

You were definitely shocked. “You came back? Why?” The minute he stepped away from you and you him. You had accepted that it would be the last time that you saw him. No matter how much you wished it to not be true.

Slowly he edged towards you, step by step, little by little. Until he was so close to you that you could feel his breath on your neck. “Well, I left something behind.”

“Well I’m not surprised you left in a hurry. What was it, maybe I can help you find it?”

He let out a little tut what you hadn’t understood where he was going with this. It was quite sad to be honest. To watch you fumble for words. “You! I left you behind.”

“Me?” Clary and Simon pretty much slapped their foreheads at your incapability to understand an obvious attempt to hit on you..

“Yes you.” His hand moved to cup your cheek. An act that never happened to you. It was a level of intimacy that you had only witnessed on the big screen. “Did I hear you right? Do you like me?”

You knew it was better to just admit it than try to hide it. “Yes.” Your head dropped, you couldn’t bring yourself to look him in the eye at that point.

The next event that enfolded happened so fast, it was a good thing you had witnesses to prove that it happened. Jace tilted your head back so that you were looking at him. Then his lips jumped onto yours, kissing them until they were red and plump.

It was safe to say that this was your first kiss.

“Jace I have to tell you something.” You whisper against his lips as you pull apart from what has to be said was the best thing to come out of this whole debacle. “I have a condition called Multiple Sclerosis.”

At first he didn’t know how to process it. Whether he should be shocked, sad or play it cool. “I’m sor-”

“Honestly Jace it’s okay.” Your heart thumped in your chest. “I get it if your feelings may have changed.” He didn’t answer verbally. He just shook his head and pulled you in for a second kiss.

“No condition can change the way that I feel.” Landing a quick peck on your nose. “Can I tell you something? You trusted me with a secret, it is only right if I repay the favour.” He said as he allowed the words to sink in. He let his head rest close to your ear so that the next words that left his mouth could only be heard by you. “I’m a Shadowhunter.”

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randomnessunicorn-imagine · 6 years

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What if one day Fell bros SF sans s/o died but the skeletons don't know about it yet, s/o's twin sibling pretend to be s/o(same haircut&clothes, practice habits,attitude)asking the skeleton if they can get back together, they tell the skeleton that sibling went to travel the world, if the skeletons found out what happen, siblings cries and tell them that after s/o and the skeleton had a fight/break up, s/o become sad, got sick and died, their last wish was hoping the skeleton would forgive them.

{ This is very interesting and creepy in its way, I like it :’D I put also our dear Rus so we have all the couples of brothers! }

❌ Reddy ;

Your behaviour, after all these days, was different from your usual and Sans could not understand the reason why you acted so strangely. He has not seen you from two weeks because you were with you twin for an urgent work trip. Since it was your job, you could not contact him so much and the two of you tried to communicate during the nights before the bed time. They were only two weeks and he could survive without you for two weeks, it was not a tragedy and he wanted to say sorry for how he acted last time. After your return, he noticed something in you changed, he could appear careless all the time but he knew you very well to understand if something was wrong. It did not seem a bad thing because you kept smiling, acting so gentle and sweet with him… Maybe a little too kind because you did not lecture him for his laziness. You were used to scream at him every time you found him asleep on the couch when he should have done some duties and it was a sort of ritual between the two of you. Since you came back from your trip, you have never lectured him, saying that he could relax and you would have done his entire jobs because you loved him so much… It was weird, not the fact that you loved him but the way you said it and the way you behaved. It was unusual and it was like you became another person, someone he could not recognize. In fact, it was not you, it was your sibling and your sibling could not know how you behaved with Sans and how your love life was. Sans understood the trick the moment he noticed a little detail about your new self. The way you called him, you usually used silly nicknames and you stopped to practice this habit. The terrible things Sans lived in his life have taught him to distrust persons and life was able to surprise us all the time with the strangest things.One day, Sans asked to have a conversation with you –who was supposed to be you-. He could not suppose you were your sibling, he only had a bad feeling that made him nervous.Then, when your sibling explained him the awful truth, Sans was shocked and it was just a horrible prank… This situation was too abnormal to be real, and he refused to believe it!First, how could your sibling take your place like this, tricking him in this way? Second, why didn’t you tell him that you were sick? How could you? He was ready to help you, standing by your side until your last breath. He felt so bad and offended even if you were dead it was not correct and you did not trust him enough if you did not tell him it. You thought he was so stupid not to find it out, and your sibling has treated him like an idiot until now. It was not a decent behaviour and with what kind of respect your sibling pretended to be you. To be a dead person. No, Sans could not forget and he was unsure if he could forgive. He felt so hurt because of your dead and because of the way your sibling treated him, and you did not trust him enough and maybe he was not so important for you to tell him about your health.

❌ The Edge Lord ;

Everyone knew his personality was aggressive and harsh and he often said things he did not mean and sometimes he did not think before he opened his mouth to say some bullshit.Then, because of his pride, he was not the one to apologise first and he waited for your move… Until it was too late because you were dead and he was unaware of it.You came back home and everything seemed normal, he did not notice your sibling took your place and for months he assumed you were yourself but Papyrus kept acting cold with you because he did not forget and he wanted to hear your apologies for that famous fight. Maybe you were prouder than he was and this game could last forever until this earth became a desert.Your sibling was the one who lost their patience and said to Papyrus that the two of them had to talk about an important issue. Papyrus seemed surprised but very content because finally you gave up making amend because he was getting sick about this situation, since it lasted too much!The argument was not the one Papyrus supposed because your sibling confessed to him the most absurd thing of the existence saying that you were dead during a trip and your sibling pretended to be you for reason unknown to him. Anyway, it seemed that famous fight was one of the reasons.Papyrus did not know what to think about it and he pushed your twin away because he did not want strangers in his house and, now that he noticed them with more attention, he found out the differences even if they were so little and hidden. He did not want to see your sibling anymore and he did not care about their explications. He felt hurt and betrayed because you were his mate and you should have told him the truth about your health, that you were so sick. He might be rude, egocentric and severe but he was able to understand a delicate situation and it was as if your sibling had offended his intellect. Real life was not a movie and none had the right to treat a person in this way, not even a person like Papyrus.Then, it was a very important issue, you were dead and he had to know something like this. He felt so guilty because he should have stayed by your side during your sufferance. Nothing could be more important than you, no fights or worries, what was truly mattered was your health but it was too late.

❌ Blackberry ;

Just like Edge, he was not the first to say sorry and he was so proud and insolent.Sans had so many problems with social relationships and he was incapable to understand people and to communicate with them so he believed you were still alive and it was not your sibling. He did not even remember you have a twin, so this suspect has never crossed his mind.Sometimes, he noticed you acted weird but he supposed you were still angry for that fight and maybe he was mad too and he wanted to make amend with you even if he did not admit and his behaviour was cold and rude. Your sibling was sick of his childish and stupid actions because he often treated them as if they were shit thinking they were you and all was going wrong. All was wrong for this guy.After a while, your twin took the courage they needed, because they were afraid Sans could act violent because he was not a pacifistic person and he did not think twice attacking someone without mercy. This plan was crazy and your sibling regretted so much to have told this lie and maybe they had to tell to Sans that awful truth from the very start and now they were not risking their life trying to have a conversation with a crazy skeleton. Sans did not believe his ears and it was just a horrid prank to make amend with him, right? What the fuck? His vision became black and he threw a bone against your twin but it did not hit them, and it just touched them softly because Sans wanted to know the truth but a cadaver could not speak to him so they had to live until they were useful for his purpose. Your sibling explained what happened to you between their tears and they were shocked and scared. When they told to him that you were gone, his soul lost a beat and a scar compared on it that would have been eternal. He was paralyzed, for several minutes he stayed silent and confused and your sibling took this opportunity to run away, afraid that Sans could kill them when he woke up from this trance. His life changed radically after this revelation and he did not know what to believe because reality seemed fake and he was unable to recognize it. What was true and what was false, he did not know. Everything was a mess, it was like a show of horror!

❌ Rus ;

It was not a problem for Papyrus to be the one to say sorry because he truly hated to be mad at you but he hated the most when you were mad at him. It was something he could not handle and he felt so alone without you. When you returned, he was so happy and he was ready to start again this relationship if it was not for that little detail that this person was not you. None was able to trick Papyrus and your sibling should have known it very well, it was obvious they did not know this skeleton so much. He knew you very well, all your behaviours, the way you smiled at him when he said a joke or the way your voice got higher when you were angry or when you were sad and your eyes became so wet but you did not want to cry and all your flaws and all the things that made you perfect in his eyes. He recognised everything, he found it out the moment you acted like a stranger. The first question he asked to that person was “who are you?”, and your sibling was shocked about his power of observation because it was incredible but he was just very smart.Then, your sibling was forced to say the truth and they confessed their plan to Papyrus, that they wanted to take your place and Papyrus wanted to spit in their eye because it was crazy! How could someone do this to their own twin? With what respect and decency? No, for Papyrus was unbelievable and he screamed to them to go away before he could act more violent than he desired because the thought that you were dead for an illness made him madder and instable. He felt dead as well and he lost his sanity, his self-control was missing even if he did not want to hurt anybody but his rage was uncontrollable. No way he could heal from this pains so easily and without you he did not know what to do with his miserable life. Papyrus ignored the fact that your sibling acted like a piece of shit and you hid to him something so important because the revelation that you were gone was the nightmare he refused to live.

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sheltered-by-viktuuri · 7 years

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[Translated] Meta: A study in the progress of Viktuuri from Episode 7

This meta is translated from Chinese and is long, so be prepared. The writer has a deep and delicate understanding of both Victor and Yuuri’s states of mind, and I second almost everything he/she says here. I’ve also translated two lovely comments on the same thread, it just makes me feel incredibly sweet.

Link to original post. Translation is under the cut, I tried my best to keep most of the original meaning intact. Enjoy!

Since Episode 7 aired, everyone was debating whether it was a kiss, yet all hints point out that they have kissed, so I’m not going to discuss that here. This analysis is on the progress of Viktuuri from Victor’s point of view.

In fact, Victor’s feelings for Yuuri is evident as early as Episode 4, when he proposed acting as Yuuri’s “lover” as a way to motivate him. As Victor is self-centric, I don’t think he would disregard his feelings and jump into a relationship with someone he doesn’t feel anything for, so he must at least like Yuuri. But it still doesn’t mean that Victor likes him romantically because he says being Yuuri’s lover is something he has to work on. (Note: Chinese/English subtitles translation discrepancy, English subtitles goes: I will do my best, while the Chinese is something like I will need tos work on that.) Real love develops organically and is not something one can work on.

Obviously, Victor did not understand romantic love. I think he wouldn’t mind dating an attractive woman if she suggests it, given that he’s not already otherwise engaged, the reason would be along the lines of “she’s been trying so hard and I don’t want to upset her”. For Victor, perhaps romantic relationship can be understood as sending flowers and going to the cinema, gestures that can be performed and are quite superficial. These acts will please his romantic partners, but no one except Victor knows whether he really enjoying doing these, or if he simply thinks these are what “lovers” do.

From the way Victor treats his fans, we can tell that Victor would not rejects his admirers, and his charm takes effect on both sexes. Noticing Yuuri’s admiration, he deduces that Yuuri would be overjoyed if Victor becomes his lover, effectively using romantic relationship as a means to an end.

In Episode 6, before his SP Yuuri said “watch only me”, and Victor wondered “what’s wrong with him” (Note: again, translation discrepancy, the English subtitles are “don’t ever take your eyes off me” and “what flipped his switch”, which is arguably closer to the original Japanese). Victor had not yet realized his likes Yuuri too, and did not see Yuuri’s admiration as romantic. After all, if Victor understands that Yuuri has feelings for him in the romantic sense, an international heart-throb like him can’t miss very nature of lovers - one needs to be the sole attention of one’s lover.

Not until Episode 7 where they had that car park exchange did their relationship set off like a bomb. Victor thought threatening Yuuri with his resignation could yank Yuuri out of his anxiety and motivate him to win. I must solemnly say that Victor has failed as a coach here.

On the surface, Victor would be stepping down because he is incapable of coaching Yuuri, but in fact he would be resigning because Yuuri is not performing well. This will only add to Yuuri’s burden, I can’t not be concerned about Victor’s pitiably poor understanding of emotions. What surprises me most is how Victor was aware of Yuuri’s anxiety, yet still thought “breaking his glass heart” would motivate him, effectively making Yuuri more desperate. Despite his good intentions, it was what a horrible decision.

Imagine a Maths test coming up for a student who sucks at Maths. The Maths tutor has been doing everything he can to teach said student, and the affection is mutual. Surprisingly the tutor said “if you don’t do well in the test, I can’t go on teaching you because I’m incapable.” The student maybe willing to even work harder for it, but it would do nothing to ease his anxiety which will only increase. Victor was only thinking about the possibility of boosting Yuuri’s will power, but completely neglected how his words could defeat Yuuri, solid proof of his lack of experience and understanding of emotions.

Victor was distressed after posing his threat, seeing Yuuri cry made him realize he had made the wrong decision and come clean about having no idea what he should do. At this point he asked “should I kiss you or something”, what a clueless man. Thank god he asked, or else Yuuri’s emotions would not go off like a bomb and resolution cannot be reached.

Here we see Victor treats kissing as a means to comfort Yuuri. To foreigners, maybe kissing is something friends would do. People of the same sex kiss and it doesn’t make them lovers, but it definitely makes them very intimate friends. Victor’s proposal suggests that they are close enough to kiss without awkwardness. The fact that Victor thinks kissing would be an effective solution to Yuuri’s problem hints that he had probably pacified his previous lovers the same way.

But Yuuri said it is not right. When Yuuri pleaded “just stay by my side” there was a close up on Victor’s eyes, looking as if he had never considered this before - company and trust are enough to inspire courage, no words or actions necessary. This is the first time Victor thinks about how he can offer support as a coach, upon realizing his shocking shortcoming he even regretted not seeking advice from Yakov. In fact, if Victor compares this experience with his previous romantic relationships, he may realize he has never truly loved anyone, but was merely playing the part of a lover. (Note: there is a meta analyzing that there are several ways to say no in Japanese, and in this case Yuuri’s “no” means “it’s not right”)

Some fans hold that Victor and Yuuri are already a couple by Episode 7, because Yuuri did not appear unwilling when Victor offered to kiss him, instead told Victor it’s not the right thing to do, proving therefore the two have kissed, but this problem is not one solvable by kissing. But I don’t buy this argument.

I think that their relationship has been ambiguous for a long time, it had outgrown friendship but was not yet a full blown romance. Yuuri’s skating relies a lot on engaging with his emotions, therefore he is possessive before competitions, but off rink he seldom actively pursued Victor. Although Victor is quite touchy-feely with Yuuri, he hadn’t really thought about what it means. This thin wall of ambiguity between them remains intact until Episode 7.

I love the scene where Yuuri bawled and pleaded with Victor to stay by his side and have faith in him. He rarely expresses the needs that he buries deep, making this scene especially moving. Yuuri needs Victor desperately, not for shallow comfort but for a trust much deeper. He turned down Victor’s kiss not because he didn’t want it, but because that was not the right time. Here we see that Yuuri’s feelings for Victor is not purely admiration. If Victor offered to kiss Yuuri during practices, I can imagine Yuuri not knowing how to react and treating it as one of Victor’s jokes. But in the car park emotions were running high, leaving absolutely no room for jokes and forcing Yuuri to spill his mind - not rejecting the kiss but saying that it’s not the right thing to do. Victor and Yuuri thus acted like a couple who have already confessed their feelings, and argued like lovers amidst this chaos - what amazing romantic progress.

(this paragraph is a comment on the thread by another user: They may not have realized their weight in each others’ hearts. Yuuri may have seen Victor as something like a deity->coach->friend->a significant person, and was worried that his failure would reflect badly on Victor thus pushing himself to a nervous breakdown. From previous episodes, Yuuri seemed to have got used to botching his programmes, but now that Victor has become his coach (at his own expense of taking a whole season off, whatever the reason was), like Chris said keeping Victor all to himself is a sin, and no one would want put a stain on his idol. Yuuri’s outburst made Victor realize how important he is to Yuuri.)

As Victor watched Yuuri performed, he couldn’t hide the emotional roller coaster ride he was going through, and his behaviour was remarkably different from that of previous episodes. When Yuuri over-rotated in Episode 7, his immediate reaction was to look away, but instantly he turned back to watch Yuuri again, clearly because he had processed what Yuuri told him in the car park. Throwback to when Yuuri missed his last jump in Episode 5, Victor closed his eyes in frustration. Back then he didn’t know Yuuri could have seen his reaction and lose confidence. But now he has learned that he should not look away because Yuuri makes a mistake, his gaze fuels Yuuri and is a way of staying by his side, it is what Yuuri taught him. When Yuuri changed the 4T to his own signature move the 4F, he became extremely emotional and it urges him to surprise Yuuri the way Yuuri surprised him.

In the short time span from Yuuri performing 4F to Victor rushing up to kiss him, Victor arrived at the conclusion that there is no better way to surprise Yuuri than kissing him. It means that 1) they have never kissed before, or else a kiss wouldn’t be a surprise, and 2) without deep thoughts Victor reached this conclusion because he had subconsciously wanted to kiss Yuuri long before that.

Victor probably intentionally shielded their kiss from the audience’s watch with his arm. If he really didn’t mind letting people see them kiss, he could have kissed Yuuri for much longer even after they fell on the ice. But it was such a short kiss, it looks like Victor did take Yuuri’s feelings into consideration.

They pretty much silently confirmed their relationship in the car park, hence Yuuri’s sweet, joyful expression after the kiss - he was a bit shy but not flustered. Their interaction at the interview was so natural, as if they hadn’t just kissed in front of international media and spectators… Never mind Victor, who says Yuuri is mentally weak!

(Another comment on the thread: During the interview, Victor jumped in front of Yuuri to protect him even though Yuuri wasn’t distressed by the media at all, and he once again (!) showed Yuuri off to the reporters! Previously Yuuri looked super uncomfortable when he did that, but this time his Victor-you’re-doing-that-again face is! Just! So! Sweet!)

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