Wild Imagination
(Brahms x Nanny!Reader)
Tw: G/N reader, I just use ‘nanny’ as a catchall term, Angst, Typical Jealousy/Possessiveness, Stalking, a.k.a Brahms being Brahms, Alcohol Mention, also sort of a character study? Idk
So I remember I said something about writing for Brahms and this is sort of a warmup/experiment for him! This is fairly short too, so I may or may not make a followup but for now have this.
Dividers by delishlydelightfuldividers
Brahms is fascinated by you.
This is understandable; you are a kind, attractive person, and he has rarely seen those not only as fantasy manifested in the pages of a novel.
But it is also simply because you are you, and uniquely so. All of your preferences, habits, interests; every minute detail he commits to heart.
Brahms likes routine. Brahms likes structure. He watches closely and memorises you as if you are his favourite story; playing those special little moments over and over again in his head.
Only, in his make-believe world, he is right there with you. In spirit, he always is; the doll is by your side, therefore he is as well. He cherishes your presence within his home, he loves your cooking if only because it is made with genuine care, he enjoys your piano playing, whether masterful or amateurish. He falls asleep - however awkward his position behind the walls might be - to your soothing voice reciting poetry to the doll, as if those porcelain eyelids might be closed.
But that isn’t the same as being with you truly, really, physically. That doll; his child persona, is a barrier separating you from him, perhaps even more than his place between his walls. All his little games he likes to play, you assume to be nothing more than a figment of your wild imagination. He has become so attached to you, but you don’t even know he exists.
Sometimes Brahms wonders what it would be like to be with you as the man. To welcome you into his home, as he should have when you were hired. To play the violin or cello or piano for you and impress you with his musical virtuosity. To hold you in his arms - a real human being, not only a sub-par effigy of your likeness - and softly read along with you. To conceal a laugh at your momentary fright as his cold hands run goosebumps down your spine. To be your Darcy or Rochester or Heathcliff.
But… No. He must be good. He must stay hidden.
He reminds himself of this every passing day, but by every passing day his desire to have you see him, as Brahms, in the flesh and blood and sweat, grows stronger and stronger.
His need for this surges, rather violently, when he sees you smiling and laughing with that damn Malcolm - only at the door, because you are a good nanny and follow the rules as you should - for he is reminded so unpleasantly that you will never smile or laugh for him. Not for him, not for Brahms the man, flesh and blood and sweat.
Brahms’ resentment for this fact soon bubbles over, soon he feels a sort of hateful jealousy directed at that doll and how beloved it is; for he is not scarred or ‘odd’ or wrong, not a failure of a son or a disappointment. He is ‘Brahms,’ without flaws, without blemishes, without room to embarrass or bring shame. Silent and perfect forever.
Now he cocoons you in his wool knit cardigan, safe from the outside world. Although you might struggle, he knows you need him as much as he needs you; you must, for all the nights you have imbibed wine and spilled your deepest secrets to him. To the doll, to a figment of your imagination. But it was him the whole time, and now he has revealed himself to you for you to love as deeply as you did that broken bundle of porcelain.
He loves you. You do too, right?
I didn’t tag any of my usuals bc I didn’t know who would want it but lmk if you want to be on my slasher x list!
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RAHHHHH, THESE ARE SOME UHHH, UHHHHHHHHH, DRAWINGS IVE DONE IN 2022 THAT I DIDN'T SHARE HERE. THEY ARNT IN ORDER SOOOOOOOO, ANYWAYS, ENJOY TACK!!! <3
AND LAMQOOQOQOWI I CAN'T KEEP MU PROMISES BUT I WILL TRY, I WILL TRY TO UP MORE, (I'm mostly active in discord) SKAKAKKAKA ANYWAYS I LOVE U ALL YAYAY HAPPY /LATE NEW YEAR LMAO
-also joby, germ, or lizzy if u see this,, I'm still watching you 🤨
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i really love the fact that johnny silverhand is presented as this cool badass in all of the cyberpunk trailers like he's such a sick rebel wake the fuck up samurai we've got a city to burn!!
but as soon as he's introduced into the game he's this washed up rock n roll loserfreak who enjoys noir films and bad jokes and would send posers flying into the sun if he could. it doesn't get better than this
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