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wumbsie · 8 months

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Twitter anon here, I was never like someone really but I was there for the tea discourse of 2021 was it? Somewhere along thereabouts

oh my goodness anon youre a VETERAN. i salute you for your place in that discourse

#thank you for supporting me also <3 tbh even if youre not someone i spoke to #i probably still recognise you #i remember a lot of accs from back then!!!#i like how im talking about this like its been a decade #ask

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hamsterwalled · 5 months

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I like Serizawa a normal amount (lie) I don't think about him and his backstory and his development all the time (lie) I don't think about how he's one of the first people to truly understand what Mob went through after getting all of Mob's emotions and memories blasted at him in the Culture Tower (lie) I don't think about how he might be the only person besides Dimple that knows everything about Mogamiland (and he actually knows more than Dimple because he saw EVERYTHING) (lie) I don't ever think about how he would have ended up being so different if he'd had a good support system growing up (this is not to say that I hate his mom she was trying her damnedest and the claw thing isn't really her fault she just wanted the best for him) (lie) I never ever think about serizawa and his mom reconnecting and how emotional that must have been (lie) I don't think about him growing his confidence while working at S&S and finally growing to be more independent after relying on Toichirou and Claw and his umbrella for so long (lie) I don't think about how he still uses an umbrella as a shield in the last/second to last episode (THE PARALLELS BETWEEN HIM DEFENDING REIGEN WHEN SERIZAWA FIRST MEETS HIM AND HIM DEFENDING HIM IN THE LAST FEW EPISODES. ALSO I WISH SERIZAWA HAD HAD A MOMENT WITH MOB LIKE EVERYONE ELSE UGH THAT WOULD HAVE MADE ME BAWL SO MUCH HARDER THAN I DID) (lie) Yeah I'm so normal about him I don't think about him that much (lie)

#i think that we as a society do not talk about Serizawa's complete dependence on Toichirou and how much it must have taken #to betray him and defend Mob and Reigen and Shou #like. HELLO??#that man had been so toxically dependant on Suzuki for like probably at least a decade #he literally became a terrorist because he blindly trusted this man so much #also can we talk about the parallels between Mob's blind trust in Reigen and Serizawa's blind trust in Suzuki?#obviously Reigen is a much better person than Suzuki but the parallels are there nonetheless #did you notice that i got sick of spelling out toichirou and just went with suzuki? cause i did #i hate typing out Toichirou #its not even hard jts just a pain in my ass #mp100 #also i know that deep down both Mob and Serizawa knew that the people they believed were lying that just adds another parallel #actually wait did mob know #i dont remember #im pretty sure he sort of did #or at least ???% him did

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monismochi · 9 months

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Idk who needs to hear this but like

Nothing about jimins and jungkooks relationship is performative and whatever the heck it is (familial, platonic, romantic, etc etc etc) it's undeniably real and the only thing that keeps me with faith in humanity

#also pls bring hobi home bc jimins doing the lords work without him and its unfair #but FOR REAL #he flew across the globe for 3 or so days in nyc #2 of which were spent with jungkook like theres literally nothing else he could've been there for besides just supporting koo from the side #AND WE SAW THIS EXACT SHIZ GO DOWN WHEN JIMIN WAS DOING HIS CB AND LITERALLY ALL JK COULD DO WAS TALK ABOUT HIS JIMIN HYUNG #they are so fond and im so fond and pls #i want whatever tf is going on between them #as its been a decade and ive never seen 2 people more commited to the others happiness and this ladies and gents #is how you show people you care #minguk #like dear Gosh theyre so fcking cute someone pls stop them im lonely #jikook #mimi #gukkie

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lecliss · 4 months

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Wait while I'm here lemme say something that's been on my mind for like 2 weeks at least. So, Yahiko was alive when Obito first came to Ame and talked to Nagato. The canonical ages of Obito and Nagato in shippuden are 31 and 35 respectively. So the ame orphans are all 4 years older than Obito. Considering Yahiko died at 15, the oldest Obito could be when meeting Nagato is..... 11. When did Obito have his death scare and meet Madara before leaving for Ame??? When he was 13. Sooooo... unless I somehow got something wrong, and please correct me if I did, Kishimoto is once again a hack fraud.

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spacedlexi · 1 year

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thinking more about tlou hbo and that ep2 cold open

while it was very good and effectively frightening.... with how theyve handled fedra/the fireflies so far im a little nervous they might be setting it up for the fireflies to be 100% in the wrong later instead of it being less clear cut like it was in the game...

#hbo tlou #what tlou fandom has been arguing over for a decade #which is annoying bc whether or not the vaccine works isnt even the point of the ending #also i have to keep in mind that we're getting part 2 as well so theyll have to set.... all of That up.....#the show has been very good but the parts i didnt like i Really didnt like #2/2 eps with endings that made me go 😬#im really afraid about sam and henry do NOT fuck them up craig #also in regards to my last hbo tlou post:#to the people saying 'it was SUPPOSED to be uncomfortable' would they have done that with a male character? im not so sure #just weird to assault ur female character in her last moments regardless of the 'welcome to the colony' vibe u were going for #i said i didnt care that they swapped out fedra for the zombies but also its weird how theyre handling fedra #and it wouldve been good to see more conflict between fedra and the fireflies outside the qz #it speaks #ok i think ive talked abt my biggest gripes #there are smaller ones but im being kind bc overall its been very good #also knowing that tess's character had already gone through rewrites for the og game im not surprised they took liberties with her scene #also while the show has been very good i do still think the story/characters/pacing were handled better in the game #which i like actually like the show has been nice for new viewers but also new stuff for og fans #and the game is still just a cut above so its worth checking out for any new fans #the performances in the game......are just so incredible #from everyone #and the game has so much more subtlety lol #joel looking at his watch directly he might as well have just taken out a pic of sarah and started crying #the unconscious touch of the watch hits me harder than him just looking at it...#oopsie im talking about the little grievances #bro i just love subtlety and i feel like its being lost these days #subtext my beloved

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the-acid-pear · 7 months

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today's prompts are spiders and self insert so i've been thinking of drawing nembone and a uh, bunger. but Im still thinking around the uh. ? i cant remember the word HELP the fucking COMPOSITION there.

#luly talks #i was thinking of formating it like a parody of a flash or mobile game where the character is like FEED ME x =D but i cannot find like #references.#btw another ideas i had was doing ONLY self insert and make a character select screen with my sonas #first i thought of a gif where you'd change selection making the border shine and the character change expression and get color #(otherwise they'd be greyed out) and then i thought of doing a more classic smash bros like character screen #but those two ideas would be too hard #i also thought of something more simple like just. my fursonas hugging yuri style #and then i was like no lets go back to nembone (my og idea as mentioned yesterday on the tags of my art post)#and i was CONVINCED today the prompt was path and i was gonna make a very cool scene with Nembone and Keabin sitting on a bar #and i hope yall know why i hope yall are tuned in with the completely neglected bugsnax oc luly lore but in case youre not first of all #shame on you but second its bc keabin actually is my save where ppl DIE #and i spoke in a post that i think is in my oc blog or maybe my self ship one either way im sure is crossposted on both but i spoke about #how fucking Low Nembone would be in a post Shelda's death path <- eh eh get it get it that's where the prompt plays!!#they'd also be saying something about wishing things could've been different or something #it'd have been a cool drawing and a great excuse to draw my guy keabin who has been borderline fucking retconned otherwise but hey #its not the prompt. so.#idk what i will do for tomorrow btw i dont have many complicated fits ocs juan has been in my brain for close to a decade or more #and he has never wore anything but a green tshirt and some pants #but ill figure something i might do Bloody #or i might double the fuck down and if i do bloody i can tie spiders to her and do nembone and keabin today #it is cringetober after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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luxraydyne · 1 year

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note to self, new policy change. whenever i accidentally stumble into a conversation about aini and i have to justify my dislike of it somehow, i’m offering one answer and one answer only: It’s Boring.

#im sorry im sorry i want to love it but its just soooo friggin boring im so bored and uninspired with it #the simulation stuff looks and sounds very flashy but its so vapid theres nothing there whats it for what is the story saying with it #what is even the point. nothing it is there to exist the writing has no opinion on it other than its a cool trick #and its not even that cool of a trick these days maybe a decade ago but in this economy? its been done so much #mizuki is boring all the returning characters are Boring the world is boring the villains are boring the motifs are wasted #ryuki and tama couldve been so good and expansive wrt to the first games ideas. but theyre not its boring #most of the somniums are boring (apart from the ost which is still good) half the comedy is boring #i really really dont want to be mean about it but i just cant make myself interested in talking abt it im BORED #i cant even get that animated abt the ableist stuff and the weirdness towards teenage girls cause its bad in such a tired hackneyed way lol #i keep trying to imagine experiencing this from the pov of someone whos never played a single vn let alone an anime vn or an uchi product #and like. itd be so confusing. id be like 'man i dont get it what was that even'#and not even in a 'have have so many Thoughts abt this i cant make them coherent' way more like 'i cant think anything at all abt this'#it demands knowledge of the genre to grasp whats happening but if you have that experience then it becomes more of the same #it feels so weirdly sanitised for some reason. it makes me yearn for indie games #so there's all of that hooha. and then. LOOK how they MASSACRED my BOY.

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mbat · 4 months

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not looking forward to christmas anymore

#ignore me #vent #my post #i was supposed to make the pudding that my mom used to make that she hadnt made in like a decade and i was so excited to #but my grandma practically barged into my room like 'hey give me the pudding mix im anxious i need to make sure this all gets done' and #i dont know how to say no to my grandma so i handed them over but now ive been crying on and off for over 2 hours #my dads like 'oh just do the other steps its fine' no its fucking not. its fucking not fine it was meant to be me #we all had designated foods to fucking make that was meant to be mine. it was my moms fucking recipe i wanted to fucking make it all myself #and i dont care how immature it is of me but im gonna fucking sabotage it when everyone asleep i dont care #ill eat a whole cake all by myself i dont fucking care #yes im actually having a whole breakdown about this this was so important to me and its fucking ruined #i had that pudding mix in my room for over a year waiting to make it #i dont fucking care that theyre gonna be mad at be this wasnt going to be fucking fun anyway #every holiday fucking feels like nothing anymore what does it matter #i wanted to make it so bad i was so excited i wanted to feel connected to my mom again i wanted to do the process #i literally cant fucking do anythijg im so upset #i was literally so close to fucking breaking something or hurting myself earlier im so fucking upset #and i swear on my life do NOT send me messages or asks dont fucking talk to me #alternatively tomorrow i could go to the store myself and get more pudding idk #i refuse to let this be the first time this puddings made in forever and it wasnt made by me you dont fucking get it #its one of the best things ive ever eaten and it was my moms and shes gone and #its part of my fucking childhood memories it was everything to me #my grandma just wanted to make it cause she cant fucking sit still or be patient. wheres the fucking love wheres the fucking connection #the moment the sun rises i dont fucking care im walking the the fucking mile and a half in whatever temperature itll be

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reptileguts · 5 months

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remembered t*rkey lost the election again

#yes im caffienated again yes its making me think about politics instead of focusing on my work #everything is so bleak man #im convinced at this point we’re never voting him out hes just going to have to die at some point. but even after that then what?? what is #even left??definitely nothing resembling the economy!is there a sliver of chance you can undo 2 decades (and more!) worth of brainwashing #like sometimes i have to remind myself that not every country has been constantly going backwards in every aspect when im talking with frie #ds and its frustrating that this is how it is and the one chance we had got blown away because some raisin had too much pride to accept #that he is no one’s favorite politician #delete later #< can’t forget we don’t have freedom of speech :* xoxo

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sagxshi · 8 months

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i fucking hate everything about applying for mcat fee assistance this shit fucking sucks fuck the aamc

#splatter speaks #personal //#dont rb///#like. the whole thing is super fucking classist. its not enough to say that youre poor and submit like tax returns. no they want like 15 #goddamn documents. they want some from each parent (even if you dont live with them. i havent lived with my dad in decades and they still #wanted like. welfare statements. ). i actually just had to resubmit a bunch of forms bc they werent Precise enough.#it took me fucking MONTHS!!! to get everything together thanks to bureaucratic nonsense!!!#i started this application in JUNE. it is now SEPTEMBER.#like listen i wouldve given up if it werent for how fucking much i want to pursue medicine.#i stfg they do this on purpose to prevent poor people from applying.#this would be so helpful. like it means i dont have to pay as much to send each school app later (it costs hundreds per school). and it #also drops the price of the MCAT exam itself from $330 to $150.#i dont plan on taking it more than i have to but still. any little bit helps.#listen idk this turned into a whole ass rant. plus i have work tomorrow and i spent like 3 hours precharting bc we have 47 fucking patients #tomorrow for some fucking reason. who the fuck decided that would be ok. we normally see high 30s if that.#oh and this isnt even touching the fact i have to write a second essay talking about why i identify as like. a marginalized group. like. im #fucking disabled dude. why are you making it Harder for disabled people and not making the abled people write about why THEY should get in.#jk i know why!!! its ableism!!!!#jesus christ. im so drained. like yall i just want to be a forensic pathologist SO BAD. ive been aiming for that since high school #i know medicine is a horrible field rn but like. i genuinely want to do it.#anyways idk how else to say it. plus my hands hurt from typing all this

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straykats · 9 months

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started thinking about qpps again last night,,

#the first time i was introduced to the convept was like. almost a decade ago ig 💀💀#but then stuff happened lol and i forgpt about it but recently ive been reminfef of of it again #anf like. when i first heard about it it was a hella neat concept (?) to me and even now it still is #but i dont. idk like idk hoe to navigate it #i hardly know how to navigate my own sexuality and i think ?? theres some overlap here #but anyways idk.#this might sound bad but sometimes i feel like theres such a string need to identity yourself and to understand urself in the current day #and i get so caught up in trying to understand myself that i just confuse myself more?#but i also completely understand the.. the need for people to feel understood etc #im doing a horrible job explaining ehat i mean anf idk if anyone cal tell hoe these points are interconnrcted #but anyways. many fears and worries across the board #also lits of introgue and curiosity #but my heaf is not big enough for this rn #kats personal #???#kat talks #ANYWAYS if anyone read all of this lol and wants to idk share some insight or smth thatd be neat HAHA #regarding qpps?#OKAY okay so i think my problem id that idk if i drift between birom or bisexuality or if like idk its a gender pref thing or or like idkidk #im STRRSGSHDJSJDJDJDJDJDN #bc there are defs time when i feel like the rom >>>>>>>>> over the sexuality #am i. gettin a bit too personal/tmi or amything here idk sorry guys #but then i also like. (more thoughts which i'll spare)#anyways. just felt that rambling about this would help me get it off my mind so i can go about my day hopefully 💀💀

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theriverdalereviewer · 1 year

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people of tumblr. i have made my stunning return.

#WHATS UP YALL?#I hope everyone is doing good and living their best life #so after what has felt like a decade I am finally officially graduating from my teaching program and inshallah becoming a teacher #I just finished my final year of internship and it was soooo sad #its crazy you don’t think your students like you or care about you and then.. you say goodbye and you realize.. like shit #seeing them upset and shocked and asking if I’ll come back man its the best and worst feeling :((#and my teachers wishing me luck and getting me gifts and telling me that I was BORN to do this #and like these were teachers who were my biggest critics #im nervous for my first year but for once I feel ready. and ive waited three years to finally feel like this #im also just really sad that I’ll be saying goodbye to my friends who have been with me in this program for five years #like we went through some of the best and worst times together and our group has become so tight #theres one guy I’ll miss a lot cause hes just someone who has been there for me and has always understood me #like we lived in the same dorm building together and didn’t know it #we were in the same classes together and never spoke to each other #and then we ended up interviewing together #and then we student taught together #and then we were constantly partnered and cried our frustrations together #and we would always have these conversations where we just saw into each other’s souls #like I remember during student teaching we just talked about how we realized that there was so much it took to engage the class #than what we were led to believe and that somedays class just couldn’t be super fun and engaging because of factors out of our control #and it was crazy we had that epiphany at the same time #and when we were out looking for jobs we just felt the exact same way about the search too #feeling overwhelmed and like we needed to push this off and then also feeling #like we’re not good enough and that it would be easier #EVERYTHING LITERALLY EVERYTHING!#my favorite personnnn ugh

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bitternanami · 2 months

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something i think is really interesting about dungeon meshi is the cast's respective views on food as the story progresses. the way many adventurers get through the dungeon is to eat when they Must, but mostly rely on healing magic to keep going when they're tired or beaten down. death is something you can buy your way out of, here.

having these lower stakes when it comes to running yourself too hard has made a lot of people in this setting kind of devalue food and what it does for you.

im not all the way through the manga yet, but so far i really like how it goes about debunking that mindset.

long post under the cut, cw explicit discussion of disordered eating. textual depiction of unhealthy methods of dealing with it. please be cautious!

it seems like to most folks, food is either a decadent luxury, like when the governor offers mr tance a feast as a show of power and wealth, (although he is the only one who actually eats in that scene as he talks about his ambitions);

[id: the governor and mr. tance talk politics and hierarchies, while the governor eats from a bowl. mr. tance's meal is not visible behind a speech bubble.

"so you believe the sorceror is an elf?" he asks.

"i can't say with absolute certainty," mr. tance replies, "but the spells are not ones dwarves and humans typically use." /end id]

like the painted-royal feasts laios tries to partake in that never actually nourish him...

[id: laios, fresh out of the living painting feast, surprisedly holding his grumbling stomach /end id]

or, to the working class, it's pretty much exclusively fuel. i'm thinking about the scene where kabru's party, ostensibly intended to be our view into how adventuring Typically goes for most people, is shown preparing to go to the dungeon by like. walking up to someone and ordering 'a weeks' worth of rations.' purely functional.

[id: kabru enters a store, and the merchant says "welcome!"

kabru says "i need a week's worth of rations for six, and two days' worth of water."

"sure thing." the merchant then reaches behind him and grabs a large cube-shaped package, wrapped in nondescript cloth and tied in place. it thumps onto the counter in front of them both. /end id]

when kabru hands mickbell his food for the trip, he complains about how heavy it is on his back. it's a necessary liability.

we also see chilchuck, in an early chapter where there isn't much food to go around, grumbling about how he used to be better at not noticing when he was hungry. he's frustrated that he's more attuned to his bodily needs, now that he's starting to fill them with regularity.

[id: chilchuck, the only one awake, sits in his bedroll and glares at the timekeeping-candle burning down in front of him while he listens to his stomach growl. moving to find his canteen and fill himself with water instead, he thinks to himself, "my stomach has gotten weaker. i used to be able to go two days without food." /end id]

(like im not even gonna lie this is a big mood. the healing process is really really annoying)

even laios, early on, working out the logistics of going back for falin, considers his expenses and ultimately the thing he decides to save money on is their food supply. like, even the guy most invested in eating as an experience kind of just assumes he will Figure It Out. its what hes eating, not how hes eating it that matters to him at that point.

[id: marcille looks down at the ingredients they've gathered, the walking mushroom and the scorpion in an unappetizing heap on the ground, and asks laios "so how exactly do we eat them?"

he responds "let's just cook them, like normal." /end id]

but its here that senshi introduces the idea of food as art and as healing. its exciting and its fascinating for laios, getting to taste the creatures hes been reading about and fighting, but i dont think it would ever really help him feel full if not for this.

[id: three panels of laios tasting the scorpion hotpot, looking stunned, and then excitedly telling senshi "delicious!"

senshi matches his energy, asking "isn't it? isn't it?" /end id]

pictured: guy who had resigned himself to kind of just doing his best rediscovers the joy in something tasting really fucking good

what they did last time isnt going to work. falin is gone, and constantly anesthetizing their pain and healing through their weakness is no longer a realistic option for the party. in order to make it through they must all relearn how to eat well, one by one and as a group over and over again, because its either that or nothing.

one of my favorite depictions of this idea thus far is when marcille is seriously low on health and mana, and both of these problems are mitigated by taking care of herself, and trying to get iron and protein

[id: marcille, looking sickly, wakes to laios saying, "marcille, marcille, can you sit up? we've got something nice for you."

she watches senshi grill pieces of kelpie liver on a low fire, while laios ties a bib around her neck. /end id]

and drinking a bunch of dead water spirits. she gets the idea, she's supposed to get in nutrients and it'll help her feel better, but in aiming for the quick, inefficient fix, namely chugging that shit down like she heard it was good to Stay Hydrated and decided that would be the thing that fixes her,

[id: marcille throws back a cup of boiled undine-water, her face red. laios asks, "do you really need to drink it that fast?"

she gasps out "...the magical energy stored in nature spirits is actually quite hard to absorb. even if you drink a lot, the majority of it is excreted without being absorbed," and takes another drink. "that's why i need to drink as much as i can."

laios says weakly "you'll get water poisoning," but marcille only stops when senshi puts a hand on her shoulder and says,

"it's easier to absorb nutrients if ye digest them with food. that's a fundamental rule of nutrition."

marcille says, "senshi..." contemplative

and he holds out a bowl of tentuclus and a thumbs up. "let's get cooking!" /end id]

she doesn't immediately realize the answer is that she needs more than that. she's been working hard. she needs care, and she needs nourishment.

once she gets that, though, she makes her boiled water into a stew, and she works to make that stew as good as she can, and everyone can have some.

because in dungeon meshi, to feed yourself or allow yourself to be fed is treated as performing a kindness for yourself. food is what propels you, but there is also an art and a joy inherent to the process of making it; in the way you feel when you've had enough to eat.

[id: senshi watches as chilchuck and marcille eat and excitedly hash out plans.

"i've got a good feeling about this! maybe it'll work out!" chilchuck says

marcille responds, "well it's easier to feel optimistic on a full stomach!"

senshi smiles, proud. /end id]

^^^ i want to put this image on my wall

when you're working through disordered eating habits, you really do have to keep learning this shit. (in my experience, learning about cooking is one of the best ways to do so.)

i'll have to see if my thesis holds up as i continue, but i think one of the reasons the portrayal here resonates with me so hard is that ryoko kui puts most of her characters at eye level with me on this. they're all working at it, too. the text and i are both commiserating, and encouraging each other, 'have some more, you'll feel better.'

#its late -_- idk if this fullly gets across what i mean but ive been thinking about this for weeks #dungeon meshi #recovery #cooking tag #disordered eating cw #im on chp 31 atm but im like. squinting and steepling my fingers looking for this theme as i go now

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maaaxx · 2 years

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my best friend is going to be having a baby in the middle of my final's week, as if im not going to be stressed out enough. (How dare she).

#I just realized that I never talk about this friend on here.#I think I brought her up on my discord server a few times but not on tumblr #I always talk about my other friend and hes the one that actually has tumblr and i live in fear daily that he might find me #but this friend doesnt know what tumblr or fanfiction or fandom is #shes very normal #so im not worried about her finding me.#at all #its so funny #i love her so much like shes been my best friend since i was literally nine years old #so we have almost a decade of friendship between us #and she was the first friend ive ever had #and so with how lonely ive been through out my life because i dont know how to talk to people #because im literally autistic #but she just sat down next to me on the bus one day and stole my barbies #and she stole my lunch #and weve been best friends ever since #it was so funny because she didnt do this in a bullying way #but like she would just always approach me and just take part in whatever i was doing wordlessly #and start talking about people #and it didnt occur to me for months that we were friends #and one day it just occured to me and i was like #oh:)))#thats nice #she was the first person i told when my therapist brought up that he thinks im autistic #like i wasnt even out of the room yet when i was dialing her number and crying #like 'they know whats wrong with me' :'))))#I love her so much she means so much to me #and shes having a kid!!!#i already love the kid so much too #max thinks shes relevant

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