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asexualbookbird · 11 months
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May wrap up time! After 254 hours I finished Breath of the Wild. Found 899 korok seeds and do not care enough to find the last. A little disappointed that you beat Ganon and that's it, no after game, but I guess that's what Tears of the Kingdom is for? I bought a few books I said I wouldn't, but it was my bookstores birthday and I must support them it's the Law. Would have liked to do more art, but I liked the stuff I accomplished! While the books were many, they were not as fun as last month. Though last month was so good it was hard to live up to it. I did manage to put a couple of reviews up on Goodreads though! That's exciting!
A Sky Beyond the Storm by Sabaa Tahir ⭐⭐⭐⭐A good ending to the series! Hit all the right nerves! Wish it didn't focus so much on the sexual relationships but whatever it was a satisfying conclusion!
A House With Good Bones by T Kingfisher ⭐⭐⭐⭐FUN! CREEPY! VULTURES!
A Gathering of Shadows by VE Schwab ⭐⭐A glorified prologue to book three. Laia would not fucking wear that.
Witchmark by CL Polk ⭐⭐⭐What the fuck was that ending lol somehow the romance was the only thing I truly liked and even that I had questions about.
Black Wings Beating by Alex London ⭐Birds wouldn't fucking do that. They climbed a mountain. They were thrown off the mountain. I wish they'd died.
Ninth House by Leigh Bardugo ⭐Why was THIS the most hyped book on tumblr in 2019, I KNOW there were better options. This review actually covered a lot of the problems I had. I don't think sexual assault should be used as shock value and this has too much of it lmao why the hell was Mercy cured of her trauma in like twelve hours what the fuck Bardugo
As I said in another post, I'm including Ninth House here because I can <3 And I read most of it in May so it feels weird including it in June. Time is fake anyway. Glad to have Black Wings Beating in the past hope it fades from my memory so I never have to think about it again. My favorite was probably A House With Good Bones, it seems T Kingfisher really knows exactly what I want in a book. Love me a good underground horror.
Don't forget to vote in my Best Book In May poll! I want to know what others think!
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trickstercheshi · 2 years
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Apparently tumblr didn't actually post this post I wrote right when I finished nona so time to go back and add some quotes.
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Ok I just finished nona and I'm going insane but, I wonder if mercymorn and Augustine and Gideon aren't the lyctors original names? Bc we know that's who Jod is talking about, but why censor them? Unless they were different and he changed them when the woke up.
My key piece of evidence for this is the bit where he talks about Ulysses and Titania and how he changed their names from the original. ALSO WILD THAT THEY WERE DEAD BEFORE HE MET THEM AND REVIVED WAY LATER
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My evidence:
So, my two kids, the guinea pigs, they were U— and T— on their certificates, you know, their old names. I thought about using those but it didn’t seem appropriate.
And then a bit later:
Let me introduce you to … Ulysses. Let me introduce you to … Titania.
Following these naming conventions that means all the lyctors had other names originally. I'm dying to know what they are.
And also trying to figure out who all the ppl he's referencing are:
He said, It was me and A— and M— at the start.
This one's pretty obviously Augustine and Mercymorn.
C— was brought on by the oversight execs for contracts, you know, checks and balances, but look where that ended up, she was on our side before the first year was over
This could be Cristabel, Cassiopeia, Cyrus, or Cytherea. (God why r there so many C names). Leaning towards Cristabel at this point just bc she goes with Mercymorn.
We even lent them G— at the time because they wanted to talk about coating.
This one's G1deon obviously.
C— was panicking because with the project over she was getting recalled to England and didn’t want to go, she’d got N— and didn’t want to leave her, refused to admit they were dating even though we all knew.
Ok so C is pretty obviously Cassiopeia at this point, and N is Nigella.
Interesting side note here, everyone mentioned so far is a necromancer, not cavelier (with the exception of N whose only referenced in relation to C.
we had a pet cop, P—. She’d made detective by that point; was going on to big things in the MoD. Knew G— from way back,
PYRRHA yasss baby
god her being a cop makes so much sense lmao.
C— was still pretending they weren’t dating—she was an artist, so that was cool. If you have two scientists and an engineer and a detective and a lawyer and an artist you’re pretty much sweet as.
Cassiopeia is the lawyer if we're going off of the earlier quote, so Nigella is the artist, Mercymorn and Augustine are both scientists, I'm p sure G1deon is the engineer, and Pyrrha is the detective obviously.
M— had brought in her best friend, the nun,
interestingly this person is always described as "M—'s nun, and never given a letter. It could definitely be Cristabel, especially given that we can't use C— twice without it being hella confusing, but I'm wondering if John chose not to revive her afterwards for some reason so she's not actually anyone. There's this weird distance to how he describes her vs the other ppl: "the nun", "our nun", "M—'s nun" vs everyone's name. (He would be that petty).
My other theory is that M—'s nun is ANASTASIA. Again, can't use A a second time, she's obviously smart as hell and gets him to figure out the soul, which hello our Anastasia almost perfected the actual lyctoral process, and obviously the ninth house is full of nuns. Plus, he trusted her to watch over Alecto and seal the tomb, who better then the person that showed you she existed in the first place?
And then A— brought in his little brother who was a hedge fund manager. A— Junior was useless but he was a darling,
We know from HTN that this is Alfred.
That's everyone whos mentioned by name so to speak. But one other interesting initial bit:
he made a pothook—J—then the finned spine of E. He wiped that E clean, and replaced it with A. He wiped that clean, and he drew the prison bars of H. This J and H he barred around with an uneven heart.
J for John, and then that would be Earth, then Alecto presumably, then Harrow.
This almost all of the lyctors. The only pairs not mentioned or possibly alluded to is Cyrus and Valency and Cytherea and Loveday. I'm wondering if they were part of the original preserved bodies since John mentioned there were more than just the two he named initially. Ig they could be randomly resurrected people, especially given the timeline of lyctoral assension.
I'm sad Cytherea wasn't in this at all I would have loved to find out more about who she was.
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cnedirecticn · 6 months
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top 9 books ✨️
@lvnchs tagged me to post my top 9 (all time favourite) books; different books by the same author count as one book, that's them rules afshdjfk 🤭
don't expect any proper thoughts about any of these, i'll just go !!! and afshdk because not to be like that but i'm henry cheng when it comes to stuff like this haha
1. all for the game by nora sakavic
neil "i'm fine" josten my beloved, he has a bit of an attitude problem and also you know, he gets it !!! (if you've never read this series before i don't recommend it but if you did let's be best buds lmao)
2. six of crows duology/ninth house by leigh bardugo
my favourite type of men are bloodied and beaten bastards and especially bastards of the barrel !! i just love all the characters and their relationships and how they develop over the span of the books and the magic, magic immer gut !!
and yeah i'm obviously a very character driven story loving person, ninth house is once again a perfect example for that; i love the magic and the death words and all that kind of stuff !
3. the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater
not to repeat myself but once again it's the characters that make me love those books so much, obviously ronan my bestest beloved;
4. malibu rising/the seven husbands of evelyn hugo by taylor jenkins reid
taylor jenkins read is one of my favourite authors of all time, when she publishes a new book it's an immediate buy (excluding that one mess of a book); i love how she created her own universe and how characters from each book show up in other books of hers; i love the riva family but i'm a proud member of the mick riva hate club 👋🏻; the seven husbands of evelyn hugo is amazing, i loved getting to know evelyn and her story, her various husbands and her wife 🥺
5. the starless sea/the night circus by erin morgenstern
i love books that make me go !!! and erin morgernstern's books always make me go !!! afshdjfk the night circus is a favourite because of the atmosphere and the different circus characters and seeing how everything comes together and the starless sea does kind of the same but on a different level, i think, i recently reread it and i just... idk it's so much fun to read it for the first time and trying to see how everything connects and then you read it again and you know how everything connects and it makes you go !!! and yeah
6. in memoriam by alice winn
definitely one of my favourite books i've read this year; fair warning though: don't get attached to any characters 🫠
7. little fires everywhere/everything i never told you by celeste ng
one of my favourite authors as well (excluding that one book again atshdkf); i love getting to know (fucked up) families and see their dynamics playing out throughout a book
8. the hunger games trilogy by suzanne collins
every couple of years i reread it after seeing one too many masterposts and rants etc on tumblr and spiral and i love that for me, honestly
9. heartstopper series by alice oseman
i just 🥺 they make me feel warm and i love that i love healthy and loving and communicating gays and not just bastard gays haha not but seriously, these books are amazing and they cover important topics very well and i wish i had them when i was a baby gay but i'm glad i have them now
i tag @floralotp @foolishlovers @ltpolari @holyshit @goldenxsunshine @proudlarents and any of my followers who are bookworms and want to do this (because i love getting book recs and also people talking about their favourite things !!) 🩷
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preciouslandmermaid · 2 years
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I see that you like The Bear, The Sandman, WWDITS but are there other shows you also like? I’m in desperate need of tv shows recommendations and seeing how we have the same taste I would love to know what other shows you love to watch! I also don’t know if you’ve watched it but I think you might like Succession (if you don’t please ignore this part lol)
Okay. I always feel like the worst when it comes to recommendations because things stay in my brain for 5-7 business days and then vanish or get completely rose colored by nostalgia.
It’s six in the morning I’m not gonna put too much detail.
Good Omens
Our Flag Means Death
Ted Lasso
Itaewon Class (Kdrama)
I have a soft spot for Doctor Who (ninth doctor to the 11th but then I stopped watching after the Ponds left).
New Girl
Peaky Blinders (haven’t finished this one but cillian murphy bark bark)
Bridgerton
Bobs Burgers
Haunting of Bly Manor / Midnight Mass / Haunting of Hill House (Hill House has such a special place in my heart for how Flanagan captures grief.)
Brooklyn 99 (I still haven’t watched the final season hahah)
Mindhunter
that’s all my brain can think of LOL
also. I’ve heard about Succession! Maybe I’ll try it 👀but everytime i think about it, i think about a tumblr post that’s like “succession fans rb a photo of a boardroom and are like ‘blorbo from my show’” or something LMAO.
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thunderon · 3 years
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ok. Ok. Sent you an ask a bit ago assuming some things about Ninth naming conventions and Matthias Nonius and after reading 1 tumblr post and 3 google searches later, I have realized I was totally and obviously wrong on a lot of counts. In other news- according to Wikipedia, Nona is a goddess who’s part of the Fates and ‘spun the thread of life from her distaff to spindle’, and was often prayed to in the ninth month of pregnancy. There was a banner at the top asking for more credible sources though so this should probably be taken with a grain of salt. In other other news, I found the first page of gtn’s guide to naming conventions and “your last name always indicates the House you were born in, and is regarded as a part of your name: this is why Abigail Pent is known as both “Lady Abigail” and “Lady Pent” in a way that never would have been typical before the Resurrection: both Abigail and Pent are referent to her.” From this and the following paragraph (which mostly talks about siblings’ last names), I feel pretty safe assuming that it’s pretty rare to have the exact same last name as someone else, even if that someone else is already dead and/or it’s a legacy name. I’m going to guess that in the Ninth, it’s pretty common to take (a probably dead and venerated) someone’s name and use it as a base for new names. Ex.: Matthias Nonius -> Priamhark Noniusvianus, and Nona (last name unknown, although it is weird that the name we have right now could also function as a last name) -> Harrowhark Nonagesimus. Not so much of a direct example, but also Samuel Novenary -> Pelleamena Novenarius. Harrowhark knowing herself as the 87th Nona suggests there’s a lot of formality to this process. Also notable if I’m right on this: Nigella Shodash -> Ortus Nigenad. Nigella is a genus of plant who’s name comes from (according to Wiktionary) the nigellus, which comes from the Latin word for black, which I’m pretty sure is the same word Nigenad comes from, because I don’t know how else it could refer to the Ninth House/Black Vestals.
Finally, last pattern I noticed in my googling spree of Ninth last names is that 4/7 names seem to have a distant attachment to celestial navigation. Gideon Nav- nav as in navigation, also seems to be the root word for a lot of Latin words relating to ships and sailing; Matthias Nonius- a nonius was a device for taking finer measurements on an astrolabe, named after its’ inventor, Pedro Nunes/Petrus Nonius, a mathematician/cosmographer; Harrowhark Nonagesimus- nonagesimal can mean ‘the highest point or ninetieth degree of the elliptic intersecting with the horizon’. Ngl I don’t fully get what this means but it sounds like the sort of thing that would come in handy when you’re navigating by the sky; Harrow Nova- nova’s use as a distance indicator has it’s own subsection on the nova Wikipedia page. Nona isn’t a last name, but it is where the word noon comes from (nona hora -> ninth hour), when the sun is at it’s peak in the sky, which is probably something that has a lot of uses in celestial navigation, so it probably deserves a shoutout. All of this is very red-string and conspiracy corkboard but it’s weird and noticeable enough that I feel there’s a high chance it was purposeful. Also on the corkboard is that a sextant is ‘an instrument with a graduated arc of 60° and a sighting mechanism, used for measuring the angular distances between objects and especially for taking altitudes in navigation.’ which isn’t related to the point, but supports my 69 agenda. Anyways! Sorry for the two paragraphs of rambling but I felt the need to redeem myself after getting Ninth naming conventions so wrong, and then I fell down the research rabbit hole and here we are. Hope you’re having fun on your hiatus! And that this one is more safe for bears.
edit to add this: in the gtn content glossary or somewhere i think it stated that it’s really abnormal that two people take on the same last name, and if they do they have a ‘unit name’ (like the tridentarii). im going to verify that later when im less exhausted
oh i totally misunderstood the naming conventions as well. i just didnt redeem myself like you did lmao. but thanks so much for sharing your findings!!!!! that was interesting to read this in-depth breakdown :) ive never actually sat down and defined all the names but im extremely glad you did. great stuff really!!!!!
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I was in a toxic friendship
I want to preface this by saying I am so much happier right now and I am no longer friends with this person. Haven’t seen or heard from her in over a year. I also want to be clear this was a friendship I had in real life, not tumblr. I think however this story’s lessons can be applicable across the board to online friendships and even relationships with family members. Please, if you ever feel belittled by your “friends,” and you bring it up to them and they brush it aside and think you’re overreacting, it’s not a friendship. 
I was friends with this person, let’s call her Stacy, for about ten years before I realized I no longer wanted to speak to her or be her friend. I met her in the ninth grade and we bonded over Disney World and other things and I could talk to her about anything, including this huge crush I had on a twelfth grade boy. She came over to my house sometimes, though not a lot, and as high school wore on we started going to the mall together, stuff like that. I went to college in a different city and she came to visit me sometimes, and we even worked at the same theme park, though different departments. For all intents and purposes this was my best friend, though Stacey got upset when I also called my cousin my best friend, even though she spoke of her sister as her best friend.
She got a boyfriend when we were both around 21/22 or so, I think we were both juniors in college, though she took a semester off because she hated school and thought it was weird I was a double major. She told me her boyfriend was thirty and she met him at work. I thought the age gap was a little big, but I wasn’t one to judge. Later on I found out he was 36 and she told me she lied because she was worried how I would react. I met him and I thought he was nice, but when she got engaged when we were both around 23, I had only met him that one time for a birthday dinner she had, and my mom and dad told me they thought it was kind of strange. They also said it was weird to them whenever I hung out with Stacey it was only for like an hour, two at most, especially since my cousin and I could spend days and day together at sleepovers, chilling and being ourselves, interpretative dancing, lol. Privately I also found it odd I could talk to Stacey about anything, but when I asked questions about her life and her thoughts she’d barely talk. Her grandma passed away, she loved visiting my grandma because she could have one through me. One day I broke down and admitted my grandmother is a narcissist, and she is different behind closed doors. she berates me, used to call me fat, berated me. Stacey didn’t believe me. I can’t say when she started not being such a good presence in my life, but these were some seeds, and it got worse--slow at once and then all at once as they say.
Anyway, I was a bridesmaid of hers and her sister was the maid of honor--a mutual friend was another bridesmaid and there was one more (super sweet girl and I don’t even think Stacy talks with her much anymore either LMAO) and at this point in my life I was really into my first fanfic IWD. I was consumed with it, to put it bluntly. This is another story entirely but I spent so much of my college career as an English major writing for academia, and when I was finally writing something for me, I bloomed. I talked to her about it and she kind of laughed about this Cullen person but she liked to read fanfic herself so was whatever about me doing it. I shared with her my first piece of commissioned art and she laughed at Lydia thinking Lydia was just me, and I told her, no, she wasn’t, she’s based off of several old hollywood ladies and I actually made her avatar in game, but she wouldn’t believe it. I actually ended up saying “would you think this if I were white and she were white as well” and she laughed and didn’t understand. Needless to say the whole incident rubbed me the wrong way. I ignored it. Her wedding happened, her sister made a good speech, then when all the groomsmen did a speech for the groom the other Bridesmaids and I thought we had to do something, so we got up there and made an impromptu speech. I called her my sister and I told her I loved her. I didn’t know it then, but I didn’t believe her when she said “love you too.”
I wanted to go back to school, and I ended up in a Masters program after the wedding. My summer semester, my first, went well, starting in June and ending in July. I finished IWD and went to another fic, Stacey making fun of Sophie, my OC for that fic too, because I just straight up made her part Hawaiian like I am. When I told her I had little representation growing up other than like Lilo and Stitch and now Moana, (which I don’t like TBH but another story lol.) she asked me what the big deal was about that. Why did it matter that no main character ever looked as I looked? I couldn’t explain to her how much writing a character who was like me in a fanfic mattered. We planned on going to Disney World, me, her, her sister, and the other bridesmaid, but don’t post anything on facebook because she didn’t want to invite the other other bridesmaid. I wanted to go to a nightclub with her for my birthday but she didn’t want to go because her sister couldn’t enter, so after my whole family, plus her and her husband ate at my favorite restaurant, she went home even after I begged her to come with my and my cousin. She said it was stupid. Also, her husband was a huge ass to wait staff. Alarm bells went off for all of us.
But I was looking forward to Disney in December that year. (2018) I didn’t have a job at the time but was actively looking. Well, I got a job after interview after interview at restaurants that wouldn’t hire me, my dream job researching Shakespeare. It fell through. (I was promised to actively help the professor research, it fell through.) She paid for the trip without me knowing and I had to pay her back 800 dollars on writing commissions which I severely underpriced. because I was worried no one would pay otherwise. School wasn’t going well. Put it simply I felt really dumb and stupid and like I didn’t belong, (we were reading Ulysses!!!) which I later learned was a common sentiment with my classmates who began the same time as I. I will admit my relationship with academia is rocky at the moment, but I genuinely do love to write, love to research, love to make discoveries about new texts. Stacey saw how stressed I was and sad and got angry I was so sad, and asked why was I in school anyway Am I going to be on my deathbed and wished I studied harder? I didn’t have the energy to tell her it wasn’t about “studying harder,” it was that I loved writing and reading and wanted to be a part of academia. Learning makes me happy, expanding my mind. She belittled me anyway, thinking getting a Masters was dumb and I wouldn’t get a good job.
At Disney World I was so happy. I hadn’t been there since I was a child. She made fun of me for wanting to meet Ariel, for wanting to ride Soaring and being afraid to check grades when a classmate said they were up. I got so stressed I cried at the Japan pavilion at Epcot and stress ate sauerbraten at the Germany pavilion (Amazing by the way, I love German food.) She basically dictated the entire trip--we went to Universal for Harry Potter World at her request and refused to ride the spider man ride with me (it was fucking fun too-girl missed out.) All she wanted to do was stand around in Harry Potter world all day, (LOL now right?) I wasn’t that big of a Potter fan anymore, even at that point, and she told me I was going to stay there anyway and like it. She dictated the entire trip and when I questioned her about it she said I wasn’t listening to to her--we were following the agenda. Our last day there we went to a “Hawaiian” restaurant and made a comment about my “Hawaiian privileges.” I just didn’t have the heart to tell her that the crap we ate didn’t hold a candle to real Hawaiian luau food.
When we got back I was mentally drained and melancholic because I wondered why Stacey was so cruel to me. She always had a biting wit, but before it seemed playful. Now it was cruel, mocking. She made me feel so incredibly stupid. At this point my cousin got engaged and I cried because I wanted so badly to be in love with someone and get married. I was angry and I lashed out at people I shouldn’t have. I was later diagnosed as depressed. I felt like my life was at a standstill and matters with Stacey didn’t help. I also had a huge writing crisis--I told Stacey something I will always remember and always regret because she doesn’t deserve to know: I write the romances I want because no man wants me.  At this point, Stacy turned me into her project. She didn’t like how sad I was at Disney World, it put a bummer on her trip, and when I told her she seemed off she brushed it off. Her plan was to get me on dating apps and basically settle for anyone, even though I had used apps before and don’t like them, but when I got back on Bumble she basically patronized me and told me she was proud of me and “small steps.” On bumble, I wanted to vomit. (for the record, I am not against dating apps, I know success stories, but at that time I was not emotionally ready to date.) Also, she would teach me to drive so I could go on dates, but only in my Dad’s truck. 
I wish I could say I broke it off, that I told her not to talk to me again, but Stacey stopped talking to me first. However. the day she stopped was when I told her she was wrong and I wouldn’t listen to this anymore. What happened? I mentioned I was demisexual.  She said it wasn’t real. I said it was real to me--I don’t experience sexual attraction unless I have bonded with someone. Sure there are people I like to look at, but it’s not a sexual attraction. She asked about my crush on Tom Hiddleston, Cullen, “that robot guy” and was like yeah you’re sure demi, and lol it’s not real. It wasn’t just her words, it was the mocking indifference. 
I went off. I told her she didn’t have the right to tell me what was in my brain or how I felt. I knew who I was and who I am. I should have also told her I wasn’t her project, but I left her that day and it was the last time I saw her.
I talked to my dad that night and mentioned it to him, being demi, and you know what he told me? I think I’m the same way. I think I almost cried. 
I tried to talk to her again but she didn’t want to see me. She had “personal issues and was busy” I pissed her off. Good, I say now. But after this happened in March of 2019 I thought I had no friends. She was my only friend, and I lost another mutual friend (one we went to Disney with) because she knew Stacey longer than she knew me. But you know what happened in April? My cousin asked me to be her maid of honor and I fucking wept, because there was my best friend--my sister all along. Just because she lives in another city and we are growing up and it took me longer to figure out my career than her doesn’t change the fact that we have a bond that can’t be broken. My cousin is one of my favorite people and if you know her you love her--it is impossible not to. And when I told her about my fanfic and about being demi she wanted to know, wanted to listen. School got better too--I started chatting in class more and come to find out, one of my classmates also broke up with a toxic friend. God I love her and I miss her--wish I could see her. (thanks COVID) 
There was more, but this was a lot, and I spent more time writing this than I thought I would. I wanted to write it because seeing a few posts float around made me remember, and I want ya’ll to know, leaving a friendship is scary. Sometimes it can be worse than leaving a lover. But it is a brave thing to do. Part of me that knew I should have left at the first racist comment (oh yeah, she called me a pineapple one day before the Disney trip, did I mention it’s a slur for Hawaiian people? If my grandma were there she would have clobbed her.) but I stayed because I didn’t think I had any other friends. Well, I did and I do, and I know now friends lift each other up, not belittle or talk behind your back. They listen to me when I talk about how important my writing and my characters are to me. 
Sometimes I still miss her--but mostly the high school her that I knew before she met her husband. I don’t know if he changed her or this was her all along, perhaps both. I got fired from a job in November 2019 (which now I’d like to thank them because I got a better and more fulfilling job with a boss that respects me.) and when I cried outside the place, humiliated, I wanted to call her and vent like I used to. I didn’t. Now I don’t want to call her anymore or talk to her. I’d rather spend time with people who care, people who don’t kick me when I’m down. Since then I am so much stronger, in so many ways. The worst times in my life yielded the greatest lessons I have ever learned. 
If you made it this far, thank you. I did tear up a little writing this, but please know: it can be hard to walk a new path, but it is brave. You are brave. You don’t deserve to be belittled *hugs*
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tiredcommunisstt · 7 years
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1. Whats the real reason i’m confused right now? 
uhm theres a lot of things that are confusing me like basically what the fuck is going on with my life and why i can’t leave or lose feelings for my abuser who just so happens to be my boyfriend.
2. Do i ever get good morning texts?
lol no
3. If your significant other smoked pot would you care?
it'd honestly be preferable 
4. Do you find it easy to trust others?
absolutely. until they give me reasonable cause not to, in that case, i may never trust them again. 
5. what were you doing at 11pm last night?
falling asleep w my headphones in
6. You're drunk and lost walking down a road, who is with you?
probably @shez-a-goner
7. What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
welp. funny you should ask. theres not much you can do except exist in a permanently soul-shattered state. 
8. are you close with your dad?
no. i don’t know my real dad whatsoever and my adoptive dad and me never talk.
9. I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
yes
10. What are you listening to?
currently, the sound of alex flushing the toilet.
11. You can only drink one liquid for the rest of your life- what is it?
Uhm? what the fuck else would it be? water obviously
12. do you like hickeys?
the idea, yes. i don't like getting them, they kinda hurt.
13. what time do you go to bed?
mainly before midnight. like around 11 ish.
14. is there someone who constantly lets you down?
yes
15. can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
no
16. do you always answer texts?
no
17. Do the hate the person you fell the hardest for? 
its complicated
18. when was the last time you talked to your best friends?
last night
19. is there someone that make you happy everytime you see them? 
yes @shez-a-goner
20. what was the last thought you had before you went to bed last night?
i fucking love xanax
21. is anyone else in the room with you?
my boyfriend
22. do you believe what goes around comes around?
yeah
23. where you happier four months ago than you are now?
nah it was winter dude. i don't fucks with winter.
24. is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
no
25. in the past week have you cried?
yeah
26. what color is the shirt you're wearing?
blue
27. do people ever call you by your last name?
no and they better not i hate that shit.
28. is anyone ignoring you right now?
probably god.
29. do you have a best friend?
yes
30. would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
yes. I've imagined him kissing her a billion trillion times in my head though so its whatever.
31. who was your last call from?
my probation officer
32. are you mad at anyone?
always and forever
33. have you ever kissed someone older than you?
yeah
34. how old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
21 
35. how many more days till your birthday? idk. its on october 29th.
36. do you have summer plans yet?
no
37. do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
yeah
38. are you keeping anything from your best friend now?
no
39. do you have a secret you've never told anyone?
yeah
40. have you ever regretted kissing someone?
yeah
41. do you think age matters in relationships? 
yes and no, if its some predator shit then yes. if you're both other than like 20 and you have a few years between you it doesn't matter at all.
42. are you available?
for what
43. how many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? 
one
44. if you had to get a piercing(not ears) what would you get?
nose or belly button
45. do you believe exes can be friends?
depends
46. do you regret anything?
of course. 
47. honestly whats on your mind right now?
everything. I'm overwhelmed with my life right now and i wish i could just run away.
48. did you ever lose a best friend?
yeah
49. was your last kiss a mistake?
not really.
50. why arent you pursuing the person you like?
they're taken 
51. has the person you last kissed ever seen you cry? 
considering the fact that they're primarily the reason i cry, yes
52. do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
duh, i live with them
54. what was the last thing you ate?
the CARS movie shaped mac and cheese
55. where are you going on your next vacation?
hell.
56. do you own anything from other countries?
most likely.
57. are most of your friends girls or guys?
girls
58. where have you lived most of your life?
the state of despair.hahahah uh, michigan
59. when was the last time you took a long drive?
considering the fact that alex fucking just randomly drives around forever and ever, probs recently. 
60. have you ever played spin the bottle?
yeah. at a bonfire and in ninth grade at the end of the year school picnic.
61. have you ever TP’d someones house?
uhm no but i had this huge crush on a girl when i was like 13. and my friends preston, cara, and i snuck out of their house at night and walked over to her house and poured cans of peaches and cream of mushroom soup all over her parents cars because she didn't like me back. #wild
62. who do you text the most?
alex and vickii
63. what was the last movie you saw?
bad santa 2
64. whats preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
HAAAAA. the fact that he cheated on her(with me....even though technically me and him were dating first) AND SHE HATES HIS FUCKING gUts. he broke her fuckin heart i highly doubt she ever wants to see his faggot face ever again.
65. how many bf/gfs did you have in 2010?
none lmao i was like 12.
66. is the last person you kissed younger than you?
HE ACTS IT. (but no)
67. do you curse around your parents?
fuck no.
68. are you happy with where you live?
no
69. pic of myself? 
no
70. are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open ended relationships?
hum if we're fucking dating i better be the only fucking one bitch
71, have you ever been dumped?
no
72. what do you like the most about making out?
I've never really....made out.. with someone. to me its more intimate than like sex itself. and I'm really uncomfortable. i don't know how to kiss. if i ever make out with someone ill probably have to ask them to marry me because to me thats a Big Deal. 
73. have you ever casually made out with someone?
no bitch
74. when you kiss someone for the first time is it you who initiates it?
id rather die than make the first move
75. what part of a person body do you find the most attractive?
eyes. but i also like the underside of peoples wrists,,,like where their veins are. 
76. who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed?
alex
77. had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? 
yes. for drugs lol.
78. had sex with someone you didn't know their name?
uhm at the time i knew his name but I've forgotten it so when i go through my body count i just refer to him as john 
79. what makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
i once had a big ass crush on this girl i used to work with at kroger and i always wanted to be her bagger cuz everything she did had me like motherfucking heart eyes lmao. 
80. would you get involved w someone who had a child already?
thats a question i do not know the answer to.
81. has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
no one has ever had a crush on me.
82. do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
literally like everyone EXCEPT for that person. when i have a crush on someone I'm like completely obsessed and wanna shout it from the mountains.
83. do you miss your last sweetie?
i miss Kroger cashier girl lol kinda i haven't had too many crushes. also this girl i was crushing on, but she like low-key doesn't like me and had a girlfriend the whole time lol
84. last time you slow danced with someone? 
probs prom 2015
85. have you ever dated someone you've never met?
no. thats fuckin Stupit
86. how can i win your heart?
uhmmmmmmmmm idk. i fall in love with people who make me laugh and people who are completely unavailable. so just make sure theres absolutely no way for us to ever come together and ill probably get down on one knee for the fuck of it. i love a good never-ending chase.
87. whats your sign?
S C O R P I O. and yes. i love being a scorpio. 
88. What were you doing last night at 12 am?
sleeping. 
89. do you cook?
not to brag but fuck yeah. i ran the kitchen at a small family restaurant called the yum yum tree. one thing I'm definitely great at.
90. have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than three months of no communication?
no
91. if you're single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
switch that question around and it would be a yes. 
92. do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
i want the real deal and nothing less. i don't like to play around with peoples feelings. 
93. what physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
idk. i don't have a type. if all the things you have on your body come together in a cute way, you're cute, and i think you're cute, and thats that 
94. name four things you wish you had:
love
stability
happiness
my dream body
95. are you a player? 
no
96. have you ever kissed two people in one day?
yes
97. are you a tease?
yeah. i like to send nudes and shit to guys and then never respond to them after they compliment me:)
98. ever meet anyone you met on tumblr?
no
99. have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
i don't know. at this point in my life i don't think i really grasp what love is. its always me having strong feelings for someone and never having it returned....isnt that just infatuation?
100. anyone on tumblr you'd go on a date with?
theres like a billion people on this site I'm sure theres someone id go on a date with
101. hugs or kisses.
depends
102. are you too shy to ask someone out?
id rather die than ask someone out
103. the first thing i notice about the opposite sex?
probably their hair, facial features
104. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
yeah
105. if a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew she/he was in a relationship, would you go for it?
fuck off. 
106. do you flirt a lot?
like never
107. your last kiss?
like twenty mins ago
108. have you kissed more than five people since the start of 2011?
maybe close but maybe not. idk
109. have you kissed anyone in the past month?
uh yeah. whats with the intense interest in kissing?
110. if you could kiss anyone who would it be?
a girl
111. do you know who you'll kiss next? 
i have an idea..
112. does someone like you currently.
well I'm in a relationship buttttttt i....doubt....it
113. do you currently have feelings for someone?
yes
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20 FOLLOWERS I’D LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER!
Rules: Tag 20 followers you want to get to know better (im skipping this part)
Tagged by: @darklordtomarry
Name: n/a I’m ehh about my legal name  
Nickname: sounds like Moon Moon, and no one calls me that except my family (not not call me this)  
Gender: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Star Sign: Aries
Height: 5 foot 1 in (and i hate being short, rip)  
Sexual Orientation: Bi (I use to say demi, ace or ace spectrum bi but now i just say bi because i no longer find those labels useful)
Hogwarts House: I’m a Ravenclaw with Slytherin inclinations too :0 
Favorite Colour: Blue
Favorite Animal: Cats
Time Right Now: noon
Average hours of sleep: 7 hours
Cat or Dog Person: Cats so much. All i can think about is they are quiet and well-behaved compared to dogs. 
once in elementary school i went to a classmate’s house to do a group project and she had 4 black cats(!) the ~bad luck in the house should have been absurd but we got a good grade on the project and when i did the work at her house it was basically me on the laptop typing while one of the cats sat on the warm battery charger, another watched us from across the room and one of them sometimes brushed past my feet. i felt calm and peaceful in their company, and i think about this memory from time to time and how much i like cats. 
Favorite Fictional Characters: (so much is me listing heroes and their villains lmao) 
Harry Potter, Tom Riddle|Voldemort; Integra Hellsing, Alucard; Aerith, Sephiroth (really the entire cast of FF7, er, not the compilation peeps); Zhan Zhao, Bai Yutong; Kikyo, Naraku*; Ikari Shinji, Nagisa Kaworu; Hermione Granger, Draco Malfoy**; Xiaolongnv, Yang Guo; Rock Lee, Gaara; Shisui Uchiha, Itachi Uchiha; Marko, Alana (Saga); Ishtar(Vampire Game) Duzell; Gimli, Legolas; Terra Branford, Celes Chere; Kuchiki Rukia, Kurosaki Ichigo;
Also here are some trio favs: Clark Kent, Lois Lane, Lex Luthor; Senju Hashirama, Uzumaki Mito, Uchiha Madara; Erik (Phantom of the Opera), Christine Daae, Raoul de Chagny (actually the entire cast too but especially Meg Giry, The Persian and Madam Giry);  Linghu Chong, Dongfang Bubai, Ren Yingying; Greed, Ling, Lanfan; Ahiru, Fakir, Mytho Rue(Princess Tutu Quartet);
And more:
Monkey King; Loki (many versions not just MCU); Kain Highwind; Ninth Doctor; Medicine Seller (Mononoke); Ulquiorra; Sai (Naruto); Koro-sensei; Satoshi Hiwatari; Alphonse Elric; Suigintou; Sesshomaru; Thorin Oakenshield; Shadow (American Gods); Artemis Fowl; The Baudelaire Orphans; Katniss; Tiffany Aching; Silas (The Graveyard Book); Sabriel, Catwoman,
Fairytale faves: Lindworm; Koschei; Beast; & I need to stop now because I will just go on and on (more than I already have…)
*Tomarry|Harrymort isn’t even my worst hero/villain who totally ruined their lives and everyone’s lives ship (gasp). That’s probably Naraku/Kikyo. The parallels between the two are actually stunning and I could easily write an at minimum 1,000 word meta if I tried.
**warning ship hate (skip crossed out parts if you don’t wanna read):  i actually do not like this ship much bc so much of the popular stuff is hetero shit where it’s not even really them but ooc het archtypes, idk how to describe it except its like Christian Grey and Anna stuff S&M stuff projected. and i’ve enjoyed fic before where i know two chars arent really that way and im reading fanon or “it is them in name only” fic, but not so with these two. I have yet to see an IC fic that can convince me this works          
Number of Blankets I sleep With: One
Favorite Singer/Band: (I have so much and i’m practically listing the bands that show up in my mixes.)
Arctic Monkeys, Hozier, Rufus Wainwright, Franz Ferdinand, Sufjan Stevens, Bastille, Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, IAMX, Depeche Mode, Breaking Benjamin, Fleet Foxes, twenty one pilots, Stars
Rihanna, Celtic Woman, Imogen Heap, Florence + the Machine, Ellie Goulding, Taylor Swift, Demi Lovato, Carly Rae Jepsen, Laura Marling, Sia, St. Vincent, Vienna Teng, Regina Spektor, Halsey, Lana del Rey, Marina & the Diamonds
Dream Trip: I went to Taiwan for like a week in college for winter break/winter study abroad and now I really miss their night markets. I want to be back for a longer stay, with hella money, and have my family be with me too. 
Dream Job: yea same to being a heir 
When was this blog created: November 2016
Current Number of Followers: 6 
When did your blog reach its peak?: lol
What made you decide to make a tumblr: For this one I wanted a place to make a post about my alutegra fanmix. Except now i’ve added a bunch of fanmxies since, related to tomarry or mystic messenger and other stuff. Now this place is looking to be tomarry|harrymort hell and writing stuff in the long term.
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