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mono-socke · 17 days

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may i request some content with me and two river if u dont mind 👉👈

yeah sure !!

wholesome and not so wholesome

hope this is okay !!

#be more chill #the squip #squip #me doing art #not entirely sure about the colors btw #i just kinda #used your profile pic for reference #i'm really sorry if it's inaccurate #but uh #yeah #i would say 'poor river' but also #it's not untrue #(unrelated but god why is river so pale)

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scopeiguess · 28 days

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😃p1

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lilmothgf · 8 months

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Pen/pregnant Builder headcannons

Builder is gender neutral

bro this is way too long so..enjoy

Builder is gender neutral, spoilers for act 2 & 3, SOME mentions of childbirth but no graphic detail. AGNST... A lot of it. Pen will not use the nickname skinny to be inclusive towards heavier readers. Not really proofread, I can barely write.

You knew you should've been a bit more careful.. Though with how passionate and needy Pen could be and your busy work schedule.. You may have forgotten protection a few times and the light knows pen wouldn't care enough to think about it himself in the heat of the moment.

Though, it was only so long you could ignore your new symptoms that were making taking commissions extra hard lately

Fatigue

Nausea and vomiting.. nothing stayed down..

..You really dreaded going to fang to confirm what you already knew but you desperately needed treatment with the constant vomiting, you couldn't keep any fluids down & in a hot arid environment dehydration was a real threat.

Fang confirmed your worst fear though deep down you already knew it, you weren't that oblivious to your own body. You were thankful to fang, he provided you some herbal remedies to help cope with the Nausea and to hopefully keep some fluids in your system.

You already knew how Pen felt about marriage, you were absolutely terrified to have to tell him you were pregnant but you knew you couldn't hide it forever.

Pen, well, he took it as well. He was good at not showing how he really felt but oh did he feel sorry for you both

You were expecting him to break up with you immediately but...

Pen knew he didn't have much time with you left, he always knew he would need to leave Sandrock to go back to Duvos. He was only here for a mission and he already broke so many codes just being involved with you.

Despite everything, Pen did love you, in his own Pen way.

you could see he was a little apprehensive responding to you, you could tell something else was on his mind.

"My Baby is having a baby? well, I hope you realize how lucky you are to be having my child! I bet they will even have fans asking about me when they are born!"

don't try to propose to him, it's still no. it's already gone too far.

Need help around the workshop? You got it. Even the Light knows he would not let his pregnant partner overwork themselves!

deep down he knew that he may not have much time left with you, so any time spent with you was valuable

When you eventually start to show your baby bump Pen is...

Well. Everyone knows you are HIS builder! They can so obviously see it! He has claimed you.. forever.. He was always very possessive of you and this only made it worse

Sadly for pen he won't get to see his child

Despite everything being so well.. things still felt.. wrong. There were just things about Pen's schedule that would make you suspicious.

Oh how your heart broke when Grace & Logan finally had to break everything they knew to you. You didn't wanna believe Pen was involved in this but when Logan explained to you it wasn't him that blew up the water tower but it was Pen.

They were sympathetic. They knew, they knew you were Pen's partner. That night in the hideout you cried and cried.. but they were here for you.

Grace was hesitant to take you with her when you broke the lock to the Sandrock storage room, she didn't know what you would see in there but she in general was just worried for your safety, being the pregnant one and all..

You helped collect evidence as silently, you were burying your emotions deep inside you.. even up until Pen and Miguel came into the storage room to investigate. You saw him.. but you were just numb, there were so many thoughts inside your head what have you gotten yourself into? why is he doing this? did he ever love you, how are you going to do this alone?

Of course.. when you wake up one morning to see Haru had been captured outside of the city hall, you couldn't lie no more.

"PEN BLEW UP THE WATER TOWER!! I HAVE PROOF!!"

Pen was... well. I guess it's over now isn't it my dear builder "How.. could you say such outrageous things about me.. Builder? Are you working for the Bandits! How could you betray me like this?"

Everyone was SHOOKETH, they knew your relationship to Pen, and they knew how trustworthy you were, even though Miguel and Pen tried to flip it onto you, nobody believed them.

When everything was said and revealed, Pen knew there was nothing more he could say or do, but he tried, he knew you though. You would never join him.

"Oh.. My dear Builder, I guess this is it?... Why don't you just come with me! Join Duvos, I can give you everything you need or ever want."

he knows you will say no

Refuses to hurt or fight you, he purposefully avoids hitting you, he can't hit you, he can't endanger you or his own child... Oh he wishes how you could've just come with him.

But he loved how strong you were, emotionally & physically, even now. He admires you, deep down. He knows this must be painful for you.

which is partially why he may have been caught, oh he knows he will not hear the end of it. Again. he already violated too many codes by mingling with you!

You believed that maybe you could have convinced him to change his mind about Duvos

but...

when it was revealed he killed Howlett.. You knew. There was no going back from that.

Seeing him in the Civil Corps jail was very bittersweet. You had many things you wanted to tell him

you did

but most of it was just you crying & yelling at him

and he let you

"My dear.. Just don't forget. I truly did love you & I still do. Unfortunately our paths must split here, I cannot undo the things I have done, as much as I wish I could, I would have stayed with you otherwise.. There is nothing more I can say to you, you are strong, you will get through this.. My love... Farewell."

for you and your childs sake he hopes you move on, as much as it tears him up inside, you are well loved in Sandrock, you will get through this, you aren't alone.. He is, alone, and he will have a long time to think about what he has done.

Grace & Logan are your best friends through the rest of your pregnancy.

Everyone in town cared about you & they made sure you knew that. You wouldn't be alone. They'd help you with your baby. Catori was always there giving you advice, considering she is a divorcee and a single mom! She might've not had as traumatic as a separation as you but she still gives you good tips, especially post birth recovery.

Fang sends you letters, requesting you check up with him during such a traumatic event, as well as general checkups to make sure your pregnancy is progressing healthily.

He's not much of a talker but he lets you cry & vent to him.

Through your visits to him though he starts to open up and he tries.. he really tries to talk to you to comfort you.

He is worried about your mental health and your own trauma helped connect him to you, he knows what it's like to lose someone, albeit, in a different way than you.

you really needed the support, some days it was hard for you to even get up out of bed anymore or even try to do anything, to have everyone so worried about you and checking up on you... it really did help you

As soon as he is out of jail you bet he is right outside of your workshop and checking on you don't refuse his help, you aren't getting out of it

helps maintain your workshop & runs around collecting materials for you (anything you ask for, he's got it!)

Logan feels like he owes it to you he feels like this is what howlett would have wanted him to do

Grace tries her best to make you nice meals for you! Even if she's not that good of a cook.. She just wants to be sure you are eating.

You bet Grace & Logan will help you once the baby is here, they will watch them for you & still assist with the workshop.

..Grace definitely cried when she had to go back to Atara.. But you but she will be doing anything she can to get back to Sandrock.

Grace may have not been here for when the baby was born but she sure did make it a priority to get back to Sandrock ASAP!! You were on her mind always!!

do I need to make it obvious that grace and logan may be crushing on you..? whatever, they will wait, they will wait until you are healed before even taking things there

they absolutely adore the baby ❤ ❤

you are so glad to have them while you recover mentally & physically.

and they are patient with you, they will be here for you. Always.

#my time at sandrock #mtas logan #mtas builder #mtas grace #self insert #mtas pen #oops this is really long im sorry #i just kinda #i thought about this before i went to sleep and man *sweats*#agnst #im cringe #dont judge me #lol

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anartisticalniche · 4 months

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Alright everyone, real quick announcement regarding A Corsair Freebooter

I've decided, after some thought, to keep the AU a bit out of order.

This means that the main story, while already brainstormed and decided, wont be updating in a chronological order, or you wont see it anytime sooner for that matter.

I said I was going to show the worldbuilding and the slow but still long main plotline to how the gang got together and what brought them to how they are in the au.

However, I realized i just kinda... want to draw whatever i want for this au, and that i like to show some parts of it that would come later in the timeline rather than following it step by step.

So you will most likely get more doodles of the characters AFTER the main story way sooner than the prologue and preliminary parts of it.

i wanted to fight this urge to not show stuff that would have probably made more SENSE in a narrative way after that main plot, but then i said "screw it, its my au, i get to decide what i want to draw."

so yeah, if you were hoping for a more linear storyline where i show everything post after post, that wont be happening anymore😅 i hope thats alright with you

#i just kinda #want to do this for myself #a lil bit #the story will be updated when i feel like it #and i will tag everything in order when that happens so you guys wont get lost ofc #smg4 pirate au #a corsair freebooter #nichetalk

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sillybitchdisorder · 2 months

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fun new kin experience for me,,, more canine traits becoming more and more a part of my identity, i think bc ive been getting more comfortable w my identity. like,, i dont Look like any sort of canine, im still very much only demon/monsterkin, but with Heavy canine-esque behavior which is very fun !!

not sure what terms i feel comfortable using for myself yet, since im still figuring it out,, like, i wouldnt quite call it a theriotype, but im not sure,,,

#demonkin #monsterkin #otherkin #therian #(?)#alterhuman #nonhuman #kin #i might have a bit of a snout actually #not entirely sure yet #im still mostly unsure of how i look #its hard for me to visualize #i just kinda #feel it #so its hard to put into words #it also shifts slightly a lot #so its hard to pin down specific details

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nat-seal-well · 7 months

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Allow me to horrify you by using my feet to pick stuff up from the ground for no reason other than laziness because I need my phone charger, which is on the ground by the bed, but I’m already comfy under the blankets

#I just kinda #reach down #with one leg #and then pick it up #and stretch my arm back to get it

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wonwoonlight · 11 months

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when i first got into seventeen, a close friend who was a carat first would just. walk me through the svt lores until i was able to navigate myself through these 13 men's contents by myself. i genuinely don't think you would be able to get into seventeen by yourself without anyone's help sdjfhsdhbfsdf

#but also #it reminds me just how fun it is fangirling together with a friend #or someone you just click with #bc just bc you share the same interest #it doesnt mean you always click w the person lol #i think thats why everytime there's a new carat around me #i just kinda #go crazy about wanting to let them see things sdjfjhdsfb #khione.log

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lesbiantruckers · 2 months

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Pulled the skin off a trout fillet and huh that was a strange sensory experience

#i just kinda #yanked it #is that what would happen to my skin??#gore tw idk

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kartsstuffig · 1 year

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brainrot. just decided to make some shitty ms paint stuff.

cough cough @b00nk i drew a pepwiwi

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lady-lauren · 1 year

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#lauren rambles #hi pals it’s been a few weeks #sorry I’ve been awol #I just kinda #go through phases now with tumblr #but I’m gonna try to get back into this shit again

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silvcrignis · 10 months

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Me: *thinks I’m shit at making new friends*

Me: *makes an attempt anyway*

#x: Out of Sin #I just kinda #Talk & hope ppl like what they hear???? gdhdgg #That’s it if you guys ever wondered HOW I’m so outgoing & ‘easy to talk to’#That’s my solution /I Just Say Shit/#The ADHD & knowledge of the Horrors aid me in my endeavors

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phoenixdaneko · 1 year

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Sammy Lawrence cradling y/n is his strong arms

Rando I can't draw people very well but uh here you go here's your goop man

#This is literally such a bad drawing LMAO #I just kinda #Drew #It's shitty there's 0 anatomical correctness but hey you got something #Rando <3 #Asks #Ty for the ask!!!#My art #My drawing #nix does art

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knifvd · 1 year

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@ryusxnka asked : " There was nothing more you could have done. "

( you wonder if he knows . it's a grimey feeling : the anger boiling beneath your skin , burns loud , burns bright , grey girl of ice singeing herself at the touch . you wonder if he knows . blank stares are all that you've offered , all you can offer all you can MUSTER . anger is hot and bitter , never been much of a DRINKER , but it's what you can only assume your father of person past was so addicted to . the anger or the booze ? they look the same to you . you wonder if he knows . wondering child you are , even as you ache , you wonder , you think , you explore . you wonder if he knows . you wonder if he knows , knows there's nothing left : talk to his squad member as much as he'd like but there's been a long TIME since there was anything left inside of you . they'd done good job beating it out of you , leaving nothing but frost at in the shell of who you used to be . )

" there was nothing more you could have done . " it's an ODD SENSATION , she knows it must be , to take comfort in something so pulled away : even now he's nothing short of tragedy . ( tragedy recognizes TRAGEDY : no less than looking in a mirror when seeing features , bred from the same ice you take so much comfort in . athiest angel you are, you pray for better days for the two of you : for the things you don't speak about , can't speak about . ) " there was nothing more you could have done . "

aiko doesn't look from the training dummy : mind not as hands bleed crimson , as strike after STRIKE finds it's way to the training dummy . blood decorates it like peculiar crimson stars , and only when she pauses does the sigh of relief she DIDN'T know she was taking escape her lips . ( you should've been better . you should've been better . NOT SURE who speaks it into her brain , but sounds like familiar voice she spent years dreading . scrub it from your brain as much as you'd LIKE , but it's still woven into your soul . know it because everytime you hear something even SIMILAR to him it most nearly brings you to your knees . ) tries to believe his words , hands trembling as she OPENS and closes , opens and CLOSES . little red moons that match the DUMMY'S stars find themselves on her palms , raw skin purpling and bruising around knuckles . she bleeds red . even now , she bleeds red .

( HE COULDN'T get it . not all of it . spent years of your life SCRUBBING you of anything close to human , only for it to be broken down by that of those who should've cared for you . it was supposed to be your new chance at LIFE . " life . " scrubbed you of it in order to make you nothing short of canvas but they painted all over you , and you're left with nothing but the anger of tragedy girl you were , you are , and will be . it follows you . even now . tragedy . maybe that's why you fail . maybe dad was right . failure girl you were , you are , and will be . )

reaper hasn't looked at her captain once . " thanks , " voice small , flat , lingers with some kind of finality . voice still freezes over with ice , almost enough that would put her captain's to shame . hands to dig back into palms , back into cut crescent moons , as she strikes the wooden DUMMY once more , widening injury on knuckles : wooden mask on it to crack in half at her actions , littered with her own blood .

( there was nothing more you could have done . so , you two fall back into the fun little game you two share . he tells you lies that he does not believe , and you choke them down without a chaser , and see who falters first . )

𝙈𝙄𝙎𝘾. 𝘼𝙉𝙂𝙎𝙏. 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙥𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜!

#ryusxnka #❮ I. AIKO ❯ — bleach .#abuse /#death /#blood /#injuries /#ask to tag #OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAYOKAY I KNOW IT SAID STARTER AND I KNOW ITS A LOT DONT LOOK AT ME #STOP #I JUST KINDA #HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i have a lot of muse for her bleach verse . i dont wanna tlak abt it .

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biblicallyaccuratefaggot · 1 year

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cant believe i actually painted today what the hell

#i just kinda #picked up my paints and got to work #havent painted since like 2017ish and it felt very nice #kinda wanna actually get some proper paints again now #no im not posting it dont ask

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disturbedgent · 1 year

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#i just kinda #made this up #its not a reference #its just #gay men #gay gay homosexual gay #polls #poll #tumblr polls #gay #wahoo

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reggiemess · 2 years

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So while I do generally agree with the sentiment that most people don't check every blog in a reblog chain (I sure don't! Who has the time for that?) I do also find it concerning how certain fashy blogs seem to frequently end up in widely circulated posts.

I think that it IS your responsibility to, at some point, notice who the people on your dash are reblogging from. There shouldn't be a buffer gradient of people who are increasingly okay with associating with white supremacists.

#learn to hear dogwhistles #honestly at this point i would have a hard time describing what i see as red flags #i just kinda #vibe it out lmao #(i do always double check of course)#i have noticed that this happens a lot LESS with terf specifically #which is great!#and it shows that people CAN learn to recognize these things #and block/unfollow people who are 'okay with hanging around terfs' but dont post terf shit themselves #but people NEED to repeat this with other hate groups!

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