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nerves-nebula · 3 months

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Sorry your dad sucks and is skilled in the horrid skill of extreme mental gymnastics. Fingers crossed that exposure to him isn't too constant

I too forget to eat until starving. Best tip for avoiding that is if you find a food you really like and haven't eaten for a few days, just say screw it and eat whatever tastes good and don't care about the health of it. A calorie is a calorie. Or just take x2 the amount of multivitamins each day. Even if you havent eaten or forget to eat for a few days your body will at least have nutrients (this is what I do)

(However I cannot promise that these will work. I know some people get hit hard by symptoms of starvation, and some people may be more like me, who just. Isn't connected to the body enough to know. Hunger? I do not feel it. Thirst? Only when dehydrated and it's still a chore. Sleep deprivation? Why not ignore that too lol)

my dad is a lot of things but Currently Contacting Me A Lot isnt one of them lmao. i havent seen him irl in years and he only calls/texts every few months.

ive got my own way of doing stuff, i can kinda tell if a food is gonna make me feel grosser/worse so if im starving i cant just be snacking, which is why i try to have relatively bland stuff around like A Banana or A Tortilla. i havent gotten through 2 years of college my starving consistently fsdfsd i just forget sometimes.

#nnstuff #ask #asks are sweethearts

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espytalks · 6 months

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Plant update!

So the squash was an absolute failure! The one successful squash it gave me got eaten up by bugs before i could harvest it, and then the whole plant started getting overtaken by pests. I actually didnt notice untill it was too late, cause i wasnt checking on the garden everyday.

Ive also been getting depression episodes, for lack of a better word, and it made it really hard to care about anything. Ive never had seasonal depression before, and im not sure if thats whats going on or if the loneliness is finally getting to me, either way its making it hard to clean the house and take care of everyone, myself, and my plants. Im doing what i can on my good days, and trying to make myself make better choices to get myself out of these dark spots. It aint easy when im doing it alone, but i played minecreft with my friend last week and it helped me a lot.

Secondly, back on topic, because i havent been out, i hadnt noticed that some seeds i must have dropped sprouted! Those mexican sunflowers are growing stong and fast! ...right where its in the way. I feel bad, but im gonna have to ask someone to mow em down. But maybe i can save the seeds from that first flower, and put em somewhere more intentional?

And lastly, i harvested some lettuce, basil, and some mint. I used the "cut and come again" method; by cutting out the outer leaves, it keeps the center heathy and growing. I pulled up the smaller lettuce plants entirely, though. Theyre not gonna provide a whole lot, and itll (hopefully) leave space and nutrients for the larger ones to flourish.

I rinsed em all and layed em out to dry. Its not enough lettuce for all three of us, but it'll bulk up the ceasar salad kit i bought, or itll be my lunch in the near future. Or i could be underestimating how much i got and it could be plenty. Im learning a lot about this kinda stuff.

Im hoping i can make a little pesto with the basil ( ive been wanting to try it, its new to me) and i dunno if the mint's enough to make tea out of, but ill try today.

So.. ive been struggling, but plants like to grow, time keeps going forward, and im still here. I forgot to water everything, so im gonna go do that, and hopefully i still feel ok the rest of today.

#espy talks #espy gardens

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sapphic-sex-ed · 4 years

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TW ED. my sister keeps saying stuff like “ive only eaten 400 kcal”, “i havent eaten all day”, “i lost 1.5 kg last week” and it makes me feel like shit. im eating healthily rn although i did struggle with my eating for a bit, but hearing those things makes me feel so anxious that im eating too much and makes me want to restrict my eating and somehow be “better” at undereating than she is. im not over or underweight and i feel mostly happy abt my body but i just cant help it when i hear tht :(

Your sister needs IMMEDIATE medical attention. Restriction like that is NOT healthy in any way and IS literally going to kill her. When you’re at the point at which not eating is resulting in weight loss, your body is breaking down muscle, bone, and organ tissues. Fat is the last thing your body wants to consume to keep itself alive. She WILL suffer heart failure from cardiac catabolism before she “gets rid of” all her body fat. I am gravely serious; she needs intravenous fluids and nutrients, as well as psychiatric care, right now.

I’m glad you’re eating. Food is necessary for life and one should eat what they want, when they want, and as much as they want. Unless you have trouble with body signals or you’re making yourself sick I promise you’re not eating too much. In fact many if not most people in the western world don’t eat enough. Diet culture is ableist and fatphobic, and it’s full of lies people violently refuse to question.

What you need to do is tell her that you have boundaries and these discussions of weight and dieting cross the line (and that they’re boring, because they are). This bragging about self harm is hurting you and it’s not okay for your sister to keep doing it.

I’m sorry this took a while to get to. As you can understand it’s a difficult subject for many.

-*Mod Star, whose body was permanently damaged by restrictive eating*

#mod star #ed tw #anorexia tw #diet talk tw #food mention #weight talk tw #weight mention #weight loss mention #siblings mention #caps #fatphobia #swearing #healthcare mention #anon

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flockofdoves · 5 years

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just realized that disordered eating is probably actually a notable contribution to how shitty i’ve been feeling these past couple months and its not just a side product of my other struggles so . huh. its weird bc like this didn’t even come out of consciously thinking about my relationship with food or my body wrt weight or w/e like i’d always worried would make my bad habits turn more consistently harmful like i didn’t even correlate this til now but its so upsetting how i guess i just like?? accidentally started getting like this bc figuring out IBS and chronic illness triggers has been so exhausting so i’ve lost a lot of enjoyment in eating bc i always have that in mind and its giving me sensory issues wrt food when i’ve always thought it was interesting how compared to other autistic people i know whiel i have sensory issues with so many things but my only sensory stuff with food has been certain foods having “stimmy” textures or w/e and nothing negative (with the exception of my lifelong goofy conceptual aversion to peanut butter that at this point i think of as more of a funny quirk that i could probably get over if i really wanted to dkfjghd). but i guess my chronic illness worsening and being depressed for that and other reasons ive either skipped a lot of meals bc i figure i’m not doing much that day anyway, or nothing seems appealing so nothing feels better than something that might make me have bad symptoms, or i just give up and eat things that are super bad for me bc whats the difference fuck this. and that plus only getting 15 minute breaks at work i literally inhale food more so than ever i can’t enjoy it and that also makes digestive stuff worse and so i either give up on trying to eat regular meals on work days or that habit follows me everywhere i just eat so fast and get sick. and then also between other chronic illness stuff and being at work around smells that overwhelm me and thinking so much about unsanitary food conditions but also i’m realizing literally just because when i’m weak or exhausted and especially when i havent eaten enough the smell of anything can me so overwhelming so i barely recognize hunger cues and when i do its mixed with queasiness and everything smells too much i can’t enjoy it i don’t know how to get back to normal i’ve had blips of forgetting to eat consistently and then getting overwhelmed by food and being nauseous but also really hungry for like a week at a time in the past at some points but it hasn’t been this consistently a Thing and i didn’t even realize that was likely a huge contributing factor to my dizziness and weakness and nausea this past couple months til literally today so i don’t know how to get back into normal eating habits i just want to eat a vegetable and be energized and have nutrients and not have my digestive system freak out about everything its hard bc theres so many other factors here too

#cpost #food text -#disordered eating -#emetophobia -?? idk

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wayuptothelight-blog · 7 years

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i still havent eaten today and im not even actually hungry ugh. as soon as i got into work i had to get started on this hell project,t hen when that was done I went straight to java script and now I’m out but too caffeinated to eat. We have to water the lot this afternoon so I’m going to try and have something small before that. I snacked a bunch last night and that definitely screwed up my hunger cues. My period is over and I am out of cashew clusters, so I shouldn’t have the same issue tonight lol.

Meal plan is set up and DOminick grabbed groceries last night, but Ihave some cooking to do. The carcass was totally frozen and wouldn’t fit in the instant pot last night so I have to thaw and then break down further. The things I do for legit stock.......it really beefs up the nutrients of my quinoa though so it’s worth it. Speaking of nutrients, I got some flax milk. I don’t drink animal milk, don’t eat soy (im not gonna be one of those nuts to yall but it seriously is not great for you and it fucks my hormones up something fierce), and avoid almonds as much as possible (mostly because dominick can’t have en so it’s no use having for shared stuff, and I just plain don’t like it enough to use a full carton on my own) but I really like flax milk. Since my hunger cues have been wonky I’m keeping shake-up protein stuff in the cabinets. I don’t rely on em, but a scoop of protein powder, 2 tablespoons pb2 and 12oz flax milk in a shaker bottle makes a for an easy supplement. I was doing that with water, which was good, but the flax has so many nutrients and it has a thin enough texture that it isnt too much like milk. Have I mentioned?? I hate?? Milk??? I fucking hate milk. I throw the powders in my shaker bottle at home and just add the flax or water when I’m ready to have it. I don’t dig on smoothies mostly due to the texture (I prefer water based to anything with yogurt or banana), but it’s also just so easy to go overboard. It is easier to maintain proper portions when you are seeing your food and chewing it, rather than blending it down and drinking. BUT it’s better than nothing, especially dashing between work and gym.

Speaking of gym......it is not gonna see much of me this week but I have a good plan to compensate :)

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missvisibleninja · 7 years

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i think i might have a problem

for the last few months i havent really been eating anything but im not quite sure why. i hardly ever feel hungry and when i do feel hungry i just dont feel like eating. like the idea of putting food in my mouth and chewing and swallowing it just doenst appeal to me which doesnt make sense because normally i love food. i have a really bad tendency to eat when im bored but i havent done that for months now. and when i do eat my stomach starts to hurt a lot after ive only eaten a little bit but i cant tell if its hurting because i ate to much and im full or if it hurts because im starving myself and it wants more food.

i dont think im anorexic. im not 100% happy with how my body looks, i think my tummy is a little bit too squishy, but i dont hate my figure enough to starve myself. i actually quite like the way i look. ive always been thin and i still am and i know this. i dont really want to lose weight except for that little bit on my stomach and even that im not really motivated to lose. im not intentionally starving myself to lose weight im just not hungry anymore. i also havent been binge eating and then forcing myself to throw up or anything like that.

i know my body needs food to function and i know that its important to eat to give my body nutrients and energy. i know all of this but i still feel no desire to eat anything. even now as i sit here my stomach hurts, i know that im hungry and should probably eat something but i cant force my self to actually do it. just the idea of eating something is extremely unappealing the thought of putting something in my mouth and having to chew it seems terrible. i want the pain to end i want my stomach to stop hurting but i just cant force my self to do it.

ive been feeling like this since novemberish but its gotten more intense since mid-february and its just now started to severely impact me. im not sleeping well and im constantly restless and even more distracted than usual. my joints hurt and my mouth always tastes bad, im probably also dehydrated because its gotten to the point where i dont even want to drink water anymore.

i just dont feel a desire to eat anything anymore which doesnt make any sense because i love food. i love snacking on things and eating meals. i love cooking and enjoying what i made. or at least i use to. now food is just unappealing. everything is dry or tastes wrong or doesnt seem good. there are days where i eat a bowl of cereal in the morning and thats it. there are days where i eat a snack when i get home and thats it. there are days like today where all ive had is a three musketeers bar and a sprite. there are days where i eat nothing at all. i think im surviving on the adderall i take for my adhd and the water i have to drink to get the pills down my throat. but even that is unappealing now. the feeling of the pills floating around in my mouth and sliding down my throat is awful i hate it. and to make everything worse adderall is an appetite suppressant so it makes me even less hungry. but i cant stop taking it because i need it because of my adhd and also when i take it my stomach hurts less and i dont want to deal with the pain.

i want to eat things but i just cant do it. i want to get better but i dont know whats wrong with me. im sick of feeling hungry, im sick of my stomach hurting, im sick of feeling empty all the time. i miss food. i miss eating and i miss enjoying food. i want to get better. i want to be able to eat again, i really do. but i dont know how to do it. i dont know how to fix this because i dont even know whats wrong with me. i want to be okay again. i dont want to continue suffering like this. its awful and i hate it everything hurts and everything takes so much energy and i just dont have any. i want to fix myself but i dont know how to. i want to get help but i dont know how to get it or where to get it from. i want to get better but i dont know how to do it.

#ninja does stuff #tldr; theres probably something wrong with me but i dont know what it is or how to fix it

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poisoninthemirror · 6 years

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What anorexia is really like

(BASED ON PAST EXPERIENCE)

AS A CONTRAST TO MY “PERSONAL THINSPO” bc really don’t get the wrong 💡 i regret my EDs with every fiber of my being my personal thinspo is how i try to cope with my sadness and regret and pain

feel free to add on to this list i just ran out of room

always being cold at school and shivering

wearing a jacket in the summer. below 20 degrees C and I’ll be wearing a full on coats, warm socks and boots.

brittle, chipped nails making manicures last longer than 5 minutes impossible

not being able to enjoy life

all i think about is food or my ed. what on 🌏 do other people occupy their minds with? i don’t remember anymore

obsessed with collecting recipes, cooking for others, looking at foodporn even when i don’t touch the food myself

making plans or wanting to go eat somewhere with or without other people but never ever going through with it

going out anywhere gives me anxiey

having to wear baggy things so i don’t scare people too much with how thin ive gotten so they don’t ship me off to ed rehab or something

never getting to show off/embrace my weight loss

don’t you dare touch my bones

no libido or interest. i don’t even want to flirt. leave me alone.

lying for hours just tracing my bones and wasting my life away

losing my fertility and ability to have kids one day

amonerrhea is actually really scary

gross lanugo everywhere

i don’t even have the energy to cook or eat hence i get even less energy

binging from time to time because I’m so starved

my ugw keeps changing to get lower and lower. its never enough. theres always something to criticize

not being able to appreciate my weight loss because of BDD. i still 👀 fat and feel fat where it has gone. i don’t 👀 my body for what it really is

insomnia

standing at an angle difference of 0.00001 degree and wondering which angle is lying to me and in which i look fatter. the fatter one must be the real one.

i can’t 👀 my weight loss. its like its not there.

uncomfortable when others point out my weight loss so i try to hide it. avoiding anyone who cares too much about my weight loss

also 😔 when no one says anything about it

not trying the 🆒 new foods or enjoying things because I’m so determined not to bloat

conflicted about the 🏖️ because then everyone will 👀 just how skinny i really am and they’ll get 😟 and try to intervene

realizing ive gotten dangerously close to dying of cardiac arrest or worse. wondering if I’ll wake up in the morning.

blue nails like those of corpses

my thick, beautiful, healthy, luscious hair fell out and I’m left few a few pathetic strands that I’m 😨 to touch since even though theres almost nothing left i continue to lose hair

osteoperosis for life & the bones of an 80 year old woman when I’m not even 20 yet

alienating myself from everyone, including my friends

not going out to parties etc

panic when someone cooks for me

purging is insanely addictive

bloodshot eyes

decaying yellower teeth. chewing whitening gum or whitening my teeth in some other way

sickly protective of my ed even though i hate it because now its part of me

I’m a lot weaker physically

i can’t think straight, theres always a fog bc my brain isn’t getting enough calories

short attention span

always tired and wanting to 💤 and not do anything, but insomnia kicks in so instead i lie on the 🛏️ for hours and hours and hours

stressful shopping trips. checking every label. choosing the foid with the lowest calories, even if it tastes grosser.

sometimes chewing pack after pack of gum or a pack of cough drops for my cold makes up my daily calorie intake and adds up to 300-400.

refusing to take any medication for any sickness, especially cough syrup

being 😷 with things like the common cold, cough & sore throat for four or five months instead of a week or two

idek how long it would take anything more serious to pass

stomach pains from eating and from not eating

a genuine fear of food

my body looking unproportional to my head and feet because its gotten so small

whatever hair i have left is ⚰️ despite all of the treatments i put in it, the eggs i try to wash it with to give it protein, the conditioners and the hair masks and cold 🚰 rinses and the oils

not being able to stop

despairing because when will this all end

depression. the only way i 👀 out is the way i can’t take. I’m miserable.

i hate myself for having this ED

what is my identity without my ed? my ed is part of me!! existential crises and identity confusion

i can do this forever, even if I’m miserable

no i can’t i need a way out help

but theres no one to talk to

no one understands

everyone stigmatizes or invalidates or ostracizes etc

therapy? idk her

getting mad that i finally officially “qualify for anorexia” according to the APA even though ive been anorexic for a lot longer

oh so now all of you care when I’m dying and its too late

oh so now you shut up and stop asking me if i really want that food

oh so now I’m not fat anymore as you genereously repeatedly reminded me

bitterness

kidney failure and damage

liver damage

serious nutrient and vitamin deficiency

taking supplements but who am i kidding how much can they really help when I’m this bad

“I’m not hungry” even if i havent eaten in 6 days (I’m never fasting again though i refuse to slip into fasting/binging/purging again)

needing to purge even after eating only 5 calories worth of zucchini

vomit rises up even when i don’t want to vomit bc my body is so used to it

acid reflux

have a burned a hole in my esophagus yet?

i hate myself

i hate my life

my 💛 shrinks

bloating all the time even if i don’t eat

eating/drinking 🚰 makes it even worse so i stop even doing that

when was the last time i had a bowel movement?

where on 🌏 are my bones i don’t 👀 them even though my bmi is so so low

whats this fat on an obscure part of my body i can still grab oooh I’m still fat need to keep losing

the 📸 lies

the mirror lies

everyone around mevis lying

i know I’m fat i can feel it

irritable and low tolerance for mistakes of others

moodiness

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knowyourdepression · 6 years

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Hi, it’s been really hard for me these past view days to have a reason to get up or live life at all. I feel sick since I haven’t eaten or drunk any water or anything. I don’t know how to cope with this anymore and I need some advice please?

Hello dear anon,First of all im very happy and proud that you messaged us. The fact that you havent eaten or drunk anything worries me though. Can you please take a bottle or a glass of water and at least drink that? Just some water, thats all. In almost every country there are helpdesks you can call or reach online. Have you tried this already? They can give you more accurate and faster help than I can at the moment. Please, do reach out to someone. It seems like you could use an extra hand. Is there someone else in your personal life you can reach out to? Even if its just your neighbour, it might be better if at least someone knows youre not doing very well. These past days have been hard for a lot of people, and I hope you manage to pull trough.What I found that helps if I have these periods is to sleep and eat more regularly. You dont have to eat a lot, but at least try to get something in your stomach so you have some basic nutrients, and try to sleep enough but not more than 10-12 hours a day. Also, drinking water is VERY important. Additionally, fresh air helps. If you dont want to go outside you can at least open some windows to freshen the house (:Which brings me to another point, clean the house! A clean environment is a cleaner mind. If you sit in chaos your mind feels chaotic, even if you might not notice it. Also, cleaning will give you a good excuse to move around a bit, give your body some excercise. This releases endorphins in your brain, which is the hormone you lack when youre depressed. So even if you dont feel like cleaning, doing some jumping jacks or maybe even going out for a run on a regular basis will help! I know living your life can seem futile at times. However, there are things out there that you can enjoy! Listen to some music, watch youtube videos, see a tv show, sing, dance, draw, read, write, whatever you feel you can manage. Try some of these things and who knows, you mightve found yourself a new hobby! (:I hope these tips helped you a bit dear anon. Feel free to reach out at any time! Lots of love,Xxo Mirthe

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