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abyssalzones · 5 months

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If you have the same hyperfixation for too long they put money on your head and baby I'm frontlining America's most wanted

bonus parallel fidds sprites

#gravity falls #fiddleford mcgucket #stanford pines #fiddauthor #stanley pines #a better world au #going to start actually tagging that now #lab creations #I haven't been very creatively motivated lately so I've just been busy playing pokemon but here's some of the last gf stuff from nov-dec #when I get my energy back. I would like to work on my comic #key phrase being 'would like to'#maybe I'll stick to that

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elven-butts · 11 months

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i missed this wet cat of a doctor

#vampyr #vampyr game #jonathan reid #art #digital art #aritsts on tumblr #i forgot how much fun this game is #haven't been feeling very creative lately #the horrors have been piling up

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a-crystalclearsquid · 27 days

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Always an angel, never a god.

Jon, on his brightest, could make Damian feel anything and everything like no other. He would simply smile and Damian would breathe easier. Jon could simply express his kindness as he always does and the latter would fall a little more in love. It would be that Jon would immediately stop whatever it was that he was doing in favor of comforting a homeless guy in the street. Jon, who would be patient with a child who refuses to listen to the mother out in public.

It was always the little things- the smallest gestures that caught Damian off guard on how easy it was to fall in love again when he thought that he was completely taken over.

But even on Jon’s darkest days, it would not deter Damian.

It would be that a bully would wear out Jon’s patience and throw the first hit or even when he would completely avoid talking or making contact with anyone else just because the day is not going his way. Or even being irritated at his friends’ tiniest movements because he has an assignment due and he could not concentrate.

All those things simply meant that Jon was also human (as he was) and had his flaws. It made Damian appreciate his partner more.

The fact that Jon has his own human struggles as the rest of them had Damian be comforted but also annoyed as he could not ease it away.

So what he does is to be a better partner more in the battlefield. That way, he knows he could prevent Jon from experiencing the harsher wounds.

It comes in many forms as it is displayed through thousands, millions even, ways: Love.

It’s so hard to put it into words.

Especially for Damian, who was taught that actions proved better evidence to one’s thoughts and feelings. While he simple does not disagree, there are times when one has to use words where one’s actions are not sufficient or is the most appropriate way to let somebody know just how much you care about them.

An example would be right now, where Damian is helpless besides Jon, who is recovering inside a kryptonian pod in the Fortress of Solitude.

Where, even to the best of Damian’s medicine and surgical knowledge, is unable to assist in any way to the recovery of a comatosed Jon Kent.

All that knowledge and practice and for what? To be told that the best he could do as of now is to converse one-sidedly to Jon in hopes they would get a reaction out of him.

So here he is, the grandson of the Demon, proclaimed assassin by the age of 8, Robin to two Batman by the age of 10, has died at least three times by the age of 14, and completely helpless to by the bedside of the love of his life at 21, struggling to form words to bring back his lover from the depths of his own subconscious.

“Jonathan,“ he says his name as how one might start a prayer. “Habibi,“

my love, my life,

He grips the wrist of Jon, to feel the faint pulse, assuring himself that Jon is still here.

“I miss your warmth,

and I miss your presence.

I miss you in every waking hour, knowing you’re barely within my reach.

And I’m tempted,

oh, so tempted to bring you to the waters where I was born.

Yet, I am not so desperate as to turn my back on everything that I have fought for -that we have fought for- just for you to be disappointed in me when you return.

I have yet to lose faith that you’d never wake.

And it was because you have made me promise to by your side and never lose hope.

So here I am,

Barely holding on to hope,

Always on the edge on doing the drastic measures.

The only thing stopping me?

That would be you,

My most and dearest beloved.

All these years, and all the doubts everyone in my life has given me, save for you.

You had never given up on me, you’ve always been by my side, and you’ve always rooted for me even in times I don’t deserve,

You have made me felt no safer than in your arms.

So please,”

Damian begged,

“Return to me and make me feel safe within your comfort again.

As you have been by my side, I am also here, Jonathan.

Return to me and I will show you my devotion.

My faith wavers not as I wait for you, no matter how impatient I might seem.

Please come back to me,“

With nothing to do but sit and wait by Jon’s bedside, barely sleeping in case of missing something, his brothers bring him his books and his sketchpad.

They also bring him Alfred the cat for company, who was now sleeping by Jon.

He appreciates the little distractions, though it does no good as he keeps on looking over Jon every few minutes.

So he inclines to bring out his sketchpad and starts imitating the sleeping form of his little feline friend, and when he’s done with that, he sketches everything else he could see within his sights.

And when he also exhausts those within his peripheral vision, his hand finally gets the courage to draw Jon.

It wasn’t like the other portraits of Jon sleeping he has done so far.

It’s different, but also the same.

The way that it’s so peaceful gives out a nice scene. The way that Jon’s bruises and cuts are now mostly gone relieves Damian. The way Alfred the cat is calmly rested on top of Jon’s chest, comforting both pet and owner of the repeated rise and fall movement.

He finishes the sketch and Damian wishes he had paint with him, so that he may properly bring the art to life.

He was tired now.

Though trained by the best to function for weeks with limited to no amount of sleep, Damian couldn’t help his tired eyes and his tired mind, grudingly succumbing to slumber, but not before taking in Jon’s hand in his.

He yearns for the hour Jonathan wakes again.

To be able to recieve and exchange smiles with his beloved again.

Damian rests his eyes, knowing he will easily wake at the slightest movement of his beloved.

Even for just a simple twitch of the finger, or on the skipped heartbeat of the monitor, Damian is most confident he will be able to detect it.

For now, he simply escapes to the plains of his dreams, hoping his subconscious grants his wish. Even though knowing that it would not be real, he would at least get to spend a second reliving on a far-away memory or to experience a new one.

For whatever can emphasize his hopes and faiths, Damian will always be waiting in the land amongst mortals.

#alex writes #jondami #damijon #jonathan kent #damian wayne #mostly #i haven't posted this on ao3 yet #i'm supposed to work on my research report right now #but procrastinated with this #this one is very raw and it hasn't been cleaned up yet so a lot of mistakes #i will post this on ao3 once i'm done with my report and have proofread the fic again #this is just me letting out steam from stress #lots of grammar mistakes and typos #so read at your own risk? haha #this is how i destress: pouring out my creativity lmaoo

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kojotei · 3 months

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I want to draw a Specific Scene from The Raven Cycle and now I'm torn if I should go with the memory and the general vibe I got when I read it all those years ago or actually reread the scene

#yes I'm on the very edge of the trc hole again #i seem to wander here from time to time #i haven't been drawing much at all due to my work being so interesting atm that all my creative juices go there instead #but maybe now's my chance #kojotalk

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dont-offend-the-bees · 2 months

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Wooooops I let my brain atrophy again

#I started the day without a plan and the folks have been out all day #so instead of doing anything productive/creative I just rotted #I did some stretching at least #but it really doesn't feel good atm #genuinely my muscles haven't bounced back from that weird virus I had in Feb #and I probs need to work em out a bit more to start building the strength/flexibility again but it's hard and unpleasant and i don't like it #baby steps i guess #anyway horror of horrors folks are staying out even longer #so i have to feed myself without supervision #and who knows how long I'm gonna put that off #I don't feel very hungry rn but I should orepare food before I start feeling the hunger #but if I can't feel the hunger I cba with food #fuck my stupid baka life #think today's a bit of a write off #mr. bees speaks

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i-eat-deodorant · 10 months

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hey. i don't normally boost my stuff, so i ask that people please hear me out on this one.

i know i reblog art most of the time, but i primarily consider myself a fanfic writer. not a fanartist, but a fanwriter. and i use ao3 metrics such as kudos and comments to gauge how liked a story is. this directly affects how willing i am to continue writing.

comments are golden (i read and cherish everyone of them!), but if you like what i write, please take the time to click the kudos button.

thank you kindly.

#not cotl #i have a d3 and d7 wip #but if nobody's reading it i'm simply going to share between the ones that are #normally i don't care much about these but lately i haven't been doing well #so whether my creative endeavors matter to the public is something that matters to me #for the two people who comment #tysm they’re very much adored

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intersexfairy · 10 months

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i wrote over 3,000 words of a short story today and i still haven't given my characters names bc i planned nothing before i started writing. don't really know how to explain what i wrote but uhh. one character's an autistic nonbinary faun with wings, and the other's a cis human who's a hunter but not very good at it because he has adhd. they are both gay men but they don't know it yet. i'm so tired i can't write any more today but i Will find them names. recommendations welcome, can't promise at all that i'll use them.

#i haven't written anything like this in a long long time #feels very weird especially given the fact ive been dangerously going thru it this month but. these past few days ive felt better so yeah #gay neurodivergent characters!!#creative writing!!#yay!#julian rants

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holofishes · 1 year

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something something long walks on the beach ☀

[johnny’s top]

#haven't been feeling very creative lately but i was determined to get something done #just bc they've been rotating in my mind ♡#cyberpunk 2077 #cp2077 #cp2077 screenshots #cp2077 photomode #cyberpunk 2077 v #fem v #johnny silverhand #silverv #shippy saturday #oc: wren 'v' vogel #ship: wren x johnny #my screenshots

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korattata · 4 months

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oh i'm gonna have to redownload pokemon masters huh.

#fucking FINALLY. i had been literally saving my gems for when they'd finally give gladion a new outfit.#i have all of the lillies. took them long enough #now the question is does my phone have space. i JUST deleted pokemon go again not long ago. so it might #*new creative post tag here*#i haven't played the game in over a year at the very least. probably more like 2???#before they added the feature where you could hang out with characters. that happened not long after i stopped i think

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solvicrafts · 5 months

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Nine people I'd like to get to know better

...except I'm getting to this very late and have no idea who has or hasn't done this yet, so consider this a free-for-all for anyone wanting to do this, too!

Last song: Follow Fi (extended) - good background noise when I'm working on my websites :)

Bregan D'aerthe fan-site will be returning soon-ish btw! PROBABLY in April or May but it really depends on how much more our relocation is gonna keep getting pushed back :(

Favourite colour: I am a BIG fan of colors just in general but um...

GREEN. Let's just say 'green' and make this a bit easier.

Last tv show/movie: Oh lord... I really don't watch tv much at all. As in... I've watched 1 show in the last 3 years, which is the Loki series.

Spicy/sweet/savoury: Mostly savory with a bit of spice. I do not usually like mixing sweet and savory. There's an Indian restaurant around here that makes great tikka masala and if I could only eat ONE meal for the rest of my life it would be that.

Last game: Minecraft. I was feeling a bit cynical after corporate put up some more ~woo~ feel-good brainwashing customer service posters so I fought back by putting up signs in my spooky scary underground dungeon saying shit like "positive vibes only" and a few other things that might be too much of a giveaway for where I work so I won't share them (YET!)

Last thing i google "do people seriously believe this crap?" with absolutely no added context because that's the mood I was in

@foxboyclit thank you for tagging me in this, it was fun!

#is this the room of a 5 year old or a 30+ year old with adhd and too much creativity to contain?#actually it has changed a bit since I took that photo given that it's been a year #but overall it's still very similar #the ghost is gone because the string broke and I couldn't be arsed to fix it #so now there's the giant spider web in its place #the flowery table cover was replaced with a lace spider web for Lolthmas and I still haven't changed it back #during covid when I was working in a hippie woo grocery store at the height of it all I got seriously depressed #I couldn't go anywhere the way my hours were #so I turned my room into an enchanted forest and tbh it's really serene. my cat is hopelessly in love with my little red rose pillows.#this is the longest I've left my room looking more or less the same #I get an urge to redecorate every 6 months like clockwork but it's been this way for 4 years now I think #taking everything down when I relocate is gonna suck but my next room/office is gonna be Underdark themed so... WORTH IT #I already have the custom printed mural :'D #the new mural is a lot less cartoonish and a bit more uh... GROWN-UP lol but still very pretty #cw: taxidermy #<- just in case since I have one of my foxes and coywolves in the photo #disclaimer: the pelts in this photo are super old and were not killed by me or for the purpose of taxidermy

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park-chan-yall · 2 years

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Kpop Moodboards-

Kyujung~Chungking Express

#onlyoneof #ooo #kyujung #yoojung #kb #kyubin #kpop #kpop moodboard #onlyoneof moodboard #yoojung moodboard #kyubin moodboard #onlyoneof scenario #kpop scenario #kpop au #mine #mymoodboard #sorry for being so MIA I haven't felt very creative recently #I've been trying but nothing has been coming from it lol anyways I got into OOO

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pasta-pardner · 1 year

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Butch and Sundance have shared quite a ride together. They're going down-- guns blazing and side-by-side.

#butch cassidy and the sundance kid (1969)#butch x sundance #butch cassidy #the sundance kid #robert parker #harry longabaugh #westerns #🤠#videos #hi y'all !!! i haven't been posting a lot lately bc I'm going through major life events ((ie: lost my mom to terminal cancer))#but i finally got around to finishing another one of my fanvid WIPs so enjoy !#im beating my depression away with a stick by engaging in cowboy special interest.#not a lot of creative match cuts or thematic relevance going on in this vid #but I played with multiple new editing/animating techniques so I'm proud of it regardless.#ik the 2010s synth pop rock might seem like a strange music genre choice for a 1960s western.. but consider this... i dont care </3 #anyways comments/replies/reblogs are very much appreciated (should you feel so inclined). yehaw friends #pardner posts #Youtube

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pastafossa · 2 years

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Alright! Got the TRT chapter written and some editing done. Hopefully I’ll be able to finish editing tomorrow evening (leaving at 11am and roughly 6 hour drive, will have time tomorrow night), or potentially Monday and Tues night if the editing’s not finished up tomorrow. Breakfast is usually at 8:30am at art camp, followed by ART until lunch, then MORE ART until dinner, and then we’re all done SURPRISE THE TEACHER GIVES ME HIS SHOP KEY EVERY YEAR SO I CAN GO CARVE MORE AFTER DINNER CAUSE I AM A MACHINE.

So we’ll see what I get done. Pre-editing, the chapter was about 4.5k words so I won’t have to edit a mountain at least, and I think I can do it. I’ll let ya’ll know if something changes!

#the red thread #i think i can make it without tooooo much trouble #i'm honestly planning on what i call the Dopamine Burst #because every time I go to art camp and do this #it's like the creativity button in my brain gets SLAMMED #something about being in a space devoted to art and being able to focus solely on that #makes my brain want to make *more* things #and not just carving - some of my biggest trt plot revelations came while i was at art camp #so i'm hoping the same thing will happen again and if so then inspo will hit and i'll literally WANT DESPERATELY to trt #in between my carving #at the very least I will HAVE THOUGHTS that require sharing every night in between pictures of whatever i made that day!#i haven't been to this place since just before covid so i'm excited to go back and see my teacher again and make more things

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the-velvet-worm · 2 years

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thinking abt Vex getting back from Pandemonium and realizing she’s pregnant and just. feeling so many things because they’ve just saved the world ⎯ again ⎯ and she just lost Vax, and he would’ve been the first person she told (after Percy, of course) and he would’ve been so excited and happy for her and it would’ve given them so much to look forward to but he’s gone and there’s nothing she can do about it, she can’t tell him, her kids will never know their uncle, and it’s just a lot for someone to handle so soon after everything they all literally just went through. like how is she supposed to be take in such news when the other half of her soul is missing now? she still has Percy, her husband, her heart, but the one constant throughout her entire life is gone and she just. idk probably felt really lonely for a bit there. to have the knowledge that she was experiencing something so wonderful and joyful with the man she loves, while she’s mourning the fact that her brother won’t be a part of any of it is just... really fuckin sad, man lol

#I'm still very much in my feels abt this and I may or may not be exploring that through fic so stay tuned for that #critical role #cr1 #cr1 spoilers #critical role spoilers #vex'ahlia #vax'ildan #percy de rolo #perc'ahlia #and like yes this is something that has been explored by others through writing but let me have this okay lol #I haven't written anything i felt passionately about in a really long time and channeling my grief in a creative way is like #super cathartic for me #so I kinda just need a little bit of closure/catharsis before I can move on #and maybe it'll be an extended thing idk #but I'm just having a lot of feelings about the twins and their relationship and Vax's death and and and #anyway I hope it's a lovely Tuesday!#mine probably won't be skdjfksf

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pillars-of-salt · 2 months

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i know these are after 10 pm feelings but i truly am so sad that i don't have the motivation or time to draw as much as i used to and i'm sad that tumblr's culture has deteriorated so much bc now there's really no point in posting art here anymore even when i do draw

#i used to draw ALL. THE. TIME. it was all i did. and now i've stopped or go long blocks w/o drawing and a lot of my skills have deteriorated #i'm very bad at dynamic poses. or drawing anything in motion really. and composition and scenery and color grading.#and lately i've been very frustrated with where my style is and how it does not translate between paper and digital well #and i forgot how to draw FACES. of all things. that is literally ALL i draw man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i dont knowwww i don't know and even when i do draw i don't really want to post it anymore there's a bunch of stuff i haven't posted #not sure how to phrase this but. it's not exactly because my art doesn't get notes. it's bc even though i've always gotten very few notes #when i post art i'm fine w only getting a few notes because that's the hazard of only posting oc art #but a few years ago even when i had way fewer followers and less art experience people still interacted in ways that made it worth posting #it felt rewarding to be part of the creative community! it was really fun and a lot of people were making cool stuff #and now they don't bc the landscape of tumblr has changed over the years and it feels dead here man #and i wish that wasn't such a big factor in me wanting to draw. but man i just like my characters a lot and i wanna share them.#and i feel like i'm not doing a good job

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soultoken-archived · 5 months

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john?

he shivers, pulling the coat stronger on himself. all the alcohol in his veins almost made him forget to be outside in the middle of the winter night, but now he's starting to feel it again. his liquor stained breath condenses in the chilling air, looking like the smoke he can't have because he ran out of cigarettes. it's freezing. but he's not moving. his eyes wander up, to the apartment he's been sitting in front of. his old apartment. their old apartment.

johnny...

a silhouette moves behind the curtains. maybe someone going for a glass of water, maybe it's just his own imagination. or maybe a ghost. but who or whatever that is, it has the same silhouette of des. it stands near the window for a moment, stretches. then it's gone. maybe they got back to bed. like he used to do, when john would call him, sleepily lying there after the only truly restful nights of his life. he would call him, and des would lie down again, just a little longer. just for him. but john didn't do the same. no, he had to sacrifice the only man he truly cared about to save his stupid, pathetic life.

you drank again, didn't you?... i know. don't worry. i know it's not easy to stop. but you promised me, johnny.

he realizes he's crying only when he feels his tears getting colder in the freezing air. why did he think he could handle a normal life with des? why did he think he could even remotely have a right for such a life? to try and take it, he ended up taking des' too, and they both lost them. if only he could stay away from him, if only he could stop lying to himself, saying stupid things like i can do this, i can live with him, everything will be okay, everything will get fixed, des would still be his own person, he would be free. and instead, he had to try and take it. the normal life. the life that he was never meant to have. and he just can't stop hearing his voice, now.

don't worry. i'll help you. you'll do better next time.

and he's always so kind. so extremely kind. and he doesn't deserve it. he doesn't deserve him. he never did.

you promised me, johnny.

but i can't keep any promise.

#alcohol //#alcoholism mention //#𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐣𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲𝐬.「 drabble. 」#𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝.「 dc / modern. 」#hiii <3 i'm still alive. more or less. i started a job with my sister and tonight i haven't slept and i thought that i needed to vent it ou #i forgot how much writing and... be creative in general can help me externalize and process things.#even if i end up writing very sad things sfjk. anyway. <3 i've been losing my mind over books and resi4 and super mario rpg #but i think i'm finally feeling the itch of writing and drawing a lot more. maybe especially because i don't have all day anymore.#which thank God but also... man. did it had to be this hard to start? really?

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