more stress drawing! but here is tged again :) small comic

After not writing a goddamn thing for the first half of the month (also the 2nd half of last month shhh) I cranked out 8.5k today and got back on track to meet my 18k camp nano goal 💪 perhaps in the morning I'll share a little snippet to celebrate 😌 but for now rest

like... its impossible to actually 'revise' for english language... but the immense guilt of not revising the day before the exam... but not being able to revise for any other test because i have english language next and you can't really revise for that... and then my previous points again... do you see my struggle?

rereading the worst scene I have ever written in my entire life and why did harrison have to drag lonan so hard here:

The sound of Lonan’s voice is like crashing into a concrete wall.

had to cut this from the final review but i needed to share the meisner dig somewhere because i was proud of that one

Im ngl so tired of exams and just want to draw and play vidya games but i heard a classmate loudly ranting about how 'this is all useless and we are all gonna end up in our husbands's homes with 10 kids anyways' so basically i will be dedicating very second to studying the most complex of subjects to get the best grades and prove her and every girl and woman who thinks like this wrong.

i think my biggest issue with the hazard perception part of the driving theory is that i'm too cautious because i see the hazard in the video and guess that its the hazard but then i tap too early when its not actually considered a hazard yet and lose points. because i know its test video if that makes sense. like irl i think this will make me a very cautious driver but i keep needing to remind myself that i need to identify HAZARDS not just. stuff happening

gotta appreciate how mxtx really doesn't care at all at how people interpret her characters, and doesn't change her writing or alienate her readers to convince them of a certain interpretation (unless theyre actively putting words in her mouth)

she really just wanted to write her words and create a work she is proud of, and not letting the audience response to affect the final product

i find it very interesting and odd how people react when someone (who is very much in the public eye) comes out as trans and changes their name... on letterboxd if you have any reviews of elliot page's movies before he came out, you're expected the change his name if you wrote it out in your review... and they'll even go to reviews from like OVER A DECADE AGO and say "um it's elliot now bro, you should change this 🤓☝️" but it's so funny cause it just feels revisionist to me like... did elliot himself ask you to do that? did he ask you to forget that he was ever "ellen"? it's really odd because it's almost always cis lgb people doing this and they never stop to wonder if they shouldn't bother simply because it doesn't hurt anything. if someone was deadnaming him ON PURPOSE AFTER THE FACT, then i completely understand why you would comment on the review and whatnot - but it's just crazy seeing a review from like 2016 that says "i love elliot page 🩷" because you just know that they went back and changed it. i can understand why it makes people uncomfortable... but it's weird that we don't allow trans people themselves to control the narrative on things like this, y'know? are we entitled to change a review simply because you're deadnaming him NOW even though you weren't when you wrote the review 5 or 6 years ago? does elliot want people to act like he was never "ellen"? or is it more likely just that it makes cis lgb people uncomfortable because thry think they need to have a strict adhereance to things like this - so much so that they wish they could go back in time so they never wrote his deadname, even if there's no way they would have known his inner life at the time 🤷‍♀️

I know I'm the only person who still cares about this but I'm gonna say my "I think I turned my childhood friend into a girl" opinions cuz I've seen enough bad takes.

To preface this: I've read a lot of otokonoko Mangas and queer Mangas are beloved to me. I had been reading this manga since way before it was picked up by sevenseas and I really disappointed when the translation came out.

In case ur seeing this and have no idea what I'm talking about "I think I turned my childhood friend into a girl" is about mido who is a guy who likes cosmetics who one day tries them on his gloomy friend hiura and it makes hiura insanely cute, hiura who has a crush on mido starts wearing makeup and dressing femininely to impress mido finds out he's more comfortable in feminine clothing and gains confidence"

Said controversy was when sevenseas printed the manga with overt trans language that was no present in the original and were pressured into eventually retranslating the first volume to be closer to the original

Now that everything is laid out let's go over 2 facts.

number 1: the author (azusa banjo) during the controversy explicitly stated that was not their intention. This is self explanatory if the author said u did something wrong then u did something wrong, it's their authority those are THEIR characters and THEIR story.

Number 2: the trans edits made make no sense on context of the story. Only volume one was printed and the edits made were pretty minor stuff like using she/her pronouns, and referring to hiura as a girl. Remember, this is volume ONE. I own the original print and there's multiple pages where hiura says "I'm a boy" and then cuts to mido using she/her pronouns for him. Hiura hasn't even had time to have his trans revelation (which would be during the beach arc if u want to claim he has one). It literally makes no sense in story context.

Some crazy shit I've seen people say

"it's transphobic to say that hiura isn't trans" I'll admit I am not transgender. I consider myself not cis but not trans so my word isn't like law but We're talking about character interpretation. The dialog is ambiguous you can't say "it's transphobic to not interpret this character the same way I do"

"Sevenseas localized it" do you think that Japanese people just don't know what transgender people are????? There's a ton of good transgender studies if you look. I could make an argument that hiura was made less complex by erasing the otokonoko aspect of his character. A big part of otokonoko media is expression you don't want to perform masculinity but you aren't a girl, you're in the middle (go read senpai wa otokonoko it does this gender expression so beautifully but even the silly ones have hints of this). Things aren't black and white it's not cis or trans.

"It would have been this way if Japan hadn't censored it" adding on to my earlier statement like I said there's tons of transgender Mangas but also.... censorship from who? It's own author?? We see more infantilization of Japan that the west loves to do where they don't know about LGBT issues. It's own author said that it was not their intention for hiura you have to listen to the author

If u want hiura to be trans? Fine thats your interpretation. I had thoughts of that too when I originally read the manga. But you have to understand the difference between interpretation and the actual text.

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you know that one scene from blood beast / demon apocalypse where grubbs is protecting bill-e from juni? yeah ok that, but grubbs is fully wolfed out because it looks better in art^_^

so far got 850 words on the robin ‘creep’ one shot….

Next TR Spin-off will be released on 29th May ^^ The latest one has been out today FYI ;)

just cracked out a 2k word essay in an hour and im feeling p good abt myself

I finished my shitty ass vent fic today at 5 a.m. and it's horrible, but it's finished<3