fuck it my new years resolution is to get over my fear of sending people asks

regret

cw// implied character death, double life nonsense

because you are love itself.

you and Mr. Fell don't ever talk to each other-

-you never say what you're really thinking.

anyway my stance on "reading the classics" basically boils down to the fact that what is or is not defined as "a classic" is somewhat arbitrary, and therefore it makes no sense to treat "the classics" as some sort of uniform genre that you either like or dislike. Whether you liked Great Expectations has no bearing on whether you'll like 1984 or Rebecca or Pride and Prejudice or East of Eden or Frankenstein or Crime and Punishment. Because those are all vastly different books. "I don't want to read Classics; they're all boring and probably sexist or something." <<free yourself from the arbitrary category of "classic." It just means a lot of people liked the book. You might not. but you might. Treat it as an individual title.

furries are fucking awesome man reblog this post if you think furries are awesome

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been wildly ping-ponging between projects and not finishing any of them. but finally. finished a worm thing. it doesn’t help that it ended up being so long. ignore any pacing issues (this is an command). you'll wanna click through

honestly it still feels like it’s got problems but i just want to stop thinking about it now

(this occurs Before it becomes semi-public knowledge that subway boss ingo is. a worm now.)

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.

so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.

never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?

nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.

i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.

my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.

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he ian on my cox until i smosh. is that anything?*taps my mic* can anybody hear me? hello?

To seek revenge may lead to Hell; everyone does it, though seldom as well... As Sweeney... As Sweeney Todd... The Demon Barber of Fleet Street! Josh Groban in the title role, 2023. @theriddletrades' master.

every time I see a take that flattens Ed's character into this boring perfect angel who can do no wrong and has 0 agency because literally every choice he makes is determined by the actions of white men, I add another sentence to my stories where he's a sympathetic, complex and multifaceted trauma victim - but also an abuser who made terrible mistakes of his own volition, who seriously hurt people he cares about and left them traumatised, who feels crushed beneath the terrifying hypermasculine persona he built for himself (which he is still figuring out how to escape/incorporate into his new self/define himself around). A desperate, affection-starved, suicidal man who struggles hugely with his mental health, who deserves a loving support system (just not from his victims unless they want to be a part of it), who can grow and change and do better, who can work on himself and explore himself and find love and happiness.

but y'know, maybe I'm the one who 'hates his character' lmaoooo

I spent, like, a half hour looking for this clip because I think that you all need to see it.

Quackity:

"That's one of the cooler things. I saw a creator from Brazil, it seems, who actually claimed that they were getting people-someone who's not in the QSMP-they said they were getting people in their chat who doesn't-who don't speak Portuguese. It's a Brazilian creator who's not even on QSMP, and he was talking about the effects-possibly-of that crossing of communities with the QSMP. Which is amazing, and I find that so, so cool. And it makes me really happy because, at the end of the day, that's what-that's what the server is meant to do-is help communities from different parts of the world cross each other. And I find it amazing. What I find so beautiful about this chat specifically is that being the English streams, English is the more common language spoken, right? And what I find so amazing about this chat is when something funny happens I see people saying 'hahaha' in English, 'jajaja' in Spanish, and the 'kkkk', which is how, you know, Portuguese speaking people usually type to laugh. And that's amazing. That's three different languages in one chat and I think that kind of crossover is so incredibly important."

(ignore the odd title, not my video, but important anyhow)

>>>

When I give praise for Quackity, for the QSMP as a whole, this is why. Quackity is genuinely doing some groundbreaking stuff, and I think that, in a sense, he's paving the way for future creators.

I think it's interesting to note that while Kazuki does express practically all his emotions intensely, he doesn't really do the same with sadness. Of course, he does cry, but it's never when he's actually sad. During episode 7, when he was feeling unsure about what happiness is, and was grieving over his wife's death, he went quiet and thoughtful instead of crying. It's a bit similar to episode 10, where he was arguably less brighter than his usual self, but his smiles were more intimate and heartfelt.

It's not uncommon for people to express sadness or disappointment through quietness [That's literally what I do all the time] but for someone like Kazuki who wears his emotions on his sleeve, it's more gut wrenching to think about. It's almost like he holds himself back from expressing it, but there were multiple instances in this episode were his emotions caught up with him. But the main one is definitely this scene:

He visibly tears up, but he smiles despite that. It's reminiscent of the "overwhelmed with love" expression that's shown in a lot of stories, but mixed with that is realisation that "This is actually happening. It's going to end."

The scene where Kazuki gives the scarf to Miri is particularly gut wrenching because yes, obviously he's trying to prolong the moment before she leaves, but it's also similar to how Kazuki wrapped the scarf around the cat in episode 1 [as many others have pointed out]. Kazuki is visibly fond of both the cat and Miri, but he lets them go because he doesn't believe he has the capability to keep them safe and happy, especially after what happened to his wife and unborn child.

I can't say Kazuki loves too easily, I'm unsure of that myself, but he's definitely full of love. When he loves someone, he loves them with all his heart, and it magnifies because the people he love are limited. And he's fine with the few people he loves, because making real connections with lots of people is dangerous and risky. He was clearly expecting something long term with Miri and Rei and he acted accordingly. I am emotionally unwell.