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sukunasdirtylaugh · 3 months

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tags: gojo x f!reader, bridgerton au. (unedited) word count: 1.29k

it seems as though lady whistledown had taken a liking to you. born out of a prestigious lineage, your name was untainted, holding no negative connotation other than the envy your perfectness shone over anything.

like a porcelain doll, as the queen has once referred to you as on your first visit.

your mother and grandmother before you married as 'pure' with little to no scandals involved, yet it was your mother in her time who caused the biggest uproar in suitors to pursue her. even today, you had grown up with maids, nannies, and people well acquainted with your mother, and your mother at times who would share details over her diamond years. 3, to be exact.

now you felt an obligation to live up to the family name, to honor the work your mother has preserved before you so that you could comfortably live a life with no shame, and you swore that you would do the same for your own children.

if, you decided to bear them.

tonight, you stand in a glorious dress, embedded with the stones your mother and trusted modist claimed to make you look radiant. yet that seemed to be the opposite for you. 4 dances have occurred in your presence and only one man approached to talk to you. the worst thing was that he was unsuitable, and your mother had to intervene, breaking apart the association and taking you to another.

"he was boring," you whisper shouted at your mother who eyed you, aware to not make a scene as you stopped by a secluded balcony. "it seemed everything I told him, he would restate it or make it obvious. it was like talking to myself! if I wanted to, I would have sought company from my mirror."

"how frustrating." you nod in agreement with your mother.

"have all good men gone to waste mama?" you ask, stress and tears welling in your eyes. "If this is the first man I encounter, I cannot bear to think what the rest of them might be like. Or is it I am just ugly?"

"hush, child." your mother holds your shoulders, then cups your cheeks. "you're not acting like yourself tonight. don't let one bad apple ruin your basket. you are young, gifted, and come from a name. you are something because you came from me. have I not taught you well?" she caresses your arm in comfort. "come, wipe those tears that are threatening to fall. you will cause a scandal on your own if you are seen crying tonight. let's find you an honorary man."

that night you only danced with two men. they remained respectful, yet not enough to provoke intrigue in you. though you would never outwardly admit that to your mother, at the end of your second dance, you went for a beverage. opting for some time for yourself.

"I couldn't help but wonder if you were running from that man after that dance, or if the conversation was that good you needed to excuse yourself for a beverage." the voice snickers, standing beside you, "he was terrible, right?"

"I wasn't, I was just dehydrated." you remark, careful with your tone as you defend your doings. as you stand beside him, you cannot see his face as he is taller than you. lifting your head up would raise even more spectacle as you saw one woman and what appeared to be her sister point at you with the mysterious man at your side.

"so do they just dehydrate fair maidens now? seems like a trick to get you to marry the first man you see,"

you don't answer him quick enough.

"lord higurama is a good choice. he has a fair name and a inheritance to obtain, however, be wary of his drinking problem. heard he leaves bars at ungodly hours of the morning with holes in his pockets."

you can't help but gasp softly, almost in disbelief as the man beside you spoke so poorly of the men you danced with. it might have been a given that you needed to get out of here after those girls pointed at you with shock on their faces. have you just ruined your reputation?

"I respectfully fail to see how that is any of your concern, sir." you state, imposing a formal limit, "I have no desire to engage in talk if it pertains to stain the reputation of others."

"please," you hear him snort beside you and you freeze, feeling yourself slightly become smaller. "his reputation is done for. I'd be doing you a favor

"and your reputation, good sir?" you counter, but when you hear silence from him, you fear you have crossed the line. it isn't until you are pulled by mother you see this man. white hair adorns his features while stunning blue eyes decorate his face. the hold your mother has on you let's you know to stand well, and be presentable.

"Lord Gojo," your mother bows, slightly forcing you to bow with her, "what a pleasnt encounter to find you here. my condolences to you and your family after your father's passing."

"lady levington, you are too kind." he man before you bows, offering your mother a charming smile you can't help but hold back a jaw drop at his sudden charming behavior. "I assume you are enjoying your time at the final winter's ball?"

"indeed," your mother smiles charmed, "we were just enjoying our time at the ball. this is my daughter, lady levington. she is of the age to begin looking for a suitor," your mother states, "wouldn't you agree?"

"well I find it difficult to believe that your daughter will struggle to find a suitable partner given her agreeable nature," your jaw slightly clenches, "I suppose you have a large list of eligible bachelor's for your daughter?"

"oh yes," your mother smiles, "but I tell my daughter we must select carefully. it is growing rather difficult to choose an honorable man for marriage, yet modern problems always continue to arise with the passing of time. wouldn't you agree?"

"I couldn't have said it better myself," he smiles, "finding a husband has been growing to be tedious by the years, yet that is why we must be careful in selecting. london is unfortunately filled with lots of ineligible bachelors starting off with lawyers with questionable drinking and spending habits. a poor reflection on our society, wouldn't you agree?"

"it is unfortunate indeed," you mother sighs softly, "but we shall look carefully to ensure a positive outlook for the future."

"that is always a pleasure to hear," smiles gojo, offering a bow. "if you'll excuse me, I must be on my way. it has been a pleasure to find you in good health, madam. and the best of my wishes to your lovely daughter as well."

after some concluding exchanges, your mother stands proudly with a smile on her face. "you will not believe who we just spoke to." she says, moving you away from the drinking station. "we must bid our farewells and leave as soon as possible."

"why?" you frown, "the dance doesn't end until-"

"-we've already met an eligible bachelor," your mother smiles, "you should've seen the look on everyone's faces. you will surely draw attention now, my dear."

the following day, you wake up to the following news from lady whistledown, having written an article about you.

"at the winter's ball, lady levington's beauty could be seen from a mile away, drawing the attention of lords. standing with such poise and grace, lady levington has proved herself to start off as an indestructible force with honor as her first name. will she perhaps be named diamond of the season? or indestructible diamond?"

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judgementdaysunshine · 1 year

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Congrats!!! Can I get a ship please ⚓️ ?

Fandom: Harry Potter / DC (preferably batfam) / star wars

She/her, and I'd like a male ship please.

I'm slightly above average height for a girl (about 5'9) with brown wavy hair, but I'm always dying it bright colours/changing my haircut (much to mother's dismay lol). Style-wise, I tend to alternate between super preppy, if not a little too formal, to just completely grunge. Depends on my mood and who I'm hanging around with that day I guess. I am quite impartial to my combat boots though. And high-heels. Ideally both at once.

I'm an INTJ Slytherin Leo--fairly introverted and aloof by nature but after years of practice and forcing myself out there, I can be quite bubbly and chatty when necessary (super draining though and it still sometimes weirds out some of my oldest friends how quickly I can switch). I will not shut up about random nerdy/sciencey nonesense if I feel comfortable. Not too great with emotions though--it's a work in progress heh.

Currently a physics and maths double major with a minor in philosophy because that somehow seemed like a good idea at the time and no one told me I couldn't do it. Quite active around campus--super involved in leadership for some clubs and the student union, and compete in debate. I love it because it's all super interesting af but I'm not too great at math for someone doing a degree in it and I'm at a point where I'm surviving on irresponsible caffeine consumption and spite alone. I switch between hobbies and interests really often because i suppose i just get bored a little too easily, so I'm a bit of a jack of all trades--only things I've really stuck with for a long time are writing (that will never see the light of day) and just tinkering around with stuff to figure out how it works and seeing what I can do with it. Technically a classically trained pianist because parents expected it but uh I haven't practiced in a while so I'm a 'lil rusty--more into rock music these days anyway.

I'm trilingual--French, English, and Arabic (needs a lot of work though). Trying to learn Latin for the hell of it (also helps with Philosophy a bit). Fortunately got to travel a lot as a kid because of my parents' work so it's helped with getting some practice I suppose. I just love travelling and getting to know other cultures honestly, especially having lived in big cities and had friends from all over my whole life. And getting to visit all the museums and art galleries is a huge plus.

Sorry this if this way too long, but congrats again! Have a great day xx

Here ya go dear! And thank you! 🪷

First I ship you with Remus Lupin! 💙

He likes your passion for physics and philosophy always seeing how hard you work and never give up which makes him so proud of you for it

He is amazed at how talented you are with foreign languages speaking Latin around him as well as bits and pieces of Arabic and French mostly speaking English but he never fails to smile when you say I love you in a different language

He always makes sure if you've had more than 2 or 3 and a half cups of coffee to give you water or milk even if sometimes he has to sweet talk you to do it he just wants you to be healthy a little bit

He never minds when you're chatty or quiet always listening and talking smiling sweetly at you before laughing at your bubbly and lively actions

He likes to have your head in his lap while you both read to each other or in silence enjoying the other's company

He likes seeing you wear his sweaters whether to sleep in or just around the house he falls in love with you all over again just seeing you in a sweater

Next I ship you with Tim Drake! ♥️

He always helps you if you're having trouble with math or any work that you are getting frustrated and confused by ready to teach you a few tricks to help

He never lets you get sleep deprived or really out of control with caffeine always giving you water or milk to help you in between the consumption of caffeine

He likes how you go from the nice button up and skirt with your hair up in a bun to a loose fitting grunge shirt and jeans with a messy ponytail or braids always smiling at how good you look

He loves going to the park or museum with you he lives learning more of history or just enjoying the peacefulness of the park in the evening or night

He likes hearing stories of you traveling around with your parents when you're younger always having a good laugh or fond smile hearing of your childhood

He likes to just lay on your lap or stomach when he is tired and needs sleep always feeling his stress wipe away laying on you while you wear one of his hoodies

And finally I ship you with Anakin Skywalker! 🧡

He never judges anyone for their size or height but he will take a chance at least twice to get a joke about your short height just to make you pout at him

He likes listening to you play piano when the two of you are in Naboo visiting Padme or your family in your childhood home on Corusant

He likes knowing more of the cultures from you since he only knew a bit of naboo culture and some of Tatooine and corusant culture but learning more about them and if others made him love you more

He likes to teach you how to use a blaster and drive a speeder always smiling at you driving his speeder like he does but also mindful of how you drive and how fast reminding him of Obi wan

He loves how you treat his padawan like a sister, his best friend like a sister, and his master like a father loving them just as much maybe even more than he did

He gets tearful and emotional when he sees you place a flower on his mom's grave always going to tell her happy birthday, happy Thanksgiving, merry Christmas, happy New Year, and how much you wish you could have met her making him fall in love all over again

#tim drake x reader #700 followers celebration #anakin skywalker #follower celebration #remus lupin #micheleamidalajedi's 700 followers celebration #tim drake #remus lupin x reader #micheleamidalajedi #anakin skywalker x reader

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myfunnydiary04 · 2 years

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Online diary entry #1, June 21st, 2022

Hi. I'm gonna tell you about today in a bit, but before, I'll tell you what bothers me a lot right now. I can't tell my best friend, because she's gotten tired of me talking about boys so much, I feel like, and I just have to tell SOMEBODY because I'm going insane. So I was casually watching a German series on Netflix, right? Just sitting, wasting my time..and I remembered about the post I made earlier on Instagram, just a photo dump of today, since I was bored..and I looked at my phone and I saw that V liked my post. T didn't like it yet, but I don't know that I care about him anymore. And P, well..I'll always care about P, but that's besides the point. I'm happy that they liked it, but it's making me so mad and guilty that now I can't get V out of my mind, AGAIN, and I have Troye Sivan's "Only fools" playing in my head on repeat. V and T are friends and it's not right that I caught feelings for T's friend when T thinks I like him and he likes me back. I feel so bad, but V's just....AGRH!! He's too good to be true. I just really hope that the rumours aren't true and that he's not into guys. Or that he's also into girls. Ugh, this makes me sound awful, and I'm not representing my community like I should, being pansexual, but I just..I couldn't ever be just friends with him!!!! He's lovely. He's so nice and so open and talkative and friendly, and I know I said this for P, also, but if he asked me for the Moon, I'd dedicate the rest of my life to trying to give it to him. By the way, did I tell you that P has a little girlfriend, again? She's like 2 or 3 years younger than him..not that it would matter in real life but is it not weird for you to be with a 14 year old? What was wrong with me, I was a few months older and some cm way too short? Anyhow, I'm over that now, so we shall move on from the subject of boys because I'm getting frustrated.

So hear this instead: My day? B o r i n g. Really boring. I was kinda motivated this morning to get my life together, but it went away as quickly as it came. You kinda need money to get your life together and I don't have that...or the mental state, but that is very much besides the point..Did you know how expensive is a visit to a very, very good dentist? Hell, my sister paid such good money for my dentist appointment yesterday, FOR ONLY ONE TOOTH, I might become a dentist myself, just for the funding of other projects.

But anyhow..I didn't do anything today. I started watching that German series I mentioned earlier and that I don't know the name of, but I figured that since I took to studying German by myself, it would do me good to get familiarized with it. And it's good, too. And the guy there, Dominik..my GOD, he's so pretty. So, soooo beautiful. If the show wasn't already in German, I'd watch it just for him.

Also, quick reminder for me...read more. Just read whatever, really, whatever you like, but read. Please, read. :(

Yeah so..it's 22:45. It's not late at all, but I'm sleepy and I know my exhaustion isn't physical, since I've been sitting around..for a big part of my life. It's mental, and it's bothering me a lot, because I don't know how to rest my mind or my soul or even just how to trick my mind into thinking that my life is real, because it really doesn't feel like it is. It's like a badly directed, badly scripted short film that is so bad, you just keep wondering "WHEN WILL THIS END?!", but it doesn't end if you keep asking yourself that, because it's only been 5 minutes since it started. I feel like crying and screaming and yelling and kicking everything that touches me, and I don't even know why. I'm don't feel sad. I just feel...empty. Personally, I think it's the ADHD. Or the OCD. I think I forgot my point. I'll just..yeah, I'll go on with..telling you about my day. So I sat and felt ill and empty and I ate and sat some more and then, I ate some ice cream that I didn't even really like, and I ate a lot of it, and why? Well, I was bored. And a little miserable, to be fair, but you know..I'm always bored and miserable so it doesn't even count anymore, right? After that, I took some pics, again out of boredom but also because I'd like some memories, some cute ones, and my hair was looking quite good because of a shampoo bar I bought yesterday. Very nice stuff. After that, I watched Netflix. Now it's somehow almost 1 AM, so you can see how much Netflix I watched. I'm so tired I could cry. Does that even make sense? I'd like to cuddle with my dog and just cry my eyes out, but my mom won't let me take him inside. It's ok, though..I'm used to it.

I didn't say all that I had to say, but I'll come back tomorrow. Until then, you are all invited to my crying fest. And, if anyone is ever gonna read this..you're the best. Good night or good morning or whatever. Take care. <3

#diary #personal diary #tumblr diary #online diary

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baekhvuns · 2 years

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PLS YUNHO IS SUCH A BIAS WRECKER OF MINE-- if you wrote about about him I think I would simply pass away nuh-huh,,

Also hi hellooo :D I died for a bit and now I'm back and CURIOUS how is the progress of moon lovers going- decided on the ending yet? Will I cry? (Thats a trick question, obviously I will)

Also how is the progress on snowdrop going? :D I couldn't restrain myself like I said I would wait and now I'm watching twenty five twenty one... Needless to say it will definitely be in my top three dramas of 2022 eUFH

MQHDKWB ME TOO PLS 😭😭😩 mr jeong pls 😭 HRWKDHWK I HAVE WRITTEN MEMOIR FOR HIM BUT I RLY WANNA WRITE FOR HIM AGAIN 😭😭 i just don’t know what plot </3

hELLLO dbnwdh IM OKAY SO U RMR THE SCENE WHERE BAEKHYUN AND IU WERE INTRODUCED THRU THE WOTAH 😭😭☺️☺️ woo is baek in it <3 ITS GOING WELL !!! a lot of confusion bc the mc just time travelled and is vv frustrated and holds a sword so- duke and general eggs??? yes

a little slow bddb but it’ll be a sad one im thinking hard and stuff— yeah, it’s a 80% change it’ll be sad !! you will cry i will guarantee bc it’s a lot of pain for one person to withhold with the ending i been brewing !!

BEMWHDKW snowdrop is so far so good im a little bored of it tbh 😭😭😭😭 I JUST WANNA SKIP TO THE END TO SEE THE PAIN AND THE ACTING 🤌🏼 but it’s so cute tho, the filming of it & jisoo’s acting getting progressively better with each ep ✨✨

ODOWIEOW HOWS THAT ONE GOING with mr nam joohyuk 😩😩🤚🏼🤚🏼🤚🏼 pls do let me know tho if it’s worth a watch <3333

#✉️ : ask #[ marsophilia ]#kdrama talks : 🪴

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