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rayofmisfortune · 14 days

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Throwing this ask over for if you ever want to ramble about Bendy ✨/nf (we are getting fed lately, 3 more games??? A movie??? Ink demon at a rave??? What???)

BENDY RAMBLE PERMISSION? OH HECK YEA!!

We are SO getting fed! I can't wait for what the games have in store for us. With The Cage supposed to release some time this year ANS THE MOVIE??? OH DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT!

I love the Bendy series to bits. Like actually

I've been keeping up with it since chapter 3 of BATIM- haven't read any of the books sadly but that can be excused right???

ANYWAY

The Cage is supposed to be a look behind the scenes at what happened on the other side of things while Audrey was busy explaining the concept of personal space to Wilson, if I remembee right? Also supposed to be darker and gorrier SUPER EXCITED FOR THAT

Then... in Secrets of the Machine we get teasers for B3ndy and Bendy Silent Town...

I hope B3ndy's gonna pick up on where BATDR left off, Gent taking away the Ink Machine to GOD KNOWS WHERE??? With Bendy now being out in the real world... it begs the question of who the role of big bad and smiling (traumatized, very much traumatized) will fall on... As for who we may play as.... maybe it could be this Riley Wells (hope I got the surname right) character we found out about in Secrets of the Machine? They ended up being a GENT employee so it's not completely out the question? They were employed at Joey Drew Studios before but- got fired because their ideas were too grotesque and dark for Joey's liking (EXCUSE THEM for having trauma you entrepreneur a-hole).

As for Bendy Silent Town... I feel like that game may be a look at mayhaps the genre of Bendy cartoons Riley had scripted? As I said, their ideas were dark. And what is Silent Town? A complete turn to the left at what Bendy games are. Unsure if the hand in the teaser image is Bendy's but- the char has a revolver named Alice FJFJ does that say anything? I dunno! Fjfjfj Getting to shoot cartoon bad guys in a cartoon tho? Aw heck yea! I suck at shooters but I'm willing to try my hand at one if it's Bendy

This is getting long lmfao

AH I haven't realized, but Secrets of the Machine came out on 4/14 (cuz- not american, use a different date format heh) which is the last loop that took place before Wilson or Audrey right? Some significance there

Oml I'm gonna fall into rambling about Bendy and the Ink Demon aren't I?

When you break all the cutouts in Secrets of the Machine, you get instakilled by the Ink Demon. Which. Deserved. I ended up doing that a lot cuz I didn't KNOW what I was supposed to do??? And destroying the cutouts was the quickest way out nfjfjc sorry Benders I promise it wasn't personal.

Anywho- yea it's been over a year YET I'M STILL NOT OVER HOW THE INK DEMON LITERALLY HAD BEEN TORTURED BY THE KEEPERS??? Like- YOU CAN'T JUST THROW THAT AT ME AND NOT EXPECT ME TO WEEP LIKE A BABY- My man's gone through literal hell even before he's been carelessly thrown into the machine "because he was imperfect" my ass, I bet the worst he ever did while in the Real world was walk around and be curious about everything while the only thing decisively threatening about him was his appearance... WHICH ALSO he had nothing to do with??? That's all on Joey and GENT for fucking up and only looking at the outside and not the inside. Is it obvious how much I need this guy to have a happy life?? He has a chance for that with Audrey now which I'm honestly so damn glad for nfnfnc Poor guy had been forced to follow a predetermined script where he was cast as the villain... tbf.. wouldn't anyone end up embracing that role when they've had to go through it for hundreds of loops?? I'd grow tired of trying to change anything as well.

Can... can you imagine? A little scene with Audrey and Bendy in B3ndy where they're just hanging out with eachother in Audrey's apartment.... PLEASE

Ah this got long hehe nfnfjfb

ALSO still not over Henry. My favorite father figure. Pls be a dad to them I beg

I STILL DUNNO WHAT THE RAVE IS ABT 😭😭 Haven't seen anything abt it YET- BUT AYYYYY

AND OML YEA THE MOVIE PLEASE GIB SOME BEFORE THE INK WORLD SNIPPETS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE?? Could you imagine? Just- getting to see how the studio was before it all went to hell??? I- GETTING TO SEE THE PROGRESS ON THE INK MACHINE??? MAYBE EVEN BENDY'S CREATION????? And and oml SAMMY before he went "My Lord, My Saviour, coocoo in the head" THE VAST WORLD OF POSSIBILITIES

#answered asks #frens ask #unnamed-proxy #bendy spoilers #bendy and the dark revival spoilers #bendy and the ink machine spoilers #batdr #batim #bendy #bendy secrets of the machine #bsotm

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torotoro0 · 2 years

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Enemies? Or....

`~Miles Fairchild x Reader~` {Part 4/?}

{Click for Chapters}

A/N : I woke up and my tumbler notifications were just bombarding with likes and comments wow thanks guys, I accidentally mixed up the timelines lol please understand, hope u enjoy part 4 😍

Miles Pov

I was in the room listening to music while contemplating my life choices when Kate entered, WITHOUT my permission.

"Hi" Kate went in uninvited "I, uhm, got you something from town" she approaches me "I-.. its a new CD they released this year" she puts it on the table.

"thanks.." I murmured, what the heck does she want from me now?, I roll my eyes.

A few moment of silence

"So.. I know how close you and Quint were.." she started.

"Yeah.. he was my friend" I stated looking out the window "And also Y/N's" I look back at her.

"Yeah" she nods "It must have been really tough". My hand wrapped around the chair tightened.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" she slightly smiles, slowly approaching me.

A few moments of another silence

"Not really" I said as i stand up, I approach my drums, and of course Kate followed me. Why can't she just talk about this with Y/N?

At least Y/N minds her own business (minds her business a little bit, but she still messes with my business🙄)

"You know something kinda similar happened to me when I was your age and I wish I had someone to talk to-"

!BA-DUM, BA-DUM!

"[sighs] ok, ok" she whispers, "Look I'm not trying to replace Quin-"

!BA-DUM, BA-DUM!

She sighs, oh how fun it is to joke around her lol.

!BA-DUM, BA-DUM!

"Just stop-"

!BA-DUM, BA-DUM!

"Miles?!" she scolded "Can you please stop-" I continue my drum beating until she approaches the door.

I kept beating the drums in annoyance, then it turned into anger, After she left I still kept beating the drums. "I hate this, I hate this, I hate this" I whisper-shouted.

!KNOCK KNOCK!

"Stop making so much noise FAIRCHILD!" Y/N shouted from the room beside me....

But I still kept going and going with the drums.

I hear a door opening and footsteps approaching my room. I turn to my left to see the infamous Y/N L/N.

"Why are you making such ruckus Fairchild? You are so damn annoying" she scolded, I roll my eyes.

"Its a way of me relieving my stress L/N" I lean unto my back.

"Well your way-of-relieving-stress-thing is making me go nuts so STOP IT".

Even if my face on the outside looks monotone I was laughing my ass out on the inside.

"What if I won't?" I teased

"Then...then- I'll call your beloved Neah here" She smirks. Oh no not that witch!.

"Call her then" I provoked her , As much as I hate Neah, Y/N hates her too, so basically its a loss for the both of us.

"Ok then" she grabs the telephone in my room.

"Hello?" she answers "OH! Neah its been a long, long time! how are you!" wait.... she really did call her?! I ran to her at a max speed snatching the phone "her-"

"Do NOT come here!" I yelled at the phone.

a few seconds later

After a few seconds I hear snickers and muffled laughs from Y/N "why are laughing?" I look at her.

"pfft, hah, hah" she hyperventilates "You really think I called her! HAHAHA!" I eye her as I began to realize what she just did.

"The heck is your problem Y/N!" I retorted "Nothing, its just- YOUR FACE WHEN YOU THOUGHT I CALLED HER! HAHAHA" I roll my eyes as she wipes a tear from her eye.

"Get out L/N" She laughs uncontrollably, I hold her wrists and lead her out of the room.

{time skip to evening}

Your Pov

I was reading a book (or not, just imagine your doing something else) when Flora barged in the room excitedly fidgeting "Y/N! Y/N! Do you wanna come with me?" she beams.

"Where though?" I replied.

Before... I would always agree to her without asking anything and she brings me to super creepy places where I get stuck in.

"To the pool! let's play a prank on Kate!" phew, at least she answered and explained what we were doing.

"Sure that sounds fun!" I jump down on my bed with my night clothes on. (any pajamas, your choice!~).

{A little later}

We arrive at the pool to see the one and only Miles Fairchild. "Miles were hereee!" Flora yelled as she hugged Miles.

"I thought it was only me and flora, but here we are with a group of three" I roll my eyes as i stated.

"I didn't agree to you coming, L/N, but since I can't say no to flora, You got in" He crosses his arms in annoyance.

"So? whats the prank going to be?" I ask.

{Miles and flora explaining the prank to you}

"Ahh, ok I get it" I nod.

"Don't make any noise, you got that L/N?" he whispered and I nod.

"AHHHHH!" Flora screamed to start the prank.

A little later we saw Kate running to the pool and jumped in it.

"pfft" I quietly giggled "Quiet" Miles whispered as he covers my mouth.

"don't" I whisper as I remove his hand from my mouth then glare at him. "just keep your mouth shut L/N" he whispers back.

Kate arises from the water super drenched and scared.

"hahahaha" Flora laughed as she reveals our hiding spot.

"We got you, we got you, we got you" she sings.

"You look super cold there Kate" I chuckle.

"Pfft" Miles follows us laughing.

After a moment Kate look at us frowning and our smiles drop.

"Three of you... in the house... NOW!" She yelled.

Miles shrugs as him and flora head inside.

"Were sorry Kate, We thought it would be funny" I apologize.

"Get in there NOW" she looked at me fiercely.

{After all the commotion🤭}

I wanted to properly apologize to Kate tonight so I stride to Kate's room.

Her light was on so I presume she was still awake.

I enter her room with her lying down, I went to her side and looked at her.

The door creaks and I saw Miles there.

"What are you doing here" he whispers.

"I want to ask you the same question too" I replied.

{An awkward silence}

He goes beside me and touches Kate's cheeks but I stop him mid-way

"Creep, what the heck are you doing?" I mutter

"Trying to wake her up duh" he replied "Well, Its a creepy, disgustingly way of waking someone up" I roll my eyes.

"Well what your best way to wake her up huh?" He looks at me.

"W-what are you guys doing in here?" Kate looks at us like she saw a ghost,

"Y-you have a spider on your cheek" I alarmingly said, stupid, stupid Y/N, I mentally head slap.

"Here" Miles shows Kate his hand with a spider and crushes it, "The heck?" I mumbled.

"When the door is closed I'd like you guys to knock" She breaths.

"Your light was on, I thought you'd be awake" I answer.

"Scared of the dark?" Miles asked.

{ few moments of silence}

I sit down on her bed while miles looks at me confused.

"Sorry about awhile ago" I muttered, I just know! she is looking at me right now.

"I-, um me too" Miles chimed in

".... We haven't made the best impression have we?" He continued.

"To be honest ... you haven't" she slowly replied

"Miles?" she looks up at him, "what happened at school?", [Le Gasp] hihihi, I thought.

"Why did you hit that boy?" I smirk looking up at him, "Yeah miles why did you hit him?". I secretly giggled.

"You knew about this Y/N?" she looks at me with wide eyes.

"Yeah... sorry" I mumbled.

"He... burnt all my pictures my dad sent me" he looked sad.

"oh.." I went speechless.

{Le silence....}

"Good night" We both said in unison. "Come on Y/N" he went outside and called for me.

A/N: were in chapter 4!?

#finn wolfhard #miles fairchild #miles fairchild x reader #enemies to lovers #stranger things season 4 #stranger things 4 #max mayfield #st4 #finn wolfhard x reader #flora fairchild #the turning #boris pavlikovsky x reader #boris pavlikovsky #mike wheeler #mike wheeler x reader #stranger things

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wanderlustspider · 1 year

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re: my premonition of death and crow; - I wonder if someone can help me figure this out as I have been searching far and wide for a direction about this even though my intuition is telling me what I think it might be. I will try to make this very short and brief I will put it in point form; -after a life tragedy I'm coming into awareness in terms of my connection to the other worlds, psychic abilities and more specifically connection with Raven / crows but birds in general too. -in my 20s (I'm 40 now)-, I used to go sit at the cemetery when I had a lot of anxiety from school. It was a peaceful place and one day I was sitting in my car with the window down, noticed a crow or Raven that flew in front of the car and landed on the grass by a tombstone and I was just looking at it, and my mind literally just had a flash of thought across that that literally said “, Grandma is going to die tonight”. I thought it was so random and I just thought my mind was going to weird places because I saw a crow and I know that there's a superstition about them. My grandmother was not sick and in fact did actually pass away that morning the next day. No one could get ahold of her and my uncle had to crawl in her bedroom window to find her having passed away in her sleep. I was really freaked out about this and never told anybody and they would think I was crazy or lying. 2.I am a highly sensitive person and I'm starting to realize it now but ever since I was a young child I've always been connected to animals in terms of teaching people to save them and not hurt bugs etc (scoop up spiders let them outside etc) . That was the only time that I had something pop across my head - I have had other things since (non row related) but only a few predictions that happened, including a thought telling me, "Imagine this transport truck hit you up here on this skyway"- and 3 seconds later it did and I survived a horrific accident. 3.Through a reading recently I've been told that I have connections to the druid druidic Celtic Nordic ancestral. I had a major obsession with Princesses and castle/palaces an actually figured out that I'm obsessed with what you call the "Gothic architecture"- ornate, filligree , molding.) Ever since I was little I was obsessed with the doors of churches and the door knockers and every little thing that had to do with that kind of stuff. It's interesting that there are crows in a lot of Nordic mythology. 4. In keeping up with this obsession, my favorite movie is Sleeping Beauty and I really always wanted a crow like Maleficent that sat on her shoulder and would fly on her finger to which in my 18th year I purchased a lovebird and he was my best friend for 20 years. 5. Playing in my parents pool one day in the summer on a flotation, a wild Sparrow landed right on my chest. I felt the air in my face as the wings were beating and as I looked up he just plopped onto my chest for a quick moment and then flew away. 6.most recently I walked outside to my car after I had been doing a lot of this spiritual counseling after the trauma in my life lately, and I walked out to my car and 123 crows in unison one after the other flew to a tree right in front of me I feel like I'm reading into things but this just seems like too much to be a coincidence does anyone have any idea what the heck is happening mainly about my premonition and the crow.rShow less

So... personally, while I do see congruencies with The Morrigan (specifically Babd, as She can be considered the aspect governing death with the harbinger of crows) there's also some things I see coinciding with Odin. Odin is followed by two crows (or ravens, according to some resources I've read), and has the power of seeing the past, present, and future. You said you've had premonitions, and they've come true. While Odin is a deity I have always felt a curiosity towards, I can't say I've ever had a connection to Him. So I'm definitely not the person to ask about Odin, in regards to the lessons He teaches. I do feel that He honors all battles (physical and mental) as valid reasons to be accepted into His halls, but that's my own research and feeling. So take that with a grain of salt.

Now, you've also stated a love for birds in general, and an affinity with them. I can't say this is definitely a Morrigan gift, but it is a gift. If I was going to tie a connection to it, I would lean toward the aspect of Macha. Macha is connected to nature in Her own ways. However, respect and love of nature also (in my experience) seems to grow naturally within decent human beings, whether they consider themselves witches or not. While an "obsession" with princesses and gothic architecture, castles and old buildings... while these things could have a connection to you via something like ancestry, it could also simply be that this is who you are and there's no one thing to blame.

Also, as a side note, I adore Maleficent too. But like many villains, I also believe she is a misunderstood character. Cemeteries are beautiful places, and hold a special kind of peace in their space. These are valid loves, but having them doesn't mean they have to be associated with anything. Past lives don't always have to be ruling factors on what pulls us in various directions, though there's always the possibility they could have a small driving force. They could also just be you, and that's just as powerful - to know who you are and what you love, without needing a reason of why. You just do. And that's okay.

I can't tell you "yes, this is definitely the answer," or "yes, these are absolute evidence of [insert deity here] having influence of your life." In my experience, coincidences are absolutely everywhere. Only your intuition, that soul-deep knowledge that this is this (aka your faith and beliefs) can discern what is coincidence and what is your truth. One of our human faults is trying to understand the whys and hows, "over-analyzing" to discover the truth that makes the most sense. The best advice I can give you is to pay attention to where your gut tells you to go. If you feel called by The Morrigan, want to learn more of Her and how She can help to guide you in whatever journey you hope to take, then sit and try to speak with Her. If Odin interests you, call out to see if you receive an answer. If Cernunnos (a deity of life and death, the inbetween, forests and nature in creation and decay) tickles your mind... call to HIm.

I personally have not experienced ill from expressing interest in speaking with deities. If, in the end, They offer a sort of completeness to your journey and they want to stick around for a while - there might be a lesson they have to teach you about yourself. Freyja has taught me how to love myself even when it is a struggle to do so, and Fenrir has taught me to use certain emotions to push me forward rather than allowing them to hold me back. Cernunnos has nourished my love of nature and life, and given me a renewed respect for death and stagnation as a part of existence. Jormungandr has helped me in shedding the pieces of myself I didn't enjoy, to become someone I truly am proud to be - and that change and learning is ever constant. The Morrigan was with me through it all, teaching me these same lessons - but as humans we sometimes need new perspectives in order to realize the answers have been in front of us all along. From what I can tell, Mama has found it to be one my more "endearing" traits.

I'm not sure if any of this is of any help to you, or if I touched on all of the points I needed to, but I do hope you were able to receive some sort of message from it all. If you have any questions, curiosities, or want to bounce any ideas around my messages are always open. I don't share a whole lot of personal experiences or insights on my page, but I'm always happy to discuss them. Just keep in mind they're my own experiences and revelations, and not all of them might resonate with you. And that's okay, too.

#answers

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onigiri-dorkk · 1 year

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Goals + updates for 2023!

(plus sneak-talks into my future fics!)

ALRIGHT RIVAMIKA FRIENDS! This evening (now that I've finally come back from my short New Year's trip... as well as recovered from major car sickness on the way back home l o l), my birthday-week-and-writing-sabbatical (😂) officially begins!

If you've been following, I've been hustling since November with my IRL workload and it has taken time away from writing and fandom things, so I had planned that from January 1st for a whole entire week I will dedicate my time to rest in the form of writing. No work, no emails, no ads...

NOTHING except sitting in coffeeshops or beautiful places and writing stories from my heart again.

During the holidays I had a couple of technically free days, so I wanted to get a one-shot in to get myself ready and warm up for this week (and then produced last week's one-shot, The Perfect Brew, which might mark my all-time favorite one-shot I've written so far).

The hard part was deciding what the heck to focus on and commit to. I thought about keeping it free, but knew it would lead to more one-shots, which is fine too.

But after I came back home and rested, I sorted through my WIP's (which, at this point, I actually have 7! I just forgot about 4 of them omg) and I rediscovered a WIP in my Google Docs I loved and forgot about, and that is the orphanage fic.

I don't think I've shared much about it just yet, but it will be a multi-chapter fic set after Season 3, and both Historia's orphanage and castle will play a big role in the plot for Levi, Mikasa and the Scouts. Obviously I don't think I will complete the entire fic just in this week (sheesh... I can't even imagine?!) but I aim to make a good dent in it and hopefully publish something by my birthday weekend :) I believe this is the one I want to make the most progress in, and hopefully get something published from it, though I can't promise timely updates the way you got Microcosmos every week or two.

Also on the back burner that I might trudge through this week is the Ackerman (Kenny, Levi, Mikasa) short-fic, and a post-war reunion fic that will likely be a long-fic. Then deeeeeep in my backburner is also a post-war long-fic that will circle around Levi and Mikasa and gang as Paradis refugees; I foresee this as something that will be a lot darker and angstier.

I'm honestly just excited for starting 2023 dedicating passion-time to writing; it feels like me saying YES to dedicating this full year to growing as a writer. I only began writing in May so it's strange that I haven't even hit a full year of doing so... But knowing that 2023 is starting and ending with me in love with writing is just exciting. I'm PUMPED. I have other ideas (maybe starting a Rivamika-specific writers' accountability group, etc) but I'll save all of that for another time hehe.

All this to say, thank you to all of my fandom friends I've made here who have encouraged me and brought me soooo much joy and inspiration literally on the daily. You don't understand how much your presence here has helped me in my real daily life, and has sustained this newfound inspiration. It makes writing and creating art not feel like an echo-in-a-chamber. To have real people enjoying what we create together, encouraging each other in the process, and sharing their joys for it, it's just sooo important and meaningful. Thank you all!! I will continue to ~dedicate my heart~ to creating art in lots of forms for our lil community here. :)

Please look forward to another year of Onigiri's proud hyper-fixation on Rivamika ;)

(P.S. I can see my nighttimes being filled with reading all of y'alls fanfics that I haven't gotten to read yet!!! PLS!! I CANT WAIT!)

#rivamika #rivamika fam #rivamika family #Levimika #Levi x mikasa #mikasa x levi #oh also #another small goal for 2023? write 1 TwiYor and 1 CloTi fic!

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beautifulcinephile · 1 year

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Timothée Chalamet Questions - Updated

I saw this tag game here and decided to update this. When did you become a Timothée Chalamet fan?

September 17th, 2020. It's been two years that this man changed my life and now I can't imagine my life without being a fan of his. I have never been in love with an actor like him.

What was the first movie of his that you watched?

A Rainy Day In New York. I know it's a bad movie (in my opinion) and I barely remember the story at this point. The only thing I remember is the "Everything Happens to Me" scene.

Favorite movies of his?

Dune, The King, The French Dispatch, Little Women and Miss Stevens, Call Me By Your Name (I love the movie, despite, you know who.)

What are your least favorite movies of his?

Hot Summer Nights, Don't Look Up and I didn't like Entergalactic that much ("What? You didn't like Entergalactic??"). To be honest about Entergalactic, it's good? Yeah, just not my favorite movie of his. I also don't like A Rainy Day In New York.

Favorite red carpet event in general?

Cannes 2021 was my first ever red carpet I've watched, so this one will always have a special place in my heart. Venice 2021 and 2022 were awesome, I remember them fondly, LFF was amazing and the Bones & All red carpet in Milan was exciting as heck.

I also have to mention Oscars 2022 and the 2021 Met Gala.

Have you watched his whole filmography so far?

No. I have to watch Bones and All ASAP.

Have you ever dreamed of him? If you remember the dream, tell about it below:

Many times, and dreaming about Timothée is the best thing ever. Here are some of my most cherished dreams:

1. Timothée was wearing a white shirt on a Zoom video call, playing “Quand tu M'aimes” by Charles Aznavour on his guitar.

2. Timothée and I were recreating the music video for “Shape of My Heart” by Backstreet Boys. The music video was exactly at the 2:37 mark of the song, and in this part, I stroked his hair while the camera panned down on his bare feet. We were dressed like the couple in the music video: I wore a gray shirt and blue jeans, with some black sneakers, while Timmy was entirely clad in black, barefoot.

3. Feeling extremely homesick, Timothée caught a bus and started writing a text message to his mom, telling her how much he missed her. Then, he looked out the window and tears streamed down his cheeks.

4. A channel was broadcasting an incomplete cut of Bones and All. The intro scene had nothing to do with the book (The movie wasn't out when I had this dream, so the only things I knew about were from the book), since it involved a man fighting against a woman with an explanation about how that man became the first person with the cannibal curse. The reason why he has become the first cannibal was because he lost the fight and went on a transformation that rendered his hair white and his eyes pink (My subconscious mixed Bones and All with Dune). The rest of the scenes were more faithful to the book. Maren as a kid, Lee and Maren going to sleep, Lee’s crying scene, it was nonsensical, yet awesome.

5. I met Timmy on a "secret mission" in which I had to interview him. I was wearing a black suit, and I couldn't go to the movie theater he was attending because I had no tickets. Then, Jennifer Aniston of all people helped me get them, then I entered the movie theater and I asked: "Have you seen a man with brown hair and green eyes?", to which people answered: "He's in the bathroom." Timmy came into the room, with his Oscars 2022 outfit and his LFF hair. I took a selfie with him, but when I took another one to show to my friends, I woke up.

What movie of his are you most excited to see?

Bones and All, which I'll be finally able to watch because I've found a link to it, followed by Wonka and Dune: Part Two.

Favorite outfits/pictures?

These:

Tagging: @softhecreator @soymilkmocha @visionsofsweettea @the-poets-might-disagree and whoever wants to do this.

#Timothée Chalamet #I'M BACK WITH THE TAG GAMES!#Tag Game

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rainbowhouseplant · 17 days

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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers 💗

oh okay it's my turn? i'm here for this xD

1 -- Good Food. I'm basically a food motivated corgi. But I don't mean like, the same chain resturants or fast food places. I'm a stupid person with food allergies, and I will indeed try things sometimes and forget to look up the ingredients til I feel bad later.

2 -- Adventure. I'm quite fond of the 'play tourist in your own backyard' game, since it's stupid expensive to travel and stupid expensive to get repro organs taken out that would make it less anxiety inducing to travel alone. In my crochety old man age, I've come to realise I don't like travelling with people, but if we meet up and they fuck off after an hour or so, then it's perfectly tolerable. And tho it might be off the table for me this year, doing the 8 hour roadtrip to go medieval style camping with a bunch of anachronistic history nerds is like, top tier adventure. Ate so much food, learnt so much, made a basket, didn't get sunburn somehow but became allergic to sunscreen on-site so that was, uh, fun. ( My fault for using Aveeno. Horrid Brand. )

3 -- Doing Creative Shit. Right now I'm fond of the stare at the wall and imagine AUs for your characters version of creativity, and may have accidentally fallen back asleep for a couple hours because one AU was pretty good. Obviously I like doing the typical "drawn" arts thing, but I've also done jewelry making/basic jewelry repair, scrapbooking, leatherworking, uh, i forget what else of creative hobbies. also there's an instrument i've been meaning to try to learn lmao but because aforementioned roadtrip is probably not happening i have another year to figure it out.

4 -- Playing DnD with those hecking nerds. What was it the illustrious DM said? Something about how there's so much to focus on during a game, you can't think about anything else? I like that. That shut up and focus is uh, a very much needed distraction in days of late.

5 -- When I can find the Orange Dreamsicle Monster in the goddamn stores. It's been like, two years, and I'm still on the it HAS to be orange-vanilla flavoured or it tastes like butt kick. What? They couldn't all be winners.

uh...

a bonus: 6 -- When renn faire attendees and performers know the g-slur is a slur and don't use it. This thought brought to you by the fact that I let a lot of i guess bard-style songs auto play and am always jump scared by that word like excuse you, can you not?

#voidsteeth #that was fun!

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ecofinisher · 10 months

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Old Screenshots from the Sims games I kept in some file on Facebook 😂

I don't know, where to start, so I just go with Sims 3, then 4.

The camera was on a closer angle, so you can't see, what exactly was up. The pose is the failed giving flower options and it looks like she's shocked about seeing something.....interesting.

Talking about interesting areas......when WA wouldn't be such a jerk at glitching, when moving to Egypt or co. I would go with the current family I'm obsessed with to accomplish the missions. I did make Ayesha Ansari learn Kung Fu and randomly, they would do certain poses, when left alone. Durning a conversation, she was having she happened to do that and at the same time Xander began chuckling and I paused at this moment. This is how I accidentally created this weird moment 😂

During my teenhood, she gave me this sporty chick vibe, which I kinda was back then. I never knew any female fictional character from Disney or anywhere else, to which I could relate with. I forgot, what happened here, eventually, it was a romantic action.

You sure remember times, when you visited another family, for whatever reason a Sim would be invisible and interactions would look messed up, depending on what you would order them to do with other characters. Here she was making up with "air"

JAMIE, WHAT THE HECK? (Also, second Sim was invisible)

I did notice the girl sometimes go out off the house before going to bed, but I thought it had something to do with the imaginary friend. Once I followed her and she climbed on the double beds from the outside 🤨 Without the windows I could sell it as a boulder hall sample.

I don't remember, what happened here, but her neck needs to see the hospital.

The fear in his eyes is visible. What are you supposed to do, when he says no? Not that funny, but accurate, when asking the "future" father-in-law for the daughter's hand.

I took last time this picture to make a series to troll people, but I never noticed Simis roll his eyes 😂

I spoiled the surprise, so full revelation.

Another naturally happened pose. Parker got scolded for skipping school and seconds later his "flirty trait" just kicks in. 😂

Dog Maro is done with her owner's new baby. I love how a dog thinks of "begging for a promotion" I guess, dogs can as their "boss" for "treats" right? (The dog also seems to my eyes unmotivated, when zooming in)

Talking about dogs, another time I did get into a downloaded household and wanted the girl to go out with the sim Ethan Bunch. For some reason (I had started a new game) he was already dating the Sim River McIrish, which happened to be our neighbor. I stole Ethan away from her and visited her the other day, only to be hated by her and I thought about "making her pay back" by fighting her. What happened? She kicked my Sim's butt every flippin' time! Amazing, I didn't think Sims with the good trait would give you such a hard time - Returning back to the picture, after the fights I still didn't win, so out of boredom I went to torment her with our dog and when he locked her up by the corner she broke the fourth wall in fear 😂😍 So precious, she knew it was "someone else"

One bad thing about owning horses (Or unicorns) in a lot with a low place for them is the random glitching, that may occur sometimes. They would get stuck between walls and he was somewhere by the terrace. I moved the unicorn into the bedroom to take pictures and this one gave me vibes of Donkey from Shrek. (Just imagine the unicorn speaking with Eddie Murphy's voice) 😂 "Hey girl. I'm hungry. Have you got some carrots or some freshly-baked waffles?? Maple syrup on top of that would look delicious!"

I was working years ago on a story and used Sims screenshots to make it. During the work I was admiring the weird decor of the museum and when I was working on a fire scene at the museum, I pulled a Sim around the museum and ended up putting her in front of a toilet, 😂 It looks hilarious for some weird reason.

Natural reaction. Don't know, what happened nor what triggered it.

When you can't have the CC's you want, but you have a plan B....

Natural reaction as well or anything from moviemaker-cheats. I only used fainting as a movement, but if the face belongs to any of the existing commands.....I'm clueless.

Sims never had a height slider, but you would always know, that adults are taller than teens. Weirdly this fail made me question, why EA never added a height slider. (At least we know Parker is a smoll dude 😂) Believe it or not, I didn't cheat here, Parker just didn't obey my commands and went to sit down there and for whatever reason Michael sat there as well. This is what we got in the end.

Sims 4 had some funny ones back then, when I got the game. This was me zooming from another POV into a Sim before her getting pulled into a smooching session.

One of the family members I didn't really care for passed away in the fire, which still was active on the time the Grim Reaper appeared to pick our Sim up. He seemed surprised.

WHAT THE HELL.

At some point I didn't know Sims could walk around naked and allowed them to do that xD And as you see, we know who in this relationship wears the pants......uh literally? She's not wearing clothes, but like she's the boss you know..... goodbye, I'm heading out of here.

#old post #old pictures #ecofinisher #sims #the sims #the sims 3 #the sims 4 #the sims gameplay #the sims 3 gameplay #the sims 4 gameplay #simblr #ts4 #ts3

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advrik · 1 year

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Books of the Year | 2022 Edition

I read a lot of books this year. Way more than on average. Partially thanks to a sudden overwhelming interest in the body horror genre, which I CAN link back to John Carpenter's 'The Thing' as being my favorite horror movie. I just love the concept of microscopic terrors getting into the living and turning them into horrific monstrosities.

As of the time of the first draft of this post (12.5), I had read a total of 15 books this year, with the 16th less than a hundred pages away from wrapping up. And while I don't think I'll be edging any more in that would make this list, I felt comfortable in compiling my thoughts of my Top Five for the year 2022.

I had the Kingkiller books recommended to me multiple times throughout the years, but I just never got around to it until a co-worker gave me a few books that she didn't want anymore, one of which was the sequel and the novella. This had finally sparked the fire beneath me and I went out and bought The Name of the Wind shortly after.

And you know what? It is absolutely a must-read for fantasy fans. Heck, the school and emphasis on social links should put it on Persona fans' radars as well.

Rothfuss is a word wizard. The way that he writes is, to be frank, beautiful. Many times did I find myself re-reading whole pages just to fully absorb what he had written.

I ended up picking up several books that were recommended to me based on my interest in parasitic-induced body horror. Most were good at best, while the rest were absolute filth (Scott Sigler and his Infected trilogy), it was Nick Cutter's 'The Troop' that stood out amongst the gross-out horror selection this year.

What Cutter delivered here was something very much akin to a Stephen King production, only it came at you much quicker than some of the long-winded tomes that King puts out. The violence was intense, the gore plentiful and the story fast-paced.

Without spoiling it, the interlude chapter that gave some background on the whole mess, the infected chimp and the following documentation of its horrific death from the second it was infected to the second it breathed its last breath was the type of horror that I had been looking for and will continue to look for.

Needless to say, however, if you are squeamish and/or are sensitive to violence against animals, steer clear of this one.

If you're a creature-feature fanatic like myself, you've likely read one of Hunter Shea's books and you either loved it or you hated it.

I personally love his work as it's fast-paced, violent, and filled with cryptids.

But if you're of the latter and have not found much enjoyment in Shea's bread and butter, I suggest picking up 'Creature'. Now I'm not going to lie and say that it doesn't have any of the quality and monstrous charm that Shea is known for, but it IS a different beast from his normal output and one that DEFINITELY is not for the squeamish as the main character deals with a very real auto-immune disease that results in some horrific descriptions that had me clenching up on numerous occasions.

You really do end up feeling for the protag in this, you sympathize with her husband and can't help but commend his dedication to her. That's pure love, man, which was EXTREMELY refreshing to see in a book like this.

But again going back to the torture porn aspect of the book, the actual monster is hardly the most gruesome aspect of the book, and that is absolutely saying something when it's a Hunter Shea book.

For years I've dreamed of a piece of zombie fiction that not only detailed the very chaotic beginnings of a zombie apocalypse in a realistic manner but also followed through to the very end while showing the collapse of the planet in between.

And The Living Dead delivered on that in more ways than I had imagined.

Now why The Living Dead is so high up on the list (It was originally #1) is because it's the Romero brand of zombie story; It has all his usual criticism of society at play, from consumerism to political and racial strife. It's all here and presented in a way that any fan of the Romero zombie flicks could immediately pick out. And for the real eagle-eyed reader and film connoisseur, there are references to particular places and events from the movies, though they are by no means pivotal to the stories being told within the book.

By the time the final pages flash by my eyes, I felt complete. That the story that George Romero started in Night of the Living Dead had finally seen a conclusion, even though it occurred years after his death. I was very much satisfied with how the ending came about, and just about every eventual happening along the way.

Honorable Mention:

The Shadow Glass from Josh Winning was a SUBSTANTIAL surprise to me when I stumbled across it while browsing the shelves at Barnes & Noble. It was accompanied by one of their hand-written placards that said "For fans of 80s dark fantasy like The Dark Crystal and The Labyrinth", and since The Dark Crystal is one of my favorite movies, period, I snatched the book up and began reading it before I even got out of the store.

Oh boy. I was not prepared for this in the slightest.

I had this book recommended to me based on a request for Final Fantasy-like novels, and man did it deliver in spades on that front.

The Band, Book 1 is what I imagined the offspring would look like if Final Fantasy and Monty Python's Holy Grail had a child that grew up listening to rock & roll music from the 1960s and 1970s.

The characters are all extremely loveable despite being jaded middle-aged men. The fantasy elements more than makeup for the greater lack of it in modern fantasy following A Song of Ice and Fire's rise to popularity. Magic is plentiful, and monsters are everywhere, in every shape and size. There's no skimping on the fantasy elements at all, and I think that even before the hilarious dialogue and actions of the main band, were what kept me reading.

When I read epic fantasy, I want fantasy. Political strife is fine, but if that's ALL I'm going to be offered with the occasional reference to a dragon or some other common fantasy beastie, then you're not writing a book for fantasy readers. At least, that's how I feel about it. Warring kings are no different to me than a book/movie set in the modern day where two countries at going at each other's throats. It's not interesting, particularly BECAUSE it's constantly happening in the real world, and I read fantasy to escape this nonsense, not indulge in it.

And Nicholas Eames understands that.

I really was not expecting to read such a heavy hitter so deep into the year, but I'm glad I did because I can't stop thinking about the world within, nor can I wait to read the second (and eventual third!) book.

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Damn 5 whole followers 🥵🥵

Jkjk- it's time for more ranting abt Inside Job cause nooone else in my life watches it so I'm stuck with my myself and I 😔😔

The Gang(tm) throwing Brett a surprise party ,,,

IMAGINE IT THO

Brett for sure had some sucky birthdays, actuall ass of a time birthdays

So imagine it's Brett's birthday, idk if the crew would be the type to pull the "let's ignore Brett and pretend we don't care it's his birthday then surprise him" cause that would prob give him another complex

So instead they genuinely have no clue it's his birthday, and he doesn't bring it up cause he's just so used to dissapointment at this time in his life

Mayb Regan reads it in a file, maybe Myc reads his mind on accident or heck maybe he does let it slip that it's his birthday but he really downplays it "it's fine! Just another day in the year, yknow?"

But NO. That's un acceptable. Reagan IMMEDIATELY pulls the team (minus Brett) into a strategy meeting. She's had one too many sad/failed birthdays to let her friend willingly go party-less this year

I wanna say Gigi is on decorations, you KNOW she has an eye for that shit but I'd give that role to Andre (or maybe they collab)

He's the party animal, he knows what partying looks like and can adapt any room (think Tom Haverford) he's on lights and uhhh

It is at this point that I must admit to my audience that I don't go to parties. Ever. Anyway <3

•Andre (and maybe Gigi) on setup. •Gigi makes a plan to keep Brett distracted throughout the day. •Myc needs to decipher was Brett wants for his birthday. Either by digging through his thoughts or just by asking straight out and almost blowing their cover lmaoo. •Glenn is doing heavy lifting, physically heavy lifting. Putting up speakers, moving shit off desks, moving tables (btw they're either parting in the main office or in Reagans lab maybe) also fuk u, Glenn is the DJ, he has good music taste •Reagan is simply the head of operation (and the wallet of the operation) she just want to see her friend be happy. Gigi=shopping. Cake, drinks, she pulls a caterer out of her ass- she's doing this correctly or not at all

Hijinks absolutely ensue, nothing goes to plan. Someone drops the cake, Myc can't get a read on what Brett wants and is complaining about having to spend so much time with him (bonus points if the only thing he wanted was to spend time with his work family) Gigi and Andre can't decide on a theme. The caterer dies, shit is hitting fan

I'm too dumb and tired to come up with a good resolution but they cobble together a party, Reagan catches Brett right before he's supposed to leave and is like

"I'm so sorry, can you stay and help me with an assignment? It's an emergency"

And Brett being Brett agrees to help and he 🥺 he gets led into the office/lab and everyone there says surprise and Andre launches off one of those massive annoying confetti canons. Ppl are dressed up

Brett 100% stands in shock and just starts crying but dw they are the happiest of happy tears

Everyone hugs b/c I SAID SO and they party >:)

Here's miscellaneous stuff

They ended up getting him like 4 boxes of Legos, idk much abt men or adults but they seem to like Legos

The cake was dropped at some point so the frosting is smeared and omg. The cake decorator spelled his name wrong- that's my favoutie cliche gag every single show has ever done, spelling someone's name slightly wrong on a banner or whatever

"It says Happy Birthday Brent?? 👁👁??"

The punch bowl is not safe from Andre and the Gang knew that so the one sitting at the snack bar is a decoy (its water with red food colouring)

I think Brett is a Georgia boy so mayb they got a pitcher of genuine sweet tea (I think sweet tea is a thing in Georgia idk)

They have a makeshift dance floor and there are 💗multiple injuries💗

I'm sleepy, please take surprise party into consideration- gimme ur party headcannons >:( do it now

#inside job #andre lee #brett hand #reagan ridley #gigi thompson #glenn dolphman #magic myc #rant #positive rant #i just want them to b happy #im going slowly insane #i need season 2 rn #blease #omg #she speaks

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wrongwiredmind · 3 years

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Before I start saying anything I'd like to warn that the content of this post is both gore and contains suicidal thoughts, if any of that triggers you, please do not read, I care about whoever is reading but I can't hold any responsibility for anything that might follow, stay safe, and remember that no matter what, what comes next in your life will be better, one way or another.

This post is rather long, but that's kinda the point of this page, here we go, then.

So, I had almost my weirdest dream to date, right now, and then I thought, to heck with it!! Let's share something!

So first of all, I need to set some points straight before writing so it might explain a few things, hopefully, without giving a lot away about my personality:

(I have no idea how to put them on order, so they're pretty much a mumbo jumbo. Ah~ My favourite type of writing~. Kidding, of course, I actually prefer reading well written stories and articles)

Anyhow:. 1- I have a really deep unexplainable fear of the vast beast called an ocean (or a sea, or really anytype of deep water), I still go to the beach and pools and whatever, but there's always some sort of an icy grip tightening around my non-existent heart.

2- I love IronMan! So so much, and I kinda adopted Tony Stark!! (no one tell him, please!).

3- my adoration of a certain supernatural series made me love batman! (well, not entirely true, I always loved him, but kinda from afar, you get me?)

4- want me to get hooked on something? Give me a fanfic of it!! (of course like a series or a book, not a substance, you bad bad people!!), that's how I loved Bilbo!! (imagine me saying it in my adorable voice, the one I use when I try to sound cute 😉)

5- I binge read a certain fanfic about those two amazing superheroes saving the world, and themselves!! (I refuse to give up the name since if you think this is me oversharing? You've got another thing coming, honey!) that had a cruise and another prototype of the IronMan suit (don't ask which mark it is but it's so fast it broke the sound barrier!!)

6- I'm a little bit under the weather, (not corona, folks!) and my throat is kinda itchy, to the point that I lost all my vocal prowess for a little more than 24 hours a few days ago, still kinda annoying, and my stomach rebelled so much yesterday (before and during sleeping) that I thought she should take the rebellion symbol from Mr. Che Jivara!! (with all due respect to him, I'm only joking, so please no one takes it seriously).

7- I'm a little bit of a spacetoon (and all that's good and beautiful in our childhood) encyclopedia, want a name of a cartoon or a song you can't remember? I'm usually your best bet, after the second mother, google, of course!!

8- this week is so dead that if you want to see zombies come to our lectures any time in it, seriously we're so under a lot of exams, thank God and the doctors for postponing our tasks and assignments' due-date.

9- if I was a little more of an extrovert I might not have had to write most of these strange snippets about me in a freaking post!!!

And finally, on with the dream! (another thing you probably know by now, that I kinda take you around and under and left and right before I say what I want to say).

So, it was an assignment to some sort of subject (don't ask me which, since as far as I know, not a single thing in our curriculum will make me do what I'm about to do here, or at least, I hope so!!!), we made some type of fall-body suit that needed analysing (who am I kidding, it was the IronMan suit!!), and guess who was picked as a pilot? That's right! Yours truly!!

Anyway, good thing to bad, we had to make the prototype test in the middle of the (as I said above) the vast beast! Mr. Oceanus (I know that that is a Mr. Titan, but who am I, the lowly mortal, to deny his decision to appear in my paragraphs? And no, he didn't show up in the dream, thank God! [ours, not any of the others]),

So, I was put in the cruise, in the middle of the ocean, with the IronMan suit, and a seriously sick stomach, can you guess where we're going with this? (I'm actually kinda enjoying writing this since it reminds me of a certain mad superhero/not superhero who finally joined the XMen!, of course he joined a few years ago but I only watch the second movie circa a month ago) no? let me tell you, a bit of dizziness, seasickness, and an already rebellious stomach? Not a good combination, and remember that I really, really fear the ocean (just remembering the dream and the images in my head is traumatising, let alone living it vividly for a few hours), so, I fell, and strangely enough, I was a good swimmer (ah~ I really count my blessings here since no matter who or when someone taught me to swim, I still can't manage), I was able to stay close to the ship, but couldn't really pull myself up, so all I could do was keep a good hold on a rope tied around the ship and keep my legs in a calculated, slow what feels like a walking-in-place exercise,, (I can still feel the water around me, and the gentle waves of the ocean, it was both a calming feeling and a horrible one) and then...

Something touched the soles of my feet, and it kinda hurt, and it continued to move under me till something hit my toes, it was a shark fin, that's right, a shark choose me as his next meal, how honoured I was!!! Kidding i was kinda terrified, but all that YouTube survival videos came to mind, I left the rope of the ship and kinda dipped under water (triple scare, here, yikes!) and I... pushed.. his muzzle?

Yeah, so not really what they taught you in the videos, my polite nature rears its ugly head again (politeness is not as good as it seems, people! actually once a stray dog entered our home and jumped on the couch, and I was asking nicely and politely if "Mr. Dog would pretty please leave us be", and no, I wasn't scared but mom told me not to touch it, and it kinda was a cute, if a mangy mutt)

I didn't really want to punch the shark, even if my life kinda depended on it here, for a few reasons and actually at least one of them was pretty reasonable, which is, my punch is pretty weak, guys!!

Anyway, of course since its skin kinda scratched my feet there was blood, so it didn't leave me alone, two things I concluded here, first, Mr. Shark was either a lazy guy since he was coming to me slowly as if he either was a giant cat coming for pets no matter how many times you push her, or he was playing with his food, aka, me.

The second thing I discovered was that I was really sick in real life since my imagination couldn't conjure another family member of my guest here (again with the small mercies, can you imagine being alone around all these carnivores? And I bet not all of them will be moving so leisurely!!)

So, I finally decided to be the champ of my cruise and punch the thing in the face, so I pulled up all the power I can in my fist and punched him in his snout!!!

And let me tell you, it's not as easy is they make it sound, first, his nose is actually pretty hard, not the sensitive area they led us to believe, second, my hand really hurt and his skin scratched my knuckles, and I believe it kinda broke a bone in my hand, third, and worse, it actually enraged the mister so much that it left me, J-squared again and this time, flew! in my direction and I swear I still feel his teeth sinking in the shin of my right leg, but before he tore it apart, I actually did the right thing to defend myself, I (and I apologise, Mr. Dream shark, but you really hurt both my leg and my feelings!!) poked his eyes, which made for a very awkward stretch to my body, but finally, I was left alone!! With a mangled leg, of course, but hey!! It's not real life, so let's be glad.

The saltwater stinging my feet, still sick, and more dizzy from blood loss, you have no idea how glad was I that I was still near the ship, a little bit more than a meter but still floating, and then, the bad became worse, I actually goT SWALLOWED WHOLE BY A WHALE!!!!!!!!, YUP!! THE WHALE IN THE PICTURE!!!

And then god with his mercies again, it swallowed the ship but opened his mouth for me to leave, neat, ain't it?

But let me tell you what happened in a little more details, I felt a ripple in the water beneath and around me, and the ship started to sway, and a faint sound of something between a roar and strange song-like-sound, feeling the rumble under me was what made me look, and lo and behold!! The mighty animal wanted the meal that the shark didn't get, bye bye world!! Bye bye the suit that I still didn't to get to wear! And bye bye the report I needed to write for this freaking assignment that because of it I might fail and my friends will rail me when they see me!!

The ship and I couldn't help but enter the mouth of the humongous fish, the sounds of the wood, metal, glass and whatever is the cruise was made of was deafening, so loud and cruel, and I got a more than a few bruises and abrasions, and the feel of his teeth behind my back, sharp and huge and bigger than my own size, was something I don't know how to describe, and suddenly between all the breaking and suffocating water and absolute darkness, something caught my eyes, the slits in the helmet of the suit were lit, I'm sure it was a malfunction because of all the destruction on Mark, but it took all my fear, as if sucking it from my own eyes, and as sudden as it glowed, it vanished, but the calm remained, I closed my eyes, since it didn't matter, and just stopped everything, even trying to hold my breath, but not breathing as well, as if all body functions just... Stopped.

And then my eyes flew open again, not because I woke up, but because of an almost crushing change in the water pressure, it just pushed me forward more inside the huge mouth, and when I thought that this is it, I found the whale mouth moving further away from me, taking the ship and Mark with it, and leaving me alone, in the middle of the ocean that I wanted to say "c'mon!! If you ate me it'll be a win-win situation!!!!" but the second I opened my mouth water rushed inside that I tried swimming up to breath (even though not knowing which way is up was problematic, since something similar happened in real life before I wasn't worried, but that's a story for another time), breaking the surface was a godsend, I tell you! But my misery wasn't in any way over, I was so thirsty I actually wanted to drink salt water a again (and then death, oh wow, how smart?), and once the adrenaline deserted me, my leg returned to trying to kill me, and I don't know if it was a real thing if it happened in real life but it actually stopped bleeding, which was both fantastic, since it means that I won't die of bloodloss, and horrifying since I'm not going to die because of bloodloss, at least then I would have been able to calculate an approximate time for my death, but no, I have to wait and see what kills me next, I almost wished that I just had my previous stomachache and be done with.

Anyway, moving was not really an option, and staying was not either, and the breeze was making me so cold my teeth almost broke from all the shattering they were doing, I wasn't really sure when the others might decide to check on me, and I'm not really sure if I was still in the place they left me at, and I really didn't know what to do, I was so helpless, and cold, and thirsty, in so much pain and so so tired.

I cursed the whale again for not ending my misery, and cursed the shark for being a coward and not finishing what he started and cursing the assignment for being so impossible yet important, and most of all cursing myself, though I don't know why, but my self-loathing decided that now is the time to remember how horrible I am.

As physics does, the water raised me till I was floating on my back, which made me feel even more cold but I didn't have any energy to do anything about it, and strangely, I fell into some sort of doze, not asleep yet not really awake and aware, my whole body half above half into the water, though my right, injured leg, was bend in the knee into the water, which made my pained scream when something took hold of it in its mouth the more agonizing since it made my upper body enter the water, and the thing holding my leg left it alone, and I was able to right myself and look around me for the next threat, the fear was immense that I thought I might get a heartattack, which, admittedly would be better than the pain going to be inflicted upon me any second now, looking around finally led me to what attacked me, and for a moment, with my blurry, and fear filled eyes looked like Mr. Shark has indeed returned to finish what he started, he even returned to his play-with-my-food attitude, but when my eyes finally focused they detected differences, from the lighter shade of colors, to the more smooth curves of the fin and snout, and the gentle, warm (even if it looked sleepy) strange brown tone of the mammels eyes,

The dolphin was about two meters away, and looking at me with intense, twinkling eyes (if they were blue and he wore glasses, or at least marking that looks like it, I would have thought that the dolphin was Dumbledore' animagus and I really wouldn't have hesitated this time to punch his already crocked nose.. err.. snout [which it isn't, the dolphin's snout was perfect] with my broken hand!!) and moved slowly towards me, he pushed me gently with his nose in my abdomen, swam back a few inches, then entered the water and moved towards my leg, not touching it, but he was close enough to feel with my already almost destroyed sensitive nerves, he did all of that while I'm standing/floating, stupefied, hardly even breathing, and then he left, and pushed me again with his snout on my back, this time with more pressure that my body couldn't help but move to the dolphin's right side to let him pass, with my hand just above his back, when my hand touched his prominent back fin, he pushed my hip gently, as if telling me something, and pushed his fin into my hand again, it felt like rubber, and I couldn't help but ask "you want me to hold you?" he made a strange clicking noise then kinda slapped the water with his side fin in the other side of me, and bizarrely, his actions made me feel as if he was saying "are you stupid? Why else would I offer you my magnificent dorsal?!!" I stared, flummoxed, at the creature and couldn't help but throw my head back and laugh, I'm certain that it was the tension, fear and hysteria that made me do it, but for me, the whole situation was so hilarious that it seemed like it made Mr. Dolphin look at me and think "alright, the pathetic, hurt, star-shaped blemish is, indeed, stupid and needs help from my majesty" and then, using his right fin, slapped me non-too-gently on the side of my left hip, squeaking something as well and pushed his dorsal in my left hand again, but when he noticed my wince, he actually kinda rubbed his slippery appendage on my thigh while honest-to-god cooed at me that I couldn't help but smile at him, "it's okay, big guy, and thanks; you know, you kinda remind me of flipper!" and then I petted him a couple of times (which he purred at, I think I need a cat! 🤔🤔) then grabbed his fin in a tight but non constricting grip, my right hand was swollen by now so my only hope was to keep holding using my left hand, after shaking his body a little as if to check my hold, he dove with me into the water!! I almost screamed in fright but then he broke the surface and jumped about three meters high into the air!!!

Hello, there, adrenaline, didn't see you since a few!!

He dove again into the water and this time gradually moved towards the surface, with the water flowing into my hair and pushing me from my saviour, my left leg moved on its own violation and moved around the body as if I was riding a horse,

"WOOHOO!!", I shouted once we were in the air again, it was exhilarating; cold, but thrilling, though the warm body beneath me was perfect, he took me in a straight if slightly curvy line, and when I noticed that, I also noticed that his right fin was not moving as his left, I even thought he was injured for a second, but then a sharp sting in my leg and a slight jerk from him made me understand, my injured leg was beneath his wing-like appendage, and he was being considerate, as a solution, I flattened myself on his back, kept my left leg dangling as if in the horse saddle, my right one, as gently as possible, bend on the knee above the dolphin's back, my left hand gripping the top fin with it touching my shoulder, and my broken right hand above Mr. Flipper's cousin head, and then I came into a a sudden realization!! "does that mean I'm Lopaka????" I asked Flipper the second, and he made a sound suspiciously almost like a snort, but my change of position made him move in a much more pronounced straight line; the speed decreased as I started to doze again, as if he was worried about dislodging me, though the annoying feeling of the salt crusting on my skin woke me up, no idea how much time had past, except that the sun was on either the verge of descending or rising, and finally, finally, I saw land and buildings and what not from afar, and I certainly moved to another continent all together, let alone another country, after reaching the area where I could stand comfortably on the ground beneath the water, people started to come to see what was happening, I ignored them for the sake of my silent companion, suddenly he actually stood on his tail fin, and kinda sort of awkwardly leaned on me without trying to put too much pressure, I didn't understand what was happening though it seemed sorta like a hug?

Anyway, I pat his back again, (and again with the weird purring noise), when he released me I felt buzzing in the back pocket of my jeans, I actually still have my phone!!!

Pulling it out and snorting that after everything that happened my phone was still working!! all I could say is "well, it seems like the time of a picture, Mr. Flipper, sir!" and after an awkward kneeling so I could put my injured arm around him and trying to stretch my bloody leg (both meanings are accurate here, tbh) so it wouldn't interfere with the selfie, I positioned my left hand.

And the last thing I remember is the picture of my (Lopaka the second 😂) wide mouth grin and an equally wonderful grin from Mr. Flipper the second!!!

The End.

It really was a dream I had, with all these details, the only thing that's not entirely true about this post, is saying that this is the weirdest dream I had.

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Heyy sorry for replying like 4 days later💌 ahah but thank you for the message and new years wishes! It saddens that you were alone, there could be some solution for y'all to spend the evening together, why the heck would your mom leave you on such a day.. you seem not to be bothered I mean I don't see into it but I wish I could be there w you as I didn't really enjoy it that much, just ate sm food, felt bad about it and watched tv. It was weird without my sister. And I think she loves him way too much, it's been six years of them being in a relationship and she loves him too much, plus she's that type that can't stay mad for too long and indecisive as well, makes her super easy to get manipulated. I could tell her to leave him, she'd agree and then he'd tell her to come back the same day and she'd agree as well, she was trying to stay mad and try to broke up but he was crying and begging telling her he can't imagine having family with anyone else.. Then she would tell me how bad she feels and that it will be the last chance. Not to mention she kicked her out of their flat in the middle of the night last year, he'd steal her keys when she forgets to buy some food, break her things. He got pretty rich during their relationship and now he is prob thinking it's her duty to do everything else ... I don't know what to think anymore I just don't get invested in it. But he got these two sides to him, I got to say I can't stop liking him because I never got to see that other ugly side and we like each other a lot I think it's also because we're both water signs and get each other.

It's nice hearing you got to meet ur therapist again so you feel back on the track and more positive I guess? I can't really tell if it helps you in that way as I'd need one myself. My anxiety got so bad as I don't leave my house that often, I spend like 30 minutes deciding to step out, planning thing ahead even going for a walk, I feel good afterwards but it's so limiting and drives me crazy. :/ Plus my dad got some back pain and I want to visit him in another town and can't bring myself to go, I think I'll go tomorrow if I don't change my mind 10000 times till then. btw this is so random but how is your english so good? I'm not native speaker as well, I've always been pretty good at it I also enjoyed learning russian.. sending hugs <3🥰

hey my love <3 also sorry that i’m replying so late!! first of all, it really wasn’t a big deal being alone on new years! i’m happy when i can just follow my routine and don’t have to do anything that will cause a flare up and i didn’t want to ruin it for my mom so it’s fine!! <3 i really hope your sister can overcome it one day bc this type of person probably won’t change :/ the good moments can never outweigh the bad :( i’ll send both of you virtual strength to overcome it. as for my therapist, i’m really glad she’s back!! even tho i’m sad we only get to see each other once a week now, it’s better than nothing. and the anxiety thing, i really really really get it. i can promise you the only way to not feel scared anymore is to do it over and over again until it feels natural. it will probably not feel good in the beginning but you WILL get better with time and practice. and a therapist would help a lot ofc! did you visit your dad that day? if not i’m still proud of you for trying <3 you can start over every day. as for my english, i’m from germany and it’s taught here from 5th grade on, sometimes even earlier! i also grew up on the internet1, didn’t leave the house and didn’t have friends so i was always online and HAD to learn it. ive been on stan twitter since i was 12/13 😭 and i also just really like languages!! what about you? your english is very good as well!! <3 i hope you’re having a good day today 💌

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PT.1 Eddie is so enamored with his s/o that he probably wouldn't even notice he's in love until months after the fact. Kinda like how you don't notice you're hungry until your stomach starts growling. As such, he can't pin point the moment he fell in love; just the moment he realized he had, if that makes sense. And it's not even in a sense of, "Oh my god, I'm in love with you" so much as it is, "... Oh... So THAT'S what this is. ... Oh, wait--!!"

PT.2 There's a literal myriad of ways he could confess but the one that currently comes to mind is that you guys were on a date to yet another museum. You'd driven out to Chicago to see the art museum and you were holding his hand throughout the entire thing. It was when you came upon Fuseli's "Macbeth, Act 4, Scene 1" that you attempt to crack a joke:

PT.3 "That moment when your friends send you to kill a spider but then you see how big that sucker is," you smirk, referring to the look of horror and disgust upon Macbeth's face as he regards the head at his feet. Jokes between the two of you are not unusual, even when in such an institute. And yet, there's something about this one joke of yours that makes Eddie's heart...flutter. Flutter differently than how it normally does in accordance to you. But he decides to pay it no mind...

After the museum date, he takes you to a comic book shop just down the street. He giddily begins plucking issue after volume of items on his wishlist, stopping only when he hears you gleefully go, "Holy crap! Eddie, look at this!!" When Eddie turns, he sees it. You're holding a DVD omnibus of the second season of Batman: The Animated Series, priced quite decently for what it was.

PT.5 You eagerly purchase it, saying that the two of you could watch it tonight at your hotel room. In your excitement, you don't think for a moment that the "it" Eddie first saw was your radiant smile, and not the DVD. Eddie isn't as talkative that evening. THAT was the first sign something was amiss. You ask him what's wrong but he insists nothing is wrong. "Just tired," he says, offering a smile.

PT.6 Too tired to go on about the paintings you saw that day? Too tired to give you the history on all the graphic novels he'd purchased today? Too tired to say more than seven fun facts about Batman: TAS? You weren't buying it. But no matter how much you asked, Eddie insisted nothing was wrong. He wasn't lying: He was only thinking. Thinking about why your joke today seemed so different. Why the smile you gave him so many times before suddenly felt brighter.

PT.7About your eyes, about how you'd look in the morning, about how you'd want him to get up early to grab you a donut from the continental breakfast so that you could sleep in, how you'd do the same thing if you were married and in your own hou-- Eddie's eyes widen, and not because of whatever new scheme Joker was planning. He glances at you. Your eyes are trained o the TV, it's glow flashing on your features. You were making that face you made whenever you were intrigued. That face he loved --

PT.8Eddie's heart ricocheted about his ribcage. "Gotta go pee," he mutters, getting up a little too quickly for someone who'd claimed to be tired. He uncharacteristically disregards your "hey!" from losing the body you'd been propped up against. In the bathroom, he leans over the sink, face burning beneath the droplets of water he'd splashed into his face.

PT9So. This was it: He loved you. Like, he loved you before but now, he LOVED you. How geeky you were, how you humored him, how everything just fit right. He wasn't scared; Eddie never knew fright. But he definitely wasn't out to march out there and -- *knock knock* "Eddie?" he hears you call from behind the door. "Is everything okay?"

PT10"Uh... Yeah," he responds, still not quite lying. Everything was okay. Everything was gonna be okay, he told himself as he dried his face. Flushing the toilet and washing his hands to throw you off, he then inhaled deeply before exhaling. Everything was gonna be just fine. He opened the door to see you standing there, worry inked into your features. "That was the most active I've seen you all evening," you say. "Yeah, well..." Eddie says, making his way back to the couch.

PT11"You can only be so active at a museum," he offers, a smile accompanying his reason. You give in, seeing no point in pushing it. "True," you admit, joining him on the couch. "And I can't say that a comic shop is a gym either..." The two of you are quiet for a moment. "God, we're geeks," you suddenly say. This causes Eddie to chuckle. "What? It's true!" you say. "Who drives out to Chicago just for the art and comics!?" "Art students." "We aren't art students, Eddie! We do this for FUN!!"

PT12"True..." Eddie admits. "But at least I'm a geek for you," he says. And damn, it sounded so much cooler in his head! "Yeah," you scoff. "You take six months out of the year to perfect your (Y/N) cosplay to go to (Y/N)-Con in the living room," you continue sarcastically. "Well, no..." Eddie begins. "But I do love learning things about you." He bites his lip, uncertain as whether or not he should go on. His heart kicks his brain out of the way, making him do exactly that.

PT13"I know how you like your tea; I know that you call babies 'baberts' and cry when one waves at you; I also know what songs you like on your playlist and which playlists signify what you're feeling. I know a lot of other things, too, and I love them all. But... Well, it's not enough for me, I guess." "... Eddie?" Is he breaking up with you!?

PT14"I'm a geek for you because...you're an endless trove of things to learn. You're interesting, funny, smart, kind, all around wonderful... Plus, you're a huge geek, too. I know that normally I would be waxing poetic but sometimes simpler words can be just as powerful so... So here it goes!" You blink frantically, trying to figure out what the heck this man is saying. "(Y/N)!" Eddie says, his regularly loud voice returning for the first time in hours.

PT15"(Y/N), I -- I --" Everything is gonna be fine. Everything is gonna be fine. Everything is gonna -- "I'm your biggest fan!!" ... Smooth, Edward. Mrs. Collins from AP English and Mr. Craig from college creative writing would be so proud. It is as he considers hiding his face in the pillows that Eddie feels your hands pressing against his cheeks, forcing him to look up at you. "Yeah..." you whisper

PT.16"I'm your biggest fan, too, you knucklehead." Batman: The Animated Series plays on, forgotten as your lips meet with a confirming kiss, followed by many, many more, passionate ones against your lips, cheeks, neck, and shoulders. It is about ten minutes later, as your back is pressed against the sofa cushions with Eddie hovering over you that your beloved suddenly notes, "You know, couches in hotels are often left uncleaned by the staff." "Dammit, Eddie! Read the mood!!" THE END

“so i’m not getting-” “you are not getting any tonight.” “god damn it.” “at least, not on this couch. that much i assure you of.”

can you just imagine his smile when he wakes up? she’s curled into his neck, hand on his chest, and he lays there for a while, playing with her hair and beaming brighter than the sun because... he loves her. he loves her, and she’s in his arms, and there’s nothing that could be better.

except, perhaps, to say it and hear it said back in return.

so while she’s sleeping, he moves his lips over her cheeks, her brow, her ears, her jaw, murmuring “i love you” softer than morning breezes. nearly silent. little kisses here and there that tickle her awake, bringing her into the waking world with a smile on her face.

“good morning, most adored darling of mine.” “and a good morning to you, most handsome one.”

and his heart is so full of joy that he can’t help but kiss her, firm and fast and true, to somehow convey how much love her feels for her. how much infinite, unnameable, unbelieveable love he feels.

#i LOVE YOU SO MUCH #fave #long post ///#mr. mccarthy #messages #Anonymous

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books--andt · 7 years

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The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas Review!

Hey Bookies!

The Hate U Give is an important book. It deals with REAL events that have happened in the past, are happening today, and will sadly, most likely continue to happen in the future.

It follows Starr Carter, a sixteen year old black girl who lives in a poor black neighbourhood but attends a higher class private school mostly populated by white people.

Starr is at a party in her neighbourhood when she runs into her long-time childhood friend, Kahlil. Her and Kahlil reconnect and drive off once the party gets violent and rowdy. As they are driving home, a white policeman pulls them over. After asking Kahlil to exit the car, he shoots Kahlil. Starr is the sole witness and knows the true story; Kahlil was unarmed; Kahlil was non-violent; Kahlil was murdered. But Starr has a weapon--her voice. It her choice to decided if she is to indeed use it.

The synopsis of this book dragged me right in. Not only that, but that fact that is is being transformed into a movie with Amanda Sternberg playing Starr had me running RIGHT in. I can't wait!!

I really appreciate the choices Angie Thomas made with this book. I read in an interview that she calls this an "unapologetic black girl story" and it certainly is just that. There are no restraints to the realism in this story, or the emotions that Starr is facing. It's important to not have limits when discussing a topic that is serious, or one that you are passionate about. I commend Angie Thomas for doing so.

While I had a difficult time relating to this story, being that I am white, and haven't been in the same scenarios that Starr has been in, not just with the murder of her friend but also with living in her neighbourhood and attending a fancy-ass school. I did however relate to the family relationships. I LOVE books that have strong, compassionate, relationships between families and friends. I loved how supportive her mother was, and how in love her parents were. I loved how her family has each others backs, and this is something I really related to as my family is the same.

If you are teetering between reading THUG or not I recommend you do. It's insightful, heartbreaking, and hopeful all at the same time. Perhaps it will inspire you to speak up for what you believe in. I know it inspired me.

***SPOILER thoughts below!***

Another choice I really enjoyed Angie made was the fact that Starr's uncle Carlos is a cop. It would be easy for Starr to get angry, and blame every cop, and assume that they are all racist and bad people. But because her uncle was a cop, it made her stop and think, maybe they aren't all bad. She trusts her uncle, she loves her uncle, and this gives her hope. I also really liked Chris as a character. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't imagining him as Nick Robinson ;) I liked how he accepted Starr for who she was--who she truly was. He could joke with her, and he stood by her in all the hardships she faced. When she wanted to have sex with him and he stopped her because he said she wasn't feeling right... Points for being a good boyfriend/human being! I also think that him being white and doing these things were intentional. Especially since Starr looses her friend Hailey, who is white. Chris shows her that she isn't betraying her blackness by being with him, and that he can care just as much as any other person.

I also appreciate the ending because it is REAL. This story and the way it was told has the reader RILED UP and wanting that police officer thrown in jail for murder. But it doesn't happen. He isn't convicted and it makes you mad! It shows the reality; how a horrific event like this can effect not just one person, but communities, and families, and the world! It shows that even if you stand up for what you believe in, things may not always go your way. But that doesn't mean you stop fighting. You rebuild. And you fight. Over and over.

This story was sad. But it didn't really hit me until the end of this book. Starr and her family are at their dads burnt down store, helping clean up and Starr is thinking about how it would be easy to quit fighting for a better ending if this situation only involved her and Kahlil and the cop. But it doesn't. And she names her brothers, Seven and Sekani, her friends, Kenya and Devante. And she proceeds to list the names of REAL black people who have been shot by policemen. This is where the hurt started for me. Because this is where the fictional parts of the book struck with reality. The first name Starr lists is Oscar, and I apologize for not remembering his last name, but I read an interview with Angie and she said that the death of Oscar, killed by a white police officer, is what first inspired her to write this book. The list continues and I even recognize some names like Trayvon Martin. At the end of the list she says it's messed up that there are even more, and it truly is. Way to throw a punch at the end of a book and make you think/reflect.

Like I said, I've never read anything like THUG before. I'm not much for a rap music person, so I didn't even know that Tupac had given THUG it's acronym. Heck, I didn't even know it had an acronym! Haha! But life is about learning, and I've always been interested in other peoples outlooks on life, and learning about different cultures and communities. I'll definitely read more books by Angie Thomas!

4/5 stars. Thoughts on this book??? ALSO what should I read next?? My heart has been torn about recently, first by ACOWAR and now THUG... I think I need to read something more happy and... fluffy haha.

Thanks for reading!

- T

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