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shannananan · 4 months

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three months later, it is finally freaking behind me

#the show is over.#i have the keys to the new place.#i am wrapping up campaign reports.#i am starting a new contract.#i am not in a constant anxiety attack

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moothecowgirl · 21 days

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When in doubt, evoke Gods name

#I think this has been a recent shift in how I am approaching life #to learn to turn to Allah in moments of need no matter what that moment looks like #recently - whenever I feel an anxiety attack creeping up on me while I’m in public I’ll start doing dhikr #for the constant repetition and having it help slow down my breathing but also there is something comforting about mentioning Allahs name #when I misplace something - pausing and taking a moment to mention Allah #or when I’m not sure what decision to make - mentioned Him once more #it’s now been something I just started telling my friends when moments like those arise #’when in doubt - evoke Allah’s name’#and any of the 99!!!!!!! there is so much to be built upon and to be learned when diving into our Rabbs many beautiful names #muslim blogging

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eyluvu · 4 months

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One fun fact about me is I constantly feel like I'm teetering on the edge of a panic attack

#god its not even like- its just like constant pressure on my chest #and then nothing comes from it which is really annoying because it means its just constant and nobody can really tell #the only 'good' thing about panic attacks is it shows how I genuinely feel on the inside and so people will take me more seriously #but I haven't had one for months and I'm very happy about it #(I am traumatised from one of them. those like constant memories and the physical feelings that resurface?? ew!)#its alr tho #my medication doesnt work #omw to find meth dealers #PAHAHA jokesssss!#im a pussy anyway dw x #vienna rants #anxiety #anxiety disorder #panic attack

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newfeeling77 · 7 months

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i wish i had gotten properly medicated n therapized earlier 1. bc it hasnt even started yet i had one therapy appointment and i wont be feeling the effects of medication for another month and a half and 2. im already feeling regretful of the time i wasted these past few months being depressed. not unhappy just apathetic and frustrated. bc objectively im having a good time n learning new things and making friends like its a really good semester but i havent been able to enjoy it bc im currently incapable of enjoying anything. i can appreciate things, i can acknowledge the positive aspects of my life but they dont give me any positive feelings. instead im just angry or overwhelmed all the time

#at least im not anxious.#it felt nice to hear the therapist say shes not worried about anxiety levels n wants to focus on my trauma and depression #bc i really am mostly free of generalized anxiety. and social anxiety.#like im not having panic attacks n im carefree to a fault #more of my pain now comes from shame about something i did bc i wasn’t feeling anxious enough and did or said something odd or upsetting #but not to a point i should be crying n hating myself you know. i guess its a sort of anxiety to worry so much how you come off to ppl n if #youve upset them etc #but i dont really feel that constant stress and fear anymore its cool #now i just need to get the positive emotions going again n i truly believe i will be unstoppable itll be crazy

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manofmanymons · 4 months

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#mom said it's my turn on the tags vent #so like #sometimes i trick myself into thinking #i cant have any mento iwness #i do well in school #bc despite me jokingly referring to whatever tf is goin on with me as the Mental Illness #im not like #diagnosed with literally anything #not even like anxiety despite the constant sense of dread that never leaves me and the Frequent Panic Attacks #like officially on paper i am 'normal'#but i digress #i really gotta stop using how im doing in school as an indication of mental health #cuz ive come to accept that im just a person who happens to be Good At School #baby sam living through The Horrors? still did good in school #fuckinnn 9 years old having cps and the police showin up at my house askin me a bunch of weird questions #still did good in school #height of my 'actually i fucking hate all of you' phase where i was constantly in the office for getting in fights #STILL did really good in school #completely gave up on life and legitimately believed i would never be happy again bc the only person who unconditionally loved me—#and was always there for me fuckin died #still got all a's in nearly all ap classes #deeply traumatized from almost dying during the pandemic to the point where i couldn't go outside without hyperventilating instantly?#would ya believe it i still did good in school #so i should #really stop going #nothing can be that wrong with me if im getting through school #bc even during times where shit was objectively severely wrong with me #it had 0 impact on how i did in school #lowkey don't even know where to start unpacking whatevers goin on up there tho #where would i be if my parents had listened to my doctor when i was younger who said they should take me to a psychiatrist i wonder lmfao

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chaotic-history · 7 months

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How are ya doing?

Not Great but we stay silly 👍

is this randomhistoryandmemes

#i am. stressed and i feel like i've been having a constant anxiety attack for the past two days #everything's slowly pressing in and i am Not Having Fun #like logically ik that everything will turn out fine. unfortunately it does not feel like that it feels like i'm going to forever feel-#- trapped and behind and lost #somehow i've been marginally less suicidal though so. W to me 😌

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piplupod · 5 months

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thinking too hard about my situation and ending up with heart pounding and inability to breathe yayyyy

#i have enough in my savings for two more years of no income if i am very very careful with my money #and if there are no sudden medical expenses. i feel very very sick fdsjkl #i may have to figure out how to get onto disability or get a job if i want to live any longer than two more years but god. god.#idk i am just... this sucks. i cannot see a realistic way of me living in the world as it is currently but i so badly want to be alive #i have things i want to do and things i want to be !!! but there is just no realistic way for me to even bare minimum survive out here!!#it is all so sucks and i just feel so fucking nauseous and dizzy thinking about it all #welcome to the new year time to think about how you're going to be forced into suicide soon yayyy thanks brain #honestly its impressive i can get my heart pounding from anxiety considering im on a beta blocker to . prevent that from happening.#is this a panic attack? this might be a panic attack. i dont know anymore bc i am just in a constant state of low level panic/anxiety #suicide mention #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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elftwink · 1 year

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forgot my food in the work fridge even though i spent the entire shift looking forward to eating it and wrote on my fucking arm do not forget food in fridge. i am so fucking sick of living in this godforsaken world

#good idea generator #like im fine but also existence is a curse.#heavy sigh. i just wish i could have like. a functioning memory #and it the last day for me until january so now somebody else will have to throw it out jm so embarrassed #and i wanted to EAT IT. and it was so expensive :/#sorry this seems like a lot of complaining for a minor thing #in my defense i am currently living life on the constant edge of an anxiety attack

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murobrown · 2 years

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#new ability unlocked....✨health anxiety✨#I'm tired man I'm so fucking tired of panicking all the time because I feel like I'm going to pass out ot throw up #or constantly googling health symptoms what makes me feel thousands times worse and definitely doesn't calm me down #one day I'm sure I'm getting a heart attack on next day I have a brain tumor then epilepsy then I go for aneurysm...#fucking funniest thing is that it's been going on for two months and absolutely nothing happened to me #i just have constant headache nausea and pain in my stomach but I haven't passed out or threw up or anything #fuck I just want back my normal life when I'm not in constant worry #i feel like im 24/7 in a high alert panic mode so I can't comprehend anything calmly...#i feel like an animal that's constantly just running away from something #I'm scared too see a doctor because I don't even know how to explain my problems...they will think I'm completely insane...#I can't remember last time I ate something without feeling anxious and being in pain afterwards #and the worst thing is that I developed even ubhealier relationship with food by counting calories :))))#so even though I eat nothing I need to push myself into an intense workout because my brain tells me I need to burn everything #i didn't know ai could be even more messed up than I was before #but hey I lost a ton of weight and I am in the best shape I've ever been... it's all I ever wanted and it cost me only my sanity :)))))#i don't even have clothes to fit in anymore because everything literally falls down from me...#currently I'm convinced I'm going to pass out and die any second but I know I'll be alright I can't just die out of nowhere...#I'm healthy and everything will be okay...I survived so much and it will get only better #if you read this rant I typed out while hyperventilating congratulations you get a free cookie and a warm tea I'll be making #guys but seriously...do you know how to tackle this? or the only logical way is to see a doctor?#because I don't know how long can I go on like this considering from September my job should get even more stressful...#now my stress level is high like never before... just thinking about September is giving me a panic attack #aaaaand those are the things I shouldn't think about because the only thing stressing me out the most is my fucking self :)#that's the damn problem like the thing that's making me most stressed is the stress 🙃#I feel nauseous because I'm stressed and I'm stressed because I'm nauseous...makes sense #i think I'm loosing my mind...and it fucking sucks that I do this to myself for no reason at all #i have a nice relaxing day and then in the evening I decide to think about all the bad stuff and kill it all #another scary thing is living on your own without any close friends in your life and with your family hours away...it won't let me sleep #if anything happens I'm alone...if I pass out right now I need to take care about myself #i often think how long would it take to find my dead body here...and then I shake and cry because I don't want to die

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aastarions · 2 years

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this weekend i’m gonna start working on chapter 5 of stay gold me thinks

#c shut up #this week has been so exhausting from the constant tooth pain #to my car problems #to the covid scare #ive barely had a chance to even think about my fic :(#maybe it'll do me some good to work on it this weekend honestly #take my mind off of things #especially my upcoming dentist appointment monday #i have to go alone again and the tooth they put a crown on is most likely infected #meaning i need a root canal now #so not only am i spending another 400-500 dollars on THAT #i'm just scared :(#because even though i've had a root canal done before i wasn't alone my friends came with me #and that helped so much #but i have to go alone #and i'm also scared because when i went in for the crown #they didnt use enough novacane and i started feeling it halfway through #and the thought of feeling a root canal has me on the verge of an anxiety attack aha #man #these tags got really long

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burden-boy · 3 months

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Could try to accept I'll never have a normal life and I'll always struggle with loneliness, autism, ADD, broken family/home issues, drug dependencies, not fitting in anywhere, no passion/goals in life, keeping jobs, making payments etc, and fucking struggle n stumble and suffer my way through it all, or... I could learn to accept being found hanging on a rope in a forest isn't that scary and everything I leave behind will survive without me fine burdening them.

#Yea I'm more scared of how I'll be found and by who than actually dying by suffocating but I'm just slightly socially anxious lol #Also leaving things behind is hard because that 'what if'#But ugh I just wanna jump in a void and not exist anymore #Nothing to fall back on anymore tho. If this job shit doesn't work then I'm pretty much going to quit #And man am I douptful of this magically working out with all my mental shit being unresolved by those wankstain therapists #Here's the real male privilege. 3 options. You tough it out and make it work. You become a loser bum. Or you commit suicide #I either make it work or I commit suicide if I can't stand on my own feet I don't wanna stand at all lmao #Anxiety attacks go brrrrr #Constant headaches n stuff y'know. The usual :3

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cryptidimp · 9 months

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my brain is loud

#constant anxiety attacks when I can’t get ahold of my partner #I am a toxic person #but also your phone is dead which means YOU can be dead #personal #venting #and yes #I will sit here frozen in fear until he gets ahold of me just to tell me he loves me #I need help #update: it wasn’t even an I love you this time #just him saying his phones charged #I swear he’s getting tired of me

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think-im-kind-of-gay · 9 months

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Right so, when do I get to the whole cool club kid gay part of my existence? Or like the put together high powered career lesbian with a wife and a gaggle of friends? Like. I'm just stuck in the constant anxiety attack broke bitch queer person who fucking hates talking to people part. What the fuck.

#i dont know that my heart can take more than a year of constant anxiety attacks everyday my guy #how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions #i want to PARTY and HAVE FUN. HOW?

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insanechayne · 1 year

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#sometimes I wonder if our relationship is really healthy/good for me #because truthfully I get constant anxiety attacks and bad feelings and they’re all usually centered around our relationship in some way #a good portion of our relationship was based around one thing but then you took that thing away #so how do we fill that gap without feeling like something is missing?#and I know you’re not struggling with this the way I am because you have other things going on #but I’m just saying it hurts really fucking bad sometimes missing what we had and feeling like our whole connection is just a little bit off #and the problem is that you’re pretty much my best friend #and truly you are a very good friend overall #you’re the only person I want to talk to every single day and at all hours of the day #so there’s no way I could give you up or try not to talk to you or something like that #but I also still have a crush on you that you encouraged for months #and for a while you didn’t tell me to stop you just strung my feelings along knowing I was waiting for you to come back to me #knowing how much I missed you and wanted you and you couldn’t be fully honest with me about what you wanted #and that makes my struggle with this worse I think #how do I get rid of these feelings when I can’t not talk to you #how do I not like you that way when you’re the first person to make me feel anything in the longest time #every day I hope it’ll be the day you decide you want me again #that’s not really very healthy is it? waiting on something that may never happen again #but truly I have nothing else to hold onto and so I have to hold onto you #but still the consistent anxiety and shit is getting old #and I can’t talk to you about any of this because you’ll probably just snap at me again #but fuck sometimes I just feel like I’m being torn apart and I don’t know how to fix that #personal

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tempe-brennans · 1 year

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gonna throw up <3

#having a bad time besties #can u just be in a constant state of an anxiety attack?#i think i am #rebeccaspeaks

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4byun · 2 years

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#i know i always say this but i am beyond exhausted #my anxiety is eating me alive #living in this home = constant dread and anxiety attacks #i cant sleep i cant sleep I CANT SLEEEEPPPP #i’m scared of falling asleep only to wake up to screaming & fighting #so when i do i involuntarily wake up to an anxiety attack #then i cant sleep because of my anxiety attack #and so on #i just want to get more than 3 hours of sleep #especially when ive stayed up till 8am for the past few days for my project #it doesnt help that im feeling absolutely horrible #i cant stand the thought of going to uni in a few hours #having to Smile and Wave at people when i just want to die l o l #and present my work ???? more anxiety #why am i just a bag of flesh and anxiety #its pathetic lol #man I just wish I could sleep…… thats all i need rn……. i can deal with being suicidal just as long as im not delirious w sleep deprivation #zzzzzzzzzz

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