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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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Anger is such a normal part of recovery, and I wish it were normalized. I think it is genuinely harmful to depict recovery as this era of your life that only sets you free and makes you euphoric, and there will never again be a cloud in the sky because you have Ultimately Healed.

It's the fucking opposite sometimes. Recovery can feel violent, because the things you are recovering from are often (though not always) violent. It is so common to feel white-hot rage, grief, catharsis, elation, numbness - in essence, a whole host of emotions that aren't pretty, or aren't simple little categories to be neatly boxed and sorted and understood by the "normals."

Those recovering: Your emotions are real, and they aren't bad. You aren't a bad person for how you are processing and healing. You, however, aren't alone. You are doing so fucking well, no matter what it is you are healing from or for. I genuinely hope you can be proud of that.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #recovery #the first time i actually *let* myself feel anger and rage was truly the point i felt free #because throughout my time trying to recover i was TERRIFIED and HORRIFIED that i could feel those Bad Emotions #and that rage hit me suddenly because i couldn't hold that anger in anymore #it's almost funny to me now though #me driving: 😀 || my brain: I Am So Fucking Irate About [recovery thing] I Never Deserved That || me: 🤬#i know for a fact that i have talked about this but i quite literally still need to talk about this

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shannonsketches · 5 months

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I know most of the folks playing OoT now are adults but when that game came out it was marketed to young children. Like I need you to understand that it won the 1999 Kids Choice Award for Favorite Video Game alongside Yoshi's Story.

This one.

#I am CONSTANTLY begging dead hands to come back and be updated knowing damn well they cannot #that is one thing I am almost certain they will put in the movie though #nothing horrifies like the concept of a deadhand

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crabussy · 4 months

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IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING KIND TODAY!!! IS ANYONE ELSE FEELING GENEROUS TOWARDS OTHER PEOPLE!!! IS ANYBODY ELSE BEING KIND AND TRYING TO UNDERSTAND EVEN WHEN ITS HARD!!! IS ANYONE ELSE ASSUMING THE BEST OF OTHERS INTENTIONS AND RESPONDING IN KIND!!!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME

#having a day ^_^#I love being kind I just wish other people loved being kind more #people on the internet are SO FUCKING MEAN TO EACH OTHER???? its a terrible phenomenon #I have never seen people in real life treat others badly with the horrifying proportion of hate I see online #please. try to be kinder try to be more patient even when its frustrating #I have changed minds and deescalated arguments SO many times by being kind.#if someone is spouting misinfo in a furious rage and they're saying hurtful things? try responding with patience and kindness #even when you don't feel they deserve it. because one of 2 things usually happens #EITHER. they immediately shift their tone because you're talking to them like an equal and not an idiot #OR they continue to be horrible and it makes them look really nasty. its not a good look!! most people won't do the second thing!!#hateful online arguments has turned my mental health into a disgusting stew in the past #since I started being kind out of sheer frustration my mental health has improved a thousandfold #listen. sometimes its okay to be mean. if someone tells you to kill yourself I dont think its appropriate to give them patience and kindnes #BUT. if you treat someone like they're stupid. even if you're right!!! they won't listen to you or consider your words!!#because admitting you're right means admitting that they're stupid like you think they are. that feels bad so people won't do it #my wisdom. today I am so tired

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moeblob · 2 months

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I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet!#anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 !#why am i getting your insurance company calling me today !#also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck!#im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

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wundrousarts · 7 months

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headcanon that edgy Nevermoorian teens make cringy wundersmith ocs with wildly inaccurate lore and there’s a whole forum dedicated to role playing them. Morrigan finds said forum.

This is actually what the group from the blurry Silverborn snippet is, tbh.

JK, but I was inspired. Enjoy.

Text version of the chat:

MaximillianMårtensson: Finally, I’ve mastered all 9 of the Wretched Arts….. tch *shadow clouds his face, and he starts to chuckle* Lyd1aDr1sc0ll: i mastered all 10 :3 Xx_EsterOtten_xX: SKILL ISSUE. I’ve mastered 12 🔥💯💪 GigiGrand: hi i;m famous singer gigi grand MaximillianMårtensson: // STOP. Xx_EsterOtten_xX and GigiGrand are typing…

#asks #nevermoor #nevermoor headcanons #nevermoor meme #nevermoor fanart #‘why did you write it out when you had it in text form’ ummmm next question please #layers for mog: one yet layers for everything else: a billion trillion #thank you for the funny ask #I love thinking about nevermoorians online #what is squall’s whole deal w the gossamer traveling but cyberbullying?#the names are from behindthename’s generator. always useful lol #this is inspired by ye olde text edit hp rps between my sisters and I #we started out by just each of us trying to give ourselves better brooms than the previous person loll #and so I think the equivalent for cringe wundersmith ocs would be how much of a prodigy each of them are lol #does anyone else think that the horrified mog with the transparent .png of a computer is the funniest thing ever or am I just delirious #bc I find it hilarious and kept getting distracted from the rest of this to giggle at it at the bottom of the canvas lol

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blue-mood-blue · 1 month

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What if Hua Cheng had memorialized the temple?

I don’t think he did, canonically. I imagine that was a memory he wasn’t keen to linger on, especially not to such an extent as to record it, to hover over the details in his mind and commit it to physical imagery. But I could see where he might - maybe catharsis, so that night can exist somewhere outside of his head. Maybe twisting, spiteful justice, so the world won’t be allowed to forget what it did to his god. Maybe just desperation, to record every shard of Xie Lian that he has in an effort not to lose a single piece while he searches.

It wouldn’t be graphic; I think it would be something more stylized, more symbolic. Xie Lian is tied to his own altar. He has replaced the divine statue that should be there instead, the god made present the way he was for Hua Cheng once, the way he was for all of his people once. He is surrounded by blades, but they aren’t piercing him yet. Hua Cheng can’t do that to him even in paint. Bai Wuxiang is not featured, because Hua Cheng would not force any version of Xie Lian into that monster’s presence, but there is a ghost fire hovering near. There is a small, crushed flower on the ground at the foot of the altar, like it was dropped from the Flower Crowned Prince’s hand moments before. The entire tableau holds its breath in the anticipation of something horrific.

It’s painted in a shadowed corner, with a cloth hung in front of it. Not out of shame, or even because of Hua Cheng’s own trauma - out of respect for the prince’s privacy, unwillingness to make a moment of such incredible, painful vulnerability a spectacle to anyone else without the prince’s say-so.

That doesn’t stop Mu Qing from finding it.

Mu Qing, who was already horrified, Mu Qing, who was looking for Xie Lian to drag him out of the caves immediately because he’d seen a statue that suggested things he would rather not think about in regards to his former prince… Mu Qing brushes the curtain aside in that tucked-away corner and stops.

A hundred blades are pointed at His Highness. A hundred faces leer and sob and stare. And Xie Lian sits at the center of it all, head lowered, waiting for the slaughter.

Is it so unreasonable that Mu Qing takes it for a threat? Is it so unreasonable of Mu Qing to drag Feng Xin to what he’s found, for the both of them to slip an arm around each of the prince’s own and pull him away from wherever that altar is somewhere in the complicated network of twisted, obscene worship? That thing painted on the wall - it can’t have ever happened. They would know. Mu Qing and Feng Xin, who spent every day of their early lives with the prince, beside the prince, trailing along behind the prince… they would know. They would have been there; they would have prevented it. This is the fantasy of a ghost king who laid ruin to thirty-three heavenly officials and found his thirst still unslaked.

(Mu Qing does not consider the eight hundred years of Xie Lian’s life he knows nothing about. Feng Xin does not consider the eight hundred years of Xie Lian’s life he knows nothing about. It’s a habit they’ve grown skilled at, over eight hundred years.)

They don’t explain to Xie Lian, so Xie Lian has no opportunity to explain to them what they saw. And Mu Qing isn’t wrong, when he concludes that Xie Lian has been stalked and watched and hunted since he was seventeen. He isn’t wrong. He just doesn’t know, yet, what direction the threat is coming from. There’s no time for anyone to tell him, or Feng Xin, who tied the restraints and provided the sword.

They’ll find out. Masks are made to be removed.

#heaven official's blessing #tgcf #hua cheng #xie lian #mu qing #feng xin #couldn't decide if this should be a text post or a ficlet so it kinda became both #anyway i definitely don't see this as canon #but i am consumed with the idea of WHAT IF #like i am already fascinated by any and all versions of mu qing and feng xin finding out about the temple #and like. what if there was no context. what if they assumed the threat was an ongoing thing.#(it is)#it just... also fascinates me that YEAH - mu qing cottoned on to the fact that xie lian had someone who was unhealthily fascinated with him #but. BUT.#He Did Not Know #and that is to me more horrifying because of who it actually turned out to be #anyway #all of this to say that i am so interested in situations where xie lian's pain is revealed and also the horror #of seeing it as something that might still happen and not even knowing that this is a horror that has already happened #the horror of finding out that you were far too late to prevent it and you never even KNEW #the horror of finally knowing the shape of that formless guilt you felt #i have feelings about it can you tell :P #this will probably not be the last time i explore this space

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sergle · 5 months

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some extra info abt the brittany broski situation is that before her most recent podcast ep she posted smth on her close friends ig story saying that ppl asking her to talk about palestine was “dystopian” and like a black mirror episode or smth so that’s what most ppl are talking about w her! she still obviously showed her support now and doesn’t deserve the hate at ALL (esp cause it should be focused at elected officials) but ya there’s some more context!!

I mean that is accurate! this is dystopian! It's very fucking weird to live in a world where literal genocide is happening, but all that REALLY matters is that someone posts a tweet about it quickly enough, otherwise you don't care. That is dystopian. and basically seeing a script for what to say being handed to you, showing the emptiness of the gesture. meanwhile the actual topic of human suffering is miles away. just ticking boxes.

#I really am like. I do not care if mark hamill or brittany broski or julian solomita made or didn't make a Twitter Thread about it.#like I'm sure she could've made an Empty Gesture tweet that says the same thing we all already know.#like. Genocide Bad. do people need e-celebs to say that. it seems obvious. genocide is bad. this is bad. slaughter is bad.#and then someone says that yeah it IS very very much on their radar and it's horrifying and sickening and they feel powerless and hopeless #and then it's ''omg it's not about you'' BUT THEN WHY WAS IT ABOUT YOU... A SECOND AGO... is it or is it not About Them #sergle answers

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arsenicflame · 1 year

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sorry im still thinking about the toe thing, about how permanent it is, how purposeful it felt.

ed must have had hours to think about it, and he still decided on disabling his first mate, stopping him being able to do his job properly. no matter how impared his thinking, it wasn't a spur of the moment thing. ed has to have had a reason why he decided this was the course of action he would take over any other.

no matter what happens next, things will never ever be able to go back to the way they were before.

the crew can forgive ed for marooning them, and izzy will still be disabled

frenchie and jim can forgive ed for the kidnapping, for the inevitable trauma, and izzy will still be disabled

stede can buy a whole new ships worth of things, and izzy will still be disabled

izzy himself can forgive ed for what he did, recover from the psychological impact, but he will still be disabled

they can grow old, have adventures, retire, but nothing will bring back izzys toe

#i am. hoping and praying the show will handle this with the weight it deserves honestly #i really dont know what ill do if they just brush it off and play it for laughs #its not funny to me its not funny in any way its HORRIFYING. sure this is a pirate show they do pirate things but #idk. it feels More. more than setting ships on fire more than talk of maiming more than stabbing and jokes about eating each other #it feels intimate #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #the toe thing #nyxtalks #a certified nyx post

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fluffydice · 4 months

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Fun fact I consider Akechi to have low empathy because I too have low empathy

#sometimes i mention this and people think i am bragging or am proud of it. i am very much not #it's sometimes horrifying to think that i can't bring myself to care about certain things #i relate a lot to saiki but i also base a lot of akechi's traits in my work off of my own #saiki k #fluffy cooks a headcanon

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travalerray · 3 months

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I am going to slap you myself

#WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS #the conversation is flying over both their heads because they are saying entirely different things #wwx: it was such a huge blow to me. Losing my golden core was the stuff of nightmares. I do not want to recall that. I want to move on #what jc hears: Get Lost shidi. I no longer want to see your face #jc: I want to hate you so bad. Why can't I hate you? Haven't you broken my heart enough? Why couldn't you just TELL me anything? Why.#what wwx hears: JC can't deal with the fact that I wwx who did everything terrible am actually responsible for his achievements. His pride #took a huge blow. Damn. Better tell him that I don't actually mind lmao #[grimly said while looking at the wwx papercraft I have hanging on my bedroom wall.]#[actually what many do miss is that deep down there are multiple times WWX actually does understand JC's thing. He understands the pride as #a cultivator. He understands how horrifying the self sacrifice must have been (see: wq and wn). He just doesn't like thinking about it for #very long in this life. Sigh]#mdzs #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mo dao zu shi #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #kk's rambles tag

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mlmxreader · 11 days

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they fucking BRANDED a Black man? 😨

#i am... absolutely horrified #I mean it's ONE THING to display cult-like behaviour and everything #but BRANDING A BLACK MAN?#who tf thought that was okay to write into a show????#antiblackness #antiblackracism #fallout tv series #fallout tv show #fallout amazon #fallout

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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It's honestly fucked up to me how everything associated with wellness, like fitness and what have you, is associated with "being skinny."

I told somebody how I wanted to go to the gym after work, and it was surprising to me how they responded, "What for, you're already skinny," as though your only goal at the gym should - or can - be to "get skinny"

Diet culture and whatnot is a fucking disease.

#diet culture #fatohobia tw #ask to tag (genuine)#i thought this was a perfect example of the attitude so many have about fitness/eating/overall wellness #it's as though no other reason exists outside of 'lose weight' and that's fucking horrifying to me #like am i overreacting or reaching. like. genuinely is there no problem with this?#i was also really sad when that person talked about how they saw themself as fat (as a bad thing if that wasn't clear)#and :(#:( genuinely

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localgardenweed · 5 days

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I need that discord nitro im sorry it has me in its little grip. Plus wanna practice commission stuff before I start doing it with REAL MONEY WOAAAHH soon guys soon. I will mostly draw anything but NO NSFW, PROSHIP, OFFENSIVE CHARACTERS, POLITICAL PROPAGANDA also no complex mechs or complex armor. Yes to Furries, Simple Mechs and Armored characters If you want more than 1 character than it's another 10 buckaroos USD aka another Nitro Gift Short version of the Payment Process: Tell me what you want, show sketch to you, you say "awesome, I like it keep going", finish art, pay for art and give art to you. Will share my discord user when it's time to pay

SLOTS TAKEN: 3/5

The stills from the gif are below to choose a coloring style

#localgardenweed #commission #commissions #discord commissions #discord nitro commissions #commision prices #discord nitro #eddsworld #hetalia #sonic the hedgehog #I AM WIGGING OUT IM SCARED AND HORRIFIED #Im rocking back and forth scared out of my mind rn #im finally free to draw whatever I want so I wanna get a little cray cray #also i need to use emojis in different servers that the main thing I wanna do #when it turn 18 and finally can get a paypal and kofi and all other stuff im gonna open them again for real money ig not just nitro #I gotta pay for college and also my future endeavors like housing and gas and basic needs #it'll be another way of income along side my main job #and also expand to what I have to do to get that coin #its either this or I make a footfinder account and sell feet pics if the art thing doesn't work out /j

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furbyeggs · 29 days

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drew a thing or something i suppose

#art #robot #robot wires #robophilia #robotfucker #i dont rlly like the wires for hair thing but i decided to test it out for once #if it looks bad that's because i use kleki #i swear im such a good artist #one of my irl friends follows my on here and i will cry if she sees it #she already calls me a robotwhore and a roboslut soooo #would be very very embarrassing #i swear im normal guys #im normal about robots #i am to be trusted with machinery #machinefucker #i am but a humble robotliker who gets called many many horrid names by my friends #(i tell them i want to take apart sun fnaf and look and his insides and they act reasonably horrified)#im literally aroace and they act APPALLED when i say something SLIGHTLY odd abt robots #IM NORMAL #IM NORMAL ABOUT ROBOTS #i swear #when i was little everytime there was a fictional robot on screen id get sucked in. like i wouldn't be able to stop staring until they were #gone #like id just be staring no thoughts #brain completely empty nothing in my mind but “OMG ROBOT!!”#i still do this sometimes actually but its not as bad #i just think robots are neat! they're cool #(on screen as in whenever i was watcing tv)

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mylordshesacactus · 10 months

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I got to do some like, legit atmospheric horror work a month or so back.

The party, after ditching the giant dragon turtle, was making their way through the forest in search of a small village they’d seen from its back--the only sign of civilization. Their unicorn friend Albion had dropped them in a region of the faewild he said contained a trusted ally--but no one had come to find them, and they need to get moving, so the village is as good a place to start as any.

Along the way they ran into a pair of charming rabbitfolk brothers named Brush and Briar, struggling on the side of the road to right a partially-smashed cart. After cautious, exact-words exchanges in which Max the bard did some serious work to make the party appear nonthreatening and avoid accidentally imposing a debt, the brothers explained that they were from the nearby village of Little Ivywood, and they’d been attacked by bandits on the road and nearly lost all their worldly possessions because the bandits accused them of “betraying their queen”. They explain that Little Ivywood surely has some pro-mortal sentiments, but that certainly neither of them have betrayed any queens!

The party, who were headed that way anyway, of course take the brothers under their wing and help them get their cart back to the village. Along the way they chat about the faewild, about the bandit problem (bandits are described as “bestial” and there are claw marks on the cart), about how about 20% of their carrots “bite back” and it’s very offputting, dontchaknow, but such eternal suffering does seem to be somethin’ of our people’s lot in life.

So they pass several pleasant hours before coming up on the village of Little Ivywood.

The............very....very. Quiet. Village of Little Ivywood.

Max and Andromeda are the first to see the bodies in the fields.

The party puts Brush and Briar behind them and--in a moment that made me the DM ache over how recently they were a ragtag bunch of misfits half of whom had never taken a life before--do a VERY professional check-and-clear sweep of the village. It’s...bad. If there are survivors, they’re nowhere near.

The wounds are grisly, and the attack was...thorough. Nimbus the ranger finds the marks of boots and cloven hooves in the dirt, but is having trouble checking trailsign--he grew up in a village just like this. While checking houses, Audie the wizard finds a cellar door thrown open with the bloody body of one rabbit dead on the floor outside it, and a rug thrown aside under the trapdoor--someone who gave his life to hide his family, only to have them die anyway.

Andromeda, the aarakocra paladin, stays in the air on overwatch. While checking the perimeter, she sees a glimmer in the treeline and drops down to check--expecting to find enemy scouts coming back for stragglers, or perhaps an injured survivor taking shelter in the hedgerow, and finds--

Snares.

Iron running snares, set in between rows of crops, paths in the hedgerows, along gaps in the underbrush. A cruel, condescending kind of joke--the kind of perimeter you set up when you intend for no one, not a single living rabbitfolk, to escape the slaughter.

With no small amount of guilt, the party takes what they can from the homes--they haven’t been looted, this wasn’t a bandit raid. And then--something moves.

The trio of liondrakes emerges all spite and fury; held at bay by the heavily-armed party but hissing insults, calling Brush and Briar traitors, demanding to know why the party would defend them, swearing to kill them all in the name of their queen or die trying. And something--doesn’t add up. The liondrakes scoff at the idea of serving the Courts--it was the Summer Court, they say, who killed these people, and their own queen, the Queen of the Wilds, who tried to save them. They say, again, that the party is harboring traitors, and...

and it’s Nim who makes the 20+ insight check.

Brush and Briar lived in Little Ivywood. They were farmers, not merchants. So, on the night their families and neighbors were slaughtered by the Summer Court...

What were they doing in the middle of the woods with all of their worldly possessions?

#d&d #suncrest #the reference name for this session in the campaign notes doc #is 'Warren Of The Shining Wires'#because I am always and forever myself #i've NEVER gotten to do the 'adorable friendly NPC you can't help but love is actually fucking evil' thing before #it was so much fun #my players were horrified

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thedreadvampy · 5 months

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The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy.#anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is.#but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen.#I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still.#then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage?#and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting.#like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

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