counting the fucking days

how am i supposed to cope with this

It's SATURDAY

Which means it's time for ✨Thirsty Thots Saturday✨ name is a wip

So, send me your thoughts! Share your desires! Share your head canons!

And, remember, these don't have to be clone specific! If you're thirsting after Obi-Wan, I love and respect you and want to hear all about it!

You wanna ride Plo Koon until he forgets his name? You do you, babe. But please, share with the class! Share with me your vision!

You wanna be a member of Captain Keeli's harem help give him a battalion of babies? You're totally valid, and would love to hear more!

Put baby in bed at 8 with a slight fever. She proceeded to cry on and off until she started to do non stop cries. The only thing that snapped her out of it was getting to watch videos of herself, but as soon as that went away we were back at big sobs. Luckily it turned out she could also be calmed down with a flashlight, which she played with until suddenly she turned her head sideways and promptly fell asleep. At half past 11...

Yesterday was also a big cry night but luckily I've been kind of hyper in the evenings and unable to sleep anyway so I've sent pasi off to the guest room with permission to sleep.

yall i finished that bigass report that was weighing on me for a while omg the RELIEF

was finally able to get the new covid shot yesterday and fortunately the side effects aren't as bad as the last ones but i am a big weenie so the soreness and tiredness has made everything impossible

Sometimes I worry that I haven't taken good enough care of my ears, but then I'm in physical pain from how loud not only friends and coworkers in the same room keep their music but how loud my neighbors and the people in the parking lot blast it

Omg wish me luck, I’m at a friends house for her wedding weekend and I’m sleeping in a bed that’s on a frame and up high for the first time in like over a decade haha. I mean, I don’t make a habit of rolling out of bed but usually the stakes aren’t literally this high.

i keep sending you gg asks im so sorry but im watching a video essay rn and it's about lane and its about how like. in a way lanes entire character is kind of a backstory into lorelai's life like her character itself is a prequel to the gilmore girls? which does make sense a little because they both grew up in very restricted households and controlling mothers and family lives and there is the big difference with wreath and class at its core its still kind of the same thing. and this isn't meant 2 reduce lane because obviously i love lane she's my girl and i would die for her! but it does. make a lot of sense and gives v interesting insight into both lane and lorelai's character and idk i can send u the video essay if u want but i wanted to know ur thoughts?

NO OMG I SEE WHAT YOU MEAN and i’ve always thought that! like while the parallels aren’t completely perfect, we do glean insights into how lorelai was feeling through lane; mrs. kim and emily are also super similar maternal figures in that they care so fucking much about their daughters but just… don’t know how to parent without suffocating their kids. both lane and lorelai felt like the love of their mothers was a conditional thing—that believed they had to present themselves a certain way around them, and that they wouldn’t be accepted if they tried to be their authentic selves. it’s super heartbreaking when you really think about it bc both lorelai and lane had so much self-directed hate for literally just… being regular teenage girls. listening to rock music and wearing trendy clothes and having crushes/dating resulted in them getting shamed, but those things are so normal and they really should’ve been allowed to do them. that’s the thing about being a teenager—it’s all about trying on different versions of yourself and going through phases to figure out who you are, but neither of them had any wiggle room to do that and so they both kind of ended up stuck (and both of them having babies at a super young age definitely contributed to this as well). emily and mrs. kim had impossibly high expectations for their daughters and they both flipped out when either of them made mistakes because it would “look bad”—to their neighbors, their community (mrs. kim’s church, emily’s club friends), etc. it was all about appearances and obedience and maintaining a facade of perfection, and lane and lor were crushed by that.

maybe I’ll just live in the living room forever and never go back to my room. Maybe the bedbugs can’t get me over here.

lack of sleep makes me weird

experiencing i think burnout for the first time in a couple of years and i did not miss this :))))

that's it my physics class is REALLY starting to piss me off

can't fucking believe vent is still down. where else am i gonna yell about being ill

OH i mentioned before this new prof in our department who’s doing REALLY cool research emailed me about an offer for a paid position on her research team, like specifically because she likes the way i think, like my Professional Perspective. and i had to say no bc i’m doing classes and this internship until i’m done here and i will be so so so so busy next semester. but today she found me on campus and asked me AGAIN, like I would really REALLY like you on this project, in any way, please let me know if you change your mind. and i’mmmmm kinda considering it now. it might kill me, but…. money…. cool research…….. idk what she meant by ~in any way~ like how much responsibility, but maybe i will follow up and ask some more questions…..

so between those dudes and this prof and people asking me to study with them for the huge major crazy insane exam i had today it’s been a weird day of???? feeling wanted??? wild

Me, in a snowstorm with a temperature of -9 but feels like -35, wind so strong and cold that it was taking the air out of my lungs, and very UNCLEAR roads: No yeah I can make it to work

Me when I fishtail through an intersection: Yeah no I can't make it to work