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digitalafterlife · 4 months

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maybe this is me stating the obvious because i'm ten years late to the party again, but the more i think about it, the more i realise gifting/burdening ashildr with immortality was a time lord victorious moment straight out of waters of mars, not a true gesture of kindness like the decision to save the pompeiian family – despite his attempt to absolve himself of guilt and to "logic" himself into believing that these situations are analogous, that this is the only right thing to do. why do i think so? well, because for starters he practically phrases it like a challenge: "i'm the Doctor, i save people, and if anyone up there who's listening has any sort of problem with that..."

it's a declaration of rebellion, right? the kindness aspect is present, yes, absolutely, but it stems from selfishness too: above everything, it comes from a desire to prove (to Clara and himself and anybody that's listening) that he's still the Doctor. if he had genuinely been acting rationally, if his intentions had been purely altruistic, he would never have subjected a young teenager to immortality without her consent or knowledge, tearing her away from everyone she loves, especially being as painfully aware of the loneliness it can bring as he is.

sure he gives her the second patch in a hurry, after looking at clara no doubt, but does he explain anything? does he even bother to tell ashildr the truth? no, — the most important reason behind this action was winning a debate with himself and imaginary past/future enemies. that's why it backfires. that's why he visits her only on a scant few occasions over 800 years, that's why he watches her from afar but never dares come close until a coincidence brings them together.

it's not even a jack situation: she's functionally immortal because of alien technology, not divine badwolf vortex-magic. she's not a fixed point. he could visit her anytime, but he doesn't, because ashildr's a living breathing representation of his guilt, walking the earth and never finding peace. a reminder of his tendency to run from the fallout of his rash decisions.

basically, as i said before, it's totally a victor frankenstein predicament. you created a monster out of hubris, brought it back from the dead, then turned and ran from your creation, ashamed of the surrogate child you fathered. the creature you assembled. they're your responsibility now. tough.

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catastrxblues · 5 months

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everything about coriolanus and sejanus is sick. because to sejanus, coryo was his everything. his best and only friend, his only companion, the only person in the academy who cared enough for him that he had even risked his life to bail him out of the arena. in district 12, when sejanus appeared in the brink of snow’s hopelessness and brought hope and familiarity to his life, coryo immediately embraced him, and then practically telling him that sejanus just saved him from committing suicide— which obviously only solidified sejanus’ belief that his best friend treasured him and loved him and cared for him unconditionally. (which i believe snow did, just to some extent).

but most of the times, to coryo, sejanus was just a friend. a friend that he tolerated every once in a while, a friend he resented lots of time because of his background, and a friend he really cared for, but not enough. never enough when the other choice was his country. and sejanus died not knowing that. he died without the knowledge that it was his best friend who betrayed him, and that he was still referred to as a “traitor” by him on an occasion with the dean.

and what’s so fucking sick is that coryo did care and mourn about it yes, but then he moved on and took on the ladder by taking pieces of what was left of his friend’s life with his blood on his hands and used it to his advantage.

he was taken in under the care of his dead friend’s family, loved and cared for, never had to worry about money anymore. ma and strabo plinth would never know that the reason their beloved son wasn’t alive, why their son wasn’t there anymore for his 19th birthday was because of his best friend they had just taken in. and no one would ever ever fucking find out.

and coryo. just. doesn’t. care. about. sejanus. anymore. in a snap. because now he has won, taking over panem one step at the time, and that has always been his biggest motivator. he might’ve cared for sejanus, like he cared for lucy gray, but that has never been enough. not when at the end of it all, the only person he has always been striving to save was himself and the glory of his family name and he ends up getting both. all’s well that ends well

#i need to suddenly fucking rant about them because SUZANNE WAS SICK for this /it’s 2 am don’t hold this against me thank you 😭#coriolanus snow #sejanus plinth #tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #snowjanus #thg #nadirants #it’s not over until q sings #the hunger games #long post

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brother-emperors · 6 months

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When you talk about Philippino history and then Roman history, as a Venezuelan it's been making me think about our history and like, I've always thought there's a lot of similarity there but now it's like...its so similar. Your house is haunted too! I always think about how we won wars against the colonizers but their ghosts are still there, and they still sit at the dinner table with us every night. Your work is so cool, I feel like I can extend that train of thought further through time. I've never been interested in Rome but now I kinda am!

Venezuela 🤝the Philippines: being haunted houses (colonized by Spain)

also that is so SO real, the ghosts really are with us!! THEY ARE AT!!! OUR DINNER TABLES!!!!! ngl, once you start noticing it, it's impossible to NOT notice how they've crawled into the spaces and just. stayed.

ancient Rome is so weird for it too, because if you asked me about it, I wouldn't immediately put ancient Rome down for haunting the Philippines, except for the fact that like Catholicism, it's fucking everywhere. it's gotten in the cracks and spaces between the walls. On the stage of theater, Nadres' Hanggang dito na lamang at maraming salamat: the main character is named after Julius Caesar

Closet Queeries, J. Niel C. Garcia

and so many people are named after figures from ancient Rome (I know enough Mark Anthonys I've run out of differentiating nicknames for everyone) that it rivals Catholic saints for naming conventions. neo classical architecture had it's moment in the sun in Manila, our ilustrados brought some of it back when they returned from Spain to call for reform, and then independence, and I am struggling to hold back a plague-infection comparison about that. like, something else crept in with Spain, and like Spain's ghosts, it Did Not Leave.

but on the other hand! there's a long, centuries long, tradition of using the events of the Fall of the Republic to discourse, discuss, to vent or call for action, current events. it provides a interlocutor when something hurts too much to say directly, it provides a stage to explore a tragedy that echoes in our own histories, it gives a script to voice an ideal that a government might otherwise put down. how many centuries have we used Brutus (and Cassius) to rail against Tyranny, and how many centuries with equal enthusiasm have people used Julius Caesar as a martyr to justify the rights of Kings and Empires? these things are equally as important (in a different way) from the ancient events that actually transpired. (this specific topic, of Brutus & the Assassination of Caesar and it's literary revivals in history, are the focus of The Brutus Revival, Manfredi Piccolomini)

and the cores of these things conflict with each other, but in that friction, it's like there's an invitation to sit down and think for a minute. to look back at history and feel it's immediacy in the present.

ANYWAY I got carried away, but I am glad!! that my stuff could make Rome interesting!!! I hope that you find new doors of thoughts to explore!!!!!!!

#holding this ask in my heart forever thank u for sending this anon #ask tag #idk sometimes i draw goofy shit because its fun. and gay stuff because I Like Men ofc im going to explore things thru that lens #but also. i feel a little like im trying to look at this lurking ghost of imperialism without. addressing it directly #my love for spectacle and drama directly against knowing that the historical horror is not. that far removed. heugh.#so this meant a lot to me!! i feel seen in a good way. thank u again!

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puppyeared · 1 year

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Hey I’m new to the LMK fandom, why do so many people ship Sun Wukong and Macaque??

A lot of people like the hurt/comfort potential because of their backstory and because they’re just really good counterparts lol. Macaque even makes a whole play about their past relationship, which is where a lot of that fuel for the ship comes from and the whole “the hero and the warrior were like the sun and the moon” spiel that people love using for shits and giggles. There’s also a really strong enemies to lovers sentiment and i think it’s kinda sweet

Personally, I just really like riffing off the divorced energy. To me, these idiots would rather beat the shit out of each other than make up and I really really eat that up. Not just as a joke, maybe as a way to cope with their feelings like “I want things to go back the way they were but this is all I can do”

#I don’t think there will be a /perfect/ answer to this question but this is just my insight lol. I think a lot of people are weak for #enemies to lovers content cause we just don’t get enough of it. and nobody’s doing it like themmmmm #it’s fine not to ship it ofc!!#enemies to friends is just as good and I don’t see any reason to appreciate it less #we’re also on the cusp of finding out what exactly happened between them either in the s4 special or s5 #not going to give anything away but. they were REALLLYYY fruity when they were friends if we get anything more I will die >///<#ALSO I FUCKING LOVE KNUCKLEHEAD X KNUCKLEHEAD CONTENT. FUCKING MORONSEXUALS #step aside heartfelt apologies it’s time for offering you a bandage after a huge fight. can we get some hand lingering on fist content #because that is the closest youll ever get to holding their hand like back then?? feeling their palm against your face in a hard punch HELLO #you’re only ever gonna get them ‘insulting with each other and finding it comfortable because it’s kinda like banter’from ME #thank u for the question btw!! this made me think a lot about what exactly appeals me in their relationship /gen #yapping #lmk #Lego Monkie kid #shadowpeach #doodles #ask

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robinsteve · 2 years

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We were friends for a long time. And then we weren’t. And then we fell in love.

WHEN HARRY MET SALLY (1989) dir. Rob Reiner

#stupid mp4 update made these look stupidly ugly for stupid reasons. please please please don't hold that against me #also! i saw the reminder ask!! thank you anon i will get to that as soon as possible <3 #which uhhhh if you’ve been following me for a long time you know that asap often means. well. a long time 💀#**#gifs #mygifs #when harry met sally #80sdaily #filmedit #moviegifs #filmgifs #cinemapix #filmtvdaily #dailytvfilmgifs #dailynetflix #romancegifs #fyeahmovies #filmtvcentral #userbbelcher

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sweet-marigold · 3 days

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It’s missing blitzfizz hours….. I miss them so much 😭😭

Warning for long tags

#hc that they’re literally always touching cuz they can’t bear to be apart again after so long #they’re tails are always intertwined or they’re holding hands or laying against each other #just so casually affectionate always #and it’s so nice to have that level of trust and love back after so long cuz they’re bond was so close and they’re so thankful to have #each other back #at first they walk on eggshells a bit but they go back to pre fire almost immediately bc they were so close nothing could truly break them #apart forever ahhhhhhhh #I miss them so much :(((((#they’re literally soulmates.#also the angst of even after everything not getting together and staying apart literally made me cry #it’s why they’re canon in my head I can’t except that after everything they’ve been through they don’t end up together they deserve their #happy ending fuck u tag character count lemme ramble #talk to me about blitzfizz I wanna draw them and my blitzfizz Fankid again #also married blitzfizzarozzie … <3

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nie7027 · 25 days

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Hot take here but...

Like I know this is Tumblr. This is the autism site.

So of course I knew everyone would side with Laios on this and empathize more with him but its driving me insane how everybodys saying Toshiro was completely on the wrong here and he should have communicated better and talked about his grievances with Laios WHEN THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS IS THEY WERE BOTH ON WRONG HERE.

LIKE THERES A REASON CHILCHUCK BRINGS UP HOW LAIOS SHOULD WORK ON HIS SOCIAL SKILLS A COUPLE OF EPISODES AGO/JUST BEFORE THIS HAPPENS?

like I know most of you don't like it but social cues ARE a part of society culture. Social cues ARE a form of communication.

In fact they were made to facilitate communication.

They were made so everytime Alice and Bob annoy each other they don't have to go and have a heart to heart when a simple gesture can have the same effect.

In fact sometimes better because sometimes addressing something with words makes it come out stronger/ruder than it is.

And sometimes just like you have problems understanding social cues some people have problems speaking, finding the way to words their thoughts/feelings correctly.

Specially among strangers where you don't know the others personality or how they could react to your words.

That's where social cues, that are general rules the majority of people have agreed on, work. To facilitate convivence.

And yeah there's an argument to be said about how you are supposed to know them if they are unspoken rules and the thing is YOU LEARN THEM THROUGH SOCIAL INTERACTION, through living in a society.

Just like gender norms and the like you don't learn them in school during a boring lecture where a professor lists them on the board. You learn them through interaction and repetition, throught observing your peers. Just like learning to talk and walk and other stuff. Heck, your parents and other adults around are supposed to ease you into it.

And yes, it's not a perfect system. But nothing is.

The saying 'communication is the key' doesn't refer to just talking.

Social cues and other non spoken gestures are also another form of communicating. Equally as valid as all the others

There's beauty in talking and openly expressing your love to someone. Or your grievances.

But there's also beauty in grabbing someones arm or the you picking up your friend is uncomfortable due to the turnup of their mouth or the way they stand.

One isn't superior to other. They are supposed to complement each other

Laios and Toshiros mistakes were relying completely in one or the other instead a compromising and finding a middle point.

Toshiro should have expressed his annoyance at Laios.

And Laios should have picked better Toshiros signs of discomfort.

(All of this isn't even taking into account how they come from different cultures and shock it comes with it because others have talked better about it and I wanted to focus on this. On how even if they have from the same background Laios should have also been a fault.

Hell not only social cues even talking is affected by ones cultural background. What for me is normal could come out as rude for someone in Japan)

#dungeon meshi #i was going to say more about how non spoken cues are another important form of comunication #and how theres beauty in it and why sometimes its preferred over easier ways like talking (THE JEST THE PLAY THE AMBIGUITY #THE IF YOU KNOW ME... ITS LIKE POETRY IN ACTION JUST LIKE WORDSPLAY)#but i lost the steam #also this hit too close to home and it made me realize why im angry at my friends so thank you laios and shuro for serving #as an external mechanism i could use to analyze the situation clearer #dont even dare try to assume whats going when whta im talking about takes years of context #also dont even dare to say im discriminating against autistic folk #me saying autistic folk should work on their social skills even though is difficult is the same as saying adhd should work on their #organizing skills even if its difficult because the consequences will still be there anyway and one must #hold themselves accountable og their actions even if they were cause by stuff we cant help

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andy-clutterbuck · 1 year

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Andy on set in New Jersey (3/22/23) 📸 : HiThereItsBecca

#have we created an appreciation society for the white thermal yet #Andrew Lincoln #twdspoilers #RMspinoff #*#al #i will be the only member don't put it past me #about to sacrifice my Aldi quarter to bounce it off him #hello boots my beloved #excuse me sir please put your forearms away thank you #i love arm #i just love him in white because it hides nothing 👀 and we never saw it enough especially on rick #if i said you had a beautiful body would you hold it against me

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viniervirus · 3 months

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Greetings people, it’s been literally an entire year since I posted here but ignore that. Here’s my present for this years @valensemblestars Valentines exchange, which is for @zenyuumi who requested kohiiai shenanigans! I decided to go with the social media idea because I thought it would be the most fun, so I hope you enjoy it :)

Here’s the digitalised version

And here’s the sketch I did as a base for it

I’m aware the prompt was specifically wanting to show the fans’ reaction but I hope you’re fine with it as is anyway because I tried my best! Also, MAJOR apologies about this being so late, I really need to stop underestimating how much time things take me in comparison to a normal speed artist. It took two hours just to outline it, and that was BEFORE I decided I wanted it to be colour coordinated. I definitely spent at least a whole days worth of hours on this and it’s significantly less than what most people would’ve done in that same time, but we got there eventually and that’s what matters! Yippee!

(P.s once again quick note for the organisers, hello it’s Shipsarebeautiful on my sideblog, do not be alarmed)

#my art #Enstars #ensemble stars #amagi hiiro #shiratori aira #oukawa Kohaku #kohiiai #valensemblestars2024 #again apologies for this being so late but thank you to the organisers for allowing me to participate anyway #for some additional artists comments if anyone wants to know #originally I wanted to do 3 versions of the same post where the respective poster would hold the camera and the other two kiss their cheeks #and there would be some individual flair to each of them like how I had the idea of Aira’s version having a cat whisker filter on them all #or at least himself #but I decided against it in the end because I thought it would be a bit boring for it to be all the same #which is why I composed the three different angles of the same date where the respective poster would show off their two boyfriends #if you’re wondering btw I thought of Aira’s post in this design first but made Kohaku’s post first #and I think it shows because Kohaku’s post clearly has the best quality art #also originally Aira’s itabag was supposed to be for Tatsumayo #but after having stalked my giftee’s account for helpful information I realised they also seemed to be a SHMK enjoyer #so I changed my mind to attempt to cater more so to their interests but also out of personal bias #you can make a ValkP artist draw something other than Valkyrie but you cannot expect her to not find a way to include them

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amethystina · 2 days

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In chapter 5 of Who Holds the Devil, Ga On doesn't send Elijah a picture of Komi and he wakes up to several messages from her being worried. At this time, what do you think was going on in Switzerland? Because if she was stressing out about it, do you think she spoke to Yo Han or not, and if so, what would be his reaction to this?

Hope you can recover well!

She eventually spoke to Yo Han about it, yes, but it took a while before she got worried enough to do so. She's used to Ga On working late sometimes and so at first she figured her reminders would be enough. Which means she sent the majority of the messages you can read in the chapter before she even considered going to Yo Han.

And, by the time she did, it was mostly because she realised that it was so late in South Korea that Ga On might already have gone to bed, and he still hadn't contacted her. Which she felt was very unlike Ga On.

As for Yo Han's reaction, there is, unsurprisingly, quite a big difference between what he chooses to show Elijah and what he's feeling internally.

He'd be pretty flippant with Elijah, downplaying the severity of the situation, telling her that it's probably nothing to worry about. Maybe Ga On was busy with something and his phone ran out of batteries, so he didn't get her reminders? Or maybe he just forgot? Yo Han can come up with several very rational and logical explanations as to why Ga On didn't send Elijah any pictures.

Basically, Yo Han would try to calm her down by pretending it's no big deal. And tell her to at least wait until tomorrow before she starts freaking out

Internally, however?

He'd be worried, too.

Because no matter what he tells Elijah, Yo Han knows that Ga On wouldn't just forget a promise like that. Ga On cares too much about Elijah to disappoint her. So something must definitely have happened, Yo Han just doesn't know what. And while Yo Han is well aware that the explanation might be perfectly innocent, his mind would also start spinning towards worst-case scenarios — because that's how he works. He needs to be aware of the possibilities and, if need be, prepare for the worst.

And, somewhere around there, Yo Han would be frustrated that he can't track Ga On yet. He already decided that he wants to long before this, but this is one of those things that helps him decide that, yeah, he needs to give Ga On something he can track sooner rather than later so this won't happen again. Yo Han has no idea where Ga On is and it's making him antsy as hell.

The closest he can get is to text Lawyer Ko and ask if Ga On was at work that day. But even if Lawyer Ko says yes, that still leaves far too many possibilities. A lot could have happened to Ga On in the hours after he left work.

But Yo Han would tell Elijah none of this, of course — especially since the crisis is averted the very next day. Nor would Yo Han ever mention it to Ga On. It's just one of those things that stays inside Yo Han's head and influences his choices later, but is more or less invisible to everyone else. Perhaps not so surprisingly, there are a lot of those. As Ga On has pointed out: there's always a reason for the choices Yo Han makes. And, sometimes, the information he's basing that choice on was gathered weeks, months, or even years ago.

That man's brain never stops processing x'D

I hope that answers your question! :D

And thank you so much for the concern 💜 Unfortunately, I'm not feeling the best right now (neither mentally nor physically) but I know it's temporary so I'm just trying to wait it out :)

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Who Holds the Devil #Thank you so much for being so interested in my writing and my fics 💜#I feel so incredibly blessed #And not going to lie #I'm currently fighting against the impulse to write more shorter Devil Judge fics #Because the high I get from finishing things is no joke x'D #But I also know that none of my ideas would be as short as I'm telling myself that they would be #So it's risky #Because it won't actually make me happier in the long run #Because I don't want to lose track of the ones I already have #It's better to try and work on those first #So many fics #So little time

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cherry-bomb-ships · 26 days

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Friendly reminder not to reblog art from me and tag it with ship tags for your own ship! And especially gushing in the tags! I can see it in my notes!! I don't mind sharing f/os as long as I can filter it, but I draw the line there

#also im not comfy sharing jamie no matter what #not to scare anyone i just had to block someone for reblogging jamie art from me and tagging it for their ship...#im glad he's getting love and being appreciated i hold no ill will against others who ship with him!! i just dont want to see it!!#so i will block for nothing but my own comfort. thank you #ruby rambles

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bumblingbabooshka · 8 months

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[TUVOKTOBER: Day 6] Based on this line of dialogue:

#I will forever be like 'what did you mean by that??' jennifer lawrence clip about Tuvok saying he 'spoke out against it'#He isn't??? A politician?? And never was???#Is his family one which holds a certain amount of sway??#I need to know if he 'spoke out' in an official capacity - like a way that mattered to the world at large or if he was just talking shit #I tend to assume mostly the latter - maybe talking shit to specific people but still. It reminds me of how in Gravity he says #HE chose to leave Jara and school when in reality he was kicked out and banished - adjusting the facts #anyway one of the things I sincerely love about Tuvok is that he would be like one of many petty Vulcan antagonists* in another series #especially when he was younger but it's not like he's THAT much better in canon #Ex: Though Tuvok agrees & praises the peace treaty he still seems to view B'Elanna unfavorably bc she's Klingon #<- Like what Neelix says 'That's just it!! You don't feel anything FOR me but you feel things AGAINST me' that's him a nutshell #<- Another example is how he treats Chakotay in the earlier seasons: Deliberately undermining him and questioning his authority #He can be very sanctimonious both about him personally and facets of himself without much tolerance for others or deviation #It's a legit character flaw and I do love highlighting it bc I love him even when I want to choke him to death he's fascinating <3 #It's also VERY interesting bc he WAS more of a rebel punk as a teen then he went to the monastery and now he is shown to be very #devoted to Vulcan ways and have a keen interest in monastic life.#I know Vulcan philosophy is NOTHING like christianity or catholicism but like forget that for a second. Ok. Now: 'Tuvok's born again swag?#off the charts' v_v thank you #bea art tag #Tuvoktober #st voyager #st voyager fanart #*And this never changes. Unlike Spock or T'Pol he never has moments (that I can recall) where the narrative's like 'GOTCHA!'#& he's never insecure about his identity as Vulcan. Never desires to feel or be more human. & I /do/ think this is bc he's older! We see #himas an ensign in 'Flashback' struggling with his identity as its pitted against humanity AND in 'Gravity' where he's shown to have disdai #for Vulcan culture & customs. It really makes me wish we had gotten more character-building episodes from him rather than character-breakin #ones where he's not really acting as himself in full. v_v #also one last thing: I recognize that other characters do try2 'GOTCHA!' Tuvok both seriously and lightheartedly but Tuvok is never framed #as being actually affected by this unlike Spock or T'Pol where it's a whole like Thing about their characters (humanity - feeling)#tuvoktober

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merakiui · 8 months

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does ur inbox ever get overwhelming :o and do u ever purge it? it seems like u have so many asks everyday, I don't know how u have the ability to keep up with them all TT but I greatly admire and appreciate your dedication to writing and answering asks!! <3 :D

It has been a while since I last cleaned my inbox. ;;;; I think the last time I did it was in 2021 and it was when I had around 300 asks. Since then my blog has grown and so has the ask amount, and I'm very grateful to receive many messages. Whether a chit-chat, a kind message, a brain rot, or even a recommendation, I'm happy to read all of it!!! >w<

And thank you for saying so, anon!!! <3 <3 it's very fun to write and answer asks, and there are so many yummy brain rots that are delivered to my inbox!!! It leaves me in shambles every time I read them because AAAAAAA everyone has such a galaxy brain!!!! I love it!!!! (♡ˊ͈ ꒳ ˋ͈)

#sweet messages #anon who sent in azuzu holding your hand and doing paperwork while one of the twins rails you against his desk......#i am shamelessly salivating over that scenario because omg #thank you for blessing me with this vision <3

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worstloki · 2 years

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