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I Do Bad Things with You - Part 49
It's here!!! The final part of this massive fic. 😭 I can't believe we're finally at the end. I'm still in shock that I get to close the door on this fic that has taken up the last three years of my life. I have so many emotions running through me right now. 🥺
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Credit to @featherymalignancy for Cassian’s nickname, Cash. 😘
Trigger warnings: violence, sexual assault , language, NSFW
This part also features descriptions of birth and complications from it.
Word Count: 7,225
Elain had spent a good portion of the late morning getting ready for the baby shower scheduled for noon. At just over eight months pregnant, they were cutting close to the wire of the twins’ arrival.
She was beyond exhausted. Growing the babies was work enough, but she ached everywhere at this point. Her boobs, her hips, her ankles. Her back…that hurt the worst. She looked like she swallowed two extra large watermelons. Elain hadn’t seen her feet in two and half months and she was praying that her toenails looked well enough for sandals today.
On top of her aching body, she also slept like shit the night before, having woken up in the wee hours with Braxton Hicks contractions that seemed to never want to go away. They were getting obnoxious at this point.
Oh! And her boobs had already started leaking. Aside from the contractions, Elain also woke up to a soaked sleep shirt and an attitude that poor Azriel was desperately trying to keep calm. She felt bad that her irritation got directed at him, but he took her mood swings in stride, giving her the space when she needed it, and focusing on taking care of Kaden and getting him ready for the party.
Her husband knocked lightly before entering their bedroom, shutting the door behind him and locking it when he saw her standing there in an ugly pair of panties and a strapless bra—which she had no idea how it was going to hold up her tits, but here they were. “Hello, my love. How are you doing?” he asked, striding further into their room. He was already dressed in black slacks and a white button-down rolled up to his elbows. It was one of her favorite looks on him. Casual but classy and sexy as hell.
“I’m all right. Better than this morning,” which was true. In the time she took to get ready, she felt her irritation slowly dissipate. “I’m sorry for snapping at you.”
He gifted her a soft smile he reserved only for her and their children. “El, you’re carrying two babies. You’re allowed to let out your frustrations. I’m here to spar if you need it, you know that.”
She knew he meant spar as in letting her yell and shout and hiss words until she felt better while he just took it. Gods, he really was the perfect husband. Elain held out her coco butter lotion towards him. “Do you mind rubbing this on me and helping me dress?”
Azriel took the bottle from her outstretched hands, dropping a sweet kiss on her plump lips before squirting some into his scarred palms and gently rubbing it all over her swollen stomach. He knelt before her, dutifully getting every inch of her covered. “You are so beautiful, Elain,” he murmured, kissing her at the fullest part of her belly.
She snorted. “I am a beached whale who ate too much.”
“You are a gorgeous woman carrying life inside of her womb. That will always be beautiful, sweetheart.”
How he always knew what to say was beyond her, but she tugged him up off the ground to kiss him thoroughly. It should’ve annoyed her with how just a few sweeps of Azriel’s tongue had every concern and irritation simply melt away. He knew when to play that card and fuck did he play it well.
But even his tongue couldn’t stop the hiss of pain as another contraction wracked her body.
He immediately pulled back at the sound, eyes scanning her face. “Are you all right?” he asked, concern etched into the tone.
She breathed through the wave that tightened in her abdomen. “Braxton Hicks contractions,” she said as an explanation.
His brows shot into his hairline. “Do we need to go to the hospital?”
Elain reached up to cup his cheek in her palm, her thumb swiping over the stubble there. “No, it’s a normal thing this late in the pregnancy. I’ve had a few this morning starting before dawn. It’s why I was grouchy.”
Understanding lit his face and he carefully ran his hand down her stomach again. “Why didn’t you wake me this morning?”
She huffed a laugh. “Because I knew you’d go into full-birthing-dad-mode and neither one of us would’ve slept any longer.”
Azriel shot her an unamused glare. “You will be thanking me for that birthing-dad mode when you’re in labor and I have everything packed up within minutes.”
This time Elain laughed loud and joyfully. “Yes, you’re probably right.” She nodded to the dress on the bed. “Help me slip that on?”
He grabbed the fabric, bunching it in his large fists, and pulled it over her head. It was an off-the-shoulder, loose, pale pink cotton dress, decorated with roses. It looked vintage, gathering just under her bust, with oversized puffy sleeves that sat off her shoulders, over her biceps. Ruffles accentuated the bottom hem, emphasizing the vintage style. It was the perfect spring dress. When Elain first saw it at the store, she knew she had to buy it for the shower.
Azriel tugged her loose curls from the back of the dress, letting them brush against her spine. He placed a kiss on her bare shoulder before grabbing the rose-pendant necklace he bought to go with the dress and draping it around her delicate neck. “Perfect,” he murmured onto her skin, his smile pressing against her neck.
Elain sighed softly, reaching up to thread her fingers through his dark hair. “How am I still horny for you?”
He nipped at her throat, a rumble shaking his chest. “Because you know I can deliver what you need without even blinking.”
This time she laughed, letting his hands run across her body in possessive little touches.
Azriel brazenly cupped her sex through the dress, growling as she let out a mewling sound and began to writhe against those skilled fingers, searching for the friction she desperately craved. “Would you like to fuck my hand, love?” he murmured, mouth grazing her jaw.
Elain fell slack against him, letting his strength hold her up. “Az,” she breathed, eyes fluttering shut as he began to rub her in earnest. “Please.”
He nipped the curve of her ear, tugging the lobe between his teeth. “You beg so prettily, El.” Bunching up the dress in a fist, Azriel slid her panties aside, swiping his fingers over her soaked pussy. “Fuck, baby. You’re so wet for me. Always desperate for my touch.”
She gripped him, nails digging into his exposed forearms. “I need—I need,” she panted out, wiggling in his hold. “Please, Az.”
Giving her exactly what she wanted—needed—Azriel sunk his middle finger into her aching cunt, pumping once before adding a second digit. “Such a good girl,” he whispered, thrusting in and out of her. The heel of his palm grazed her clit sending bolts of pleasure up her spine.
Elain bit her lip, stifling the moan that threatened to burst from her. His fingers scraped along that special spot inside of her, building her up and up and up until she teetered on the edge of bliss.
Barely conscious of her surroundings, Elain caught the sound of the door handle jiggling, followed by a “Momma!”
Azriel clapped a hand over her mouth as he continued his machinations. “Momma’s getting dressed, Kaden. We’ll be out in a minute,” he called out, pressing his palm firmly on her clit and sending her spiraling into her orgasm.
Too far gone to care, she tumbled into sweet oblivion, coming hard on his fingers. Elain moaned, only quieted by the muffling against her husband’s scarred hand.
He worked her through her release, slowing his movements when she started to come down from her high. Az peppered her skin with sweet kisses, removing his fingers from her pussy and readjusting her panties back into place before letting the dress fall back down. “Better, my love?”
“I’m gonna have to change my underwear, but yes.” She twisted in his arms, catching him sucking his fingers clean. Elain brought his mouth down to hers, tongue licking the drop of her release dotting his bottom lip. “Thank you, husband.”
He smiled into their kiss, deepening it once more. “I’ll go check on Kaden while you finish up. We’ll head out when you’re done.”
Twenty minutes later, they were in the car on their way to Rhys and Feyre’s place. It was a gorgeous day full of sunshine, the air warm with the oncoming of summer. It was as if even the Mother wanted to grace her presence on that day with her radiance. They really couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful day for a baby shower.
“Momma?” Kaden called from the back seat. “Where are we going?”
His speech had improved so much since they first brought him home that the therapist they hired had told them after the end of the school year, that he likely wouldn’t need to continue seeing a specialist to catch him up. He was reading and writing the way a five-year-old should be and was on track to pass kindergarten with flying colors.
She glanced over her shoulder at him. “Remember how we talked about going to Aunt Feyre and Uncle Rhys’s for the baby shower today.”
He seemed to think about that. “What’s a baby shower?”
Her lips quirked up at his curious mind. Thankfully, he hadn’t asked about where babies came from again. “It’s a party to celebrate the upcoming arrival of your brother and sister.” Her hand came to rest on her belly instinctively.
His face scrunched up. “Will I have to take a bath again?”
Azriel let out a snort, glancing at her. “It’s a fair question.”
She laughed. “No, sweetheart. Not that kind of shower. To shower with love. The party is just to celebrate the babies before they arrive.”
“Will there be cake?” he asked, excitement lighting up his face at the prospect of sweets.
“For my sister’s sake, there better be.” Elain’s late-stage pregnancy craving was anything sweet. Cookies, cakes, pastries, whatever she could get her hands on, she was eating it. Azriel was barely able to keep the pantry stocked with desserts for her to snack on.
Her husband chuckled. “If she doesn’t, we’ll stop by a bakery on our way home and get each of you a cake. How’s that sound?” he asked, grasping her hand and bringing it to his mouth to kiss her knuckles.
She grinned. “You spoil me.”
He looked at her then. “You deserve to be spoiled.”
They were fashionably late to their baby shower, and Elain completely blamed her husband’s morning sexual charade for the delay in their arrival. Not that she minded at all. She had another Braxton Hick contraction in the car, Azriel eying her with worry and once again asking if they should make a pitstop at the hospital just in case.
But that would’ve made them even more late and Elain knew it was unnecessary.
All of their friends and family were waiting for their arrival. And she hated being late.
“What am I going to do with you gone for six months, Elain?” Thesan teased, taking a sip of his beer.
She shot a devilish grin at the head nurse sitting on the couch across from her. “I’m sure Viv would love to pick up all the slack.”
Viviane squawked in outrage and pointed a menacing finger in her direction. “Don’t put your work on me while you’re enjoying your babymoon, Elain Archeron-Knight.”
The group laughed as she pushed herself up off the couch. Another contraction hit her and she winced, catching the attention of the sharp-eyed nurse. But before she could ask, Kaden came bounding up to her, tugging on the skirt of her dress.
“Momma, can I have a cake pop?” He looked up at her with those damn puppy eyes he knew she couldn’t resist.
Elain ran a hand through his hair. “Sure, sweetie. Only one. You don’t want to spoil your appetite for Uncle Cassian’s good barbeque.”
Said uncle was out in the backyard tending to the grill with her husband, Rhys, and the Moonbeam brothers because, apparently, that’s where men gathered. Aelin and Rowan had joined them, the former getting an eyebrow raise from Azriel at her company’s appearance.
She made her way to the kitchen, hoping to perhaps score one of those cake pops herself—she was the guest of honor, surely she could snag one too. Feyre, Nuala, and Cerridwen had been busy putting together the final touches for lunch and were just waiting for Cassian’s proteins to serve food.
But just as she reached the breakfast bar, a wave of excruciating pain washed over her. Catching herself on the counter, Elain gripped the side of her stomach, groaning loud enough that the other room went silent. And then she felt it. Liquid surged between her legs, puddling the floor beneath her.
No. No, it was too soon. They couldn’t be coming already.
Viviane rounded the corner from the living room as Feyre and the twins approached her.
Somebody breathed her name, but she couldn’t decipher who it was over the blood rushing in her ears.
More footsteps sounded as her friends and family came from the living room to see what was going on.
“Elain.” It was Feyre’s voice that broke through the fog of fear that had clouded her, but she was too numb to respond. Too nervous. “Somebody get Azriel!”
Her panic grew and her breathing turned shallow. It was too soon. She wasn’t ready, wasn’t prepared enough. The anxiety of giving birth hit her like a freight train.
She couldn’t do this.
She couldn’t.
~~~~~
Azriel took a swig of his beer, rolling his eyes at the cad comment Rhys made. His tanned skin warmed in the sunlight even with the sleeves of his button-down rolled up to his elbows. With a glance at the large window, he caught Elain rising from her spot on the couch, Kaden gripping her dress to speak with her.
Gods, that fucking dress. Elain looked like a maternal goddess in it, emphasizing her swollen belly, brimming with the life of his children. Az never realized he had a breeding kink until he and Elain got back together. His desire to fill her with his seed, to watch her grow with life had him hardening in his pants.
Now at eight months, she had reached the stage where little things irked the hell out of her. Honestly, her temper was cute as hell, but he tried to be considerate of her exhaustion and short-fuse, offering himself up to take the heat of her ire. It was only fair—he’s the one that got her pregnant.
It may have made him a primitive, alpha-douchebag, but fuck did he love to see her waddling around, pregnant and barefoot in their home. She was already such a wonderful mother to their boy, Kaden. Cassian had been right. He was so incredibly grateful for Elain’s maternal instinct.
“Something caught your eye, brother?” Cassian taunted, grinning. His brother knew exactly what he was looking at. Or whom.
He shot him a dry look that had Cash chuckling.
“If she wasn’t already pregnant, I’d say that look alone could’ve knocked her up,” he teased. “Who knew you had such a kink, Az.”
Azriel opened his mouth to retort, but the sliding glass door opening caught his attention.
Nuala peeked her head out, a worried look on her face that had his stomach tightening in knots. “Azriel! Get in here now!”
But he was already moving, dropping his drink on the table and running after her into the house, his brothers and friends hot on his heels. He froze in the entryway of the kitchen, taking in the scene for a split second before his eyes settled on Elain bent over the counter, a puddle of clear liquid beneath her.
His feet ate up the space between them in three long strides, her name falling from his lips as he cupped her face and forced her gaze on his. Azriel prided himself in knowing exactly what Elain was feeling, what she was thinking by just the look on her face. He read her better than he did himself. So, seeing the blatant apprehension and worry written as clearly as a tattoo on her forehead had his heart racing in his chest.
Her eyes were wet with the tears he could tell she was trying to hold back.
“Love,” he said quietly, unsure how to proceed at the moment.
She blinked like hearing him cleared a bit of the fog that had washed over her. “Azriel.” Her voice cracked.
He folded her into his arms, trying to soothe whatever worries were troubling her. “You’re okay, my love.”
Elain seemed to melt in his embrace, her tension slowly ebbing away the longer he held her. He gave her whatever time she needed, ignoring the audience they had around them, but it was long enough for another contraction to hit. She cried out, gripping his hand in hers and squeezing tight.
Viviane snapped into action at that. “Azriel, her contractions are about nine minutes apart now. She’s going to have at least two more by the time you reach the hospital.”
“No hospitals,” Elain growled.
That had him pulling back to look down at her. “El, the babies are coming—”
“No. Hospitals.” He could see the wavering in her face. “I—,” she paused, hesitating. “They’re not ready. It’s too early. Too soon. They can’t come out yet…” Her head fell until she was looking at the wetness still sitting on the floor. “I’m not ready,” Elain whispered so quietly, that he almost missed it.
Azriel knew that was nerves speaking. While Kaden made them parents, the idea of giving birth to the twins was the primary source of her fear. The books he read said that many expectant mothers experienced this type of anxiety right around the time they went into labor. If they were going to have any success in her having a smooth birth, Azriel needed to get her to calm down. He glanced at Cassian. “Can you get her a chair?”
His brother grabbed one from the dining room, setting it out for Az to carefully guide Elain into. He knelt in front of her, keeping her hands clasped firmly in his. “Elain, sweetheart,” her dark eyes latched onto his, needing to hear his reassurance. He kept his voice low, wishing they didn’t have to have this conversation in front of their friends and family.
Rhys seemed to sense that and began ushering people out of the room. “Let’s give the couple a few minutes.”
He shot his brother a grateful look before returning his attention to Elain. “Sweetheart, I know you’re scared. I know it’s earlier than we were expecting. But if there is one thing that I am certain of is that you can do this.” He squeezed her hands in comfort. “You are the strongest person I know. You’ve been through so much that once all is said and done, you’re going to look at me and tell me that this was the easy part. I promise you that if anyone can do this, it’s you. And I will be right by your side for every step, holding your hand, giving you ice chips, and bearing whatever you need me to bear to bring our children into the world.”
She sniffed, a small smile tugging at her lips. “You’re sure?”
“Without a doubt, Elain. You can do this.” He brought their joined hands up to his mouth, kissing her fingers and letting her absorb whatever confidence she needed. “So, what do you say? Are you ready to have our babies, love?”
Elain huffed a laugh, his words settling the nerves she had. “Yes, let’s go have our babies,” she breathed, her grin taking over her entire face, lasting all of thirty seconds before a look of panic took root once more. “Az, the birthing bag is still at the house.”
He let out an undignified snort. “Do you think after having that contraction in front of me this morning, I’d leave the house without having absolutely everything packed and ready to go? Come on, baby, you know me better than that. It’s all in the back of the car.”
She blinked in surprise. “The birthing bag and my pillow?”
“In the car,” he confirmed.
“Kaden’s overnight bag?”
“In the car.”
“The car seats for the twins?”
He scoffed. “You know I installed those weeks ago, try again.”
Her lips quired up at the corner. “What about the slippers I was wearing this morning?” she asked, thinking she had him.
Az rolled his eyes in playful exasperation. “I grabbed them when I snagged the birthing bag.” He kissed her hands again. “I’ve got you, love.”
And then she was leaning forward, kissing him with so much love and devotion, he felt it down to the soul she brought back to life. The sound of their family’s cheers forced them apart, a pretty blush dusting the tops of Elain’s cheeks, but she didn’t dare look away from him.
Without looking away from her, Azriel reached into his pocket, pulled out his keys, and tossed them to Rhys. “Can you grab Kaden’s bag from the trunk? The one with dinosaurs. And then Elain’s purple one as well.”
Elain’s brows furrowed in confusion. “Why is he grabbing mine?”
His lips pulled up into a knowing grin, brushing the shell of her ear as he leaned forward to whisper, “I thought you might like to change your underwear and put on a maternity pad for the ride to the hospital.”
Her cheeks heated in embarrassment, but she nodded in agreement.
A little body shuffled closer. “Momma?” Kaden murmured, looking so very worried over the state of his mother.
She held her arms out, motioning him forward. “C’mere sweetheart.” Elain tucked him into her chest, kissing the top of his head. “You’re going to stay here with Aunt Feyre and Uncle Rhys while Daddy and I go to the hospital to have your brother and sister.”
He looked up at her with those puppy-dog eyes and damn, the kid knew how to work them. “But I want to go with you!” His lower lip quivered and Azriel could tell he was on the verge of tears.
But his wife took it in stride, cupping his little face in her palms and swiping her thumbs across his cheeks. “I know, sweetheart. I know you do. But you’ll have a much better time here with your aunt and uncle. Momma’s not going to be fun to be around until your siblings are here.” She kissed his plump cheek. “But I promise that you will be the first to see us once they arrive. Okay?”
Feyre stepped forward, reaching out a hand for their son. “Come on, Kaden. We’ll have lots of fun eating all the desserts left over.” She shot them a wink when he finally relented, taking her fingers.
After cleaning her up as best as he could and getting her a maternity pad from her bag, he and Elain were in the car on the way to the hospital. As Viviane predicted, she had two more contractions on the way, grabbing his offered hand and the “oh shit” bar as she groaned her way through it. And then promptly went into a third one right as they arrived.
Az timed them out, still sitting about nine minutes apart. “Breathe, baby. Good, love. Just like that.” His thumb grazed the back of her hand. Her grip was tight, on the verge of painful, but he didn’t dare let his face flinch or show an ounce of discomfort. She needed his strength and that’s exactly what he was going to give her.
They were immediately escorted to their private room and Elain’s vitals were checked over. She was sitting at only two centimeters dilated, which meant they were looking at being there for a bit.
Between her contractions, he swapped out his clothes for a fitted black t-shirt and grey sweatpants to get more comfortable and then sent a text to their siblings to notify them that they were in and settled, but it would be a while before they would have any progress.
“Can you check in with Kaden?” Elain asked, taking a scoop of ice chips from her cup.
The corner of his lips curled up at the question. “I already did. Feyre said he wouldn’t leave the front window for a while and had to persuade him with his baby cousin and a lot of sweet treats.”
She snorted, shaking her head. “He’s going to have a mouth full of cavities before we get home.” Elain twisted to look at him. “Do you think we made the right decision by not letting him come with us? It sounds like he’s waiting for us to return. I know that some families let their little ones be present for the birth of their siblings and we discussed it—”
He interrupted her train of thought. “I think we made the right call, love. We’re going to be here for a while and we both know that things can upset him. I don’t know how well he’d handle watching you go through that.”
She nodded but didn’t look very convinced.
Azriel reached for her hand, covering it with his own and squeezing her fingers. “He’s safe and well-cared for. Remember that while we focus on bringing his little brother and sister into the world.” He brushed his lips over her knuckles in a sweet kiss.
Elain smiled softly at him. “Okay.”
And so, they waited.
Per his wife’s birthing plan, she wanted to attempt to go natural. Azriel admired her strength and resilience in doing so. But after over sixteen hours of hard labor, he could see her resolve fading.
He stroked her cheek, fingers brushing hair behind her ear. “Talk to me, sweetheart.”
Dark circles already lined the underneath part of her eyes. She looked so weary. “I’m so tired, Az.” Her voice came out nearly broken and fuck if that didn’t just rip his beating heart from his chest.
Kissing her forehead, he murmured, “Do you want to get the epidural? It’ll help you get some much-needed rest before the delivery.” As of now, she was only at seven centimeters and the doctor had said it could still be a while longer until she reached a full ten.
Her chin dipped in confirmation. “Please.”
Azriel didn’t waste time calling for the nurse. Within ten minutes, he watched as a grossly large needle was inserted into her back, sending that relief washing over her. He peppered her face with kisses during the procedure, murmuring words of praise and comfort in her ear as she gritted her teeth through it.
Elain spent the next eight hours in a fitful sleep, dosing off and waking up not long after each time. Azriel didn’t bother to try and sleep, not when she wasn’t really getting much at all.
But finally, after just past nine, she was fully dilated and ready to push.
His wife pushed and pushed and pushed for a half hour with nothing to show for it. She was in tears, frustrated, and so exhausted he was practically supporting all her weight having slid an arm around her shoulders to keep her upright.
“I can’t, I can’t,” she sobbed, half burying her face into his chest.
“You can, love. You’re so strong. Just a little bit more,” he tried to reassure her. It fucking killed him to see her like this.
“Can’t you do it for me?” she pleaded, looking up at him with wild, desperate eyes.
He gripped her cheek in his palm, kissing her temple. “You know I would, El. I would give anything to switch places with you right now. But I know you can do this. Just a few more pushes and then they’ll be here.”
Whatever she read within his words seemed to do the trick, her brows furrowing with a determination he hadn’t seen since they left the house. Elain pushed herself up, trying to get into a kneeling position, and he was right there, sliding behind her and supporting her weight.
The nurses squawked, muttering something about hospital policy, but frankly, he did not give a fuck, snarling, “Her body is telling her to push like this. Listen to your fucking patient.”
Changing the position was exactly what she needed because their son was born within the next two contractions, entering the world with a healthy set of lungs.
They sagged back against the pillows, his face wet with tears as they placed their new baby directly on Elain’s bared chest. He couldn’t stop himself from tipping her head back to kiss her softly on the lips, pausing the savor the moment.
Az traced the pads of his fingers over the curve of their boy’s cheek, just needing to touch him to prove he was here with them. Even covered in fluids, he was so beautiful. The perfect blend of the two of them.
The nurses gave them just a few minutes with the first baby before Doctor Chen said that she needed to start pushing again. She took their boy from Elain’s arms, promising to bring him back for Azriel after he was cleaned up and their daughter was born.
Delivery of their little girl went easier than with their son. But whereas their boy came out crying, their daughter came out silent.
Azriel knew something was wrong just by the silence, but it only grew the anxiety in his stomach when the doctor turned her back on them, taking their little one with her to work on.
“She’s not crying,” Elain breathed, worry clouding her voice.
He could only squeeze her shoulders in comfort, watching as they shoved things into her nose and mouth.
“Suction,” Chen ordered.
“Azriel, why isn’t she crying?”
“She’s going to be okay, love. They’re helping her. She’s okay.” The words passed his lips even as his heart dropped into his stomach when they started doing compressions on her tiny body.
No.
This couldn’t be happening. They couldn’t lose her. It would kill him to lose his little girl, but Elain, fuck, he couldn’t even begin to fathom the devastation she would face at this loss. There was nothing he could do. He couldn’t pay to fix this or threaten someone to save their baby girl.
So, he did what any father would do.
He prayed.
He prayed to every god, every deity, everything, and anything he could think of to keep his little girl safe and bring her back to them. To take her place if they demanded it. A life for a life. He’d pay it for his child, his family. “Come on,” he murmured. “Come on, baby. Come on.”
Elain curved her face into the side of his chest, howling in a way he’d never heard from her before.
His arms went around her, that dreaded feeling turning his blood cold. The terror he felt of their little one dead before she lived was unlike anything he’d ever experienced. But still, he did not stop praying, clutching Elain’s shaking body to his. “Come on, little one. Come on!” he chanted. “Please.”
And then, a rattled cough tore from her tiny body, followed by the sweet, beautiful sound of her cry.
Elain’s wail turned into relieved sobs, as the doctor walked over their bundled little girl and placed her into his wife’s awaiting arms.
“Somebody was just so excited to meet you, she took a breath a little too early, but we cleared out her passages and lungs and she looks good now.”
His wife tucked their daughter into her chest, kissing the top of her head. “Hi sweet girl, Momma’s here,” she whispered, tears still falling down her cheeks. Tears that matched the ones running down his face.
She was here. His baby girl. Fuck, she looked just like him, with dark hair and tanned skin. He hadn’t gotten a look at her eyes yet, but already she was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen.
“Here you go, Mr. Archeron-Knight,” one of the other nurses said, pulling his attention from his wife and daughter as she handed him his son, cleaned up and wrapped in a soft blanket.
The small bundle was gently laid in the crook of his elbow. Azriel didn’t think he’d ever feel the amount of love he did on Kaden’s adoption day, but sitting here with his gorgeous wife, holding their newborn twins, he felt his heart soar in his chest.
Sweaty and fatigued, Elain glanced up at his face, the sweetest, exhausted smile pulling on her lips. “I love you,” she murmured.
He let out a sound that was a cross between a chuckle and a sob. “I love you more.” And then he kissed her, sealing that moment in time with his undying love for her.
~~~~~
Elain woke to the sound of a whimpering cry, swiftly followed by Azriel’s low voice.
“Hey, sweet girl. What’s wrong, huh?” She heard some shuffling as her husband lifted their daughter from the nursery bed. “Momma needs her sleep so we need to be quiet.” He kept his voice low enough to not disturb her—fuck she loved him so much—but she was already awake, rolling over in the hospital bed to face him.
Azriel holding his children was, hands down, the sexiest thing she’d ever seen. How she could even feel the need for him after pushing two babies out of her currently aching and severely injured body was beyond her, but just watching him bounce their fussing daughter made all those desires come roaring to the surface.
Almost as if he could sense her presence, hazel eyes slid to hers. “I’ve got her, love. Go back to sleep.” His voice remained soft as night as if anything louder would disturb her.
She curled up on her side, watching him. “I think we should get used to no sleep now.”
He huffed a laugh, patting Rosalie on her back as she further settled into the crook of his elbow.
Their daughter was almost two pounds smaller than her brother, coming in right at five whereas Ryder was a healthy six pounds, fourteen ounces. The doctor was a little concerned over Rosalie’s lower birth weight, but Elain had managed to get both babies to latch and feed earlier and she ate well, so they were mainly playing it by ear.
Because of her smaller size, Azriel already placed an order for some preemie clothes and sent a photo of her with the twins to their siblings. They asked to give them a day to recuperate before coming to the hospital in the morning. After the scare with Rosalie, both she and Azriel wanted to take some time to spend with the babies. Plus, the medical team was in and out of their room, taking Rosalie for some additional tests just to be sure everything looked good.
It was just after seven that night, and they were settling in for the evening. Tired of hospital food, Azriel ordered hamburgers from DoorDash for them to eat. Elain was starving and it sounded so good that she drooled when she suggested it to him. Both babies had been fed only an hour earlier and she anticipated not having another feeding till late evening or early morning.
Elain grabbed whatever sleep she could, knowing she’d need it when they were released in a couple of days, but she was sure Azriel hadn’t slept a wink since she’d gone into labor.
She pushed herself up, reclining on her pillows. The nurses cleaned her after the delivery and stitched her up from tearing, but Elain couldn’t wait to get home and take a proper shower. “Does she need to be changed?” she asked, nodding to the now-sleeping baby in her husband’s arms.
Azriel shook his head. “No, I think she was just fussing.” His dark hair was still mussed up from when he stripped out of his shirt earlier, taking time for skin-to-skin contact with each of the twins.
Elain had to rein in her laugh at how the nurse blushed as he revealed miles of gloriously tanned, tattooed skin and corded muscle. Her husband was a fine specimen, but he never flaunted it, so seeing another woman react to it was humorous especially since he didn’t even seem to notice her blushing, stammering state.
“You should sleep too, Az,” she said instead.
He looked at her, his lips curving up. It had been doing that a lot since the birth of the twins. The sweetest, smallest smile that crept up the corners of his mouth. Almost as if he didn’t even realize he was doing it. It was utterly adorable and made him look younger. “I’ll rest later. You need it more than me.”
Her shoulders shook in amusement. “You know, we can sleep when they do.”
“I just don’t want to miss a second of them.” His attention returned to his little girl who already had him wrapped around her finger. To be fair, all of their children did. “Fuck, I can’t believe they’re here already. It seems like it was only a month ago you found out you were pregnant.”
“I can’t believe our first anniversary is coming up in just a handful of weeks.”
At that, he laughed. “I guess a trip for our anniversary is out of the question?”
She grinned. “Not unless all our little ones are coming with us.” Because like hell was she going to be able to leave them so soon. Plus with her nursing, it just wouldn’t be ideal.
He seemed to consider her. “We could take the jet to the Summer District. Kaden will be out of school then and we’ll both still be out on leave. Just a thought.”
Gods, he was fucking perfect. “That might be nice.”
A knock on the door interrupted whatever he was going to say. He frowned in confusion, looking at her.
Elain shrugged, sitting up further on her bed. “Come in,” she called out.
She thought it might be a nurse or a doctor, coming to check on her or the twins. What she didn’t expect was for Rhys to peek his head into the room. Surprise lit her features and she glanced at Azriel, who looked equally as bewildered at the sudden visit from their brother.
“Hey,” Rhys said. “I apologize for dropping by unannounced, but somebody really couldn’t wait till tomorrow to see you.” He opened the door slightly, revealing Kaden clutching a teddy bear, eyes puffy and red from crying.
Her heart ached at the distress their son must’ve been in for Rhys to come all the way here. “Hello sweetheart,” she said, keeping her voice soft. “Come here, my love.”
He took a small step further into the room, Rhys’s hand guiding him at the backside of his head. Kaden took slow steps as he approached the side of her bed. “Momma, are you sick?”
She reached out to cup his cheek in her palm. “No, baby. I’m not sick. Your brother and sister decided it was time to come out of my tummy.” Her eyes found Azriel’s as he rose from his seat on the couch, moving toward them. “Would you like to meet them?” she asked, returning her gaze to Kaden’s.
His head dipped in confirmation.
Elain pushed herself back even more. “Rhys, can you help him up and then grab me that flat pillow over there.”
He set the boy on the bed between her spread legs, Kaden shuffling backward and bumping into her sensitive lower area.
She hissed out in pain before she could stop herself. A wave of agony washed over her with enough intensity that her stomach curdled with nausea.
Azriel reacted immediately. “Easy, buddy. Momma’s going to be sore for a while and we need to be extra careful with her.”
“I’m okay,” she spoke quickly, not wanting to upset Kaden any more than he already was, and kissed his plump cheek as she breathed through the pain. “Okay, Rhys. Place the pillow over our laps.”
Adjusting his arms in preparation, Azriel gently lowered their daughter until she comfortably rested on the nursing pillow.
“Kaden, this is your sister, Rosalie,” he announced, letting his finger stroke her rounded cheek.
Elain couldn’t see his face directly, but she did catch his eyes widening as he stared down at her, his fingers carefully tracing over her delicate features just as his father did.
“Rosawee,” he said, not quite catching the ending syllable. It would be something they would have to work on. When she kicked a leg within her swaddle, he pulled his hand back, startled.
She laughed, feeling the bed dip as Azriel sat down next to them, bringing over their son. “And this is your brother, Ryder.”
He reached out to trace the outline of his brows, the touch gentle and exploratory. “I’m a brother?” he asked, turning his head to look up at her.
“That’s right sweetheart. You’re their big brother, and they’re going to love you so much,” she told him, kissing the top of his head.
Elain took in her family, her incredible husband, and three beautiful children. It sounded so wild to even think about. She was a wife and a mother. Thinking back, she remembered the day that had changed the trajectory of her life forever. The bank robbery a few years back. It was crazy to think how such a terrifying moment altered her life in the best of ways. It brought her back to the love of her life.
It put her on this very path.
She’d face every one of the moments since then tenfold as long as it brought her to this point in time, sitting here with her gorgeous little family.
“Perfect.”
She looked up at Rhys, catching him with his phone out.
“Your first family photo.”
Her lips turned up and silver lined her eyes. “Thank you, Rhys.”
He waved her off. “Do you want me to take Kaden back with me?”
“No,” Azriel said, ruffling his eldest son’s hair. “He can stay here with us tonight. Can you put his booster seat in our car? The keys are in my bag.”
“You got it.” He grabbed the keys but paused on the threshold. “And congratulations you guys. Rosalie and Ryder are beautiful.”
Azriel leaned further into her side, kissing her temple. “Thank you, brother.” Once alone, he turned her head toward his, bringing her mouth to his for a slow, sweet kiss. “I love you so damn much, Elain.”
His smile was infectious, making her lips turn up at the corners. “Thank you, Azriel, for giving me this life—these babies. You have made me the happiest I could ever imagine. I love you.”
“Momma! She’s got my finger,” Kaden’s giggle interrupted their moment.
They laughed, looking at their three beautiful children.
Elain knew that this perfect moment was just the very beginning of the rest of their lives.
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2023 & Me
Been thinking a lot these past few days about everything that's happened with me in 2023. Hard to believe it's coming to end--time seriously does fly 😮
There's been some heavy losses this year. Several family members passed away to illnesses and old age, including my grandfather who I had a strained relationship with to say the least. I also had a shocking family drama bomb dropped on me earlier this month that has had a huge ripple effect I'm still navigating, but fingers crossed things will find a way of working out for the best.
I had some severe mental health depression episodes throughout the year, made me reevaluate priorities and also doubt pretty much every choice I've ever made in life, but I do truly believe I'm entering 2024 in a positive mindset so that's something to be happy about :) I'mma try this crazy concept called self-love and not think the worst about me, myself, and I.
My writing took a hit this year. Word count wise, kudos wise, engagement wise--but I also made progress on several wips and even finished a few which is a big accomplishment for a snail writer like me 😊 I want to enter 2024 not feeling guilty for being self-indulgent or trying new kinds of writing styles. I also want to shake off the belief a low note count equals it was a bad fic/waste of time -- I don't believe that for anyone else, yet my brain always uses it as a weapon of insecurity against myself and enough is enough brain 😠 no more I say!
On a more positive note, I was fortunate enough to attend several conventions this year and improve my cosplay skills (2024 Ahsoka is gonna be my best look yet I just know it 😁). I got to meet total sweethearts Jon Bernthal and Charlie Cox, Steve Burns my childhood hero, the dear Jodi Benson, the gorgeous Rosario Dawson and beautiful Ming-Na Wen, and of course I can't ever forget Andrew Garfield 😱💗 And most importantly of all I did each these cons with my sister and made some lifelong memories! (Also bought a heckin lot of stickers. A heckin lot 🥰)
And then of course the crown jewel of 2023 1000% hands down was attending the United States Formula 1 Grand Prix. Good lord y'all it was one of the best weekends of my entire life! If you had asked me a couple years ago if I'd care about a sport--any sport--I'd have laughed in your face but there's just something so addictive and captivating about the world of F1 and its cast of characters. And having the luck of getting Alex Albon and Daniel Ricciardo's autographs on my dumb lil frog bucket hat was just *muffled screaming* I literally was a shaking mess lemme tell ya--just ask @beecastle and @undercoverpena who were there with me on my phone every step of the way 💜 thanks for putting up with my addiction y'all! Much much love to you both!!
AND THE FRIGGIN FACT SOMEONE GOT A PHOTO OF ME AND DANNY TOGETHER 🥺😭😭 NEVER BE OVER IT NOPE
There are so many people on here that made 2023 a bright and kind and fun one for me---@oonajaeadira @something-tofightfor @wheresarizona @trinkets01 @kyberblade @sofasoap @grogusmum @writeforfandoms @psychedelic-ink @kteague @prolix-yuy @wildemaven @the-blind-assassin-12 @practicalghost @gnpwdrnwhiskey @bishtrouille @nothoughtsjustmeds @kirsteng42 @miraclesabound @radiowallet @harriedandharassed @hopeamarsu and dozens dozens dozens more!
Thank you to everyone who's liked, reblogged, commented on my blog + sent me messages! I appreciate and love you all so much more than words can ever express 💜💗💙🧡
2024---let's bring it on! 🥳
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Hey DSD!
Nonny here, do have a list of any writers you would recommend and maybe even one or two of their fics?
Would love some more reading material and thank you so much if you do end up sharing with me.
Hi Nonny! Absolutely, I do! There are a ton of amazing writers, both here and on AO3, especially for Star Trek since it's such a long-standing fandom. I will absolutely list some of my favorites, but please do not be afraid to explore the tags both on AO3 and here on tumblr, because there are a ton of amazing writers that I haven't encountered yet, and I'm probably leaving some out unintentionally. (I'm so sorry! My memory is like that of a gnat at times!)
Also, on my pinned welcome post under the "Keep Reading" there's a link you can click that will (hopefully) take you to all the posts I've tagged on here as fic recs! So feel free to take a look at that too!
I highly recommend any/all stories by the following authors, and beneath their names I'll list 2-3 of my favorite stories from each:
@creature-of-the-stars - on AO3 here as ToeBeansMcGee
"Weeds Among Stones" <- this is ongoing and brilliant and amazing and i love it 🥰
"Oh, Don't Mind Us" <- this is a oneshot sequel to another favorite called "Be Still" which is a multi-chapter that I adore 🫶
"Keep Your Enemies Closer"; the sequel "Rekkhai"; and the follow-up "Beyond Fortunate" <- just pure perfection *chef's kiss* 🤌
@bigblissandlove1 - on AO3 here as bigblissandlove
"The Raptor's Descent" <- many chapters and it gave us S'Talon and just utterly delicious 😍
"The Assignment" <- a gorgeous oneshot that gave me emotions 😭💖
"Surrender To Me" <- a long oneshot that made me fall in love with a side character 💚
@horta-in-charge - on AO3 here as Horta-In-Charge
"X Minus 1" <- it hab sad, wet-eyed Weyoun, I mean, what more could you want??? 👀💜
"Broken Covenant" <- cannot words enough to praise this sufficiently, so just go read it ���
"Fantasy" <- the emotions omfg THE EMOTIONS 😭💖
@starrynightgardens - on AO3 here as jaylens_twin
"Proposition" <- this fic and it's epilogue are gorgeous and I have read it so many times 🫶
"Things Unseen" <- this is an amazing multi-chapter fic and there are so many emotions 💚
"Regenesis" <- I...there are no words, this is so amazing 💜
@leopardcoffee - on AO3 here as Leopardcoffee
"Ashayam, I despise you" <- beautiful, chef's kiss, excellent! 💙
"Maroon" <- it's a wip and a damn good wip 🥰
"On Pause" <- the angst omfg 😭❤️
@crowfootwrites - on AO3 here as CrowfootWrites
"Devotion & Diplomacy" <- as far as I know, this is the first Star Trek fic they've written, and it's an absolutely gorgeous wip 💖
@stay-neurotic - on AO3 here as stayneurotic
"A Prisoner's Needs" <- how do I even words about this??? 🥵💜
The entire "Keevan and the Spy" series <- read the tags before you start; this scratches a very specific itch ❤️
The entire "A Hostage Situation" series <- read the tags before you start; this also scratches a very specific itch 💖
@maybeamultiverse - on AO3 as maybeamultiverse
"A Matter of Security" <- it has young Vreenak, so how could I not adore it??? 💚
"The Vulcan's Limerence" <- Solok/Sisko!!!!! 💙
"War Birds" <- this is honestly such a well-written Letant fic. ngl, the whole fic is fabulous, but the first three chapters live rent-free in my brain and they always will 🥵
@emilie786 - on AO3 as Emilie_786
The entire "Discs" series <- apparently I'm v behind in this series, but I've read the majority of it and I am SO IN LOVE WITH HOW THEY WRITE SHRAN 💙
"Paranoid" <- this is...how do I even describe how much I love this fic??? 🫶
"The Hug" <- god, this is just SO CUTE 🥺
@foreverforty2 - on AO3 as forever_42
"His Eyes Speak" <- read the tags for this one; honestly such an amazing fic! 👀 (have I even talked about this fic here?? if I haven't, then I've been very remiss!) to be completely transparent, I haven't read any of their other works, because (I believe) most of the rest are Star Wars centered, and I don't know pretty much anything about Star Wars.
@indignantlemur - on AO3 as IndignantLemur
"Emigre" <- obviously this is on there. a fabulous fic, excellent, wonderful, stupendous, glorious! if you like Andorians, this is the fic for you! 💙
"The Stars Keep Watch" <- badass Andorian from SNW my beloved 🥰
@sleepycat82 - on AO3 as MeowMeowPowPow
"Grace Under Pressure" <- a gorgeous Letant/Reader/Vreenak fic that deserve a ton of love 💜
"Emergency Surgery" <- istfg one of the few good things to come from PIC is Krinn, and I'm so excited to see where this wip takes his character 👀
"The Wager" <- I literally just saw that this existed and I'm about to go start it. 💚
@ericbogosbian - on AO3 as Vorta_Scholar
"Testing the Effects" <- yes i'm outing myself as a Data smut enjoyer, but this...it's good Data smut 💛
Any of their Sito Jaxa/Vorik works 🫶
"Reprieve" <- omfg this is some good smut that i honestly didn't know I needed til I found it!! 💜
@attention-bajoranworkers - on AO3 as beyond_antares
"Just this once (and then once again)" <- this is a gorgeous wip and it will continue to be gorgeous. Dukat smut, my beloved 💖
"Moments" <- such sweet Malcolm fluff 💙
@schn-tgai-scripted - on AO3 as SchntgaiScripted
"A Good Vulcan Husband" <- this fic has made SUCH A MESS OF ME (in a good way, obviously) 💚
"See A Need" <- this was the first Vorik fic I ever read and I will always recommend it. it has some smut, some feels...i love it 💛
"A Bad Vulcan Prophet" <- read the tags; I...I don't even...I just love it 🖤
@brokenblade-legendarycreature - on AO3 as BrokenBlade
"Exceptional Airs and Dances" <- MORE WIIIINEEE 🍷
"Make It Harder" <- I feel no shame for the copious amount of times I've read this particular Dukat smut 💖
"Spa Service (Relief)" <- I just...yep. 💜
@love-at-first-contact - on AO3 as Graphite_crumble
The entire "Gwemmer" series <- Hemmer and an OC being adorable af. what more could you want??? 🤍
The entire "Vorik and Juna" series <- this pair is just utterly precious. I love them 💛
"Together" <- Vorik/Reader/Taurik fic...omfg I just...I have so many feelings about this 👀
@shibonoku - on AO3 as Shibonoku
Literally any of their Vorik fics. they're just absolutely fabulous 💖
Also, any of their Solok fics 💙
itsthemirrorforme on AO3 (no idea if they have a tumblr tbh)
literally all of them. read the tags first, of course, but all of them!! 💜
WikkityTweak on AO3 (no idea if they have a tumblr)
"Holosuite Number 3" <- This is THE FIC that made me fall in love with Senator Letant 💚 the author mentioned a potential sequel, but they haven't updated since 2016, so...for now i'll simply savor this fic's existence.
"True Weakness" <- this is an awesome Solok fic 🖤
@eyes-of-the-fox - on AO3 as dhiamn_aehallhh
"Small Tales" <- these are gorgeous stories; the Soval/Forrest ones are my favorite 💙
Honestly, all of their Maxwell Forrest/Soval fics are gorgeous 🫶
@the-stags-cave - on AO3 as StagofRomulus - alternately find vem on Quotev here as Stag of Romulus
"Ahr'ehraet Hru'rhaarhno: Season 1" <- half Romulan McCoy!!!!!!! Also McCoy/Spock SCREEEEE 💜
Admittedly I haven't read all of ver works, but vey are such a great writer, I can't help but recommend literally all of those stories!!
#fic recs#deepspacedukat asks#anon asks#I'm sure I've forgotten some people but I tried to be thorough#please feel free to reblog with more recs if you have them!
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I know nobody is online now to witness me explode BUT I AM FINALLY. HOME. AND. AND IT'S 5AM AND I APPRECIATE ALL OF THE MESSAGES YOU GUYS SENT ME HOLY SHIT I GOT SO MANY 😭😭😭💗💞💗💘💝💖💖💝💗💗💞 I really didn't expect such a large amount of reassuring words, thank you so much for cheering me up you guys. I am going to try to answer as many as I can!!!! thank you, you helped me feel so much better/safer around my F/Os today ;u; I've been struggling with my ptsd a little more than usual bc the holidays are always a really hard time of year for me, I've been a bit more fragile lately I guess. It means a lot to me that you guys sent me such kind messages when I needed them. Thank you so much to every single person who took the time out of their day to do that for me, I appreciate it way more than I can ever put into words 🥺🥺💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Also!!!! I FINALLY WATCHED!!!! THE KEN IN MY FEELINGS EP!!!! WHAT ON EARTH 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 RYAN SPOILED US THIS HOLIDAY SEASON AHHH!!!!! THREE WHOLE VERSIONS OF I'M JUST KEN????? My god the music video was GORGEOUS. also him opening it with "the world can have Ken's voice but only Barbie can have his eyes" was so [clenches fists] gorgeously delivered I loved his cadence I loved the little waver in his throat and I could talk about his vocal patterns just on that line alone for days and days. and the line itself is beautiful aside from his voice entirely -- HE UNDERSTANDS THE ASSIGNMENT!!!! BARBIE IS EVERYTHING AND HE IS JUST KEN™ AND HE IS "TOTALLY FINE WITH THAT"™
the sadly mumbled "merry christmas barbie........... wherever you are" absolutely gutted me. THE ACOUSTIC VERSION oh don't even get me started on the acoustic version. For months and months, I've always imagined that when I'm sad, Ken would be humming his song while stroking my hair and laying me on his chest until I feel better. just humming. I DON'T HAVE TO JUST IMAGINE IT ANYMORE MAN I CAN JUST TURN ON THIS SONG AND HEAR HIM SING SO SWEETLY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 especially the last part when he's just softly singing "can you feel the Kenergy?" he sounds just like Elvis when he lowers his register like that and it has me all shook up (pun not intended at first, but totally rolling with it now)!!
mark and ryan didn't have to set this up, but they did, and I'm so happy. the dozens of people who worked on the music, the video, the setup, the decorations, the very beautiful camera work... all of it was such a sweet, unexpected gift. AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE PIC THEY USED?????? THEY'VE BEEN HOLDING OUT ON US!!!!! AHH LOOK AT HIM. THE GREASE ON HIS BICEPS, HIS TEMPLE. THE BUBBLEGUM. OOGH. THE ARCH OF HIS BROW.
I'M OBSESSED!!!!!
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Me to Nick: I hate you. You are the worse thing to ever happen to me. Leave. Me. Alone. I don't even care about YOU. 😭😭
Also me:
Also I completely FORGOT to tell you the fic gif moodboard was absolutely gorgeous by the way. Always the best from you 😍😍😍
hehehe 😏😈 he is such a daddy it hurts
and omg thank you so much 🥺💙 it took me like 6 hours to make so I’m glad it’s good 😂 I won’t be putting that much effort into a moodboard ever again lmao.
also, just for you, here’s a teaser for the next part (not final material just a lil brain dump)
“C’mere puppy, that’s it. Now close you eyes pup. I’ve got a surprise for you. You’re going to love it, promise,” his voice is sultry against your ear as a blindfold is placed over your eyes. A high keen leaves you, not liking the loss of your vision. “Uh-uh, none of that. I don’t want to have to spank your ass raw and ruin what I’ve worked so hard to set up just for you.”
#ambs answers#mina ❤️#clockwork au#nick fowler#nick fowler x reader#sebastian stan character#sebastian stan
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Happy Sebastian Stan is clearly a vampire day, bubbie! 💕🌸💕
May you bump into him on the streets of NYC one day, and upon realizing you have just done THAT, you scream so loud you scare the living shit outta him and he thinks you got hurt or something, so he goes to see what's wrong and you explain that it's outta sheer love and adoration. Him being the baby boy he is, blushes for dayz and goes in for a hug and that's when your entire life gets made. The end.
This will happen. I shall manifest it into being 💙❤️💙❤️
Hiii Oula bubba 💛💛 Thank you so so much for this lovely message 🥰🥰🥰 He clearly is a vampire, this man just does not AGE. I mean. Look at Seb in 2016. Vs Seb in 2022. He just looks more BABYYY 🥺🥺😭😭💖💖💖
Even if he’s getting more grey hairs and is now 40 (???!!), he’s still baby in my mind and he probably will forever be. He just has that baby boy quality you know? 🥺💕
I know your ask is about me hopefully randomly running into Seb when I’m in New York this fall, and if I do I’ll try to keep my screaming internal (I will take that hug though), but let me just once again SCREAM at you about how this man is the most amazing, wonderful, kind and generous man (I will drag you into his fandom, kicking and screaming lmao - but I’ll do it under the cut because this turned out longer than I expected 😂)
He’s an absolute sweetheart. He’ll dedicate time to fans even if he’s working, he supports so many charities that he actively promotes. The love he shows his friends is just incredible heartwarming, and nothing makes me happier than to see they feel the same about him. Every one who works with him LOVES him, and rightly so. Whether it be all the directors, his costars, or even the crew. Because he puts time and effort into listening, being generous with his time (and money), and just being kind.🥰🥰🥰
He’s an absolute sweetheart. He’ll dedicate time to fans even if he’s working, he supports so many charities that he actively promotes. The love he shows his friends is just incredible heartwarming, and nothing makes me happier than to see they feel the same about him. Every one who works with him LOVES him, and rightly so. Whether it be all the directors, his costars, or even the crew. Because he puts time and effort into listening, being generous with his time (and money), and just being kind.🥰🥰🥰
And even if he cannot take a compliment without ducking or hiding his face, laughing it off and blushing like a schoolgirl, he gives out compliments and love like no one else. He’ll always praise everyone around him before even thinking about the hard work he himself put into anything.
And on top of that, he’s just the weirdest little weirdo, and he has no shame in it 😂. He’s just unapologetically himself, and it makes me love him even more. Whether it’s dancing with a kitchen knife to get a role, or dancing like a lunatic and hitting his head, or sharing all the ways he’s gotten injured because he’s a clumsy little baby 😂Or the faces he pulls or the things he does to be dramatic. This man is a walking me-me, and proud of it, and I couldn’t love him more. 💛💛💛💛
And of course, he’s freaking gorgeous, no matter what age. And I cry about that every day. So yeah, Happy Birthday to Baby 💕💕, I hope he has the BEST day.
#maya answers#thank you for manifesting me meeting him bubba 💖💖💖#who knows!!!#happy birthday baby 💗💗#sebastian stan
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"I stand in the mess of myself" -Colum McCann
That first timeline was so soft and lovely and kdvskdjif I AM GETTING TOO MUCH FLUFF ITS GETTING CONCERNING
The scene with Max and Rafe made me 🥺🥺
Jia is the only president I will ever love😎
“Am I still the prettiest man in the world?” Alec chuckles. Magnus bops his nose. “Always.” I'M DYING💙💙💙
Jdhskdbidjd Magnus is unhinged as fuck lmao
Communication is so sexy tbh
The way I love these two-
Magnus making sure Alec knows how important this is and that he deserves all the recognition- just...fuck
Alec looks at him. He smiles at Magnus. And there it is. The higher power. Malec comparing each other to some higher power is my favorite thing EVERY OK?!?
“Perfect enough to put inside my heart.”💙💙
Alec practically runs out of the door. Magnus chuckles to himself and follows through. Who said being horny can't be productive at the same time??
“Oh for fuck’s sake! Can’t they like walk home?” Alec demands. “Max is six.” “So? He has legs.” My man has priorities jdhdkdjdl
Empathy is so fucking beautiful and sexy 😍
Max is a cheesy little shit and I am love him!!! He is just so innocent and cute🥺🥺🥺
In timeline two Max was indeed acting like an asshole. I mean he was waiting for David to text him and go to that party but it didn't happen😭 Still, asshole behavior
Honestly tho Alec has every right to decide what to do and if he wants to move on or not. Why do people forget that???
He forgot about his promise. It’s fine. Not all of them are Lightwood-Banes anymore anyway. AHH JUST STOP THE PAIN😭😭😭
“So that’s why it ended, huh,” Alec hums. “Raisins and bad luck.” Them talking here is kinda sad but also you can see how they are trying to heal and that is beautiful!!
Elyaas is so done with them and I can't blame him smh
Yall are terrifying together, love. Have a nice day :)
That was so fucking sad but I'm so damn glad they could talk to each other!!!
“I won’t let anyone hurt the blue-eyed boy.” “Good,” Alec smiles. “We won’t let anyone hurt you either.” THEM>>>>>
Them taking comfort on each other and knowing they can rely on the other to help them through this all is the most amazing thing ever and in this essay I will-
Omfg I love their reactions when Max told them about moving to London. Both of them went like ✨No :)✨
Max taking over Edom!!! I fucking knew it!!!!! Hell yeah let's go!!!!
His fake binder is honestly a mood af😎
“I just think it could be different. It’s like how Rafael wants to be a politician because he wants the government to be different.” This parallel is *chef kiss*
No thoughs, head empty except ✨mavid kids✨
“Shinyun Jung. Will you do me the honor of being my mentor?” kdvwkdkdlebi loved this so much. She indeed has big dick energy 🥰
Shinyun and Max living and working together, being competitive and skilled little shits its my favorite aesthetic💙💙 also Noodle???? I want to met them!!!
He would make such a gorgeous Prince of Edom and I think David can agree ;)
I love how Shinyun and Alec are like: I don't trust you but I trust Magnus so I'm going to behave idheieejek
And that’s what matters, doesn’t it?
That we all learn to care about something more than ourselves.
Maybe it’s a person. Maybe it’s a place.
It doesn’t matter.
Not as long as we care.
✨A FAVE ONCE AGAIN✨😍😍
“Take it,” Magnus says. “Take some of my strength.” not this parallel too, please it's too much udhdkdjdld
For two grown up men who have really qualified jobs and are successful... They sure are idiots!!!
Can we talk about how the whole scene with Izzy and Maryse was so fucking accurate and true??? ✨God, I love women ✨💙💙💙
No, you don't understand. They love LOVE each other!! Yes, that's a valid reason to scream😭
HE ATE THE FUCKING RAISINS!! OMFG HE HATES THEM!! SCREAMING AND CRYING I WILL NEVER RECOVER
What is love if not eating each other's raisins when needed?
And finally: YOU GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME DANI! I AM IN PANIC AND I TOTALLY BLAME YOU! WHY DO THE BEST CHARACTERS SUFFER SO MUCH?!?!😭
I will go scream in my room brb. And yes I'm still one chapter behind what about it?? jk, jk😂
Song rec: No Goodbyes by Dua Lipa
So in conclusion:
Women? Yes.
Raisins? No.
Wonderful life lessons 🥰🥰🥰
This is Max working for Edom like
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Oh, that's great! 🖤 I don't exchange tunes too often so this is fun! Aahhh, that's a gorgeous way to look at it too. 😊 But alrighty! Let's see...
Monsters, Gothminister
Angel, Gothminister
Viva Vendetta, Lord Of The Lost
Stockholm Syndrome, Nostalghia
Lucretia My Reflection, Sisters of Mercy
Die in the Disco, Night Club
Norupo, Heilung
Here's a few I'm really enjoying lately; I hope you find something new or that you like! If not I may be able to send some more. 🥰 I sent 2 for Gothminister 'cause I'm especially fixated on them right now, haha.
Maybe I can get into it someday, my brother also seems interested so we may try looking into that eventually! Personally I think it'd be fun to put together snacks related to whatever is being played, especially baked goods.🧁 asdhjfkal; my anxiety could never! That's why I'm grateful that it seems more systems are implementing npcs if you can't put together a party. 😌
Oof, the story. Hm, well... writing is something I picked up again after 10 years and I didn't stick with it very long before! But this story came about when I was thinking about the Darksiders games and how different things would've been if more of humanity survived the apocalypse and managed to rebuild. Humanity might have also suffered some mutations allowing for supernatural abilities. 👀 I was going to keep it close to the source material, but it's really developed since and it's still in the beginning stages! Anyhow, I can't say too much on it publicly until I get the blog started. I'm not sure how familiar you are with the interactive fiction community, but it's being written in that format using either Twine or ChoiceScript; haven't decided yet lmao. It's my first large project and while overwhelming, it's exciting too! I won't be charging or taking money for it however since it's still kinda set in the Darksiders universe. I can't talk about the characters yet as much as I would like to! 😭
Mal sounds like such a sweetheart. 🤲🏻💕 I'm sorry I don't have much to say in regards to the answers, but I was smiling the entire time reading! And I can 100% get behind stews and potatoes. Also! If he's ashamed of candy crush, he shouldn't be! It seems like it'd be therapeutic which sounds like it may be very much needed. 🥲 The last answer brings me to a couple of other questions if that's okay! What does his cat look like and what's their name? 💖 I had also forgotten another question, but what would Mal's favorite song(s) be?
AHH, so beautiful, and in such a lovely color! I'll treasure this conversation and image forever. 🥺🌼
OH GOD I MISSED THIS I'M SO SORRY 😭
BUT YAY thank you so much for these recs!! heilung was the only band i was familiar with and i hadn't heard that song of theirs! THEY'RE ALL SO GOOD ! i think lucretia, my reflection was my favorite! i can DEFINITELY see why you're hooked on gothminister the energy is SO GOOD
and yes!! table snacks is one of the best parts of in-person games -- most things i play are over discord these days, but i miss being Around People and playing! BUT YES dungeon npcs are a lifesaver...... don't have to deal with Gamer Salt
AND DUDE THAT STORY CONCEPT SOUNDS SO SICK I LOVE THAT! and i love interactive fiction! i'm currently hooked on 'the northern passage', and am working through as many routes in 'tell me if there's a way home' as i can find! it's such an excellent storytelling medium but i can definitely understand how it's a huge undertaking! i'm sure you'll rock it!!
more questions are always okay! i'm genuinely so honored that you're so interested in my boy 😭💙 his cat is a rescue named spatula LMAO blame my friends for that one IT STARTED AS A JOKE but now it's real. she has many nicknames, most often just spats but 'count spatula' is the funniest one so far - she's a long-haired tuxedo cat!
LMAO CHRIST. TOOK A MILLION YEARS TO ANSWER THEN... SAVED IT AS A DRAFT FOR A MILLION MORE
thank you for your patience you are a GIFT!! 🌸
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To burn the witch is to admit that magic exists. ~ Erin Anastasia
Report? ✨Written✨
Notes? ✨Taken✨
Assignments? ✨Delivered✨
Work? ✨Done✨
Stability after this chapter? ✨Nonexistent ✨
Ok, yeah. I'm still missing some assignments and reading a book on one day, but it's an improvement!!!
“I just like that you are really smart and competent,” Alec said matter-of-factly. “So, it’s just like one big kink.” Can we really blame Alec??
For Lilith’s sake! Goddamn, this man!
Magnus crossed his arms. “What exactly are you insinuating, Alec?”
“Something is bothering you and I’d like you to talk to me about it,” Alec said gently.
I just love how Alec knows something is worrying Magnus with all the small details🥺 also yess!! Malec communicating and being an old married couple is>>>
His Blueberry has always been a little mad and a little desperate. That’s what made him Max.
Warlock math and Max was a dangerous combination.
Nico, I love you, babe, but Magnus is right!!!
“Okay,” Alec said again. “Is there something I can do?"
Alexander
This man ISTG- 😭😭
Not you too!!! I have enough couple angst, I don't need y'all to start fighting right now when my emotional stability depends on you!!😭😭
He had the face of a warlock. Idk what that is supposed to mean, but I am scared:))
Oh, so Claire was talking about schizophrenia!! But, like, did her family had schizophrenia, or did they have the sight??? I am confusion🙂
"Your son wouldn’t be trying to destroy someone else’s home if he felt safe in his own one.” He just called out the entire Devlin family and I love him for that 😎
Alec was still frowning. “Did he look familiar to you? He looked familiar to me.” oh shit. This is no good. I feel the foreshadowing in my bones!!! Or wait, was this about the time they met?? :o
Alec reassuring Jace💙💙💙
Look, I am shit worried about everything rn but Gabriel going feral is😍😍 I am just a simp for them don't @ me!!
You better watch out, Devlins!!! You mess with their kids, and Clary and Jace are ready to take you down!!! Although them in pain is just ten times worse 😭
Her beautiful, gorgeous, colorful hair😭😭 why do you always have to make her suffer, Dani??? Why????
A sword was a sword.
Lexi knew how to use one. She was going to show Marcus that.
Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight! Fi-
At least Nico warned her just in time to learn how to heal herself... I have to take victories wherever I can ok?!?!
Need me more Gabriel and Jace's interactions!! It's not a want, ITS A NEED!!
“Chouchou,” she whispered again, leaning into David. “She wants Chouchou.”
“She?” Max said. “She who?”
Selena shuddered against David. “Mallory."
Fucking YESS!! I have been wanting this for weeks, holy shit I am so nervous but so excited for this!!!
At moments like this, Georgia did wonder if things would be easier if they just killed Marcus.
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“Because he is an asshole with a god complex,” Gigi noted.
I agree with her wholeheartedly, morals out of the window!!
Is it really a shadowhunter date if you are not in danger?
“What does he want then?” Gigi groaned. “World domination? He isn’t Taylor Swift!” GIGI>>>>
THEY ARE THE MVP. THE ONLY ONES WITH BRAINCELLS. FAVE UNPROBLEMATIC BABES💙💙😍
Holy shit he is trying to collapse the ley lines on IDRIS WTF?!???
Oh god. Oh fuck.
Fucketty fucking fuck.
Exactly my thoughts 🙂🙂
“Hey! It’s not a fucking triangle!” Max yelled and pointed between him and David. “It’s a line. Okay? It’s just a damn line. No triangles here!” idk why I laughed so hard at this kdhdkdjdkdn
David told you!!!! And you didn't listen!!!!
“You okay?” dad asked.
“Why?"
“Because it sucks when other people get hurt because of us,” dad said.
Alec comforting Max is the only thing I will focus and I will ignore everything else :))
Alec when he hears Magnus: I am speed🔪🙂
That's it. How dare she touch Chairman Meow?!?!? I HATE HER SO MUCH IS UNREAL🔪🔪🔪
“I would kill someone for you,” Mallory smiled. “I love you.” *If I killed someone for you by Alec Benjamin playing in the distance*🎶🎶
“I will never kiss anyone other than David.” HEAR THAT??? HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU!!
David nodded. His face was blank.
Good. Stay away from me.
NOOOO, I NEED THEM TO TALK TO EACH OTHER, PLEASE I'M BEGGING 😭😭
“Do you me trust me with your son?” dad asked.
Uncle Jace smiled. “I trust you with my life."
Dad smiled back and looked at David. “Pack your bags, son. We’re going on a road trip."
Parabatai are just *SCREAMS*
So, so, soooo excited for this!!!
NOAHHH.
Dude, I have so many lbaf tiktoks I wanna share but for some reason my mobile tumblr app is not letting me share tiktoks when i am answering asks.
HOMOPHOBIA.
I miss you, bebe. Sending gay vibes (ignore the random shit my brain is overloaded these days)
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Don't know if I have used this already or not: "Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future." - Oscar Wilde.
God, the first timeline was so fucking sad and painful to read, Robert deserved better😭 I love the growth he had along the story, the way he, at the end, supported Alec and made sure to fight by his side...
But also its so goddamn interesting on the way Alec deals with pain by being hurtful and bitter and hurting others and himself (parallel with Max!!) And they were so close to passign the law!!!😭
"But do they hate people like him this much? Is there hate strong enough to kill?" Unfortuately, yeah...
Rafael not knowing what to do but trying to help makes me emo🥺 Also not them trying to learn spanish for him😭
It doesn’t come out as a cry of pain and agony. That is unfamiliar to him. No. It comes out as something much more familiar. Something easy. I could go on a whole analysis of Alec dealing with pain but akhdkfbdkdjd too much!!!
Magnus was kinda right though, even if he was hurting by seeing Alec hurt too
All this talk about grief, guilt and pain was simply beautiful. It was raw but so beautiful at the same time
Lightwood siblings supremacy only!!! Also yey!!! Izzy is pregnant!!!!!!! 💙💙💙 Just Jace, Izzy, Maryse, Alec..... I LOVE THEM SO MUCH<333
The way he always feels responsible for everyone around him is both beautiful and kinda heartbreaking😭
The scene with Max and Alec.... Fuck it I'm crying🙂
It reaches his face.
The tears start to cascade down his cheek. Alec sobs into Magnus’ shoulder.
Magnus sinks his fingers into Alec’s hair and holds him tightly, gently whispering to him in Indonesian.
Alec doesn’t understand.
But it soothes him anyway.
🥺🥺🥺The way he could find confort and finally let himself fall with Magnus, in this essay I will-
Second Timeline was a bitch. All those therapy sesions, the way Alec keep pushing and pushing but it also hurted Magnus in a way, besides the fact that he is going through an episode
Everyone else felt far away. Rafael had always been there – hovering around him. He is always there. Not me crying everytime I see how they leaned into Rafael without noticing how it affected him🙂🔪
Fuck those therapists!! Also Verlac... Wtf???
Fuck, I have forgotten about the apartment and all the issues it caused, but Magnus did had a point...
“Well, that’s what therapy is! It's exhausting!” Magnus snaps. “It sucks, okay? Therapy is about holding yourself accountable for your own damn life. It comes with a lot of guilt and responsibility. It’s about getting to the root of your issues which can be triggering as hell. It’s about making yourself vulnerable which is never easy.”
Everything about this is just ✨WOW✨
All that talk does make you realize about the importance of Alec’s work and all the impact he has, he couldn't give up on it!
“Love isn’t enough?” Malcolm chuckles. “It seems to be that you’ve already made your choice.” bro you practiced necromancy, you are not that if a reliable source tbh...
Seeing Scott so suddenly and so randomly and after all these years feels like a sign Maybe he will survive this too. The scene with Scott... Jdhskdbdk I loved it!! I loved the way they have both gone so far in their lives and that they care for each other, but god if that was frustrating as fuck! And Alec was being an asshole about him and Tessa!!
Third timeline cured everything that was wrong with me, fixed my traumas, cleared my skin-
Honestly, it was so beautiful in the way they are trying to heal and help each other in such a healthy way!! God, I know I love angst but I'm also a whore for this fluff!!
I hope Max gets to figure it out. Love him💙
Magnus literally running bc it was late while looking gorgeous as fuck and Alec fixing his shoes is everything that is ok in this life kshsidhdldk💜💜
“And if he doesn’t work out, we’ll keep looking,” Magnus says gently. “I’m not giving up this time.”
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This man who had taught Alec what happiness feels like.
CAN YOU TWO STOP BEING THE ABSOLUTE BEST?? I AM DROWNING IN FEELS🥺🥺
Jem fucking Carstairs!!! OF course this man is the one that comes and says all this wise and smart things and fixed a lot of things in my life!! I am love him. No one can do it like my boy 😎
All the things about parentification hit to close to home. I didn’t know it existed even!! But god if that was actually really great to read. I actually researched more about it later lmao
The way they care about helping the kids and they are doing something about it to become better parents- fuck, this is amazing🥺
Also all the things about Max and his self-steem and the way he acts like he doesn’t care made me almost cry at my father's office kdhskbdjd
Some of my favorite quotes of my beautiful Jem😍
“But we don’t always feel what we’re supposed to feel, do we?”
"Don’t let your guilt take away his choices.”
“Therapy is not about making things go away, Alec,” Jem says gently. “It’s about to learn how to deal with what exists and learning how to accept what doesn’t.
"Unlike with Rafael, where a lot of his problems were caused externally, Max seems to be struggling with his internal self.”
“Everything I know about love, I learned from my dad and bapak.”
"Who you are now is not who you were four years ago."
Everyone should be scared of Anjali😌
They are both nerds and that is verh sexy of them kdhdidhdkd
Oh my fucking god. That scene😭😭 all of them showing up, Max crying, David being the absolute best!!! The lady of the ice cream shop.... JSGDKBFIDJD I DID CRY AT MY FATHER'S OFFICE FOR THIS😂
"Because sometimes, just sometimes, love is enough." That's it. I'm dead. I am deceased🥺
Song rec: Atlantis by Seafret
@noah-herondale-lightwood i think you sent the ask in anon :)
if you haven't cried at your father's office then what are you even doing am i right???
I'm glad you liked the bits with Jem and the therapy. I was excited for you all to read his scene!
And the song rec is so 🥺🥺🥺
sending love!
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Saya tidak tahu apakah saya telah menggunakan bahasa ini (ingatan saya buruk) tetapi saya akan tetap menggunakannya untuk menghormati kesempatan itu dan Magnus Bane kita yang cantik. Jadi, Hei! Kami akhirnya di sini! Setelah hampir 4 bulan kan? Wow. Mari kita mulai bisnis <3
Love is real everytime Alec calls Magnus "Baby"
I support Alec killing Asmodeus
“You what?” I honestly don't know why he is surprised...
Max was planning everything from there right???
"Like the time Max had found Magnus crying in the bathroom on Alec’s 30th birthday." Bro. Bro, you can't add angst to the ANGST!! That's cruel
Hell yeah Alec! No more sacrificing themselves!
No, you didn't add the picture Dani!!!!
“It’s you. It's us. It’s my family. The thought of you all always brings me peace.”💙💙
“Let’s go bring that little shit back home,” I know I have already said I love them but I don't care ✨I love them✨
“It’s draining them.” Why am I not surprised? Wait. But Gigi was holding it last chapter.... Yeah, it's a lot of power
Fuck. I also hoped it would be Alec 😂 Will it be Gigi then? Or Lexi?
The day I can read this without expresions, I will be ready to play poker
OMG OMG THE LETTER!
Ok, I have a lot of thoughts on that letter! First of all WOW, I’m screaming and I want to cry. Second, Max is fucking right!!! Like… Magnus has been there for the entire world and will always be all his life🥺🥺 All the letter makes me scream and “So, I am asking for your power – for I cannot think of a better reason than to save Magnus Bane.” FUCKING RIGHT!! AND THE FACT THAT THE ENTIRE WORLD WENT!!! This is the most beautiful shit EVER. I rest my case. I still have so much to say…
“You have no idea how much you mean to people,” THIS!!! I love you, but you are sooo stupid
“Magnus Bane,” Alec said. “For once in your life, sit back and let us do the work.” (FUCK YES DUDE!!! I’M LOVING SO MUCH HERE💙💙)
“They had come. The shadow world. They had come to fight for him.” Of course they did!!!!
I FUCKING HATE ASMODEUS
Omg they named it Karma😂😂
“Don’t underestimate my upper body strength,” she winked at Alec and flew upwards. “Damn, okay then,” Alec let out a soft chuckle. (*sigh* I’m in love)
The parallel with “I can’t feel it. I can’t feel my heart”??? Hurts
David😭😭
“I’m sorry. Bapak is sorry. Please. Baby. Come back.” I’m totally not crying. It 's just dust..
“No!” Alec roared. “Fuck off!” (Alec is my spirit)
I was wrong before. Chopin is the REAL MVP and he will stay in that position forever. I will forever be grateful 💙💙
I FUCKING NEEDED THAT HUG!! OMG I’M CRYING
GO OFF MAX. KILL HIM PLEASE!
He felt Max soften against him. “Crazy warlock.” “Takes one to know one,” Magnus pointed out. (I WOULD DIE FOR YOU TWO)
UDHFERIU CLASE!!!! LOVE THEM. THEY ARE GORGEOUS AND AMAZING🥺🥺“Jace,” Clary murmured against his lips. “We are in hell.” “Didn’t stop us before,” Jace grinned against her mouth. (omg, worst of all is that it's true😂)
ALEC!! I’M DYING😂😂😂
✨Maryse, Emma and Tessa✨
Simon and Jace are dumbasses (affectionate)
HE CALLED JACE PAPA!! I’M GONNA CRY BRO!!!
HOLY FUCK HE CALLED CLARY MAMA!! MY LIFE IS COMPLETE!! HE CAN PICK HER UP!!!
THIS SHIT IS BEAUTIFUL. That family reunion is the best thing I’ve witnessed and I will never recover 💙💙
Yeah, Selena is going to need therapy. I hope the best for her
HE. FUCKING. WHISTLED. Omg…😂😂
HEVFIUEWDHWIUE GABRIEL!!! THEY ARE HERE!! AND THEY CALLED HER SIRENITA!!! I truly appreciate this <333333 Also my sister is concerned for me…
SELENA, MY QUEEN
Jace is a cinnamon roll🥺
THAT FUCKING FAMILY IS THE DEATH OF ME. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. WOW
“He had to be there for his friend.” Jace and Magnus’ friendship is something else>>>>
💙MAVID💙
Alec loves David and he knows it :)
“I have to put an arrow through my father-in-law.” Valid
JACKSON!!! YESSSS. I love him not giving a shit lmao😂
MY FUCKING LONDON BUYS HOLY SHIT YES!!!
Normal. Bonding with your brother-in-law over being alive…
ROSEWOOD!!!
“Shut your sexy mouth, Julian Blackthorn,” >>>>
Asmodeus annoys the shit out of me
Magnus protection squad is here, like.. literally, so stay the fuck away
"She is precious cargo!" YES SHE IS!!!
LBAF GANG TOGETHER!! THEY ARE AN AMAZING TEAM AND I STAN!!
“For Magnus Bane!” FOR MAGNUS FUCKING BANE!!
Max is right tho…. And David is beautiful
OMG THAT KISS!!!
“Mon ange,” David whispered. “Don’t be afraid. Not of who you are.” (This man couldn’t be more beautiful)
He smiled at his boyfriend – for he only ever thought and felt one thing when it came to the blue warlock. “Max Lightwood-Bane,” David mouthed. “I fucking love you.” 💙💙💙💙💙💙
OMG THAT WHOLE SCENE WAS JUST AMAZING AND WOW. AND (“Let go,” David whispered and crashed their lips together. And the sky exploded.) WOW. THE POWER, THE LOVE, THE-
“Alec had never been prouder of Max than in that moment.” We can’t possibly hate Asmodeus more than Alec hates him
Fuck this shit. The entire shadow world protecting Magnus is the greatest view and I might cry again because they are all protecting him and ready to kill and for once he is the one being protected and wow
“It was an odd feeling to be able to hold your entire world in your hands. But Alec was one of those lucky people.” I honestly don’t have more expressions left to say how perfect they are together
“Because even though it was the meaning of Alec’s name, Magnus was the ultimate protector out of them all. He was a protector. Not a destroyer.” Yes he is and we love him so fucking much💙💙💙
Rafael, Max and Alec fighting their way to Magnus. Fuck if I love this fic
Yes!! He punched him!! Thank you!!!! I LOVE IT DHIEWU
A lil scared of Max, ngl
Oh great!! It isn’t Magnus!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK
“I am who I am,” Magnus said. “And it has nothing to do with you.” >>>>>
Magnus won’t do shit and I would die for him for that (yes, the irony is strong)
Bro… All of them smiling and Max giving Asmodeus the middle finger… 💙💙💙💙
OH SHIT NO NO NO
“It was one of Alec’s arrows.” I FUCKING HATE IRONIES
DAVID DID IT DJDSNDSJN. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD YESSS I ALREADY KNEW IT BUT YESSS!!! MAX FUCKING SAID IT. ASMOUDEUS SHOULD HAVE BEEN AFRAID OF DAVID!!!
“I told you,” David said, his voice a deadly whisper as he stabbed the prince of hell in the chest again – just because he could. “I don’t like shitty fathers.” (THAT WAS SO SATISFACTORY AND HOLY FUCKING SHIT YESS!!!)
“Oh god,” Max croaked. “I’m so turned on right now.” “Shut up, you little shit,” (Honestly, I have no complaints this being the first joke after Asomdeus died😂😂)
“Magnus was sitting there, blue magic streaming from his hands.” HOLY FUCK MY BABE IS SO POWERFULL!!!
“Maybe Alec was a little turned on too.” Seriously, this family needs help😂
They are royalty!! And Max is fucking double royalty!! How tf does that work??
“Should I bow before you?” Alec asked with a grin. “You can kneel in front of me later,” Magnus grinned back. (Istg, my whole family heard me fall of my chair laughing holy shit 😂😂😂)
The smile that was worth going to hell for – once, twice, and thrice. And however many more times necessary. “It’s over.” (Wow. This is it. I seriously have a lot of thoughts but I’m too shocked to put them here. Everything here was bjcbdhcjd I don't know how to describe it. Stunning. I. FUCKING. LOVED. IT💙💙)
Istg reading your fics is a combination of: “Cc take notes! This is the real tea” and “I thank all the Gods out there everyday that this isn’t canon” and I don’t know how to feel about that. But anyway, this is really long and now I have to go do a bunch of stuff so I’ll be here tomorrow with everyone losing their shit, you are a really amazing writer and I’m always impressed with what you come up with. Ily💙💙💙💙
Selamat tinggal! Beristirahatlah dengan serius karena ini adalah hal yang liar dan Anda pantas mendapatkanny. Cinta Kamu <33
I don't know how but the moment I saw the alphabet I just knew. I knew it was Indonesian and I just felt so overwhelmed that I had to take a fucking moment.
It's perfect. You're perfect.
And yeah omg I can't believe we've been through this for four fucking months. We are the real heroes lol.
Thank you so much for all this love.
Reading your reactions and watching how much you love these characters has been a blessing.
Love you! 💙💙
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