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rabbitreader09 · 1 year

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Im bacckkkk, with a bit of yandere vtsom content, since he’s a popular yandere on my blog, this is for draco! And a yandere alphabet!

This alphabet was remastered by @dear-yandere but sadly i could not find the original creator of it anymore, but nontheless, lets get into it! Oh, and if you want this for any other character, feel free to slide to my requests!

Yandere Alphabet - Draco Edgeworth♣️

Warnings!: major yandere themes, mentions of imprisonment, violence, obsession, spelling/grammar mistakes here and there (?)

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

- Draco is probably one of the most affectionate yanderes you could meet, he most often shows his affection towards his darling by serving them, this he can portray in a wide variety of actions, cooking his darling their favorite meal, doing their laundry, softly waking them up in the morning and bringing them to bed at night and more, he will show this kind of affection in whatever circumstance, even if you have never seen him in your life a mysterious gift might just appear on your doorstep every once in a while.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

- When it comes to your safety and protection, he doesn’t know boundaries, the ending mess doesn’t bother him, he knows all the ways of disposing of a body and cleaning up blood until not even a black light can make it visible, so as long as the final outcome is the one he desires, he doesn’t care about the mess it leaves behind.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

- While he might as well be a monster, Draco isn’t cruel towards you, its hard to snap his patience, even if you fight against him with arms and legs. Your crys will usually be met by comfort when your with him, even if you don’t want it.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

As hinted at, he takes his role of caretaker a bit too serious at times, he wont push your boundaries too far, but cleaning you, feeding ect. Are things he wont compromise on. The only other thing he will do that might not abide your will would be a good night of cuddling every once in a while, its kind of his self care and also something he is not likely to skip.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

- if you let him, he will pour out his heart to you, if you don’t, he might pour out half. The only vulnerability about him is that he has quite fragile feelings when it comes to you, if you keep on telling him how you hate him, or try to run away at every glimpse of a chance, eventually he might just be the one to throw a tantrum, but really that does not act in your favor at all, in fact the worst case outcome might just be him growing more dependent on your physical touch.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

- he usually feels disappointed, betrayed even, but he usually wraps it up in some delusions, and that fixes it most of the time. He usually lets you tire yourself out, either by holding you down or locking you in a room for a few hours, should it happen on a daily bases though, he might be forced to use a few gags and ties just to keep you bound up for a little while.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

- its not a game to him in the slightest, in fact, he wishes this was just your two’s perfect domestic life, he treats it seriously, and god knows you escaping is one of the things he fears the most. You climbing out a window when he was gone for just a bit too long, running just a little too far for him to catch you, that is a fantasy of nothing but horror to him, you being gone, and him potentially being locked into prison, knowing your out there, meeting other people, forgetting about him, that is a fate worse than death.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

- it was all supposed to be a normal night, except it turned out not to be, you had somehow been able to get ahold of his key bundle and fled the house, it was only minutes after you set foot into the outside that he found your empty bed, the variety of unlocked doors and the complete absence of his keys telling him everything he had to know. When you finally got outside wearing nothing but your sleeping clothes, the only two options you could comprehend to choose from was running out into the road in front of the mansion and hoping a car would pass or you getting far enough, or the thick forest behind it, which was also your choice since the road felt too open, there wasn’t a neighboring house and someone driving by this mostly empty place in the middle of the night was just too unlikely for you. Bad thing was that the mansions forest was surrounded by multiple metal gates decked out with razor wire and or electricity. Draco found you almost shredding your arms trying to pry under the first fence in only a couple of minutes, probably nearing a breakdown as he scrambled to get you back inside to the bathroom to take care of your wounds, and you made it even worse. As water flew down into the bathtub so he could clean the dirt you collected off you, he desperately tried to wrap your arms gashing with blood in bandages, but you kept pulling them back, unraveling them and screaming. His mind spun and all the delusions he set in place to not lose his cool seemed to crumble around him, so as you pulled your arms away again, throwing off the bandages once again, he dug his fingers into your hair as far as they’d go, shoving your head under the water in the bathtub. He just wanted you to shut up for a second, he needed you to stay still, and all the fear, anger and stress that the situation had build up inside him had spilled over as he watched the water bubble around your head, your hands scrambling to get your head up above water and painting the bathwater and tub a light shade of red. He only barely caught himself before the bubbles around you stopped appearing, he laid you back onto the ground and used the time that it took you to cough out all the water you inhaled to finally wrap up your arms. After that incident, not only were your arms covered in scars, but it made you realize what damage Draco was able to cause and that in reality, you didn’t have any control over him, he never spoke or acted on it, he basically acted like it never happened, but he sure was pleased with your sudden rise in submissiveness afterwards.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

- for him, a picture perfect dream would be living alone with you in a comfortably small house, with a pet and perhaps even a child (adopted, DNA experiment, whatever, he doesn’t care) , maybe even away from Vincent and Victor, where you’d greet him with a warm, welcoming hug every day when he got home to you, where you only existed for each other, that’d be something he could dream about all day.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

- he has a way of coping with delusions and fantasies, but god knows when it comes to jealousy nothing will take his mind of it, he gets jealous easily, and any potential suitor has to be out of the way for him to be able to sleep at night.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

- In most circumstances he’s affectionate, soft and kind. Every time he sits down next to you he can’t hold himself from telling you how beautiful you look and he has a guilty pleasure for feeding you your meals, even if he doesn’t get to do it often.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

- his love language mostly consists of gifts, favors and physical affection, and their sure to never fail. He keeps lists mental and physical of all the things you like, if you don’t know of his true intentions, he may seem like a mind reader.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

- his behavior is similar, but still bears a few differences, around most people he has more charisma, his smile is always a bit wider and faker, not to mention he might drop a sarcastic remark or joke in the middle. But when he is with you he’s softer, more relaxed, and he never brings himself to deceive or mock you, your too precious to him for that.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

- even with the gruesome way he will handle others, he can’t bring himself to lay his hands on you for the sake of a lesson, the only times he ever did were very spare and more done in the heat of a moment than as a way to punish you. It would consist more of silent treatments and taking away you freedom to get you to stick to certain rules, he convinces himself their for your safety and not to for his control.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

- he despises the idea of you being somewhere where he can’t immediately locate you, if theres an emergency who would come to help you? Surely not any of those people outside, and besides, the few trips he takes with you outside surely are enough anyways.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

- As long as the situation isn’t an urgent one, he is quite patient with you, it makes the feeling when he finally cradles you in his arms a lot more rewarding, maybe its frustrating from time to time, but when he looks at your face he can forgive it all in the blink of an eye, because your worth waiting for.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

- this one is a bit complicated, while is he not a ‚if you die I die‘ yandere, he could not move on from your death or dissapearance from his life, he will more be left as a shell of a person, and deep down never give up the fight of getting you back, even if your long gone.

Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

- While he doesn’t necessarily feel guilty, sometimes he wonders how different things might’ve been if he had a bit more patience, and if this was really the best solution for you. Sometimes that unhappy frown on your face gets to him just a bit too much and he gives in and lets you go outside just a little bit, even if that is restricted to the mansions backyard, but despite that, while he might be a bit delusional, Draco is not stupid, he knows that what he‘s started cannot just be pulled back from, and so he can’t let you go until you‘ve learned to accept his presence.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

- honestly, he isn’t that sure himself, sure his childhood was …odd, given that his only ever purpose was to be a weapon to his brother, but its not like that gave him separation anxiety or abandonment issues hard enough that he’d feel the need to cling onto another person for comfort. The safest bet is that you made him feel like he could be more than a clone of his brother, that he could live a happy and normal life with someone he felt a deep connection to, and that he doesn’t believe theres someone else that could make him ever feel this way.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

- he feels sorrowful, and he’ll usually do anything to get you to at least put on a neutral expression. He feels worst when you isolate yourself from him, when he can’t even get a proper sentence out of you and is given nothing more than a dull ‘yes’, ‘no’, or ‘go away’.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

- While he’s not super unique in his behaviour, he is definitely more loving and patient than most others would be and the conditions he treats you in and with are a lot more luxurious than what could be.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

- while the chances are slim, there might be a way. If your on your perfect behaviour, get rid of any restraints and locks and make him believe that you have truly fallen for him, maybe he will just get a tad naive, and trust you just a bit too much, and in that moment, you need to run, leave the district and start a new life. With the right motivation and a bit of luck, you might just escape.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

- I think we can all agree that Draco is anything but weak, and that he is capable of doing a lot of damage, but to your luck, he will not try to hurt you intentionally or as a punishment, but that does not mean he might not unintentionally cause you harm.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

- Draco has a ton of charisma, so if his darling is easily swooned by that, he can win them over quite easily. His most common way of worshipping you is taking care of all your physical needs, food, laundry, hygiene, clothes, you name it, he will make sure to always let you look your best.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

- fairly long, if things don’t work out that is, he will yearn and admire you so much and try to make you fall for him in so many ways, gifts, dates, favors, service, stalking or even murder, but if fate doesn’t want you to be together after all, he will just have to force it.

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

- He might, they way he always meets your fight and cry with gentle comfort could break your mind, make you drown in your own guilt and eventually manipulate your brain to staying with him, even if your heart is still indifferent. He will never use the term in his own mind and he will never tell himself that he’s gonna try and break your mind, but you can be confident that he wont be indifferent when it has happened, unlike many other yanderes, he enjoys the submissiveness and the cooperation of a broken darling, so… be sure to to protect your mind when your with him.

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thevulernablepreacher · 6 years

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It’s Sunday. I’v been in my new home since 7/23. Im a completely different person than I was 3 months ago. I”m using the last time I attended my public speaking group session as a barometer.

I’m supposed to go back in a couple of weeks and all I can think is that I have traveled around the universe several times since then. I don’t want to go back b/c it feels heavy to me. I feel defensive.

They’re the most loving group of women. I just want them to know though without having to tell them, how different I am; how much stronger I am.

My foot is in an orthopedic shoe boot.. b/c I did something really stupid. My big toe had healed after being fractured and then sprained and now it’s sprained again.

So I have a lump in my throat b/c it hurts and b/c im scared. The thought passed through my mind this morning that I guess by December it will be healed. I hope so. I’m also scared that b/c its the third time in the row I have no idea how long it will take to heal. I sprained it on 8/8, while in the therapy pool for my ankles it’s excruciating to write that, let alone admit it at any point in time. I did it to myself.

I was told that the big toe represents anger. Well, yes I have a fuck load of that. I don’t know really how to release anger.

A friend of mine and I randomly text each other things we hate that are ridiculously humanizing and true and beyond cathartic to text about. Yesterday my texts were: I hate married people, I hate couples. She is hilarious and texted back: I hate married people too. She is married.

She then wrote the exact text that was in my mind: “I hate women with perfectly defined thighs that do nothing to achieve them.”

That’s probably my next #1 thing I want to text about daily.

I was in choir the other night and im 1000% sure that of EVERYONE in choir practice was thinking the same thing in reaction to one of the members. She is small; petite. She has amazingly perfect small petite person, muscular legs. She was wearing very short shorts. The kind of shorts that 10 year old’s wear. I was deeply uncomfortable and self-conscious and jealous in a way that only God would intend so that I could work through something and arrive at some divine place of never feeling the need to compare my flabby, vein ridden, falling to my ankles, thighs, as I do, daily. Those thighs were a gift to me to let go of my nostalgia for my former thighs; the thighs I NEVER appreciated, the thighs I railed against from the age of 15.

When I was 16 (and this is not at all what I intended to write about) my mother walked into the living room of our rented condo in Queche Vermont. I was lying on the couch reading the Memoir of a Geisha. She lay down on the floor and lifted her exposed legs in the air and said, “Look at my thighs. They are falling. You have ...can’t remember what she said, but “your thighs don’t o this.”

I can’t imagine that this insanity needs analysis here. But can you fucking believe that a 50 something year old woman would say this to her 16 year old daughter?

That was my mother in all her tortured glory. That was my role model. I grew up in a house of mirrored walls and walk-in closets. Ugh I don’t want to write about this. it’s too depressing.

So let’s talk about now. I’m sitting her, deeply lonely. I had the BEST job yesterday. I LOVE to work. I love before and after. I love my work.I really do. There is no better feeling than getting paid in the numerous ways my work pays me. #1 I create immense relief of tension for my clients. I bring them joy. I make them laugh. And they feel like they can manage their lives again after we’re done.

Managing life is a mother fucker. I have zero idea how to do it. I do know when I get overwhelmed that this will change. Just trust. I have to remind myself to return to this.

My new home is quite magical. It’s also a giant clusterfuck and needs a ton of work that I have zero idea how to really proceed with. I can hear my upstairs neighbors breathe. I have to re-do windows blinds (fucking expensive). I have to insulate ceiling.OMFG! Thousands.

Decorating is a blast!!! I knew I loved design but had no idea what I could unleash in myself once I owned my own home. It is mind blowing.

I want to buy the whole house, cut off the top two floors, create a stunning eco paradise for myself. I want to blow out the back wall and open my home onto the really cool and beautiful back yard garden; already a small oasis of beauty and magic.

I want to trash the nasty exterior and replace with shingles. I want to create vaulted ceilings that shower my with light. I want to redo bathroom so I can actually sink into a tub. Currently the tub could fit a 5 year old; maybe a small 10 year old. Definitely not a 5′ 8″ (yes, exaggerated for my own well being) adult ( I use that term loosely).

I’m emotional. FUCKING emotional. Every response is emotional, always. I have a 52 years of life experience so I know that about myself.

I know nothing about handy person shit. That makes me crazy. I have all the ability and also the fear. I don’t know how to do this and that and that and that. I want everything done NOW.

My business is building I think..I really think it is. I see writing BIG invoices in my near future and that’s very exciting. I LOVE the idea of managing big projects.

I had to make this move myself to see how well I manage them. I love managing the move process and the setting up an settling in and connecting to all necessary to connect to to get shit done process.

I have one new big client coming up. she actually told me she wanted to give me a retainer and we’d work off of that. That was thrilling. She’s a wonderful human; beautiful; a queen truly. A soulful beautiful human. So it’s a massive gift and joy and honor and I'm really excited about the bigness of it all.

I also have a new level of care for myself and what I do not know. I know it’s okay. I don’t have to pretend I know anything. What I know is that I can figure anything out. I’m deeply resourceful and creative and outside of the box thinking and capable beyond what I ever realized.

Everyone knows this about me. I’m JUST beginning to see it.

My new home is a mix of free (from FaceBook Free page), Craigslist, sleuthing, Etsy, Amazon. It’s sooo much fun.

I ended up with a gorgeous new couch and chair and ottoman and chaise for 1/2 of original price due to delays and my constantly asking for more off..they oblige each time.

Sleuthing and clearance are a blast and deeply fulfilling.

Honestly it’s all a profound profound gift.

My health is better than ever and will continue in this direction. I have my set backs but I really do feel better than I have in 8 years. That’s incredible.

When I have both feet working I will be in complete nirvana. And I will remind myself of that when I get there and am hit with the next something big I have to deal with.

I’m going with the adage that 3 times a charm; im speaking of my toe of course.

The air in Portsmouth yesterday blew my mind. I worry that my skin and my health will fall victim to living where I do and not in some clean air nirvana. But wtf...this is my life.

I dream of owning a small vacation home somewhere..who knows.

I’m deeply lonely and I know I'm never alone. I got to swim in the pool ALONE yesterday!!! It was nirvana an of course made me fantasize about having my own beautiful salt water pool that someone else cared for, while I just enjoyed.

I don’t think that’s my path though. I think the one I'm on is my path..Deeply insightful I know.

Being 52 and single and fickle and Emily is a thing. I know there’s a ton of people out there wishing to God they were single and not with whomever they’re with. I know there’s maybe less people out there that are truly content with whomever it is that they’re with. Im alone.

I’m always alone. It’s a pain in the ass..it’s been like this for years and years and years. It may stay like this. Sometimes I think my life is in reverse. Most old people lament an face and sit with deep loneliness as everyone dies around them. I think maybe I'm just the opposite. Maybe love is coming to me later in life and it will be the most comforting, wonderful gift.

This is what has happened for my mother. This gives me enormous hope. I think my mother; I know my mother felt isolated and alone for over 50 years. We’re quite similar in many ways so I wonder if maybe I'm being shown the bounty that is coming my way in this regard.

I have riches beyond riches now: I have 99% of my limbs working. I live in my own home!!!!!! My neighbors are away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, I'm having a blast decorating. I love my business. I have so many people who love me. I have quiet and light and food and joy and all the emotions of the rainbow. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

I wrote this full genius piece in my head the other day while my ankles were being cared for by my physical therapist. I was in that awesome dream state were everything creative flows. It was gone the second I got off the table.

This doesn’t come close, but it feels like I can breathe again. IT’s been a really long time since I've written. Thank you for this ability, this space, my keyboard, and computer and digits and mind. Thank you.

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