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writersmacchiato · 4 months

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family ties | Gerard Pitts

warning but not really; mentions/alludes to bad home life for reader :(((( but it’s honestly nothing explicitly stated <3 not proof read!!

sidenote: for everyone in the winter season (happy first day of winter btw!!!), I so recommend finding a sunny spot outside and sitting out there with a blanket and a hot drink and soak in the sun.

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Gerard Pitts happens to stumble upon you while you’re sitting on the back steps of the school. A warm blanket draped over you shoulders and protecting you from the chill. The sunlight washes over you in a glow and his heart skips a beat at the beauty you are.

A steaming cup of something rests in your hands, your eyes transfixed on nothing in particular but the cloudless blue sky above you.

Your face is blank, giving nothing away.

Well, to anyone that wasn’t him but he knows you, doesn’t he?

He notices the slump of your shoulders, marring your usual prefect posture. The slight down curve of your lips, the slightest of tension between your brows.

You’re upset and stewing in it.

“Good morning.” He approaches loudly, steps crunching on gravel to announce his presence first.

“Good morning, Pitts.” To your credit, your small smile seems genuine enough so he takes a seat beside you. Arms almost touching, but he doesn’t close the distance. Not yet.

“Lovely morning.” He says, cupping his hands to blow hot air into them. It is very chilly, but the frost covering the ground and trees was beautiful. He could see why you came here often.

You hum in agreement, otherwise motionless from the small sips from your cup.

“How is the family?” He decides to stop beating around the bush.

It’s not a secret, at least to him, that you struggle with the time spent with your family. And that you had a dinner with them yesterday.

You make a noise, somewhere between a laugh and a sigh. “Oh, just the usual dinner and show.”

“And, your sister?”

At the mention of her, you slump against his side, head leaning on his shoulder. Letting out a long groan that makes him laugh.

“The usual, then?” He supplies when you take to silence once more.

He knows that you sit with your thoughts and feelings too much, let them fester within unspoken until it becomes too much. He’s also learning how to slowly creep out the feelings, how to spin the words out. Knows that you trust him in a way you haven’t had before.

“The fucking usual.” You pause, before the words spill out in a sudden rush. “She’s just so… mean! She’s mean all the time! And if I ever try to say anything, she gets mad at me. It’s exhausting being around her because I never know if she will strike out or be nice.”

Pitts moves his arm to wrap around you, in a one sided hug. He’s met your sister and knows how cruel she can be, both intentionally and unintentionally.

“And, then winter break is coming up and I don’t want to be home at all. I hate it there. My parents are already so… them. And my sister is in an extra horrible mood. It will be torture.”

“You know, you’re always welcome to come home with me.” To me.

You allow yourself to indulge the fantasy. Having been to his family’s estate many times before. His mother is very welcoming and kind, his father is somewhat aloof and awkward but in a charming way.

The kitchen would smell like freshly baked cookies, the scent wafting through the house. You could curl up by the fireplace, reading anything you desired from their extensive library.

Traipsing through the woods around the estate, freshly fallen snow making it a winter wonderland. Building snowpeople and and trying to sneak a ball of snow down his coat. Hoping for the coldest temperatures so the pond will freeze frostily for ice-skating, hands numb from cold except where his hands hold yours.

Looking through his wardrobe, selecting his coziest sweaters to wear to bed. Running through the halls in wool socks and seeing who can slide the furthest.

Warm dinners with his family, gathered together. Watching the way the candlelight flickers over his face, sneaking glances and smiling when you catch him doing the same.

Maybe he would kiss you under the mistletoe. Because his family is the type to hang up mistletoe and he would pretend to be oblivious to the fact that he hung up the very plant you now stand under together and you would let him.

“I would like that very much, Gerard Pitts.”

#gerard pitts x reader #dead poets society #dps #dead poets society x reader #dead poets society imagine #dps x reader #dps imagine #gerard pitts #pitts x reader #def wrote this abt my sister bc she’s been getting on my nerve lately with her meaness!!!#halfway through writing this my mom came outside and sat with me and I was like oh hey 🙂🙂#not writing ff rn or anything weird #gerard is my comfort character!!!!!!!!#he’s who I immediately thought of when I got this idea!!!

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oldmemoria · 3 months

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“Draw your comfort characters like this” ok fine here’s the worst road trip ever

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chaoticbuggybitchboy · 5 months

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hc that the reason that Gerry’s hair dye is always so bad is because he has tics and doesn’t have anyone to do his hair for him so he ends up getting dye everywhere except his hair

#tma headcanons #gerry headcanons #gerry delano #gerry keay #gerard delano #gerard keay #gerry Keay headcanons #It’s my comfort character I get to project onto him #Bc if I tried to dye my own hair (especially if it was super long) I would fail miserably #I will be doing Something with this

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pxrenikxart · 2 years

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... again, in honour of the new mychem song here are my party poison fanarts ehehe

#party poison #danger days #my chemical romance #mcr fanart #gerard way #they were my comfort character #enikx art

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unlicensedinvestigator · 1 year

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wip

featuring post and pre divorce arc

#d20 #neverafter #prince gerard of greenleigh #prince gerard #d20 neverafter #gerard #listen ik murph plays a set of archetypal creature or old and grisled characters but #let me have my tumblr sexyman #divorcee #frog prince man #for the record #not that anyone asked but i’m a sucker for romance and i’m really hoping he and elody can fix their relationship #i hope he realizes that he was maybe avoiding the topic of war out of fear and selfishness when he should have been listening to and #providing any necessary counsel to his wife #even if he didn’t want to participate on the battlefield #or he could have done diplomacy #idk #or even tried to comfort her #I hope his ending is happy is all and elody and him deserve everything #wip #idk why i tagged a wip sorry it’s 3 am #ignore the hands it’s 3 am and they’re obviously a work in progress #and when i say a WORK i mean a WORK #why hands gotta be so #yknow #handy

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cochxnasworld · 1 year

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currently obsessed with this man so i made a playlist :)

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nessie665 · 2 years

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yeah so I killed off Gerard in my last phanfic so I have not thought about him in a while but i just listened to you are my own again and now im just having feelings

#i loved writing his relationship with Erika #like all the horrible things he had done to his daughter but how still Erika was so devoted to him #that did not give him a pass from her character tho she had still a very sharp tongue around him but the love was there #and like she could tell Gerard had done her wrong so many times and on purpose totally not thinking in her or her well-being at all #but there was this comfort on being around him so it was easy to stay and pretend it was fine #totally not me mirroring my relationship with my parents *nervous laugh*

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fearcicada · 1 year

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U know......I don't even like jongerry that much LOL I only draw it a lot bc I love Gerry a lot and want to draw him interacting with someone else as a placeholder for me

#i like jon and gerry seperately and the ship is ...ok? its cool #but im immediately reminded I don't actually like it that much when i see content of them together that gets TOOO lovey dovey #like why are you (gerry) acting like that with him 🤨🤨🤨 getting all cozied up and comfortable .....#(insert 'WELCOME HOME CHEATER' image)#jon is the placeholder me because I do actually wanna draw me LOL #i like jon and i like drawin jon so ...#also he is sooo me a bit #this post is incomprehensible a bit because I don't post my art here but i feel like going onto the blog FULL of jongerry art #and being like 'i don't even like this ship that much' is a bit silly LOL im not doing that #words #tma #self insert shippers who make art of them and their partner together are so real but personally i don't wanna draw me #i wanna draw 2 characters i like drawing #me and gerry inteeacting stays in my head and does not come out #gerard keay #Jonathan sims #gerry keay

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bluetodraw · 9 months

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I made up a few character sheets for my OCs over pride

The first one is for my oldest oc, Colin. He really hasn’t changed that much since I made him, at least appearance wise

I tried to match his hand writing while still making it legible. Colin doodles/ scribbles on everything, including his shoes and one of his guitars so I had to include some of that in this too

I’m planing on making him a full sheet soon but I need to finish mapping out where his tattoos will go first since I recently decide he needs more of them

If you’re interested I am doing character sheets commissions like this for $35

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #digital illustration #artwork #digital drawing #commissions #commissions open #original character #ocs #my chemical romance #my chem romance #my chemical gerard #deadpool #comfort character #commissions prices #commissions sheet #muisc

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samarashoot · 6 months

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"I think we were so specific in understanding what characters we were being influenced by that we could go directly to the source. With Jackie O, for example, it was more about understanding her. What is it about her style that Gerard was gravitating towards? [...] While some of the costumes were called costumes, others were more like lifestyle characters. We were bringing something to life that wasn't completely a costume." - Marina Toybina, interviewed for @mcrswarmzine

"Gerard's dress does not look like a costume. They look as natural and comfortable as the original Manson Girls, each seemingly unfazed by the spectacles they have created [...] When he removes the cardigan a few songs into the show, it is incidentally revealed that his armpits are shaved. I feel strange noticing this, even with the assumption that it was a deliberate choice made for this costume. I wonder if this is a way to further a physical embodiment of this character, to connect more fully to the experiences of these women." - excerpt from Female Trouble, my reflection on the Houston show for @mcrswarmzine

#my chemical romance #marina toybina #gerard way #gowns #sorry for talking about your armpits gerard. in my defense i think i was right #.txt #costuming as an excercise in understanding a person..... marina gerard talk to me please

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phandompenny · 7 months

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1990 Phantom Fic Recs

Since the lovely @wheel-of-fish's stream of the 1990 TV production of POTO, I have been unable to stop thinking about Cherik and know there are countless others who likely feel the same.

Perhaps the only thing more tragic than the ending is the fact that there's so few 1990 fics! And among those tagged many of them take some character inspiration but don't really use the unique premise and setup and characters provided in the Y/K miniseries. So I've decided to compile this list of a few of my favourites! Enjoy!

what i would best like to see by queeenciri

A much gentler and happier picnic unmasking, where Christine reacts a little differently! I love the character work in this fic; the thoughts and emotions of the characters feel so real, and it really breaks down their motivations.

Together We Dream by Anonymous

This one is brand new and I'm in love with the prose and writing style of it! An extra conversation between Erik and Christine, one that could fit into canon or be a turning point. Christine reflects on some similarities between them, and it leads to this emotional conversation with angst and joy entwined gorgeously.

How Deep the Bullet Lies by oprhan__account

This is more of a hurt/comfort and whump fic, where Erik survives the ending of the miniseries. It's mainly him processing the events of the show and musing on what comes next, and does have a ending that is pointing towards things improving! Currently listed as chapter 1/? , but it's still worth reading as a fantastic exploration of an intriguing concept.

Sunflowers by CottagecoreCandlelight

Incredibly fluffy E/C, where Christine gifts Erik some sunflowers. Filled with the adorable shyness and sweetness that this couple has, and I'm in love with the visual image of 1990 Erik and his bouquet of sunflowers. They suit him very well!

Understatement by BrendaDaaeDestler

Erik takes Christine on their first date together! Fluff including a candlelit dinner and slow dancing. This is an AU where Gerard is willing to set up such a date, but the main focus is the budding romance between Erik and Christine.

A Magical World by pippa-writes

This is actually a collection of four ficlets! They're mostly canon compliant, and range from Christmas fluff to Christine regretting the picnic unmasking. The first one is even a Phillipe centric look at Christine's grief post canon (unfortunately with the canon ending), which I find quite unique and fascinating.

Rêver by trace-of-rouge

Somewhat tragic and angsty one shot, this is Erik musing on the nature of dreams and his feelings for Christine. It's a very good short character study, and I really enjoy the insight into Erik's thoughts.

The Strange Case of Monsieur Belladova by NPennyworth

If I constantly reread my own story then I'm allowed to put it on my own phic rec list, and I am seriously quite proud of how this one turned out! I wanted to explore a happier AU where Erik gets to just work at the opera house; this is written from the perspective of the opera company as they debate whether to say anything about the mask, but it seems rude to point it out when nobody else has. Mostly humor and fluff, with background E/C.

#phic recs #phantom of the opera #phantom of the opera yeston kopit #poto 1990 #cherik #phic rec list #ive also written a couple more cherik fics and there is more out there #if you are on this rec list and would like your tumblr tagged/ linked or something please let me know!!!#i really hope i can do more rec lists like this! aka i hope there will be more cherik fic that will justify this!#on a more serious note its taken me literal years to do a rec list like this specifically bc its been so hard with madamefaust gone #she introduced me to 1990 and had the best cherik stories and i miss her greatly #but there are many other authors and stories to enjoy in this corner of the phandom #now everybody go forth and leave comments on these wonderful stories #and above all be kind

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rdiowx · 1 year

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Hi im rdiowx, you can call me Ray or radio since rdio is just radio without the “a”.

KINKTOBER 2023!

Im autistic and Mcr is my special interest! I do take requests (however they aren’t open for mcr, Gideon graves or ryan ross rn!) if you have any ideas you want written so dont be afraid to ask!

They/them but he/him is fine too

This is a nblm/mlm blog.

Both my ao3 and Wattpad are: Cndlewax

I write for… (hcs are in white fics are in blue)

GERARD/PARTY POISION

— EDGING BASEMENT GEE (special appearance from bullets! Frank)

— BACKSTAGE WITH FRERARD

—KITTEN GEE

FRANK/FUN GHOUL

—EDGING BASEMENT GEE (special appearance from bullets! Frank)

— PUTTING FRANK IN HIS PLACE.

— FRANKS LOVE HANDLES

— COMFORT W/MIKEY AND FRANK

—BACKSTAGE W/ FRERARD

—TEASING W/ LEATHERMOUTH FRANK

—FRANKENSTEIN FRANK IERO

—PUPPY FRANK

RAY/JETSTAR

—COCKY RAY TORO

— RAY AND A READER THAT HAD A BAD DAY

MIKEY/KOBRA KID

—FUCKING UP YOUR HANDS WHIPLASH STYLE

— COMFORT W/MIKEY AND FRANK

GIDEON GRAVES

nothin yet

RYAN ROSS

nothin yet

PILOT KELSON

nothin yet

DONNIE DARKO

—YANDERE DONNIE HCS

—DONNIE X MENTALLY ILL READER HCS

—HELPING DONNIE WITH DELUSIONS HCS

— DONNIE X SKATER READER!

— DONNIE X MALE! GOTH STONER READER HCS

JIMMY LIVINGSTON

Nothin yet

MCR AUDIO LIST

GIDEON GRAVES AUDIO LIST

MCR + GIDEON GRAVES AUDIO LIST

DONNIE, PILOT AND JIMMY AUDIO LIST

BLOODSUCKER SERIES.

PLAYLIST

PROLOUGE

Kinks im fine with

I will write…

Smut

Fluff

The occasional angst (not a big fan)

Pretty dark fics if i have an idea i really like, ex: kidnapping and yandere themes > I HAVE A BLOG FOR THIS NOW ! :3 : @rdiowxdeaddove

Poly x reader relationship, Ex: frerard x reader, rikey x reader

Kinks that arent illegal and dont gross me out :) rn i have no idea what that entails

I will NOT write

Fem readers

Scat kink

Age gaps that are illegal

Pregnancy fics

Angst without comfort/a good ending (i dont know i just dont like them)

Vore (i feel like that speaks for itself no?)

Definitely not major character death man im a crybaby

Most drugs, HOWEVER marijuana is fine cause i have the most experience with it and cigarettes are also fine cause i grew up around a bunch of cigarette smokers.

Selfharm or suicide, i dont read thoes fics let alone feel comfortable writing them

💧🐕🦇💚🦴🌹🧩🩺🕯️🧟‍♀️👾 ,🦈🎸,🫘👽 🐾 🪰, 💣‼️,…

I don’t write for female readers at all.

#ray toro x reader #mikey way x reader #frank iero x reader #gerard way x reader #mikey way x reader smut #ray toro x reader smut #frank iero x reader smut #gerard way x reader smut #mcr x reader smut #mcr x reader #Pilot kelson x reader #donnie darko x reader #jimmy livingston x reader #bubble boy x reader

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taiturner · 1 year

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“One of the things the show tackled more than the comic was body horror, and I think they did a great job with that. Also a feeling that I have had and I know some of us have had where we aren’t comfortable in your own skin, or you are unhappy with your body or how it will be judged, or finding yourself covering up. But I’ve learned to let go of that over the years, and got more comfortable in my body. I think, with people in Luther’s role, the wish is that you can make everyone happy, but unfortunately the way you feel you can achieve that is if everyone does what you say, and that doesn’t always work out. I think a good leader knows when to listen, and how to inspire, not manipulate. Tom Hopper did an amazing job with Luther, and like the others, added a lot to the character.” — Gerard Way on Luther Hargreeves

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satankilledmyghost · 1 year

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Hello!! Not a request, but wanted to know what are romantic tropes you associate with the weak hero characters??

FUCK. YES. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE. idk if i answered this fully but here are my thoughts.

warnings: swearing

donald na - grumpy x sunshine OR academic rivals to lovers

i could totally see the short, chaotic s/o with donald who's this tall, silent wall of imminent death if you so much as try to insult his s/o or do anything to harm them. i could also see donald and his s/o both be the smart types, constantly trying to one up each other, enjoying the chase and taunts. but his s/o definitely needs some spice because i feel like opposites would totally attract for donald. he lives his life so uptight all the time so his s/o would be carefree.

jake ji - golden retriever boyfriend x chaotic troublemaker s/o

if jake and his s/o are together, they're getting into trouble and jake's bailing them out of it because he loves them too much. jake's too happy to be involved in their antics to get mad at them.

wolf keum - boOK NERD X DELINQUENT. BOOK NERD X DELINQUENT! B O O K N E R D X D E L I N Q U E N T ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

i am SCREAMING with this. i feel like he'd be with someone who likes to talk/ramble a lot(the only person he'd let break the silence). Since wolf prefers to be quiet, he'd find comfort in his s/o's daily ramble about what happened in their book. definitely the protective boyf. there's no way a harasser will live to tomorrow once he hears about it. he likes to tease his s/o a lot. i also have this head cannon where wolf has like super rich parents who are like never home so he's supposed to take care of his younger siblings(twins, brother and sister), but he clearly doesn't so wolf's parents hired the s/o to babysit and that's how he met them.

forrest lee - best friends to lovers/utterly in love x extremely dense s/o

forrest has been agonizingly WAITING for them to finally realize his affection for them. it's been YEARS. he's had to sit through hundreds of rants about shitty boyfriend after shitty boyfriend, fighting the urge to scream at how much better he could treat them if they would just open. their. damn. eyes.

jimmy bae - enemies to lovers

personally, i can't stand this trope, but it fits so well for jimmy with his quick rise to temper and insufferable ego. s/o would be a friend of jack's or partnered up with jimmy for a project. immediately they just don't get along, like oil and water. a landslide of tension and hatred later, the s/o starts to look forward to arguing with jimmy and immediately starts to avoid him. jimmy gets upset and it's one of those arguments that goes along the lines of: "why do you care so much?!" "because i like you!"

big ben - golden retriever boyfriend x black cat s/o

he met his s/o at the arcade or pool place because they worked there and ben tried to shamelessly flirt with them. it was so bad they found it charming somehow and they got together.

alex go - brother's best friend

with how much time alex spent at ben's house, it gave ben's sibling long enough to develop a puppy crush when they were younger that never really left them as they started high school. alex doesn't sneak behind ben's back, though, and will let him know with or without his s/o. late night dates at the park on the swings.

gerard jin - shy x shy strangers to lovers in a coffee shop.

i'm not accepting anything else. enough has been said. just imagine gerard in that long coat with a scarf and it's snowing on their first date- asdbdhfjjlfjf

teddy jin - chill boyfriend x fiesty s/o

his s/o is always ready to throw hands. so much so that teddy has to hold them back and keep an eye on them at all times.

rowan im - pen pals/long distance

i don't even know if this is a trope but i'm going with it. rowan lived in Australia for a short while so it would make sense that he would meet his s/o there, and then when rowan moved back, letters were the best way of communication since the time difference was a pain in the ass to manage all the time. i could also see him as a letter with photos/postcard guy.

gray yeon - tutor x tutee

the s/o was struggling, to say the least, so the teacher linked them up with gray and he found charm in the way they focused and tried their absolute hardest every session. gray would purposely add extra work so he can see them longer.

eugene gale - childhood friends to lovers

i have nothing to say about this. we all knew it was coming. it just makes sense. like eugene's mom and grandma already see them as a couple and constantly tease eugene about it, so why wouldn't it happen? bets were totally made on whether or not eugene would be able to confess to his s/o.

#weak hero x reader #weak hero webtoon #weak hero

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wildissylupus · 4 months

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heyhey!! i love your page so much and your analyses of characters.... when you posted cassidy and mysteriousness and how he would only share the most with mina, it could be interesting to expand on that with echo being the closest person and personality to her as a result. it could be a grief amplifier but also it could close up cassidy even more and make him so much more reluctant to share anything real at all,, i've been thinking about this all day!! this is why i love your thoughts!!

Oh trust me I think about this a lot.

The way Declassified described Mina and Cassidy's realationship reminded me so much of something that was mentioned in Deadlock Rebels. That being that Cassidy had walls up, a line that not even Ashe could cross. Those walls being his mask, his persona, something that not a lot of people could see past, let alone break though, but Mina is described as seeing through it instantly, and even breaking through it. She did something that no one else, not even Ashe could do, she saw who Cassidy was without the persona, without the mask. She's the one person we see that Cassidy probably fully opened up to, and the way she died probably altered Cassidy permanently. He was just outside the building when the explosion happened, he raced to where Mina was and was the only person with her in her final moments. That would change anyone, and we see that it changed Cassidy, making him more hostile in the beginning but then he just began building those walls again, stronger this time. Hiding behind the mask even more so he wouldn't be hurt like that again.

One of my biggest HC's is that Cassidy and Echo have a father-daughter relationship, as some of Echo's personality wouldn't have come from Mina, but would have definitely come from Cole. Such as her outwardly sassing people like Ramattra, that and the way she teases people along with how she empathises with people and comforts them. We also know from her short story that the first people Echo could copy were Mina, Cassidy and Jack, Mina and Cassidy being the people she was around the most. That doesn't detract from the fact that Echo is still very similar to Mina, having similar behaviours and mannerisms.

Considering how we see Cassidy interact with Echo, it's very obvious that he isn't as open to her as he was with Mina. To me, Cassidy isn't the type of person to treat Echo as just a copy of Liao, she's her own person. However considering his history with her and Liao, it would be hard for him to not see the similarities. Also I would like to point out that the way that Echo and Cassidy talk about Liao feels like child asking an alive parent what their deceased parent would have thought of them.

Something else I would like to add is that Cassidy was so focused on revenge he wasn't able to attend Mina's funeral. Which probably adds another layer of grief on an already steaming sess pool of shit, because on top of all of that, Gerard gets injured and Reyes shoots a guy out of a window, basically signing Overwatch's death warrant. Then right after that the Zurich explosion happens and Cassidy looses his arm, his family, his home, and what fragile stability he had from being an Overwatch agent. During this time, Echo is also put in quarantine.

He probably feels like he failed Echo, that he failed Mina. It probably being part of the reason why he sounds so hostile about Jack "chasing ghosts", he knows what revenge can do to a person, how it can affect the people around them.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, Cassidy's story is so much more complex and tragic if you stop and really think about it.

(btw, writing this reminded me that shortly after this, he would have had to watch as Genji and Lena were critically injured while fighting Doomfist.)

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #overwatch lore #overwatch headcanons #analysis #cole cassidy #cassidy overwatch #overwatch cassidy #cassidy ow #ow cassidy #mina liao #liao #dr liao #echo overwatch #echo #ow echo #echo ow #overwatch echo

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envihellbender · 6 days

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Buried avatar Gerry

Rating: General Audience

Fandom: The Magnus Archives

Characters: Gerard Keay, Michael Shelley

Content: buried alive, rodents, abuse reference

Summary: Buried!Gerard goes the Magnus Institute to give his statement, but he’ll only talk to Michael.

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[WE ARE GREETED BY THE CLICK OF A TAPE RECORDER]

MICHAEL

Statement of Gerard Keay regarding his experience with Hezekiah Wakeley. Recording by researcher Michael Shelley. Statement Begins. [A PAUSE.] So, in your own time, Gerard. Whenever your ready.

GERARD

Oh erm. Okay. So. Yeah. This one isn’t really about mum like the others but I guess that’s the easiest way to explain it, you know? I’ve already told you about the tattoos and mum’s experiments, so next step is how I escaped it. It was her own fault really, she introduced me to my home. I just curled up in the Mother Earth’s arms and never let go. So she messed up, really. Anyway. I was supposed to be getting my buried tattoo, and just like the others it was supposed to be torture… but it didn’t work? Like, okay, so back then I didn’t have mud everywhere and didn’t have the rodent thing.

[THERE IS AN INDIGNANT SQUEAK FOLLOWED BY THE NOISE OF SHUFFLING.]

[GERARD WHISPERS INTO HIS COAT] Hey, y’alright, mate? [HIS VOICE IS LOUDER AS HE TURNS BACK TO MICHAEL.] Sorry, is it alright if Corpsegrinder has a wander around? He’s getting fussy.

MICHAEL

[A SMALL GASP OF SURPRISE, HIS VOICE IS NERVOUS.] Oh! I- yes, of course. By all means. Oh, he’s cute. My boss might not be quite so amenable if he gets out though.

GERARD

It’s alright, he won’t go far. Anyway, where was I? Oh, right. So, mum originally did the usual sort of thing. This time she drugged me whilst I slept and had me moved into a coffin. So I woke up, and… it was nice. It was comforting. I was surrounded by all sides and held tight. It was like I was a kid again, swaddled against mum’s chest in a way I can’t imagine mum ever actually doing. It was pure black, my eyes could rest for the first time. The only thing that would’ve improved it was music, otherwise it just seemed like… Comfortable. Pure. Not remotely terrifying. And maybe that was a sign that the thing already had started to grow inside me. Which is definitely possible because I used to climb into the empty graves at the cemetery down the road when I was a kid, I’d be like, 13, and sneak out after lights out and go to just lay in the soft warm earth. I had my cheap MP3 player playing some music and I was completely safe. I fell asleep there sometimes. I was at peace. It was like that but I wasn’t rudely awakened at six by the gravedigger.

But no, right, so I always liked coffins, being wrapped up in small spaces but I figured I was just a goth or something. I used to get my duvet, my teddies, and curl up under my bed with a book, like one of them Artemis Fowl or Animorphs or something like that. So when mum had me locked into a coffin I just curled up happily and fell back to sleep. Didn’t even realise I was locked in. Mum got mad. She had to go further. So next she started dropping dirt on the coffin to make me feel like I was being buried alive, nothing. The only thing that sort of started to work was when she pinned me to the floor, sat on my chest so I could barely breath. She brought Hezekiah round, that was her big mistake I guess? Because he didn’t really scare me. Didn’t want to either. The opposite really. He was- so he told mum he needed privacy to terrify me properly, instead he edged forward, brushed my hair out of my eyes and talked to me for a little while. He put one hand on my shoulder, he told me that he’d be waiting for me by Saint Columba’s Church if I wanted. When he left he told my mum he could help her. I think she thought that meant he’d do what all the others did. But she couldn’t have been more wrong.

So I snuck out that night to the Church, it was a Catholic one I’d not seen before. I saw Wakeley stood by the doors, he had two rodents on one shoulder curled up together looking at me with tiny beady little eyes. And honestly? That night showed me how fucking liberating fear was. Mum only ever turned me into a shaking crying mess but Hezekiah showed me true actual terror and it was … I don’t know. Pure. Without ill intent. He saw how happy I was curled up in the coffin, he whispered to me about how he’d never let Mum hurt me again. He even let me listen to my MP3 player and hold a teddy close to my chest. I was surrounded by darkness and music. I felt every pound of earth that was piled on top of me. I stayed there in absolute bliss for I don’t know how long, all I know is when Hezekiah dug me back up again the cold early signs of Spring had turned to warm sunlight and flowers blooming over the old cemetery. Hezekiah was so happy. Mate, you have no idea. That weird guy had a smile from ear to ear and he fucking hugged me. I knew then what the Earth wanted. I knew my Mum wasn’t really my Mum, you know? She was… Something else. Someone who was trying to drag me from my real purpose. You know?

I did end up going back home, Mum was furious but she saw something different in me then. Saw I was protected. So the experiments on me stopped. That was when she started forcing me to hurt others. Like. Her. But. A lot of the time I refused. Only took those to the earth that I knew deserved it. It’s a privilege not a punishment. Mum’s ideas weren’t pure, not at all. [THERE IS A SMALL CLATTERING] Hey, Corpsegrinder, what’ve you got- Oh. Erm, mate, he says you dropped this?

MICHAEL

[HE IS NERVOUS, DELIGHTED, AND SURPRISED.] Oh! Yes! Thank you! Thank you erm… Corpsegrinder? Erm. And you, Gerard. Erm, so I guess we’ll leave that one there? Statement ends.

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