#genuinely i am in awe of the effort here tho
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Aaravos x reader Hcs
here r some aaravos hcs bc i am in pain i wrote this with killer cramps while running on 4 hrs of sleep and an energy bar so i cant promise this will be good.
🥀CW: fluffiness, teasing, smut, thigh riding, subby aaravos, oral (reader receiving), hair pulling?, wax play, overall filth
🥀minors dni with nsfw part
SFW:
after being trapped in the mirror for so long, aaravos is severely touch starved
whether u two are in a romantic or platonic relationship, your personal space is his personal space as well (unless u tell him to leave you alone, but even then he'll still probably tease)
He is the type to just walk up to you and rest his arm on your head
he is TALL
if you are short (like me) and you ever need to reach something up high, this man practically materializes behind you to grab it for you he will hold it above his head and giggle while you struggle but will eventually give it to you
i feel like hes the type of person to enjoy slow and "elegant" music he would love my way by frank sinatra you can not tell me im wrong bc im not
aaravos will pull you into a slow waltz at random times
he enjoys the arts, and i feel like he would enjoy painting and doing sketches of you
he LOVES it if you play with his hair, just run your hands through it and he will literally melt
if you can do pretty hairstyles or braids he will be very content in relaxing while you do his hair
aaravos definitely enjoys reading, and would totally read to you if you asked (he would tease u a little tho but thats ok)
"do you really enjoy my voice that much, little star?"
he has the most stunning laugh
normally he just lets out small chuckles or smirks but the first time you make him genuinely laugh you just sit there in awe
he is ✨fabulous✨and takes forever to get ready
the type to arrive fashionably late (he will make an effort to arrive on time for dates tho)
hes a total drama queen and will make a huge deal about kissing you
he acts all confident but in reality is ridiculously nervous when he first met you
you were the first person to truly capture his heart and he doesn't want to fuck it up
he knows he isnt the most easy person (elf??) to love but will make an effort to be better for you
he prefers to listen in conversation rather then talk alot, however if you ask him about something hes interested in or ask him a magic question or something he will gladly talk for hours
enjoys holding your hand, you two are practically linked at the waist
he worries more then he lets on and will enchant little objects and give them to you for protection when he isnt't around
NSFW
whether you are with him before or after his imprisonment, he is EXPERIENCED
he likes positions where he can be close to you such as missionary, but also likes you on top of him/riding him
SWITCH‼️
if you pull his hair or his horns he will immediately submit
he likes to use his size to his advantage and pin you down
really into biting and marking, esp after his imprisonment, he wants everyone to know your his
whether your human or an elf, he will overstimulate you
he can go for hours
i feel like he would prefer giving to receiving, he will eat you out or suck you off for HOURS until you are whimpering for him to slow down
if you have boobs, he will mark them and play with them there is no question
RIDE‼️‼️HIS‼️‼️‼️FACE‼️‼️‼️‼️
he is 1000% into wax play he can make his hands really hot or cold and the sight of u with wax slowly dripping down your chest makes him feral
wouldnt mind if you did the same to him 👀
i feel like he would be super into it if you rode his thigh, he would be mocking you the whole time but it would turn him on sm
"you couldn't wait at all, hmm? is your pretty little cunt/cock really so needy that you had to be this impatient? acting like a bitch in heat, covering my thigh with your slick. your going to have to clean up your mess dear~"
he gets pissed if he asks you a question and you dont respond
super into eye contact during sex, he thinks its very intimate and attractive
your pleasure ALWAYS comes first with him, he will make you come at least twice before coming on his own
i dont think he would be super into causing you a lot of pain, like i dont think he would want to hurt you alot but will pinch and occasionally slap if your into that
super into being in pain for himself though
edge him until hes sobbing, then overstim him until his thighs are shaking
GLORIOUS THIGH GAME BTW
cover them in marks, he will admire them later
overall a very attentive and sensual lover, but definitely has a dirty side<3
can you tell i have an obsession? lmao. i tried to make this super gender neutral, lmk if there are any mistakes! reqs are open, im considering getting into writing some more
#aaravos x reader#aaravos smut#tdp#tdp s5#the loml#smut#aaravos fluff#aaravos headcanons#i love him#i went off ngl#hes just my scrunkly little baby hes done no wrong!!!#maybe this will become a writing blog...#aaravos hcs#the dragon prince
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*slams hands on desk* tes oc time??
top five weirdest things elanor has done, go.
Sorry for the wait with this! And thank you so much for a question! She is my horrible, but special meow-meow, so I am always happy to talk about Elanor!
So, a lot of her concept actually grew from the idea going kind of like "there is a lot of really weird stuff in Skyrim (the game), that we just gloss over, because it is a game from Bethesda, but what if there will be a character, that is just like that?". And so a lot of it does contribute to Elanor's weirdness. But I am getting off topic.
In no particular order and, probably, not being quite that weird most of the time, but some of the things Elanor did that are... unorthodox.
While dealing with Potema being brought back from the dead Elanor did, without that much effort, cut down necromancers, vampires, skeletons and whatnot, eventually reaching the spirit of the Wolf Queen herself.
To rather gleefully slap together a ritual to bind remnants of Potema's soul to some skull laying nearby. I am not even sure if it would be Potema's skull. Then proceeded to gift the chatty and constantly spewing curses skull to Elisif after Elenwen calmly, but sternly demanded it be removed from the Embassy's vestibule.
Elanor's rare "moral Ws" she sometimes achieves by either taking a liking to a particular person (having the energy of a stray dog or beloved babushka helps) and therefore having an insatiable urge to deal with the favorite mortal's problem in the most ruthlessly straightforward way possible.
Or by finding someone genuinely abhorrent / annoying / distasteful / plainly speaking awful and doing a public service by disposing of said person. However, being from the 4E Thalmor her plank for "eh, that's ok" is incredibly low.
That fact that she licked the Eye of Magnus is not that weird, to be fair. Forbidden orbs do that to mages. That fact that she got her tongue unstuck from it, applied some restoration to the bleeding and freezing and five minutes later did it again is a bit concerning tho.
Actually enrolled into College for shits and giggles. And is technically a honorary member of the Dark Brotherhood.
She eventually devours the world, ascending to become Alduin properly. Still retains a huge portion of her personality following this, so Alduin 2.0 comes in an altmer-shaped package and with horrible no good vibes.
Her very first act after finally tasting what being truly divine feels like is to go and stab Talos, naturally. Old habits never die, of course, but she also got a very personal beef here.
Dis-honorable mentions:
Does Namira's quest properly. Enjoyed the little snack at the end. Not the weirdest thing she had put in her mouth, to be honest.
Once the Bromjunaar was rebuilt have ordered to make a hall there specifically to keep butterflies inside. No deep reasoning behind it, she just likes butterflies.
Asked her "mother" for advice on how to set the mood for a romantic situation with a guy she likes. Sheba having zero clues on the matter suggested a lightning bolt. Elanor shrugged and did just so.
Runs a network of animal shelters on her salary and various monetary findings. Just. Genuinely loves animals.
#tes#the elder scrolls#skyrim#skyrim ldb#last dragonborn#altmer#thalmor#emissary elanor (shitty at her job)#thank you so much for an ask!#;u;#crysandthings
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moment of realization…an epiphany, if u will: i am so afraid of ego, all the i, i, i’s in my writing and in my headspace make me nauseous because I’ve been convinced that to forget one’s self is an act of humility. But to constantly be thinking about how to forget myself only leads to me thinking about myself more often, which I then punish myself for. It’s an awful cycle.
At the same time, I’ve detested the idea of myself and thinking of myself for so long that everything I know about who I am and how the world perceives is entirely distorted. The distortion is occasionally revealed to me when I reflect on the fact that I have such genuinely beautiful and amazing friends that also truly love me, which I don’t think is entirely coincidence (though I feel lucky and dumbfounded by it all the time)!! I mean to say that in the corner of my heart there is a bit of me that hopes I am half as good as the people I surround myself with. There was also a moment this past week wherein I met with a counselor about some school stuff and saw firsthand that I’m not entirely as disorganized and disheveled as I always think myself to be. I know it’s a small thing but having sticky notes to offer my counselor because they didn’t have any on them made me feel so helpful and handy. They commended me on my grades for the semester, which burst another bubble for me. It’s weird to know that all of these things don’t just happen to me by coincidence. I work hard for them and I put soooo much effort into everything I do, only for me to brush it off as mere luck. I think I try to avoid ego so much that i often forget to recognize my efforts and work. I would benefit from giving myself a tiny pat on the back and offering myself a sliver of kindness. Being mean to myself felt like a necessary penance just for being alive but all it’s done is make me angry and frustrated with myself. The thing is I think many of us are raised to think that being hard on ourselves and choosing to ignore our efforts is dignified and honorable but all it does is make it so that we lose touch with our selves in relation to our work. I’m glad to be able to recognize where I fall short in things while at the same time slowly recognizing what I’m good at and not being ashamed to embrace these aspects of who I am. Like…maybe I am organized and I can get work done but I have a hard time applying myself and believing in myself, which leads to laziness. So…tldr I guess I have a good idea on what to focus on in the next year. I’m not good at going to sleep on time or waking up early, tho so idk about that as a resolution lol but maybe 🙇🏻♀️ it feels good to get things off my chest, I wish it was as easy and quick to write all this in my journal but instead I’m writing it out all here hehe 💌
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HEY THERE MJ!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Hellooo!! Oke so-
MJ, you are honestly the most kind, compassionate, and supportive friend I've ever had. Your angelic personality radiates so much goodness and love.
You are hardworking and dedicated! The number of treats you handed out during trick-or-treating was simply amazing! Your generosity is truly admirable. You are also very nurturing - whenever one of your friends is sick or feeling down, you never hesitate to comfort them. You always manage to put a smile on their face with a funny comment or a little doodle to cheer them up.
You are so amazing, I can't believe how lucky I am to have a friend like you. A friend who will be with you no matter what. You inspire me so much! Seeing you draw your BlueraspberryMelon art doodles makes me want be cringe and draw my selfshipping content (can't find any cool attractive characters atm tho TnT).
"You are so cool! I always look forward to interacting with you. Seeing your name in my notifications makes me so happy. Just knowing that you, MJ, are my best friend and that you know and care about me, it makes me feel giddy and loved."
MJ, I want to express my deep gratitude to you for being my best friend, and for your unwavering support and care. You are a beacon of hope and an inspiration to me. I feel incredibly blessed to have you in my life. Your friendship is a source of strength and joy to me every day. Thank you for being the amazing person that you are. I also apologise for all the times I have ever made you feel uncomfortable., please forgive me.
I love you❤❤❤
here's a lil sumthin i made
I LOVE YOU HUNNY!!🥺🤗❤❤
(im not the best at thank you letters so sorry if it doesn't come off as genuine, im rlly trying)
Merry Christmas from your pookie Evelyn
Evelyn…I-…..hold on lemme have a moment-…
*sobs uncontrollably*
this is the most sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me…Evelyn just- thank you…you have no idea how much, you yourself make my day so much better with your kind words…
The effort and the amount care you put into them- it for real makes my heart flutter😭
I am just as lucky and blessed to have you as my best friend🥺 you have a kind beautiful heart and soul, it is a joy interacting with you! Your fun loving personality always puts me in awe and I admire that🥹 you yourself have inspired me and many others
I am not the best on how to respond to such kind words, but just know that I am really thankful for them and that I deeply cherish and care for you so much Eve💙
I love you hun and may you have a wonderful Christmas full of blessings and happiness.💖
#THANK YOU AIMT EVEN ENOUGH#WTH EVE!???#YOU GOT ME BAWLING MY DAMN EYES OUT#JESUS CHRIST-#*kithes forehead*#you are such a darling Eve💞#also thank you so much for the gift🥺#look at the comforting hug😭💖💖💖#I love it so much💜#I JUST WANNA JUMP THROUGH THE SCREEN AND HUG YOU TIGHTLY#AND YOU NEVER EVER#HAVE ONCE MADE UNCOMFORTABLE!#I can’t believe you would think that and apologize for it when you haven’t been nothing but kind to me!😤#pinching your cheek right now for thinking like that😔#I LOVE YOU!😫💕#Evelyn at it again#being one of the most sweetest peaches#and making me cry my heart out-🤧
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i need something to do so i dug this back up
1. Are you an albums person or a singles person? albums
2. Do you still buy CDs (or other physical media)? yes, i collect vinyls and my cd collection is slowly growing
3. Do you listen to more oldies or more current stuff? a pretty even mix of both
4. Is there a song you love but don’t like its music video? nothing coming to mind rn
5. Is there a song you don’t like but like its music video? hmm nothing comes to mind
6. Who’s an artist you really like but it’s embarrassed to admit it? shwayze.
7. Would you wear a t-shirt of a band you’re not into? no unless it's a gift
8. Is there an artist or song that you like, despite being of a genre you don’t usually like? I genuinely like all genres
9. Do you have a favorite band? it's so hard to pick one oh god. elf power and khruangbin are the top bands on my last.fm tho
10. Favorite solo artist? raveena or porter robinson
11. Favorite songwriter? orville peck
12. Who’s the most obscure artist you listen to? jeez idk i listen to some deep cuts, the most obscure on my first page of lastfm is probably mi-gu
13. Who’s the most popular/mainstream artist you listen to? queen
14. A song or album from the 50s or earlier:
folsom prison blues by Johnny cash
15. A song or album from the 60s:
i have known love by silver apples
16. A song or album from the 70s:
hosono house by haruomi hosono
17. A song or album from the 80s:
quiet lies by juice newton
18. A song or album from the 90s:
take off and landing by yoshinori sunahara
19. A song or album from the 2000s:
im wide awake it's morning - bright eyes
20. A song or album from the 2010s:
worlds - porter robinson
21. A song or album from this year or last year:
ashas awakening - raveena
22. What’s your favorite song or album from the year you where born?
peace and tranquility to earth by roudoudou
23. Do you and your partner/best friend share a special song? One you’d call “our song”?
...parker i don't even know how to answer this
24. Do you play any instruments?
yes but i don't practice enough :)
25. Is there a song you used to like but can’t listen to anymore because you associate it with someone you don’t like?
yup but i must reclaim them :D
26. Have you ever pretended to like an artist/song just to fit in or please somebody?
no my more fatal flaw is pretending NOT to like artists that I actually do. but if I don't know or like someone's music I'll own up to that vs looking like a doofus
27. Do you enjoy making playlists? If so, are there any you’re proud of and would like to share?
i make tons of playlists but usually don't put much effort into them lol, here's my current autumn jams playlist https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0xqDk8l6Hp3Es85sYrSCP0?si=bHJn31pwTsKSyLL95by4Xw&utm_source=copy-link
28. Have you ever made/got a mixtape as gift to/from a friend?
sharing music is one of my biggest love languages i am always sending ppl music & love getting music in return
29. Songs you love to dance to:
just play me disco
30. Songs you love to sing along to:
just play me queen or country
31. Who’s your favorite fictional band or artist?
vic fontaine
32. When was the last time you cried when listening to a song, if ever?
i don't remember
33. Your favorite artist from your city/state/country?
i hate to say it but my fav artist from Milwaukee is the violent femmes i know they're awful but i love when their guitars go wham y'know.
34. Your favorite song in your native language (if it isn’t English) OR in your second language (if English is your first):
ゆらゆらby yeye
35. A song you like in a language you don’t speak:
mesafeler by erkin koray
36. A song you like with lyrics in two or more languages:
REEEPLAY by dj hasebe and m-flo and crystal kay
37. If you could travel in time and go to a concert of an artist who’s no longer alive or a band that’s no longer together, who would you choose?
FREDDIE MERCURY AGH
38. Which was the first concert you went to?
i don't know what the first was i think it was Hannah montana
39. Which was the last concert you went to?
iron and wine with calexico
40. Which was the best concert you’ve ever been to?
this is way too hard to answer
41. Have you ever been to a music festival? If not, would you like to go?
yes!
42. Your favorite(s) “no skips” album(s):
both albums by porter robinson, both albums by raveena, Ilana by mdou moctar
43. Do you enjoy musicals? If so, what’s your favorite?
eh. i like les mis
44. Have you watched any musician’s biopics? Do you have a favorite?
45. A non-musical movie or show with a soundtrack you love:
i still listen to the shape of water soundtrack all the time <3
46. Do you like comedy songs? If so, do you have a favorite?
stupid sam
47. Is there an artist you used to dislike but learned to like because of a friend’s influence?
i didn't dislike him but i don't know that i would have gotten into Orville peck without friends
48. Who’s an artist you think it’s criminally underrated and deserves more recognition?
DANIEL DONATO
49. Is there a cover you like more than the original version?
yeah certainly. I don't feel like thinking Abt it rn tho
50. Is there an artist you used to love as a child/teenager but now is embarrassed to have ever liked?
fall out boy...
51. Is there an artist you used to love as a child/teenager and still likes, even if you don’t listen to them as much?
my chemical romance
52. Do you make playlists to be listened to in a specific order or in shuffle? Or both?
usually to shuffle
53. Is there a song you hated the first time you listened to but then loved after listening to it more times?
nothing comes to mind
54. An album you loved since the first time you listened to:
WITCH by WITCH
55. An album you learned to love after listening to it again and again:
American IV
56. A song/album/artist you wish you could forget so you could have the experience of hearing it for the first time again:
porter robinson nurture
59. Do you listen to music when it’s raining or do you stop to hear the sound of the rain?
i listen to quiet music so I can hear both
62. Artists/bands you think have an impeccable discography, with no bad albums:
a lot have tiny discographies which feels like cheating, but some who I like their full (larger) discography: khruangbin, queen, elf power, towa tei
63. Do you prefer live recordings or studio recordings?
hmm. studio most of the time, but some psychedelic and country sounds so so soooo good live
65. Are there any songs you know the entire lyrics by heart?
im autistic of course i do
66. Share your favorite playlists that you or someone else has made!
im lazy
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Hello, I am here to excitedly rave about Only You Darling and shower you in well-deserved compliments. Anybody else reading this, stop if you haven't read Only You Darling as there will be SPOILERS.
First of all, your writing is brilliant, I wish I could come up with plots like you do. I have so many fics that I start writing and then I don't know how to get from A to B or what should happen next and just give up.
I have read Only You Darling (and also What The Body Wants, the whole concept of that fic >>>) twice now, and I'm sure I'll read it again in the future. My first read was a wild ride, I was so invested, I thought what if it's Yeonjun and Beomgyu but nah, then I when Soobin came into the picture I was sure it was Soobin and then it was Beomjun! Every time I thought i had it figured out, you had me doubting myself. I loved all the twists and turns and the way I was so stressed after everything went down and the reader was living in that house, the imagery that you created was amazing. I have to say that it's the best fic I've read on this site. Hands down. I don't think I've read such a well planned and fleshed out fic in maybe a decade (not to show my age haha), after I was done reading I felt as if I'd just watched a movie. I don't even get through thriller novels, I always get bored with the pacing or the writing, but you had me in the palm of your hand.
I'm sure I have more thoughts, but right now they're just a blurred mess of excitement and awe. Thank you for sharing your work and making me excited about reading fics again. I am slowly making my way through the rest of your stuff, I'm sure I will be back to word-vomit on you about other stories in the future!
HAIIIIII HIHIHI OMG IM SOOOO SORRY I TOOK LITERAL MONTHS TO ANSWER THIS 😭😭😭🙁 i saw it and wanted to make sure that i had time to answer all your points but then i KEPT FORGETTING ABOUT IT 😭😭 but please know that i really appreciate feedback like 🫶🫶🫶 getting a review on oyd always makes me so happy and you really delivered with this
full response under the cut :]
AHHHHSJDBSKDB BUT THANK U OMG 💔💔 when i first started writing on here i’d neverrrr thought i’d be writing long fics so consistently… even 10k was a huge rare accomplishment to me akzbwkdjs,,, it takes time to really figure out what works and what doesn’t with writing methods but… i wish you the best of luck with all your wips and i’m sure you’ll be able to have a breakthrough someday with any you might be struggling on !!! i believe in you !!!
YOU’VE READ OYD TWICE. Oh… my heart T_T idk but like,, i’ve never really been able to grasp the concept that people actually.. reread my stories. That’s genuinely one of the most flattering things to hear in my opinion bc 😭😭 to hear that i’ve managed to write a fic that’s worth being read again is mind blowing to me algskldgh (also thank you !!! WTBW is forever near and dear to my heart <3)
It’s always so satisfying to hear that my attempts on tricking the readers were successful hehe :3 it was one of the major things i was worried about tbh,,, it took a lot of thinking on how i would introduce soobin’s character and how he would be involved, so im happy to hear that my work paid off ! and imagery was something that i learned was very important while writing oyd; it really makes or breaks a scene, imo. Especially in those final cabin scenes,,, AGH idk im so giddy to have it pointed out tho bc i do put a little extra love and effort into my imagery :3
AWWWWSLDKGHH UGH YOU’RE JUST. im gonna sob. The best fic.. dont say that to me im crazy 😭😭 but aggggh it makes me feel so appreciated and seen to read that you think it’s well planned like :(( i remember how much effort i put into that fic omg… that story is my baby im afraid
Again, thank you so much for taking the time to write such a sweet review, and im sorry i couldn’t respond to it sooner 😭 comments like these are sooo motivating and validating, i seriously can’t explain how happy it makes me <333
#this is the slowest ask responder i know#they get down#they dont play#fic: only you darling#rambles#koqabear asks
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Hi, love.
So yeah, i needed to collect myself, hindi na ako umiiyak as i am writing this (but i probably will cry at the end or maybe even in the middle of writing of this letter! hehe) Nag relax muna ako from my last message sayo, doing nothing, because I needed to calm myself even more, kasi I wanted to write this letter, na yun nga, kalmado, that way, mas sure ako sa mga sasabihin ko, and sa magiging decisions ko.
Iya, you were totally different. First off, I never thought that I would ever allow someone like you to enter my life and just play with it, but I took the risk. Although it was my first time with you, I risked all the judgments and whatnots because I thought I should love you, that I should introduce to you how it feels to be genuinely loved. We had all sorts of love: blissful, encouraging, sorrowful, transitioning to all sorts of remorse, and you would also declare regret if only I knew. However, I firmly believe that everything was meant to happen, that he was meant to leave this place because you were on your path to come to me, in my life.
When I received that message from you saying that we need to talk, I was a nervous mess. The fact that you took long to respond to my replies made me even feel awful. But to tell you honestly, I was overjoyed that you still talked to me. I couldn't believe that you talked to me, even tho i know what will happen already.
But you know what? I fucking told myself, "If it's not you, it's not anyone else." I'm done with everything. Done with everyone. If I don't end up with you, I'd rather not end up with anyone. I'm finished with getting hurt over and over again. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me right now, it's never going to be your fault and I will never complain about this. Una palang, when you told me about it, I knew about these types of consequences. I accepted that kasi I know I can love you despite these circumstances. I know how to stand my ground and I will fucking stand for you. I will love you throughout.
You own a very big part of me that no one could ever replace you in my life, kaya sobrang thankful ako na dumating ka sa buhay ko. Sa mahigit isang taon na andyan ka as Axley kahit hindi tayo nagkikita, ikaw yung naging kakampi at sandalan ko sa lahat ng bagay, ikaw ang naging pahinga ko, inspiration at motivation ko sa buhay. Thank you. I will always be thankful to God because I had you in my life. Always remember that I miss you very much, I love you and I will miss you more each day. Mamimiss ko lahat lahat ng masasayang pinagsamahan natin, mga kulitan, asaran, gustong puntahan, mga nalampasan at napagdaanan, mga pangarap and plans.
I'm happy for you and I'm very proud of you, parati ka parin sa mga dasal ko. I want to make you happy. Always remember, I am always here for you no matter what. Ako ang kakampi mo sa lahat. And though what we had might be just a short term fling for you, it left a deep wound in my heart. A wound that sadly I needed to mend everyday. It’s something I have to grieve inside and cry in silence. But more than the pain, you taught me and made me realize a lot of things about myself.
I hope you’re well. That you are healthy. That you are always safe. I hope you take care of yourself. I hope you do well in school and everything that you put effort into. You have always been so intelligent and you’ve made me proud, mahal. I hope you use the care aide, and become successful and happy. You are my first love, you showed me that the first love I felt was real. You were the jolliest of all. You were the one who made me realize that I don’t want to rush things. You were patient. You were kind. You make me smile and laugh when everything’s so dark and gloomy. You were the person who would risk it all for me.
May this be the last message I write about you. Take care of yourself always. Continue achieving your dreams in life. I’m sad to think that I won’t be there when you become an Psychologist (?) but know that I’ll always be one of them cheering for you silently. You were one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. You’ve made me step out of my comfort zone and made me love you from thousands of miles away but now that has to stop. If we ever meet again, I hope we stay casual. No what ifs running across my mind & no more feelings getting in the way. You’ll always be my tahanan because you’ve allowed me to grow so much as a daughter and as a partner. I just wanted to say that being with you for a short time made me feel at home and so secured that I wanted to wake up everyday knowing I have you to lean on and to come home to but I know that it will never happen again and that’s okay. I need to learn how to accept that.
You’ll always be in my heart, no matter what happens. I love you, baby. Please be constantly happy! This is neither a farewell nor goodbye, ‘til our paths cross again. Minahal kita, mahal pa rin kita, lagi kitang mamahalin.
With love,
Arci.
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No matter how much I say it ur writing is always a bless to make my day happy🥺💕
Atsushi/Chuuya/Dazai dealing with their lovely pregnant wives😊❤
❥ Dazai and Atsushi dealing with their pregnant s/o
❥— Chuuya’s part: ❤︎
ᴀ/ɴ: I am so happy you liked it and I hope you enjoy this one as well! Chuuya already has one tho and I linked it above 💘
Dazai Osamu:
LETS FUCKING GO
man has two lives depending on him now 😙
YOU WILL BE ABSOLUTELY PAMPERED
“Belladonna, do you need anything?”
“Would you like me to do something for you?”
“Do you want me to get it to you so you don’t have to stand?”
ITS NOT EVEN TEASING
that’s for another time ;)
He is gonna be so nervous during the pregnancy but will try his best
He will try and do things that will keep your mood light and happy
If lord doesn’t want him to be spared then
Despite his efforts he will get twice the trouble the demon you were on your period
“I AM SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME”
“Belladonna let’s talk this out o-okay?”
Osamu honey, a couch won’t stop the knife she is gonna throw
Now to the teasing
He doesn’t get near the teasing of your weight tho
He knows that you may be troubled by it so instead he keeps complimenting how you look
“You look so pretty with our baby inside of you 🥺”
what he actually teases you about is how you might walk funny then he relate it to ‘something’ else
“That walk reminds me of that time after we-“
He has been hit by a chair
K.O.
He always smiles when he lays his eyes on your baby bump
You could be just standing there and Dazai would just look to it and smile softly
HE CANT WAIT FOR THE BABY TO BE IN HIS ARMS
I genuinely think Dazai would need reassurance from you that he will be a good father
He is like scared that he might be unable to raise someone well and that the baby will be like he was or what he is trying to hide in a sense
So please tell him that he will be alright and that you will by his side guiding him through it all
Now you know how chuuya doesn’t let you leave the house, right?
Dazai is the opposite
The reason is that he doesn’t want you to leave his sight so he can be able to help you in case something happens
“I can still do stuff Osamu, I am not a baby-“
“You HAVE a baby in you so technically you are baby.”
Aw
He likes telling jokes to the baby bump 🥺
Gets so excited when the baby kicks
One day he was just caressing it when he was telling a story about how he pissed off Kunikida
When it came to the funny part, the baby kicked and Dazai got so happy and sparkly eyed
“HE LIKES MY STORIES; BELLADONNA HE LIKES MY STORIES!”
Well at least you know prior to its awakening
That you will have a another mischievous little shit
A cute one tho <3
Atsushi Nakajima:
How dare he be so adorable
And of course he is an aged up bean
Also Wan watchers how are you all feeling about the ending of the episode of the fireworks 😃
Okay now let’s get to business
He would be so cautious about everything
Even more cautious than you
And you are the pregnant one here
“NO Y/N DONT MOVE”
“NO I WILL COOK”
“PLEASE JUST STAY IN ONE PLACE; I DONT WANT YOU OR THE BABY TO GET HURT”
Atsushi baby they aren’t made of glass
Another one that would pamper you like a queen
At least with what he can manage
but as we all know Kunikida has a wallet for a reason <3
Low key making him a bank right now
I genuinely love Kunikida tho
Anyways
So atsushi will search videos on what to do so he can make your preganancy easier on you
Most of the time he will just keep complimenting you so you don’t get in a bad mood
And probably use his puppy dog face cause he finally knew it’s your weak point
But yeah he still gets thrown with chairs
“Angel did you-AHHHHHHHHHH”
He just wanted to tell you a pick up line Dazai told him ;(
Atsushi LOVES and I mean LOVES talking to your baby bump
“How’s daddy’s baby doing?”
Talks to it when he had a bad day and just complains to it
“Dazai-san ate more poisonous mushrooms and tied me to the ceiling today 😔”
Or when he had a good day :D
“I kicked akutagawa’s face accidentally today when I saw him shopping; that was the accomplishment of my life.”
“And you are alive?”
“Exactly,”
Don’t interrupt their conversation or Atsushi will pout and go ‘our dumpling was gonna talk, angel :(‘
He kisses it too 🥺
Then kisses you and proceeds to thank you for having his baby
And for being with him <3
The first time he felt the baby kick he was so excited and happy
You know the gif of him up there?
Yeah that reaction
I think he will buy the baby so much clothes :0
He imagines cute scenarios that can happen with the baby when it comes
“Y/N, what if for example the baby’s first word are papa? 🥺”
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Enchant Presents. . .
[ID: A teal banner with a small photo of Sam and Bucky standing next to each other on the right with blue Lora text that reads “Enchant Presents: FYSambucky Fic Friday Recs” /finish ID]
happy TFATWS and fic Friday, @fuckyeahsambucky! today, I will present recs with The Falcon Captain America and the Winter Soldier in mind. u kno me, I’m not very much into writing stuff that are super canon. however, I like reading stuff that takes place in it, especially if they wow me. so, here goes! this is pre-canon, post-canon, and canon divergence, so yeh.
this is also for the anon who told me my taste is flawless, sksksksk.
different with every shore by JoBones - I’ve read this story when I was supposed to charge my brain cells and it was worth it! Sam being perplexed by Bucky’s feelings for him is written as genuine and their banter was top-notch. this fic feels like an entire episode that I would watch a lot, ngl. great story along with narration. Semi Post-Canon. ✨
You’re Welcome by @siancore - first off, the banter here matches the vibes of my favorite couple of guys. it was witty, cute, and I love the scenarios especially the near kiss they could have shared with the tension close to exploding between them. to not spoil much, I very much admire the tone in this tale. also Sian deserves love for writing this much words after reblogging a certain gif-set and I am (still) in awe. Post-Canon. ✨
Friendversary by SamBucky_Fanzi - listen, you will laugh at this story. based on a certain vid and Sam and Bucky are so sick of others thinking they’re together even tho they’re so clueless that everybody and their mother can see they have something going on and won’t admit. I think y’all will enjoy how their efforts turned out, lmaooo. I know I did. Canon Divergence. ✨
Mission to Monte Carlo by @yavannie - this is a great fic with the right amount of humor and mission stuff. for those into this trope, this fic will deliver that along with dialogue that’s spot-on, the guys in well-dressed suits, and tie pulling. the side characters here are also a wonderful addition. Post-Canon. ✨
What I’ve Been Living For by @pianistwriter80 - color me impressed because this is a detailed take on the finale and the words make me heart eyes. the well-timed confession, the banter, and the lovely kiss shared between these two is stellar. Post-Canon. ✨
diving blind by yukla - also a very beautiful 5 + 1 things tale, where the tea is scalding amidst the fluff. it also has Sam Wilson feels, which I’m always up for. it flows very well and this is a wonderful tale. it’s got the Love is Requited They Just Don’t Know It vibes I’m always all about, yeet. Post-Canon. ✨
War Stories by Siancore - y’all really think I’m not gonna rec Sian again? guess what, here I am anyway! here’s a take that adds context to the burgeoning relationship between Sam and Bucky in canon. it’s got heart, love, banter, and characterization that pulls you in. the chemistry’s all over the place whenever these two are together. highly recommended, make no mistake about that. Pre-Canon or Canon Divergence, depends on how u look at it. ✨
this is it, love; it's you and me, love by @glittercake - ahhhh, yes, this sends me lots of feels. both are so dumb yet so in love with each other and I am here for the dialouge. the tension and chemistry is electric. that confession’s pretty sweet and so them, and the moment they shared in this tale is *chef’s kiss*! Post-Canon. ✨
Things Were Lookin’ Grim, But They’re Lookin’ Good Again by @jemgirl86 - if you’re me and wanted a longer apology from Bucko, this is for you! like I cannot, I cannot even, when I read this, I was so satisfied when Sam let his feelings out, when Bucky apologized and admitted how he did so wrong with receipts. plus, it fills the acts of service criteria, which I’m here for. still am glad to read this tale and this is a must-read, imo. - Canon Divergence. ✨
aranyhíd by @honestlyfrance - actually, I requested this fic and my bestie did this justice! this tale explores some Sam Wilson feels along with Bucky being a simp for him. cute banter and moments shared in the lingering traces of the evening. it also features beautiful depiction of the sunset in Delacroix and I knew the word would fit it well! highly rec. - Post-Canon. ✨
#fysambuckyweek#onlysambucky#fysbfriday#sambucky#winterfalcon#sam x bucky#ships: sambucky#rec list#sam wilson#bucky barnes#long posts
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Ask Answers: January 17th, 2021 (Part 1)
More ask answers! It’s gonna be a lot today, so we’re splitting it into two.
i love Cliff and Kyra's relationship so much ?? even though they had issues they managed to work things out and remain friends through the years! it's so refreshing over the narrative of people resenting each other after they break up.. im kind of curious tho , do they see each other strictly platonic now or is there still something lingering?
Aw, I’m glad to hear you like their relationship. Their feelings are very platonic now. Kyra views him as an ex and co-parent and then a friend as time goes on. Cliff does struggle not to think of her as still his family, even though he’s not romantically attracted anymore. But he’s knows it might be crossing a line to be that attached to a woman who divorced him and so he tries to let her just live her own life.
Can i ask just how tall Cove exactly is in Step 3? And will he be even TALLER in Step 4? My short heart cannot handle this. (Also this game is absolutely flawless and I haven't been able to stop thinking abt it since I played. Planning on getting the dlcs soon, y'all did SO WELL!!!!!!!!!)
Haha, thank you very much.
Step 1: 4'1 feet
Step 2: 5'4 feet
Step 3: 6'0 feet
Step 4: 6'4 feet
Hey! So, I know Steam is having its fall sale/boxing day sale or something so i was wondering if you guys were gonna participate in that?? I was thinking of buying XOXO Droplets (the extended version) but i didnt want to do anything before there was a potential sale. May seem like an odd question, but I was genuinely curious. I can't wait to play the full game when i get it tho :D
I’m afraid we have some things we wanna fix in XOXO Droplets before really promoting it/pushing it with sales, so for now it won’t be participating in Steam sales. Hopefully we can update it soon.
Hello I'm still trying to get the CG for Step 2-3 and didn't see or get it when I told Cove of the deal in the Dinner moment like your guide says. I got the achievement but no CG. Is there another choice I'm suppsed to make after telling him?
Make sure you go back to the house with Cove after he leaves and don’t stay in your living room.
* don't be suspicious* *don't be suspicious* ...Hi, there's another way to pay for the Our Life +18 dlc besides Patreon? Patreon have very limited payment options and I've been struggling with the platform. Anyways, thanks for the amazing game I hope I could support any way ^u^
Haha, right now there isn’t anything specific, but once it’s finished in a few months we’ll look into other hosting sites.
do you think we can get another our life dlc plzzz i would pay so much for it <3 i want to see their life together when they have kids or pets or just live with the two of them and i really want them to adopt kids too since jamie is adopted :)
I’m afraid we likely won’t. As much as we love OL: B&A, we’ve gotta start putting our whole effort into new projects soon. Maybe someday we could come back and do special new content, but it’d be quite awhile after all the planned DLCs have released.
How do you delete a save file?
On PC or Mac you hover over a slot and hit the delete key, or you can go into the saved data folder and delete the files directly. On Android I’m afraid I don’t know. You can save over them with something else, though.
this is like. totally embarrassing and silly to ask but im dying here; i love cove so much i wanna climb that boy like a tree. so basically what im asking here is like. will the nsfw dlc have explicit stuff or is it more like an implied kinda situation? cuz i want some full on nsfw shit im so thirsty for cove and only this can satisfy me
It’s truly 18+ and explicit with nude art and straightforward descriptions of sexual acts. That’s why we can’t release it as part of the main game, haha. I’m glad you’re into Cove~
Hello! I've really been enjoying Our Life and am noticing some animation changes with the update! I just had a question though. In Step 2 we meet Jeremy but I was wondering if he was only meant to appear in Step 2 as a typical mean kid or is there more we don't know?
Jeremy is a horrible pill in Our Life, but he is also a beloved romance option as a teenager in our other game XOXO Droplets. His personality is quite different once he grows up more. I imagine Cove and the MC would be pretty surprised.
Hi! i absolutely adore our life so far and I can't wait to continue supporting the game with the upcoming dlc drops! i was just wondering if y'all were planning on uploading any art for steam icons/the steam point shop in general<3
Thank you! And we might. But we’re first trying to focus on making a new game update since there are still some improvements we have in mind.
I hope this question doesn’t come off weird but would Cove be the type of guy to memorize your period? I imagine he’d be the kind of best friend/boyfriend who would keep track of your cycle to support you during it or something like that
We’d be shy about it at first and avoid mentioning what he was doing, but he would try to keep track of it based on any insight the MC gave him. The longer you’re with him, the more it could be just a normal thing the two openly talked about.
Hi there, how often do you do auditions? I am a voice actor and would love to be part of a project ?
We usually have auditions two to three times a year. Our next planned casting call will be for side character in Our Life Step 4.
Are the 5 moments included in the Derek and Baxter DLCs different from the normal Step 2 and 3 DLC? And will they focus exclusively on Derek and Baxter respectively? I was a little confused when I read the DLC FAQ. Thanks!
Mostly they’ll be completely new Moments that star Derek or Baxter. Though, for example, Derek’s DLC will allow you to take him to the Soiree. If you go with Derek that will remove your ability to go with Cove in the Cove Step 2 DLC.
Sorry if you've already said this, but how will your character transfer over to the patreon exclusive NSFW DLC? Can it access your game memory or will you select traits your character showed and choices you made from a list?
It’s a standalone event that happens for MCs who are in a relationship with Cove and have been dating him for a while. Other details about the MC/their dynamic with Cove will just be picked in the event itself. It won’t try to take data from a specific save in the actual game.
I love your games, but currently only have an Android. When will you put your other games on android?
I don’t know. They might not able to be formatted for Android very well, unfortunately. We’ll see how much time we’ve got later this year to try figuring it out.
Thank you so much for all the questions :D
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prompt: aaron had a slight ED that he developed as a kid and is now being noticeable to the rest of the foxes even andrew and nicky kinda knew he forgot to eat but the stress from school and exy makes it worse....
I could easily expand on this and maybe one day I will. It hits kinda close to home tho so I’m going to err on the side of brevity just for my own mental space. Thank you so much for the ask! I hope this is what you’re looking for ❤️ ❤️ Take care of yourselves!
Warnings for depression, eating disorder.
Edit: this has been expanded and can also be found on my ao3
Part 1 | Part 2 | Ao3
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Wednesday | 6:04am
The alarm was screaming.
Its cries crashed against his senses like sea-storm waves and Aaron was without shelter. The sound had been crowding him for four minutes now, and he still couldn't lift a hand to make it stop -- even though he was perfectly aware and wide awake. He wanted to stop the sound, he needed the quiet back, but for whatever reason his hand just wouldn't listen to his brain no matter how many times he willed it to move.
Aaron hated days like this.
Wednesday | 8:43am
Nicky slung his arm around Aaron’s shoulders, a grin plastered on his face. His hair was slicked back like a low-budget greaser, halfway between wet and just damp. They’d just finished morning practice and he, Nicky, and Kevin were waiting out in the player’s lobby for Neil and Andrew to finish showering and changing so they could leave.
“Aw man, I am hungry. Please tell me that Andrew and Neil are gonna finish up soon so that we can go get a real breakfast.” Nicky's whining was easy enough to ignore most of the time, but today Aaron was tired and his patience was thin. He had three tests to study for, two essays to write, they had a game coming up on Friday, and Aaron didn't have the bandwidth for Nicky, too.
He shruged his cousin off with a snort. "I'm just gonna hitch a ride to the library." There were still a few hours before his first class of the day, and he needed to use that time for something productive.
"Aww, c'mon Aaron come to breakfast with us! We'll drop you at the library when we're done. It won't take too long!"
"What won't take too long?" When Aaron looked over, he saw Neil and Andrew coming out of the locker room, clean and changed.
"Breakfast!" Nicky announced. "Neil, tell Aaron to join us! It's a family breakfast -- he should be there!"
"You can't just label things "family" events as a way to require people to be there," Kevin said with a long-suffering sigh. Even so, Aaron noticed he already had the menu of their usual breakfast joint pulled up on his phone. The pictures of pancakes topped with glistening syrup and fluffy omelets made his stomach clench in an unpleasant way.
Aaron looked away.
"I've got a shit to do," he said. That would be his final word on it, and to demonstrate, Aaron turned to head toward the doors.
Except Andrew had moved to block him, though Aaron hadn't registered when his twin had circled them. Aaron frowned, lifting his chin in challenge.
Andrew just studied him for a long moment before looking just past Aaron, gaze darting over his shoulder to the others behind him. He lifted a hand and a second later a slim object snapped into it. When Andrew then held it out to him, Aaron saw it was a granola bar.
A quick glance over his shoulder exposed the granola bar thrower as Kevin, who was zipping his backpack shut. They matched gazes briefly and Kevin nodded toward the granola bar in Andrew's hand.
"If you aren't going to come to breakfast with us make sure you get something on your way to the library."
Aaron glared at him, then rolled his eyes and turned back to his brother. Andrew just looked at him, expression blank, and continued to hold out the damn granola bar like he could stand there all day without a care in the world.
A flash of resentment boiled through him. Of course Andrew could stand there so fucking unbothered. Barely anything affected him at all.
With an annoyed huff, Aaron snatched the bar out of Andrew's hand and shoved it into his pocket before stalking out of the building.
Wednesday | 1:15pm
Katelyn ❤️ (13:15): Hey baby! Prof Dixon bailed again ~ you free?
Aa. Min. (13:15): McCallister's?
Katelyn ❤️ (13:16): See u in 5! 😘
Wednesday | 1:23pm
Aaron stood inside the confused cacophony that was McCallister's, an on-campus restaurant that was the love child of a deli and a pub but four times too big, regretting his choices.
It wasn't even the noise that was bothering him the most. It was the smell.
Aaron took two steps into the restaurant and his stomach roiled. It twisted and tightened, curling in on itself in disgust at the sharp, slimy stench of cold cut deli meat cushioned on a waft of double-baked potatoes that filled the restaurant like wildfire's haze. He and Katelyn met here for lunch two or three times a week when their schedules lined up. They both liked the food and they had several corner booths where they could hide in and study together after eating. It was one of their favorite places. But right now, Aaron was fighting not to gag.
“Aaron!” Relief warred with dread at the sound of Katelyn’s voice and he hastily plastered on an imitation of the smile he usually didn’t even have to think about, that always rose to his lips whenever she was around all on its own. It didn’t today, but for Katelyn he could make the effort. For Katelyn, Aaron could do anything.
He turned around once that smile was fixed in place and wrapped his arms around her when she joined him, indulging in a quick kiss that soothed some of the nausea churning in his gut. When they broke apart, Aaron turned to lead them toward their usual booth but Katelyn stopped him with a hand on his arm.
“Babe is everything alright?” Worry painted a crease between her eyebrows, her mouth drawn down as she studied him.
Most days, Katelyn’s concern warmed him. It made him feel seen and loved and cherished. Today it put a slash of anxiety through his lungs, breath seeping out through the cut and concaving his chest under the weight of her scrutiny.
Aaron arranged his smile into something tired and unalarmed. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just a long week, y’know?”
Katelyn hummed like she wasn’t sure she believed him but was deciding to trust him anyway, then she smiled and she released his arm only to take his hand, giving it a small squeeze. “Alright, then let’s get some lunch and shut out the rest of the world for at least a little bit, yeah?”
The smell of the restaurant was still choking him and even his skin felt tight. The absolute last thing he wanted to do right now was stay there another second, let alone the hour he had until he needed to think about heading to his next class.
“I’m so sorry Kate, I’ve got to meet with the TA for my history class. I remembered right after I texted you but I still wanted to see you so I figured I’d just tell you when you got here.” He offered an apologetic smile and did his best to ignore the way guilt was now mixing uncomfortably well with the sick already sloshing around in his stomach. Aaron did not like lying to Katelyn, it felt wrong. But he also couldn’t... he couldn’t explain what was wrong with him right now -- not because he didn’t know, but because he was sure explaining it was going to make him sound crazy and that was just the last thing he needed right now. It was better to slip away, go somewhere he could focus on homework or something and just... wait for it to pass.
Katelyn’s expression fell, flashing disappointment, then a sad understanding as she nodded. “Of course. It’s okay babe, really. I’m just glad I got to see you at all.” She smiled then -- that bright, warm, just-for-him smile that always had Aaron’s heart skipping. A small knot of tension loosened in his lower chest, just enough that he was able to take a small breath and offer a more genuine smile of his own in return.
“I love you,” he told her.
“I love you too, Aaron. Take care of yourself and I’ll see you later, okay?”
He made no promises before he made his escape, just a smile and a wave.
Wednesday | 3:37pm
The granola bar tasted like ash in his mouth. It felt like there were iron weights attached to his jaw, making it impossible for him to chew. A fist of repulsion locked around his throat, and it was a physical struggle to swallow.
This was the worst part about days like this.
Aaron knew he had to eat something, because he knew what could happen if he didn’t and the only thing worse than having to put up with feeling this way, dragging himself through the mud of his own psychosis one step, one mile, at a time -- was doing it with everyone watching him struggle.
So he forced himself through half the granola bar. He knew better than to push for more than that, or all his efforts would be wasted into the nearest trash can.
Wednesday | 7:51pm
Practice had been brutal. It had been so bad that even Nicky hadn’t been able to cheer himself through it and was just as bitter and on edge as the rest of them by the time they hit the showers.
Aaron sat in the lobby and waited for the others, feeling old. He felt tired. He just wanted these stupid pissing contests to stop and everyone to shut up. He wanted the world to be completely silent, completely empty. Emptiness sounded nice. Sounded peaceful. Sounded right.
The sharp scuff of shoe-rubber against tile had him cringing so hard his shoulders ached and he peeled his eyes open to glare at the source. Andrew stood there, hands in his pockets, blank-faced and too knowing.
Aaron snorted and looked away.
The couch shifted slightly as Andrew took the spot next to him. There was the soft shk of a blade cutting into something crisp and when Aaron looked over, Andrew was holding out a small sliver of apple. His brother wasn’t looking at him. Instead, the other Minyard was dispassionately staring at the tv, which was playing some sports channel that Aaron knew very well Andrew didn’t give a single shit about.
For a long moment Aaron just stared at the side of his twin’s face, but it was impossible to know what, if anything, he was thinking about. Finally, he looked at the sliver of apple. It was pale, small, unobtrusive. Aaron’s stomach clenched, a mix between hunger and repulsion. All he’d had today was that half a granola bar -- which had been both too much and not enough. His throat tightened as he stared at that innocuous slice of fruit, but he was almost focused more on the hand holding it. His eyes burned and he looked away, but not before taking the slice.
#aftg#aftg fanfic#tw: depression#tw: eating disorder#tw: ed#aaron minyard#andrew minyard#twinyards#of course i made it a twinyard drabble#because i'm a sucker for the boys supporting each other#going into a small headcanon in the tags here#i hc andrew struggles with food#similar to what aaron goes through here#but more intense#because he has a very complex relationship with food#based on his past#and then the manifestation of his depression does not help#i actually have a wip based on this#from andrew's pov#where we see him dealing with his ed#and the way the monsters support him through it#sometimes his ed crops up due to his depression#and sometimes its separate#anyway#this was an unnecessary a/n in the tags here#but that's why andrew took the approach he did in the drabble#because how he treats aaron in this is how he needs to be handled when he has his own episodes
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Hi....If you don't mind me asking, who are your favorite MXTX characters (top 5 from each novel)? And why? I'm sorry if you've answered this question before.
Aw of course I don’t mind! Though I feel like my answer is going to be a disaster bc I love these casts so so much aha let’s see:
✨ SPOILERS AHEAD ✨
MDZS/CQL
1. Wei Wuxian
Ah so I feel like this is obvious based on the sheer quantity of things I produce and the effort I put into hurting him 😅 but yeah! I love how much of a classical tragic hero he is and I love how much love he has and how that gets twisted around and shaped into a collar of spikes around his own neck. I saw gif sets of wwx before I ever knew about CQL and my reaction was “fuck. I’m going to love him” and I do! And I love that he does learn from his past and I love most of all that he learns to accept the love he is given and is able to make a happy ending in a place of being loved and held in respect and appreciation
2. Wen Qing
On the other hand, I did not expect to be like “mine now” with Wen Qing. Don’t get me wrong, the sexy immortal look got me but it wasn’t really till I started writing fic that I was like ohhhhh Oh Boy. Wen Qing is brilliant and ruthless, fiercely loving and aloof and cold. I love that she gets the lose-lose challenge of balancing what is right for her family vs what is right in the world, what she owes to her sect and what she owes to individuals. The golden core transfer is my favorite dubious science experiment in p much all media I’ve consumed. She gets to be so human—prickly and tough and also achingly gentle and afraid and putting on a tough face and sometimes still crying. “I’m sorry and thank you” ! Im!!
3. Jiang Yanli
The first fic I wrote for this fandom was literally “Jiang Yanli died no she didn’t” lmao I do feel like I underserve Jiang Yanli in that I often fall prey to using her to further the complexity that the male characters are permitted while denying her the chance to be given the same space for development and breath — something to work on! But in that, I really genuinely love how tightly she binds herself to her family and how she tries so hard to be what others need her to be—and then she does make a choice for herself and for a single moment at least, she gets to be loved and to be happy and to have this, a husband and a son and a place, for herself. And terribly I love how much she permeates the story still after death. She is the unspoken voice, the face turned from the camera but always still present, carried in the hearts and names and memories of the ones left behind
She deserved better but—I am weak for the tragedy of it all
4. Jiang Cheng
Another surprise (tho hardly surprising in hindsight): Jiang Cheng is just...horribly understandable. He makes terrible choices and his greatest heroism is undone by a choice made for him or, in the case of “killing the Yiling Laozu” is a lie. He is such a youngest sibling who doesn’t want to be the youngest until all at once, he’s the one in charge and he doesn’t want it at all. He is full of anger and hurt and so much love he doesn’t know what to do with it, doesn’t want it anymore, has no place to put all of its terrible, overwhelming flood.
5. Lan Wangji
I almost didn’t put Lan Wangji or Jiang Cheng on here and then I realized that this is sort of a list of characters I’m pickiest about in fic and...yeah. I think what I love best about Lan Wangji is his journey of grief and healing and through that, his decision to step into world. Where Wei Wuxian’s decision to travel and be removed from the cultivation world (in varying degrees depending on your headcanon preference lol) is really, really important to me, Lan Wangji’s decision to go from being an isolated lone agent working apart from the systems of the world to being involved and invested in changing those systems and working to make them better is also really important to me. I’ve talked before about how relatable Lan Wangji is to me (esp with regards to our interaction with the outer world) and there is something deeply hopeful and comforting about post-timeskip Lan Wangji being in his like mid-/late-30s and still making decisions and growing and changing and choosing to invest himself in the world and the future
yeah. i have thoughts here that I don’t really have the maturity, life experience, or articulation to put into words but Lan Zhan Good basically
TGCF
1. Xie Lian
suuuurpriiiiise!! Yeah honestly mxtx’s mains in TGCF and MDZS really just hit all my buttons basically. What appeals to me most of all about Xie Lian is, fittingly, how he is humanity taken to extremes. His capacity for incredible kindness and compassion is equaled with his capacity for cruelness and ruthlessness. His heaven-shaking highs are matched with calamitous lows. He is the hyperbolic of what it is to be human—and he is also the small moments, the wildflowers and the maple leaves and the mundane chores and the comfort of whispered conversations late into the night. I could quite literally go on for pages about what I love about Xie Lian but I am not Hua Cheng and can restrain myself LMAO
2. Hua Cheng
of all the characters on these lists, Hua Cheng is the one I’m pickiest about tbh! When I say I love him for similar reasons as Xie Lian I don’t actually mean this as being similarities between the two but the fact that both of them so richly convey mxtx’s points about the nature of humanity and what it is to be human. Hua Cheng is both the boldest and most arrogant of all and also the most vulnerable, the one who shies away from the truth because he’s braced for it to hurt and isn’t sure he can take it. He is gory blood rain and an umbrella to shelter a fragile bloom; he is a blade whose wounds only heal if he permits it and he is a sacrifice that he brushes aside as a fit of madness. *pats his head* this boy can fit SO MUCH inside him that he refuses to acknowledge
3. Jun Wu
Definitely my favorite antagonist in recent reading. I was doubtful of him from the start (something something issues with authority something something probably should talk to my theoretical future therapist shhh) but the unfolding of his reveal was so delightfully painful and exquisite that I was like “YES!!!” reading all of it. About the epitome of a satisfying plot twist imo. But about the character himself, I love how he parallels so many — Xie Lian in his rise and fall, his glory and disgrace; Hua Cheng in his fixation and ruthlessness; He Xuan in losing himself to the plot and not knowing how to move forward. I love that he feels beyond human in a way the others don’t—he’s so old and has gone through so much and he doesn’t feel things the way humans do anymore, doesn’t remember right how love squeezes the heart or how hate can exist without acting on it. I love that he thinks he knows how to control everyone and that it’s such mundane things that fool him: Xie Lian’s absurd stubbornness, Hua Cheng’s foolish faith, Yin Yu’s...emotional maturity??? Not Sure how to verbalize that one. But in the end, he is defeated by both the humanity of others and by his own—he’s so tired. He’s exhausted in a way that gods and ghosts aren’t meant to be. He is, under the armor and the masks, the curses and the power, human—benevolent and cruel, evil and good.
4. He Xuan
I love my fish man! No but really I love how He Xuan is so fixed on his one goal that he refuses to acknowledge anything else in his (after)life—which doesn’t make it go away. I love that he is left unmoored, purposeless through the very act of completing that which gives him purpose. I love his long con and the ways he clings to himself but loses himself not in the act but in the telling himself it’s an act. I love that he tries to be a moral man and then becomes a ghost king, a calamity. His reveal is also terribly badass and I do love his bone fish wholly unironically. Like I’m not going to get a He Xuan tattoo (for one thing I’ve been meaning to get a tattoo for 5 years and still haven’t gotten around to it) but also. B o n e f i s h
5. Mu Qing
Of course! The Jiang Cheng of tgcf lol Mu Qing (which my phone desperately wants to autocorrect to my Qing) is so...gah he’s such a mess! And he so fully commits to the belief that no one will ever see and understand him as he is but will always view them through their own convictions about him and his actions — which is simultaneously heartbreakingly lonely and also. Sir You Are a Clown. I genuinely think he’s owed apologies from both Feng Xin and Xie Lian for their treatment and assumptions of him and think that he would be HORRIBLY offended at the thought (while secretly touched? But like secretly even to himself). He will never explain himself and will just clam up tighter the more people accuse him and it’s such a self-sabotaging behavior and also so horribly relatable. I love u sir, you’re a disaster
SVSS I have not read but I do really like the moshang art 😂
#long post#asked & answered#lol sorry this is so long and incoherent#the truth is that I really love these stories and their casts#and I think it’s v hard to extricate the characters from the cast#because they are so deftly and beautifully interwoven#but here are the characters I think are my favorites lol#loosely in order#tgcf spoilers#also this is why I prefer tgcf to mdzs tbh?#jgy is intellectually interesting to me and a good antagonist#but not personally compelling in the way jw is
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Hey I’m leaving :’)
(Tldr: I’m leaving this blog as an archive mainly bc making content doesn’t feel fulfilling/enjoyable for me anymore but I can’t bring myself to delete all of the memories on here. My (old) new blog will just consist of rbs of art/run on queue/support mutuals so I won’t be disclosing the url for that but mutuals!! if you want to keep in touch through disc or smth lmk (warning that i am pretty awful at replying tho rn 😣), and to anyone who takes the time to read through this all, thank you and ily)
I want to start off by saying thank you so much for being kind to me and making me genuinely happy with any interactions we’ve had. I mean it when I say that without the amazing and supportive people here, my blog would not have lived this long. I contemplated on making this post at all since I don’t think me not being here on tumblr will make any difference whatsoever but I didn’t want to leave seemingly out of nowhere so here goesss
I never expected anyone to bother following me since this blog was started more-or-less as a joke/I never initially planned to write. Although I haven’t done much writing (or rlly anything lately LMAO) here, I had sm fun and met lots of amazing people bc of this blog <3
The major reason for this decision is that I don’t enjoy making content for tumblr anymore, especially with many other things like school and personal life stff being of higher priority to me,,, or at least im trying to get my shit tgt bc I haven’t been in the best space mentally I think hhagdhfh and while I haven’t been on here recently so tumblr hasn’t been much of a procrastination fuel for me, I didn’t see the point in being on hiatus anymore if I no longer intended to come back. This doesn’t mean that I don’t enjoy Haikyuu or Genshin itself any less though !
But despite my growing out(?) of this phase in my life I do want to reiterate that I’m grateful for all of you. Please take care of yourself to the best of your capabilities !! We’re all growing and wandering about trying to find our own voice so allow yourself to learn from your mistakes, don’t treat them as failures that u can nvr recover from and have fun where you can along the way. You’re worth every effort and i love u
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sjm and crescent city and misogyny
so i finished house of earth and blood and i have some Thoughts. i didn’t think i’d like it and actively hated it as i read so clearly there are still some lessons to be learned in how useless hate reading a book is. and i’m still personally trying to figure out how to like something while also criticizing it/ acknowledging flaws (to be clear this is not about hoeab because i straight hated it but i do like parts of acotar). this isn’t gonna be a review cause this ain’t goodreads but here we go
why are all of sjm’s worlds so misogynistic? like i genuinely don’t get it. the amount of times cunt/ whore/ slut was said in hoeab was absolutely ridiculous (i know there’s widespread complaints about the amount of cussing and maybe it ties to that idk). maybe i don’t have enough sworn enemies or whatever but i literally never hear people say those words without it being a Big Fucking Deal and yet sjm is like the goddamn salt bae meme with them. she couldn’t figure out one other reason to make Amelie and Bryce enemies besides being jealous over a dude. in acotar the sexism inherent to the Illyrians, the lack of high ladies when not only does it add nothing to your narrative besides making your characters seem super duper for not being sexist, it actively makes no sense as there are plenty of powerful women so why wouldn’t they be leaders??? by force if nothing else. i know there’s other examples in throne of glass it has just been a hot sec since i read them. idk if these all seem small and petty but there’s just a pervasive misogyny to all of her worlds and it’s difficult to put my finger to how it shows/ how to address it.
and i don’t think sjm is fantastic at characterization in general but something really rubs me the wrong way with her female villains. it’s not that women are villains because i’m all about that. it’s the female villains have no personality beyond evil/ lusting after whatever love interest, being utterable unable to root for them (i liked micah, i was all about that but sandriel ehh) and just being 2d as hell. and the fact that sjm is willing to redeem anyone and everyone but no women. at all. i do think sjm is not good at writing actual morally gray characters or villains that make you root for them cause she either takes the literal worst would eat babies if they could route or they are secretly a good person you cannot hold their sins against them or the i say they’re complex and morally gray but they’re actually a marshmallow route. so maybe someone else can tell me what i’m picking up on with her female villains cause i’m just rambling.
she’s creating an actual made up fantasy world where everything is created by her. and it’s one thing if you’re making your world sexist on purpose and are then saying something about it/ addressing it but she just treats it like the default?? why tho. i know this is a widespread issue so i don’t mean to hold up sjm as some peak misogynist or something but she’s an author who has mostly female MCs and seems to be trying to make them strong and well rounded (we can argue about the effectiveness but there’s an effort) and so for her to have sexism as the default flavoring for everything. i’m just tired.
minor aside for LGBTQ+ rep which we all know she is the WOAT at (i hate acowar with such a passion but beyond the slaughtering of mor’s character and resultantly their friend group i’m not sure i remember another thing i hated that much ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ). idk who told sjm that all queer people feel the need to keep it a desperate secret but that is a blatant lie and most queer people i know never shut the fuck up about it. and while some queer people are in the closet and are still coming to terms with it, the secrecy to your closest friend group just tells me as a queer person that the friend group isn’t close full stop.
i know the fact that sjm creates sexist books and is bad at diversity in terms of LGBTQ+ rep and characters of color (i spoke on the first two because that is my expertise as a white bi women but i don’t mean to diminish the racism inherent to her worlds too) is not new info. and i also think she’s average at best at characterization, relationships, world building, and pacing so it just irks me to see how popular and recommended her books are and i know at some point i just need to get the fuck over the fact that things i think are awful will sometimes be wildly popular. and this is a very negative post about an author that has written some characters and scenes i truly adore (lol just look at my posts) but i’m just tired of how little care is put into propagating sexism, racism, and homophobia into fantasy worlds and how low the bar can be for books (i promise i know good books and don’t need recs and am just a bit of an idiot in terms of picking the worst books of my tbr list)
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Sten/f!Mahariel: Fall Into The Tide
It’s happening. 😂
Here is the first chapter of Sten x Yara Mahariel. ~3660 words; read here on AO3 instead. Dedicated to @irlaimsaaralath, who is a menace and whom I love. ❤️
In which Yara decides to follow Sten on his journey home, and everyone is basically like BUT WHY THO.
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“So,” Alistair said. “You, uh. You know what you’re doing, right?”
“I do, in fact,” Yara said. “Right now I’m packing my satchel. Hand me that dagger, will you?”
“Ha ha,” he said flatly. “Very funny. Seriously though, are you sure about this?”
“What’s to be not sure about?” she said. With some effort, she pulled the jars of medicinal salve out of the depths of her bag and squished her clothes down to the bottom instead.
Alistair shrugged. “I don’t know. It’s just… won’t you be, you know, bored?”
Yara raised an eyebrow. “Why do you think I’d be bored?”
“Because I won’t be there,” he said. He pulled a mock-sad face. “You’re going to miss my amazing impressions, you know. I just perfected my sober Oghren impression and everything.”
Yara smiled. “I will miss your impressions, it’s true. But I’ll manage. Sten will keep me company.”
Alistair grimaced. “That’s… kind of my point, actually. It’s Sten. He’s not exactly the most entertaining company you could keep.”
She huffed in amusement. “If I was looking to be entertained, I’d just stay here with Anora’s new court jesters over there.” She jerked her chin at Denerim’s central marketplace – or rather, the spot where the central marketplace used to be before the darkspawn horde had arrived. The darkspawn were gone now, but so was the collection of colourful merchants’ stands that had once stood there. Instead, the remains of a barricade had been piled into an impromptu stage, and on the stage stood Zevran and Oghren, who were entertaining a large and laughing crowd with some sort of increasingly lewd back-and-forth of riffing and insults.
“So what are you looking for, exactly?” Alistair said.
His tone was serious now. Yara finally paused in her packing to meet his eye. “I don’t know,” she said truthfully.
He raised his eyebrows. “And you think that sailing across the entire Amaranthine Ocean with Sten will help you figure it out?”
She gave him a small awkward smile. Alistair’s tone was still serious, as though he was really trying to understand where she was coming from. And although she appreciated his concern, she… well, she didn’t have an answer for him.
“I… don’t know,” she said again. “Honestly, I’m still surprised he said I could go with him.”
“I’m still surprised you even asked,” Alistair said.
“So am I,” Yara said wryly.
“So why did you?” he pressed.
She let out a little laugh. “I don’t know,” she said. In truth, she still wasn’t sure what exactly had compelled her to invite herself on Sten’s journey home. One second he was telling her what the infrequent celebrations were like among his people back home. The next second, Yara was asking to go with him, and he was actually agreeing.
And for reasons that Yara genuinely wasn’t sure of, the idea of sailing off to a completely foreign land with Sten was the most appealing idea she’d had since all of this Grey Warden business had begun.
Alistair scoffed. “And we’re back to the start. Maybe it is good that you’re going with him. You both talk in circles so often it makes me dizzy.”
She chuckled. “Thanks. I think.” She rose to her feet and hefted her bag into her shoulder. “Where are you going next, then? Are you going to try and find the other Wardens?”
“Actually,” he said brightly, “I thought that me and Oghren and Zevran could travel the country as a triple act. It’s already a set-up for a joke. Zevran had a really good one, actually, did you hear it? A human, an elf and a dwarf are going for a stroll when they stop by the side of a river to relieve themselves–”
Yara gave him a chiding look. “Alistair.”
He tutted. “All right, all right, you got me. Leliana’s going to teach me to become a bard. Can I practice my singing with you? I just need to warm up first.” He cleared his throat loudly, then placed one hand on his chest and began to sing. “Oh, there once was a maiden I wanted to kiss, but she worked in a tavern that smelled just like–”
Yara laughed and pinched his arm. “Alistair!”
He laughed as well, then sighed. “All right, all right, yes, I’m going to join up with the other Wardens. They’re still on their way here from Orlais, so we’ll run into each other, I’m sure.” He tilted his head. “Write to me when you get back, all right? Maybe they’ll let us keep working together. It would be nice to travel with someone who can actually cook.”
Yara hesitated, and Alistair’s smile faded. “Wait. You’re not… you’re not actually going to stay in Seheron, are you?”
She steadily returned his gaze. “I don’t know,” she said quietly.
He stared at her in silence for a moment. Then he stepped forward and hugged her.
She hugged him back and closed her eyes. A few moments later, he sniffled.
Yara drew back slightly. “Are you crying?” she said softly.
“No,” he said defensively. “I just – I smell something bad. I think it’s you. Did you step in Fen’ain’s you-know-what?”
His voice sounded distinctly muffled. Yara patted his shoulder. “Nope, no mabari poop. But it could be the darkspawn guts I rubbed on myself as an exotic perfume.” She patted his back and tried to release him, but he hugged her harder.
“If you do come back, write to me right away, will you?” he said. “Actually, you should write to me from Seheron. Tell me all about your adventures becoming a wild jungle woman.”
She chuckled. “You’ll be the first person to hear about it if I do. You be careful, all right?” She patted his back once more, then stepped back from him. “Dareth shiral, lethallin.”
“You too,” he said softly. “Assuming that meant something nice and not ‘you’re a stupid stinky human’.”
She gave him a tiny wink. “Would it be inaccurate if that’s what I said?”
He laughed, and Yara smiled at him one last time before turning away. She pulled up her hood to hide her long red hair and began silently threading her way through the market toward the docks.
Before she got more than thirty paces, Zevran sidled up to her with Oghren close behind. “My dear Grey Warden,” he purred. “You didn’t think you could slip away from the great Zevran without a farewell, did you?”
“Aye, the elf is right,” Oghren said. “You thought you could – burp – go sailing off without sharing a drink with us?”
Yara gave him a knowing look. “Does sharing a drink with you mean another sip of that horrible liquor you carry around?”
He pouted. “Not if you’re gonna talk about it like that.”
Zevran grimaced at Yara. “You had some of that swill he carries around? He offered it to you?”
She smiled. “I can’t tell if you’re more upset that I had some, or that he didn’t offer you any.”
“The former, of course,” he said. “I have nothing but a sincere concern for your health.”
Oghren harrumphed. “You’re just jealous you never got to take a swig of old Oghren’s special homemade brew.”
Yara raised her eyebrows, and Zevran laughed. “I assure you I have no interest whatsoever in your… special homemade brew.”
His tone was suggestive and pointed. Oghren blinked at him blearily for a moment before wrinkling his nose. “Aw, I didn’t mean–” He gave Zevran a look of deep disgust. “Not in a million years, you dirty Antivan nug-licker.”
Zevran gave him an exaggerated bow. “The sentiment is entirely shared, my pungent friend.”
Yara gave them an exasperated smirk. “Is there any particular reason you two are following me to the docks? Are you coming to Seheron too?”
Zevran laughed lightly. “I think not. We have no interest in floating Sten’s boat.”
Oghren loudly guffawed. “Aye, we’re not the ones who wanna polish Sten’s oars.”
Zevran grinned at him, then turned back to Yara. “It’s true. We aren’t interested in scouring his deck or trimming his sails.”
Oghren snorted some liquor through his nose, then hastily wiped his face. “Or – or, uh, what’s-it-called, what’s the word – manning his helm! Hah!”
Zevran burst out laughing and clapped Oghren on the shoulder. “I can’t believe you remembered that one. I’m so very proud.”
Yara pressed her lips together hard to stop herself from laughing, then gave them both a chiding look. “Is that what you two have been doing all day? Coming up with dirty nautical one-liners?”
“Not at all,” Zevran said smoothly. “I picked a few pockets as well.”
“And I won another bet against that smug bastard Teagan,” Oghren said proudly. “He had to cough up five royals.” He patted the coin pouch on his belt – or rather, the spot on his belt where the coin pouch was supposed to be.
His eyes went wide. “Wait. Where’s my…” He trailed off and looked up at Zevran with a scowl. “You!”
Zevran innocently held up the pilfered coin pouch. “Come now, you made it frightfully easy.”
“Give me that!” Oghren snapped, and he snatched the pouch from Zevran’s fingers. “Thieving pointy-eared ponce.”
Zevran snickered. Then Yara stopped and turned to them. “All right, boys, we’re here. This is where I leave you.”
“So it is,” Zevran said. He took Yara’s hand and bowed gallantly, finishing the bow with a light kiss to the back of her hand. “As we say back home, bonne niviati. I wish you a very rocky journey with the sea pounding against your prow, if that is your desire.”
Oghren chuckled. “Aye. And I hope you get to rut with the qunari too.”
Zevran snorted delicately, and Yara tsked. “Is sex the only thing you two ever think about?”
“It should be,” Zevran retorted. “If all anyone ever thought about was sex, what a fine world this would be, no?”
“Why are you goin’ to Seheron, by the way?” Oghren asked suddenly.
Yara looked at him. He was swaying slightly on his feet, but his expression was surprisingly sober.
She gave him a small smile. “You follow me from the market all the way to the docks, and this is when you decide to ask me this?”
“You know what, the dwarf makes a fair point,” Zevran said. “It seems rather unlike you to sail away like this. I would have thought you would continue your Wardenly duties.”
Yara blinked at him. “You think it’s a bad idea for me to leave my Warden duties?”
“It’s not that,” Zevran said. “It’s simply… not like you.”
Her belly twisted slightly. He wasn’t wrong. Everything she’d done in the past year had been in the service of the Wardens. And even before that, she’d always done her best to serve the needs of her clan. The one time she’d done something even a little selfish was when she’d followed Tamlen into those ruins…
Tamlen. Her gut twisted again, this time with guilt and grief along with uncertainty. And as always, she pushed the feelings aside. No time, no point, she thought. Instead, she smiled at Zevran. “Are you calling me boring?” she said.
To her mild dismay, he didn’t smile. “Not at all,” he said. “I am calling you a woman of duty and honour. Dashing off on an impulsive adventure to a strange land where you’ve never been before, at great risk to yourself?” He shrugged elegantly. “You can see why I might express a concern.”
“It worked out well enough for you,” she reasoned.
“I had the great fortune of being defeated and dominated by you, my dear,” he said. Then he stroked his chin thoughtfully. “Though it seems you might be able to claim the same fortune with our giant stoic friend, if you flex your feminine charms. Of which you have many, might I add.” He slid a salacious look over her body.
“And that’s my cue to leave,” Yara said wryly. She playfully tweaked his ear. “Be good, all right?”
“Impossible,” he purred.
Yara gave him a chiding look. “It’s not, and you know it.” She turned and smiled down at Oghren. “And you. Be kind to Felsi–”
“Hey, not so fast,” he interrupted. “You didn’t tell us why you’re goin’ on this trip. If you’re not trying to climb the qunari, then what’s the big idea?”
Yara sighed and pushed back her hood. “I… don’t really know,” she said.
Zevran and Oghren raised their eyebrows, and Yara shrugged helplessly. “I just… it just feels like the thing to do. Call it a gut feeling.”
Oghren nodded slowly. “All right, a gut feeling. I can see that. I get those sometimes. That’s how I knew I had to leave Orzammar.” He scratched his chin. “Though sometimes it just means I have to drop a load.”
Yara barked out a surprised laugh. Zevran lifted his eyes to the sky for patience, then gave Yara a charming smile. “On that delicate note: farewell, Yara Mahariel. May you find that which you seek during your journey.”
“Aye,” Oghren said. “Find whatever you’re looking for, you hear?”
“I will,” Yara said. “I hope.” She playfully tugged Oghren’s braided beard, then gave them both a warning look. “Be good, both of you.”
Zevran winked roguishly, and Oghren chuckled. Yara smiled at them, then turned and made her way along the docks toward the Rivaini ship that Sten had hired for his journey home.
Sten was waiting for her with his customary stern expression, but he wasn’t alone: Fen’ain was sitting at his feet. As soon as the mabari caught sight of Yara, his tail started to wag, but Sten spoke to him before he could move.
“Remember what we discussed,” he said sternly.
Fen’ain shifted slightly but remained seated at Sten’s feet, and Yara smiled at Sten as she approached them. “You’re the only other person that Fen’ain listens to other than me,” she told him.
“This mabari follows wisdom and strength,” Sten replied. “It is a shame that humans are not more like him.”
Yara huffed in amusement. Then Sten folded his arms. “I was not aware the mabari would be accompanying us as well.”
She winced. “Is that a problem? Can mabari not come on the ship?”
“They can,” Sten said. “But he must remain on the deck. I will not have his smell in our cabin.”
Her belly jolted in a funny way. “Our cabin?” she said.
Sten nodded. “I paid for one berth. I did not expect company during the journey. You are welcome to share with me, or you can arrange for your own place to sleep.”
Her mouth was suddenly dry. Somehow she hadn’t thought about the logistics of what it would mean to travel on a ship with Sten. Not that she’d really thought about any of this at all, but still – the idea of sleeping in the same cabin with him…
She glanced at the Rivaini ship. It wasn’t that big. Did cabins on Rivaini ships have more than one bed? Did they even have beds, or did people sleep in hammocks or something of the like?
Her mind was spinning, but Sten was waiting for an answer. She licked her lips. “You… don’t mind sharing with me?”
He frowned. “Why would I mind?”
“I don’t know,” she said. Then she laughed nervously. This seemed to be the only thing she could say today.
He continued to frown at her for a moment longer, then shrugged and unfolded his arms. “I’ve grown accustomed to your presence at night in camp. You are welcome to stay.”
She smiled at him. “It almost sounds like you enjoy my company, Sten.”
He peered carefully at her. “Is that flirting?”
She burst out a surprised laugh. Fenedhis, her cheeks were turning warm. “Why, um… why would you say that?” she said.
“The other elf advised me to look for it,” Sten said. “Was that flirting?”
Bloody Zevran, Yara thought. She swallowed before replying. “Maybe,” she admitted. “I… I don’t know.”
Sten lifted his chin slightly. “It seems that there is a lot you don’t know, kadan.”
She laughed and idly tugged a lock of her hair. “So it seems,” she said ruefully.
He studied her silently in that way he had, like she was a puzzle that he was trying to solve, and Yara waited tensely for him to speak. Usually she didn’t mind his silence; it was one of the first things that Yara had come to appreciate about him, in fact.
That wasn’t to say she was bothered by everyone else’s talking. She enjoyed the others’ chatter, and the moments when they’d sat by the campfire talking together as a group were the moments when she’d felt most at home. In those precious moments, when Leliana was strumming her lute and Wynne was knitting a scarf and softly scolding Alistair while Zevran and Oghren insulted each other, Yara could almost fool herself into thinking that this was similar to sitting with Tamlen and Ashalle and Fenarel while listening to Hah’ren Paivel’s stories after the evening meal with her clan.
But as time went on, with the Ferelden civil war and the Blight growing more urgent and more gruesome, Yara had found herself gravitating more and more toward Sten. There was something about his stillness that called to her: the aura of calm that he maintained, no matter how terrible things became. Whether they were in Redcliffe trying to deal with demons, or being ambushed by bandits or darkspawn or giant spiders while travelling or while trying to find their way through the damned Deep Roads, Sten always maintained this enviable sense of quiet, even though Yara knew he was constantly thinking and processing everything that was going on. Even when he was irritated, even when he made his sarcastic remarks and questioned her actions, he still had this perfect sense of stillness and calm.
And Yara, in turn, found herself feeling more calm when she was around him.
At this moment, however, she wasn’t feeling particularly calm. Sten was still studying her with his particular brand of focused curiosity, and her heart was thrumming in an unnerving sort of way.
Worse yet, now she couldn’t stop thinking about Zevran and Oghren’s stupid nautical dirty one-liners.
She finally caved in and spoke first. “So, er, how long is the journey to Seheron?”
He raised his eyebrows slightly. “We are not going to Seheron. We are going to Par Vollen.”
She blinked at him in genuine surprise. “We are?”
“Yes,” he said. “I must report to the Arishok.”
“Oh,” she said. “No, I mean, yes – o-of course. That makes sense.” She rubbed her nose, feeling foolish for not realizing that Par Vollen would be their destination. But her chest was really jangling with nerves now. Going to the war-torn island of Seheron was one thing; she couldn’t imagine that stepping into a perpetual war zone would feel that much different than the horrors of the past year. Going straight to the qunari homeland was another matter, however.
“You are afraid,” Sten said.
He was frowning once more. Yara squared her shoulders. “Yes,” she said truthfully. “But I’m still going to come with you.”
His expression softened slightly. “It is good to master your fear. Your courage does you credit. I will show you our cabin.” He took a step toward the gangplank.
“Oh,” Yara said quickly. “Before I forget, I – I brought you something.” She shrugged off her bag and pulled out a rectangular packet wrapped in a piece of thin cotton cloth, then handed the packet to Sten.
He untied the cotton cloth and peeled back the corner of the protective waxcloth. “What is…” He trailed off, and his eyebrows rose.
“It’s cake,” Yara explained. “Dalish fruit cake. I made it last night. To make up for the lack of cake at the feast.”
Sten blinked, then lifted his gaze from the cake to her face. “Thank you.”
She waved dismissively. “I hope you like it,” she said. “It’s – I had to improvise a bit because there was no butter left in Eamon’s kitchen, not after the big feast, so I had to use applesauce which isn’t nearly the same, but–”
Sten interrupted her. “I like it,” he said.
She cocked her head to the side. “You haven’t even had any yet.”
“It is a thoughtful gift,” he said. “I appreciate it, kadan.”
His tone was slightly softer than usual, and Yara’s heart fluttered with pleasure. She smiled at him. “You’re welcome, Sten.”
He nodded, then carefully wrapped the waxcloth back over the cake. “I might even share it.”
She chuckled. “I would hope so. It’s a rather large cake.”
“I am a large person,” he said. “Compared to the rest of you bas, at least.” He jerked his chin at Fen’ain, who was still sitting attentively at his feet. “Go.”
Fen’ain bolted up the gangplank onto the ship. Sten looked at Yara once more. “Are you ready to depart?”
Yara took a deep breath and glanced back at the Denerim docks, which were bustling with activity. People were cleaning debris from the darkspawn destruction, using fishing nets to drag debris from the water and repairing broken boats at the dock and calling out to each other, and their children were running around and shouting and playing despite the mess. There were Chantry sisters and brothers giving out food and reciting bits of the Chant, and a few opportunistic merchants trying to sell goods that had likely been gained by ill means, and it was all so incredibly loud.
She turned to Sten, who was standing silently at her side. She looked up into his stern violet eyes and nodded. “Yes,” said. “I’m ready.”
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Hello Cecília! when I got this notif I was surprised that YOU wanted a compliment from ME???? wHY??? have you met you???? but sure ok, I am very happy to oblige so you better get READY for what I have to say
OK so, the first post I saw from you this year was your SGE x HSM au, as someone who went through a HSM phase and had Zac Efron their first-ever celebrity crush,,, it. was very close to my heart. THEN you go and start to post a fac fic for it???? THEN YOU HVAE THE AUDACITY TO MAKE IT A FUCKING SHOWSTOPPER???? it's very rude and I will never forgive you for making my 14yrld dreams come true. that chapter when Agatha meets tedros at the party and he immediately simps. that was me reading it. automatic simp. idk how I’ll ever repay you for that. I probably never will but you know what?? ill spend my entire life trying to if I have to. IYNTB was the first-ever actual fic I ever read from you and that was years ago and yea it's a fandom CLASSIC I TELL YA and when YOU REWROTE IT earlier this year? I was so woefully unprepared to be able to see it. to be able to be blessed AGAIN. pls no that even when I first read it so many years ago, it never left my mind which is why I was so stunned when you rewrote it and it was BETTER? no that's not allowed here ma’am
your Nicola and hunter post??? YEA THAT'S SOME TOP NOTCH, A+ LEVEL THINKING I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW DETAILED IT WAS AND YEA HUNTER RIGHTS MF. if anyone ever dares says another bad word about nicola i’ll just point them in that posts direction because it says EVERYTHING. you basically wrote a rewrite of TCY and as expected it was everything. and the PJO, again, the amount of effort, time and thought you put into it is something I can genuinely only dream about doing. and that tagatha dating simulator au, it was basically like a mini fic and I genuinely don't know how you thought of it. I've said this before but your dreams HAVE to premonitions from god. that's the only answer. basically, your brain is spectacular and every time you say anything you are correct and we stan. the amount of small intricate details you put into your works is SHJDRGH every time I'm about to lose my mind because of how genius it is. The way you can write something such as first and always and then CMG. the smut to fluff switch, WOW only very talented people can do that. yea, when I die, don't even put my name or birthdate on my gravestone, I just want that fic there, every single chapter, every single word just perfectly engraved right there. please. the way you interpreted the prompts and how they’re all linked and there's a timeline. SHDBHDJSG does your brain ever hurt from how big it is???. every time you post a chapter, I go through all the chapters again but in order of the dates because it just makes it all that much better and AHSDG I just love it ok. First and always was written SO WELL!!! it was smut but yea it was cute and sweet and ty for being the only one brave enough to finally do it. we’re all just cowards livin' in your pioneering shadow.
AND YOUR DRAWINGS. every time you post one I'm in AWE, they look so professional and it's very unfair that you can write as well as you do AND draw. we call that fucking talent in these neck of the woods sir. and you design buildings for college while doing all this??? How? in my first week last semester my only assignment that week was make a meme and I struggled to get anything else done that week (I DIDNT EVEN fucking make the meme - my brother just sent me one)
now I'm done simping over your content, let me simp over you :D you have this very sophisticated, witty type of humour and let me tell you,,, it's fucking great. every time I see a comment of yours on whatever post it may be, the compliment is always so creative and just f u n n y ok. you’re just so cool. when I'm 19 I hope I can be as cool as you (probably won’t happen tho it'll take too much time). but you also seem so sweet, supportive and kind. you just seem so confident and you’re also so pretty!! and I have to apologise for being so awkward and you having to deal with it. but you're a queen. Honestly. every time you come up in my notifs its like getting the seal of approval from God and it just feels so good so ty for that! I also get very surprised because,,, WHY????
basically, I want your mind and your talent pls and stop being such a nice person, its too much Cecília
Have a great day and I'm sorry this took so long! <3.
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