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Hey just a question actually many questions lmao

So i know you are valentino, but specifically do you feel like a duplicate of him in real life, or do you feel more like the actual, hazbin hotel valentino?

Do you have memories from the hazbin hotel universe or just identify with the knes shown in the show?

If you feel like the actual hazbin hotel val, how do you think you got here?

I find it all very interesting but dont know if my questions are making sense...

Also, what/who did you identify with before hazbin hotel came out? Were you just yourself?

Are you plural or part of a system to your knowledge?

Do you have a name you use outside of tumblr, and if so, do you feel more connected with that one than valentino? Do you introduce yourself as valentino in irl social situations as well?

Sorry if this is a lot, im not trying to force you to answer all of them but i hope my questions make sense!!

I feel like myself and not like a copy of myself . I do not think I am physically in Hell or have wings attached to me, but I don’t think that changes who I am in mind and soul . I don’t feel like a different Valentino at all in that sense .

Considering that, I do feel as if the events of the show were real, but I don’t like talking about it in the way that others seem to . I know “ kin memories ” are what most bitches use to verify their identity, but I find it cheap and easy to lie about . I felt what some may call species dysphoria before I was familiar with Hazbin Hotel, and I would specifically want to be taller ( unnaturally so ) with red eyes, large wings, and an extra set of arms . I found it uncomfortable to be perceived as human from a very early age . It caused me genuine mental distress . I was also naturally drawn to, and worked in, the sex industry since long before knowing what the fuck a Vivziepop was . I first produced porn before I knew what sex was, and I got several others involved . Obviously, that ended horribly . It’s definitely part of why I’m so fucked up . My personality has been constant, at least for a very long time . I am emotionally unstable due to my BPD . My fear of abandonment ( which is also a BPD symptom ) also caused me to have a fixation on contracts and soul — bonding . I had intense mental breakdowns for years over not being able to own souls . I have family members who worked in industries and in spaces that clearly served as some sort of inspiration to Vivienne . I’ve always found it comforting because of the sense of familiarity . This shit is so deeply personal to me, and it’s tangible . I feel as if parallel experiences run so much deeper than alleged kin memories . I think someone can have a delusion of a memory or can lie about it, and I think that is what goes on a lot online because a lot of these bitches bare no resemblance to their alleged source . If you claim to be someone who is known for having a strong personality or several socially unacceptable characteristics, I expect for those traits to exist inside you and actually impact your experience . Otherwise, you’re just some bitch who had a dream . Yes, watching the show did feel deeply personal and like opening up old wounds, and there’s a lot I could say about it, including what isn’t shown directly on — screen, but I just don’t want to attract the “ h— hi ! I’m V . . . V . . . Vox ! 😣 Valentino, DNI ! ” bitches . I firmly believe most “ kinnie ” bitches are roleplayers, and if you claim to be Angel or I and have never worked in the sex industry, I 100% think you’re a LARPer .

I genuinely have no idea why I am here . I consider this to be a Double Hell of sorts considering how much I fucking hate it though !

Before Hazbin Hotel came out, I portrayed myself as broadly non — human ( I have since early childhood ) . I still owned this blog for a little while before, actually, and I mostly interacted with posts about being Cluster B . Like I said, I found being perceived as human to be distressing . I didn’t align myself with any specific “ character ” . I think that having several distinct identities while expressing that they are all you ( I’m not necessarily talking about systems here ), whether over time or at the same time, is the mark of a roleplayer or a confused bitch with no sense of identity outside of their hyperfixations . I would not take a bitch seriously if they claimed to be, for example, Velvette, and then claimed to be an entirely different bitch with an entirely different personality a year ago . These are the same bitches who are nothing without their alleged memories . I strongly believe many of them fake mental illnesses to seem more valid, aaand that pisses me the fuck off as someone who actually has to live like this .

I’m not plural / part of a system . I am not an “ introject ” or a “ fictive ” . It’s just me, and I consider myself to be the same bitch as I was before I watched Hazbin Hotel .

I do have another name I go by often, and I am fine being referred to by either that or Val ( entino ) . I have engaged in activities that have made it necessary to use an alias many times .

Your questions are very welcome ~ ! If I didn’t want to answer them, I wouldn’t . I’m not the type of bitch who would feel pressured into doing so, so there is nothing to worry about ~ !

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ADHD (not that this is a mental illness but it is an issue that stems from my brain being Different so I'm putting it here)

Schizoaffective disorder, depressive type

Major depressive disorder

Generalized anxiety disorder

Excoriation disorder (known as dermatillomania to some folks)

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Severe scoliosis (I don't remember the degree of the curves but I've got it in the upper and lower spine and it's worse in the upper part and there's also a twist in the middle)

Classic migraine

Fibromyalgia

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Endometriosis

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