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making my own post about ed while actually medically obese.
I've been doing this shit since 11 or younger, my weight went from average to uw but didn't have scales or much photos survive all the time. I almost went the mi@ route even without Internet (mid 20s)
I became medically obese because I developed BED after traumatic events along with psych meds in my early 20s.
I developed full blown anorexia at 22, kick started by going to a dietician that put me on diets that were legit 500 calories. Despite all of my behaviour, I restricted without calories counting and didn't know much. Then I learned about it through "normal ppl" weight loss places and here we are.
I lost weight very fast until I reached 60 kg, from 106 kg to 60 in about 4-5 months.
I recovered for a while at 25, but it was unmonitored and basically a big binge cycle. I went through a fitbro era there, macros obsessed and protein, but the binging got to me.
First of all, everyone will say mean comments. You'll be ashamed to get out of the house and you know it's not in your head. You're actually obese, the number say it, people say it to your face.
Second, when you start restricting. Everyone is happy about your diet. For me it's all I could talk about, excited about my progress, obsessed. No one considered it wrong, they enabled and fueled my behaviour more.
Third, you'd go through different phases of weight loss and different bodies. People will have comments "yeah you're good but your body still has a belly or thighs or whatever, you need to lose more"
Fourth, you'll be praised for your control and refusing food. You're known as the diet person. "I wish I had your control, wish I was that lucky". People will come to you for tips. One triggering moment when I told a fat person at the time while I was skinny aka average, that I lost it in 5 month and they said not fast enough.
Fifth, you're going to deny your ed because it's "not bad enough" despite having all the rot, symptoms, behaviors, everything. Because you're not at your ugw or uw.
Sixth, plateau at an average weight hurts like a mf, hair fell out, heart was aching like crazy, my teeth were damaged from c/s and binging. All that shit.
Seventh. Yes loose skin, lots of it, collapsed stomach muscles, collapsed muscles in your arms. Even if you become ugw, your body will not look like sp0 and you'll feel like shit.
Eighth, god forbids if you decide to recover or enter a binge cycle. God fucking forbids, everyone will bully you. They'd say you lost your control. Pull up old pictures and say how pretty and skinny you were (mother in my case), everyone will do that. Even now, my family still fat shames me, throws around comments I need to diet or hit the gym.
Ninth, tip, keep your fucking clothes and store them. I'm lucky I still had all my old obese clothes because I would have had to buy an entire wardrobe. "it's not gonna be me I'll stay skinny", nope trust me, lies, ed is unpredictable, it's a disease and mental disorder. The @n@ to bed pipeline is real. I don't mean to scare anyone, but I think some of you know this already.
Tenth, again people will notice your relapse and encourage it even if they know about your ed history.
11th, recovery places are toxic as shit. They have attractive to skinny people, lip service, and predatory in the financial sense. Plus, the people are comptetive even there. I rather talk about my recovery with my ed friends that I've known for a while. It's not as triggering. Also, you can recover however you fucking want, there's no script, harm reduce, whatever. You don't have to listen to anyone asides from a therapist if they are right for you . Plus, recovery accounts are restriction focused not mi@ or bed friendly, similar to here in a way, 🤷🏻
For me personally, working on the thoughts and reducing the habits. But I want a lifestyle change to reach an average weight and stay there. All the brain rot still lives, but it's a compromise because I can't cope with still being obese.
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Unpopular opinion?
I have a complex relationship with my 3d
Am I suffering? Yes
Is it fun? Yes
Food doesn't feel good at all, not even in previous recovery attempts
I faked confidence in my body but was sewer slidal the entire time
My 3d made make a lot of friends and be in a community where I express my unhinged thoughts without judgement and it kept me alive from impulsive sewer slide attempts
Do I want to be skinny? Yes
Do I love the process? Yes. I went through @n@ and gymbro, I love counting my little calories, seeing the number on the scale go down, pretending my life problems don't exist outside of my scale
Do I fucking struggle because of it? Yes. No matter now how much I lost it was never enough, it made fail, lost hair, the binging, losing control, wanting to kms every time my weight increased
This ed is part of me, with its good and bad. I don't see myself recovering fully. I don't see myself recovering. Maybe harm reduction at best and being a fitbro.
Also as an ftm in a homophobic family and body of an obese 50 year old woman. It's the only thing I can do now to feel better about my flesh prison
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