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heffrondriving · 2 years

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I'm sorry if this is a little assholely but after seeing your vent post I went looking for where you said to not tag names and the only place I saw it was at the end of your very long tags,, so assuming i didnt miss another more obvious place...? Have you thought of just putting that in the post itself? Because anyone who's seeing it second hand (as in seeing it after someone else rebloged it) won't see that tag + not everyone reads tags, you know :( sorry that it makes you uncomfortable but if you put it somewhere more visible, like in the body of the post, then at least people def will see it. Sending love either way 💕

nahhh nothing to be sorry for issall totally cool and encouraged and you are very kind,, tbh i was lowkey waiting around for something like this and i'm kinda glad for it and also surprised it's not at least fifty times worse??? in all honesty i think i am in dire need and deserving of the hardest dose of criticism at this point for all the stupid messy personal posts i make on a sleep-deprived whim, as i am fully aware that this is not the place for it, and i am and should never be exempt from getting my necessary comeuppance should it arise. and like i said, this quandary was completely of my own fault. i have made my stance on personal comfort posts clear numerous times before and only put them in subtler places like the end of my annoying-ass rambly tags because i really don't wanna bother people with something that sounds so trivially inconsequential, and it makes me incredibly anxious to add them in the post itself (as i reckon it just outright ruins the whole content and that's such a selfish and gross thing for me to do personally,, like who tf am i to ask anything of anyone ech :-/). but this is still my sole responsibility to properly handle and conduct myself online, and i'm so sorry if i came across like i'm attempting to pass the blame for my own self-implicated neglect, as no one else should be subject to dealing with my mistakes. (like no joke i screamed aloud when i read that you looked through my posts or tags??? PLS LICHRALLY NEVER DO THAT EVER THAT'S A VV BAD IDEA ACTUAL ONLINE EQUIVALENT OF DUMPSTER DIVING VIBES EXCEPT THE DUMPSTER'S ON FIRE AND CAUSES MAJOR BRAINROTOFFISITIS!!!!! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`))

i've had a well-needed rest hrk composed myself, deleted my prev post (i'm also thinking of removing the post that spurred it just to be sure, t'was super terrible anyway lmao), and muted my notifs for the time being, so please do feel free to tag anything however you wish at this point—i know i'm making an absolute fool out of myself for this full 180 departure (just in time for april 1st tho so swings and roundabouts-) but yeah that's completely fine idk, and if my walnut brain has anything otherwise to say abt it they will be catching These Hands according to the Fists Of Fury Code!!!!! ᕦ(ò皿óᕦ) but in all seriousness, emotional dysregulation is the absolute worst but i understand that maybe i can't really set boundaries for something fully well out of my control, so i just give up the ghost on this bc what else is there to do. c'est la vie if it sucks for me, tough shit @ self tough it out bebs u asked for this :^) though i hopefully can, however, keep everything else out of sight and out of mind so that i don't have to deal with the self-imposed repercussions by willingly setting my triggers off and lashing out incessantly. like mmm that's toxic shit girlie no one wants that here bls get u some therapy pare *whaps myself with an abaniko fan*. it's 100% on me if i choose to expand the tags on my notifs, and what happens in other ppl's blogs should be none of my fucking business and i'm just a super nosy lurker goblin sometimes ig exhibit a: this is what being a chronic cave hermit does to the human psyche. irreversible damage u.......*steven he voice* EMOTIONAL DAMAGE!!!!! my sincerest apologies again for all the trouble and i really hope this answer doesn't come off as too sardonic or acerbic or anything of the sort, i know i goof a lot but i really do mean all of it, even if trying to convey appropriate tone indication in text form is so whack 😩

also i'm really sorry for this mf ten-volume novel series of an answer (i really hope no one's insane enough to actually read this....whatever the hell this is .-.). thank you so much for your patience and understanding, and please keep the love and give it to another funky cool blog who's worthy of it and not deserving of getting squished like a pestilent vermin under your steel-toed bootheel!! /lh ~(இ௰இ~) anywayyy let's ignore (slash unfollow hardblock permanent dni etc. etc....very good ideas, those, bc if i could block myself i would without hesitation smh get this chernobyl elephant's foot outta my feed) this and my other inane bullshittery and let bygones be bygones and go back to our silly manband content, shall we??? this blog is for no-braincell shits and pure dumbassery first and foremost i promise......also i have more poorly-made sh!tposts and kendall's pretty grampa face stuff which i wanna plague the btr tag with if that's still allowed pls ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

(^^^ i can't believe i actually got to use this gif for something sdjsfjksd)

#tbh i'm genuinely shocked i'm not getting more hatemail at this point (this is an implicit urge to action!) bc lawd gawd i am obnoxious??#you know when you say things and the moment it leaves your mouth you instantly know that you fucked up??? that is me all the time #i have zero filter and it gets the best of me and i just really need ppl to tell me to shut tf up so this is good. more of this is good #i'll delete this too just so it wouldn't clutter up the feed i'm so sorry ahh ;-;#full disclosure there was another ask regarding this matter that i never answered bc it got washed out of my slow braim and by the time i #remembered it felt too uncomfortably late to respond yk so. i hope this could be some kinda reparation #fr why do i look forward to getting slammed down;;; watching me get my ass kicked is cathartic ngl. painful and tr//um//tic but still >:3 #this is what u get allen!!! hoshit here comes the undertaker with a folding chair ready to body avalanche the weak spine outta u hofuckk #i'm rambling nonsense in tags again when this answer already has no right being this long sorry drank too much coffee fushfuahj #anon #all the windows down #do pretty girl don't speak

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tzudism · 7 years

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Crossroads

Chapter 3:

It was finally time to hit up “The Show”. We met up with a bunch of other Onces to enter the recording. As soon as everyone gets inside I feel so nervous, whether we actually get to go backstage or not didn’t really matter right now, I just wanted Twice to do well. The guys and I were fortunate enough to get a good spot and were standing in the center of the audience, but a little to the left so we could have a chance to see Twice as they enter and leave the stage. Then just like that Twice comes on stage and a wave of cheers come from the entire crowd. The girls smile and wave at the fans as they prepare for the recording. Something seemed a little off with Sana though. It almost seemed like she was scanning the audience looking for something as she smiled and waved. Before I can think any further about it, the girls rush in position for the performance and a silence enters the room. The guys and I made sure to learn all the fan chants before we came to Korea in preparation, but nothing could prepare us for this. I have always heard the loud fan chants at music shows online but, I never would have thought hearing in person that it would be THIS loud. At the Twiceland concert, I can understand the volume because the amount of people in the venue, but there couldn’t have been more than a hundred people here, yet it sounded just as loud. I was caught so off guard that I couldn’t even start on time with the rest of the crowd, but I managed to join in the middle. The girls were on point as usual, you would never have guessed that they had three concerts in a row just days before, they danced effortlessly. As soon as the song ended the girls ran backstage to their managers who gave them high fives which I thought was really cool. Suddenly Sana pulls to her managers ear and points in our direction. I feel chills down my spine thinking to myself

“No way, is this actually happening!?”

I pull the guys in quickly, “Did you see Sana just now!? She pointed at us!”

“Ok first off, of course I saw it, I only have eyes for Sana, secondly she was pointing at me don’t get it twisted.” Mark quips

I try to ignore him, “Anyway, do you guys think their managers are gonna meet us outside?”

“You mean the managers are gonna cash us ous-”

I interrupt, “No Mark, stop right there.”

We head outside and as soon as we get out the door a manager signals us to head his way.

“Well how bout dah”

“Mark I swear we’re about to leave you behind.” I say rolling my eyes

“Ok ok I’m done I promise” he laughs

As we get closer I realize who is greeting us.

“Oh you’re Pinky manager! It’s so cool to meet you!” I say exitedly

“I’m happy to see you recognize me haha, but try to keep it down. We can’t have the other fans seeing you here about to meet the girls. The last thing we want is other fans getting mad.” he says in a low voice.

“Honestly, I’m surprised you’re even allowing this.” Joshua replies

“Well the girls have been working non-stop for months now so we figured that hanging out with some fans that they want to get close with would make them happy.”

You can clearly see that the girl’s happiness makes him happy as he said that with big smile.

We enter backstage and it looked so much bigger than I had imagined. All the workers were in a rush getting ready for the next recording it seemed like such organized chaos. We come to the room where Twice is and I feel butterflies in my stomach, I turn around and the other guys seem just as nervous as I am. I take a deep breath and follow Pinky manager in the room only to find no one else inside. My back eases from all the tension.

“Where is everyone?” Joshua asks

“They’re doing some reaction video at the moment, but they should be here soon. Feel free to have any snacks while you wait.”

They’re tons of snacks on a long table. I check one end and notice that there’s a huge chunk of it separated from the rest with a tag that reads

“Momo’s Snacks Only! Touch And You Die! (ꐦ ಠ皿ಠ )”

I let out a huge laugh and show the guys and they start laughing too.

“Wow having fun without us huh? What’s so funny?”

I turn around and see Momo peeking between our shoulders.

“Hey! Give me that! Do you wanna die!? These are mine!” She says as she glares

“We weren’t actually gonna eat them we just thought it was funny and cute how you wrote that and even put an emoticon on it” Joshua explains

“C..cute? Shut up don’t lie to me.” She glares some more

“You guys seem like you’re having fun.” Jihyo says as she enters with everyone else.

“Mark! I saw you guys as we were perfoming!” Sana exclaims and gives Mark a huge hug

Mark turns bright red, “I..uhh…yeah.”

“I told Pinky manager to come pick you guys up outside.” Sana says with a big smile trying to look into Mark’s eyes

“Oh yeah, thanks for that, Pinky manager is really cool..ahem..” Mark says trying to compose himself

Suddenly Joshua feels a tug on his shirt, he turns and sees Mina pulling his sleeve

“Hey you.” She says quietly with a smile

Joshua turns over trying to cover his face which has a giant smile

“H..hi Mina.” He manages to let out.

I try to control my laughter watching my two friends lose their minds, so I turn around and see Tzuyu laughing out loud. We make eye contact and suddenly start laughing together. Tzuyu walks over and I try to calm both my laughter and my nerves.

“I’m sorry for them, they’re so extra in their own ways, its hilarious.” She says still laughing a little.

“Oh don’t be, those two are exactly the same way.” I calm down a bit and manage to talk properly, “It’s funny how the youngest one apologizes for the older ones, you seem so mature.”

“Well someone has to be an actual adult around here.” She says confidently, flipping her hair.

“I take it back, you’re just as extra as them.” I let out with a chuckle.

“Wow! I am not!” She says as she gives me a push

“Hey guys!” Nayeon yells out, seemingly upset that no one is giving her attention. “What did you think of our performance? I was pretty great wasn’t I?” She says with a confident smile.

“What’s great is how you messed up the choreo at the end! You thought no one noticed huh!?” Jeongyeon laughs and sticks her tongue out at Nayeon.

“I did not! That…that was just something I added myself! I just didn’t tell anyone” Nayeon says trying to cover up her mistake.

“No nom, you dephinatly meffed up” Momo says stuffing her face with jokbal she had under her snack pile.

“Momo! Please! What about your image!? Don’t do that in front of the fans!” Dahyun and Chaeyoung plead.

“It’s fine ok, Momo will eat however Momo wants to eat ok.” Momo says as she takes another bite.

Jihyo comes over, “Please ignore them, honestly what did you think of performance? I hope you had a good time.”

“Oh don’t worry about, we find this hilarious, we’re having fun.” Joshua reassures Jihyo.

“Yeah and your performance was totally on point! Can’t wait for the next one!” Mark says

“Oh good! It makes me glad we were able to give our fans a good performance! We’ll do even better next time I promise!” Jihyo says with a pleased smile.

Sana chimes in, “Can’t wait for the next one? Does that mean you’re coming to the other music shows too?” She stares at Mark intently waiting for an answer.

“Yeah of course, we planned it that we would be here for your entire promotion period.” Mark manages to stare back at Sana. Not expecting him to, Sana blushes and turns away for a second.

“Oh good.” Mina says quietly, almost no one hears her.

“Yupp! I get to see more penguin dances!” Joshua says with a smile. Mina surprised he managed to hear her, gives a huge smile, making Joshua turn away bright red once again.

“Oh they’re back at it again.” Tzuyu says shaking her head

“I know right, they’re so obvious about it, its so funny.” I say trying to hide that I’m kind of jealous.

“Well if you guys are going to attend every show, we might as well do this after every show too.” Tzuyu suggests, “You guys are fun to hang out with.” She says with a smile

“Ahem..yeah that sounds awesome! Will your managers be ok with us coming by after every show?” I say trying to compose myself after seeing her smile again.

“Yeah we can convince them! Don’t worry about it! Leave it to us!” The No Jam Bros yell out

“I’ll take care of it, if you leave it to those two we’ll never see you guys again.” Tzuyu jokes

“I’ll take your word for it.” I say hopefully

“Well how do we get in contact with you? You know for after the shows? Can’t always rely on Sana finding you in the audience.” Tzuyu says

“AND WHY NOT?” Sana and Mark say defensively

“Because Sana gets distracted easily, I’m surprised she remembered where you guys were today.” Dahyun chimes in

“Oh yeah she’s right haha” Sana admits

Mark agrees “Oh that’s fine, I do that too sometimes”

“Dude you’re too easy.” I think to myself.

“We’ll just have Pinky manager or someone else find you guys after every show, I’m sure it’ll work out!” Jihyo says reassuringly.

Sure enough, for the full two weeks of promotions Pinky manager somehow found us after every show and we sneaked into the backstage to hang out with Twice, and we all had fun and grew closer as time went on. But one day after the last of the goodbye stages as usual, Pinky manager finds us and we enter the backstage door…

*click**FLASH*

“What was that!?” Joshua says worried

“I’m sure it was nothing. Probably just some fans trying to sneak a peek into the backstage. Hurry the girls are waiting for you.” Pinky manager says reassuringly

“Alright then, I hope so.” I say as I look back into the rushing crowd.

“Hey guys! Did you enjoy the show? Did you catch all the hearts we sent out to all the Onces?” Nayeon says excitedly

“Yeah, you guys were pretty creative with all the spots you chose to send hearts it was more fun to watch than usual.” I tell her.

“So what are you gonna do now that our promotions are over? Have you been to any tourist spots yet?” Jeongyeon asks curiously

“Umm not really, we’ve mostly just been enjoying life in the city and watching your shows.” Joshua replies.

“I see! When are you guys leaving to go back to America?” She asks

“Never! You’re staying forever right!?” Sana hugs Mark and stares with big eyes

“Yes..we’re staying forever, we’re totally staying.” Mark says looking at Joshua and I, as if he was begging to stay.

“No Mark, we gotta go back home at the end of the week, trust I wanna stay too.” Joshua lets out a sigh, he looks at Mina and she has a frown on her face, “Actually yeah we’re staying.”

“No guys, we’re leaving at the end of the week, I wanna stay just as much as you guys ok.” I say sternly

“Well how about this? Let’s take you to Bukhansan National Park tomorrow!” Jeongyeon says exitedly

“Yeah we talked this over as a group last night, we wanna hang out with you guys one last time before you leave! We’d prefer our last meeting wouldn’t be after a show.” Jihyo explains

“Oh wow that sounds awesome!” I say exitedly, “but will your managers be ok with this? I mean hanging out privately backstage is one thing but going somewhere public like a national park? What if people see?”

“Don’t worry!” Momo jumps out, “we’re good at sneaking around, we sneak out to get food late at night all the time, this should be easy.” She says proudly.

I look at the guys and I can tell we’re all thinking the same thing,

“Let’s do it!” We yell out happily

Dahyun comes next to me and nudges me with her shoulder, “You know this was all Tzuyu’s idea.” She says with a smirk

“Dahyun!” Tzuyu yells out

“She couldn’t stand the idea of not seeing you one last time haha” Chaeyoung joins in on the joke

“Oh my gosh, I never said anything like that!” She says adamantly

“Ok ok I believe you”…I didn’t

I was really exited for the trip to Bukhansan National Park, especially since it meant alone time with Twice, more specifically with Tzuyu. Although for some reason, underneath all the joy I had an uneasy feeling lingering from moments earlier that I just couldn’t shake off, but I tried my best to ignore it, tomorrow should be fun.

To be continued…

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