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how do i turn off this awful new feature on tumblr mobile (android user, US) where you're shown a random reblog comment sometimes below a post???
#this is making me Unable to use this app or Think#i dont know if its related to my ADD or which disability honestly but ive always had this Thing where#i cant fucking READ if theres something lower on the page with color or notably different/distracting#i will literally just Skip to that and read it and try to force myself back & its So hard#i only got back into reading heavily bc reading fanfic on my phone allows me to not see the next text until im reading it –#i read from the bottom of the screen slowly scrolling up and revealing more text as i go#this taught me that for books i can do similar with a physical piece of paper/card or something like that#but tumblr is different?? bc the content varies wildly and i cant slowly scroll up each item like that#so i bring up most of the post and see the Extra text and the lil green reblog thing and my eyes Fly to it first#skhfksjc#feeling Insane and also Deranged#real hashtag disabled hours🤪🤪✨ im Losing My Mind.#tumblr update#mobile update#personal#adhd#.txt#maria is literally just rambling. hi
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something I love about kavik is that he’s one of the only protagonists across the avatar franchise who is even remotely bourgeois. like, every other main character either grew up in a mansion or a literal palace, or grew up in abject poverty starving on the street. kavik faces xenophobia and exploitation as a water tribe immigrant living in the earth kingdom, but he also like. lives in a nice (but modest) house. both his parents are alive and love him very much. his formative trauma was that time he got stuck in a blizzard and his brother got frostbite and a couple of his fingers fell off so now he has to wear gloves. his biggest problem at the beginning of the narrative is the fact that his brother is an asshole. in fact it continues to be the main problem in his life. and the book even sort of lampshades this fact by having him tell yangchen some elaborate tragic backstory that he made up on the spot, that we, as readers, like yangchen, immediately believe because this is so par for the course with avatar characters. but no. he’s literally middle class.
#and he just decides to be a freak about it regardless#kavik#the dawn of yangchen#I guess u could argue that rangi is also bourgeois#but she grew up in a mansion so like.#anyway have I mentioned how much I love kavik lately#like he is so fucking funny#he’s just some guy but also he’s deranged but also he’s a superspy but also he’s pathetic#my brother also sucks so bad so I do feel a deep kinship with him in this way#his guilt complex is insane tho#like he gets caught in a blizzard and immediately assumes that HE TRIGGERED IT?????#what is WRONG with this guy!!!!!!!!!#god fucking bless#(fwiw KALYAAN probably triggered it. what with his bad vibes and smug aura.)
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jimmy walking up on set every single day just reinventing the way humans can look at another with a love so palpable and plain to see it drives people to the brink of suicide (it's me. im people)
#i know im just repeating myself at this point but like. insanity derangement mental illness#ALSO THAT BED SCENE MADE ME FEEL STUFF AND NOT JUST BECAUSE OF THE PHI/NONG OF IT ALL BUT WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT THAT#last twilight the series#monica watches last twilight#morkday#m: txt
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Hoyoverse's children in a nutshell
Fly me 2 the moon: First and oldest child, long gone RIP. Their legacy is having the first ever Kiana Kaslana
Zombiegal Kawaii: basically dead, hardly anyone even knew about her
Houkai Gakuen 2 (aka Gun Girls Z; GGZ): Next child, oldest, small and niche but dedicated fanbase, still going in CN server. Very gay and depressing, incredibly convoluted lore.
Honkai Impact 3rd: Took after GGZ a lot then became the favorite child. Still gay and depressing but more hopeful. Definitely a lesbian. They also really like flashy combat, philosophy, and science fiction.
Genshin Impact: The popular kid, and spoiled brat. They're very bisexual and very into religious themes and every culture and myth imaginable.
Tears of Themis: Probably the only cishet male child. Their fans are fewer but well fed and satisfied. (I dont know nearly enough about their story and themes to know its personality tho)
Honkai Star Rail: Takes a lot from big sis hi3rd (depressed but hopeful gays), and probably genderfluid. Ppl love it, theyre popular but it doesnt get into their head as much compared to Genshin. They're also really into exposed shoulders and internet memes.
Zenless Zone Zero: New kid on the block with furries and cyborgs. They are the youngest, most punk, and definitely into western action rpgs more than their older siblings.
#if i am mistaken feel free to correct me#but guys. as a genshin fan. you just Know theyre a spoiled brat and ungrateful to their fanbase#and you wished that genshin had nearly as much char development as hi3rd chars#hsr i may not play it but it really seems to lean into its more deranged side much more and i like it#its also really polished so good for them#last thing i heard abt ToT is they got fed really well with their hot dudes so good for them#tho i know nothing abt its...actual plot#ZZZ looks really fun and flashy and i like how theyre finally experimenting with different kinds of characters more#you can play as a BEAR. a CYBORG. and more big boobs. in the same game. awesome.#GGZ is as insane and complicated and gay as per usual#and rip fly me to the moon and zombie gal#evelynpr genshin#evelynpr honkai#honkai#honkai impact#honkai impact 3rd#hi3rd#genshin#genshin impact#hsr#honkai star rail#ggz#zzz#zenless zone zero#tears of themis#das a lotta tags#hoyoverse#mihoyo
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how do the mounders get even better every session. what the heck. if my creative niche were writing instead of art it would be all over for you guys
#secret life spoilers#the mounders#secret life#life series smp#trafficblr#mcyt#pearl and bdubs insisting joel moves into mumbo’s house. hello#contrasting mumbo going red and actively trying to construct rupe goldberg machines to kill them and they’re like ‘mumbo my friend mumbo :]’#and joel going around culling horses for vengence/enrichment? and that actually causes some strife LOL#but AGAIN SPOILERS FOR SECRET LIFE SESSION 7. leaving off with two famously deranged reds and a scarlet pearl team??#I don’t think. I think I’ve mourned the possibility of a joel W honestly. but. I am SO excited they’re for aure taking people down with them#(and who could say. I think this season’s red life mechanics could really benefit joel. who is also good at surviving as a red for forever)#sorry joel main bias but they are all SO good. I miss mumbo I think his teammates are gonna kick up a fuss in his honor#like every phase and progression of them. SO good. I feel insane.#begging pleading cool thing are made about them by cool people but I may have to throw my rocks into the stone soup too. a heem heem
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things that feel very vernon coded to me : fucking while you’ve still got your skirt on and just bunching it up over your hips 🤕
#j talks.#vn thoughts.#sometimes I’m normal about him other times it’s 00:37am and i feel deranged. idk#i also feel like he likes fishnets and/or thigh highs but that is a separate discussion i feel .#him insisting on keeping it on when he undresses u because its so pretty :/#(if this post self destructs in the morning when i’m awake and less insane mind ur own business) (bye)
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Watching people freak out over the Percy Jackson tv show and talk about what they liked/didn't like and what the writers kept and left out of the show is really giving me perspective on what a rabid and insane Wingfeather Saga fan I am because they sound like me whenever I start talking about it. All of them. The good, the bad and the ugly, I am all of these reactions and more. I am insane, totally obsessed, hyperfixated, and overly paranoid. Possibly deranged.
On the other hand, listening to all these people rant and rave (in good and bad ways) about the show is making me feel much more normal about my Wingfeather obsession. xD
#the wingfeather saga#percy jackson#the wingfeather saga tv show#percy jackson tv show#this and other things I post at almost 3am#and I mean I'm like this whenever I get obsessed with something wingfeather's just the current thing#I also keep mentally comparing reactions to how I feel about the LOTR movies just for a bit more neutral perspective#I've had longer to reflect on the LOTR movies and how I feel about them and the movies are finished#wingfeather show is just beginning#I don't know if I've been this insane and deranged over something at the same time an adaptation was releasing#since Narnia#I mean kind of with the hobbit movies but it wore off quicker with them#Narnia went on for YEARS#I say that like my obsession with Narnia has stopped#it has not#but oh my word#ask 9-12 year old me what she thought of Narnia#and she would have talked at you for HOURS#days even#but I was less paranoid and anxious and jaded then#I wish I was still like that now :/
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kidnaps con o’neill and sits him in a chair and rips the bag off his head and shines a bright lamp directly in his face just so I can ask him what exact thoughts were going through his mind when izzy does that lil gasping shudder when ed pats him on the back at the end of ep 4
#I NEED TO KNOW IF IT WAS INTENTIONAL#I mean like. I feel like it has to be but also I need legitimate validation that it was intentional with the exact meaning that I interpret#like what WAS that. I know it’s literally a 0.2 millisecond long scene but GOD. it makes me so insane. like I can’t believe it exists#can u tell its 3am#izzy hands#ofmd#hm. okay after watching it again I’ve come to the realization that I’m just deranged and delusional.
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my deepest gratitude to everyone who put up with this circa june 22 to... actually probably june again oh my god. that's crazy
#🐾#doesn't seem like a lot but when they're 99% original posts just being insane then it's deranged#and also j look at him now and feel nothing but an old fondness like for a cousin or something i don't know
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oh my god last night i got way too into fall out boy lore and then dumped it all on anna. she went to bed halfway through my incoherent babbling and now she’s gonna wake up to see all the insane things i said
#peach rambles#scribscitt#I WAS LITERALLY SCOURING WIKIPEDIA PAGES . ANALYZING SONG LYRICS. SOMEBODY SEDATE ME#i meant to go to sleep relatively early but i just checked the last message i sent in the new channel i created specifically to talk about#fucking fall out boy and it was sent at 4:06AM .#and i started sending anna messages at 2:30 AM . THAT’S AN HOUR AND A HALF OF FALL OUT BOY#NEVER MIND THAT I WAS DOING ALL MY DERANGED RESEARCH PRIOR TO THAT. GOOD GOD#anna if you’re reading this. im so sorry and also please read it so you can feel rabid insane too
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a lover and a......not lover.
#miraculous ladybug#princess fragrance#dark cupid#akuma#midnight draws#feels weird to tag their non akumatized selves but!#rose lavillant#le chien kim#ml fanart#combing through the heaps of art....slowly relearning how to draw a whole class of these guys#watch my art steadily get more niche!#surprise suprise i delight in them interacting#heartbreaking (haha) lack of it. anyway these two would NOT like each other#literally their motivations and powers are opposites. Omg i want everyone to love me vs NO ONE SHOULD LOVE. EVER#also saw someone insult her deisgn.....smh could never be me. some of us love bright colors and characters who look insane#the pink eyes??? Delightfully deranged
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no one asked and yet i continue to deliver. i have another short tidbit from my p5 rwby au.
#persona 5#shuake#akeshu#p5#my fic#p5 rwby au#this is a short one#sort of a bridge between the last one and the one that's coming next#which i promise it is! i'm in the middle of it.#i am back to my roots with this one which is less fight scenes and more long conversations abt feelings#it’s also lowkey my thesis abt how akira is just as insane abt akechi as akechi is abt him#akira is NOT the normal one he is ALSO deranged just in a different direction
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can you believe that js were sulking at each other before shooting LT? at least aof did us good and made them not only stop sulking but also that they couldn't stop kissing each other's cheeks after his pairing counseling
imagine you're p'aof. you are an esteemed and renowned director in the industry with years of experience behind you. you are ready to start the workshop for your new series when your two lead actors walk through the doors and tell you they are sulking at each other. they're not angry, because that would be too normal. no, they're SULKING. they both feel hurt and want the other to approach them to make things right but neither of them are quite ready to make the first move yet because they're afraid that, if they were to be honest, they'd lose their relationship. you know this because they ask you to mediate between them. so you, p'aof, renowned and esteemed director as we've previously established, sit them down and use your years of experience to help them open up and communicate honestly
by the end of it they're crying and hugging and kissing each other's on the cheek. they never quite stop doing it after that. you text your fellow friend and director who has previously worked with them on another project and ask him if that's normal. the answer you get is 'lol yeah they do be like that. good luck xoxo'. you decide to take a break from directing for the foreseeable future
P'AOF TRULY THE STRONGEST OF SOLDIERS I WOULDN'T HAVE COME OUT OF THAT WITH MY SANITY STILL INTACT TBH
#INSANITY DERANGEMENT LUNACY MADNESS AND MENTAL ILLNESS#MOSTLY MINE NGL#but also i feel like they were always used to kiss each other's cheek#because back during vice versa we saw jimmy kiss sea twice (once on his forehead and once on his cheek)#they were probably just more lowkey with it but after the couple counseling with p'aof they just said fuck it#this is how our friendship works deal with it#ANYWAY. sorry for the late reply anon!!!!! i hope you're having a wonderful day!!!!! 💜#jimmysea#m: ask
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STOP CALLING HAKUNO STUPID OR ILL CRY
NOOOO TSUN DONT CRY IF U CRY I CRY 🥺🥺😭 HDKCJSKGKD BUT- I CAN'T NOT CALL HAKUNO STUPID?? IT'S ONLY EVER OUT OF LOVE THO I PROMMY...!!!!!! my beautiful beautiful moon wife that is also the stupidest binch ever.....🥺🫶
#&&. out of#tenkoseiensei#honestly sometimes she makes me feel da most insane cuteness aggression#like i wanna politely smooch her but also violently shake her like maraca#O_o (lynn is deranged) (lynnsanity)#BUT YAAA 💞💞#i love h.akuno úwù🫶
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I have. Fantasy world I have mentioned before. I couldn't find the old post so I'll just type it all out here. (also rewrote some thingies don't mind me)
Note that this is from last year-ish and I need to reform some stuff. Because of that little to no references sorry </3 all inspired by WoF and Shandzii on yt
ANYWAY
Species:
Aquations. Ones who started this whole mess ngl.
Colors: Blues, grayscale colors, greens, and rarely yellows. Often striped and sometimes spotted. Warm colored eyes
Characteristics: Fins, large tails, webbed hands/feet and sharp teeth and nails/claws. Scale/skin mix(?)
Signs of Magic: Dark sclera, often black but sometimes other darker shades
Ablities: Able to breath underwater, pupils glow in the dark/they have night vision, mildly poisonous. (Not venomous. They have to be bitten, doesn't mean they don't bite though)
Omnivorous. Prefer meat however.
Habitat/Kingdom Layout: Some spread out villages in a peninsula of the coast off the Arachnid Kingdom. Most prefer to live on a spread out island chain in the sea, however. There are a few underwater cities but it isn't common.
Aquations are a saltwater species, freshwater is fine but they prefer salt water.
Arachnids. Spider and scorpion fellows.
Colors: Yellows, browns, sometimes grays and reds. All sandy and washed out.
Characteristics: Fangs (some people have venom in them), sharp nails/claws, frill around head/tail, thin layer of fur. Either four arms or venomous barbed tails. RARELY both. A few have a third/extra eyes.
Signs of Magic: Black markings. Like Aquations sometimes dark shades of other colors.
Abilities: Resistance to heat, can go long periods without water or food, able to drink small amounts of saltwater (Won't sustain them for long periods but they can consume it) Emit a soft glow in the dark.
Carnivorous. Can consume some plants however.
Habitat/Kingdom Layout: Live in the desert, mostly around the cliffs that border the kingdom (due to the many waterfalls there) or near the oceans and different oasis.
Some species live in cave systems near the cliffs. They are adapted differently to have lessened vision and more tolerance for colder climates.
Fawns. Literally glorified satyrs ngl
Colors: Browns, reds, sometimes earthy greens. Very rarely pale gray to white colors.
Characteristics: Goat legs and cloven hooves. Paws, fur, and horns or antlers. Short to long furry tails. Long floppy ears.
Signs of Magic: Flowers and plants sprouting from horns/antlers.
Abilities: Amazing climbers. Natural tolerance for most poisons (mostly poisonous plants) sharper senses.
Herbivorous. Can consume some animal products but for the most part no meat.
Habitat/Kingdom Layout: Live in the forests and fields. Most prefer to stay near the center of their kingdom, rarely living near the cliffs that border the Arachnids or the mountains.
High tensions with the Avians mean very few live near the mountains, some areas being off limits all together.
Avians descended from Fawns, still hated by them tho so L
Colors: Browns, whites, earthy reds. Rarely have pale colors of any kind.
Characteristics: Large wings, feather antenna thingies, sharper nails/claws, feathery tails, sometimes either frill around the ears or, rarely bird-like legs.
Signs of Magic: Bright, vibrant wings and highlights.
Abilities: Sharpened eyesight and hearing, can withstand cold and windy climates, lesser immunity toward some poisons.
Omnivorous. Prefer plants.
Habitat/Kingdom Layout: Live in the mountains, a few residing in shallow cave systems or valleys. Few cities are near the top of the mountains, but there are some. For the most part they live in the mid area.
Avians prefer higher areas, and in valley cities/towns it is not uncommon for most of the buildings to be elevated or simy tree houses.
ANWAY
I haven't even GOTTEN into the magic system, the different gods eachother respective species focus on, Tortoises and Terrapins omg. They need their own post. The magic system, ect ect.
This is a little insane I might update with more info later idk
#i feel insane and deranged foe some reason#unnamed's rambling rambles#? i think#i dunno#also if you cant tell Arachnids and Aquarions have heavy inspo from wof </3#They also follow greek gods btw. I am not creative enough to make my own gods#and magic is. weird.#but fun :D
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I want to formally apologize for the person i will become once this new episode comes out
#and also for the emotions i will have. because god knows i am going to be crying and screaming and sobbing afterwards#like the theme of goodbyes?? summer coming to an end??? SUMMER CAMPS IN GENERAL? I WILL NOT SURVIVE THIS.#Not after going to the same exact summer camp for ten years. and feeling this emotion every single time.#camper or counselor it doesnt matter. nothing will change the desperation ive felt as the camp came to a close.#and nothing rivals the emotions i feel as it begins next summer. literally nothing.#camp camp#sorry im not normal about camp camp#going to a summer camp and then working on staff at a summer camp has made irreversible changes to my life#and seeing parts of it in a funny hilarious heartbreaking tv show? fucking INSANE. causes deranged behavior.
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