8-3-2024

I ate a homemade breakfast of chocolate-flavored coffee and 'loaded' avocado toast this morning at the bus stop.

Got to campus with over an hour before lab class. So I sat and read my library book. Ended up finishing it.

Today's chem lab was about the Conductivity of different compounds. We have to use the data to make scatter charts and them use those scattered charts to finish the lab worksheet. It's all due by next Thursday.

Took the kids to the playground and then out to the diner for supper.

Now at home, I'm deep cleaning my room since I haven't been able to since classes first started.

truly my mom's funniest self contradictory parenting belief is that i'm emotionally distant and antisocial (behaviorwise, not mentalitywise, i mostly enjoy interacting with other people) because i was bullied in school and abused by other adult authority figures in my life and i would have turned out fine if she'd just homeschooled me instead. like please do explain to me how you think that being isolated from my peers and any kind of support network by my extremely controlling family would have been better for me than being isolated by social ostracization. i would have turned into the fucking joker.

😞thinking about Elliot page & Amanda bynes & Britney Spears & Shelley duvall & Jennette McCurdy

me when I see a character who struggles with his humanity, emotions, and relationships with others. He tries his very best to be seen as serious, stoic, and smart by his colleagues but he fails miserably. He has to force himself to let people in. Everyone he has ever met sees him as ‘weird’ or ‘unpleasant’. Maybe even ‘unsettling’. He gets completely lost in what interests him or what he is good at. He wants to ask people for help but he does not know how. He was raised by his grandparent(s). He never got a normal childhood due to things he could not control. He was a gifted kid and never quite burnt out, he just doesn’t know how to learn now, he is forever chasing the high of being leagues above everyone he was around. He just wants to be cared about. He is literally me.

silly little sparkly saiyan boy

Random memory: I took a ballet classes for approximately two or three sessions when I was around 6.

I stopped going when the ballet teacher decided our first preformance was going to be fish themed--the skinny girls would get to play the "beautiful angelfish"...

But "husky" girls like me had to play the "bully goldfish." I quit immediately, I kind of suspect that was her goal all along.

It later amused me to learn that irl angelfish are kinda hideous, especially in comparison to adorable little goldfish.

But uh what the actual fuck. Great look, a middle-aged woman picking on actual kindergarteners.

i say this with utmost seriousness i wish i was employed

you know i mentioned last night that i realized only *after* i started rereading david copperfield that since i recently became an aunt, i was gonna see the story from a whole new angle and start relating more to betsey trotwood. i didn't even think about how at salem house i was gonna be poor mr. mell...

Oh my god my spouse just smacked me with so much psychic damage I had tears streaming down my face and my chest still hurts from angry laughing.

Me: Oh! If Dreamlight Valley did do a Disney Channel Originals themed Star Path with Kim Possible*, that means we would get Rufus as an animal companion! :D

My Spouse: Rufus is a dog, right?

Me: *35 points of psychic damage* *dying but not yet dead*

My Spouse with his second attack: No, weasel!

Me from my grave: A NAKED MOLE RAT YOU ASSHOLE!!!

5-4-2024

3rd lecture fornthe week today.

I also got my registered classes for.next semester approved so I knwo what I'll be taking as well a the professors and meet times. I will be posting that at some point during the week of the eigth.

Today in class I got Dr. Gares the pin you see pictured above since ei didn't like it when I got it given to me. She loved it tho, as well as my cheese Chemistry jokes. We learned about the Geometry of molecules (how they are shaped and why) we also tried our hand at using the Lewis structures of a molecule to calculate the geometries.

i will forever wish that zoey deschanel had like a guest star episode on criminal minds where she played like a early childhood ed teacher impacted by a case that the team is sent into help and ofc she’s like head over heels for spencer but knows that it’s so inappropriate to think that kind of thing at a time like that but he’s also head over heels for her but he’s to insecure to realize she likes him back

me and my father may have our differences, but at least one thing brings us together and that's piracy :)

aug-dec last year i was like, impossibly stressed due to corporate and legal esoterica that i couldn't begin to describe here. after work each day (10-12 hours) i would spend 2-3 hours in the bathtub, binge eat ice cream, walk around my neighborhood for an hour listening to audiobooks (always either japanese novels or horror short stories), and sleep on my porch in a hanging swing in fetal position. then i'd wake up with the sun and birdsong at 5 or 6 am and start over. like the basest/most baby comforts ever. bathtub (womb), ice cream (milk), walking (motion to lull myself to sleep), fetal position swing (womb again). and yeah i slept on the porch so that i'd just wake up naturally without an alarm. it should be stressful to look back at but instead i have kind of surreal and pleasant memories of it all

Remember Me | Episode 1 End Credit Still Shots

one of my favorite things is people describing being in the same room together doing separate things as parallel play shdjdf

IM DONE WITH TGE SEMESTER !!!!!!