being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

Piggybacking off something you said during your last stream, I also had a dream where the welcome home site updated and it was super messed up

I can’t remember the exact details but I do remember Barnaby was the focus, like there was a secret page about him and it played it off like Barnaby was some deranged maniac-

Just something I remembered after hearing you also had a creepy dream

it's comforting to know im not the only one subconsciously scared of such Things

for only showing up in the live action segments, it’s absurd how much mr door and thomas zane have consumed my thoughts. could not even begin to imagine what mr door’s role is in future games, let alone anything for zane, but the mystery only adds to the intrigue. so much of this goes to just how phenomenal the actors are—they performed every scene with intention and charisma

i had a dream where something was off with riku’s shadow…

Weird thought but it feels undeniable that Hollow Knight has inspiration drawn from Bloodborne. Dreams and nightmares, finding a way to see the unseeable (insight/dreamnail), higher beings with inconceivable power (especially reached in dreams).

So do you think lifeblood is supposed to be a sort of subtle reference to the idea of the blood administration in Bloodborne? A ‘taboo’, addictive substance that heals/gives life.

This has probably been said before but I just realized it myself- Don’t mind me.

Identified Fucking Thing ("Bon")

Last night I've dreamt that I was watching the National Assembly debates on tv and suddenly Robespierre was there, being a voice of opposition against everything that's wrong with politics today, and I was like!!!! He's alive!!! He had retired for a while but he's back!! And he's survived his gunshot wound!! And obvs I told y'all and everyone was all !!!!!!!!!!!

and then I woke up and realised that 1) even if he had survived his gunshot wound he certainly wouldn't have survived the guillotine 2) even if he had survived Thermidor all together the year is 2023 and he would be 265 years old.

The duality of Cinnarust is that he is both an ancient eldritch being who has lived countless lives as both beast and man and neither, but he is also your average 20-something year old dude just trying to figure out life. He'll stare down a car coming straight at him on a highway and after the inevitable collision he'll wake up in his bed in his messy room and go buy frozen tater tots at the corner store that he will eat straight out of the package the moment he walks out

I don't have the screenshot anymore but for anyone curious about my blog title. When I first got yoshi wooly world 3ds I played it A LOT and had yoshi dreams. In the game yoshi can find abilities where he transforms into different things like a car, plane, etc. and I had a dream that yoshi turned into a beach chair. I must have woken up at 3am and texted "Beach chair yoshie" to my then-boyfriend and went back to sleep, but I woke up later at regular time and saw that I had sent him the text with no memory of it. We're married now

ive had these sort of things since i was a little kid. my mother tends to have them too, and others. i wish i knew how to actually hone it in or do something cool or useful with it. instead i just get these flashes of moments which end up coming around

i'm neutral on the budding "[x] by the narrative" discourse for now, but i just wanted to share. i had a pretty vivid dream in which i was "the protagonist" at first, but then at some point the dream shifted to the 3d person perspective and i was watching some other person do their thing. after waking up i didn't get up immediately and instead hallucinated for like 5 mins as my brain uncontrollably elaborated on the plot of the dream. according to it, after i woke up there was a nuke-like explosion that killed that person i was watching and everyone around. yet, when i asked myself "how did i survive?", someone answered: by becoming "the narrator" i have stopped existing in the dream's world and thus there was nothing to explode. so what do you call that, dissolved in the narrative?

Honestly, yearning feels the "best" when you listen to music that's about the lust and love you have for someone you cannot have for some reason, and you just close your eyes and daydream about being hugged and kissed. Yearning is also like a tool and inspiration for writers, so don't be afraid to write about your heart's lament.

yes yes yes ! this is my favorite thing to do with all the bottled feelings within me. it makes the longing all the more stronger though so it’s a bit self-destructive on that account but still oddly beautiful

description of a substantive billions dream

a typical [school problems] genre thread of assigned fiction reading became a book about winston as an elementary or middle schooler, and how there was a new girl who, i guess to sort of change the conversation around herself from [being the new girl] instead established the topic as her having a crush on someone, this being winston who she’d already interacted with more often than others / was closest to friends with. but he was kind of uncomfortable with this and so there was a scene with them talking about it and her explaining it seemed like the kind of thing she was supposed to do, with mutual genuinely liking each other but not necessarily so far as [let’s declare mutual crushes or bother with that framework at all at the present]. and yet there was a sort of dramatic irony tone conveyed for the audience that, not that this was incorrect / inaccurate or anything, but naturally that anything associated w/that framework might not be off the table forever, especially what with having a whole discussion about things really here just cementing that they do both want to be / consider themselves like friends proper. there was a little illustration like so:

i don’t remember my dream supplying a name for the girl, just like how it didn’t supply any particular design for elementary or middle schooler winston than “smaller, i guess”....despite things only featuring this small winston at the start, it then became a) about regular billions b) directly observable as An Event as well as being relayed through reading the book still and c) about winston and taylor and others, including the older unnamed dream oc girl, having a pleasant day outdoors in a meadow by water and sometimes in a cave with water, as a helpful offshoot of another prior typical dream thread.

more granular and vivid details: one scene being observed half directly as a real event, half through reading about it, ended with philip and taylor at a distance (winston keeps the pov) sitting in a field by water, and philip being playfully affectionate with taylor like 😉 and holding their hand and calling them “baby” while taylor is like 😳 like so:

i read this part like :o ! and turned to noted blogger nothingunrealistic like “omg what page/chapter are you on” and they had not yet reached it so i was like “omggg...” expressions to the [honey you’ve got a big storm coming (positive)] effect

and another scene specific enough to have drawn was that, after having enjoyed a swim (philip constantly appearing in usual canon-type business suits despite the outdoors activities, even this one) winston kind of [tag you’re it]’d philip out of the water and they had this drenched like wrestle embrace ft. winston pressing his face to philip in as close to a kiss as anything else that happened. had as much or more as a like lighthearted playful energy as anything as well despite the [intricate rituals] and [sounds like a sexually charged kind of situation perhaps] lol like well once again it needn’t Not be that, but things are casual and spontaneous And homoerotic. everyone simply being comfortable enough despite tensions of [discuss that you’re nervous abt there being hot gossip abt you as a Crush] or [flirtation ft. the recipient being flustered] or [plenty of physical touch plus affection] like so:

let’s go boys! and of course, relevant as well that winston was Deeply Affectionate and Closely Aware/Attentive towards taylor the whole time, sometimes conveyed simply through how again taylor scenes were seen through him as the pov character and myself as the pov beyond that, like, of course there’s tayston and of course there’s plenty of like, well anyone here may be liable to kiss anyone and everyone else. tl;dr everyone enjoying this refreshing outdoors excursion and being comfortable in the marinade of any of that tension re: potential increased emotional and/or physical intimacy with each other out there, like, as a metaphor, having a stretch and despite the element of [!] there it can also be unthreatening, welcome, pleasant and it can be like “well i’m glad for the greater flexibility this can yield. and/or being warmed up for something. and/or easing an uncomfortable physical sensation. etc” lol. good for them

Hate when I'm trying to wake up but my brain decides to put me in time prison instead