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doodle17 · 2 days

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I bet these fandom tags love me :)

#doodles rants

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psycho-net2000 · 1 month

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Some warm up/thumbnail sketches that ended up not being warm up/thumbnail sketches (that's why some little details are missing)

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tasavvur-e-jaana · 3 months

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“Why don’t you?” She asks. “Why don’t you keep yourself open to it?”

I know what she’s talking about. She’s my best friend and I can read her like a fucking book. “Open to what?” I feign innocence hoping this topic would end itself. But she is adamant and rolls her eyes at me. She knows the ruse because she’s my best friend and she can read me like a fucking book too.

“Falling in love.” She plays along. She’s dating someone and is in the honeymoon phase of it, the type where love is all around. I am happy for her, but the concern bugs me. The worst thing is she knows me inside out and is acutely aware of how lonely I am. I never confessed to her in so many words but you know- book, me, reading…

“It’s a wonderful feeling.” She nudges.

“It’s a horrible and shitty feeling.” I want to spit it out. The word runs like vitriol in my veins. I want to shout at her “It’s the worst thing that has happened to me. Or could happen to me. Every time I like someone there is an ache in my chest that never goes away. I can never tell them how I feel because eventually, they all leave.”

“I can’t afford it.” Is what I say out loud.

“Is this because you’re asexual?” She asks. Curious. Not judging. It has been a few months since I came out to her. She had been surprised, of course, but at least hadn’t dismissed the fact that asexuality exists like a lot of other people with whom I have had casual conversations about the topic to gauge their reactions to the idea. My mother, for once. And I had shut up.

So, yes it is because I am an asexual and I only want a best friend for life. Who would agree to that? Who would agree to a lifetime of relationship that has everything but sex in it? Because that is what has been drilled into us, since forever that a relationship is just not as meaningful without sex. It is not complete. So, yes, that is one of the reasons. I have tried connecting with people but when I hint that I don’t want anything more, it ends inevitably. And I don’t grudge them that. It only settles the paranoia and loneliness deeper in my gut. And after years of struggling to accept who I am, I desperately wish I were normal.

I nod my head. Her face falls into a frown and there is a hint of pity there. I detest it. “So, what do you want then?” She asks. It is a genuine question. She has barely wrapped her mind around it. I reply, “A best friend for life kinda deal.”

“Oh, I am there for that!” She chirps. Her voice jubilant. I want to believe her, I want to hope she means it but I know better by now. I have lost too many close friends, a couple of best friends even to the throes of romantic love. After a couple of experiences, I just shut off myself from friends who got into a relationship to save myself from heartbreak. And let me tell you, it hurts just as bad as a break-up. Don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.

I smile, a sad little upturn of lips because if I didn’t I would break down. I can already picture losing her. This is one of our last long conversations. The end has begun in my head. I am aware that I am absolutely foolish for this. “You don’t mean that.” The words leave my mouth and she is furious.

“One day I am going to hit you so much that some sense gets knocked into you.” She shouts. I still don’t believe her as I nod in agreement. “Sure,” I say.

She does not let the topic go, though. She is one relentless idiot. “What do you do when you like someone?”

“I wait for the feeling to pass.”

That is what I do. I talk to them if I can battle with the day’s freezing social anxiety, I laugh, I nod along and wait for time to pass. Because eventually, they move on, I know my sentiments would too, with time. Not gone completely, but subdued, controllable, like a withered flower in a book. And I wait for the love to pass.

#doodles rants #diary of an asexual #just somethin' i needed off my chest #asexuality #asexual #spilled ink

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ask-the-devilish-darlings · 7 months

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So are we all going to ignore the fact I predicted the Ink Demon liking ducks thing or what

#I woke up in thr middle of the night in a cold sweat when I came to this realization #I am so smart #doodles rants #batim #batdr #bendy #ink bendy #ink demon #bendy and the dark revival #bendy and the ink machine

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doodle17 · 3 days

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Sorry for lack of actual good art and not replying to DMs and asks I swear I would do all of those things but I'm pretty sure I'm going through a mental health crisis at this very moment

#It's fine I'm good I'm fine I'm fine it's good I'm f #doodles rants

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doodle17 · 3 days

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Raz seems like the kind of little shit to pick out and eat all the marshmallows out of the Lucky Charms

#doodles rants #psychonauts #razputin aquato

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doodle17 · 2 months

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Future Raz and Lili archetypes wooooo

(In order from left to right)

Agent R: Raz's agent persona! Very over the top comic book type of guy. A little too courageous, and dives head first into situations. Doesn't understand jokes, tends to take them too literally. If you tell him to jump off a bridge because a higher up told him too, he'll do it without hesitation.

???: Yeah, no one knows who this guy is supposed to represent. He was Raz's first ever archetype, and he never really changed. (Personality wise) biggest head out of everyone, figuratively and literally (need to fit those big ass eyes)

Teacher: Very articulate strategic, and organized, it's Raz's teacher archetype! He showed up once Raz started counseling at Whispering Rock and taking on teaching interns. Definitely the most stressed out archetype of the bunch.

Ring Master: Raz's circus themed archetype! Big and dramatic, very theatrical expressions and personality. Acts as if he's always in front of an audience. He can even twist and stretch his paper without tearing, making him a great acrobat.

Sophisticate: This archetype represents Lili's more... Polite side. The perfect girl/daughter/agent that's very well behaved and professional. Usually the "facade" Lili puts up at business parties or big meetings to be a good example.

Loose Canon: The name pretty much explains it, but this archetype is for Lili's fiery attitude, especially on missions. Good at combat, likes to set things on fire, despite being made of paper, but that won't stop her. Arson...

Hopeless Romantic: Come on. She may not act like it, but we all know deep down Lili is a hopeless romantic, at least to some extent. That's why this archetype shows up. Boy and girl crazy, very sweet, flirty and so stinkin cute. Lili's least favorite Archetype, but she's definitely the favorite to some of Lili's co-workers!

#I LOVE HOPLESS ROMANTIC SO MUCHHHH #SHES SO CUTE 🥺🥺🥺#Also ringmaster is fun too #I had some free time and I'm bored #So here you gooo #doodles rants #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #lili zanotto #Psychonauts au #Psychonauts future

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doodle17 · 6 days

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I dont really wanna call these re-designs because I do love the originals, but I just wanted to give em a little... Razzle dazzle

#doodles rants #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #frazie aquato #dion aquato #queepie aquato #mirtala aquato #donatella aquato #augustus aquato #psychonauts fanart

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doodle17 · 23 days

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I know Raz's iconic colors are oranges and greens, but I think he could really pull off a pleasant blue

#It's easier on the eyes tbh #Anyways I'm working on some character wardrobes for funsies #I like how this one turned out #He looks so nice in blue :)#doodles rants #psychonauts #razputin aquato

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doodle17 · 4 months

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me leaving the theatre playing the Bendy Movie, after Alice punches Bendy in the arm and says "That's for almost getting us killed!" *kisses him* "... and that's for saving me~" and Bendy says "Wooo Boy! Hey? Why the long faces eh? Let's get some music playing In here!" *build our machine by DA Games starts playing*

#I'm SO ready for these memes #They make me lose if every time #doodles rants #batim #bendy #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #bendy movie

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doodle17 · 6 months

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WHO EVER WAS THE PERSON WHO SAID SOMETHING ABOUT HOW THE AQUATOS SHOULD BE POODLES BECAUSE THEY WERE POPULAR IN THE CIRCUS BACK THEN

I COULDNT FIND YOUR POST TO @ YOU (it was @thenecropolix ) BUT I HEARD YOU AND I AM GOING TO KISS YOUR FOREHEAD

#These were fun as shit to draw #I would color them but I'm to tired now #Doodles rants #Psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #donatella aquato #augustus aquato #dion aquato #frazie aquato #queepie aquato #mirtala aquato

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doodle17 · 5 months

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Psychonauts 3 concept Raz

This all totally 100% canon and real guys I'm Tim himself

OKAY just wanted to get this pit of my system because I was really bored and also wanted to draw Raz in a puffy jacket

Anyways, here's some more of my Psychonauts 3 stuff, I actually want to write out a plot and prompts for it someday, maybe even make it a comic if I have time and motivation

But yeh, this was fun :)

#doodles rants #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #psychonauts fanart #psychonauts razputin #psychonauts au #Psychonauts 3

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doodle17 · 6 months

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What if- hear me out

When some Psychics get flustered they have little head explosions

Not like harmful ones, but, you know when you get complimented or flirted with it makes you get all fuzzy and giddy and stuff and it makes your head feel like it wants to explode in a good way only it actually happens sometimes

Anyways heres my artistic rendition