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arbesathejohnlockian · 6 months

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I feel like I am going cold turkey after indulging for too long. We had Good Omens and Our Flag means Death in such close succession. Now it's over and... I don't know what to do with myself. Crap!

#good omens #our flag means death #feeling exhausted #don't know what to do with myself

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camembertlythere · 1 year

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I wish social interactions and expectations weren't so scary and confusing all of the time :( I feel very alone and am so bad at connecting with people it feels like deep failure

#I'm so full of love but i don't know how to talk to anyone ever #I'm like 40 i feel like this shouldn't be a problem anymore #i wish i was capable of making local friends and trusting that people like me or knowing when people don't dislike me :/#idk dude I'm so lonely and i want to move back home but i definitely can't afford California and i also hate it there #don't know what to do with myself #so I'm just here #I'm lonely I'm lonely I'm lonely

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kitkatwinchester · 11 months

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THEY'RE SO FREAKING BAD*SS I SWEAR!!

Okay, I know that whatever-the-f*ck-her-name-is still got the upper hand with the freaking wolfsbane (I hate wolfsbane. I really hate it. Why can it be used in so many forms?? WHY?!), but that was SO F*CKING BAD*SS I CANNOT WITH THIS PACK!!

I mean, even when she DID get the upper hand, and Scott and Malia were struggling against the wolfsbane, Scott looked her dead in the eyes, watched her every move, and still had enough confidence to say "you don't know where he is, either", and I just LOVE THAT.

And LEADING UP TO THAT!

I mean, the amount of utter strength and confidence in:

"Stiles. Take 10 off the table."

I MEAN COME ON!

That boy just took out one of the bodyguards, reached down for the walkie talkie, and talked DIRECTLY TO his best friend that was SITTING IN THE ROOM with the villain with NO fear and NO qualms, and Stiles just freaking reached over and removed the money.

Like.

Obviously our pack is slightly underestimating these hunters, because they don't really know what they're up against, but I guarantee you, the hunters don't know what they're up against either.

And then you add to that Kira and Malia like..

The way they were just watching, and then they both sprung into action, Kira with the f*cking NUNCHUCKS, Malia with her werewolf strength and acrobatics I just...

ALSO!!

WHILE I'M HERE!!

I'm sorry.

I am.

But THE CHEMISTRY BETWEEN KIRA AND MALIA I CANNOT!!!

I've been racking my brain, and I don't think I have EVER so IMMEDIATELY shipped someone THIS INTENSELY, but OMG, the CHEMISTRY.

I love Scira. With all of my heart. And I know that ship goes canon at some point and I'm totally happy about that.

And I know Stalia does officially happen at some point, and I know Scalia (don't ask me why Scott and Kira would ever break up, but ANYWAYS) is a thing also, so I know there is absolutely no way I get Malira canonically, and I probably won't even get that many more Malira moments throughout the rest of the show.

But...

HOLY F*CK THOSE TWO ARE SO GAY FOR EACH OTHER!!!

I MEAN!!

THE DANCING!!!

THE WAY MALIA SAYS "ready?" IN KIRA'S EAR!

THE WAY THEY NOD AT EACH OTHER AND SPIN AND TAKE DOWN THEIR RESPECTIVE ENEMIES I MEAN--

PLEASE TELL ME YOU GUYS SEE THIS!

Like, obviously you do, because there's a ship name for it, but PLEASE TELL ME THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO SHIP THIS AS HARD AS I DO!

THIS IMMEDIATE NEED TO SHIP TWO CHARACTERS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT ALONE!!

OH MY GOD MALIRA MY BELOVED!!!

I HOPE WE GET MORE SCENES OF THEM TOGETHER BECAUSE AHHHHHHHHHHH!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

*clears throat*

Anyways...

This pack may not have the upper hand right now, but they're freaking amazing, and so freaking bad*ss, and they have each other, so I have faith they'll get out of this.

And once I'm done screaming about Malira, I'm gonna watch them do exactly that.

Also, as a very brief aside, we also have to give credit to the way Stiles described Derek in an effort to get her to give him up. Love this man. XD <3

Anyways MALIRA MY BELOVED!! <3 <3

(Okay let's be honest, I will never stop screaming about Malira, because LOOK AT THEM THEY'RE PERFECT!! <3 <3 <3 <3)

Update: Scott literally said "let's go all the way to Mexico to save someone that may or may not be dead" and his pack said "okay" like it was no big deal and THIS is why the McCall pack is superior to any other pack because NO ONE could EVER have as much loyalty as they do. <3 <3

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butchfalin · 5 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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artkaninchenbau · 1 month

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A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

#Sir Crocodile #Monkey D Dragon #Emporio Ivankov #Dragodile #Crocodad #My art #One Piece #We're not gonna talk about the work I should be doing rn I have Severe Procrastinitis and I'm doing my best okay #Alternative version where it was both Crocodile and Garp beating Dragon's ass before Iva-chan joined in but that was too much effort lmao #I'm a believer in Dragon being a Wind Logia so don't worry guys he is 100% taking this beating intentionally #He knows what he did and he's dealing with the concequences of his actions. With grace.#You know I realize Iva-chan should be two whole meters taller than Crocodile but we're just gonna ignore that #Look Iva-chan taking Crocodile's side and being like ''Crocoboy is right you fucked up bad Dragon'' brings me joy #And for real I've been wanting to draw this for months. But never did because I had other shit to do. Which I still do #But. You know. Sometimes you need to draw a shitpost. It's ✨ self-care ✨#And appearently One Piece shitpost comics have become the thing I draw for myself on occassion

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iamanartichoke · 9 months

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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

#fanfic #ao3 #archive of our own #fandom things #tumblr things #i may have said this at some point #i'm sure i have #but whatever - just in case #i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics #but just if anyone is so inclined that's all #ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog #i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting #but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen #not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy #at least of fics bc i save everything #not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about #that i've made or done and only posted here #anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today #i have plans to stare into the void now

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clown-owo · 11 months

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been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔#so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me.#chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character.#because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

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ksenyablinchick · 1 year

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As days go by,the prospect of laying on the forest floor and letting moss and fungus thrive on my mortal body seems more and more appealing. Well, that or I just need some hot cocoa...

#vent #return to nature #want to be an ancient stone beast that lays dormant for thousands of years to the point it forgets it was once alive #don't know what to do with myself

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tshortik · 8 months

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I love you messy artstyle i love you visible brush strokes I love you textures and rough edges I love you imperfections I love you roughness and colour blobs I love you scratchy sketches and bold stylisation and dirt and imperfections I love you ugly and raw emotion!!!!! ❤️

#i talk sometimes #art talk #i made a tweet like this on twatter ages ago but i've been feeling this a lot lately #also this is the start of me writing more on this blog and not only using it as art because who cares!! i don't!!#I wanna translate raw emotion into colors and shapes. I wanna know where to ignore all details and where to go ham you feel me?#i used to dream about developing a style like for MtG where it looked like a masterful oil painting that oozes realism and details #and i've realised the last two years or so that I would actually hate that for me. I know I wouldn't enjoy doing it. For myself.#it's that pipeline from wanting to be the perfect realistic wotc artist to accepting that I will never be that #instead i wanna learn how to stylise better and get a good brush economy going yknow. I wanna be bolder.#i doubt i'll ever be as incredible as all these MtG artists no matter what anyone says. but it's ok!! i don't have to be!!!#i just luv art man!!

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inkskinned · 1 year

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i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

#hobbies #writeblr #what stage of weirdness to write about hobbies on my hobby writing blog #although i know OBJECTIVELY i am a creative person #i often forget to label myself that bc i don't feel im an ARTISTIC person bc i don't do anything like that professionally #writing doesn't even feel like a hobby i think that surprises nobody for me to be like #it would be easier for me to stop . like. breathing.#which feels cheesy and trite but listen im running late for a meeting and all i really want to say is like #i couldn't even consider writing my hobby bc it makes my skin crawl bc it makes it sound like it's not important to me #bc we really devalue hobbies. like entirely.#it HAS to be a job. it must #also idk if this is clear but i personally get stuck in this space where i CANT create bc i am putting so much pressure on myself #to make it RIGHT #and im like ... idk i only have an hour #so probably shouldnt get involved in this thing

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gloriousmonsters · 5 months

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love when you can ask the Narrator why the Princess is a Princess and he's like 'well i uhhhh YOU did that. maybe it's because uh... something something about her being above you... but still approachable... look i don't want to analyze or anthropomorphize your--' my guy. i am a primal being of Order and Eternity and Shaping. You're the one who convinced me I was some dude and were quite willing to take credit for shaping my view on the world through narration five seconds ago. Are you gonna look me in the eye and tell me the desire to interpret something worthy of adoration and more powerful than me as a dommy princess is written in the very nature of the universe or are you going to show me your browser history like a man

#this is a joke but the 'so where did i get the Idea of a princess from??' still stands #since we remember nothing and don't seem to have many ideas about like. what the world looks like #but when given the conception of 'we're a hero' from the narrator's Quest #we immediately go to 'so the thing you're telling us to kill is a Princess' -> i.e something I'm not SUPPOSED to kill #and in fact am supposed to respect and cherish #and/or pledge eternal loyalty to #(and then on a deeper level we KNOW that we're the dragon #we're the biggest threat to her we're what has the power to trap her and keep her here #we're a monster just like her)#but my point remains. as a god-entity stripped of memory where did we get the idea of a (human/like) Princess. do we still have like...#the threads of common narratives sort of built into our structure b/c we're the god-half concerned with Shaping and Naming and Order?#that would kind of slap #anyway uh. dragging myself offstage now #slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #stp spoilers

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loren91 · 2 months

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Waiting for next Monday like

#young royals #yr s3 spoilers #me rn #I don't know what to do with myself

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sixeyesgojo · 2 years

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If you ask like that, without any witty comment, then I will end up feeling sorry for you, little mouse.

Is there anything else I can get you before I come over to hold you?

- Gin 🐍

You want a witty comeback right now?

#🌙: mail #charanon: gin 🐍#ajsjjgjs leave me alone #i am lonely rn #don't know what to do with myself

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somegrumpynerd · 2 months

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(They did not stop shredding the curtains)

#UTDR #UTMV #Nightmare Sans #Killer Sans #Trying out a new style for this one #I don't know if I'll do the boxes again but it was fun to play around with #Also I had this idea last night when I was awake and supposed to be sleeping #I told myself if I still remembered it in the morning I'd draw it so here we are #I wonder what troublesome creatures Nightmare might have taken in... hmmm...#Also the return of Freddie Purrcury #They found out she's a girl but they're keeping the name #She likes to hang around Nightmare for some reason even though he's still not used to pets

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likegoldintheair · 9 days

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the one positive but also incredibly painful thing about buddie not happening directly after the shooting arc is that now we might get eddie telling buck that he loves him that he's in love with him and when buck asks how long he's known eddie will tell him that he's known for years that he ironically figured it out as he was lying there in a puddle of his own blood thinking he was going to die and all he could do all he wanted to do was reach out for buck one last time and then he didn't die and life moved on and he kept this newfound realization hidden away because it felt so momentous and fragile all at the same time and years passed and then buck came out and then eddie came out too and that's not a guarantee for anything but they're both here now and buck's been giving him these looks and fleeting touches and it's all felt so soft and safe that all eddie can do is reach out again and when the tips of his fingers finally touches the warm smooth skin on buck's arm after so many years of almost but quite not there the confession all but falls from eddie's lips onto buck's over and over and over again

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #911 abc #hello i blacked out and wrote this and now i don't know what to do with myself

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spllwys · 12 days

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endless ghifs 11/? ⛧ source — "I don't wanna end like this—"

#but the sting in the way you kisss meee #we are back to ghostposting!#i should be working but the fire alarm went off in the library so what can you do #work at home? nahh #lgifs #alltag #eg_series #ghost #the band ghost #papa emeritus iv #nameless ghouls #the source material was soo crusty i am actually thrilled with how these came out all things considered #added a bit of noise which is smth i started doing for s///up//ern- i cant say it #did not do many of those. just made some things for myself then ducked out #forgot about that trick until today #it really helps i recommend #just 1% to kind of hide the grainy smoke background #i don't know what i'm talking about ngl

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