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biaswreckmepls · 1 year

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Heya!! Sooo glad to have you back you are my favorite rec bloggggg😫😫😫 I missed you so muchh

Mind reccing me some sweet college/highschool fics with namkook/taekook? Thank youuuu!!

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ok sure this didn't have me feeling any type of way at all

I am going to take a little bit of liberty with your requests, just a little, and interpret it in the way I want, so it may not be exactly what you asked for but it'll be pretty darn similar, or at least give you those vibes:

Sweet fics (College AU/High School AU + Namkook/Taekook)

Homesick by nebulaazul (Namkook, Growing Up Together AU, 4 Chapters, 43K, T, Namjoon left his friends and family behind in Korea for 10 years to do his PhD, and when he came back, nothing was quite as he remembered it, mild angst with a happy ending)

retrouvailles by inevitaeble (Taekook, Highschool AU, One-shot, 42K, G, JK has had a crush on Tae for as long as he could remember, but right before he left on a year-old exchange program to Thailand JK was convinced that Tae could never like him back, and so he tries to get over him, mild angst with a happy ending, mutual pining)

degrees of denial by astringxnt (Taekook, Harry Potter AU, One-shot, 10K, M, Head Boy Tae hates Griffindor quidditch captain JK and everyone knows this, except one day Tae walks up to him during breakfast in front of everyone and asks him out on a date, crack and angst and fluff)

Get Out of My Dreams, Get Into My Car by meanho (Taekook, College AU, TA AU, One-shot, 9.7K, G, JK gotta get that bread so he decides to start ubering, and surprise surprise his first rider is none other than his hot TA Taehyung)

Hope you liked these! They've all come out of my old bookmarks lol

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zombie-bait · 3 months

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Highly recommend the 1872 novella Carmilla to all the wlw iwtv fans out there, it's about a gothic lesbian vampire-human romance and it lowkey changed my life. Like I cannot explain to you how shockingly gay and poetic this story that came out two decades before Dracula is. I'm a little devastated it took me this long to read it tbh

(And if you're looking for a good retelling that embraces the gay further I recommend Carmilla and Laura by S.D. Simper. It's not as poetic but it focuses on internalized homophobia, religion and has a happier ending)

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stinkythehutt · 4 months

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also. something about palpatine being so adept at seeing into the future that all of his successes feel completely joyless by the time he achieves them because he’s just going through the motions… how fucked up and nihilistic and brutal that would make you…

#teddy talks #anakin is like the opposite of this bc he’s tortured by his future failures #so he lives in constant terror and denial #whereas palpatine is lowkey tortured in a different way though he’d never ever label it as such #but the boredom of it all. the inescapability…#in a sense of course you would long for ultimate power over the force. because you would feel so much just like a meaningless vehicle #of its will otherwise #and anakin would be a PERFECT toy for someone like that. because he is so bewildered. he’s easy to tangle up in knots #i’m just doing some character Thinking #but yeah. of course one in palpatines position might hate the force and feel a need to lash out and dominate it #and he manages his own repressed bewilderment by manufacturing it in anakin to an extreme degree #but. importantly. while also having complete control over the machinations of anakin’s experience #and by crushing the force and all knowledge of it #CHRIST i’m back sorry but all the stuff he does to extend his life. he obviously is terrified of death #and rather than face it he just creates My Apprentice: The Guy Super Fucked Up About People Dying #to punish somebody else for his own horror…. it’s giving projective identification. not to bring freud into this

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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"The Boy With The Thorn in His Side"(x) - The Smiths × 2023 Strollonso moments + pundits' reactions

#baby's first web weave please be kind #frankly i could make a giant masterpost on my opinions on which Smiths songs fit which drivers/ships #i like their music a very healthy amount and I don't spend countless hours daydreaming to it...no....#but this particular song has been haunting me bcs i think it fits them super well!!#with their relationship dynamics and then the way everyone doubts their relationship #though its been hilarious watching the f1tv commentators kind of resign themselves to 'ah well ig this is what AMR/Fernando is like now'#went from being confused and shocked at their on track comradery to just accepting it for what it is #now theyre like 'ah yes lance dutifully lets fernando pass' compared to the previous ouright disbelief and denial #yeah thats right...theyre in love...what are you gonna do about it...#i think one day itd be fun to make a vid comp of all the times the commentators were ?????? at strollonso's lovey doveyness it is fun TO ME #it was really funny to look through shitty articles for negative comments #but the funniest part is that istg all of the articles just quote this one singular man who is hellbent on being a hater #i am in your walls peter windsor.#i think its silly when they bring in 'f1 experts' for their opinions ona drivers motivations and mindset #they act like such armchair psychologists like bruh your degree is probably engineering or journalism calm down!!#hehehe anyways happy with this!! i wrote it out on paper like a whole ass essay draft to brainstorm what to put #and then i scrolled thru the draft while listening to the song and im just EEEEEEE IT FITSSSSSSS #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #lance stroll #fernando alonso #fa14 #ls18 #1418 #1814 #strollonso #alonstroll #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

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ashersanity · 4 months

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My main PC, Asher, the disturbed and m!Whitney sharing one fucking brain cell, actually there is none, they’re just trying to justify their gay actions to themselves.

Coming back from the bathroom, River asking them what the fuck took so long with Whitney having to hold back a snicker and Asher’s pathetic attempt at hiding the growing blush on his face. Is there really any need to ask? The tell-tale signs are there, unbuckled belts and barely zipped up trousers, ruffled hair sticking up with the bully teasing the other about it.

First kiss went to Whitney, not like he actually meant for it to happen, it just happened on its own. Was a taunt, the delinquent laughing to his friends about how the poor boy never kissed a girl before, wanting to sink into his seat right then and there. But hey, Whitney’s such a nice guy, right? Offers him how to kiss, mingled breaths mixing together as he draws his face closer to Asher and it’s not like he’s one to deny the opportunity to learn such a skill. Not when he’s saving up such a precious moment for his crush and childhood friend, Robin.

Whitney kisses like a girl, he thinks, cupping his jaw in his hand, touch uncharacteristically soft unlike all the other times that he’s jabbing his ruler in his arm in math class. Soft, pink lips pressed against each other, not like the rough ones he’d have expected from a boy, not from Whitney himself. Lasted a good few minutes, having to snap himself out of it before it went too far, blurting out a quick excuse about having to go as he ran out of the pub with his erection straining against the front of his jeans. Never talked about it again.

And then he lost his virginity to Whitney, whether unwanted or not. Okay, okay, maybe he should take a step back and actually analyze where this all went wrong though it’s not like he could at the moment. Stupid bet that they made, both drunk out of their minds with booze still on their breaths, the blond straddling Asher, planting his knees down to each of his sides. Barely prepped hole taking his cock in one fell swoop, groaning out a low curse before he starts moving, bouncing on his cock like he’s been waiting for it all this time.

Came in seconds, virgin cock spurting out hot strings of cum into his ass, laughing at how he lasted just a few minutes. Whole thing left him dazed, unsure if he should be questioning things or not at this point.

Despite it all, Asher still likes Robin, still likes gazing at her concentrated form as she plays her video games and he sits on the bed, watching.

That’s right, Asher’s still straight. He likes those squishy cunts meant to be fucked and filled with his cock, enjoys looking at fat tits, tender mounds of flesh that squeeze in the palm of his hand, the ones found in those raunchy, dirty magazines. The ones hidden in one of his drawers, stolen from Leighton’s own desk, pages left sticky from jerking off to it under the covers.

That’s right, Asher is straight. He likes girls, only girls. Even if his first times when to that weird bully that harasses him at every turn, Asher is still straight.

..He thinks.

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wanna-be-your-brat · 26 days

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to those asking, yes I did go out in my wet, cum stained panties, and yes, I did feel icky and gross

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sunmoontruth-stiles · 21 days

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I need a completely rewritten teen wolf series with Derek Hale as the main character. I think it would heal me.

#we follow Derek from New York. Laura left for beacon hills. it’s been six years since he was back but he hasn’t heard from her #and hes going stir crazy waiting. he packs up and travels back. it’s almost too much immediately. he still can’t get a hold of Laura #he can’t resist going home. it’s like a natural pull that guides him back. all at once he’s 16 again. staring at the wreckage of his life #deputy stilinski is sherrif now. it’s reassuring in the slightest that the police force seems to have moved on from how corrupt it was #he catches her scent and it’s putrid. bile catches in his throat. he seeks it out. still in denial to what he knows it means.#when he finds Laura it’s like the world ends all over again. he can’t stand to see her like this. he gives her a proper burial.#the best he can do at least #he visits Peter. he’s not the man Derek remembers- so full of fire and cunning. their relationship may have been strained at times.#often Derek felt more like Eve being swayed by the snake than a normal friendship #but this isn’t the sharp tongued uncle who guided him. this is a broken shell. all that remained of his family. he was so lost.#22 but he barely knew how to function without his family- his pack paving the way #Laura handled everything. she got the apartment. she made sure they had food. Derek looks back and feels so useless #he was so lost in his grief. Laura must of felt the same way but she never let them drown in it #she made sure he got his GED. even got him to enroll in community college classes.#he took them online. he never was able to warm up to people the same way. he used to be so full of life. now he just wanted to be left alone #he studied English. never finished his degree. doesn’t look like he ever will now. he can’t go back to Laura and his shared home.#can’t bare to see another shell of a home #he vents to the vacant audience of Peter and his cold fixed eyes #Derek leaves. he wants to promise he’ll return soon #but promises feel costly these days #he decides to go back to the reserve. maybe he can find some clue as to what happened to Laura #someone lured her here. someone who knew them and their history here #his mind went to the worst. Kate. why would she go through the trouble six years later. why wait so long.#Derek couldn’t stomach the thought of facing her. he focused on the woods. the scents were all over the place.#clearly multiple people had been through here recently. two scents were much stronger. Derek follows them #but when he hears the crunch of leaves he realizes why the scents are so strong. they’re still here #he ducks behind some trees. listening in on their conversation. but an echo of their scent catches his attention #he spots an inhaler on the ground. he puts two and two together and swipes it from the leaves.#he comes out once they’re closer. tossing over the inhaler- he figures they’ll leave. dumb kids messing around in the woods #he reminds them this is private property. though that may not be true anymore. he recognizes the scent of a new beta. interesting.

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screaming-oak · 1 year

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the ellis debate has gone on for so long “hes not dumb hes just silly” “hes not silly hes just stupid” here is my take. hes just dedicated to The Bit above all else. hes a lil dumb but more than that he is just off the shits simply for the fun of it. my man is just here for a good time not a long time and puts all hes got into it🫡

#also major undiagnosed autism vibes but thats another conversation LOL #basically i think hes no genius but hes definitely not as utterly unintelligent as everybody percieves him to be imo #we know he loves chasing thrills and prioritizes it over his and others’ safety #(and others’ sanity lol)#i dont think hes actively playing a role but 1) extreme dedication to having the most fun time ever #and 2) being in major denial (poor guy💀)#foster a fuck it we ball type attitude lmao #oh and also ik the fanbase typically characterizes him as this innocent ball of sunshine but people often forget that he can be kinda -#- snotty snarky and out of pocket sometimes💀💀not to the degree of nick obviously #but to the point where rochelle has a line calling him a complainer #and theres a few misc bits of dialogue along those same lines which is so funny to me #im probably waaay overanalyzing this but its fun to me !! i like when the curtains arent JUST blue #they probably were intended to be but they arent to me ^.^#all this is lighthearted btw i dont give a shit that much interpret him as you want have fun w it !! ^_^#l4d2 #l4d #left 4 dead #left 4 dead 2 #ellis l4d2 #headcanons #left4dead #ellis left 4 dead 2 #l4d2 ellis

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novelconcepts · 3 months

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It’s always so funny to me when someone can’t tell the difference between an actor who’s over the top and an actor who is doing an intentionally over the top performance. The former can be super aggravating, I get it—but the latter can be so goddamn effective. Especially when you know the actor already, know they’re fully capable of giving normal human facial expressions and chill line deliveries. And they’re out here doing The Absolute Most all of a sudden? It’s for a reason, dude. It’s almost always for a reason. And once you can see past the camp on the surface, it’s so much fun digging in to what emotions the character is actually hiding.

#this is mainly about servant (and to a lesser degree YJ)#like Ambrose in servant is (pardon me) serving SUCH a chaotic performance #but having known her for decades I know full well that’s on purpose #Dorothy is over the top because she HAS to be. because she’s built walls so high around her own grief that the denial comes out in Crazy #and she fully thinks she’s the only one paying attention. the only sane one in the room.#you get glimpses of her being ‘normal’ in flashbacks #still a little Much. still a product of wealth and expectation. detached from reality to a degree.#but the character she becomes after the tragedy is. A Character.#it’s not the woman she was before. she bricked that woman up. she’s taken her performance from television and made a baby blanket out of it #it’s so. so intentional.#and you sort of get a similar thing going with Hewson in early eps of YJ #totally different starting block. Van doesn’t start out traumatized. but she does start out Big #she’s loud she’s silly she’s being intentionally wacky to get laughs out of people #and some of it comes off a little cringe. because it’s a kid playing a role #this is how you like me. I’m gay. I’m butch. I’m hiding.#if I’m a jester you’ll see what I want you to and nothing more. that’s the plan. it’s working. don’t look at the goalie.#not as a person.#but as the show goes on (or as she’s spending time with taissa) she slows down some. quiets. she’s snarkier. holding tension differently.#Hewson starts the performance at an 11 so they can really delve into who Van becomes when the mask is off #when there’s no point in playing the class clown #when it’s like. ah yeah. here’s the kid who grew up too fast.#here’s the kid who’s scared to death. and angry. and willing to fight to live.#it’s not an overacting thing. it’s VAN overacting to keep her secrets #watch the face so you miss what the hands are doing #actors man. actors are fucking cool. storytelling is fucking cool.#deconstructing the illusion is my favorite thing #(anyway still watching servant and it’s still really. Something Else.)

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rusquared · 1 month

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conservative boomers spent years making weird dystopian futures where the phone-pilled gen z lead to the destruction of society. but when we're in an actual dystopian situation today, where people are being murdered with full impunity, with livestreams of suffering, with people making pleas to a camera lens and others making pleas to gather enough money to be allowed to escape and live - where are those conservatives now?

#ik the whole point is to feel bewildered and enraged #but it keeps returning #i think while i have always known that people can be evil (i grew up under one)#i still held onto some degree of denial. that people can be so casual about murder

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miktoast · 3 months

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so i was just re-reading my reference sheet for Miraculous Ladybug AU's when i found this bit that i'm absolutely in love with. for some context, i was explaining the various nicknames characters have for each other and how they came about. also, please note that this is an AU where Stoneheart took place on the first day of their second year of lycee. Also note, in this AU, Ladybug goes by Coccinette.

Adrien's Nicknames for Marinette and Ladybug:

—Ma Cherinette (as in "my dear [cherie] Marinette" after Nino's short film, where Adrien makes an inside joke of pretending to act like their old roles but with their own names) [Adrien to Marinette]

"Agent Dupain-Cheng! Ah, how I've missed you, ma Cherinette!" Adrien swooned, draping one arm around Marinette's shoulders while the other clutched at his chest. He could feel her tense momentarily and hunch into herself before drawing on the confidence that made her a worthy Madame President when M. D'Argencourt got akumatized, and worthy Buginette when Coccinette was out of town and Marinette had to face Evillustrator herself.

Her spine straightened as she rose to her full height under the weight of Adrien leaning against her, and as every time before that they had done this little bit of improv, his admiration for his friend resurged with vigor.

"Oh, Officer Agreste, mon cœur, I have burned every second we've been apart. The next mission, won't you ask me to stay?" She turned to him, causing his arm to slip from her shoulders until his hand caught on her hip. She grab his hand from his chest and held it delicately between her own before turning her face upward so he could meet her eyes.

Her eyes… They were shining so blue, so filled with love and heartache, that Adrien himself began to feel an ache in his chest, as if he had just learned to breathe and had only ever been suffocating before.

"You know I'd follow you anywhere, if only you'd ask. Even if you wish to wander only in this little town." She closed her eyes, and the spell should have been broken, but still he found himself captivated as she pressed her cheek against his knuckles, as if they were his lips giving her tender kisses. Her words burned him deeply, echoing with his own sentiments towards a girl, and surely it must be the girl in front of him that he is so attached to, for surely no other could set his chest ablaze with as much ferocity as she.

He exhaled softly, and thought that he must be blowing smoke into her hair as the blaze burned higher. "Cherie… you are a brilliant phoenix, and I would never think to cage you at my side. You set my heart on fire, and the embers burn even when we are apart. Let us feed the flames now, so that when you must fly, I will still feel your warmth."

His hand, which had been gripping bruises into her hip, rose to the back of her head. He pulled her forward until her forehead came to rest on his collarbone, and he buried his nose in her hair, thoughts only on how his knuckles pressed into the supple flesh of her cheek, how his fingers dug into the base of her hairline, how his lips brushed her scalp, and how certainly she would remember him, if only by the watercolor marks on her hip.

It was only after several minutes that he seemed to remember that he wasn't some detective who finally returned to his distant lover when he heard giggling and the shutter-click of a smartphone camera. It was several extended seconds more when he finally brought himself to raise his head, dreading to break the scene and have Marinette leave his arms. Alya met his eyes over black hair, a sly grin on her face while she waved her phone screen from only a meter away.

He couldn't stop the glare as he reluctantly pulled away.

“Oh, drop the look, ‘mon coeur,’ you know Nino would never forgive either of us if someone didn’t get this on camera for him to use later,” Alya snorted, stepping towards the pair.

Adrien simply huffed in reply, finally letting his arms drop. His skin immediately began to feel too hot without Marinette’s soothing coolness to sap the extra heat. He noticed, with no small amount of smug, that Marinette shivered, and goosebumps raised on the back of her arms once his heat no longer blanketed her. Even better, it took her several more moments to pull his hand from her cheek, and even more after that to actually drop his hand. Once her grip relaxed, he allowed himself to squeeze her fingers before finally letting go.

All the while, Alya continued to watch, thankfully not recording this time. These soft moments with Marinette, where he allowed himself to dip into his bursting stores of love and get a little out of his system, he wanted to keep only for himself and Marinette. He wanted to keep Marinette’s soft moments only for himself. He wanted no one else to get to see how Marinette acts when indulging in affection, however unrealistic that possessive want may be; after all, Marinette was full of affection and gave it freely.

But this affection?

These embraces, these kisses of the knuckles against her cheek like a cat, this “burning” devotion (however pretend), this affection which Marinette only seemed to give to him? He wanted it all. He didn’t want to see Marinette get a partner and give these affections to them. He didn’t want others to leech off of these affections with their seeing and their hearing when they indulged in these morning rituals. He wanted it to be only Marinette’s and his, he wanted them to be done for him alone, for the rest of time.

#miraculous ladybug #adrienette #fake dating #? i guess #denial #lmao adrien is still blind #it was just lovesick musings bc how could he possibly love Two people so deeply #adrien agreste #pov adrien #marinette dupain cheng #bief cameo of #alya cesaire #mentions of #nino lahiffe #apologies for typos #its 5am and im editing/rewriting as i read #also im on a galaxy tablet with a stylus actualy handwriting at a 90 degree angle in bed #T-T

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hotcinnamonsunset · 2 years

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oversized sweaters for a crisp fall my beloved❣️

#knitting #the pattern is JIM Sweater on ravelry #knitblr #wip #i’m in denial about the temps above 100 degrees Fahrenheit atm #this bad boy is going to see so many apple orchards and fall hikes🥹🍎🍁🍂

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saeranthis · 10 months

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I need dol devs to give us the option to pay Bailey anyway after we seduce him

#degrees of lewdity #bailey the caretaker #hes my babygirl #yes i know vrel said he will never be a love interest #yes i am in denial

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viksalos · 9 months

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reading up on autism to figure out what the fuck is going on with me and making a list of personal pros and cons to figure out whether i should feel good or bad about it. as one does

pros: hyperlexia, deeply compassionate, talent for mathematics and the sciences/can do calculations of reasonable complexity in my head, visual hypersensitivity/decent artistic ability when replicating from still life/good at distinguishing subtle colors, acute hearing/good at identifying distinct sounds and sonic textures/deeply moved by music, can rotate some shapes in my head really fast i guess

cons: people can tell something is "off" about me in a fraction of a second and will be anywhere from begrudgingly polite to overtly hostile about it, terminal "not like other girls" disease/feeling of disconnect with existing in a feminine body, can pace for hours on end until my legs hurt, frequent crying & shutdowns, talk about myself and my interests extensively and can't seem to find a way to stop or better relate to others outside of mirroring them, productive work that actually *utilizes* my talents seems to only happen in increasingly infrequent bursts of hyperfocus, recurring identity issues stemming from a fundamental feeling of being born wrong and belonging nowhere, visceral hypersensitivity means i'm in pain from the normal functioning of my own organs for most of the day, people have compared me to sheldon cooper and elon musk, i am constantly begging for the sweet release of death,

#text #hmm. this post was funnier in my head #to be clear i am not one of those ''aut1sm is a superpower'' people and i'm aware that my ''gifts'' afford me significant privilege #but they also used to be things i liked about myself even when i was depressed #now that i'm anywhere from 3-5 yrs into burnout and can't rly *access* my gifts in the capacity i used to be able to anymore #it's rly hard to be positive about things. lol #i used to think that if people were going to think i was weird forever that i should at least be useful #which may not be possible to the degree it once was. and i realize was also a damaging and unhelpful mindset to begin with #tbh i'm rly jealous of the zoomers who seem to have more knowledge about/be more accepting of this stuff.#i think i was just in denial for years. but after looking into it more i'm more certain i'm aut1stic than i've been of anything in my life #which is significant considering the; yknow; identity issues. lol #it's kind of hilarious how many of my old text posts just scream ''undiagnosed aut1stic burnout'' in retrospect #sorry for all the behaviors and stuff. i love my mutuals but i think i have to be on this website less #while i figure my stuff out. i'll still check in but not as often #feel free to reach out in the meantime. i already miss a lot of my friends i lost contact with while going thru it <3 #wow these tags got away from me. ok bye

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shunohoney626 · 1 year

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nerd

#dosr #degrees of separation: reloaded #ashley drummond #jabari stewart #im convinced ashley's middle name is denial #but we'll get to that later #dosr: its getting real

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lollipopsie · 1 year

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FREE MY GIRL SHE DID NOTHING WRONG‼️‼️‼️

#i refuse to stop thinking about her ever in my life I'm obsessed with her everything is so sad I'll never be okay again #mimi miney #aaa #ace attorney #aa #ace attorney justice for all #reunion and turnabout #ini miney #it is so hard to talk about her without spoilers bc of how I can't say her name without spoiling the main twist of the case #n e way i am so in denial about how doing first degree murder gets you death sentenced in japanifornia.#im ignoring it i do not see it my girl is fine she's in a reform based justice system and gets to live her life again #she gets to wear y2k baddie clothes and stop pretending to know what a mercury retrograde is or what the 9 of swords means #name one thing she did wrong identity theft doesn't count it's not even a real crime 🙄

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