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the fact that jane died there in the middle of the night is so fucking haunting to me. like beyond just the sheer sickening horror of watching her choke and struggle to breathe and eventually die stranded on her back while walt literally fucking stands there, watching her, fully equipped to help her and choosing not to, it’s the fact that she stays there. all night. going cold and rigid next to jesse, who’s none the wiser. maybe he resurfaced a few times from the heroin daze and hazily registered her presence next to him, her foot skirting against his, her hair draped across the pillow, and felt better before sinking down again. for a few hours, it was so quiet and peaceful. she might’ve even been sleeping if not for the chyme ringing her lips and the fishy coldness of her open eyes. she was drugged up and sleeping, but she was probably still afraid when it happened. she was all alone. that bullet-wound of a fact is so haunting, it’s no wonder that it totally breaks jesse. he left her alone, at least in his mind, alone in the dark. as john irving so succinctly put it, “tom woke up but tim did not.” jesse woke up but jane did not.
#syd squeaks#can u tell im having. A Moment#breaking bad#ask to tag#the brief period of time where they are dead but u dont know it yet is. how do I put this. the closest to hell u can get on earth#jesse pinkman#jane margolis#sorry for not being normal about this part of the show it will definitely happen again
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WHAT THE FUCK DID AUSTEN DO TO FUCKING GET HOMESICK AT SPACE CAMP AND ITS NO A SIDE EFFECT OF THE COCAINE LIKE IM HAPPY FOR YALL BUT WHAT THE FUCK MAN
#THE WAY I WOULD HAVE ACTUALLY SOBBED AND I NEVER CRY IN PUBLIC#YEAH PAVLOVE WAS GREAT AND ALL BUT THIS TAKES THE MOTHER FUCKING CAKE#IM FUCKING J E A L O U S#OH MY GOD#PATRICK WHAT THE ACTUAL FLIPPING FLYING FLAUNDERING FUCK#can you guys tell I’m having a moment#patrick stump when I catch you patrick stump when I catch you patrick stump when I catch you patrick stump when I catch you#fall out boy#fob#patrick stump#pete wentz#andy hurley#joe trohman#so (much) for stardust#so (much) for 2ourdust#2ourdust#it’s not a side effect of the cocaine I’m thinking it might be love#my heart will always be the b-side of my tongue
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hi losing my mind at this part where lucifer starts laughing at something marin says and then sam? smiles at him?? like he also wants to laugh???
#tiny moment but i am holding it in my hands#babygirl how sleep deprived ARE you#the pictures are really not doing it justice. u know how sam has like. A Voice#that he uses whenever dean says something he doesn't want to admit he finds funny because it was so dumb#like one of dean's really bad jokes and u can tell that sam is like. this idiot :)#he's using that voice for a second in this scene right here and.#im sorry im losing it over this i have rewound it like six times (not just to get the pics)#tfw the devil is going to torture u to death. but also he is funny and v cute when he laughs and u don't want to admit it#filing this with the face sam makes in lucifer rising under 'times sam has made weirdly positive expressions at the devil'#samifer#sam winchester#hallucifer#spn
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A little more similar than you think
I'm gonna talk abt this one because quite literally, nothing drives me more insane than Princess Iron Fan and Red Son's relationship. This is based on the headcanon I've seen around that Red Son's hair turns black like coal when it gets wet, which I found really cute!! Until I realized that if that happened he'd look exactly like Princess Iron Fan and that. Hurt-/lh
My all time favourite thing to do when shipping Red Son with either Mei or MK (mostly MK) is make Princess Iron Fan a hypocrite. She'd absolutely in no fucking universe approve (at first) because she and DBK value familial loyalty above all else. But that's only the case because DBK betrayed his sworn brothers to persue her and Princess Iron Fan was disowned by her family and cast out from the heavens for marrying him so their family is literally all they have really. So her son loving the enemy would immediately mean that he's going to abandon his family for them because that's what she would do. That plus all the tension thats built up between them after only having eachother during the 500 years DBK was imprisoned, I just think it's really fun poking at their relationship.
#my mums fiance's daughter is coming to visit and im having a mommy issues moment can u tell#anyway#um#yea haha if this flops ill die cos this is very. yea🫶/j#lmk#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk red son#monkie kid red son#lmk princess iron fan#lmk pif#monkie kid princess iron fan#monkie kid pif#lmk demon bull family
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curious if anyone else has this problem: being articulate but incomprehensible? like for example, im very good at articulating certain things, and people say im good at writing; however it seems that nobody is understanding what im truly trying to say, and trying to come up with a way to explain my true (but also ever-shifting and indecisive) thoughts is arduous and agonizing
#just curious bc yesterday my roommates were essentially telling me it was my fault that nobody helped me when i was having a bad moment bc i#shouldve communicated. the issue is that i did. i tried multiple times and ending in so many tears each time (which i feel is pretty good#evidence that i wasnt ok and may need support). so u can see the issue of communication being difficult. and their response was just#communicate better. and im just gobsmacked quite frankly
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i don't have words it just popped up in my head today while rewatching this is it this is the whole post
#jack kline#sam winchester#sam and jack#we are both monsters! it's what we've been told repeatedly and we both have bloody nose moments SHOWING how inhuman we are in some way and#as u can tell im so normal abt them
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TODOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#BEST BOY IS BACK I SHED ACTUAL TEARS#FUCKKK i forgot how much i love him 😭😭#he ALWAYS appears when yuji needs him most what if i cry and throw up#(nobara comeback soon TRUST)#anyway i liked this chapter BUT . i’m mad abt choso#like as far as deaths go . i think his scene was good. i cried . yuji calling him big bro at the end feels fitting#BUTT his death was a lil toooo sudden for my liking + i feel like it undermines the fight he had w kenjaku !!!#bc that fight ended w choso’s death as a curse. and . so . I MEAN#in a way i can understand the appeal writing wise of having him die once as a curse and once as a human#BUT LIKE ….. yuki telling him to ”live as a human” was suchhh a powerful moment n i rlly felt like it gave him plot armour 😭#so . well. im not too happy w this. BUTTTT you have to understand how my brain works …. i see todo aoi and i get hyped#and the final yuji/choso scene was rlly rlly heartwrenching :(((#so i liked the chapter. but i cant say i rlly like the writing choice……..#im just praying for todo not to die PLSSSS dont take my bestie from me 😔😔😔#(also logan if u happen to see this my grievances are with you and your family at this time)#ari noises ✩#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#jjk 259
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sometimes someone will reblog my "silver lied in the finale no idea abt what tho" post and their tags all full of #flinthamilton angst and i just really am forcefully reminded that even though we all watched the same show . we did not in fact watch the same show. like yes their affair is basically what set the whole plot in motion and i really love thomas as a plot device but i do have to confess that idc abt thomas as a person at all lmfao
#like i wont stop u from making the finale abt flinthamilton thats ur right go crasy go silly etc but to me that is just not whats happening#thomas being there or not is abt whether or not silver is lying about this particular detail it is not abt unburying ur gays#like. to me at least#idk how else to put it but thomas being there is not abt thomas. it is abt flint and madi and silver and The Narrative#it is abt silver trying to pay off flint with the same thing he sold this war for: a partner#and he is telling this to madi who did not want this about flint who also did not want this#so theyre both making eye contact and are waiting for the other to either flinch or turn back into a person who loves them#its driving me insane. like ur taking a moment as fucked up and genius as this and u decide this is abt colonizer romance#like im not even getting into the fact that imo flint has progressed so far in his ideological journey that they wouldnt see eye to eye#bc woodes rogers is flints mirror but wr is also what thomas mightve become and ur telling me hed happily settle for That?#ok no i'll stop here i need to go say the litany against getting mad online 10x (getting mad online is the mind killer)#black sails#cavetext#once again. live ur truth!!! more power to u!!! but if u do that on my post where i can see it i will inevitably have opinions i fear
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You have given me a great joy in life with your Renkaza au
May I ask, what happened to the rest of the Kamado family? Did they get their canon ending or are they with Nezuko as they try to deal with her new demonification?
oh yay im glad you're enjoying it so far! 🥰
nezuko's actually with her brother in the box, like in canon lol. i just havent drawn her--or inosuke or zenitsu--in the panels we've seen, but they're there!
as for the rest of the kamados... i actually havent decided LOL. my instinct is to save everyone, since this is a light-hearted comic strip, but also i'm not sure i'd be able to reliably write that since it involves more plot than the "stupid jokes loosely following canon" i mostly have written down aha. so i suppose it's a surprise for now, even for myself.
i guess we'll see!
#thanks for the ask 💖#sorry if this isnt a satisfying answer but i genuinely dont know rn haha#rei replies#ssh extras#like the thing is. the thing is i had like a short emotional 'i see you' moment planned out between renkaza#for when upper six die but if i save the kamados then i feel obligated to save gyu and ume which means id have to rejig that#and i have Ideas for how but they lean into the kind of fluff that feels so divorced from canon idk if i actually want to write it???#bc i do also love me some angst. hnn. i suppose we'll see how self-indulgent i decide to be about this#but looking at the way im characterizing hakuji u can tell im already being pretty self-indulgent LOL. 😂#so yeah it's a surprise even for me! but i AM leaning toward the 'everyone lives' route rn.#it's just. upper moons 4 and 5 are much harder to want to save versus upper moon 6 yknow. or even 1 &2.#but it'd be weird to be like 'f those guys in particular' lol. u can see my conundrum.#at the same time... this is my story so i can do what i want to??? hm.#WE'LL SEE.
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it genuinely makes me laugh at how much ted has a grip on my brain its EMBARRASSINGGGG how many drawings i have of him (finished and unfinished) and yet im loving every single second of it
anyhoo how do any of yall feel about another babygirl drawing
#I DONTKNOWW I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAYYYY UAHHH ERMMM.....#i know some of u are probably gripping me to draw something else but SORRY... HAVING A CATEGORY 7 AUTISM EVENT RN..... i genuinely cant#tell you how long this will last LMFAOOO#i joked with a friend (hi mail) about filling a sketchpad with drawings of him that progressively gets ...... hornier each page AND.#ITS STARTING TO SLOWLY BECOME A REALITY JUST IN DIGITAL I AM SO SORRY HJAGKHJAGHJDGHJAGJ#ITS JUST MAKING ME GIGGLEEEE this is so embarrassing but i just had to say it#I KEEP ON SAYING THIS BUT I REALLY DO WANT TO DRAW SOMETHING ELSE but you know....... everytime i open a canvas i go insane#like rn. i dont even know if i can call this a pin up but its..... Fruity...!#<- HOMOSEXUAL#I DONT KNOW. DONT LOOK AT ME.#having a moment and all the girlies on discord are offline so im rattling my cage rn#pn.txt#LIKE YALL RLY FOLLOW ME FOR THESE.....?? HELP!!!!!#ITS JUST SO FUNNY. GOD. ANYWAYS#PRAY TO FUCKIN GOD MY IRLS NEVER CHECKS BACK ON MY BLOG ID SHIT MYSELF IF THEY DO
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forever grateful for the ccc english patch (tho i can't play it myself /sobs) bc THIS. this sums up the true route so well and i write my hakuno before she really develops as a character (cuz i wanna flesh her out thru ic interactions 😤✨️) but i love her growth in canon and can't wait to flesh her out in writing so she can come to understand love like thisss 😭💕
ccc really is all about love and how the characters act based on how perceive that concept and there's a talk about the difference between ai (愛) and koi (恋) but tl;dr hakuno and sakura have koi, which andersen describes as a "dreaming heart" that's more associated with like longing and yearning,,,, IT FITS THEM SO WELL I SOBB
#&&. out of#I LOVE THE WAY H.AKUNO LOVES SM IM TYPING ALL OF THIS FROM A POOL OF MY TEARS IM SO SRS#i'm gonna be real with u chief i'm still trying to understand the differences between ai/koi myself BUT FROM I HAVE BEEN READING-#koi is vv fitting bc it's more romantic (eng patch translates koi to 'in love' and ai to 'love' !) and directed to a special person#<- ALSO WHY I'M NOT A FAN OF THE H.AKUNO HAREM JOKES 😷#DEVOTION IS LITERALLY THERE IN DA H.AKUNO CHARACTER PROFILE and h.akuno makes it so clear that she only has eyes for one (1) person#if she loves u then u'd be her one and only..!!!!#it's an important character trait of hers methinks tho i will admit that there are moments that make me go 🤨 in regards to it#but that's not h.akuno- that's jst bad writing 💀#AGDJWHD AND YEAHH THATS WHY I SOMETIMES IGNORE CERTAIN THINGS IN CANON 😷#the only parts of h.akuno i don't like can all be chalked up to bad writing frfr 🗿#i have a lot to say but ye i love h.akuno k.ishinami a lot 😭😭😭✌️✌️#WE ALSO FINALLY GOT ENG TRANSLATION OF H.AKUNO PROPOSING AND I WANNA POST THAT TOOOO#as u can probably tell; my h.akuno simp heart is truly being fed so well by all this content 🤧🙏💗💓💕
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i dont have anything to say for myself its just my niche okay. warning for both the volume AND. unique. auditory experience of g1 lmao.
[VD: G1 transfromers clip, of a Megatron and Starscream altercation
Outside, dark, lightening strikes. Soundwave turns off some audible signal, and it begins raining.
Megatron: here are your orders Thundercracker, I-
Starscream: What is your excuse Megatron! You let the enemy GET AWAY! You- [Megatron knocks him to the ground] Ouf
Megatron walks over and pick him up by the throat, Starscream coughs, and is grabbing at his hand: Cross me again Starscream and I'll reduce you to titanium fragments.
Starscream struggling Megatron tightens his grip, scrabbling at Megatron's hand: But we had the Autobots disoriented. We could have eliminated them.
Cut wide, their standing close, Starscream still being choked. Megatron: We'll do that at our leisure. When are more important work is done! [He throws Starscream to the ground]
Low angle, up at Megatron, lightening strikes behind him. He points down, hand large in frame: You have had the only warring I intend to give. [He gestures to himself and then points back down]
Starscream scowls. Decepticon badge bummer.
well thats a lie but we can forgive him cause i assume this moment cursed his dick...
anyway i have more formats of this scene below cause i got excited :D
[Gif of when Megatron is choking Starscream, from above. Specifically the moment where he pushes Starscream back and tightens his grip. Starscream's head tips back and he makes some interesting faces, hands struggling. END]
ID: Four frames of the choking, the different faces Starscream makes. 1. Snarling mouth shape. 2. Distress/pout? 3. Mouth wide open, head tipped back. 4. Eyes bulging as hes really getting choked. END
yay yippee yay <3
[ID: The two instances of Megatron pointing downward, slightly different body positions and hand gesture. 1. Squared shoulders, hands less downwards. 2. Shoulders angled, hand larger/more central. END]
to add to the great library of megatron (or galv) interacting directly with the viewer
#some shit#its not called cisformers#fuck thats some great folly as his tightens his grip. great stuff#wheres that fucking fan art where megatrons talking about loving when starscream changes expressions really fast.#NEVER has that been more true. cursed his dick. cursed MY dick. fgsdjfgd. BWAH#LOOK. how many more pixels there are on the hasbro utube uploads than the tubi version <- where i watched all of g1. TWICE#okay now and ofc if youll allow. hows the process go for locating a starscream being choked moment from a screenshot#1. check if its im stupid im stupid (its not) 2. what else can the shot tell us. its dark and raining! okay thats not happening to often#in g1. i mean THINK of the extra work it takes u know? 3. what eps have bad weather. 4. this arc has freak weather AND a screamer overthrow#4. start from the beginning of the arc skiping thru looking for the weather to match. 5. part two 4mins 40. baby. HEY PRESTO#didnt even have to check the wiki (wouldnt have discredited my self if i had. just a different way to access knowledge isnt it) BUT LOL <33#the humans are SO well drawn this arc. crazy stuff. great stuff. love it
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At first, this is a very frustrating pairing.
Ivan is the type of man to take a lack of eye contact as disinterest, or worse, dislike.
He gets distracted very quickly if he’s talking to someone fidgeting with colorful stim toys.
Definitely not very good at respecting personal space either. He’s naturally very touchy and never learned what discomfort looks like-
As someone who's almost 7 feet tall and over 1000 years old, it’s also hard for him not to infantilize everyone. If you’re bothered by that (which like yea, of course) you have to bring it up a couple of times /:
But other than that, he’d be a great boyfriend.
He’s a great listener and your happiness is his number one priority. If something is bothering you, he’ll do his best to understand improve.
Because of that, he also loves it when you rant to him about your hyperfixations and special interests. One of his favorite types of dates is just you two on the couch watching something, with him resting his head on your shoulder while you constantly bring up trivia about what you’re watching.
And if you like having pressure on you, he is very excited to do that with just himself- if you asked him to he would lay on you at every opportunity.
If you don’t like PDA, it would be a little frustrating for you but he would oblige. He’s naturally very physically affectionate but the last thing he wants is to upset you.
If you aren’t very smooth in social situations, he isn’t either! Luckily his confidence in his awkwardness makes up for the both of you-
Plus, if you get overwhelmed in public, he’d be the perfect guy to have around. Usually, he is vying to leave any situation just like you, and who is going to tell him to stay? Even if they try, he just has to stare them down and they’ll let you two go on your merry way.
In fact, he gets super annoyed if anyone calls you weird or anything of the sort. He won’t yell, it’s not like him, but he will definitely tell them off in his own special way.
“How could you say such a thing? They already go through so much, and you choose to hurt them more? How immature.”
So basically, like a disappointed dad. He’s been called strange before too, so he understands how much it hurts. Gets pretty confused if you enjoy being called weird though. He would still defend you against it, even if you said it didn’t bother you.
If you have meltdowns and panic attacks, it’d probably take him a while to learn how to… deal though. At first, he panics and tries to grab you. Which is bad. Don’t do that. But he learns quickly to just… be there through it. Definitely tries to spoil you the rest of the day after too. Seeing you upset is his absolute nightmare!
If living by yourself isn’t very easy for you, he’d also be great to have around. He loves accompanying you anywhere you ask, and has no trouble taking care of you. He’s seen a lot in his long life, nothing you do or need can surprise him at this point. And nothing is better than seeing you thrive, no matter what he has to do.
Any eccentricities or “strange” behaviors you may have do not affect his love for you in the slightest. All they do is make him love you more
“I do not care what people may say, I would never want you to change. I will be here for you no matter what, моя любимая.”
#hws russia x reader#aph russia x reader#ivan braginsky x reader#hetalia x reader#hetalia imagines#aph russia#hws russia#ivan braginsky#this is self indulgent can u tell#me when im having an autism moment in public: wow i would not be having this problem if ivan was here
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dust but. he has no face behind the shadow in his hood. its been like torn to shreds n mangled so he uses magic to cover it. angst potential...
#i may or may not incorporate this into my au#n then he like eventually shows the others what it actually looks like n. hurt comfort angst i#im having a moment can u tell#my headcanons#dust sans#dusttale#my au
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DAWN OF THE FINAL DAY FIVE HOURS REMAIN
thank-you @shrekgogurt @artsyunderstudy and @imagineacoolusername for the tags!
you all cannot fathom how utterly excited i am for mermay. so excited that i've started another WIP, and if luck's a lady this month i might even get all the way through it before real life grabs me by the scruff. here's a little smackerel of simon POV from it!
It clatters to the floor and the sound is excruciating and immediate. Baz jerks away from me with a hiss, clapping his hands over his ears as I swear and scramble for the button to turn it off. The piercing tone echoes all the way down the staircase, still ringing long after I tip the switch.
“Nereus, what was that?!” he snarls, staring wide-eyed at the radio like he thinks it might jump out and bite him.
“It’s alright!” I tell him, throwing my jacket over it and stowing it back on the shelf, “It’s fine. That’s the emergency-button, it’s just an alarm you can set off if you need to be heard from really far away. Like if you got stuck under debris, or something.”
“That was horrific, Cadwallader.”
@stitchyqueer @you-remind-me-of-the-babe TAG YOU'RE IT
#six sentences sunday#the pen is mightier#hi whats up im autistic and i have been apocalyptically obsessed with mermaids since i was 8#i literally have more seashells in my home than cutlery#this is a two monofin household#please talk to me about mermaids so much i've seen people reblogging my stuff talkin about how much they love mermaids and like#PSPSPSPSPS CAN I TAKE A MOMENT OUT OF YOUR DAY TO TELL YOU THE GOOD NEWS ABOUT MY AU'S#i'm trying to be braver and weirder about my interests#person who made the simon snowfish video. if u r reading this. hit me up.
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omg you’re WELCOME tumblr.com for the collab of Ridi x Siken I take gifts in the form of german cars or freshly baked pies just an fyi!!! Hmm okay can I pls have either 3 or 5! xx
HELLO BAB! FIRSTLY cant thank you enough for this ask game its wreaked absolute havoc on the dash xx SECONDLY sorry this is so late! i am the slowest of all time xx its kind of long though so there's that!! and THIRDLY: i went with five in the end!! some post-moon angst xx
He’s been in there nearly three hours, now. Sirius has done the dishes, changed the sheets, sorted the cluster of plastic bottles and blister packs and jars of ointment on the bedside table into the precise order in which they’ll be needed. Dug out their Muswell Hillbillies record, since they were talking about it the other day. And Remus is still in the bathroom.
On the other side of the door, all quiet. Miserable bleed of the dripping faucet, but nothing else—no movement, no jostled water. They left the kitchen window open. A draft rocks through the flat.
“Remus?”
He thinks maybe he ought to knock. He doesn’t. The bathroom isn’t thick with heat, as he expected, and Remus doesn’t turn to face him: he’s hunched over in their narrow alcove bathtub, the hair at the nape of his neck slick and sweat-curled, his knees against his chest. The start of a bruise, splayed out over one of his shoulder blades.
“Hi. Hi, you.” Sirius wipes his hands on his jeans, kneels by the bathtub. Remus’ pyjamas, folded in a pile on the lid. “Everything alright? Can I do anything?”
Remus looks at him—or, rather, looks vaguely at his collarbone. He’s bitten his bottom lip bloody, and his eyes are red. Damp, like he’s been crying. When Sirius touches his face, it’s clammy, beneath a sheen of cold water.
“Sorry,” Remus mumbles, "I’m—yes, m’fine.” His voice is chafed, dusty; he digs the heels of his palms into his eyes, the dark thorns of his eyelashes. Rasp of raw skin up his forearm that’s yet to scab over. Pinkish tinge to the bathwater. “I’m sorry. Shit, god. Sorry.”
“Oi, no. None of that, Moons. What’s the matter?” Sirius swipes his fingers through the short, sticky hair at Remus’ temple, flicks away a tangle of dirt in it. So much of last night is still raked up against his body, gathered in the soft creases at his arms and thighs.
Leaves rotting on the forest floor. White moon, lodged there in the black like a bullet in an X-Ray, or a tooth through skin. The way the delicate bones at the wrist sound when they snap, like twigs: radius, ulna.
He deserves a gentler night than that. He always does.
“I’m not…m’sorry,” Remus shakes his head, a thinness to his voice that sours Sirius’ insides. “I just don’t—I don’t feel very good, and I wasn’t ready to get out, but I can’t—”
“What is it that’s playing up? Is it your hip again? I can—”
“No, I mean—” Then his shoulders jump, and something catches in his throat; some scraped-up, shuddering noise: “I don’t—feel good, Sirius,” he chokes out, blinking quickly. “I’m just so, so tired, all of the time, and—and it never fucking stops, it’s always so much. It’s so much, every month, and it doesn’t—doesn’t ever end, and sometimes I can’t do it, I can’t.”
Sirius watches the outline of Remus’ ribs, the way they heave. The divots between them that he has traced out so many times. In the corner of the bath, there’s the scummy soap dish that for whatever reason currently only offers a pack of fags: Cadets, white box and red stripe, which neither of them smoke. His jeans, wet at the knees from splashed water.
“I just—I want to feel okay,” Remus breathes, knuckles scratched beneath his eyes. “I don’t feel okay.”
Edging closer to the bathtub, Sirius tries to stamp his voice into something more solid: “Okay—okay, hey, look.” He presses the side of Remus’ head to his chest, kisses his hair and his burning cheek and the bump of bone at the top of his spine—sorry about all that broken skin, sorry there’s only loose change in my pockets, sorry I can’t hide you anywhere.
“Look,” he says after, “we’re alright. We’ll be alright again, you’ll see, Moony. My Moony.” His hand slips down to Remus’ neck; he knows exactly where to feel for his pulse, proof of the desperate kick of his heart. “I love you, and…and I’ll make you feel okay. I will, every single time. You don’t have to do a thing.”
He reaches past him for the washcloth, hanging limp over the faucet. “I’m sorry,” Remus repeats, with a cough. “I—I don’t know why, sometimes.” He pauses. “I’ve made your shirt wet.”
“No you haven't,” Sirius lies, just for the sake of it. “Fuck, though, you must be knackered. I’ll get a takeaway later. Indian, if you like.”
Remus nods. Sirius starts the hot water running again; Remus opens the packet of Cadets, takes five snaps of his fingers to light one. His hands are still jittery. He does this shy, sad smile, as if to say sorry, again.
“You have to know—you’re the very best thing I’ve got, Remus,” Sirius tells him, quietly, fingertips still against his pulse-point. Steady, darling bass beneath his skin. Ash in the water. “The very best thing, so. Sit forward, will you? I’ll wash your back.”
#pov the mould is still talking#also this is dedicated to the other anon who also sent me five!! i see u too mwah xx#i had a variation of this scene written months ago ive been WAITING for the r bathtub breakdown moment. its been BREWING#i cant tell if i. really like this or absolutely loathe it im so sorry. its late here now though ill have to decide in the morning xx#its just. you literally dont understand i need to hug him so bad. i need to feed him strawberries and brush his hair im sooooo serious#hes everything to me...hes everything to sirius too...his boyfriend better hope he can fight....#i have uhh. three more!! i told you id do it you never shouldve doubted me xx#r/s#ridi drabbles#my fic
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Emphasis on Press(ed).
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Untitled
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Fantasy, Art, Games and Gays
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An Army Orderly's Organizer
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TLMeland