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looking at some “bad” art of mine from a month ago like. well. you see hyperfixating and drawing obsessively for a month straight WILL make you better at it<3 like a lot a lot better at it. also @ myself maybe u shouldn’t compare spending hours and days on a piece versus a quick sketch w/ no reference that u did on the second day ever of using procreate. like obvs that one was “bad” skfdfkkdf
#arting adventures#we are practicing self-love !#art is hard but fun and rewarding#the 'bad' art in question is nothing i've posted. i love all the pieces i've shared#well actually. i *did* post the 'bad' sketch and then promptly deleted it moments later sjkdfdsk#but yea i'm not talking abt any of my posted work#it's fun to look back tho. like i have a bunch of sketchy dudes in a sketch stack on procreate and im like. ur all so awful (affectionate)#they were sooo right tho when they said practice makes perfect. like literally. practice!! build those muscles it's so important#where's that post abt pottery and making tons of shitty pots before you make rly good pots and then ur pots are like. REALLY GOOD#anyways. make bad art write messy first drafts make tons of wonky pots. that's how u get good at everything#vic.txt
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hiii lovely!!
I am absolutely in love with your fragile! reader content, especially dottore and fragile reader it's just so hhdnsjsfhs anyways I noticed on the fragile reader but they died post that the reader is mentioned to have only met dottore after he became a harbinger so it made me wonder whether dottore would have a slightly different reaction to akademiya! reader, how the letter would be etc like imagine reader talking abt the akademiya days and whatnot </3
anw!! I just wanted to say I adore ur works and they hit home cus I'm rather sickly lol
mwah mwah byeee
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Yea, when I wrote that I didn't think of how good a fragile Akademiya reader would be unfortunately, but I wish I did cuz it would have been so much better-😭 AND YES HE DEFINITELY WOULD ILL WRITE A LIL SOMETHING HERE
To Zandik,
As I write this, it is late at night. One of your clones put me to bed a while ago, yet for some reason, I cannot sleep. I keep tossing and turning and so I decided to do something to occupy my mind. It has been rather restless lately, I admit. I... don't know how to tell you this in person, so I'll just write down whatever comes to mind right now. You'll probably end up finding this eventually, so I might as well just let everything out.
I have been thinking a lot about the past lately. Our Akademiya days, to be specific. I have secretly been wishing to go back to those days, even if just for a bit. To go back to the first moment I met you. (How handsome you were.) To go back to those painful study sessions. To go back to those picnics under the stars. To go back to the time I was not sick, and I could spend life with you to the fullest.
Really, those were some of the best moments of my life. I have been thinking about this because... I have not been feeling well lately. I mean, I don't feel well most of the time but nowadays I feel as though the illness is creeping more and more in me. It might just be a temporary thing, I don't really know. I know you are working as best you can, I know you better than anyone. So... don't blame yourself.
Hah, it's too bad. Admittedly I have also found myself daydreaming about the future, although it seems rather dim. I want to see a lot of the world. Did you know that? Well, I should correct myself. I want to follow you wherever you go and see the world that way. You've gone to Sumeru recently, yes? I know you've told me about how much it's changed, but I hope to see it myself one day. And I want to befriend some of your Harbingers friends. What is their opinion of me, by the way? Ah, and I want to take on that Traveler, too. They seem rather pesky.
Well, if I do get better, I will burn this letter and apologize to you with everything I have. But for now, I'll stash it somewhere just in case. And I'll say this now - I love you, Zandik. I love you so much that if I were to be away from you for too long I'd go mad. This love has burned inside of me since the Akademiya, and it still rages within me. I hope you know that.
Dottore would be much more affected although he doesn't really show it. Hell, even the clones are affected, from how they linger by your door a second too long, remembering that there is no you any more to wake up. He puts a mask on his emotions to pretty much everyone. You have been a familiar face for countless years of his life. In the Akademiya, after pulling another all-nighter, the first thing he'd be greeted with was your sleepy embrace around him. He'd roll his eyes at your nagging, and the two of you would get ready for classes. During his expulsion and exile, even though you were ill, you still stuck by his side. And even during the Fatui, you still sent him that tired but lovely smile. Every day, without fail, you could be seen with him at least for a bit. Yet he failed. For the first time in a long time, he failed.
#smooches talks#🌕 anon#fragile reader <3#dottore love notes <3#ALSO HIII UR NEW WELCOME!!! <333#AND THANK U FOR THE COMPLIMENTS 🌕 ANON IM SO SO HAPPY U ENJOY MY WORKS💕💕💕#dot and fragile reader deserves a whole fanfic atp
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hello! I've been following you since I was in middle school and i fucking LOVE YOUR ART!!!! Your ocs are so cool to look at and especially your animations too! I've always wanted to animate ever since middle school but simply starting is always the hardest part for me so I find it difficult to sort of just get in the zone as a fellow +perfectionist+ , I admire people like you who consistently post no matter any hate, because in my personal experience everytime I get even a bit of criticism especially related to my ocs, it really brings me down because of how closely attached I am to them. I sort of wish I was like you where you can just post and not think twice abt what could be said abt the ocs !
aside from that I used to be in your discord server but was randomly kicked and im not sure why or if theres any way I can get back in it? I really miss looking at all your art you posted on there, my assumption is because I didn't really talk at all in the server (im shy when it comes to servers) , so if there is anyway I can maybe get back into it that would be cool
I hope this wasn't too much to read! All i really wanted to get across is that I adore your ocs, art and animations and aspire to be like you one day where I can post freely and super consistently, with college in the way I don't see that happening anytime soon but hopefully in the future :) I admire your consistency in art!!!!
AAAWEWEA STTOOPPP, I'm gonan start bouncing off the walls ur so nice 😭💖 I'm always extremely proud of my work so it kinda comes as a bonus when I post stuff bc I'm always exited to show off what I've done haha
If it's just hate it's always best to ignore it, mainly cuz whatever you're doin' prolly makes you happy yea? So you're the one winning, what you're doin' makes you happy and who's this loser to come into YOUR space and hate on YOUR stuff??
Everyone starts somewhere and if someone's hating because you're not immediately perfect in what you do, then they're not worth your time 🙏
As to my discord server, a while ago we wiped out a bunch of people that would be seen as inactive for my own safety reasons. I've had many people ask when my server's gonna be open again and soon, I don't wanna keep it closed for much longer cuz I feel bad I can't let people in yet lmao 😭
BUT hopefully soon! I'll be ready eventually but since I'm back on tumblr I'll be posting my art here too!
BUT AGAIN! You're very nice thank u smsm 😭💖💖💖I just woke up so this was a nice message to see haha
I hope you'll be able to start posting your own content soon! Like I said, everyone starts somewhere
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"Goodness, you are a force!"
-my culinary teacher, loudly, in front of the whole class during a study hall as I was drawing twinks.
MY FANFIC (read abt it at the bottom euhg):
♡BG INFO & DNI♡
she/her, bisexual aro(I'm on the spectrum but not too sure what yet), minor
the dni list for my safety and happiness:
THIS IS A 13+ BLOG, fat phobic, NSFW only blog, homophobic, pedo, TERF, ableist, pro/comship, racist, zoo
Sometimes I post/reblog isopods(I will tag these w 'isopod', 'isoposting' or 'tw bugs'/'tw bug mention'), space stuff, spider-man, metal/rock music stuff, and punk culture. If any of this bugs you please either block those tags, simply ignore them, or even unfollow me. I won't be bothered!
alt blog w spiderman content: @spider-plush
dca/au centered blog(much more organized): @timestillstands
if you find that I start making media that isn't what you like or joined for, or even I say smth that goes against ur morals, feel free to unfollow or stop interacting! no hard feelings, as long as you don't attack me for anything
☆ASKS☆
Send me asks !!! I love them !!! Js no NSFW, nothing that goes along the dni, nothing abt my personal life(btw that's like smth abt where I live, names, age, etc etc. if I want to talk abt that I will.), and no explicit injury(particularly dismemberment, but anyways, don't send me any sort of injury, I will block you)
Not too strict, should be common knowledge for my kinda blog, soo yea. Stay safe, hugs and loves <333
◇TAGGING◇
This has the same rules as the asks, tag me in anything you think I would like, it can be super random or super specific, I don't really care lol.
my rule on tagging me in controversial stuff is that I will choose whether or not I want to get involved.
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unless ur a moot pls don't dm me and I also don't have notifs on for anything, so uh yuh
I'm not really an internet talker lol
I'M MAKING A FIC !!! :DD
Your roommate suggested it. Saw a sign asking for help. You needed a job, they needed techs. Problem settled. Right?
Well, yes. New problem: You did not sign up to be the personal daycare technician, which, mind you, was filled with children. You can't do children.
It doesn't seem like the Daycare Attendant likes you either. Which is a problem, because you like it better when the robotic coworkers aren't... Rude? Creepy? Passive aggressive? Not delightful
#scribbits art#introductory post#scrib talks#time still stands tag#once upon a time tag#dirt is bitter au#<- haven't talked abt those last two aus in like.#ever.#but haha yk tagging them here bcaus i have plans mwahaha#asks#meet the artist#carcass of a carnival
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TJANK FUCKING GOD YOURE TALKING ABOUT THE R@PE SHIT IN THIS FANDOM. I'm actually in disbelief of how often it's being written. And I get the whole 'dont like, then scroll' and whatever, but when I open up my dash/tags and the first FIVE FUCKING FICS are r@pe fics???? And there's more every day, by the same, but also newer writers??? Wanna know what that is? Normalization. There's one blog on here that's so so so bad for it. And honestly, I get darker content, and I get the interest in rape from a psychological and conditional aspect, but that is when it's being taken seriously. These writers on here? Yeah, they're not fucking taking it seriously. If I see one more '💕🌷🎀' on a r@pe fic, I'm going to fucking lose it.
I can't imagine showing a survivor of SA one of these fics and telling them there is more like it. Like... How embarrassing. But the excuse is that the writers were SA'd and that this is the way they can work through their trauma. Personally, that literally does not add up to me. But! I'm not a psychologist so I can't dictate how someone works through their trauma. But, I can have an opinion on what they put on a public domain. And that's where the whole COD fandom issue lies. There is literally no healthy discourse. If you ask someone why they write about r@pe, they either block you, publicly slander you like you're the idiot for asking about a r@pe fic (???), or tell you to fuck off or something. Like... Why can't we just have a healthy discussion about it?? ESPECIALLY in a fandom with a pretty large female following. We SHOULD be talking about this not being hostile to each other, writers and readers alike.
Idk, sorry for the word dump. I spent four hours talking to a friend about this (who doesn't have Tumblr) and the general consensus was the same. I wish people could just think a little more critically. Just because you have a kink, or think somethings hot, doesn't always mean it's okay. And when you're consistently writing about it as a way to work through it, and posting it online, that just might be a sign that you should talk to a professional, cause there's nothing wrong with getting a second opinion.
took the fucking words outta my mouth babe. you are so RIGHT
tbh i never seen someone actively open about their trauma and say that they write the r*** fics as a way for them to cope. that’s definitely new to me. i mean, i’m no expert too and i can’t exactly say and tell them how to feel but yea that’s a little… bizarre. whether or not they’re using that as an excuse so they can write it i have nothing to say abt that. but if it’s a lie then they can go fuck themselves.
it’s not only this fandom i believe, right? there’s gotta be more and that’s the most fucked up thing about it. like i do not need to know you’re some mentally fucked individual who enjoys writing and reading about r*** content, u keep that shit to yourself. do not bring that bullshit here.
it’s pretty saddening to know that telling ppl to fuck off is their only response. which makes me realized that they are only good for one thing. how could you not have any ounce of decency in you to actually be aware of those things and realize that r*** is not okay and will never be okay?? I don’t care what’s the excuse or whatever reasons u want to bring to the table. if u don’t wanna talk about how r*** takes the joy out of a SA victim and leave a permanent scar in which they have to live with everyday, then there is no point in writing them at all.
and also, you know what saddens me more? the blogs that normally write them comes from women. because, man… you should’ve known better… you should’ve known that no woman on earth could ever live in peace knowing that one exact fear is the reason why we are so terrified of going out alone. why we are so terrified of men. why would you ever go out your way and change these beautiful characters to be some sort of evil spawn ?? weird ass bitches.
don’t be sorry for the word dump!! because i’m glad that some of you came into my inbox and expressed your thoughts about this particular bullshit.
they do need to get some help. and i mean this in the most nicest and disrespectful way possible tbh.
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wait i was just scrolling your blog and i saw that the summer hikaru died got an anime adaption confirmed, i've seen you posting abt it before but i have no idea what it's about could u like give me an overview/tell me abt your favorite characters or smth bc i'm interested in it and i'd rather ask you than google for an exciting synopsis 😭 (don't feel forced to respond to this, this is my weird way of reaching out bc hi we've been mutuals for a while but we never really talk <//3)
Hiiiii <3 yes ofccc (I'll try to do a spoiler-free version wich cuts out some main themes😭) Also additional apologies for my English cuz 💀💀 second language and all, and if I make any mistakes story-wise TwT
Honestly, I recommend reading the first chapter, it's pretty direct in what the themes are and who our main characters are and "represent". It's not like most manga that drags it on for a couple of chapters, I can private chat the link or u can just look it up since it's easy to find (I do NOT recommend starting through the one-shot/ chapter 0 btw!!).
Oh, and the art. God. The art is absolutely stunning so yea, the story works a lot better visually than what I can tell.
So! Those main characters are 'Hikaru' and Yoshiki, mainly Yoshiki. They are childhood friends and in their second year of high school (or third year in the complete four-year American system) living in a small town. In that sense it's a slice of life, going to school with friends and having fun. But!! The town is almost "haunted", it's full of ghosts and some citizens can see/ feel/ hear those, those ghosts aren't exactly evil but they can hurt the living. So it's also a horror with a detective-ish thing going on (with gore aspects too) because of those monsters and what they do and them trying to figure out how everything works because it's being hidden from them by the village elders almost.
It also focuses a lot on the emotional journey of the characters, mainly towards grief (oh the grief! very well represented and relatable :,/) and friendship. It's really striking when you see how the characters move their face and bodies to show those emotions even tho the speech is also incredible. It's as if the characters are actually real, they have their own little quirks with how they talk and move.
Some people also see it as a BL, which yes... it does have some queer aspects to it but I wouldn't consider it an actual possibility of the two main characters having a true romantic development. But I would say Yoshiki is queer. Also, it does have some - although rare - sensual(???) aspects but you get to see more through that later, which is very interesting.
-> SO, YEA. Main points:
astronomically beautiful gorgeous art in every panel
great characterization
interesting cast (both kids and adults)
interesting and deep lore!
death/ grief
moral dilemmas
Good mix of slice-of-life, horror and mystery
the characters are adorable holly hell <3
It's gutwrenching in the way you really feel it in the gut ahahaha
I really hope this was helpful/ entertaining and that if you do end up reading it that we can talk loads abt it <3 !!! Even if this was like... just me rambling and maybe incomprehensible 💀
Also not sure how the anime adaptation is even gonna turn out! Really hoping I somehow get to watch it tho ^u^ Plus, my favorite character... I don't know? I like the MC's but outside of them I like Asako cuz she speaks in emojis lol
#ask#the summer hikaru died#tshd#hikaru ga shinda natsu#hgsn#manga synospys#I wrote this right after a trip so I'm tired and sleepy af but I was happy writing it lol#hope we talk more Vani!!
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Thank you for replying to my previous ask 😊 as I said I'm quite new so I'm just playing catch up. But you and others have talked about his reputation in the industry. talked abt the toxicity of his fans (he's known to have the most toxic fans etc) could I ask why that could be, I know that might a difficult answer since no one could really control that, but in terms of the other actors Jensen seem more Normal ish fans same with misha tho ppl complain that it he has cult like but otherwise normal ish fans . Obviously every actors have fans that are toxic/deranged and cruel that just comes with the job. And you can't force anyone to be or not to be a fan
But yea it seems with Jared that besides from his actions is widely known for his toxic fans, (obviously there is normal healthy functioning fans of his) which really is 👀 since even other blogs that does talk abt jared "critcally" has the same opinion so has he encouraged that behavior or something since like why do you think that is?
Not sure where the pink font copy paste is from, but it's generally correct.
While it's true that all segments of fandom have their fundamentally apeshit people, it's also true that Jared's fandom has cultivated the strangest of the strangest, including people who do things like try to shove incest into LGBTQ rep, but also a lot of queerphobes find support there, but also also a lot are just angry hags that self identified through the weakest performer in a series and have since then made it their mission to attackingly preach their inflation of jared padalecki to the point no matter where you go the moment someone peeps "he's a bad actor", which is often, even in the GA, they somehow find that shit and start making howler monkeys and throwing poop.
Add in he's known for being a risk to productions [ Et Tugate ] and to set [he's been known to break equipment, cameras, things like that] AND the fact that he's a modern sexual harassment risk with his idea of "jokes". His volume on starmeters and means of measuring modern celebrities are fractions of Jensen's these days, and his fans will come crawling out of the woodwork with the banshee noises any time you acknowledge that reality and try to lose it to an arbitrary distraction thread of irrelevant horse shit they think they can argue into making Jared relevant somehow.
So he has low yield (low fans, often negative to support/building an audience), high cost (he sets his rate higher than his equal value of similar people, but feels entitled to due to his age in the industry), equipment damage (cameras, etc), film delays, potential sexual harassment risks, various arrests, I mean I could keep fucking going here. TLDR there are a million mediocre middle aged white men in media, many of which can act better than Jared and don't come stapled to a psychotic bunch of hags moving around like a fucking virus on any posts he's associated with, or even his former coworkers--earlier a few years ago they spent all this time going at specifically misha on bridgewater and jensen on the boys, attacking and insulting them under their coworkers feeds, over shows they have literally zero interest in, but they're that fucking obsessed with trying to make Jared Padalecki seem as relevant and engaged that they drag their yeehaw horse shit in anywhere that one of Jared's coworkers had the misfortune of working with him for any substantial amount of time.
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regarding your post abiut minghao - yea i totally get where you're coming from.
i myself am overweight and no matter how hard i workout or try to workout, the weight never leaves but comes on so quickly.
what minghao said isn't necessary bad and i don't believe he had any ill intentions and quite frankly i do agree with him BUT the wording was definitely off. idk if it was lost in translation but either way the wording came off as someone who's always been thin and struggles to pick up weight telling people who's not thin to workout in order to be healthy.
working out, i believe, important for everyone regardless of their size. human beings need to be active and that's something i refuse to reject. but at the same time, different people have different bodies and different bodies mean that health won't show the same.
i want to be thin and have abs and look like kazuha from le serrafim, but reality is that i won't. our genetics are different, our drives are different, and so many other things as well.
i believe that loving yourself is being active and eating healthy because your body needs to be healthy. occasionally doing exercise is standard requirement for that but not everyone needs to look like a spartan in order to be healthy.
being fat does not equal being unhealthy and being thin does not equal being healthy but at the same time we cannot let that lead us into becoming unhealthy, which is what i believe minghao was trying to say.
at the end of the day, we need to lead good and healthy lives in order for us to thrive and that does require us to love ourselves, like he said. but that love does not mean we need to all look like mingyu who's ripped af or kazuha whose abs are goals. we simply need to eat well, exercise occasionally, and be kind to our bodies.
Hopefully my response comes out as respectful as i mean it to ❤️
dw lovely it was v respectful!!!! and you're very good w your words!!
general content warning for talk abt bodies n health n mental health
i don't disagree w all of what you said !!! but the key point is: "i believe that loving yourself is being active and eating healthy because your body needs to be healthy". the key words being i believe. and it's okay that you believe that!!! but that isn't everyone's belief, and that's okay too. i think the key part of loving yourself is that you love yourself and only you can say what that looks like for you. for minghao that means working out !! but that doesn't mean he should be speaking about what it means for everyone, especially as he is insanely privileged. and him speaking for everyone is insanely ignorant and i'm not going to pretend otherwise.
there's so much nuance about this subject. it's not as simple as "thin and fat people can only love themselves if they work out". because that's insane! that's such a problematic statement. minghao is privileged: he has money and resources and is able-bodied. there's so much nuance and it's just not as simple as that! there are tons of people that fit into either fat or thin and they have their own circumstances that have to be taken into consideration!
like. i love myself! i'm a fat woman who loves herself, but i a) don't have the money to get a gym membership, b) don't have the confidence to go to my college's gym alone. there's a lot more, like being a full-time student with a part-time job on top of it, but those circumstances don't take away from me loving myself, yk!!!!
anyways. this was a lot of me talking abt nothing in particular lol
#i hope this makes sense!#i am not mad at u or anything either#just talking!#i love having discussions lol#ask#anon#— jupiter is talking#i'm not sure how to tag this#fatphobia#tw body talk#cw body talk#lmk if i should tag this as anything else
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@woodswit thank you tagging me and yea this is abt me
1. are you named after anyone?
Yes I am, my mother names me after a famous Russian song writer Nikita bogoslovskiy ( not Russian lol so it was that was the reason why) but I like it as it mean victorious, or leader to victory
2. when was the last time you cried?
6 months ago, it's generally a pattern I do one big cry maybe a whole day or whole afternoon just silently im not really a sobber, unless im forced to talk about it then I guess its more obvious that im crying otherwise a watery esque eye my eyes doesn't get red, You really wouldn't have guess anything, which at times can be sucker since if it was a bit more obvious the ppl around me would ask even if i would have denied it. But that would have still felt nice. But since they usually cant tell and is being completely normal i just feel like i should go along with it, and then the next day its over i do try to cey again but i just cant, i always think i cried it out so theres nothing more and then when 6 months comes in the cycle continues. It's not necessarily healthy, but you know what, whatever,
3. do you have kids?
No, and thank God, right now I'm just not in the mental state or maturity level to look after, provide for another human,
In saying this I do want to have a child, 2 :D, but I want to be mentally capable, and have enough finance saved to create the village that my child would have, (baby sitters, night nurse, travel nanny, doula care, my afterbirth message therapy, postpartum in home care helping with cleaning or making meals) though I may not use these services I want money there so that if need it it'll be there in case of post partum depressiob, I work in childcare some parents and colleagues i work with do not have any help, or only grandparent help and that can also be taxing on the parents not necessarily financially. So it can be emotional struggle and which could lead to a strain in the emotional and physical relationship between the couples,, which I see can at times turn into into resentment when you think your partner is not doing enough, or not feeling supported. Which can lead to feeling too overwhelmed and not being able to enjoy being a parent ( like I don't understand why some ppl say have usually boomer grandparents say have back to back children and in the next 5 years it'll be easy and calm like what about during it, and also why do I want to struggle or look back and not have too fond memories like that never made sense 2 me
so yea before having a child I know I want money saved to cover all these for atleast the 8 months before even thinking of a having a child, I mean in my culture grandparents will look after and stay with with with mother for atleast 6 months to look after both child and mum but still for safety sake.
This was a really long statement lol
4. what sports do you play/have played?
Hockey, netball, tag rugby
5. do you use sarcasm?
Yup. It's the best
6. what's the first thing you notice about people? Whether or not they're performing or being genuine.
7. what’s your eye color? Brown
8. scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings get nightmares
9. any talents? Artistic creations, and cooking I'm very good :D
10. where were you born? Kuwait
11. what are your hobbies? Social media, sculpting with, creating art in many different ways, music i can literally drive for hours, just before reaching home i go the longest way possible, i also enjoy going for a walk when its windy for an hour or more, i want to do wood carving, and forging a knife, and learning to sow and create beautiful clothing
12. do you have any pets? Yep had two and one died
13. how tall are you? 5'3
14. favorite subject in school? History
15. dream job? Teacher for right now, im working on it now, and possibly a professer in the future
Tagging my mutuals i wanna know
@qinaliel @riahchan @trinuviel @tuesmonoxymore @inlovewithastark @tiny-little-bird @timeforwolvies @tubbylita @nutellaninja0001 @thelawyerthatwaspromised @fedonciadale @ben-barnes-is-my-husband @mediiciis @israfel00 @rissa-rey @yol101 @kitnjon
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i get notifs whenever u post and spazz out every time i see u do but god. this time. oh my GOD.
i literally have so much to say about this part 2 but no room to say any of it. i Mean it when i say i could ramble for FOREVER about it. i swear kcmf ckvngn FOAMING AT THE MOUTH trying to contain my love for ur depictions of vashwood
but this is just an ask so i will. Forcibly Contain. my Emotions.
and ill just say that the way you somehow manage to make wolfwood look so painfully and emotionally and IRREPARABLY in love with vash...... G O D.
those panels where his eyes go all soft and he gets that little smile and hes just all loose and the lil blush andbskfbfnfb theres so much Emotion in hsie eys and the way he looks at vash and abdbcndncnv im never ever ever gonna recover. pls i wanna talk abt this latest comic So Much. i need trogin mutuals so bad cuz i have a chronic need to be ANNOYING about them
shcjdng but yea just needed u to know how violently i adore the part 2. i say its 2 months WELL SPENT!!
AWH THIS ASK IS SO SWEET, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING SO INTERESTED IN MY SILLY COMIC AND MY DEPICTION OF THEM....!!! it means a lot to hear and i really enjoy seeing people dig into the aspects they enjoy about my comics and specific scenes and stuff, so thank you!!!
and i'm Very glad i got that look for wolfwood down... he just can't help himself!! it's like weeks of repression that he lets go in that moment for vash and i think once he has the chance to be honest, it's hard to coat it with anything else. he'll allow himself that moment to be utterly and unapologetically smitten so vash has no doubts in the words he speaks in earnest and from the heart!! and for vash to know that he is thoroughly wanted!!! they'll inevitably doubt and be dumb about it later, but for this one moment, wolfwood will dump his loving heart out for vash.
BUT MFKSDMS THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! I REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE THIS A LOT and my ask box is like. open to anything in regards to my work so if there are ever any other thoughts u'd like to share, it is certainly open for that <3
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As a fellow neurodivergent scientist looking for a job that my brain doesn't hate, could you share a bit abt like. The demands of ur job? If that makes sense lol. I typed/deleted a bunch of word vomit like 5x for this ask jdkfldkf so basically how would you describe the pacing? Do you ever feel rushed? Should I even bother applying for a "grossing technician trainee" position if I struggle with very fine work due to slight hand trembling? I've recently got a bachelor's in zoology so I have a bit of experience with like dissection and microbiology but never actually worked a job that utilized anything I learned in college :')
yea no problem!!! ill post this publicly if this could benefit any other people but if u have any more questions or need help u can always message me privately (this goes for everyone) :^)
(ofc all this is valid for Edmonton, I can't rlly comment on other labs)
so, in my day to day job, i will gross specimens that range from the Simple Elegant appendix to a multi-organ specimen, and i typically spend between 5 mins - 3 hours per specimen depending on complexity. I'd say that the pacing in the grossing room is pretty relaxed, so I wouldn't worry! If you decide to go for that position, you will likely be encouraged to start fairly slowly on very easy specimens, and they shouldn't be expecting you to 'up the pace' until the specimens become routine. and tbh at my workplace, they value 'slower' more methodical workers because theyre much less likely to miss an incidental pathology. If they are actually encouraging you to speed through specimens, they're a shit lab anyway lol and they should focus on hiring more people
in terms of hand tremor, sometimes im shaky (due to caffeine oop) when doing gross motor functions but, when holding a scalpel or making purposeful movements, the shakiness dissipates. I'd ask if your hand tremor impacts things like writing, cutting things for cooking, etc? If it doesn't really, I think you're good! But I can't sugarcoat it, if you have a significant tremor then grossing may not be an option. However, I'd ask WHAT you'd be expected to do as a grossing tech there; in edmonton, we have techs that will only do 'pick and transfers' (i.e. moving biopsies from the container to the cassette), appendixes, and gallbladders, and this doesn't require a ton of fine motor control (if you can cut a baby carrot you could do all this stuff).
grossing actually hits a sweet spot for my ASD brain because its more of less an independent task. when i was training it was a lot of talking thru and asking questions (which tired me tf out) but now that im almost done, i mostly work by myself (though i ask questions to my coworkers all the time cuz they have more experience) which i love! the times when being ND does impact me are when i have to communicate with higher-ups, or teach a trainee tech, because I'm not too good at communicating in ways that make sense. However, that's a very small amount of my job and most is quiet grossing work where I can listen to music or a podcast at the same time to satisfy my need for multiple sources of stimuli.
so yeah id say go for it!!!! the worst that can happen is, you get the job, go for the onboarding, decide it's not for you, and say you're no longer interested. companies are totally used to that and it won't reflect badly on you <3
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So, life Update: June 2023
I'll soon be 25 and still haven't managed to finish uni due to extenuating financial reasons my family put me into before I was 18 haha.
Grandma died in early 2021 and yea, took me abt a year to be able to laugh out loud again and I still struggle with smiling on pictures n stuff. Planning on getting a Monarch Butterfly tattoo in her honour bc we were gonna get one together before she died and then she chickened out.
Was supposed to get a job permit (I'm a foreigner living in another country) over a year ago and GUES THE FUCK WHAT??? the legal assistant I paid to a year ago told me just yesterday that his mentor (the one giving his legal power for everything, will explain if needed) PLAYED DEAD AND MADE A PUBLIC POST ABOUT HIS FUNERAL AND THE AUTHORITIES SAW THAT AND DELETED MY CASE FROM THE WORK MINISTRY. The bastard didn't tell me anything for the year he was supposedly processing everything and I had to chew him out over the phone until he told me everything.
*he now re-submitted everything, and I'm supposed to get it in abt 5 months*
ONTO GOOD NEWS
I have been in a relationship with C since Oct. 2018, been living together for more than a year now, and we're getting a house together (under their name bc I'm hillariously inellegible for ANY sort of loans or mortgages). We're expecting news from the real estate agency so we can sign the final docs and get our keys.
Along with that, we've been in a poly relationship with a wonderful guy from the UK, J, for almost 2 years. He's come to visit us once (for a whole month) and we spent Christmas and New Year's together at his place.
While at his place, I got a daith piercing (very pretty) and C got their ears pierced (looks very cute with them hehe). Sadly, I had to get my daith out bc I had to take and emergency CATscan and the piercing was too fresh to replace jewelery for a silicone one (and it was 3am when I got the scan, too lmao).
No worries abt the scan tho. Been having chronic, debilitating migraines since I was 19. Never paid them much attention bc no drs would take them seriously. CAT came out normal and neurologist put me on some new treatment to help prevent them (not working tho haha)
Good news is: if they put me under disability, I'll get 25% plane ticket discounts and meds, so I guess that's good reward from life, considering I really cannot even keep a job for more than 2 months bc of the migraines.
ANYWHO
Once C and I get all the pertaining docs for the house, we can move in right away and abt a month after that, I'll go stay with J for 6 months (stayed 3 last time).
My cats (Alcaparra and Oliva) are now 3 and 4 years old, respectively. They are super pampered, and I plan on taking them with me once we move to the UK with J EVENTUALLY.
I'm very excited abt having our own place, where I can use a drill at 3am or whenever I want nyehehehehe.
Since I'm not working (for legal and medical reasons), I mostly do lil housewife chores like cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, feeding the cats, doing dishes, meal-prepping, and running errands.
Things are still far from perfect, and I'm struggling a lot with my self-value without a job. I'm very lucky to have kind and understanding partners who are willing to take care of me and let me take care of them in return. Talking with friends also helps a lot, even if I have lacked the social energy to be able to consistently hang out with them for more than 3 years.
That's it for the almost-quarter-of-century life update!
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sorry :0 I've been following you for quite some time now and for some reason I didn't know, are you in a polyam relationship? because that's really cool, and I'm polyam as well! just nice to see. if you're looking for prompts, I'd love to hear about your.. bf? do you have two? I only knew about your wife, my apologies!
sorry if this is way too personal + I won't be upset if it's not answered. you seemed open about it so I figured I'd ask. :)
i'd say i'm technically in a polyam relationship yea ! however with my gf/bfs we're not exactly romantically involved, but we all mutually call each other bf/gf. i'm only specifically romantically involved with my wife! but my gf & her bf i feel very deeply for and we have been friends since literally middle school. i've been friends with the both of them more than half my life and see especially my gf as a platonic soulmate of sorts ^^
my other bf is a mutual friend of my wife's and we all openly flirt/etc with each other but i'm not actually romantically involved w/ him either. i don't really have romantic feelings for any of them but rather am attracted to them all in every other way besides romantic. again i feel only romantically for my wife. this is difficult to explain haha, i do hope any of what i'm saying makes sense.
i have actually talked abt each of them btw ! the ask abt them is answered here (hoping the link works linking tumblr posts is so weird now)
also no worries abt asking this, i'm happy to talk abt them anytime since they're all an important part of my life ^_^
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hi! happy new year!! i just wanted to ask about how it was for you to enter your current graduate program, if you're comfortable sharing? (if not, please feel free to ignore this!)
i got my bachelor's a few years ago and went into what should've been the perfect job for my education, skillset, and (what i thought at the time was) my work setting preferences...but i hate it. i don't enjoy a single second of it. so, i want to go for a graduate degree and steer my career path in a more bearable direction with a salary that i can use to help my family out. the problem is that i have no idea what to do. i do not want to go any further in my current field.
not asking for advice necessarily, but i was hoping that hearing about your experience could help me make a game plan for myself... like, how did you decide on what to study? did you have to do any post-bac studies?
again, only if you're comfortable answering! thanks for reading <3
yeah of course i'm more than happy to share 🫶 i hope u find smth even slightly helpful for u ;;
okay uhh where to start omg.. it sadly wasnt rly quick trying to decide what i wanted to do instead and it took some searching around abt what other jobs are like and what they require, but i think a good starting point for me was determining what i DIDNT like abt the field i departed from. like i realized i didnt like the weird crunch culture or whatever the fuck it's called tht happens constantly in game design and i hated the multi hour meetings of everyone talking over each other and nothing getting done in the end and also realized tht i hate being at a desk at all and like. knew i wanted to avoid that if i could
i can't rmr exactly how i settled on what i'm doing now, but ik i googled around for diff jobs tht aren't at desks and tried to see if smth more desirable fit w/ my degree and what sounded intriguing to me. and uhh i basically had to start over w/ school 😭 ghksjdgh my first degree was quite literally a film degree where i took as few science classes as possible so switching to a stem field meant tht i had to do some catching up. so to answer ur other question, i'm currently doing post-bac studies to get core science classes underway!
i did try to see if it was possible to go straight for a grad program but after calling a few places and having to be like "yea i havent taken science since hs" they all politely suggested seeing if i could get some core classes done at other schools or smth skdjhgs
uhh but yeah tht's all i can think of about how it went 🫶 i hope this helped even a tiny bit and also i hope this goes smoothly for u <333 changing what ur doing can feel scary and stressful at times but u got this!! ^_^
#honestly the most stressful part abt all this is how much school costs bc what the hell =_=#under a cut bc i rambled but here u go
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i love your blog and need need NEED to ask you if you have any opinion on this because people were talking abt it on twitter recently. if u don't tho it's fine! just wanna hear your thoughts. someone was talking about moments in kpop that were popular with the ppl but actually shouldn't be because they were designed for the male gaze and the two cbs mentioned were monster by irene&seulgi which, shocked me a bit. but more so the second which was sumni's tail. do you feel like tail stages/mv were designed to appeal mainly to men? genuinely this took me a aback a bit because yeah sure choreography makes sunmi appear extremely attractive and she wears revealing clothes but the power dynamics in the choreo and just in general in the camera movements in her performances during tail always made me think she's actually mocking men more than catering to them? anyways I hope this makes sense. sorry. just read it and immediately thought of u so I came here lol
;ALSKJF;LASJKF;LKJF THE CB WHERE THE ORIGINAL CHOREO WAS HER DIGGING HER HEELS INTO A MAN'S THIGHS????? THE MV WHERE SHE TIES A MAN TO RAILROAD TRACKS?????? THAT TAIL????????? god this is such a fucking stupid take i'm so sorry you had to read any of that anon. anyways here's my analysis post on the costumes in the tail mv and how they illustrate sunmi's (character's) reclaimation of power and masculine imagery.
but besides tail specifically, there is actually something i want to talk about here in regards to how this particular take smacks of an inability to understand basic critical and media analysis theory.
when you say that something shouldn't be enjoyed or engaged with, you imply that there is a should; a 'correct' way to engage or interpret a work. and there is NO correct way to interpret art. a massive problem with social media is that there is a hegemony on moralistic opinions. you have to have a 'good' opinion, you have to like the right things and hate the right things and why. because reasons. because some anonymous icon on the bird app said it was male gazy and therefore that apparently means it's bad. and yea i'm gonna sound like a fucking crank about this but you need to do your own readings. the male gaze is not a code of ethics, it is a theory of media analysis. and theories are tools that are meant to help you better understand the life you live and the ways that you engage with the world. YOU are the one that uses the tool, that makes the choice on when and how and where you use that tool, and also if you take into account the information that that tool provides. it's all about the nuance. unfortunate that the internet went and shot it in the back.
#nuance is dead long live nuance i guess#kpop questions#sunmi w#also honestly this take also screams of internalized misogyny#like these people are recognizing that something might not be for them so they immediately decry it as being bad#(im assuming these people are mostly cis str8 female bc that is a big demographic of kpoppies but of course this may not be true)#theyre unable to conceptualize any perspective outside of their own so therefore it HAS to be male gaze. obvs.#like why are you going after an artist that is known for having strong creative control over her concepts#have you literally not seen a single thing sunmi has done in the last four years???????????? did i hallucinate noir?????????#like please god get a grip and go read a book or just take a basic media analysis class#tail was for the bisexuals sorry i dont make the rules#ok i am simplifying a lot of this there are much longer discussions to be had here#text#answers#like here's an example: i just got back from going to see mamma mia live#and it was some of the most fun i've had at the theatre in a long time!#does that negate that the script has problems? no! but i am aware of those problems despite my enjoyment!#its very simple really#sorry if this sounds kind of angry this isnt directed at you anon#like imo u made the right choice. seeing something fucky and going to ask a question about it to someone who's opinion u trust#when u dont have the personal knowledge base to inform yourself. that's v smart and a sight lot better than many other people#not that im an authority on any of this bc im very much not. but if i can help fill in some knowledge gaps im v happy to
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