hmmph... people in jet set radio tag talking abot leak stuff and wiki vandalism. when every body should be talking about. ME AND MY FRIENDS MAEKING EDGY BRAINWEIRD BULLSHIT . (joke) (nobody would even know about this properly outside of discord) (just wanted to make a post because my brain is full of many thoughts) (jet set radio fans dm me if you want my bad yoyo opinions) (there is a lot of that. and other dubious opinions too)

The disrespect this show gets on a daily basis, from the production to the network(s) to even the pirates who prefer to rip shows like *checks notes* Big Brother Canada (same group)...

I wouldn't be calling them out if I hadn't done this myself, by the way. People who have never ripped a damn thing can stay in their lane. I have earned my stripes, I'm not someone who wants to talk shit about those who do this, and I understand the process involved. The webrips are a different story, as they are uploaded by Amazon whenever. The HDTV rips should be uploaded on time, shortly after the network airs the show, and it's the same process as it always has been to rip them. Uploading HDTV rips after the webrips has no value whatsoever, unless someone cares that much about the promo, which of course CityTV doesn't care enough to upload themselves, proving once again what a shitty network they are.

Hudson and Rex has an international fanbase, it shouldn't be so difficult to be able to watch it as an international fan in 2024.

I posted something to this effect on my other blog, but it's been on my mind and essentially begging me to talk about it again so...

This post is dedicated to the people who might have caused their disability or may have made it worse in some way or another. This post is dedicated to people who haven't done the "right things" in the past, who weren't perfect, who weren't flawless robots.

Regardless of why you're disabled, you still need and, most importantly, deserve any accommodations for said disability. You cannot separate the "good disableds" from the "bad" ones. You are never required to prove that you're "innocent" before people are compassionate about your disability. Do not for a minute be convinced otherwise, for your own sanity.

ok so your first problem was assuming mdzs is a story where Good People are Rewarded and Bad People are Punished.

your second problem was assuming that MXTX—who goes out of her way to showcase unresolved, tragic, undeserved endings in all of her works—would ever write a story with such a shallow notion of “deserving.”

the only reason wangxian makes it out unscathed is because they’re literally the protagonists. authorial intent and plot armor ensure their happy ending. that’s it.

ripping apart EA games with my fucking teeth

fuck.

I forgot where I read it probably from some handbook but iirc drow hair is one of their symbols of beauty and to cut off someone’s hair is a way to punish and humiliate them. don’t really know if that’s an actual thing - BUT now I am thinking of shri’iia having longer hair throughout act 1 until she becomes an oathbreaker. it is only when she accepts her status as an oathbreaker that she cuts it to the bisexual bob that she usually has <3

really deeply truly touched when people reach out and ask me how i'm doing but i'm running out of vaguely positive things to say

i keep looking at posts like "i stopped a binge" "i prevented a binge" and all of them are like. "i waited until the urge went away". buddy. the urge doesn't go away. there's no urge. there's just nothing else to do. i don't have anything else to do. every time i stop eating no matter how long i sit with the feeling or not, i always go for more food because there is genuinely nothing else in my life. nothing is enjoyable anymore. the world sucks. no matter what i force myself to do it's the only positive thing i can ever find.

the problem with the gods isn't that they didn't bring ozma back when salem asked, the problem was that

i. the light bro saw a grieving woman and his answer was "that sucks, i pity you, but no can do...now get out of my sight" without any advice on how salem could move on

ii. the dark bro breaking their rules bc he finally had someone come to his domain, the light bro arriving with accusations, the dark bro showing dissatisfaction with the balance in their relationship and rules, and instead of dealing with their own very legitimate problems and addressing their issues, the light bro claims he didn't come there to control his brother (lol) and instead points fingers at salem as the cause for their current argument

iii. they then pettily punished salem and cursed her with immortality so that she could never see her beloved again until she figured out what the gods mean with a balance of life and death after they so blatantly broke their rules just five seconds ago, and again this very moment

iv. the light bro then decides to make matters worse by bringing ozma back anyway which eventually leads to escalating everything tenfold

rwby is so very clear on its themes of how having other people to support and help you when you need them is important. it's the very difference between the heroes and the villains and how they were made; the villains are people failed by the society, with no support network to speak of, and if they did once have that support network, their trust in it was broken in significant way. the heroes are basically opposite while still allowing their support network to be flawed, because there's no easy fix to every single problem they might have.

one other theme rwby has is "keep moving forward", and it means it. the gods fucking up does not change that, because them breaking their own rules was unequivocally a bad thing that helped no one—if anything, it's the very reason why the show's main storyline exists in the first place, and if your choices lead to a shadow war that would not have happened if you just stuck to your own goddamn rules, well. maybe you should have stuck to those rules.

just saying.

so while the gods fucked up, it does not mean that their rules were bad to begin with and it's fine to cheat death because of that very reason; it means that maybe, just maybe, you shouldn't do that and instead get the gods to address their own issues between each other without finger-pointing or finding scapegoats instead of the gods making everyone else suffer the consequences of their own actions while they are who-knows-where waiting for the world to be ready to receive them and worship them once more.

sometimes I'm like "okay so that was just a terrible auto-translation, I'm sure she didn't actually write that" and then I look at the page and it's a sentence I can read unassisted and she did actually write that

been looking for jobs for three years and in the past two months ish I’ve gotten for the first time my first job interview and for a different job my first job essay.

(I did have an actual job as a comic colorist for like six months but nobody around me considered it a Real Job so I feel like I just never have a job even though I very much did.)

and each time, during the interview where I know realise I was kind of being explained the whole time why I wouldn’t get the job and at the end of the essay(which might not be the right word, like a day we’re your try out the job to see if you can do it) one of the reasons given why I wouldn’t be taken it was ‘we need people who can smile’.

(there were actual argument like being ‘too introverted’ and ‘not dynamic enough’. That last one is funny because i had another ‘almost pass out for no reasons’ moment right for break time (genuinely perfect timing) during the essay and while I was cold sweating and going blind on the bathroom floor I realised, if anyone ever know I have health issues I will never get a job. So being told I wasn’t dynamic enough a fourty something minutes later was straight up comedic).

Back to the smiling, my entire life since I was a literal baby I’ve been told I wasn’t expressing the Right Way. ‘If you feel a specific way you Have to emote this specific way, act this specific way and not do anything else otherwise you’re not actually feeling what you say you’re feeling, it means you’re actually lying, faking it or don’t know what you’re actually feeling because your not showing it the Right Way’ and obviously I’ve dismissed this my entire life because I was sure it was obvious and everyone knew that everyone exist differently and people don’t act the same. I kind of assume everyone that ever bothered me about it was some flavor of 1 having a day and decided to being weird about it to me or anyone else that was also not existing the correct way. 2 just kind of an asshole and therefor they’re opinion didn’t matter. 3 just kind of strange about thing and so be it, ´not my problem tho’ I thought.

But seeing how it’s an actual argument people have use twice now to refuse me a job I’m kind of being thinking, it might actually, for real, be a thing people actually are worried about, actually. Which is wild, but also make sense because people have very much for my whole life, to me and to a ton of strangers, made comments on folks not existing the proper way. Like how in horror someone being slightly off, slightly wrong, a little bit not how it usual should be is the trope of all time. And I love this trope, someone who’s voice is in differed from how they mouth work, someone who seems to not walk directly on the floor but just slightly above it. It’s fun and interesting.

Anyway, real life stuff, being told I’m not smiling enough is wild, like yeah I don’t smile much at all that’s a fact, and both job were about interacting with people and every time you go to a restaurant you’ll ear someone saying out of nowhere mean thing about people who work there. Insane things like ‘I don’t like the way they’re standing’ and over analysing someone expression and body languages when they’re literally just doing their job.

This post is kind of a mess but I had a point which was, I don’t understand people and why are so many mean for no reasons but I wanted it to sound less like a kid complaining and be more verbose about it.

And (this isn’t over yet) I did force myself to smile, like I very much did, I tried my best to be as pleasant and polite as possible. And being told again, this isn’t enough, just suck. Like I have to mask and hide and deal with so much I kind of expected that of all thing I was allowed to keep my face. Like people have bothered me about it my entire life and I’ve dismissed it my entire life because it just did not make sense and I couldn’t make it make sense(still can’t). But I’m genuinely at lost at what to do about it, if apparently I also have to change my face to get a job, that I need to exist the correct way in order to have the damn job in order to exist at all is all so, Not Good.

something about me i think is really funny is that i get so awkward about writing about serious topics because it makes me feel like my middle school self who wrote super edgy fan-fiction with no understanding of the subjects i was writing...

like i know i've done research and put a lot of thought into it and it's there for a reason and the story wouldn't work without it, but my heart does not and so my immediate response to writing the words "infidelity" or "cocaine" into my outline document is to shrivel up and die.

Oh I'm so fucked emotionally lol

i need to run away from home i need to move to a city and meet people who get it and i need to get my tits cut off for realsies this time like i've had enough actually. for the love of god

how come there's always that one little shit on roblox tycoons that make it their life mission to kill you as many times as possible