genuinely how it feels when trico was at the perfect spot for you to climb onto his back and move on to the next area and then he moves a tiny little bit and now you have to play circus tamer again because he will not jump or fly unless he's on that perfect spot again

Something that always really resonated with me in The Perks of Being A Wallflower was the line right near the end when Charlie says "there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 once you turn 17" and maybe it's just because I was 16 the first time I watched the movie and I felt like nobody ever listened to me because I was young, but I promised myself I would not forget what it was like to be 16, or any age that I had been, and that I would extend the respect and understanding that I so craved to others. And I forget to do that sometimes, but whenever I play the perks soundtrack on vinyl (cause I'm a 2014 hipster in my spare time) that speech plays into the last track and I hear it and remember that I need to do that. So anyways if you're 16 and you feel like nobody ever listens to you or remembers what being 16 felt like I'm sorry. I promise I do. Relish in the good parts while you have them and know the bad will be over soon 💚

Not your favorite! Not even your least favorite!

Like that could have been avoided. That should have been avoided. It's so easy to avoid that. And Yet

I’m so sad I was so sure I was gonna get all As this semester but it’s looking like I’ll still end up with one B 😭😭😭😭😭

"I like to say I'm quite technical, but these computer problems are far beyond my capabilities."

the worst thing about editing is when you want to add text and have to add the text 👍

YAY!!!!! i took my math final. and not only did i pass. but i got an A. which means i'm passing the class. with an A!!!

waking up to see someone left a semi-self-demeaning reply on a post of mine and i go to their blog just to make sure they're not someone nasty before i reply encouragingly to them, only to see theyre very into the racist white man youtuber profiting off of Algonquian culture that obviously doesnt belong to him 😵‍💫😵‍💫

also i talked with my grandma abt college and she was so encouraging and excited about it so idc anymore its something i want to pursue ill put everything in my name regarding loans ill take on all the debt idc but its something i want to do ill just figure it out

how am I supposed to pour my heart out and win a chance to be published in less than a thousand words ☹️

next chapter of ypiac just hit 7k finally

anyways he's a father now i guess

Heya kit, hope everything is going well, writing or otherwise!! I had a question about the Patreon—I have been a patron of yours for awhile and I know you’ve unlaunched until further notice, and I was wondering if you knew how it would work once you do relaunch (assuming that’s what you’d like to do)? As in, would former patrons be notified through email or through the patreon app when it happens? I would assume that you’d make an announcement here or on the itch.io page, but I‘m trying to be better about unplugging from my phone/social media, so I just wondered if you knew whether or not Patreon had a built-in feature to notify former patrons about relaunches, because I’d still like to be a supporter! I looked into it myself, but the various Patreon FAQ pages didn’t provide any answers. Although if I couldn’t figure it out with a couple google searches, I’d understand if you didn’t know how it works either; just thought I’d check! Worst case, I’ll just be a little late to the figurative relaunch party.

hi :0)

so i'm not.... entirely sure. i know a lot of ppl unsubbed from my patreon when i announced i was going on hiatus (obviously, makes sense) but i know the people that were still subbed when i unlaunched it still shows me that you are a patron, and i know i show up under people's subs despite my patreon not being up.

i had assumed that when i relaunch, patreon wouldn't immediately charge those people that are still subbed (at least not without a warning) but from what i was able to find googling around it seems like that might actually be the case. i can't find anything that 100% says they will be billed automatically but it seems like there is a high probability of it. which is kinda fucked up lmfao

if you're still subbed, i imagine they would send a notification when i relaunch (and again you also might get charged right away), but if you unsubbed i don't think it will.

i was hoping i would be able to relaunch in september but i'm not going to make it, but i will most likely relaunch in october, whether the update is ready or not. and i'll be sure to post announcements/warnings beforehand if there is anyone that needs to unsub or anything like that. sorry i can't really give you a definitive answer but hopefully you can just come by and check in october and i'll probably have a more concrete announcement about it then.

and thank you for the support 💞

"ugh this rvb fantasy au is so difficult..... trying to translate the sci fi elements into magic in a way thats coherent..... trying to fix the problems with the pfl arc..... trying to actually come up with character traits for half of the freelancers...... >:|"

*remembers how much ill get to draw wash covered in blood* haha nice :)

something that i’ve really wanted to talk about since i rewatched 6x02 was the scenes between kurt and spencer, and more so, how spencer’s character is written and how it follows a strange and kind of frustrating pattern on this show. 

i think the general consensus with spencer is that people aren’t a fan of how he treats kurt. what he says comes across pretty disrespectful, as we’ve watched kurt’s journey for five whole seasons and seen the struggle he’s been through with his sexuality. and kurt’s.... completely right about the fact that spencer owes glee club for making mckinley a more accepting place, but particularly, spencer owes him, and his refusal to back down even when people were treating him so terribly. he forced people to see him, even when they tried so hard to diminish him. that’s important.

spencer’s assertion that things were different when kurt was in high school has always been strange, to me. and one of the things i want to bring up here is that this whole thing feels a little..... hard to believe, based on the timeline? this is happening in fall 2014. kurt graduated in 2012. it’s been just a little over two years, which is, in the grand scheme of things, not a ton of time. like, people kurt went to school with are still at mckinley. one of the reasons i wish s6 was set multiple years in the future, instead of only a few months after the end of s5, is because of this. there are a lot of things that just don’t hit with the emotional weight the writers seemed to intend because the timeline is so condensed. 

anyway, i think my big frustration with what spencer says is his claim that being gay is primarily how kurt identified himself, because..... no? that’s how the rest of the school identified him. that’s how the staff identified him (schue writing ‘gay’ in his notes when kurt was auditioning for glee club). kurt didn’t get to come out on his own terms. his sexuality was assumed by his bullies and then used against him before he was ready to tell even his own father. i think, in some ways, the writers were maybe trying to frame spencer as being in the wrong, that it was supposed to come across slightly ignorant? but i think it kind of backfires and ends up falling into an unintentional pattern the writers established of queerness being acceptable if you present it in the “right” way. kurt’s not being targeted for being gay, he’s being targeted for being gay in the wrong way, in how it intersects with his masculinity, interests, and passions. 

we see this pretty clearly in sebastian’s character, in the way he’s set up to be a foil for kurt and how his insults are primarily based in effeminophobia. the underlying message is, because sebastian is gay too, the problem isn’t kurt’s sexuality. it’s how he presents it. we also see it in the writing of blaine’s character, tbh. i mentioned this briefly, a while ago, but the immediate framing of blaine as “not a stereotype” in opposition to the other gay character on the show feels.... indicative of something. as the show goes on, the writing seems to push this idea that blaine not being a stereotype, or blaine having more traditionally masculine interests, is what makes things easier for him. (the differences in how hevans vs blam are written, blaine getting tony, being picked by june, etc). yet again, the subconscious idea that it isn’t kurt’s sexuality, it’s how he presents it, is being pushed because he’s being compared to another gay character. (as an aside: there is something to be said about the way blaine was written vs. the way darren portrayed him. different post, but let it be known that i mean zero shade at blaine with this. i’m talking about the writing 100%.)

spencer is a football player, who just happens to be gay. explicit attention is given to the fact that the problem isn’t sexuality, the problem is the way kurt chooses to present that sexuality. the pattern that’s being established, then, is that being gay is acceptable if you’re conforming to a particular standard. if you’re not being “stereotypical”. if it isn’t your identity. if you present your masculinity a certain way. if you have societally acceptable, traditionally masculine interests, if you can fit in and be “one of the guys”. and repeatedly, kurt is insulted throughout all six seasons because he isn’t any of these things, and he refuses to change himself to be. 

the other layer to this is that we don’t get to see kurt “win” very often. we don’t get to see him be chosen, be valued, in a way other characters were, in-universe (there is a big difference between discussing the quality of his writing and his storyline in-universe, and i feel like those are often conflated). his success (or lack thereof, for a long time) is tied to peoples’ inability to see him beyond his sexuality. the way he presents it almost feels like a mark against him? i think this is where a lot of kurt fans find their resentment and disdain for the way he was treated. there is a really shitty pattern here of diminishing and mocking kurt that ties to his sexuality because the way he presents it, compared to other gay male characters, is seen as lesser, wrong, etc. and, for a show that constantly purports acceptance no matter who you are, this just feels.....cruel, lol. 

quite sad how as soon as EA announces a pack my first thought is “okay so how can modders fix this or make it better” like I feel like they literally just do not even try for some things