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bellamyblake · 11 months

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Headcanon for Bellamy being taken care of after he got hurt in 3x02

After Monty helps him turn around and start walking, he makes it barely half the way to the open field before he passes out.

Kane loses his mind when he sees him fall and quickly wraps him in his arms, shouting orders at Pike and the others to help him wrap something around the wound and try to stop the bleeding;

He’s out of it entirely, that is until they finally make it to the rover and put him on the ground; Kane is still shouting, losing his mind about it as much as he’s trying to keep it cool, Monty’s driving, Pike is pressing on the wound and Hannah is passing on fresh bandages made out of whatever clotht hey can find and try to tear apart;

Kane curses when the bleeding won’t stop and makes a haphazard tourniquiet by using his belt;

that in turn makes his pain worse and he wakes up shouting; only when he realizes that, does he force himself to bite his lip down and swallow it, ashamed that he ever let it show;

They’re too far from camp, going all the way up to not just sector 7 but the Azgeda border put them way out of their typical route and Kane kept yelling at Monty to just drive faster even when he knew he shouldn’t do that; the terrain was bumpy and Monty was smart trying to slow down here and there so he wouldn’t cause his friend more pain;

Halfway home, Bellamy passes out again, his blood is soaking the rover floor and when Kane touches his forehead, he finds it burning;

“We need to get to that camp now or he’s a goner.” Pike comments and Kane gets angry just when he hears the words;

“He’s not dying.” he barks back determined and pats Bellamy’s face hard, forcing him to stay awake even when he was delusional;

Monty radios home when they approach their camp, saying they got a man down and would need Abby to wait for them by the gates; He hates that it’s Raven who picks up on the signal and asks worriedly “Who is it?”

“Bellamy.” Monty says out of breath and there’s a pause in which Raven says nothing, realizing the intensity of the situation before she clicks back in “We’ll be ready for you.”

And they are. Abby and Jackson are waiting with a stretcher when they make it back safely inside. Kane doesn’t even have the time to open the rover doors before Octavia does so herself, panic that he rarely sees on her face, consuming her whole posture;

“Bellamy!” she calls out as she helps them move him to the stretcher and Abby lifts the cloth up to examine the wound; Kane hates that she tenses and furrows her eyebrows, she only did that when things were serious; “What the hell happened, Kane?”

“Azgeda. He was trying to save Clarke but got stabbed instead. We were too far out, he lost a lot of blood.” Kane explained.

“Where were you?” Octavia asks angrily and Kane loses ground under his feet for a moment;

“He slipped away when we weren’t watching.” Octavia huffs and Abby tells them there’s no time for that, urging them to help get him inside;

Kane wants to get in and so does Octavia but Abby tells them to stop being so stupid and closes the door under their noses; The last they saw of Bellamy was his barely opened eyes and the paleness of his skin; He had trouble breathing and suddenly looked so small;

Abby has to force her hands not to shake when she cuts through his grounder clothes and reveals the wound; It’s deeper than it looked like originally but from what she could tell, it thankfully hadn’t nicked the artery; It was close enough though, which is why he was losing so much blood and whoever stabbed him also twisted the knife, knowing that’s how they’d do enough damage to his muscles so he wouldn’t be able to follow them;

the fact that this happened because Bellamy was trying to save Clarke is what guides her mind back to focusing on the task at hand; This boy may not be aware of his feelings for her daughter but she wasn’t going to let him die; if he did, Clarke would not forgive her that;

She shouts at Jackson to get her blood bags, antiseptic and as many bandages as he can find; While the doctor’s rushing around bringing her the things she needs, Abby cleans the inside of Bellamy’s arm and inserts a sedative;

Right before she does, his eyes snap open and he looks at her with recognition she didn’t expect. “Doctor Griffin...”

“Shh, it’s okay. You’re safe now, I’ll take care of you.”

“I almost got her.” he whispered back ignoring her words “I’m sorry that I ...failed...again.”

“You didn’t.”

“I’ll go look for her tomorrow....”

“You won’t be leaving this bed in a while. Your injury is serious, the wound is deep and you lost a lot of blood.” he groaned and tried to wave his hand but only got it up halfways;

“I’m...fine.” Abby rolled her eyes. She could only imaigne how many times Clarke has heard that before. “Clarke’s...she-”

“Shh, quiet. Stop fighting me.” Abby scolded him when he kept trying to push himself up on the bed but fell on the pillow instead. He didn’t seem to want to listen to her, though, so she picked up the oxygen mask and pushed it over his face as a way to stop his stubborn streak. He huffed but was too weak and the drug was taking over, so he calmed down and finally passed out;

working on his leg took longer than she expected. She only realized it’s been over three hours when she was done stitching him up; the torn up muscle tissue proved to be a challenge and he just wouldn’t stop bleeding, so she quickly went through two bags of blood before she was done;

once she was done, she and Jackson took off the rest of the grounder clothes and cleaned up his face and chest, making sure he’d feel comfortable enough when he woke up;

when she made it back out, she found not just Kane and Octavia waiting in the hallway but Raven, Monty, Miller, Monroe, Haprer, Jasper and most of the delinquents filling in the small space which made her smile a little;

he was loved more than he probably believed;

“What happened? How is he?” Octavia asked;

“You took too long, Abby.” Kane said not as an acussation but rather with worry “Is he okay?” the rest of the delinquents chimed in;

“Can we see him?”

“Do you need us to donate blood?” Miller asked wincing a little as he did, probably remembering the mountain.

“I can bring more bandages. Monroe and I cut up some new ones today.” Harper offered and Abby had to raise her hands to stop them from pilling more questions her way;

“Give me a moment to explain, please.” she begged them and they all collectively went quiet “He’s okay...at least for now. I took so long because there was some muscle damage to be fixed and he wouldn’t stop bleeding.” Octavia opened her mouth again but Abby was faster “I’ve done my best and closed the wound. Now the only thing that could cause worry is infection which is why I’ll need someone to get me more of that seaweed.”

“I’m on it!” Monty promised.

“I’ll come with you to the river.” Monroe chimed in too.

“Easy! I want one of the guards with you. It’s too dangerous out there now.” Kane warned before they could leave and Abby smiled again. He knew Bellamy wouldn’t let them out of his sight if it was up to him. He hasn’t done it in three months. He is the reason they were all safe and mostly recovered from the mountain right now. David Miller agreed to go with them and they left before anyone could stop them.

“I could use more bandages, Harper, thank you.” Abby told gently “I’d like to make him eat something too, so maybe you can get me some soup from the mess hall too.” the kids all separate the tasks between them and disperce, leaving only Kane and Octavia still standing before her.

“I want to see him.” she insists.

“And you can but I need you to both behave, be careful and quiet, alright? He needs rest.” they both bow their heads and follow her inside where she points at the sink in the corner and asks them to wash their hands first;

after that they both sit on each side while Abby cleans her stuff away and goes to check on her other patients;

“You don’t have to be here, you know. I’ll stay.” Octavia says “He’s my brother.”

“I want to.” Kane insists.”I got him out there after all.” at that Octaiva huffs annoyed.

“You two are more alike than you think.” she comments and Kane raises an eyebrow in confusion “He’d blame himself if it was you lying here too. It’s all he ever does-taking it on his shoulders for someone else.” Kane agrees with a nod but reaches to cover his hand.

“He’s been through a lot.” he comments.

“All because of Clarke.” Octavia says angrily and Kane’s head snaps in her direction.

“This isn’t her fault. It just happened.”

“It happened because he loves her even if he can’t admit it to her or himself.” Octavia stated as if it was a fact that everyone should know and accept and Kane realizes in that moment that she’s right-it’s exactly like that and the desperation with which Bellamy has tried to fight ot get back to Clarke despite bleeding all over in the middle of the forest, should’ve been a statement loud enough for him to hear.

He doesn’t say anything else because he doesn’t want to fight with Octavia anymore but a few hours later when Bellamy’s tossing his head left and right and Kane jumps from his seat and leans over while Octavia’s calling for Abby’s help, he hears the words that escape his lips even through the mask.

“Clarke...Clarke...I’m here...I’ll get you out.” and his heart sinks because the one person he needed the most, wasn’t here right now;

#bellarkeedit #bellarke fanfiction #bellamyblakeedit #clarkegriffinedit #the100edit #headcanons #au #fanfiction #my writing #i was just playing around #but im glad i did #i wanna post more headcanons again #not that anyone cares

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n0-im-dirty-dan · 1 year

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tara wisemann for @wrixie’s Beloved by Brandie

Age: 26 | Pronouns: She/Her | Traits: Genius, Hot-Headed, & Outgoing

Likes: Latin & Hip Hop, the 70′s, computers, OutKast, the color Sedona, her grandma’s cooking, playing her guitar, anything retro

Dislikes: Bright colors, blue screen of death 😔, excessive physical activity, loud places (like a club kind of loud), her job :/

~ Tara currently resides in the blazing heat of Oasis Springs, but before she bought a house of her own, she lived with her parents & her seven siblings. With her family, there was never a peaceful moment. While Tara does miss the excitable chatter first thing in the morning, she’s glad she finally has a place of her own.

~ Living by herself for 6 years, lately she feels as though her house is a bit too quiet. So Tara finally decided to step into the dating scene in hopes of turning her house into a home!

Fun Facts About Tara :]

has a growing vintage records collection

very tech-savvy

currently works as a software developer bc she good at it & it pays well

but her main passion is music

doesn’t have a lot of patience (it got her in trouble several times)

#brandieBC #she wasn't the original sim i was gonna use for this #but im glad i did #sims 4 #misc

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beefcaked · 2 months

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finished dungeon meshi

#it only took me three years to get back to it #but im glad i did

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songsintheattic · 7 months

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youtube

this is extremely interesting

#idk why i clicked it because it was such a random suggested video #but im glad i did #Youtube

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mochatheangelkiller · 2 years

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Hmmm, I associate you with being up for anything and curly blonde hair. And also computer work, and friendship. Also, that conversation about me being a cryptid because I find it hilarious that you didn't quite know how you got to that point (being friends with me, I mean, /joining Thee Discord Server).

And I still dont know how i ended up there

#but im glad i did #ask game

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stil-lindigo · 13 days

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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fox-mulder-gets-pegged · 1 year

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I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

#she cornered me in the car and asked what shipping was and i almost had a fucking heart attack #imagine being like 16 years old and habing to explain knotting to your mother #random emo music girl I'm glad you had fun talking about your Band Guys to my mother #bc i also attended take your kid to work day at that office and i know how boring it was #but christ alive why did you have to fuck me like that?#anyways i hope this post reaches you so at the very least you know i think about you at least once a week #this has been weighing on me for ten years #im almost tempted to blaze this post

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cuz-reasons · 3 months

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Hello! I have come by to send a quick message as thanks! Your stories are really fun to read and I get very excited when you post something! It's really nice to see a bunch of fics just about ingo and emmet, and your wing au is so cool! Thank you so much for working so hard to share your stories!

(*ˊᗜˋ*)/ᵗᑋᵃᐢᵏ ᵞᵒᵘ*

Aaahh!! Thank you so much!! I'm glad you like my stories!! These two have had me in a choke hold since legends arceus came out and it shows no signs of stopping. I just love fictional siblings, but that shouldn't be a shock with the amount of real life ones I have. Anyways. Thank you again for your kind words!!

#anon ask #and im glad you like the wing au!#i was hesitant on posting that at first just cuz wing aus tend to be more visual focused #cuz of the wings #but im glad i did #ive been wanting to see it through and actually posting it helps #im actually getting close to finishing it!#its gonna be longer than my current longest publish fic #which is both wild and exciting to me

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bloodbending · 1 year

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someone please help me find that quote about how someone was overwhelmed with the weight of the world and their problems when they were physically alone, but that weight felt like nothing in the presence of a friend and good conversation

#i CANT FIND IT #i don’t even remember if it was from a book or what #edit:#greatest hits #i did not expect this to get notes i genuinely just couldn’t find this excerpt #im so glad so many people resonate

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tchaikovskym · 5 months

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Yeah I'm the decision maker. The bad decision maker. Real big with the guilt.

#the guilt of quitting has hit me #but im glad i did #its just this. freedom mixed with guilt.#as always

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aesthetically0b5essed · 6 months

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I never thought I'd see Alexander Calvert's dick explode.

#gen v #but im glad i did

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