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why do strangers get weirded out when i ask them to help take pics for me… like i already feel bad for making u help me but u dont have to make it so obvious…
#rambles#im reading too much into this#but i get so anxious just thinking abt it#especially girls who i think look nice but then show heir true colours when i ask for help..#*their#this one girl who literally looked me up and down while clinging to her bf when all i did was smile at her….#whats so wrong w me smiling????? why are ppl so mean
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[ID: two sketches of dogs in black ballpoint pen on white paper. the first is the heads of two borzois with their noses nearly touching. the second is a full body sketch of a pointy-eared white dog nosing at the ground. end ID.]
lookit some dogs
#my art#havent posted in one million years n i feel like posting sometning#so i have bic pen dogs#also ive been so anxious abt nft ai art theft bullshitery that im just gonna watermark anything i post#bc ive always thought id seem obnoxious like ‘i think im so good that i expect my art to get stolen 🤓’#like wtf i never think that abt anyone else . bruh#but anyways . been thinking i should just do it whether or not i think someone wuld art theive me#just to relieve the anxiety abt rhe current state of Everything internet#anywaysss anyways wnaysyes
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Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?
put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings
#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work#eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help#so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that#HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and#the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be#1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on#2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels#3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk)#4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships#4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player#like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying#what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting#and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out#so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet#and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much#so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps#like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together#letting each other help with each others' problems#thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity#so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping#as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures#the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did#vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened#eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him#and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him#and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player#and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do#im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck
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CW: Graphic depictions of violence, lots of Death and Gore, Psychological horror for like 3 lines, mentions of drowning. Please read the tags and take caution. This one's more than a little visceral.
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The King is here.
You walk through crowded halls of rushing Housemaidens getting into defensive positioning. It's like fighting a wave in the ocean, hard to push through the crowd. You make do anyways, curling through paths you normally wouldn't take.
It's a big deal to everyone but you, at this point. This is the big event, the big fight; to you it's simply where time loops back. Just another day, y'know? You've done it over and over, and you'll probably keep doing it anyways.
It's odd, pushing through the crowd. Everyone is going one way and you are going another. Rushing versus strolling. Your hands are in the pockets of your lab coat. You're practically whistling, for crab's sake!
You simply cannot be bothered this loop. It's a failure from the start: you crabbed up making the bomb, which means you're crabbed from the very beginning. You climbed up the Favor Tree and wedged yourself between the braches for a few hours to pass the time, because looping back would be too much of an inconvenience, and you could just wait until the tears started spawning in the house to go back. The birds had a good time at least, one starting to craft a nest next to you.
You ghosted throughout the day, and now its go time. Everyone else is prepared and ready to fight for time itself, and here you are just. Walking. Realistically you're searching for a tear to stop it all before it starts, but luck isn't on your side this loop.
You can hear it, hear it-- the horrors. All the screams of those unfortunate enough to cross the King's path and fight back. It would be easier, for them, to just bow back and let themselves be frozen-- but no one wants to be frozen, because that's having choice itself stolen from you, a cage of ice to lock yourself in forever. It's just as bad as being dead. Stagnant and eternally screaming.
So they march to their deaths.
The King does not take kindly to the Housemaidens fighting back. Some loops, the House isn't prepared for his attack. Those loops are the nice ones, the less gorey ones. Less dead and more frozen bodies, because no one was prepared to brawl with the monster. He can just... swoop on through and take the House without more than a handful of casualties. This loop is one of the bad ones, because your fellow housemaidens were all prepared. You always think your prepared, too, to see the outcome, but you never truly are.
You turn into the main hall, and freeze still.
No matter how many loops you go through, the carnage always gets to you. There's a nasty, overpowering smell of iron in the air and big dark stains painting the walls, the floors and the roof. Bits and pieces of mashed guts and viscera. There were people in this hallway, once.
Not anymore.
It makes you sick to your stomach like every other time. Just the thought of it. There were people here and now there's only parts of them left. Just ten minutes ago or so, there were people here.
There were people here.
The gore goes in a trail down the hall. Paints practically everything-- including frozen people, if you look down the hall. All frozen with shock and absolute horror on their faces. You recognize some of them.
You try not to think about it.
You push on. Try to ignore the way the blood seeps into your shoes very fabric so they become damp. Try to ignore the fact you're trailing someone's very life behind you now with bloody shoe prints.
There are still no tears.
Plan B, then. The King himself.
You hate going against the King. It always ends terribly with you in agony. But that's the only option left right now, so you chase him down on his little path carved from the blood of the innocent. You find him quickly, too- just down the hall.
He stops before you can get too close. The smell in the air is overpowering, the sharp tang of blood and the burning sensation of the sugar.
"Burning one." He says to you. You're not sure where he pulled that one from: the nickname was something different at some point, but you've long forgotten what it was. Maybe it's the smell of burnt, rotting sugar or maybe it's the potions that burnt your throat. You're not sure anymore.
He just... stands there. Turns around and looks at you. You can feel the dead expression you're pulling as you stare back. Blood glints on his armor, shining and the worst sight in the world and all the same kinda beautiful in its own way? Like the lightless gore is the night sky itself, sparkling with little dots. Makes you feel sick just thinking that.
"How have you done it?" He asks. He asks it every time the two of you face off, the same five words. How. A inquiry. Something you have done, you shouldn't have, and he knows it.
You... think you've gotten it, now. Your hypothesis: How you wished. It's not something you were supposed to do. You did something different something WRONG, and it did something to time itself, tearing a hole in the fabric of space. It's wrong. It's wrong, and you know it and so does the King.
He stares in your direction. You think? Despite his hands, blood-stained as they are, not being infront of his face, the mop of hair is still in the way. You can feel the glare still. Enraged. Daggers in your side.
"I don't know." It's the truth.
"You don't know?"
"I don't remember."
The King goes silent. It's odd, having an actual conversation with him. Even if it was a tiny exchange, it still throws you off. He's willing to talk, even if just a question. He's never really talked to you-- or anyone, to your knowledge-- before.
"Ouuuuhhhh... of course you don't." He wails. It sounds like nails on a chalkboard to you. "You shouldn't have been able too, oohhh... not at all..."
He raises a fist up. It sparkles like the night sky, dark dripping from between his fingers. There's still someone's remains painted on them. Preemptively you brace and throw your arms up in an attempt to block.
It's a different thing that hits you. A new attack. A giant open palm slams into your chest, and you go flying backwards into the wall. The world turns to slow motion as something in you SNAPS. Crunches. Your bones shatter and explode with the force and speed, shooting little shards of agony everywhere.
It hurts. It HURTS. Pain rips through your entire body, and you realise you've started to scream when your chest begins to hurt. Blood splatters onto your glasses, blotting out your vision.
You look up at the King. How'd you get on the floor? How are you breathing, with no lungs? You can see fragments of bone stuck between the metal of his armor.
"Let this be a lesson to you, Burning one."
Metal clinks, and your vision swims-- dots in the corners, figures blur. Blood drips down into your left eye and paints half of your vision a dark shade. Nothing but pain.
Make it stop. Make it stop, make it stop make it stop-- it hurts, it hurts it hurts it hurts.
You
Simply stop thinking. Just for a moment.
So your brain can catch up! Yeah, sure. That's a good enough excuse.
Just. Pain. You are pain incarnate, and that's all you will be until you die slowly and loop back.
You
Blink,, and
The King. Is gone. You can hear him leaving, loud stomping footsteps dissapearing down a bloodstained trail, and you just stare.
How lucky, HOW LUCKY of you to be left alive this time. Like this isn't a fate worse than death. You gasp for air, and realise all you have left is blood filling your lungs.
It hurts. You want it to end, now. It's hard to see, over the blood and spots dancing across your eyes, but you see them; tears, floating around you. A quick out. You reach out, and the pain in you flares alive, ripping and tearing you apart. You feel like your flesh is going to peel off.
Your fingers brush into one of the tears, and you sob as the ice rolls down your arm and consumes you. It feels a hundred times better than what you were feeling before.
You freeze in time-- and luckily theres no nightmare you have to endure, you just wake back up at your desk. You spend a good chunk of the morning curled up in the bathroom getting sick, because, wow! That's the worst one yet! It's curled into your very being, the feeling of breaking your bones like rock candy, the feeling of drowning in blood.
You just... have to do it better this time, or... something. Hope is fading away into background static. You can't... do this anymore. It hurts too much. You want it to stop. Please make it stop.
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#claude looping au#isat claude#in craft and cages#cw death#cw gore#cw mentions of drowning#cw graphic violence#---#ok. wow. this ones really hard to read.#like ok genuinely im worried this might trigger someone so i slammed every tag i could think of on#now im a horror artist. this is my wheelhouse. i do the gore n shit right#please PLEAAAASE be careful. if this one sounds upsetting to u PLEASE sit it out#genuinely very worried abt this one#but also proud as fuck because this is Pretty Good to me and also prib over 1000 words lol#just. dont push y'alls selves for funny au content plz#im very anxious abt making ppl upset haha#i get isat does horror and stuff but this is pretty graphic#please let me know if i need to tag anything else. very antsy here
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aziraphale was so excited to show crowley his magic tricks... to get to share that interest w him... ough.. i get so hung up on that about it he was so full of joy and excitement and MOTION he was so HAPPY and goofy.. it's such a rare mode to see from him 🥺
like idk it's one of those things where you don't think about just how many walls a character has up and how much they repress until you see them let the walls down a little bit. i care him
#good omens#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#i just......#he's so repressed and restrained and anxious so much of the time!!!!! even in his gestures!#he curtails so much of himself as a survival mechanism!#he goes to heaven and keeps his hands behind his back he talks to other angels and they belittle his earthly interests do u see#he's so GUARDED#and crowley is the person who gets to see him at his most unguarded and every time he does he proves why he deserves it#he's so gentle and encouraging he wants so bad for aziraphale to see aziraphale the way he sees aziraphale#and like that goes both ways obv. they both think the world of each other but this is abt the dumb little magic tricks
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[ID: a series of digital doodles and sketches based on the owl house, featuring either Willow or Hunter. The first image is a coloured sketch of Willow in her flyer derby uniform flying casually through the sky on her staff. Hunter can be seen in the background, and is labeled "lover boy" with a thought bubble indicating he's thinking about willows arms. The sketch is coloured and shaded and the palette is a mix of a sunset and the pansexual flag.
The next image is a doodle of Willow in I Was A Teenage Abomination next to Willow in Any Sport in a Storm. The younger willow is shorter and stands shyly while the older Willow is taller and more confident, winking at her younger self. Orange hearts are drawn around them. The doodle is coloured and shaded.
The next image is a simple black and white doodle of Willow, Hunter, Amity and Luz in their designs from thanks to them, based on the three weed smoking girlfriends meme. In the foreground willow says "my three (sort of) (ex) girlfriends. And yes, they smoke weed" while in the background, Luz coughs smoking a blunt, hunter looks on stoned while holding a bong, and amity looks uncomfortable holding a blunt.
The final doodle is a drawing of Hunter in hunting palismen next to Hunter in for the future. Both are in profile facing towards each other with the younger Hunter on the left and current Hunter on the right. Younger Hunter has slightly greyer skin, deeper eye bags and an unhappy expression, while current Hunter has brighter skin and a sad, fond expression. The doodle is coloured and labeled "HE WANTS TO BE NICE SO BAD!!!" Multiple times across the canvas. End ID]
Monthly doodle dump lmao. Yes I'm still gonna post the FTF reqs, it probably won't be until after exams are done, whoopsy. The theme of this doodle dump is "I love willow park and her boygirlfriend so fucking much"
#the owl house#toh#willow park#hunter toh#hunter noceda#huntlow#with some implied#willuz#and#amillow#though those last two are presented mostly comedically#the weed doodle is basically a summary on my willow shipping thoughts (since no one was brave enough to ask me abt them last time rip)#she's got that weird gay little girl platonic-romantic grey area relationship dealio going on w/ both luz and amity#in different directions (bestie life partners and bitter exes on the up and up)#and then hunter is her sweet little purse chihuahua she takes with her everywhere and talks up bc she thinks hes cute#drawing old vs new hunter made me emotional btw#HE'S SO TALL AND EMOTIONALLY MATURE NOW COMPARED TO BEFORE. WHERE DID THE TIME GO#same w/ 2B willow and ep3 willow. they are both very important to me and the contrast is important#she's learning to be nicer to the anxious little girl in the abomination track she used to be.#but during asias she was just trying to get away from her and that makes me sad even if i understand and relate#speaking of asias i gotta finish watching it it's been weeks lol. but posting this put me in the mood a lil#idk which dub to do tho. probably latin american? maybe Brazilian. we'll see what takes me fancy#anyway. uggy sketch dump be upon ye! appreciate it this is many weeks of struggling to create /j
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i've been trying so hard to get along with my brother-in-law but oh my god my sister's type of men are sooooo exhausting
#yes we are back to venting it's just one of those weeks#it's kind of aggravating how patronizing he is and how he looks at the way someone lives and has like. 50 suggestions no one asked him for#and i did seriously consider his suggestions but they're all so redundant and dumb#and he's such a typical stem dudebro who thinks every other job in the world except his is easy#<- not even saying my job is hard it's just. he was so dismissive about tv anchoring - one of the most flustering environments to work in#and i know it's a stupid thing to get mad about but i'm sick of him i can't believe he's staying here a whole week#he's got such an air of 'i'm right and everyone else is stupid' that it makes me feel so anxious and small around him#this is not even touching the fact that him and my sister make each other WORSE#actually i have more to say:#i hate that he doesn't care about hurting my mother's feelings & he's def picked this behaviour up bc my sister doesnt care abt her feeling#and just. WHAT has my mother done to deserve this. she's a people pleaser this is going to KILL her and i hate that#eat your fucking vegetables like a grown ass man you're not in your mother's house!!!!!
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sometimes i fantasize abt being the one with the clingy gf instead of being the clingy gf ㅠㅠ
#like...#getting tons of texts all the time. having playlists made for me. uhh what else do the clingy gf do???#ask me abt every single detail of my day and life and personality. hmm write love letters to me. make a collage book w memories for me#read a book where on girl did that for the others and she belittled it and ridiculed her and i was like WTF?!?!?#if a gf did that to me i would DIE FOR HER!!!!! wtf that is so cute#i dont know sometimes i just think that'd be nice#to instead of being the clinger i'd have her clingy for me#well it's all just daydreams idk i was just imagining a scenario w a gf who blew up my phone when i was at work#i dont have a job but like it was all a fantasy lmaoooo. and ig the thought is nice bc irl#im the clingy one and i feel so anxious bc i mean im so fucking annoying and i talk way too much and i psuh everyone away being so awful#idk if 'she' would be clingy w me i like now i love her and can reassure her#so rlly its just all about me..... hmmm selfcest? 👀
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🚨 angst alert 🚨 i have a question for you. yes, you. put your au thinking cap on. got it? okay.
how do you think mike would've coped if they'd been in lucas and max's season four positions? as in, will dies a grotesque death in mike's arms after they agreed to go on a movie date this friday and mike admitted to feeling like he'd lost will not that long ago, mike almost gets shot and has to fight for both their lives to no avail and then pull them away from the rifts afterward to wait for help, and eleven manages to save will but he's in the hospital totally unresponsive and also whoops she can't actually find him in his mind btw. ...oof. thoughts? 🤨📝🎤
#redirecting my train of thought bc i was at risk of thinking abt canon lucas n max n tbh im in such a state rn tht it would kill me so. hi#byler#<- i want answers (aka free headcanons). pls reply or reblog if u choose to answer this 🫶#i personally do Not think he would've coped nearly as well as lucas lol <3#mike's anxious ass? mike's I'm Not Taking No For An Answer ass? mike's I'm Just A Random Nerd ass feeling like he'd proved himself right#after all in the worst of ways? that he wasn't the heart bc will fell apart anyway?#haha. This Is Fine This Is So *Unbelievably* (!!!!) Fine Actually 👍#also if mike read to him in the hospital could u imagine if he like. recounted hellfire's campaigns to him or one that he'd been#working on and was hoping to get will's input on or surprise him with it after everything was over etc etc... AUGHHH
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Fun thing to think about it regards to replacement ingo . Considering how bad Emmet is at lying/acting in general he'd probably have fucked up all his social relationships by like month 6. From one day to the next he's just?? Inexplicably adverse to his brother all the sudden. Doesn't really talk to him makes up an excuse to leave whenever he enters a room. Everyone assumes that they just had a big fight but as Emmet gets progressively more paranoid and withdrawn, probably starts being really loose with the coverup thing out of desperation to have any sort of healthy outlet for grieving and starts telling people that he [sugar] is NOT ingo. Which is true but probably makes everyone else assume he's insane
#still thinking abt this how fucked up would that be#1) need to establish that emmet is very much like. hyper anxious and paranoid#he completely withdraws from his social life and stops talking to depot agents. friendily#so like. he's the one acting weird and hostile while [sugar] is mimicking ingo well enough to pass as normal#so naturally everyone [except 4eelesa] assumes Emmet's getting weird and crazy#so emmet just gets progressively more withdrawn and holes himself up in his room all day#ofc mostly like. self punishment. bc he still believes he pushed ingo away#so keeps doing it to other people --> hates himself for ot --> does it to punish himself#also an element of i imagine. why is nobody noticing that ingo is gone !! why am i the only one missing him !!#(gets unreasonably mad that hes the only one grieving his brother)
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been sooo stimmy lately unfortunately not in the happy fun way more like gotta shake bad things out of my body
#got anxiety spikes i want to say out of NOWHERE but#i've been doing things that push me out of my comfort zone lately#but if i don't i get anxious about not DOING stuff#my impulse is to just white knuckle it through until som of the uncomfortable things become familiar but ugh#also i think my anxiety/stress has been on the rise for more than a year because i've been having a lot more Stuck Thoughts#so that's longer than this recent Do New Things drive#but like. i don't live a stressful life i just get incredibly stressed out by things like: couldn't find the detergent i wanted at the store#or: have a problem with my clothes hanger#please brain please#anyway i'm feeling pretty solid abt the autism probability at least#life of kit
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feeling weird and off today. writing down some affirmations oddly helped me a little
#literally looking up affirmations for ppl who experienced abuse lmaoo#just have to keep telling myself im safe and im healing its not an instant process but every day im going toward that#its just harder today idk im getting a lot of uncomfortable feelings and memories that are like locked away bc im not trying to let myself#spiral into them cuz last time i did that it made me really anxious all night and i felt worse#so im just keeping them at bay and trying not to think abt it too much but that also doesnt make me feel great
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gonna. try to reinstall ps, wish me luck.
#genuinely dunno what i missed in the firewall the first time but#i still had the like. norton install that came with the machine running at the time 'cause i'm dumb and i think that might#have been it#idk idk i'm also like comparatively illiterate abt win11 so everything is scary and confusing lmao#i don't really even need it for drawing i just want. I JUST WANT. to edit screenshots hfdasf#lies down dies#i am contemplating csp for when this inevitably doesn't work (it's so fucking hard to check until you get pinged though and ergh)#... first i will put away laundry. because i'm anxious.
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My downfall with not-too-serious deadlines: I’m not submitting it on the day of, and most definitely not ahead of schedule. Because oh !! no no no ! ! My brain knows the secret third option of ”very first thing next morning”
#like it won’t matter if I send this in today at 10pm or tmrw at 9am#bc they wouldn’t be going over it today anymore#and with that I bought extra 12hours#bc guess if I always procrastinate so that the extra 12h are crucial and the most productive#’’but why don’t u just set a deadline for urself earlier?’’ bc my brain KNOWS it’s a fake deadline and won’t do its hyperfocus mode#(everything I do is hella stressful bc of this but my brain loves to concentrate in the last possible moment and not one minute earlier)#(it’s 7pm and I’m settling in to get this thing done I had 1.5 weeks to do yay)#(the deadline is yes today; I’m aiming at the 9am tmrw)#been thinking that it could be a perfectionism thing: super anxious abt making it The Best Ever so I’m too overwhelmed to start but now whe#I just need to get it done (bc it’s already too late) I can actually just do it#and you’d think that if I know the problem I could not do the same thing every time but alas#studyblr#uni studyblr#february 2024#2024
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#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it#i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class#but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school#i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine#so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there#and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af#ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch#i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :((#i just wanna cry tbh#the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die#i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything#im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally#i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove#move*#what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc#im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :((((#well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3
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i am so apathetic to popular male transformers characters, but i have a simple trick to make me care abt them: i turn them into robot women then i suddenly start seeing their appeal
#grimlock would be so awesome as a butch woman. DO YOU HEAR ME DOES ANYBODY HEAR ME HELLOOOO#also crazy in depth conversation i had abt this made me think abt why i get rlly. apathetic abt popular tf characters#esp when i realize all the popular characters im Whatever abt are all men#but i always have interest in the female ones and also the niche little weird guys#you are looking at rare scrounge fan. rare wheelie fan. and Number 1 Fan of Blurr*#*when hes a dorky weird anxious guy. yknow the ones ppl dont care abt bc hes “annoying” and “ugly”#i dont give as much of a shit abt the handsome cocky racer blurrs#i realize. because tf fandom has a weird thing abt only caring abt how attractive a character is#and tends to gravitate to male characters for that aspect#like lets be real here. there is such a high priority in this fandom for what characters look best in porn. im right.#and ppl love the yaoi robots for that.#and i. am on the aroace spectrum. and do not find as much attraction in men (though i do sometimes. just less so)#so this doesnt appeal to me#so i find myself so incredibly apathetic or a hater to a lot of the tf fandom bc of this#in turn i do not care so much for the popular characters or straight up see them as red flags (admittedly im a bit irrational for this tho)#a lot of times i get a feeling like “ok whats so special abt this guy. its just another conventionally attractive man" it feels boring to m#so that might explain why i become more interested in these characters if they arent men#this is all being said from a nonbinary person that leans more transmasc btw. just noting that.#rando thoughtz
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