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kyooshi · 2 months

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Wanna be old enough to get a job cause I want money. But also want to be young and naive so I won't stress about said job.

#just a thought #like i want money so bad bro its not even funny 😰#i wanna help my mom #and buy things i want like an actual teenager #but i dont wanna stress out at the same time #LIKE MAKE IT MAKE SENSE SIS

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cathalbravecog · 11 months

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So I gave in and done it - Drew my Minecraft sona / skin, Larimar with Cathal since the two have some design similarities both being CRT TV inspired TV head robots... Let's just say yeah, there's perhaps a few reasons why I got so attached to Cathal like this, yeah?

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #minecraft #oc art #cathalposting #multislacker #guz art #doodles #u know ive gotten confident when i post even my goofy stuff on the main tag.... lets hope that doesnt get to my head now before i force #myself back into hidey hide again. but hey means im generally having a good time here but i miss my hidden feel a bit . i gotta be less #normaler #mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i ame having secound thoughts but eh screw it.. main tag it is #rips fur out #RAH !#'coz my art been getting quite a bit of traction lately and i rlly dont want it gettin into my head bc its not been stressing me out for #once but with this other problems can arise whoops i mean . ... flashbacks to my bugsnax era #ERM YEAH THAT #GGrrh.... ive been so proud of the art ive been doing lately so i wanna main tag it but i just kinda.....#wish to keep it low again......... have da same feelie feel yknow #i have an interesting way of talking here i just realized. its ok it adds to my swag . ok ramble over *drops mic* *struts out* *stumbles #over and falls on my face* *dies on impact*#i maye remove hte tags later but who Knows

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satoruhour · 4 months

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dont stay up until 5 doing work guys

#my whole body is aching ...#im just going to sleep 😀#not gonna lie it's been an annoyingly busy week #main comm heads were so delayed in getting us info about the sponsorship and they wanted promotion to start the DAY that you tell me #the info????? i can at least try to rush it tmr EOD but the same day??? youre joking #they said it could be extended to sun but also i dont wanna hinder the events sector so i just rushed it out in two days :/#and then i have to bid for my goddamn modules n it's giving me sm stress #ive been sleeping at 5 almost everydaydhfhf its not good i need to get my sleep schedule back on time #oh well #goodnight im just tired #and want to sleep forver #satoruhour's rambles

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nerdie-faerie · 10 months

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Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

#Demon Spawn #+Extra #theres too much going on! and my mum doesnt tell me everything at once so i think i only have one purchase to worry about #and then she hits me with another one!! did you remember this? did you remember that? no i was still dealing with the last one #im sorry but siblings are prioritised then i gotta sort out my own sht if i can then afford all these other peoples things #when i dont even speak to them! then sure maybe ill get around to it but theyve all got more extravagant preferences which i cant afford 😅#most of them still live at home and dont pay rent let alone tuition i cant afford their expectations and having 4 cousin birthdays #in a month is ridiculous have you seen the price of postage? and you wanna add in graduations and a baby into it???#i probably sound like im btching about nothing to people who have a good relationship with their cousins but i never see them and even #when i do we dont talk its super awkward and we have nothing in common yet i gotta go spend money i dont have all at once on them #and i cant even say sht cus my mum arranged a 21st for me that i didnt want so they did end up getting me stuff #god i sound like such btch i just dont know these people and its stressful trying to get presents as is but so many occasions at once when #i have no clue is stressing me out right now its not that i dont want to celebrate its the sudden expenditure and the fact its not spread #out and that theres so many cus i already got 8 siblings and my mum is one of 5 and my cousins are getting older so theyre going through #milestones that require gifts too at the same time as their birthday

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the-kipsabian · 2 months

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also lmao i havent received rejection emails in a while since i didnt apply to anything the entire last month, oh how fun that you have returned to me again disappointment in my ability to go for entry level positions /s

#i think theres a single place from my 10 january applications that hasnt responded yet. so im considering it as good as gone too #and we are now hitting the incredibly awful times for job searching since basically all summer jobs are gone so applying to anything is bad #the only good thing is that i have no deadlines or requirements as of right now. i havent been contacted by officials since my last ones #expired in january but i keep being able to file for unemployment benefits so. idk man. i dont wanna contact them cause then my four #applications a month requirement returns and its SO fucking stressful #like maybe thats why i was much better last month. i didnt have to do that. i would have sent out applications even without the requirement #if there was places but there were like. nothing. so i didnt. and i feel sooooo much better about it #like ofc i would like a job still. obviously. but at the same time when i didnt have to send useless applications that just made me feel #fuck awful and useless and all the other negative emotions? yeah i do feel better. ''surprisingly'' lmao #..im just rambling at this point wowie anything to procrastinate starting a fic i guess lmao #night is an absolute mess on main

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screamingay · 2 months

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i really do need a new job last night i sobbed for like 20 minutes straight after knocking over a bowl with a bit of old soup in it

#the stress is just. getting to me #all the little frustrations and inconveniences and decisions and circumstances have been adding up and like. i have a headache #i don't know what to eat. everyone needs me for something and i love them and i want to do things but im so tired #i never call out or come in late to work and i do what im supposed to do and i don't take lunch breaks because theres no time to #and i still make the same 15/h as everyone else and i still dont buy enough groceries because butter is four dollars a pound now #and whenever i buy meat neither of us can prep it for the freezer before it goes bad. i barely get enough protein anymore #but im alive. yknow. im here and im still in love and i dont live with my parents. sometimes i dream the kitchen i work in gets shut down #and we all get fired and part of me is so relieved #im braver than i think most of the time but i dont wanna be. i wanna be a housecat. i wanna bake lemon bars and roast potatoes

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toytulini · 8 months

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man i remember complaining about The Bone Bees and someone asking why i drank the 5hr energy and my answer being that i was "a little sleepy!" and saying that "god i shouldve just been A Little Sleepy! it was Fine!" and someone being Concerned by that and being like you shouldnt drive when youre A Little Sleepy! and just being like. i dont know how else to tell you that the Bone Bees Were So Much Worse Than Being Sleepy. i cannot stress enough that the condition it put me in was Worse. i recognize and acknowledge that drowsy driving is bad. that is why i made the Caffeine Mistake in the first place. i was trying to Avoid Drowsy Driving. and i had not Realized that the Caffeine was going to make me So Much Worse Than Drowsy. 0/10 never again. 5hr energy evil.

#toy txt post #i don't remember who it was but man. the bone bees. guys the bone bees were so bad. it was so bad. i never wanna feel like that again #not to admit to reckless driving on main and i want to stress i dont endorse this behavior and also never want to do what im about to say #again either: having once driven after taking a benadryl. and once driven in The Bone Bees. the benadryl was not as bad #i will grant. the benadryl. i was also So Fucking Full Of Adrenaline. for bug reasons. and i also want to stress i really did not want to do #it at the time but really did Not Have Better Options. and am comparing the bone bees to that and saying it was not as bad as the bone bees #to stress just how bad the bone bees were #if the bone bees ever happen again im gonna just fucking wait it out at a rest stop and chug water and piss til the bees fade #you know the feeling when you take adhd meds with no food and then you also have coffee on top of that with no food and you forget to eat #all day and you keep not eating and then to top it off you decide to have more coffee and it feels like you have been hollowed out and like #all of your bones are vibrating and also like you might pass out and stop breathing? it was like that but food wasnt helping and it was just #one single 5hr energy #(i did also have my adhd meds that day) (but it was not at the same time the 5hr energy was way later in the day)#anyway you know how ppl in their 30s will be like oh man i cant do things like i used to when i was 20! that was me at like idk 24 with the #5hr energy #anyway #this is why that battery acid spaghetti post felt like they were really overhyping the effects of the beverage. it didnt taste bad and it #gave me zero bone bees

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painfully-unoriginal · 1 year

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#p #i have to try so hard not to get irritated when ppl ask me over and over again to draw the same thing #like. i feel so mean bc i kno u dont mean to be forceful or whatever.#but after a certain point its like #...... first of all unless i state otherwise i am not taking requests and i am going to draw what i want to at my own pace #and second of all u kno that thing where like #ur already doing something. and then someone tells u to do the thing ur already doing. and then u dont wanna do it anymore #yeah. lmao #and third of all ive already replied to these ppl. ive already given them an answer and yet they continue #either be patient with me or just move on? u asking me over and over isnt gonna make me draw what u want me to #and it certainly isnt gonna make me do it any faster than i already am??#idk maybe I'm being unreasonable or whatever but it just kinda gets on my nerves #delete later #plus like i have said i have A JOB #a job with very long and demanding hours and as such i have limited time to draw which im absolutely not happy abt either #im doing things as fast as i can and its stressing me out bc i have so much i wanna draw and no time to do any of it #so please. please understand when i say i need to draw what i want at my own pace its for my own sake LMAO

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faggotician · 8 months

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Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh

#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg #Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep #So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM #Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like .#If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it #Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there #Then u cant focus on sleeping .#And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad #But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :((((#I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm #Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like #Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like #I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut #im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior #Damn this is a vent post and a half #999

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onewingedangels · 2 years

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bruh idk what to play anymore...

#personal #after playing mele. syb4. r&c. i just dont feel anything else #still thinking about mele and syb4 tho 😔💕#r&c was fun as hell #im replaying tsushima and having a good time with it but at the same time im not feeling it either #maybe I'll replay gow one more time before gow:r comes out.....#also i wanna gif a lot but im once again not in the mood and have no energy which sucks #and lots of stress happening irl so im just 🫠🫠🫠🫠

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torahtot · 2 years

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jealousy is such a stupid emotion. i always feel like i should be smarter than that but i still can't stop it. and i know i have no real reason to be upset at the person, but i just am, and there's nothing to be done except process on my own.

#wtf is this put some markdown thing??#anyways this is abt the same person i was vagueing abt yesterday lmao #this morning she was telling me how stressed she is deciding if she wants to go for 4 years or 5 years #which is a stressful decision im sure!#but i kinda got very pissed. felt like #ur parents are giving u a full ride to anywhere u wanna go; ur entire family went to college; u dont have to deal with financial aid #or scholarships and u finished ur essay ur fine u have nothing to worry about #meanwhile im the first in my family to be going to college im figuring everything out by myself and i probably wont be able #to afford my top 2 choices #sit the fuck down #but i cant *say* anything that'd be incredibly mean and rude and shes allowed to be stressed too #idk #just really not having a good time lol #nachi speaks

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years

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#im just gonna do some thinking. so its 10pm on friday night and im stuck here in the lab for another half hour and ive gott be back here at #6.50am and ill be here until 3. come back at 9pm and stay to 10.30 again #and what im doing is pretty mentally draining. and ive got a million other things ive gotta do #and im not happy. im v not happy. ive got at least 2 more projects like this lined up #and my pi is like: ah this data is interesting! and i just cant even summon a little bit of emotion about it #someday im gonna look back on this time in my life and it'll make me sad. just a blur of the same draining nonsense everyday #like whats the point of that? somethings gotta give #but i feel obligated to do this bc my weird necrotic behaviors mean im v efficient at it. so i generate so much data #and then i open up the data and feel nothing. like my body had to physically adjust to the idea that i was gonna have to start taking #measurements again. like 2 weeks agon when i stopped the last project i felt so far past burnout that #i was just numb and i feel like that would be easier to maintain than trying to enjoy anything #and i just keep getting more of these projects and its not even what im really interested in #thr project i wanna do just keeps getting pushed further and further back. and idk maybe i should just accept that its not gonna happen #and shut up abt it. i mean shut up to myself. i dont actually complain abt it #and if i did it would be like ahaha im in pain but im laughing so u dont take it seriously #bc whats the point in letting ppl kno ur hurting when u dont intend to do anything abt it? at that pt ur just infecting ppl with ur stress #i kno i keep saying this but ive gotta find a new lab for a phd. but im so burnt out and i have so little spare time #and i wanna draw but that takes so much time. like do i take a bit of happiness or do i b productive?#maybe that's what ill do when im stuck here at night. look for an interesting lab. somewhere not in the desert #i dont wanna live in las vegas or in California. i wanna go somewhere with trees #idk. im just tired and sad :-/#and my pi mentions a student coming here in the spring with similar interests to me and im just like so numb im just like #wow. i wish i could manifest even a little bit of his passion. im just staring at open docs like. i want yo lay down and decompose #somethings gotta give sooner or later #like my single friend came over last weekend and asked me if id made any friends in my 'new' position and its just like #the only human contact i have is being around ppl in the lab and our lab manager jokes thst im so quiet she wouldnt kno i was there if not #for the machines buzzing.#i spend my time in my apt and the lab and i run around my neighborhood once a day. thats basically it. thats all i do #its stupid. i wish i was at home listening to thr sounds of bugs and frogs or on the lakeside #in the woods. not thinking

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triggeringtommy · 29 days

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gggrrrrrr i feel ,,, like i can't make a big post abt what's bothering me bc i swear she doesn't follow me but she lurks on here from time 2 time so I'm ranting in the tags here side note I wish I could shut the fuck up but im struggling with that!!!!! >:(

#if u see this kai i love u #im so fucking stressed rn all i think abt is getting fucked up and od'ing so like yikes thats a problem #im tryna be excited and happy abt visiting fl but its so hard to keep my shit together rn #shes upset over her dad and low key taking it out on me and ik we're both stressed to the max #i can tell im having a problematic episode and its showing #i feel so annoying 2 every1 every time i say anything its eating at my brain #i feel like a shit person bc i wish i could do more for every1 but i cant even do for myself rn #i just want to smoke n drink n get fucked up and hav no cares in the world #i wanna drink sossooooo bad but my FL friends are gonna b watching over me like a hawk #i just wanna get away and do fuckshit but at the same time id rather kms than do drugs with those ppl ever again #like 2 1/2 years ago chase came by to help us move shit and he literally handed me a bag of meth and was like u want some?? i said wtf #i kicked him out bc he knew i was sober and i genuinely hate meth i accidentally did it 1 time on new years eve i swear i was finna die #i tried coke that night and i was on acid it felt truly magical i luvvv acid n coke #i just hav a rly bad coke problem but ive been sober since 2020!!!!#doesnt mean i dont think abt it allll the timeeee #sobriety rocks! jk jk this is the hardest shit ever #its just me n my nic vape against the world huh

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lemonlimevio · 4 months

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btw thinking of changing my username for the new year lol... again

#elospeaks #“new year new me”#except i am the same in every way i just have a new username and pfp and i delete all my posts #/half joke #i think #i actually have been thinking abt wiping this blog for a long time haha...#I STILL WANNA USE IT BUT #it stresses me out #i dont wanna delete this blog tho i got friends on here #well. we are mutuals and we maybe have talked 2-3 times BUT we are friends.... to me #but anyways i think it would greatly improve my mental health to start clean

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ace-with--a-mace · 5 months

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school in 48 hours ,,,,,,

#threw up in my mouth i have 6 out of 7 classes of hw i was supposed to do during break #and tbh jts my fault that i didnt do then like where did my time management skills go #but also??? its break??? the time to relax and spend time with family???#why do i have to 1. sew 2. do 40 multi step math problems 3. make an asl presentation cuz the teacher genuinely doesnt teach #elaborating on 3 like ik ppl say teachers dont teach BIT HE DOES NOT TEACH #the entire year was students making asl presentations to share with the class. he has yet to teach us 1 sign #4. 3 notes outlines cornell note style that span over 2 units #5. read my psych textbook from Cambridge for my quiz monday #6. do the same art assignment ive done since 6th grade except on 18x12 paper.#by monday #like crew please consider that i like a break and i wanna see my family #even without the hw i was slaving away cleaning the house and cooking and baking nd being stressed #my life does not revolve around precalc or chemistry or ap world history i want to sleep !!!!#l speaks #shut up l #ranting in the tags because i can #and rhen im breakinf out and my period is a week late and i have migraines and my braids arent straight and my face isnt my face and #its too much i need to clock out of life guys im so sorry.

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ordei · 10 months

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So lthe other day I officially accepted a job at a place that doesn't pay great. Then today my partner comes home and says he got offered to move to a different team at his job, meaning that his old position is now open. 😑 we have to wait on a response from HR to see if I can work there but as usual from any HR they are being slow and I am filled with anxiety over starting at one job only to quit 3 days later bc the job I actually wanted is available

#like the only reason i couldnt apply before #is bc you cant have two ppl ina relationship #on the same team #but hes moving to another team #so it SHOULD BE FINE RIGHT #and like i get its probably nbd #but its stressing me out bc if i can work there #i dont wanna waste my time working here #i wish people replied faster and also that this didnt happen

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