going a little insane thinking about that one echo in moxxi's heist that's jack calling his mom on mother's day- a call she very much does not answer- and how much the sadness in his voice when saying goodbye says about him
series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems
once again just proving to myself that I don't dislike straight couples in fiction, the man just has to be ride or die ready to commit murder or suicide for the woman. he has to be pathetic. he has to be soaking wet and get on his knees at LEAST once begging for her affection and/or forgiveness.
i hate that i've been complaining about everything in my life lately but if you're a frequent reader of my personal posts (side note, if you are: why. also i'm sorry) but if you remember earlier this week on tuesday i slipped outside and hurt my knee. i didn't end up seeing a doctor about that bc they literally had no openings when i talked to the secretary she was like i am so sorry sweetie. we can't take you for the rest of the week and i was like oh. and after a couple days it didn't hurt sooooo much although i think the limp ive been walking w has not been doing me any favors. but now today especially (? for some reason) BOTH of my legs were really hurting. i'm wondering if that might somehow be related to me getting my period today bc sometimes. you know how period pain can just end up wherever it wants. but then around 8 o'clock today i stubbed the SHIT out of one of my toes and i think i might have injured it (? i dont think it's broken but i cant stand on it and it's been hours). this is my left foot and the knee i hurt on tuesday was on my right leg. i am literally limping on both sides of my body now and i cant stand or walk.
I've only known Jadzia dax for like 8 ish episodes now but when she tells sisko "I've been a mother three times and a father twice" it just hits me that she is Jadzia Dax. Jadzia Dax, not Jadzia and Dax not Jadzia + Dax, Jadzia Dax, one being. she steps forward to join with her symbiont and she leaves behind her family name in the process. Just her and others before her. She said she failed being a parent, and i wonder if she carries that grief like it is an heirloom she inherited or one of her's will pass on. She is Jadzia Dax and maybe somedays it feels like it isn't Jadiza Dax, its Jadzia Curson (All the other hosts idk them) Dax, does she feel like she carries a history and testment with her, or does she feel like she brought into something folded in on it's self like an origami star
I love "Miko's Ingenuity" (the track that plays during Miko’s Story Quest cutscene) and upon revisiting the recording I took of the cutscene, I decided I’m gonna be loud about it and say:
We, as a collective, don’t talk enough about this.
We’ve seen Yae appear in a grand total of like 7 different version updates and throughout all of them THIS quest and cutscene is the ONLY time we ever see Miko even a little emotionally vulnerable. And I think it’s an amazing insight into her character.
Miko is gaslight gatekeep girlboss incarnate; she’s a cunning mastermind, likes to tease people and she’s always the one who’s 10 steps ahead in any given situation. We been knew that, and this is a persona she displays that no one has ever been able to break.
but THIS CUTSCENEE
[HER LITTLE FROWN!! :((( ]
[SHE LOOKS SO SAD]
She waited for Ei for 500 years, got her back, and now she has to send the souls of her friends and family away.
“It’s a feast and all feasts come to an end” [and what if I literally sob]
[My heart broke watching this I love her so much]
Her FACE ! THAT expression. I am sniveling on the ground.
We know both Ei and Miko have lost people close to them; here we see Miko go through the loss firsthand. And even in the presence of the Traveler Miko decides not to preserve her unbothered and nonchalant mask. She’s sad to seem them go. But she knows it has to be done and she takes comfort in the fact that these youkai lived their lives to the fullest.
good GOD I could go on and on about how hot she was for doing this in the first place (both the animation and the masterful big brain plan behind getting the whole city to do the chant along with her).
But I won’t, I wanted this post to mainly just be about how great it is that we saw this moment of vulnerability from her. And how this moment is NEARLY A YEAR OLD!??! I just thought it was so delicious from like, a character-crafting perspective. ‘Cause even in the recent Mikawa Flower Festival the topic of youkai losing friends throughout the passage of time is brought up again around Miko, and she played the part of, well.. ‘therapist’ for Chizuru incredibly well.
We have never since seen (and maybe never will? for a while at least) the same level of vulnerability that she displayed in her story quest, and I want people to remember it, because it definitely humanizes her more and just contributes so much to her character as we know her in the recent versions and I love her so much.
havent heard her sing the 'dignare domine' part today and i realise i may have gotten addicted to it throughout the last few days. im having withdrawal symptoms and apparently a real actual crush on this woman lord help me jesus h christ im in trouble haha