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shoichee · 4 years

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GoMs + Kagami as Persona Users

Headcanons on the Generation of Miracles (and Kagami) if they were to become a persona user in the world of the Persona series (Kuroko and Momoi included)

@akichan-th THIS IS FOR YOU

Warning: KNB series spoilers !!

Kuroko Tetsuya

since his presence is nonexistent in the real world, as a phantom thief, he’d probably desire to be a noticeable hero, you know? even in the 22.5 OVA, he told Kise that passing around wasn’t fun but he was going to do it for the sake of the team

his phantom thief outfit would be flashy in a sense of maybe eye-catching color schemes, or bold patterns

his attire could be baggy/oversized navy blue/black street clothing with TASTEFUL neon-colored accents and his mask would be a neon-colored huge sports shades/goggles situation (i was about to say some trendy sunglasses but sunglasses don’t stay on at all); he’s a skater boy ???? basically??

like, his PT attire could very well be a Persona 5 Dancing in Starlight DLC outfit 👀 it has those vibes

persona element is curse and let me explain why: he doesn’t have the gifted physique like the other GoMs and he’s cursed to rely on others for him to make a difference, and his motif has always been “shadow” ALSO he’s the PHANTOM sixth player YOU CAN’T CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE

he’s a front-line battler, but his skills are very support heavy: support skills that increase attack and defense for his teammates; i also wanna say he has spells that inflict dizziness ailments because in the anime, players are always losing their shit and whipping their heads around to find this tiny boy LMAO

he would definitely have a signature move that would direct all enemy attacks and status moves to himself for a set amount of turns to aid his teammates

his persona would have an extremely high Endurance and higher than average Luck stat but everything else is an all-time low

i’m going to say it, his shooting weapon is gonna be a paintball gun filled with neon paint just to fuck with the shadows and still make it HURT

code name would be “Umbra” (which means innermost part of a shadow) or “Ghost;” imagine some PT member shouting, “Oh no! Umbra’s knocked down!” and all the shadow sees is this brightass, neon kid on the floor

i would love his codename to be “Shadow” but there’s already the term shadow to describe the monsters in the metaverse

Kise Ryota

he views a “rebel” as your basic punk

since he’s a model, he knows japanese punk fashion very well

guess who’s gonna come into the metaverse being this hot ass punk boy? Kise motherfucking Ryota

black spike collar

lots of those tiny chains and harness/buckle action somewhere

ripped black leather pants that give Joker’s own leather pants a run for its money PLUS WITH SHINY BLACK BELT

lots of patchwork and stuff

THIS IS WHAT MORE OR LESS I’M TALKING ABOUT IF YOU WANT VISUAL REFERENCES

his mask would totally be a visor goggle to add further to the punk theme

part of me is biased that Kise is a blondie and “kise” is based off of “yellow” and Ryuji is blonde and so now i headcanon him as the electric element

okay, but since he’s an “all-rounder” he’ll probably be able to access mid-tier level attacks of all elements, including almighty to an extent

but if i was basing his element off of personality, he’d be ice for sure; he’s actually cold-hearted to people whom he doesn’t consider “worthy” and the anime only showed his friendly side because most of the time, he’s shown talking to his friends and people he respects

speaking of all-rounder, his stats would be all high all around, with his Magic stat peaking the highest

Midorima Shintarou

this boy is a bit tricky to figure out what his PT attire would be

he doesn’t have any time to think about “what he would be as a rebel” type of thing

however, if he were to desire to become something, i’d say he would want to be a supernatural being who can distribute good luck for himself every day

think of those JRPG wizard/mage/warlock outfit motifs (and they match up nicely with the idea of astrology and horoscopes); probably lots of brown/beige/hues of green scheme? or a black/various colors of purple for a FULL on witch vibe

it makes sense too because as someone who always shoots from afar and never dunks, mage classes always cast from afar and never attack up close to their opponent

and his frog puppets remind me of a witch’s animal familiars LMAO

there you have it

his mask would be a dark dark purple or a pure black domino mask that has little stars littered sparingly everywhere on said mask

his shooting weapon? my guy is stacked on staves ready to cast long-range spells

wind element for sure (because his basketball shots all catch air with lots of hang time | (• ◡•)|) with tons of gun skills

signature move would be a magic skill that never misses no matter what (his range is the entire metaverse)

his persona stats are also pretty well rounded but his highest stats would be Magic and Luck, with Endurance being a close runner up

Aomine Daiki

also hard to figure out a PT attire for this guy

according to KUROFES, his alternative career would be a police officer so i would think he despises criminals and the Phantom Thieves altogether ?

if anything, he’s more suited for the S.E.E.S. investigation team in Persona 3

Aomine doesn’t give a fuck, but he has a soft spot to protect others so like having a gun evoker definitely suits him more than a mask summon BRJWBDJW

i see him as a fire element, but his persona would have a lot more physical skills than anything else

bonus: since he used to be Kuroko’s “light,” he can have some mid-tier level bless skills

to make a reference his “formless” shots and forms, as well as his rapid changes of pace, his signature move would be a 5-hit physical skill that changes targets with every hit

statwise, his Agility stat is the highest out of everyone in the GoM, and his Strength and Endurance would be runner up stats; his Magic stat would be extremely dismal

Murasakibara Atsushi

this guy thinks about nothing but food and how he hates Teppei-species people basketball, so honestly he’s not interested in the Phantom Thieves business

like what? Murasakibara dressed in a getup? it’s a big “press X to doubt”

so i envision him to be more suitable for Persona 4, where he has to confront the other self that loves basketball and truly does care about people, and he had to be honest and accept that side for him to attain a persona

would he ever go back to the said “persona world” to go fight some shadows? unless there’s a good reason why he should or you bribed him with snacks, he won’t budge an inch

just give this man a Persona 4 school uniform and he’s ready to fight

his persona would primarily have physical skills, with lots of “wall” support skills, element “break” skills, and lots of passive skills (lots of nulls/resists) available for it to learn

highest stat for him would be Strength, then Endurance, and surprisingly have Agility as the runner up

he’s a huge tank of a persona user

Akashi Seijuro

i’ve talked about his PT outfit in this headcanon here, including his mask and why

hear me out, since this man is good at everything in school, and since there are archery clubs in Japanese schools, i wouldn’t be surprised if he was a Robin Hood with the scopes; what am i tryna say? his shooting weapon would be bow & arrows

i feel like people would automatically think he’s a bless/curse element like Akechi since “he has two sides,” but i feel like it’s not exactly right? if anything, i headcanon him to be more of a psychokinesis element

why? i want to attribute that to his emperor’s eye and his perfect passings, both each specialties from their respective “sides” of Akashi, and that requires extreme precision, almost to the level of “telepathy”

there’s also everyone thinking he can see the future too i mean

in the end, Akashi’s dual sides merged into one again, so having a whole bless/curse element wouldn’t even make sense anymore

but i will say, this man deserves to have a persona with almighty skills back to back

this guy isn’t the captain for no reason

so his persona would utilize psychokinesis and almighty skills, with special buff skills that increase critical rates for his allies (to refer to the fact that his passings enhance other players); his persona would also enjoy a large selection of passive skills to choose from to either be ultimate support or ultimate offensive sweeper

to also reiterate from the mentioned headcanon i linked, his code name would either be “Crimson” or “Scarlet”

his persona is a literal glass cannon, referring to the fact that Akashi is actually a mentally fragile basketball player; extremely high Strength, Magic, and Agility (but not as high as Aomine though) stats, average Luck stat, but extremely low Endurance stat

Momoi Satsuki

Momoi, i think, would envision herself in the metaverse as someone who’s never underestimated because of her usual demeanor or physical looks

even me, i got fooled thinking she was just only a fanservice girl and not this incredibly intelligent girl who was critical to her teams’ successes

so i would think she would imagine herself to be in a huge respectable position of power, like a lieutenant or general, who can command others and strategize to victory

her outfit would be similar to the attire from the Assassin’s Faith set from Love Nikki with the black Army Floppy Hat from the Army Major set on top (also from Love Nikki)

color scheming i can imagine a lot of black/white with gold trimmings/accents here and there

her mask is a Venetian eye mask i can literally see it; it’s so pretty with the gold plating !!

her role would definitely be a navigator + analyzer/tactician from the backlines, so while she isn’t in the battle most of the times, if worse comes to shove, she’ll be in the frontlines as a last resort

in other words, she’s a Futaba, but she isn’t a sitting duck and can fight if needed

she has an incredible Luck stat, higher than average Agility stat, but average stats for the rest (Magic, Strength, and Endurance)

ailment, healing, support, and buff skills are all at her disposal, along with some gun skills (which can definitely be broken when paired with her high Luck stat)

“Duchess” (a woman having a noble rank) would be a really cute codename for her

Kagami Taiga

why do i literally see him as a shinobi (ninja)

i have no idea why i do, but i think it’s just his name:

“While Kagami's name is associated with the ‘tiger’, Himuro's name means ‘dragon’. In Chinese mythology, the Azure Dragon of the East and the White Tiger of the West are eternal rivals. This rivalry is further expressed in their surnames: ‘Hi (氷)’ means ‘ice’ while ‘Ka (火)’ translates as ‘fire’.” - KNB wiki

so i literally see both Himuro and Kagami as rival clans duking it out

jokes aside, Kagami is a very honorable player, but he did at one point exhibited a “darker side” to himself, playing selfishly and being arrogant in the beginning

shinobis were considered to be “dishonorable” and “beneath the honor” of the samurai in their eras, so i feel that this could be a great image for what Kagami thinks is a “rebel”

being a ninja would make use of his jumping skills too

i imagine him in a fitted black halter neck top (so his abs are for us to see), with an iconic long red scarf wrapping his neck and hanging down to his waist at the back side

black forearm guards/wraps?

and then he has mahogany/dark red??/black???? loose cloth wrapped around his waist, like how you would tie a jacket over your waist ?? and then black nu-bakama pants and finally some dark boots for those pants to be tucked in

no one can convince me otherwise, but he’s gotta have a red full-face oni mask with black horns and some golden tiger stripes on the sides of the mask and around the eyes

HIS PERSONA ELEMENT IS BLESS BECAUSE HE IS KUROKO’S “LIGHT”

he would totally have some almighty skills and “Heat Riser,” a move that raises all of the user’s attack, defense, and accuracy/evasiveness (because the colors of the move’s animation remind me of Direct Drive Zone, something that was pretty much unlocked by Kagami for the team)

his persona is one of the OP/late game personas where all their stats are amazing across the board; even if his stats were high all around, his “lowest” would be his Luck stat

codename for him is “Tiger” no one cannot argue with me for this one NRNEIJFEO

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villainsblog97 · 4 years

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Got My Number

Pairing: Kihyun X Reader

Summary: (You already should know what's going on) Kihyun is your best friend, and he hates your boyfriend, and will do whatever he can to convince you to break up with him and call him up.

Warning: Some intimacy (nothing major) and slight language (but he's a grown ass man!)

Scenario: Romance, Fluff.

Based on the song: Got My Number by Monsta X

If you need someone who can love you while he's gone

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

Yoo Kihyun, he was absolutely amazing, kind, sweet, caring, (sometimes salty and savage) the best thing to ever happen to you, he was always there for you, he held you when you cried, watched movies with you, took you out to eat.

He was the best friend you could ever have.

When you realize, it ain’t him that's on your mind

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

If there was one thing that Kihyun actually hated... it was the dumbshit that called himself your boyfriend, he had watched you for years with him, he would watch him completely ignore you, and only showed affection when he was with his friends, he hated him and what was worse... he hated how you always went back to him after a dozen broken hearts and tears, Kihyun was always there for you in the end, holding you while you cried, running his fingers through your hair until you either calmed down or finally cried yourself to sleep, and even then... he would carry you to his room, lay you down and then crash on his couch.

Three dots tryna tell me (Yeah, yeah)

Trying hard not to text me (Yeah, yeah)

Lately you've been feeling slightly abandoned, your boyfriend hadn't talked to you in almost a week, you held your phone in your hand, your thumb hovering over the send button on your text message, you looked over at the name... Kihyunnie 💕 your message read are you busy?

But the message only stayed in the message box, you hesitated, recently your boyfriend told you to stay away from Kihyun, but he was your best friend you couldn't just forget about him.

Is it 'cause your bed is empty? (Yeah, yeah)

Is it right there and you can’t see? (Yeah, yeah)

You sent out the message, and soon you got a reply.

Everybody wants what they want, love who they love

I wouldn't judge and I can keep a secret so

Soon you found yourself sitting on the couch with Kihyun, crying for the millionth time, he had an arm around you, holding you close to him, running his fingers gently through your hair, occasionally handing you a tissue to blow your snot infused nose.

If you need someone who can love you while he's gone

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

"Am I just not good enough for him anymore!?" You whined, his grip tightened around your shoulder.

"He's an idiot (Y/N), he doesn't deserve you!" He snapped, you sat up and looked at him, a little confused.

When you realize it ain't him that's on your mind

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

"Easy Ki... I'm just upset..." you laughed a little through your broken heart.

"No... I'm upset, you always crying about him, broken hearted because he hurt for the fifth hundred fucking time, you're always going back to him when I'm right here!" The last words caught both of you by surprise, you had to process what just happened, did Kihyun just confess to you?

But you didn't have enough time to process before Kihyun took your face into his hands and locked his lips around yours, the kiss was short... but you could literally taste the passion that was dripping from his lips.

"K-Kihyun?" You stuttered out, he stopped himself and let you go, his hands stiff like he was frozen in time.

"I'm... I'm so sorry..."

So who you gonna call when you want to do them things that he won't do?

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

It was almost magnetic, like a force, you had no control over your body, it just moved on it's own and your hands found Kihyun's face as your lips returned to his.

It was Kihyun's turn to be shocked, but his lips molded to yours, his hands at your waist, pulling you closer, your arms sliding around his neck, running your fingers through his black locks.

So who you gonna call when you want to do them things that he won't do?

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

This man knew what he was doing, his lips moving against yours, lightly biting at your bottom lip, like it was second nature, his lips trailed down to your neck, you let out a gasp as he lightly nipped the lower tip of your ear, your eyes closed gently, and that's when it hit you all like a ton of bricks.

"Kihyun wait..." you winced out, "this is wrong.... I still... have a boyfriend"

"Do you... because from what I've seen... you have someone that likes to show you off... and then doesn't give a shit about you... besides, why did you kiss me?"

"Because you kissed me first"

"Yeah... so?"

"M-maybe you should go"

"Don't push me out (Y/N)..." Kihyun gave you a serious look, you couldn't believe you just made out with your best friend, you had to think about what just happened, but you wanted to be alone to think.

"I just need some time to think Ki..."

Nobody needs to be lonely (Yeah, yeah)

Just say that word and you won't be (Yeah, yeah)

Three days passed by, you finally got your boyfriend to come over, and talk to you about some stuff, but the last few days you couldn't get Kihyun out of your mind, his lips, his taste, the little noises he made as you kissed him, and the electric shock you felt through your entire body.

It left you in a trance, you didn't even realize your boyfriend was talking to you.

"Babe... are you even listening???" He asked as he poked your head with his finger.

"I'm sorry... I was just thinking about some stuff"

"About what?"

Totally not the idea that you sort of cheated on him with your best friend.

"Just... some stuff"

He was sitting on the couch on his phone.

"Babe... do you ever think about... our future?"

"Mhm" his gaze was locked on his screen.

"Like... I dont know... maybe, how many kids we want, or like what kind of house we want, how great it will be coming home to each other, laying on the couch having movie nights, and enjoying the company of each other" you smiled a little to yourself.

"Sure babe..." he sighs as he continues to scroll through his phone.

Cause I don’t want to turn up your heartbeat (Yeah, yeah)

And if you got dials, baby, no need (Yeah, yeah)

Your mind started drifting again... and suddenly you couldn't see anything but Kihyun, did he seriously mess you up?

"Babe! Were you listening?"

"Yeah I was"

"Then what did I say?" You asked

"I don't need to repeat myself..." he stood up.

"Because you didn't hear me?"

"I said I heard you! I need to go..." he grabbed his coat as his phone rang, you only saw a glimpse of who was calling, but you recognized the number, it was a girl you knew that use to work with you, your heart was about to collapse, is that why he hasn't talked to you in the past week?

You heard him answer the phone as he walked out the door, you didn't much only that he said he wasn't busy.

Everybody wants what they want, love who they love

I wouldn't judge and I can keep a secret so

Your heart ached, you were trying to stay loyal to one person, always tried to be the perfect girlfriend, you stepped out of your comfort level multiple times to make him happy, and for what?

Absolutely nothing.

If you need someone who can love you while he’s gone

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

Your doorbell rang in your ears, you had prayed it wasn't who you thought it was, you didn't want him to see you crying once again.

But luck was not your friend, you opened the door, red eyes and cheeks swollen, and met Kihyun's eyes.

"What do you want?" You choked out, nose stuffed up.

"What happened?" He asked ignoring you altogether and walking in and checking you over.

"Kihyun don't do this..." you whined again.

"What the hell happened??"

"He's cheating on me okay! Is that what you wanted to hear? Tell me you told me so!? Just say it and go okay..."

"That's... why I came over... I saw him walking with some girl... and I wanted to tell you... not to tell you I told you so"

"I don't even know what to do..." you sighed.

When you realize, it ain't him that's on your mind

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

"I think I can help..." he smiled as he put his hand on your face and leaned in, you leaned away.

"Ki... I can't..."

"Let me ask you something..."

"What?"

"Can he hold you... like I can?" He asked as he held you tightly in his arms.

"Kihyun..."

"Can he make you feel.. wanted? Like I can?"

"Can he touch you... like I can?" His hand slipped up to your cheek and leaned in again.

"And can he kiss you... like I can?" He pressed his lips back to yours and you felt that same shock, he let you go as he walked you back against your door.

You held on tightly to him again, getting lost in his taste.

"Kihyun..." you sighed against his lips.

So who you gonna call when you want to do them things that he won't do?

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

The kiss was more intense, it wasn't no longer a question... it was a plead, a beg.. he wanted you, and you'd be lying if you said you didn't want him.

Your hands gripped his jacket as you pulled it off his shoulders, he picked you up and wrapped your legs around his waist.

So who you gonna call when you want to, do them things that he won’t do?

You laid beside him, sheets wrapped around you two, his fingers tangled into your hair, his lips on your head, your arm draped over him.

"So... is this a yes?"

You smiled and kissed his chest, before looking up at him.

"One second..." you smiled as you sat up and grabbed your phone, you erased your boyfriend's (well ex boyfriend) number from your contacts and sent one last message, Kihyun held you close and kissed your shoulder.

"You've been caught... have a nice life... its over" you typed out, hit send and smiled as you dropped your phone on the bed.

"Yes... a million times yes..." you smiled as you stole another electric kiss.

Baby, you got my number, got my number, oh

#monsta x #kihyun #x reader #got my number #all about luv #i love this song #and i love him #hope you guys like this

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baddcop · 4 years

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🎵🎵🎵🎵

MUSE MUSIC MEME. * ( NO LONGER ACCEPTING. )

You sent four so I’m bouta go apeshit and do 4 songs oop. 👀

I’M NOT A SAINT. - BILLY RAFFOUL.

Well I’ve had one too many cigarettes burning up my lungsHad the taste of one too many lips hanging of my tongueSunday morning getting high, drinking here aloneThinking up a brand new alibi for not coming homeAnd I’m sorry I say “fuck” so much.

I’m not a saint, but I could be if I tryLord knows I’ve got habits to breakI’m really good at being good at goodbyesI’m gonna give you fair warning that II’m not a saint, but I could be if I tryLord knows I don’t learn from mistakesAnd I’m not here unless I’m here by your sideI’m not a saint, but I could be if I

I’m sure at this point it’s been made painfully aware how much Gavin depends on drinking, sex, fights and so on to cope with how he feels. (Although he doesn’t show it) and while he knows he shouldn’t do so he tends to self sabotage his relationships out of fear of rejection, which usually works. He tends to use it as a shield while also feeling guilty about it, as well as feeling angry and wanting someone to blame. It’s a sort of vicious cycle he’s in and he’d really rather be better because he knows he could be. Gavin is painfully smart, a lot smarter than I think he’s given credit for and a lot smarter than he lets on. It’s part of what makes him good at his job (and he is good at his job when he wants to be of course.)

Sober up and settle down, give a little talk‘Bout how I can’t keep from runnin’ ‘roundSay it’s not your fault, oh, ohAnd I’m sorry I lie so much

Gavin lies, he lies and fronts and is aggressive because that’s his only defense. He can’t seem to get out of the cycle he’s put himself into even though he knows he could be better and even though he knows it’s not exactly good for him. Misery is a comfort to him, it’s all he’s ever known, pain and being alone is what he understands and anything outside of that frightens him. It frightens him because he’s scared it will end, scared about how much it’s going to hurt when he has to go back to what he knows. And it’s a case of a self-fulfilling prophecy. He pushes people away or doesn’t try and eventually they leave and it solidifies that beliefe that he can’t be happy, that he doesn’t deserve it and that any happiness he feels is a fluke and will eventually end. It’s scary for him because he can’t control another person and he thrives on being in control, having it taken from him or having to be out of control is mortifying and he never wants to feel like how he felt when he was a kid ever again. Unfortunately, he’s gone to extremes to do so and sadly it’s worked just how it was supposed to, whether he intended to do it or not.

I’m gonna give you fair warning that IWill be the reason for the tears in your eyes

Gavin knows how he is. He knows he’s messy, depressed, angry, jealous and possessive. He knows how he acts and how he keeps people at bay and he doesn’t know how not to do so. So when someone gets close to him he tends to lock up and try to warn them, another sort of self-fulfilling prophecy type of situation where he uses it both as a means of keeping people at bay and at removing responsibility from himself to try and avoid guilt. A lot of the time he’ll use the “Well I told you– I told you how I was. This always happens. It was bound to happen again” stuff as an excuse because he hates how guilty he feels and he doesn’t want to admit that vulnerability.

GO FUCK YOURSELF. - TWO FEET.

Fucked and drank all nightActed all alrightHad no need to fightTonight, tonight

As stated previously, Gavin uses sex, alcohol and so on to cope. It definitely helps him to release his built up aggression, his need for touch, and control. Effectively, it’s the perfect means of guarding himself. He’s allowed to be in full control, he can play the role of a charming stranger for the night, he receives touch and sexual attention with no strings. Usually, if he’s looking to sate that need he’ll avoid fighting and opt instead for keeping his face unbattered to better catch people’s eyes. Men or women or whatever he doesn’t care. As long as he gets to be in control he enjoys it. Every now and then he caves and submits, is raw and relinquishes control to his fling and disappears into the night glad to never see them again and have to deal with the baggage and embarrassment of them knowing some weakness he perceives himself to have.

Cast me far awayPlay these little gamesActin’ all okayToday, today

Using his anger as a shield, as well as his rather rough behavior towards friends and coworkers, comes to him like second nature. He’s been doing it for so long he can’t imagine not pushing people away. It’s effectively the way he keeps people’s eyes off of him, no one cares to look for long when they don’t care and when they don’t really know how deep that hurt runs. He’d rather he keep people at a distance and that they return the favor, it’s much safer for him like that. Tina, Christ, they don’t know how much he carries around or just what he’s gone through. And he likes it like that.

ME, MYSELF & I. - G-EAZY & BEBE REXHA.

Oh, it’s just me, myself and ISolo ride until I die‘Cause I got me for life (Yeah)Oh, I don’t need a hand to holdEven when the night is coldI got that fire in my soul

Gavin effectively believes he’s going to die alone. He’s thought about it more than once, he’s thought about it when he was younger and he kind of tries to come to terms with that “fact” by ignoring it completely. He tries to convince himself and others that he’s better off alone and that he’ll be fine on his own. It’s a lie. He finds it really hard to trust people as a direct result of how much he was kicked around, abused, neglected and moved around like baggage as a child.

Hun, and as far as I can see, I just need privacyPlus a whole lot of tree, fuck all this modestyI just need space to do meGive the world what they’re tryna see […]‘Cause this hunger is drivin’ me, yeahI just need to be alone, I just need to be at homeUnderstand what I’m speakin’ onIf time is money I need a loanBut regardless I’ll always keep keepin’ onFuck fake friends!We don’t take L’s, we just make M’sWhile y'all follow, we just make trendsI’m right back to work when that break ends, yeah.

Everyone else in the precinct effectively has some kind of life, something outside of work. In my own personal headcanons, Tina is married, Chris is a father, Hank is babysitting Connor now that he works there. (no one with these muses has to agree to these I was just trying to flesh out the world Gavin is involved in) Everyone but Gavin at the office seems to have some sort of family or closeness outside of work. Gavin, however, does not. He’s given everything he can to this job, his career is everything to him and he uses it to keep people at bay once again. He is absolutely a very intelligent and driven man underneath all of his issues, and he’s smart enough to be bothered by the fact that he feels incredibly lonely. Yet, instead of changing, he once again just delves into his work, using anger as a means to guard himself claiming that he just needs his privacy, wants to focus on his career, trying to use his hunger to advance his career as a means to put himself above his coworkers.

Yeah, and I don’t like talkin’ to strangersSo get the fuck off me, I’m anxiousI’m tryna be cool, but I may just go ape shitSay “Fuck y'all!” to all of y'all facesIt changes though now that I’m famousEveryone knows how this lifestyle is dangerousBut I love it, the rush is amazin’Celebrate nightly and everyone ragesI found how to cope with my angersI’m swimmin’ in moneySwimmin’ in liquor, my liver is muddyBut it’s all good, I’m still sippin’ this bubblyThis shit is lovely, this shit ain’t random, I didn’t get luckyMade it right here ‘cause I’m sick with it, cuddyThey all take the money for grantedBut don’t want to work for it—tell me now, isn’t it funny? (Nah)

I really really think that Gav actually has anxiety and depression as a result of his trauma. This isn’t made very stereotypically obvious as he uses his sort of brutality and anger to overcompensate and impress people. But he can’t stand silence. He tends to bury that anxiety beneath his anger so he can more “safely” express it as “Fuck you”s and so on. Coping with his feelings via alcohol, fighting, looking for an adrenaline rush. He’s absolutely reckless sometimes both because he doesn’t care, and because he absolutely thinks he’s smart enough to get away with it. The success he’s achieved thus far isn’t something he ever places on luck no matter what, it’s the one thing he holds firm on that he worked hard for and he will without a doubt drag you if you’re not willing to put the time into your craft or goals to achieve it.

Yeah, lonely nights I laid awakePray to Lord my soul to takeMy heart’s become too cold to breakKnow I’m great, but I’m broke as hellHavin’ dreams that I’m foldin’ cakeAll my life I’ve been told to waitBut I'ma get it now, yeah, it’s no debate.

The detective has spent a lot of time on his own, that’s no surprise and I’ve probably overstated it at this point. The nights he doesn’t go out looking for a fight or fuck are… much worse honestly. He drinks himself into sleeping after a night of blasting music, screaming and howling into the night, breaking things and punching walls. Knowing full well he’s exempt from noise complaints being filed because of the landlord. He tries to do anything to drown out the noise in his head. Reed is completely aware of how cold he is, it keeps him safe but he’s absolutely broken up about it, although he’d never admit it and tries never to show it. Emotions have never been “safe” for Gavin to show, he’s been screamed at relentless inches from his face for it as a child, for crying for being sad, for being a child. Always pushed aside, never made a priority until much later in his life, until he self-sabotaged that too. Now that he’s been on his own for so long he’s not stopping for anything anymore, he’s going for what he wants and only what he wants even if it destroys him. He is angry and wounded about his past still and wants to hurt people because of it, wants to take it out on them, despite knowing it’s not really their fault. It’s just another unhealthy outlet.

ASSHOLE. - HOOLIGAN CHASE. (TW: FOR DRUG MENT.)

Baby, I’m a bad boy, I might hurt youI need a therapist and a perc too[…] I ain’t got no drugs, I’m turnin’ to an asshole

This song effectively encompasses everything about Gavin’s front. It’s a lot more vulgar and Horny than the other songs on his playlist, the entire beat just radiates his energy and so do some really key lyrics. Reed, as stated before, tends to warn people that he’s an asshole when he’s gotten into relationships as a means of omitting guilt “when” it goes wrong and to keep himself safe. Despite being a cop now, Gav’s nose wasn’t always clean for lack of a better phrase. (While he’s mostly clean now he narrowly avoided getting into quite a lot of trouble.) While he’s aware he needs some form of professional help subconsciously, he’s far too afraid to get it for himself and doesn’t really see a point as he views himself a bit like a lost cause.

#tw: drug mention #// drug mention #this is so long oh my god im sorry #but also thank you for letting me scream abt this man #missioncoded #* [ out of character. ] » ⟨ 𝙙𝙪𝙢𝙗 𝙤𝙛 𝙖𝙨𝙨. 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩. ⟩#* [ asks. ] » ⟨ 𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙙’𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩? ⟩#* [ headcanon. ] » ⟨ 𝘿𝙋𝘿 > 𝙤𝙛𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙨 > 𝙙𝙚𝙩. 𝙜𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣 𝙛. 𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙙. ⟩

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Tomato Soup and Lemon Zest: Touche, Pussy Cat!

Rating: Teen

Chapters: 5/5

ao3 fanfic 1 - 2 - 3 - 4- 5

NOTES: "I'm just tryna get my head around, wtf is happening *clap clap, clap*" "I'm just tryna get my head around, wtf is happening *clap clap, clap*" - lol

I was reminded of OK Go for some reason.Did anyone get the reference in the title? No? Ok...

That's a wrap!Well.. ok that's a lie. I'm probably gonna do drabbles for this and make it a series. But for now, a break, I've got to finish Maid for It and Charming Spell first.In the meantime, I hope you enjoy! Please leave reviews!

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It had now been 2 months of constant training. Nathaniel was already starting to become toned. He was gaining endurance and strength he'd never heard of - though, they still didn't meet the athletic standard - he was at a good place where he could probably excel in a P.E. class. And his teacher noticed, too.

He often hid behind other students so that the teacher would forget about him long enough to last through to changing time without doing a thing. Recently he was confident enough to give the activities and sports a shot. He wasn't half bad. Not skilled, but not trailing behind his team while chasing a ball and wheezing. Not strategic, but not standing frozen like a deer in headlights waiting for the other team to steal the ball. Adrien was his only issue. When he was on the opposing side he was nervous and when he was on the same side he preferred to pass everything to Adrien and just watch. It was far too stressful knowing Adrien was watching him play… and he was watching a lot.

Nathaniel had achieved a lot with his dedication. It was time to move on to the main goal. Fencing.

"I'm proud of you, Nath," Chat handed half of his baton over to Nathaniel, "You're finally ready."

Nathaniel smiled shyly, studying the baton in his hands. "Yeah, well, I'm not close to the finish line as far as my coordination goes."

"That's what I'm here for," Chat smiled at him in a caring way Nathaniel wasn't familiar with.

"Right?" Chat continued, "Otherwise you could've done all of this on the internet."

Nathaniel shook his head. "No, I wouldn't have stuck to this if it had been from the internet. The only reason I'm trying is because it's you- I mean because you're- Imeanitsnoteverydayasuperheroofferstojustshowyouhowtofightand-"

Chat laughed. "I get it, you love me, nothing to be shy about."

When Nathaniel stopped to gawk at him, Chat swallowed hard and began to regret the existence of his mouth.

"Oh. Uhh.. I, um sorry, I didn't know you actually…?"

Nathaniel stopped Chat nervously. "No, it's fine! You just caught me off guard, oh was that a joke? AHAHAHAHAHA!"

"Yeah…" Chat's smile was strained, and his smile was stiff, "A joke."

"Anyway…" Nathaniel tried to hide his disappointment.

"Right, back to stance."

Chat Noir moved Nathaniel around again until he was positioned correctly. Nathaniel tried moving forward as instructed.

"You're putting too much weight on one side and you're leading with the wrong foot," Chat stood behind Nathaniel, trying to help him shift his weight and grabbing his wrist to raise the staff higher.

Nathaniel tried again. He got the leading foot right but his balance was even worse.

"Try to be on the balls of your feet instead of your toes."

Chat continued to give Nathaniel the best advice he could until he finally was alright at it.

"I feel like a crab," Nathaniel finally said.

Chat laughed, "Yeah, I know.. And look you have red hair too."

"Not all crabs are red, you know," Nathaniel pulled at his bangs to stare at them.

"I know…"

"There are purple ones too."

"You've got purple pants on."

Nathaniel glared down at his pants. "Oh my god, you're right. I'm an actual crab. How many nicknames am I gonna get? Tomato, Little Red Riding Hood, now what… Mr. Krabs?"

"Now, now, don't get crabby about it," Chat grinned.

Nathaniel shot daggers at Chat. "Teach me how to fight already so I can kick your ass!"

Chat shot his hands up defensively. "Hey, I thought you liked puns?"

"I never told you that…" Nathaniel squinted at Chat.

"Ah, nevermind, you're right… I must've been thinking of Ladybug or something. Hey, but, aren't nicknames kinda nice, though? They're cute… well except for Mr. Krabs, but trust me that's not gonna be one of them. Maybe Krabby Patty."

"No, that's… No. And, maybe they would be cute, except that no one ever asks me. They just start calling me something, and my quiet ass doesn't have the guts to say anything about it.."

Chat stepped closer to Nathaniel. "You're right, I never asked either, I'm sorry. Is it alright if I-"

"No no no, it's too late now. I think it'd be better if I thought of one for you," Nathaniel tapped the staff on his chin.

"People call me Banana Hair," Chat suggested.

"Mmmm… no, I'll think of my own, thanks. How about, Lemon?"

"Noooo… I do not want to be named after smut fics," Chat cringe.

Nathaniel poked Chat's chest with the staff. "It's not my fault that's the first thing that crossed your mind. Normal people think of fruit when they hear the word 'lemon'."

"Oh, they think about fruit alright…"

"Oh my god. Listen, I happen to know someone who's nickname is Lemon, and I happen to think it sounds perfectly fine. I'm sticking with Lemon, and you can't convince me otherwise."

"But, well just don't say it in front of anybody. I don't wanna sound like some sexual beast."

Nathaniel snorted. "And we wouldn't want that, now would we?" He tugged at Chat's bell until it came slightly down and jingled.

Chat froze. What the fuck was happening? Chat Noir was supposed to be his safe haven, now Nathaniel was growing bold. Was his newfound confidence because of his new physique?

"I-"

"You're the one who's been flirting and teasing this whole time."

Chat Noir scratched the nape of his neck. "You're right, I deserve that type of name then."

"No, you don't deserve it in that sort of way. You deserve it because you deserve a nickname. I don't mind the flirts…"

Chat blinked at him. He smirked. "Really? You're not so bad yourself- now let's get back to that ass-kicking you told me you were gonna do."

After a little over a month, learning grip - though Chat informed him it would be different with an actual rapier - and how to loosen his wrists without making them weak, it didn't take him long to get used to attacking and parrying.

"Well, you're ready to do a drill. Is this the part where you kick my ass?" Chat lowered his stance and pointed his staff to Nathaniel.

Nathaniel smiled. "I guess we'll have to find out."

Chat waited for Nathaniel to advance and their staffs clashed. Nathaniel swung with practiced movements. Chat picked up the pace, stepping forward and driving Nathaniel back. The wind blew and Nathaniel noticed a small poster of Adrien Agreste falling at his feet. He glanced down at it to avoid stepping on it.

"Don't take your eyes off me," Chat said.

Nathaniel twitched, blocking an attack and ignoring the poster. He kept a steady gaze on Chat Noir.

Chat looked back to make sure Nathaniel didn't start wandering near the fountain, but Nathaniel's staff collided into Chat Noir's and slipped just enough to graze Chat's side.

Chat stopped, stunned. Both of them stared down at Nathaniel's extended arm, going through the gap between Chat's arm and his waist.

"I thought you said not to take your eyes away, Lemon." Nathaniel grinned up at Chat.

Chat bit his lip. "Touche, Red."

Nathaniel stood back. "I guess that's the closest I'll get to any sort of ass-kicking. It was probably luck though."

"Maybe," Chat maneuvered his staff until Nathaniel somehow ended up on the ground, "But don't let your guard down."

Nathaniel smiled ear-to-ear at his cellphone below his desk. Several pictures of Chat Noir had been secretly saved to his photo album. Class wasn't really being taught at that moment, students were working in class assignments and wandering around. It was time to add a new member to the sketchbook hall of fame.

He sketched a basic outline, adding no details but a rough tail and ears. He started with the eyes, which had a gaze that could kill, somewhat familiar. Of course it was familiar, he'd known Chat Noir for months.

He took a moment to take in Chat's mouth, which he should've had memorized by now from all the times Chat teased right up in his face, but just barely touched skin.

He finally moved to his nose, which he always saved for last. He drew what he could from what showed beneath his mask.

He looked back at the composure of the face. He furrows his eyebrows. Something…

He drew the shape of the head and started to move on the the hair before he froze.

"Oh my god." Nathaniel muttered.

It was unmistakeable. He'd drawn every shape perfectly. Those strokes weren't foreign to him, his hand knew those lines.

Adrien climbed the steps to Nathaniel. Without lifting his head and with his hands casually stuffed in his pocket he asked, "What are you drawing this time, Nath?"

Nathaniel's finger twitched around his pencil. He glanced back down at his paper, then back up at Adrien. He stood up slowly.

"Adrien… you're… Chat N-"

Adrien's face dropped as he flinched and within a split second he sprung into action. He strode forward, with a subtle wave of his hand and a few quick shushes. He placed his lifted hand on the collar of Nathaniel's blazer, the index of his other hand found itself touching Nathaniel's lips before he moved it out of the way and planted a kiss. It all happened so quickly Nathaniel had no time to react. He could do nothing more than simply let Adrien take another heartbeat of a moment before pulling away, and listen to the delicate chirp of lips parting echoing in his ears.

Adrien remained breaths away, gazing into Nathaniel's eyes. "Touche, Red."

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Omar Anthony Brings The Thunder!

Hey, BT fans! We have a special guest on board today. You may know him for lighting it up on the Thunder's roster this season, giving us reason to believe that he's one of the best two-way players in the game. Is he ready? Let's hope so!

Niani Blanco: You all ready?

Omar Anthony: Let’s get it.

It’s crazy how life completely switches up on us. When we booked the interview, you weren’t an All Star this year, now here we are! Twitter was just up in arms since many feel as if you were snubbed, and now you’ll be replacing DeMarcus Cousins for Team LeBron. This is your 5th time, correct? How do you feel about that?

Yeah, that’s crazy. I always enjoy the energy of the guys when we’re brought together for the fans and given the opportunity to just have fun and do what we love. It really surprised me when Boog got injured but he’s a tough guy and I know he’ll come through. As far as the timing and the way things happened, it is what it is. It’s a great experience and I’m thankful but I’m still focused on working with my guys to cap this season off the best way we can.

Speaking of All Star weekend, the break is coming and I’m seeing that a lot of players are exhausted, injuries are knocking players out one by one and there’s been a lot of drama in the league this season, so I’m guessing this time-off will do everyone good. How are you feeling these days, O?

[Omar shakes his head, experiencing a moment of obvious discomfort.] I've been there, you know? So it's a bit of a challenge seeing it happen so suddenly and like I said, the timing is just wild. I don't pay too much attention to the extra commotion that goes down though. It's straight ball for me, and it's all about the game so i'm feeling good. Feelin' healthy. I'm in a good frame of mind these days, just tryna keep developing as a player.

That’s good to hear! With your past injury history, how have you been able to stay so healthy, but still play at your fullest potential this season?

For me it's about having a way with balance. Making sure I'm not exceeding my physical abilities and still training for maximum endurance and just truly challenging myself to play as safe and competitive as possible at my position.

Two of the worst injuries to happen this season came from the Celtics/Cavs season opener with Gordon Hayward, in which we seen his leg collapse on national television. Then at the end of the January, Isaiah Canaan, suffered a gruesome injury that displayed his foot going in a completely different direction. It’s been over 3 years since your injury that ultimately shook Team USA and every audience watching. As these type of injuries happen, players slowly but surely get written off in regards to making a comeback. Fortunately for you, you’ve come back to the league stronger and you’re in a rebuilding phase, I believe. Do you have any advice for players that are facing this type of adversity?

Uh yeah, I mean it’s always a tough place to be in at the beginning of it all. Especially with guys like Gordon and Isaiah. You’re gonna have days when you don’t see or feel the progression, days when you’re ready to sit out but you have to keep pushing. Believing in the process is very important and trusting your greater purpose is the main focus and ultimately what’s gonna put you back on the grid of where you need to be. I had to get used to the fact that it was my time to sit back and re-adjust, learn some things about myself and the game and apply that to the transitions that followed my injury.

Hopefully, any player that is going through an injury as gruesome as those can take your story as an example and follow suit. You’ve been able to handle that life hurdle and completely turn your life around for the better. You now play for Oklahoma City, which a lot of people didn’t see coming, including myself. On July 6th, the Pacers and Thunder came to an agreement that would send you to OKC, sending Victor Oladipo and Domantas Sabonis to Indy. What was your honest reaction when you found out you’d be leaving Indiana to join Russell Westbrook?

I was real excited and hopeful for us as a team. I wasn't really focusing on what it could do for me as an individual at the beginning. I was more so looking forward to what I could bring to the franchise and what motives I could help commit to with the team. And I mean since, it's been real fun. The livelihood of my guys and all the energy brought forward is inspiring, truly inspiring.

Once everyone found out that Carmelo Anthony would be apart of the squad as well, there was so much hype behind the team, rightfully so. But with praise comes criticism, so there was also talk from fans that they didn’t feel as if you all would work together well because of ball-hogging. Did you ever doubt success coming from this team because of the dominant players you play alongside of?

We're all considered elite athletes and that comes with a lot of responsibility. Having an identity was one of the biggest things I felt we had to wrap our heads around as individual players and those guys are awesome. They're really awesome players but I think for me, it just came to digesting the fact that it wasn't about lead scoring. In this league, you can't generate all of your energy around just scoring, you have to be able to bring that 1 on 1 defense and all-team defense in order to make plays count because it doesn't do us much good if we're all scoring but allowing the opposing team to put up just as many points on the board. So that's a lesson I learned as I became apart of such a new and freshly established nucleus. I wouldn't say I ever doubted the success, but I knew that it would take a lot more than putting up points from each of us and I think we've all done a great job by buying into the overall growth of the team.

That’s interesting. I’ve seen you guys play plenty of times now, and it seems that your role on your team is different than what you’re accustomed to. Many see it as you playing Robin to Russell, who is seen as Batman. Being that you come from being the number one man, the go-to, how does it feel to know that, you’re more of a second option?

[Omar cracks into a grin before chuckling.] Um, people are gonna call it how they see things and many have different opinions on that. I've always wanted to be a player who could manage all things, and becoming apart of OKC meant being able to step up defensively. I want to be one of the most complete players in this league and you know, that's hard to find. Guys don't really want to attack or approach being able to cultivate a victory by doing more than just putting up numbers. In helping to put this team together, I know I'm not going to be a guy that's gonna be able to score every night so my approach is, what else can I do to take else to the next level? You know, especially playing alongside a guy as dominant as Westbrook.

It’s a real question to ask because we seen Kyrie stand as LeBron’s Robin in Cleveland, and he came to a point where he was tired of that and wanted to run his own show. You had your own team in Indiana, but you couldn’t attract the caliber of talent that you needed to be a threat to LeBron in the East. You’re on a better team now that more so belongs to Westbrook, so do you feel as if you’ll ever get tired of that? Do you feel as if you deserve to go to a team and have that organization build around you rather than use you as a bonus to another player?

Nah, I'm not an 'all about me' or 'look what I can do' type of player. It means more to me to be capable of adapting to any team, but I ain't tryna team hop. [He chuckles.] For now, OKC is a great place to build the characteristics that will brand me as an overall player in the future. Right now, I'm proving myself as someone who can keep control from all aspects of the ball and wherever I'm needed on the court to execute each play, that's where I'll be until the momentum is built and it's time to take it to another level.

Cool. I respect that! I really do. We know way too many players that are okay with playing with whomever’s at the top at the time, simply lucking up for a ring. But we can save that for another conversation! Um.. (Niani dramatically stacked a batch of papers together in front of her after subliminally dropping several hints.)

Let me ask you this and then we can move onto something else. Do you feel like your play will be overshadowed even more since you are in the West, which is clearly the more competitive conference? I personally feel as if it will and the All Star selection is a great example of that. For that reason, while I do believe that you should be an All Star, I understood why you weren’t. There is a lot of talent in the West and unfortunately, everyone can’t be acknowledged in the manner that they believe they should. When there’s so much talent on one side of the league, you also have to consider the current record. And at the time of the voting selection, OKC wasn’t in the best position, considering how great of a team you have. Will any of this be motivation to go even harder next season to convince fans and the media that you’re All Star starter material?

[Omar laughs, immediately catching on to the insinuations.] Oh absolutely and that's a great question. Even while I don't limit myself to an All Star pick, it was something that stood out to the medias and eventually to myself. It definitely sucks in the beginning to not have that same appeal but it is just the genesis and if this season has taught me anything, it's taught me the maturity of my game. I came from Indy carrying and now I'm stacking up defensively just to create the balance between. So it is very motivating and I hope to create that atmosphere for the rest of the season into the next.

Switching gears here! You are one of the few players that are known to have a close friendship with F Kevin Durant. He received immaculate hate for deciding to leave Oklahoma City to join the Warriors in Golden State. What were your thoughts when he shocked the world on the 4th of July?

It’s always been great energy with KD and when you’re homies off the court, you have an understanding of one another and what’s best for him couldn’t be determined by anyone but him. I didn’t really have an opinion about it then and I really don’t now, it’s just good to see him doing what makes him happy.

And I can attest to that. Throughout the whole process of him transitioning there, he has always cited you as one of the few that continued to show him love regardless of the move, which is dope to see.

It’s funny because it seems as if you two are in the running for DPOY. [Defensive Player of the Year] No shade, but I feel like I have to hide my pen because you might finesse and actually steal it from me! (She chuckled.) Knowing that you two are cool, it’s hilarious watching you play against each other. You both have stepped it up tremendously on the defensive side, but I don’t know... You were cooking him! You son’d him on that steal early in the game and he literally came back swooped the ball back. If you’re watching and aren’t up to date to what I’m referring to, the Thunder played in Golden State on Tuesday night. Omar finished with 38 on 11/23 shooting, while KD put up 33 in his 125-105 loss. What I love to see when you guys play is that you both feed off of each other’s energy. It’s weird! Late in the third though, you caught another steal and hit Slim with a little crossover and the step-back dime. As you know, I’m a person that lives to clown him as much as possible, so it’s no surprise that I loved every minute of it! Is it simply your competitive nature that drives you to play even harder against guys you’re cool with?

All love. [Omar nods and makes brief eye contact with Niani before beginning to laugh at her latest remark.] When the energy is crazy and you both have that competitive nature, it’s always a fun and interesting ball game. [He paused, recalling the night against the Warriors as Niani caught the audience up.] It’s definitely a live experience and considering we both love demanding the handle and overall control on defense, it was bound to be a great play on play competition. KD is tragic when it comes to driving and getting in the paint to knock it down, so I knew what I had to do. My work was cut out for me and I know he knew his was too and it we gave each other the challenge we needed and gave the fans a show, so it was good energy. We’ve practiced together in off season before and even caught a couple workouts so having to see each other on opposing teams was just a fun experience and match-up.

You guys definitely put on a show, but in the end, OKC was able to comfortably close out in Oakland.

With that being said, I feel like this question is necessary since we’ve talked about players such as LeBron, Kevin and Kyrie, all of which have made bold moves regarding their futures in the league. This conversation has been debated heavily over the years, especially when LeBron chose to leave Cleveland to play for the Heat. Do you feel that it’s fair that teams can make these decisions where they move and/or add players in any way that they feel and nothing is questioned. But when a player makes his own decision for himself, he is then looked at as disloyal. You as a player that requested a trade through your agent, do you feel that it’s fair to you and to other players to receive that kind of backlash when you simply want to be in the best situation possible?

Um, that’s difficult to say. It’s really a gamble and you know, as players we’re focused on developing into high priority prospects who are able to pull others into perspective when we’re ready for change. So whether it’s individually feeling unchallenged or the franchise is opening up to a change and you just don’t fit the transition, there’s more to it for everyone than what’s discussed in public media. All things considered though, it can be unfair but it’s life, it’s the game and there’s ins and outs to all of it. We just have to demand what we want most out of it.

Very true. As a fan and a part of the media, I hate how the moral status and characters of players are criticized simply off of a professional move. You received some flack from your Indiana following towards the end of last season, do you regret the way you handled the trade request in Indiana? You reportedly let them know days before the draft, leaving them with little to no time to prepare.

That’s what it is. I feel like no matter how much we put up, it’ll never be good enough for those who don’t understand or can’t really relate to what we’re trying to do more so as players than anything else. Reciprocity has to come in somewhere and that’s anywhere in life. You wouldn’t stay at a company that can’t surround you with a team to help it succeed, right? No matter how great their appreciation presumes to be, at some point you have and weigh the options. That’s how it is. I don’t have any regrets. We had conversations about the future of the team and I stayed in the loop to prove my dedication but I think P [Indiana Pacers' GM, Kevin Pritchard] knew that it was time. It may not have seemed like the best time but everything happens for a reason and I felt good about the decision to move on.

That’s a great way to look at it. I feel like no matter how many times players explain it, the fans will still never be able to truly understand. Which is fine. The hate comes with the territory. I do believe though that the fans are seemingly forgiving so I feel once the wound isn’t so fresh, they’ll be more open to decisions like those.

Your first game back in Indy was on December 13th. How was it playing back at Bankers Life Fieldhouse as a visitor for the first time? Was the crowd reception you received a surprise?

[He nods in agreement to her starting statement.] Um, it was great for me. You can’t ever really predict the crowd to be receptive of you when you’re playing for a different team but it was still a good night. All smiles from my end. It was great to see everyone, from players to training staff to coaches. You know, I enjoyed my time being with those guys but life goes on. Players move on, teams move on and it is what it is.

You clearly earned the warm welcome despite your new home now, so I’m glad that the fans and everyone there was able to show you that they do appreciate everything you’ve done for that team and the city.

Moving forward! Alright, I’m excited to ask you about this! You recently collaborated with Nike and PlayStation to create what you like to call the PG-2 PlayStation Colorways. These limited edition kicks will be available officially Saturday. I seen the previews and let me just say that...I wear an 8 1/2. So if you could slide my pair through, that would be dope. I wasn’t gonna go through this show today without putting that out there. Matter of fact...hold on.. (Niani playfully joked with the athlete while speedily jotting down her shoe information on a loose leaf sheet of paper.) I wrote it down for ya, just so you don’t forget! But seriously though, how did this idea even come about?

Oh yeah, definitely.

[Omar laughs, shaking his head while rubbing both hands together as Niani continues.] So you like an 8 1/2 solid or what? I know things get a lil' complicated for y’all women. Size 7 in the heels, size 8 in sneakers. [He raises his hands up in defense and shrugs his shoulders jokingly.] I just gotta be sure, but I got you. I’m a gamer at heart, always been a gamer and I wanted something exclusively for the hoopers who ball hard and have a love for the game whether on the court or with the controller. Unlike the PG1, it’s a lot more free-formed and creative collaboration but it still provides the same traction and forefoot security, it’s just a gamer exclusive.

Seeeeee! (Her index finger directly pointed in Omar’s direction in a joyous manner.) I knew I liked you! You’re smart! I’m a 8 1/2 solid, though. I’ll be waiting on my care package.

The collaboration is super nice. I’ve looked into the concept and I’m obviously a fan, and I’m sure the shoes will gravitate to both NBA fans but gamers as well. Like I said the P2s drop February 10th, this Saturday. And they’re going for $110 for a pair. Let me know if you guys will be copping those this weekend. Ladies, if you’re still lost on a gift idea, there you go!

Okay, so, I asked my followers if they had any questions for you today and we have a little time to ask maybe one or two. Is that cool with you?

[Omar triggered both of his hand towards the filming device as Niani announced the drop of his second signature shoe.] Go for it! It’s always interesting to hear from the audience.

Alright, great! You have a question from Twitter user - @MP2FO. He says, “I’m a huge OA fan. What I wanna know is what is O’s favorite play of himself so far. From either the Pacer era or now in Thunder.” Okay, so that’s a really nice question. Basically, he wants to know what play stands out in your mind the most? What play of yours can you still relive over and over and be the most proud about?

Ah man, that’s hard. That is a good question, though. Aight, so you might consider this a cop-out but honestly, my best plays have been on the defensive side of the ball so far this season. Every play that I could prove myself to be a consistent rebounder and pass deflector is my favorite because it’s satisfying to accomplish very different handles than I’m used to against even more competitive teams.

(Nia paused, slitting her eyes at Omar to express her disinterest in his response.) O, now you know! You’re a smart man though. You knew the side eye was coming! I’ll give you that.

Okay, we can do one more! Hm...alright. Next one is from user - @mare_bear_baum. So, she asked, “Now that your family has moved to Oklahoma City, what is your favorite thing to do there?” That’s a good question. Do you even get out of the house?! (She playfully chuckled.)

[Omar folded his arms in front of him, laughing at her reaction to his simple reply.] It’s the truth!

Not for nothing, OKC is probably one of the chillest cities I’ve ever lived. I’m still able to do what I’ve done elsewhere so that’s mostly fishing, catch a couple date nights with the wife when I can but it’s mostly practicing and tryna sleep when I can. Sleeping is probably my favorite thing to do because it’s only that third month and it’s challenging. [He smirked, shaking his head as he reflected on the thought of his third born.]

Being that I have an old soul, I can appreciate the fact that you just gave an old man ass answer. It’s all good though! No look.. (Dropping her face into her lap, Niani burst into abrupt laughter once O revealed his simple, but surprising interests.) Fishing and sleeping — alright now, Grandpa! You go, Gramps!

Aside from your lit lifestyle, you and your wife, Kimiliana, did welcome a gorgeous babygirl named Onyx! Have you been put on diaper duty yet?

That’s how it is now. [Reclining back into his chair, Omar placed his open hands against the table and nodded in agreement with Niani.] I don’t think I’m there yet though. I don’t get the naps like Gramps. [He began laughing.] It’s either a late sleep in or I pass out early and with two toddlers, that ain’t too often.

But you know it. She takes care of the feeding so when I’m home, it’s like a cycle. She feeds and burps while I chill and do what I have to do then we alternate and I change the diapers, get her bathed up and back to sleep. That’s all she do anyways so we have that in common so far. [He chuckles.]

I love that your family life is such a priority to you guys. It’s so easy to get caught into other aspects once you receive an opportunity such as playing in the NBA. So to focus on the wellbeing of those around you and that time that can’t be replaced is awesome.

I have some advice though! From one parent to another, please appreciate them at this point. Appreciating them spitting up on you and you having to wake up in the middle of the night. Once they gain their personalities, attitudes and some sort of independence, it’s a wrap. You’re gonna miss these simpler days! I know you have toddlers now, but even at their ages, it’s still tolerable. Now, when the twins hit 6...7? That’s when the madness begins.

You’re doing well with opening up and I’d like to keep that going. Because you rarely give interviews of this caliber and you’re one of the more quieter players in the league, I want fans to get to know you as much as possible while i have you here. So, if you could, give me about 10 things about yourself that most people wouldn’t know about you. They can be about anything. 10 facts about Omar Anthony, and go!

I definitely look forward to valuing them as best as I possibly can. They’re the greatest part of me as far as I see it and you’re right? The time will eventually come when they aren’t as receptive of my love or guidance so I have to give as much of it and enjoy as much of who they are now as possible.

[Now more comfortable with the layout of the interview, Omar leans forward again and strokes the extension of his beard as he ponders the challenge Niani places before him.] Hm.. 10 things.. I make a mean lemon garlic chicken and rice. I love carrot cake. My favorite color is red. I am an awful soccer player. I played the tuba in middle school. I binge watch almost every show on Netflix. I match my boxers and my socks. I wanted to be a marine biologist when I was a kid. I like reading. And the PG2s drop Saturday, February 10th and the first 50 gamers to drop forty in Park against me and the homies get their first pair free.

Okay, that was good! Let’s address a few things though. (She briefly nodded in agreement.) My girl Kimi hasn’t died from any food-related illnesses so i guess I can take you up on that. I couldn’t picture you as a decent soccer player in any lifetime, so that really isn’t a shocker. What I need to see pictures of is you playing the tuba. That just sounds like roasting material and let me just say... I’m all here for it. As far as anything else, nothing surprises me at this point with you. Matching your socks with your boxers? I don’t wanna call you an old man again...but I’m sure that’s some stuff my Abuelito would be on. But I’m gonna let you live!

I have about two more questions for you and then I’m gonna let you go about your day because you do have a huge game tonight. So, this will be your 8th year in the league. What I wanna know is, years from now, when this is all said and done, when your number is retired and you’re done playing. How would you want fans to view you? You could take this in many directions. You can say how you want to be remembered as a player, as a person or even both. And with that, do you feel as if you’re currently making the right steps in order to be seen that way or do you still have ways to go?

Haha, you stay with the jokes!

That’s deep. Overall, I would definitely want anyone who’s a fan of the game to remember me for who I am as a player. That’s what I’m working at now in every practice, shoot-around, drills off and on the court, that’s what I’m striving for. To be able to sit back and appreciate the excellence of completion in being an all around player. I wanna be one of the top defensive handlers who can still put up numbers when it’s time to, catch rebounds, intercept quick passes, the whole nine. I wanna retire a complete player with aggression and respect earned offensively and defensively. I’m on the right path but there will always be room for growth and development until I get there.

I’d like to think that I can easily switch it up.

I have to agree that you’re on the right path. I’ve watched you play for the last couple of years and I’ve seen so many say things like your prime is wasting away and your best years are behind you. And I couldn’t believe this is what the narrative was of you, considering how young you were and the amount of talent that you’ve displayed. While I feel like this is going to be your best season so far, I don’t even think we’ve seen your prime years yet. I feel like as older players start to leave the league, we’re going to be able to see what guys like yourself have to bring to the table on the big stage.

So, I know that your main focus as of now is to finish out the season as a higher seed and to make a huge playoff run in hopes to compete for a championship. But outside of basketball, do you have anything else that you’d like to dabble into in the near future? Acting, modeling, music, business ventures? What can we expect to see from you?

Yeah, definitely. The momentum has built up from the days behind my injury up until now and it’s a lot of strategy and leveling that has to take place for my full potential to make a play but I’ll get there for sure. It’s a blessing to have people like yourself who have motivated me through and through by just observing the energy and drive I tried to push out after I came back in 2015.

Um, I don’t know. I kinda got tunnel vision right now but I mean other than the obvious, I am looking forward to representing Kimiliana’s new men’s collection she’s been working hard on for us. That’s something I’m always happy to be apart of because she’s always finding new ways to help me express myself and I can appreciate that. Other than that, we’ve been putting these vlogs together for the fans just so they can see a little bit behind the scenes of our lives. You know, get to know us a little better just so they can learn how to normalize us again and realize that we ain’t much different from them. That’ll be on YouTube and Facebook. And a ring. Oh I said that already, huh? [He laughs while clapping his hands together.] Yeah, a ring. Rather sooner than later.

Yes. Yes.. I’m positively sure that you already said that. (Shaking her head at his continued acknowledgment of his ultimate goal, Niani was able to playfully laugh off at the repetition.) I get it though! The ring is definitely coming.

Well, well, well, O! I don’t know about you but it was a pleasure having you here today. I’m well aware that you often deny most interviews that are requested of you, so I’m very thankful that you decided to sign on for my shenanigans. I didn’t expect you to get this open with me, but I’m glad that you felt comfortable enough with doing so on this platform. You have anything else to add? Did I miss anything?

[Smiling, O shook his head and held his fist up to hers to initiate a quick dap.] I think you covered everything, boss. I appreciate you asking me to come on and asking some really great questions. It’s cool to see a spin on sports media with a female host. Keep doing your thing, Nia B and thanks for having me!

Aw, I try, I try! (Granting him with the action of solidarity using her fist, Niani continued to close out their highly-anticipated sit down.) All love!

Alright, that’s a wrap, guys! If you’re wanting to see Omar Anthony and his team ball out tonight and you’re in the area, you can catch them at the Staples Center tonight. They are visitors to the Los Angeles Lakers! For those at home, you can tune in on TNT with the Inside the NBA crew. His shoes with PlayStation, the P2’s, drop Saturday! Be sure to cop those. Omar will be starting in next week’s All Star game as well, you won’t wanna miss that. For anything else, make sure you’re following all of his social media handles that are displayed below. O, it’s been real! Best of luck to you in everything you have coming up. I hope that you’ll be back really soon! Enjoy this weather while you’re out here.

Guys, that is all for Ball Talk with Nia B. today. I will see you guys tomorrow to discuss the trade deadline moves. Enjoy the rest of this Friday-eve!

Oh absolutely. Again, I appreciate you having me. [O held his hand up to initiated a deuce to the camera filming the two of them.] See ya, guys!

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Episode 7 “a clusterf*ck of paranoia”- Daisy

WEFUC K WE SDFEDSX JUST VTOTED OUT KAREN FUCK AND I'M TRYNA RALLY OUR SPIRTS SBACK UP AND THEN ISAAC STARTS REMOVIN PEOPLE'S GRASSY ASSES FUCK FUKFCJD FUFK FUCK WE FEDS THIS HAS GOT TO BE A FUCKING MERBE A MERGE AT 14 HOLY GOLLY GOSH GOOD MOLLY MOSH WHAT THE FUCKDJX FUCK FUCK FKPDSOF I NEEDED MORE TIME FRIFODKF FCK

(a little bit later)

I'VE BEEN DYING TO MEET JOHNNY AND I FINALLY DID AND HE'S FUCKING EVERYTHING I'VE EVER FUCKING WANTED IN LIFE HE CALLS ME HOMIE AND I SWEAR TO GOD HE'S NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER FRAT BOY YOU'VE MET HE'S BEAUTIFUL AND GLORIOUS AND I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD WITH HIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO KILL HIM AND STRANGLE HIM BUT I FUCKING LOVE EVERY SECOND OF THE EXPERIENCE I LOVE HOW MUCH I HATE HIM

https://youtu.be/JNaS_mOM3yY

first off rest in peace karen i thought you were supposed to be good since you play so much but.. i suppose the mighty power of the chicken wing is not a force in tumblr survivor. anywho, so we switched like everyone expected but for some reason everyone thought it was a fun idea to freak out and be like "omg is it merge???" "WHATS GOING ON" "I DONT UNDERSTAND" ctfu yall literally knew damn well what was happening. its final 14 like it aint rocket science. as for my tribe, ive said it before and i will say it again - I HATE PURPLE!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! it is just not flattering against my skin tone and that is literally my number one concern at the moment. that might insult those who play this game like its life or death but to me... this is a very big aspect of my luck in the game. every time (literally not even joking) i get some ugly ass color, im fucked thats just the way it is and the weird blue that luca insists is cyan - get a crayon set pls - was working just fine for me! i was slayyyyinngggg without doing anything meaningful which is all that matters to me since its really fun watching people go crazy while i just sit here eating my nuggets in the break room. current thoughts of my tribemates and fellow one worlders: johnny - king of making final 2's and being in a frat. a dumbass who spilled his entire game once we swapped and got ratted out the second he did. stupid stupid stupid! i need him as a number tho so i cant be hasty with my opinions tho so like a 6/10 dana - has a paper to write. thats all i got right now 4/10 l.a. - A LITERAL FUCKING GODDESSSSSSS! all of the rookies should be bowing at her feet for trying so hard to make them safe cause if i was her... they would get a stern talking to and no help at all (plus she can clearly count which is more than i can do). 100000000/10 luca - literally victor next (i dont actually think he is victor but this dude is seriously wack like i just do not understand why he had the need to call me a grandma when im not even that old? like where is the residential hag when i need her zzzz. also he said he likes skype emojis and then used the cactus emoji which victor also uses so clearly something fucked up is happening!!!!!!!!) 1-ish/10 mitchell - fake hoe next (tho i do love the flattery so i guess they are right in saying it gets you everywhere cause ya got a ticket right on the bottom - word of the wise btwwww, next time you play pls stop taking advice from ya eggs cause they clearly do not help just ask karen in prejury hehe) 1-ish/10 ryan - king of all things survivor. how has he not won a ts season.... 10/10 allie - is from florida so either an icon like me or is like cole tbd. as luca said, can "air hump" really well??? not really useful info but thats all i got so next??? aro - im the 1. next. daisy - i hate the smell of flowers :| next jacob - legend was tagged in some nice pictures on facebook recently so he can stay. matt - lmao next willow - our friend willow teas? what comes after 6.gif. next. i really do not like talking to people and sadly i must. tho i just finished this one kdrama and it was like 50 episodes and the dad died literally in the last half hour of the entire show.... im crying i really am HE WAS A GOOD FUCKING PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the world is so cruel and so harsh to the loving but so kind to the evil where did we go wrong :'( PPPPPPPS : [4/18/17, 11:29:35 PM] nancy.sweitzer: shut up trump supporter [4/18/17, 11:29:42 PM] nancy.sweitzer: i have receipts of you supporting trump BB i need some food to watch this with so lets have reward hm?

I'm both so happy and scared about this swap. BLESS ULAWA BEING GONE. THAT WAS THE WORST TRIBE. IT DOESN'T DESERVE TO EXIST. But yeah, a few people came to me and were like you carried that tribe and are amazing, and as nice as that is, YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR IT ON SURVIVOR. Cause now I have a huge target on my back for being a "challenge icon". I do not trust Daisy or Aro at all either so I'm worried they will gun for me, but they are both on the other tribe so that's a plus... Maybe, this one world thing doesn't help me there. Now I have to catch up with Jacob, and the rest of the alliance and see where we all stand. I'm trying to set something up with Johnny as well cause we sort of clicked at the start and I need people.

im too sick to carry on. i cant even see the light im too far gone

Hi MTV welcome to my own private corner of Hell. Seriously I guess my burning desire for some action really warranted this swap that put me in a terrible ass position. I love the One World beach because I can wave to literally every single person I was working with as they wear their Makira buffs with pride and I am stuck with all Rookies and Zak! The only people I know are Zak and Jacob, and Zak threw Daisy's name out and Jacob says he trusts Daisy so I can't even wrangle all my loose allies to form a little alliance. I'm just going to use my social game to earn favor with people like Willow and Allie so that I can maybe survive juuuuuust long enough to make it to the merge and reconnect with my homies. I'm sort of praying for a miracle, but I'm also going to do whatever I can to survive, and if that means throwing Jacob or Zak under the bus then so be it. I am scrambling like eggs in the morning. Hopefully I can convince people to target Aro for his wishy washy nature and because I have planted the seed that he has an idol, and honestly maybe he does, so I smell a blindside coming up, but if they're not willing to budge then I could be a dead boy walken.

Dana mom doesnt approve of the act of sending nudes but like I don't spread em like seeds in a pumpkin patch (like this swap is doing w my alliance tbqh) or anything not everyone gets to see the goods

(a little bit later)

All right binches here's the tea! Daisy has an idol, and is trying to get people to think aro has the idol bc he made up a lie about a fake idol that he doesn't have, which saved his ass a few rounds back, and Jacob and Allie are saying Aro is sketchy. NOW thats not what I like hearing because Aro is my husband and all, so automatically my Worry Senses are tingling as they usually are it would seem. What I'm tryna do is scrape together a me/willow/aro/Matt majority (since allie apparently doesn't trust aro so I can't trust her) but I suck at approaching people so it sucks that dana and Mitchell aren't on my tribe to help me :( but get for being the least experienced vet in tumblr left in this game I think I'm in a moderately decent position

Well Day 2 of NuNuTemoana is quite interesting, I'm starting to create scenarios that will hopefully put me in a good situation. A) NuNuMakira will throw the challenge and vote out Luca or LA and B) I create an alliance with Willow and Allie and we become the swing votes between Jacob/Daisy and Zak/Aro and if Daisy or Aro have idols they're shooting their bullets at each other and I've got a bulletproof vest. Fingers crossed.

I'm gonna model the rest of my game after Cirie bc boy does she have me fucked up seven ways to Sunday right-about-now o'clock Also I'm not gonna be home again after tomorrow until May except for one day in between so this whole new tribe/quickly approaching merge thing is gonna get really sad for me when I randomly just disappear forever :)

The past few days have been a whirlwind. From uncovering that dirty business with Matt to this One World swap, I find myself in a tribe in which I'm not sure if I can stay safe. It hurts that I can't compete in this next immunity too. I trust Johnny/LA, but as far as the rest? Question marks all over. I like Mitchell a lot, still haven't talked with Dana much, I have no clue about Ryan/Lexi but Johnny says Lexi is tight with him. So I'm really not sure what happens if we lose an immunity here, and winning challenges might be my only shot to stay in the game. So what happens next? No clue.

MMMMHMHMHMHMHMHM YES!!! Willow finally spilled the tea which confirmed our suspicions on Karen :))) now alls I need is Lexi to get the fuck out and I can be satisfied by outlasting all the snakes

So I've officially worked my way into an alliance with Allie and Willow, hopefully they're not playing me and we can actually work towards getting out Daisy or Aro. Now Mitchell wants me to get Daisy out so we can rope in Aro and Zak at the merge but I also have somewhat of a relationship with Jacob from nuTemoana and he seems to have a relationship with Daisy so I am hopefully safely in the middle of this tribe and will be deciding this vote, but there's also a large chance I'm gonna get squashed smack dab in the middle. I mean ideally we win immunity and the other tribe can get out LA or Luca which would be great. I need these rookie numbers thinned like the mints so that I have options if I'm in the merge. I have my Doofenshmirtz Evil Inc. Alliance which is Ryan, Mitchell, and Dana, I have nuTemoana which is Johnny, Jacob, Lex, and Ryan, and I have a possible alliance with Allie, Willow, and Mitchell. Preferably I wanna work with Mitchell because I trust him the most so far. But of course none of these numbers I'm running in my head matter if I can't make it until the merge which is crazy to me.

i wasnt successful in covering up my misery. i dont even know why i said i could do it since the only thing on that entire menu (all of the drink choices included) i actually do enjoy is the oreos so who knows what i was thinking. im going to get voted out i really am

tag yourself. im luca saying he cant compete cause they use blue solo cups instead of red solo cups in his country. isaac is la's roommate not letting her use her waterbottle. andrew is ryan only having glass in his house. pippa is matt actually doing this. stefan is willow beating the crap out of me. IM GOING HOME

Well I couldn't get it done today and that's a little disheartening, I definitely feel like I could be in danger and when you have the chance to save yourself and don't do it it sucks. I guess now my focus is on playing this game for like the first time this season honestly, a lot of things are at stake in this tribal, there's idols there's alliances there's tribe swaps, there's beef in this game, and I feel like hopefully I can shift the attention towards Daisy vs. Aro, but there's also a lurking nuMakira alliance that might form and getting an Ulawa out wouldn't do anything in the long run but I need to play to make it so that I'm safe until tomorrow or else there won't even be a long run. I wanted to be in a position where I could run a marathon but instead I'm like running a relay race tribal to tribal. If I get rid of Daisy Jacob may lose trust in me and join a Makira alliance, but also maybe I'll just join the Makira alliance myself? I mean I told myself I would do what it takes to win, my obligations are to myself at this point, not Temoana not Makira, not Vets, but MESELF. Well who knows at this point what's gonna happen, hopefully my plan works.

MATT STFU CALLING ME OUT IN THE MAIN CHAT YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Literally your ass would not be in this game right now if I didn't win the challenge where we counted in our confessional. The plan was in play, you were going to be gone, we had the numbers, and now you're on a tribe where it's minority veterans, so hopefully Allie and Willow aren't idiots, and they just take out Matt because he's kind of an arrogant prick, but I'm sure that something sketchy is going to happen, and they're going to take out a rookie, probably Aro or Daisy since apparently they're being sketchy motherfuckers. Grrrrrrrr Matt needs to stfu. I still have quotes of him talking about LA, so I might use that to my advantage, but we'll see how this goes for now. I'm not ready for merge and these unpredictable motherfuckers in Allie and Willow.... I have no idea where either of their heads are at. As for my tribe right now, I'm 99% sure that Lex, Ryan and I are in the driver's seat on this tribe, with Luca, LA, Mitchell and Dana all wanting to work with us. I wouldn't mind losing to get rid of Dana, because I really really really want her out, simply because I haven't spoken to her as much, and I'd prefer to have good relationships with everyone once we get to merge, and I don't want anyone to think about taking me out of this game because I don't have a good enough relationship with them, so we'll see for now. Ryan hinted this morning that he'd prefer Mitchell to go home over Dana, but I want Dana to go home, and I wanna keep my brolationship with Mitchell for as long as I can. This is just fuel for fire I can use against Ryan if I have to, to get Mitchell to trust me, since according to Ryan, Mitchell is obsessed with me.. I also won the challenge for my tribe single handedly because I'm the king of this game, and no one is on my level strategically, socially or physically if we're being honest. I just need to NOT be known as that big threat once I get to merge. Time to just pit people against each other and throw shit and sound dumb like I always do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Fuck this is so nerve wracking. I hate that I'm at tribal again. And I've recently been really anxious about the fact that L.A. knows I have an idol, and just now I found out that a lot of people know that I have it. Which means L.A. has been telling people. Which also means that I'm kind of screwed. I want to get out Aro because I know how tricky he is and how terrible he is in challenges, but he has the idol and if he plays it I could very well be going home. Plus I'm realizing that I don't really have any solidified alliances with a lot of these people so I could easily be targeted, especially since they think I have an idol. Honestly part of me just wants to play it tonight and get rid of it and get it off my back. Or give it to someone. But if I give it to someone, then other people will still think I have it and I'll still be a target. I could try to split the votes, but that seems kind of aggressive and I don't want to make myself a target if I'm not one already. Ugh, fuck. I wish I had someone to talk this over with.

(a little bit later)

Whew I know I just submitted but I have so many thoughts right now. Aro seems to think things are gonna go along tribe lines and it's gonna be me and him as swing votes. Willow brought up Aro's name to me. I'm nervous that Willow maybe brought up his name to make me feel more secure about it, and maybe I'm the target. Maybe Aro is right and things are gonna go along past tribe lines but I don't really want to work with him. Maybe I could try to split the votes between me and Aro and I'll play my idol and get rid of it. That would be dumb though, right? I hate that we have so little time and that like, no one is online right now. It's so hard to plan. Jacob told me he cast his vote for Aro because he only had a couple minutes before he had to leave and he wouldn't be gone. So theres gonna be at least one vote for him. Unless everyone is lying to me. Fuck I'm so paranoid right now, but I don't know how to figure out if its just paranoia or if there's actually something there. Also I'm trying to seem invested in planning out the vote with Aro so that he doesn't think I'm targeting him, but he could also quote me to others and make them think I'm targeting them. So now it seems like I have Willow, Matt, Jacob, and Allie all voting for Aro with me. Aro wants to target a vet and apparently he's close with Zakriah which means we may want to divert Zakriah too so that he doesn't leak to Aro and have him play an idol. But now I'm worried by suggesting that we divert Zakriah I'm playing too aggressively. Ugh. Aro said he's gonna talk to the rookies and see who they would rather vote for, I told them I'm trying to divert him so that they're not confused or surprised that he says I wanna vote for a vet when I already targeted him. This is a lot to deal with, and we don't have a lot of time. Tbh this confessional is a clusterfuck of paranoia.

Okay so I'm out with friends and don't have time to write a real confessional but I don't wanna get a strike. So if I get home in time I'll write a real confessional yeah

I think for the first time in Survivor history one of my plans is actually working, it seems that Daisy is totally sold that Aro is going and voting me and it's awesome if she ends up getting blindsided as intended. Jacob is getting two votes because he sucks and I want him to know he should be worried, he threw my name out, and he's untrustworthy, even after like I pretended like i was interested in his crush that he talks about at least once a day, it's almost more satisfying knowing that I can flip and get him out if I really wanted to. In fact I have my choice to vote Daisy, Aro, or Jacob, and if I'm not getting played that wold mean I've spun this terrible swap into a great spot for myself, and I love it. See what happens when I get a chance to really play?

I am so screeeeewed. So basically everyone except Daisy and Jacob wants to vote for Daisy but I am about 90% sure this is bs and I am getting set up for a big blindside. Well, it wont really be a blindside now but rip me

Okay so I only really have 13 mins to type out a fuck ton of information. This vote is crazy, so much has happened and we only had a few hours to strategize for this tribal. Anyway originally me and Allie were thinking about voting Daisy bc she told LA she has an idol, but then LA sent screenshots of Aro's idol. So I was panicking for a moment bc I thought it was real, but I talked to people, and he was probably really desperate, so i think were sticking to voting out Aro. I'm just typing out the short version of what actually happened, bc I don't have a lot of time, but basically me and Allie are the swing votes and I hope everything goes as planned.

As we near tribal Im starting to get the teeniest glimmer of hope. Willow, Allie and Matt seems to be pretty interested in working with me. If it goes according to plan its going to be 3 votes Daisy, 2 votes Jacob and 2 votes me. However Im still about 80% sure that Im going to get blindsided tonight so fingers crossed

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