The Solomon Islands DVD Cover! Thank you to Steffen for making this!

Fan-Favorite Results

With 29.4% of the votes Lexi has won fan-favorite. In second place is Karen tied with Johnny with 11.8%. Third place is Aromal with 7.8.

Final Episode “Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways” (Aromal)

So I've now officially reached my past best placement - 5th in Malaysia!! And with my Hidden Immunity Idol, I'm set to beat it, and make it to F4 where the Rites of Passage are. Making Rites of Passage is honestly always one of my BIG goals every time I play so FINALLY getting to reach that mark is absolutely HUGE. In other news, RTP called me out on his way out the door, but nobody really paid it any heed - maybe bc he pissed everybody off so much?? Anyways, I'm really set to make the end of this game even WITHOUT my HII. So now the real determinant is whether or not I win Individual Immunity again. If I do, I'll go with Aro and Luca's plan to ice Allie, convince Willow... but then give Allie the Idol, vote for Luca, and get his ass outta here, forcing Aro to need my vote at F4 and forcing a tie. Hopefully. Now that I'm thinking about it, there's nothing stopping Allie/Aro/Willow from icing ME at that point, but... if they did... nvm. I don't think that they would. If I'm not immune, the Idol is all mine, but who gets voted out I'm still undecided on. Is the pair of Allie and Willow really a threat when they want to get to the end with me, or when Willow's intended F3 is with myself and Aro? If that's the case, why lose Allie now and risk underdog Luca making the end and picking up easy votes like Jacob, Johnny, and RTP. Looking at FTC, I've got Dana and Matt on lock, and I really do think I could get Zak even against Aro. I might have a shot at Johnny, I think RTP will vote for me, Jacob and LA are question marks that I lean against me, and I'd say Lexi doesn't vote for me like... ever. This is gonna get so spicy and I can fucking taste the victory. It's SO DAMN CLOSE and I've worked SO DAMN HARD and I don't wanna get iced when it's right around the corner. Fuck. I need this. I fucking need this.

With Ryan gone, the game is nearing the end. Right now it's me and Aromal trying to flip Willow onto Mitchell. Otherwise, we've lost this game.

Maaaan Im so nervous for this tribal. Me and Luca are definitely voting for Mitchell but we have to be careful in trying to swing Allie or Willow otherwise this is going to blow up in our faces.

It's been five or so days since our last tribal so everybody was getting stir crazy, but now it's all come to a head!! Willow won immunity, which was fine, bc the two targets were Allie and Luca. Now I'd harbored thoughts about making a #bigmove by making everyone vote for Allie and then Idoling her but... that's a reckless and unnecessary big move that paints me as an even bigger target than I know myself to be while also causing distrust among my peers. So Luca's gonna go home 4-1, I'm gonna use my Idol to guarantee myself F4 even though I won't receive a single vote, and then I'm one challenge win away from the FTC, where I'd like to think that I will win. At the F4, I'm set - I have a F3 with Aro and Willow that I intend to stick to, but I ALSO have a F3 with Allie and Willow, so should Allie win immunity I'll be DANCIN. I've worked to get to the point where everyone in the game likes me and trusts me, and zooweemama I can't believe I'm actually gonna win. I've come this close and convinced myself that it's my time, so if it's not, I'm gonna be heartbroken. I've put so much into this game and it's gonna all pay off, I just KNOW that it will. I wanna follow in the footsteps of Jenn and Jimmy who made FTC post-Malaysia, and I wanna join Kait and Jenn as Malaysia winners. It's gonna be my time. KNOW that - it's gonna be my time.

I'm shitting myself. I'm terrified of what Mitchell's reaction is gonna be, Im terrified about him having a potential idol, I'm terrified of Willow(our swing vote)  snitching to him, FUCK Willow just messaged me saying she was really hesitant about voting Mitchell. I don't wanna push too hard but it has to be done otherwise I am going to get absolutely blasted at final tribal. I'm fairly confident about making it to final tribal, but I'm debating who I have a better chance with. I'm leaning towards taking Willow and Allie right now because Luca has the underdog thing going for him but ahh its so difficult. I just wanna get this season over withhh

OH MY GOD THAT CHALLENGE WAS WILD! Half of the things didn't make sense, and I didn't know what I was doing 90% of the time, but I still somehow won immunity which is crazy! This literally means I'm guaranteed f4 which is crazy, like I never actually thought I would make it this far in my first org ever. Tonight I think pretty much everyone is gonna vote for Mitchell, which I guess is what I wanted, since he's my biggest threat. But I'm still sorta sad about it bc I love Mitchell, he's been one of my closest allies since the beginning of this game on nuMakira. I mean I need to do it to better myself in this game, bc I might actually have a shot at winning but idk I'm still kinda sad about it. I hope he can understand though and that we can be friends, but I have a feeling he might be sorta mad. I also think he might have an idol, bc he didn't really give me a direct answer and he lied about it last time, so I guess at this point I just need to hope he doesn't have an idol, or that he doesn't play it, bc if he does then I guess I'm screwed.  

Why do I have a funny feeling I'm getting Bret Labelle'd out tonight? Mitchell is the biggest threat, Willow! Don't pull a Hannah

i told them all after last tribal, "I hope y'all ready for shit to get messy bc my ass is winning final immunity challenge." and my ass DID. my ass did THAT. i have fucking made it to day 39. i'm not one to get emotional, but i've been playing ORGs for a few years now. not like other people, who always jump into them - i've done like one ORG every school year for a few years. this is my seventh total. and i made it to the end my very first one, back when I still played entirely over email, and lost to an inactive at the final tribal. and it's eaten away at me since. how could i work so hard and come so close just to fall short to that? but that was a different time and a different me, and i finally fucking did it again. 2nd, 11th, 9th, 5th, 12th, 5th... and now at least 3rd. I fucking made it here again and I can't believe it. Shout-out to Allie - I didn't think I had a shot once we got to the last stage. I was in so much pain and didn't know how much fight I had left in me but goddamn I pulled it off like i said i was gonna and now my ass can't be grassed and my ass in the final three i can't describe what this is like. i'm sure the org community can relate as a whole to wanting something so bad, and working so hard to make it happen, and now to have your chance, your shot, be actualized... it's incredible. it's a phenomenal feeling and i really hope i can now seal the deal and pull this shit off. it's not a guarantee. and hell, i still don't even know who i'm voting for. but i did it. i fucking DID THAT. mitchell kalabang fucking did that and all these fake killas don't know who the fuck they made the mistake of trying to ice. you can't ice fire and that's exactly why you don't dance with fire, bc ur ass is gonna get BURNED and mitchell kalabang is a fucking GOLDEN GOD

(later)

So after last tribal when they tried to ICE MY ASS i went around very boldly telling everyone that i was gonna win FIC and they better get their shit straightened out for when that happens. allie and i make a deal to vote out willow, i focus all my plans on winning, and then BAM surprise it fuckin HAPPENS and now i am left with a choice to make - do i vote out willow or do i vote out allie? and while i'm weighing this choice, willow for a stronger story should she be able to articulate it and allie for having what i perceive to be more friends and a stronger perception among the jurors, aro asks me to vote him off i say "...what" and he says that he doesn't want to be a FTC loser, and that he'll support me on the jury. he knows he's gonna lose and doesn't want to waste time on all the proceedings, so he'd rather help me win. and that sounds GREAT. that puts like 4 votes i expect on the jury - dana, matt, zak, and aro. if i can grab 1 more, i doubt willow/allie can grab all the other 5 - i win. and i'm like "...aro if u want this u got it bud" And then comes the hard part of convincing willow/allie to do it. have they really been #secretpairbewaring their way through this game? that's a possibility, but i think both of them rightfully perceive each other to be their biggest threat that they can vote for. we all know aro is going to lose. so with allie, it's easier - she says she didn't want to have to vote out willow anyways and is ok with voting out aro. and then miss willow tries hard to convince me to grass allie's ass anyways, so i strong-arm her a lil bit. say if i vote aro, and she and allie vote each other, she's playing russian roulette - aro either votes for her or allie, and if her gambit to ice allie works, that's fine and dandy... but there's a 50% chance she gets iced herself. thus, the only way to save herself is in doing what i want by voting out aro. and willow is understandably not fully in love with this plan, and she just asked me if i'm doing this to split jurors' votes between allie and herself. that's partially true - it's certainly a benefit. but willow is in no position to fight with me here, and she's particularly in no position to actually DO anything about it. sure, i know that aro is throwing his vote to allie, but SHE doesn't. as far as she knows, doing what i want guarantees herself a worst-case tie and a best-case F3 spot. if she does something else, she might vote herself out. she doesn't have a choice. winning FIC gives you so much fucking power and i genuinely believe that i can take any of these fools in the F3 so if they wanna be stupid and gamble with their lives then they can go right ahead and grass they own asses but y'all can't ice a golden fuckin god

So I feel like Im pretty much done. Id rather get 4th than go through FTC and get like one vote. I tried my hardest to stop Mitchell but unfortunately it didnt work out. Oh well, Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways.

Ahh so Mitchell winning the FIC wasn't the greatest scenario that could have happened but whatever. I'm a little dissapointed in myself that I accidentally talked but I can't go back now. Anyway I don't really have any shot at winning this game anymore So I guess I'm just gonna go with everyone else and vote out Aro tonight, even though Aro is the one with the least amount of chance of winning (imo). Mitchell is saying that he wants to vote out Aro this round bc he thinks he's some secret threat, and like yeah Aro has played an alright strategic game but I don't think he's made enough social connections. Anyway I think the real reason Mitchell wants Aro out this round is bc at FTC the people who are mad at Mitchell might split the votes between me and Allie. Anyway if Mitchell weren't here then I might have an okay shot at winning this game but now I don't. So congrats Mitchell Kalabang on winning Solomon Islands! Also since this is probably going to be my last confessional I just wanted to say that I had an amazing time playing this game! I've met a bunch of wonderful people and it was my first org ever and I plan on continuing to play more orgs!

can't BELIEVE we're starting the FINAL TRIBAL COUNCIL FJWRIUHDsnfiucrehdsnuifvhrenfsfchrd I worked so fuckin hard and so fuckin long and we're here. I I expect to get Dana, Matt, Zak, and Aro... that's 4/10. I just need to pull one more, which can prob come from RTP or Luca... and I don't think Willow/Allie are getting 5 votes so ! LA maybe, but Lex and Jacob are pretty much gone, and Johnny... who knows. But it's been a wild fuckin ride from food poisoning to 2 idol plays to 2 individual immunities to the final fuckin three. Hosts, miss willow, miss allie... it's been a wild ride. Good luck and good RIDDANCE

FINAL 3!! I never thought I would make it this far, I know Im not gonna win but I had a blast thank you! 

Episode 14 “shooting myself in the foot” (Willow)

"If Ryan loses immunity he goes bc hes a huge threat to win the final 2 immunities if we let him scrape by this round. In that case, at final 5 Mitchell told me he wants to blindside Allie bc then we would get some jury points from you and Rtp. I was thinking we could just put 3 votes on Mitchell at final 5, he would never see it coming and wouldn't use the flare. Then, we vote out Willow at 4." So this is basically my plan for endgame which I recently revealed to Luca. I don't think I stand a chance with Mitchell and Willow in the final 3, and I definitely didn't come all the way here just to get perceived as Mitchell's lapdog and get 0 votes. I really hope Mitchell doesn't get an idol clue or something because if then I am screwed. Ryan is definitely going this tribal but the next tribal will dictate my chances of winning this game. I'm fucking tense but also hyped af

So wow ! Either I'm real cocky and arrogant and boutta get blnidsided or I might very well win this game. RTP should be going home tonight and I can't imagine why he wouldn't, between his visible threat status and his comments to/about misses allie and willow that earned him some ire. I also don't think it'd be me, since I think I've got both Willow and Aro completely, that Allie is with me, and that Luca thinks I'm with him at the F5. So between that logic, using the flare tonight as reassurance, and then Idoling myself at the F5, I'll be at the F4 with a very real chance I've gotten there with a group of people that I chose and planned to be there with, and who want to take me to the end. More importantly, I think I'll have a very real shot of winning FIC, whatever that may be, so... if they don't get me out tonight they're not gonna :) and if they don't get rtp out tonight they're not gonna :) so it's rookies v. mitchell or rtp after tonight huh ! I've come such a long way since this season started with some dramatic ups and downs, but there is such a vividly clear and realistic path to the end of this game for me. I just can't tell if it's too good to be true or if it's so good BECAUSE it's true. I know that they should take me out bc ima WIN but... do THEY know that

This vote is stressful, like it should be an essay vote for RTP but it just shouldn't be that simple. I think I'm going to be voting for Ryan tonight, bc he's a big threat as well. Ryan and Mitchell are the biggest threats in this game right now. And so if we get rid of Ryan tonight and Mitchell plays his flare then thats the best case scenario. Next round I want Mitchell out, like I love Mitchell but it's going to be best for my game. And I know Luca would be okay with voting out Mitchell, so then I'll just need to convince Allie.

I'm just hoping that voting out Ryan tonight isn't going to be me shooting myself in the foot lol.

Episode 13 “YOU CAN'T TOUCH! THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!” (Mitchell)

YOU TRY TO ICE MITCHELL AKABANFOVTR THE FORCES OF EVIL AGAINST I, THE ONE LONE LIL EGG IIIIIIIIIIIIIII THE LIL EGG I AM A GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD KNEEL BEFORE ME YOU FCKING DEMONIC HELLFIRE RAINS OF BLOOD I AM SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMING YOU DON'T ICE MITCHELL KALABANG MITCHELLV KALABANG IS A FUCKING GOLDEN GOD OF FIREY PASSION AND EUPHORIA YOU CAN'T TOUCH! THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

THAT VOTE LITERALLY COULD NOT HAVE GONE BETTER WHAT THE FUCK! can someone say final 7?

"but logic and reason isn't a strongsuit for this group" - RTP

Okay, holy crap @ the last tribal. I was not expecting that at all. Luca is starting to come into his own in this game and we gotta be careful about letting him get too deep. Same with Allie. I know Mitchell has that Tyson-ish charm but cmon he has to have burned some jury votes by now. My ideal final 3 would be me-Mitchell-LA, but I cant see any path where that outcome might actually happen :\

I FOUND A SECOND IDOL AND I AM FUCKING SCREAMING 0R3IWDFIOVRCHJEDUOFJNCRIUOEDHNUFIJHRCNUDISHDNFGUIJRKLVEFNDSUGIJNVRIJDSKNFUIJCWNEDUISJFNUIWCJHEDNSAUIROJFNUIWODJNMIUOWEJDNMIFUOHRCNWMD WATCH ME GET BLIDSIDED TOMORROW NIGHT BUT WHAT A WAY TO GO NFUREISDNGFIRVENFDSUIGHFNVKRCJSDNFIJKCDNSKXJFZ

(later)

i really fuckin miss zak

Its kinda embarrassing bc I only got like 35 seconds in the challenge, but thats because I didn't get home until 10 when the challenge was due at 10:30 bc I was seeing a movie with my crush. Anyway I'm really tired but I just wanted to get a confessional in before I go to sleep. So I'll write more tomorrow if I remember.

The saga of L.A thinks she is going home at tribal tonight continues. Luca flipping put me into a shit position, I wanted both Allie and Willow gone and now they want me gone which is fair. There is very little chance Mitchell will side with me, he isn't really talking to me about the vote, and I did try to vote him out last round so there is that too. I still think Willow, Allie and Aro have no chance against Mitchell, but they could be waiting til after I'm gone to take him out but who knows. We don't actually know what the flare is, we think its a vote steal but who tells what their item really is? honestly, this is a gaming of lying, if he has an advantage like that why would he tell people? it makes no sense to me, just like idols. I have learned if you REALLY have an idol you don't tell people. If we can get Aro to vote Willow we might be okay but once again, I haven't heard much from him.

I need to write a longer confessional in like an hour but I'm about to re watch an episode of Pearl Islands. Anyway I know Luca is lying to me, I know they're writing my name down, my perfect record of not getting a vote cast against me is about to be ruined lmao.

Tonight should be pretty easy unless an idol is played. Luca thinks the only people who he can beat are me and LA and wants to get to the end with us. He , La and Ryan wants to blindside Willow tonight. I know my chances of winning are pretty low, but I'd rather lose to Willow than Luca tbh

Oh we're voting LA btw

Okay so this vote will probably go 4-3. I just need to hope it goes in my favor. Ryan really wants me out bc he thinks I'm a threat, and he was talking to Mitchell and Aro about voting me out. Ryan told them that he wants to get rid of me and Allie's duo, and he told Mitchell that he sees me as a bigger threat. I don't really see myself as much of a threat, but I do think there are a few people I could maybe beat at FTC if I make it. I know this sounds selfish but I wish they were voting for Allie over me because one of the only things I've had going for me in this game is that no one has ever voted for me throughout this whole game, oh well, I guess I can't avoid it this round. I just have to hope that LA doesn't play an idol and that I can actually trust my alliance as much as I think I can, bc if one of them flips then I'm fucked.

So it's right before tribal and I'm feeling good. RTP and Luca desperately tried to get Aro and myself to flip against Willow; their desperation makes me think that's their true angle for this vote, and it didn't work out. Luca makes some good points but fails to consider that I've got a F3 with Aro and Willow and that Willow is probably my closest ally in the game. Additionally, he's asking me to boot her over LA, who literally does not benefit my game at all ! Like the girl is nice and I like that she likes Kingdom Hearts but she just doesn't do it for me. We can hardly have conversations and we don't talk game, and I know she's not going to the end with me, so she's gotta go. Provided I'm not about to get royally shanked as I typically do every other round since the merge, I'll be at F6 with an idol, an advantage in the game, and two F3 deals with an obvious target in RTP. If I can just finally best RTP in an immunity challenge at F6, I play the idol at F5 and make it to F4 where I'd like to think that my deals made will carry me to the end where I can finally win. I'm nervous because it's all so clear-cut to me - a legitimate winning path to the end. And if it's so obvious to me, others are gonna pick up on it eventually. I'm hella nervous but I think all the pieces are in place for things to go well tonight. And if not... I'll be seeing Dana and Zak a lot sooner than expected!! Mitchell Kalabang might be your next tumblevivor winner. Just fuckin THINK about THAT !

Holy shit, my confessional game has been WEAK this season. Haven't done one in such a long time, but I have been pretty busy playing the actual game and doing IRL shit a lot. Here we go though. I've been on the right side of a few votes here, Lexi and Zakriah. Then I attempted a failed blindside on Willow and I've realised that I just gave up control of the game to Mitchell!! Silly me! But it was the only way to avoid rocks. I'm likely going out soon despite having Ryan with me as Willow/Allie seem to not want to vote out literally the biggest threat here. My hope resides in getting either the two of them or Aro to vote out Mitchell, his flare will hand him auto F4 I swear to God. That's it for today, until next time!

(Let's pretend I sent this after I was voted out) I am not shocked about the vote, I knew there a slim chance Aro or Mitchell would flip. I have enjoyed playing with everyone. There are things I wish I had done differently but its all things to learn from. As of right now, I hope RTP or Mitchell make it to ftc, and I'm just really glad I made it to jury.

Episode 12 “ is that realistic? probably not.” (Ryan)

Sliding puzzles are the bane of my existence.

I did awful at that challenge, like I say this every time, but I just suck at every challenge. It just sucks bc I really need this immunity or I might be going home. They say Aro because he doesn't talk a lot, but I'm not sure if I believe it since Allie said LA threw out my name last round. Anyway you know your life in this game is a mess when the best case scenario is rocks.

So me, Mitchell and Willow are fuckeddt. I've been trying reaaaaaaaaaally hard to swing Luca and I think I gave him the best pitch I could have to flip. Apparently Mitchell kinda unintentionally intimidated Allie on call right after Zak got voted out. He seems to think Allie is our best shot, which I disagree with, but its his call. The thing thats really confusing me though is that Mitch seems very hesitant to use the flare this round. Like cmon dude its literally the same mistake we made last round what possible reason do you have for not using it especially theres a very good chance its going to be you? But still I love both Mitchell and Willow and I would love to go deep with them so hopefully everything works out ;_;

I'm so stressed for this vote, like there are multiple ways in which this vote could go. It could either be Lexi going home, or it could be Aro (I think but watch it be me or Mitchell). I'm just worried that Luca isn't gonna pull through for us, bc he literally didn't last round when we were trying to take out Lexi. I want to tell Allie that we're voting Lexi bc I think she would come through with us if we needed her to, but I'm also worried that she might snitch and Lexi would play the idol, if she has it. But part of me thinks she might not have it bc she literally makes no effort to talk to anyone and its almost as if she's sorta not really playing the game. Also it would be sorta hard to find it in one round when all the clue says is that the idol is somewhere near the water. Anyway Mitchell isn't fucking listening to me that we need to tell Allie about this vote, fuck, I might just tell Allie anyway bc I'm not 100% sure we can trust Luca for this vote. And if we wanna make it far in this game long term we're gonna need Allie to trust us, and if we lie to her about this vote then she might not trust us.

(a little bit later)

Okay so the way I decided about whether or not we can trust Allie is I asked her if RTP knows that we're voting LA, since she told him that but she doesnt know that we know. So if she lies about it and says RTP knows nothing then we'll know we cant trust her and we wont tell her about this vote.

I thought the last vote was hard, this is turning out to be even hard cause I can't be certain of who the real threat is right now. Last vote it was Willow but in order to get Allie we couldn't vote her, and now I hear my name is out there but honestly it's been out there a few times now. My problem right now is mainly Lex. Where does she really stand? People say her and RTP have a final, which sure they could and I don't mind that as long as I can get into that final. In theory I have a final with RTP, he is only person I remember saying I wanted to go final two with. (RIP Johnny & Jacob) If Lex is actually close with Allie then I have no chance, unless I can win an immunity which doesn't seem to be something I can do lately. I'm so torn on voting Mitchell though, he's like my frienemy, we get along and I enjoy talking to him yet we are always on different sides of the vote so it makes me think we can't actually work together. Voting out Zak also opened the door for Willow to bring Allie into that group, and have a chance at final three with Mitchell. Which would be in his best interest cause he'd beat those two no problem. (sorry, but as of right now, Mitchell is playing the best game) There is just so much to consider. The only thing I'm certain of right now is that the five that came together last vote aren't solid, that was just a mutually beneficial move to keep a clear group to getting control. I've already heard talk of rocks this tribal, so we'll see how this goes. I won't be /overly/ shocked if I end up going home tonight, I say this almost every tribal but this time it seems like there is a real chance of it.

Its probably me tonight and honestly Im content with that. I never expected to make it past the 4th tribal so its been a blast somehow scrambling my ass to 8th. I hope Mitch and Willow go all the way, because apart from Luca I really dont like anyone in the majority that much.

I'm so damn stressed for this vote holy fuck. [8:01:50 PM] Willow: does RTP know were voting LA? [8:24:41 PM] allie: I'm not sure if he does [8:25:05 PM] allie: I personally haven't told him anything this round but rumors do get around in this game lol I'm not even sure who to trust anymore. Like I really really wanna trust Allie, but Luca said she told RTP about the vote being 4-4. Maybe Luca was lying I have no idea. We could go the safe route and put 4 votes on LA and use the flare, but we don't know that Allie is 100% voting for LA. We just dont know at this point, anything could happen and I'm so scared. If this is my last confessional then I just want to say that I had an amazing time playing my first org ever, and I met a bunch of great people, and yeah. Let's just hope this isn't my last confessional.

I have no idea whats about to happen at tribal. I just know for what i want to happen everything has to align perfectly...and is that realistic? probably not. im so fucking lucky i have immunity rn

Episode 11 “BUT IM SAfE” (Lexi)

johnny: i love allie so much. we must save you both 4 votes zak 3 votes aro. we will make it johnny: flips and gets himself voted out why do i always align with the stupid people. i really want to know.

*continues to sip my rum bitterly* Pretty sure if I lose this immunity I'm going home next. I honestly don't trust a single person in this game anymore, not that I had a lot of trust with anyone to begin with but y'know. Johnny was one of the few people I felt I could work with, and I'm on the fence about Ryan now, he came to me about the vote about Johnny and I told him I breaking up a group would be better and now Johnny is gone. Mitchell is saying it was Ryan, Ryan is saying Mitchell already had it planned out before, and Willow is saying Johnny was a threat. I mean I think it was Mitchell's and WIllow's groups but I can't be sure. The only thing I can be sure about is I'm on the bottom here.

(a little bit later)

UPDATE: there is no way in hell i'm winning this challenge.

Welp... it took 3 fuckin seasons but i think i'm finally... in a power position on tumblevivor. I think i'm finally fuckin on top. And tru, I was a significant power player in both Machu Picchu's and Malaysia's pre-merges, but by the time the merge came, I was unsuccessful both times in forging a legitimate and feasible path to the end of this game. After Matt was voted out, I cursed my luck - AGAIN i had failed. AGAIN i was to wait and watch my ally's be picked off by Allie's. But then Willow came, changed it all, and we pulled off the biggest fucking move of this game - which I orchestrated - by taking out Johnny. And just as you'd imagine, the whole game fucking opened up. Willow and I've got a F3 with Allie, a F4 with Aro and Zak, and now I've got people coming to ME. Wanting to work with ME. Because, for now, I'm on top. And when that happens, people are going to want to tear you down, so immunity is now more important than ever... as is this next vote. I need to keep myself shored up as well as possible. My 3-way alliance chat w Aro and Zak is them wanting to target Allie w our F4 deal and Luca. I don't want that. Allie's shady and she betrayed me but at the end of the day she's also a number for me and Willow moving forward. RTP wants to work with me. For the first time ever in this game, LA hit ME up instead of me having to approach her. I think I can work with Luca. Lex, though... she gotta go. She doesn't benefit me at all, she's a former winner, she's done nothing in this game ever to make me feel good with her... her ass gotta be grass. Voting out Allie eliminates an out, and a potential endgame plan, for myself, which would allow Aro/Zak/Luca to become a F3 deal should they want to. A F5 of our F4 and Willow does not look good for me ! So I'd want the rest of the game to shake out something like this: 9th - Lex; 8th - LA; 7th - RTP; 6th - Luca; 5th - Zak; 4th - Allie, leaving a F3 of myself, Willow, and Aro, which I'd like to think I can win. Letting Allie get deep into this game is a risk but I'm willing to take it because the composition of the jury combined with her seeming desire to go to the end with me both prove good to my overall game. It's within reach, if I can just hold on to it. For the first time... maybe I could fucking win.

So here's a recap of what happened last round. - Me, Zak, Mitchell and Willow form a plan to get the majority to split the votes 3-3 so that we can put 4 votes on Johnny - We had no idea if they were 100% going to split or not but King Johnny comes to our aid because he decides to form the same exact plan but with  4 votes on Allie instead - We chose Johnny over Allie because he was the leader of the rookies alliance and with him gone most of them are free agents

This round *should* be fine, with Zak's flare and Willow on our side for good (hopefully) we have 5 votes for sure. They're planning on voting Allie and also working on turning Luca so hopefully they dont have an idol rip. I know this might come off as cocky since its only final 9, but I've been thinking about endgame a lot ever since tribal. I'm 100% confident that Willow will win any final 3 but I genuinely wouldn't mind going to the end with Zak and Mitchell because they're awesome folks aaaand they're kiiiinda getting cocky so it might give me a shot to win. Willow is amazing too but she's too big of a threat so if we get to the end she would have to go at 4 or 5

if i go home bc i played myself into not fuckin spelling reservoir correctly i'm gonna fuckin punch johnny frat boy in the face when i get to ponderosa

I'm a terrible person, I keep forgetting Luca is still in this game and I work with him. But, I mean anyone who reads my confessionals should know I'm a terrible and salty af person. Also i think the rum actually gave me a hangover, apparently bourbon and 151 doesn't mix, who knew? And I just did the immunity challenge and completely fucked up, I got a big zero, there is a reason I try never to spell anything out loud, I need to see things written. [sos]

https://youtu.be/coM4svs6ydY

LMAO I FUCKED UP THAT CHALLENGE SO BAD. I'm just really hoping other people messed up on the first word bc I don't wanna be the only one who got zero, thats embarassing. The second after I said "drout" I was like wait shit thats wrong its spelt "drought" oops!

This challenge will probably be my most shameful moment of TS, a fucking zero, I'm still not over it. But with Mitchell winning immunity there goes the main person i wanted out, which could be a good thing cause it made me rethink. I think Willow needs to go, I was so worried about Allie being a middle man between Lex and Willow that I overlooked Willow may be the real threat here. When she started gunning for Lex I just assumed it was because she was worried Allie might pick Lex over her cause they seemed so tight, but after that vote she was with Mitchell's group, and the same with Jacob's vote. Once, it can pass by as nothing but twice? and on the vote that blindsided Johnny, she's more in with that group than I thought. If I happen to be right about this, then this is our last chance to weaken their side before they get majority and I'm totally fucked because Mitchell and I might talk and get along but I think him saying he wants to work with me is 100% fake and he's just playing the game and there is no way I even make F5 with him. The biggest problem I see right now is Allie. She is the vote I really need to get to pull this off, and I'm not sure if she'll flip on Willow or not.

(a little bit later)

So apparently I freaked out Allie this morning, with coming to her about voting Willow. MY BAD. She doesn't wanna vote Willow, which I can understand, Willow has been her person throughout the game. I knew trying to flip her was a long shot but I figured I should try anyways. But I was able to make her question their relationship, since Willow has been leaving her out of plans lately. I feel like tribal is gonna be mess, but let's see how this goes~

Why do I have a funny feeling either me or Zak is gonna get idold out tonight

All day it seemed too goddamn good to be true. It looked like Lex was going to be 7 votes out, but then fucking willow and zak and aro had to be paranoid!! And IDK EUFHEWUEidsz WHAT THE FUCK THEY'RE SAYING OR DOING!!!! Granted, I don't think Lexi has an idol or would play it if she does; and I CAN think that, since I have immunity and my neck is on the line. But they're fucking going CRAZY overboard with counter measures that would send Allie home anyways???? Even if Lex didn't have an idol????? This vote is gonna be so fukcing messy bc everyone in my alliance can't just sit STILL. jesus christ i still hope it'll be 7 votes lex or maybe 5 votes lex 2 votes allie but like... i don't fuckin get it. these kids are so dumb.

I'm fairly confident someone's lying or an idol is being played tonight and I'm gonna be packing my bags at tribal. Like... I've done so much work in this game and I'm not ready to go and this seems like such a simple vote but so did the vote when everyone was lying to me and Matt was voted out. Oh my godddd I'm not in the mood to get 9th place!!! I might have to pull out my flare tonight and we might have to flip the vote last minute because this Lexi puta probably has a fucking idol and she's voting me!!! I just really feel like something fishy is going on tonight and I'm not excited

I JUST MADE FUN OF PEOPLE FOR GETTING SPOOKED BUT NOW I'M SPOOKED TOO AND IDK WHAT THE FUCK TO DO WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

(a bit later)

OK SO FINAL TALLY BASED ON WORDS PEOPLE HAVE SAID: 5 ON LEX 2 ON LA 1 ON ARO 1 ON ZAK. WHAT I EXPECT: 5 ON LEX 2 ON LA 2 ON EITHER ARO OR ZAK. DO I EXPECT TO GET FUCKED?????????????/ YEEEEEEEEEES FUCK YEEEEEEEEEEES BUT I GOT IMMUNITY ZAK GOT A FLARE IF AN IDOL COME OUT A FLARE COME OUT WE GOTTA RISK IT FOR THE BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISCUIT LET'S DAAAAAAAAAAAANCE

[5/4/17, 9:07:12 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: I heard the vote was gon be for aro [5/4/17, 9:07:17 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: if ur down for that?? 

On 5/4/17, at 9:09 PM, lex wrote: > Hi my vote it for zak (selfie) i really do love making big moves. i would like to thank ryan la luca and allie for making my shadiness possible this round. it really means a lot to my soul. this round started off pretty chill considering someone i thought was my biggest ally left in what has to be the weirdest tribal in quite a while. but johnny fucked himself up by targeting allie and i to the people we are closest to in the game? like did he honestly think we wouldnt find out... but i kept my mouth shut and pretended i did not know what he was doing cause if there is one thing i have learned in this game its to never plan shit at the last second cause its not going to end well for anyone. so he left and everyone was like yes we love each other hooray great hair babe but that all changed when the willow monster attacked. BUT IM SAfE AND I HAVE YET NEEDED AN IDOL! WOOOO PALAWAN ME WOULD NEVER!

Episode 10 “The One Where This Tribal Council is a Mess” (Zakriah)

(here we go yall lmao- pippa)

All along it was always me and Aro and that's how it's gonna continue to be until we're both voted out anyways. Idk Mitch has lied to me already twice now and I don't play baseball so there's no third strike here. Ofc Willow and Allie flipped on us and ofc it's just me and Aro like it always has been. And I can't wait to get 10th.

(a while later)

These people aren't even good at lying and Willow was trying to help me literally all along and she was right there literally was nothing she coulda done about it!!! I feel awful that I ruined any trust I had with her and I feel awful for cultivating a relationship with the wrong rookie on numakira. I'm just so fucked up rn and I knew it was happening too.

(later)

She's over here apologizing to Mitchell and NOT ME for this last vote when I literally just left the alliance chat! So that OBVIOUSLY tells me she has no intention of trying to work with me again after this and that pretty much me and Aro have no shot to make it any further in this bih

(even later)

Most of what I just said was very spur of the moment and I don't even remember half of it but tbh me and mitch are on the same wavelength rn and us and aro's lives basically depend on MY MORTAL NEMESES lexi and rtp

(so much later)

Mitchell and Zakriah's guide to surviving Tumblr Survivor: Solomon Islands Merged Tribe. Step 1) Vote with Allie against LA Step 2) Form a vets alliance Step 3) Steal Willow from Allie

(later isn’t even an option anymore)

LEXI AND ALLIE ARE IRL BEST FRIENDS WHAT THE FYCK IS THIS

(3 years later)

MITCHELL IS A FUCKING DETECTIVE HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS GAME IS TOO FUCKING MUCH HOW IS LEXI SO FUCKING STACKED WITH PREMADES IN THIS GAME I THOUGHT ME/ARO/LINUS WAS BAD WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUCK

(everyone has died, Zak is the only one left)

NO HOLY SHIT SERIOUSLY THIS IS LIKE WHEN IN A MOVIE SOMEONE FINDS OUT THAT THE PERSON THEY THOUGHT WERE INNOCENT AND LIKE THE GOOD GUY IS ACTUALLY THE DEVIL AND HAS BEEN BEHIND EVERYTHING THE WHOLE TIME AND THEIR FACE IS LIKE FLASHING EVERYWHERE THEY LOOK THAT IS L I T E R A L L Y ALLIE HOW DID WE NOT FIND THIS OUT SOONER OH MY LANTA

I just wanna say, Jacob, I voted Matt for you.

So there's literally no possible way I can win immunity - one of my two friends in the game exiled himself from the challenge and that leaves me next to be picked off from winning immunity along with Aro, LA, and maybe Allie too tbh. It's basically Allie/Lexi/Willow's comp to lose at this point and there's literally not a single thing I can do to give myself any edge to win at all. Out of nine people competing in this challenge only one person is working with me, and in a challenge that's essentially a popularity contest, 2/9 gets you nothing. I'm willing to accept the fact that Mitchell and I are completely screwed, and it's not helping that Mitchell is quite actually ostracizing himself from the rest of the people. I'm honestly praying he's hiding another idol from me at this point.

i know it's been a while since my last confessional and i don't wanna make a long one rn but allie's bitch ass

SO the plan for right now is to get the majority to split the vote between 2 of Me, Mitch and Zak. Willow is willing to flip with us so we can get ahead of the split and put 4 votes against Lexi or Johnny and get our minority asses back in this game. Not gonna lie Im having a blast being at the bottom with Zak and Mitchell even though Mitchell is kinda rude towards Willow >.> . We are basically the 3 amigos/ Witches Coven of the season but we will be successful know that!

Oh my GOD if I pull this off... If i pull off this 4-3-3 vote tomorrow night it WILL be the single best play I've ever made in a game. Like I'm honestly shaking. This is either aboutta go so horribly wrong and Willow is lying to us all or it's gonna go extremely well and I won't know until it's either me joining Jacob, Dana, and Matt on the jury or it's Johnny joining them. I have a vote negator, but my history with vote negators has not been a fun one. I would kill to have an idol, but if I make it through this vote, which would literally be the biggest miracle ever, I fully feel like I can retake control over my fate in this game. All hope may NOT be lost!!!

(a little bit later)

ooookay... So I just lost literal years of my life planning a Johnny blindside and now he's trying to take out Allie!!! Everyone is literally fucking VYING FOR OUR VOTES right when we thought it was a clear majority against us! What the fuck this game is so hilarious I don't know what the fuck to even say right now!

(yall thot huh)

Wow I can't believe we just orchestrated a 4-3-2-1 vote. Like imagine how lit it would be for the two people voted as most likely to be voted out next in the challenge were to literally take the 3-2-1 cirie patent vote and upgrade it to a fucking 4-3-2-1 vote! Im beyond shook at this like ive been spending the last three days absolutely certain I was gonna be the next voted out and now as far as I'm concerned I should only be seeing my name once or twice this round. I feel like ciera rn bc I'm making a big fucking move! Game changer Zakriah razzak!

Okay so I need to start writing more confessionals. BUT HOLY FUCK SO MUCH JUST HAPPENED. Okay so first to start off I won individual immunity, and I even had a one rope disadvantage, like how the heck did I do that! I mean it was just Touchy Subjects, but still, I never thought I was gonna be able to win a challenge lmao. Also I'm too tired to finish writing this confessional so I'm just gonna submit and write more tomorrow goodnight lmao.

If everyone's telling me the truth, which why would they, we get to make the sole decision on whether to keep around Johnny or Allie - the two people controlling the whole game. And the best part is that either one of them getting taken out is one less rookie to pick off me/mitchell/aro (and rtp and lexi but screw them), and then that plus my flare gets us at the very least a tie if we piss everyone off with this vote. But, hey, they left us in the dark last time, it's time for some revenge anyways! And then, after we finally get the upperhand again, we can avenge Dana too! I'm still out for blood rtp

(ive avoided this for days)

Mitchell is saying this tribal council is essentially a sitcom episode and if it is it would be called The One Where This Tribal Council is a Mess

(he’ll be gone soon, don’t worry)

Literally we're looking at rtp targetting johnny but voting with allie bc he doesnt think theres numbers to get out johnny and so its "supposed" to be a rudimentary vote split against me 4-3-3 a la queen daisy peacebeuponher but IN ACTUALITY what we're looking at here is johnny reneging and trying to blindside allie in some kind of mess of a 5-3-2 vote WHEN REALLY willow is "using" the three of us to get out JOHNNY in a FUCKING CRAZY ASS 4-3-2-1 vote that's gonna be something like johnny-aro-alie-me and i honestly... LOVE THIS

OKAY SO LET'S FUCKIN DIVE RIGHT INTO IT going into last tribal something was a miss bc of a certain miss willow sayin cryptic ass shit like "i'm sorry i can't stop what's about to happen" and so i knew then that we were fucked. the suspense of waiting was alleviated by allie basically saying she flipped and it wouldn't be on me; i could've guessed it would be matt since she hates matt, but i never thought she'd actually flip and do it bc i don't see how any of us would benefit from leaving a solid 6 to form a very volatile merge but WHATEVER and then i exposed allie and lexi's pregame relationship and close irl friendship and thought i'd blown myself up, particularly after wILLOW TOLD ME SHE FUCKING ALREADY KNEW INSTEAD OF TELGKIEFFREFIURHDIF TELLING ME TO CHILL, and NOBODy seemed to think that it was a big deal. combined w that, i fuckin bought my ass a trip to the cave and couldn't compete in immunity so FUCK me but  then also... good things zak guilted willow HARD about what allie made her do, which was particularly effective bc willow already felt like it was bad for her game. so while allie is saying we should vote LA, then saying johnny and RTP told her no so we can't, i'm like... we need willow rn to flip on this dumb twerking girl who is so far up these kids' ass yet MIRACULOUSLY still has willow up hers??? and zak does in fact guilt her into trying to get everyone else to split the votes so we can do something like get LA out or whatever but i'm sittin here like... alright... who gotta go? and it comes to me. johnny the frat boy, my lover and archenemy!! miss chrissa and dana send their regards bitch!! it seems to me that johnny has a certain degree of control over LA and Luca, and as long as he's in a potential rookie or nuTemoana faction could be reunited or resurrected on his behalf. i don't want that. the game gets more open with him gone. so zak laid the groundwork for willow's flip, and i get to her and convince her the flip gotta be on johnny. it's almost too good to be true. a 4-3-3 vote agaisnt mr frat boy keeping i, mitchell kalabang, still in the game w my f3 of zak and aro and now w miss willow on our side??? FUCK YES and then zak finds a flare that allows him to burn someone's vote at a tribal council, which means if willow stick w us worst-case scenario at the f9 is rocks. things are fallign into place, i'm so JFIOHWEIODFH EXCITED BC it's gonna be HUGE and it's almsot too good to be true when johnny's frat boy ass says he wants to get out allie w me, la, zak, aro, and him. ????? johnny wants to flip on her ass bc of my expose about her and bc she's controlling willow. little does he KNOW that willow already flipped against allie and on HIS ASS and that allie is no longer a threat bc people know that she and lex are friends. so now johnny thinks it'll be like 5-3-2 or something but in actuality it'll be more like 4-3-2-1 johnny-aro-allie-zak which makes me sCREAM THAT"S  SO FUDI*CVJOWDIS FUCIING EBEAUTIONFGD BEAUTIFUL AND ICONIC but THEN RTP FIWEODJFD  COMES TO ME AND ASKS TO MOASMDFUIBHWENDS make a move against johnny and i'm all ike ???D<EKODJFKLJWD iorhejdgio YOUWDFI(JF hwo are you people giving such a clear mnoritjy THISF IOWJDMFIO much POWMERUIOFMWEIOFDJ POWER and he can't get LA on board so he resigns himself to the split vote between aro and zak tellign me about it even tho it's supposed to be a secret but little does he know that i already know about it and i also know that it's a farce bc willow flipped and that it's not even happening bc JOGNY flipped and rtp targets johnny who targets allie who splits the vote betwween aro and zak w rtp bc he can't get the votes aginst johnny while aro and zak are gonna tke out johnny bc WE have the votes and i'm CRYIORJHdf cryin i really think we might actually get the 4-3-2-1 and if that fucking happens i'll literally fuvkcixghnfei shit myself on call somehow i mitchell kalabang am coming out on top?? and i like johnny legitimately to some extent and he might want to work w me, but johnny has also lied to me and has multiple other deals and alliances, and i can't work w that if he's gonna keep shit shady. zak and aro have been loyal and honest to me since day 1 so i'm ridin w them boys and i hope you use all the money you're in charge of as treasurer of the frat to drink yourself into a stupor so as to neuter the humiliation ur gonna feel at being outmaneuvered by fuckin willow. ALSDOJQSOFD speaking of shady miss allie like... first she flip, then i find out she got a #secretpairbeware, and i'm like ???? this BTIHDCIH she might wanna F3 w me and willow but AGAIN how am i gonna play w u when u say shit like "i know you said you didn't wanna do this and take out matt and i respect it so i got literally the entire rest of the tribe to do it instead and against u without telling u haha we still good tho i own you and control you" she seriously got so cocky after that and so self-righteous in defending herself about the lex thing and it's like... girl how the FUCK am i still savin ur ASS after tonight LMFAO the #obvioustension i've felt between me and LA is gone i think, we've had some rlly good chats lately and welp it's gonna suck for her when i now snake HER but whatevs!! and RTP and i are prob good now too considering he told me about his johnny plot and then about the split. considerin i'm gonna do his work for him and oust johnny he shouldn't be too mad lol ! idol searching i fucking went into a cave and my choices were octopus and moray eel and y'all had to be fuckin kiddin ME but ofc the cave fucks me up AHFUIEWHD AGAIN and no second idol for mitcherell kalabganfger but whatevs Somehow, everything has lined up to give me an unprecedented amount of power for someone who felt helplessly on the bottom after Matt, who I feel was an actual tick in this game harming me more than helping me with his poor gameplay and social skills, was voted out. I think I've played an influential role in getting this vote together and in forming a group that can now move solidly forward. I just... if this all works I'm going to cry because RTP going for Johnny going for Allie going for Aro/Zak who're going for Johnny without RTP knowing is a fucking sitcom episode. I can't fucking breathe. If the 4-3-2-1 is what actually happens tonight i might literally cry laughing on call for tribal. mitchell kalabang is not dead yet!

also biggest VILLAIN?????? how the fUIHEWDRHJIernfuier what've i done this season but been lied to and love dana i jsut... and they fucked up w what they said bout luca bc now he's pissed and i'm all like... come to papa :)

IM STILL SO WORRIED EVERYONES LYING TO ME THOOOOO

Okay so, in Touchy Subjects I tied with Johnny in the category "If you could not win the game, who would you most like to see win". And I'm very confused by this because I literally thought I wasn't a threat to win at all. Johnny I understand, he's the one controlling everyone, he's the one calling the nuTemoana shots, and so if he made it to the end he would win no doubt. But me on the other hand, I haven't exactly done much, like I've tried to make good social bonds with everyone, and been honest with everyone, but yeah other then that I'm kinda confused how I got the majority in that category. Onto another topic though. I never thought I would ever say this, but I'm actually pretty damn excited to go to tribal tonight. I have individual immunity, so basically I 100% made it to single digit placements, which is amazing!! Anyway onto the vote. It's going to go great because Johnny thinks Allie is going home, but in actuality Johnny is going home. I guess I sorta convinced Allie, Lexi, and Ryan to split the votes on Zak and Aro. So the vote should go 4-3-3, if all goes according to plan. I'm really hoping this works bc Johnny wont expect it, and it'll get the biggest threat out of this game. I really like Johnny though so I hope he won't be too mad and that we can be friends once this is all over.

Episode 9 “Find out who your true friends are” -Aromal

I DID IT I BEAT 15 DAYS I BEAT 13TH PLACE AND I MADE JURY AND PROBABLY MERGE I FEEL HOT

(a little bit later)

I'm so sad bc Dana has been the REALEST w me since day 1 and Mitchell lied to me about his idol so idek if I can fully trust him anymore and aaaaaah Looks like its me Mitchell Matt willow allie aro and whoever Mitch can pull over from the other tribe but I'm really sad my mom was idoled out its just not fair

i hate double tribals i really do especially if its one world since everyone has to say something to someone else in order to save their homies and ALLLL offense i still hate the small talk so like what else is there for me to do besides get ma plants and chill. so the round started off with willow trying to talk to me but then completely going missing but then talking to johnny (home boy af btw. squad in the house) about how she can save all the newbies using mitchell and danas vote which basically confirmed what i already knew of the old makiura alliance being tight. but that only leaves 2 people to get voted out and that is me or ryan which 1. duh and 2. not today satan. i quickly established ma thang with johnny even more so he can continue to give me info that i needed on the newbies like aro/zak having an idol to use on each other, lily having the makiura one, etc but it also got me thinking that maybe i should continue to try talking to the newbies cause they seem festive but then willow goes and lies so i said fuck dat. ryan and johnny made like 2 alliances with us on the same day which i high key didnt see the point of doing bottthhh but ya know be festive. they came up with this idea of splitting votes which i never like doing really since it is really sus af but i told them ayy great plan whatever just to make them not yell at me for not being alive but thEN! i was like this high key makes no sense to do??? so if there is a rat then im just going to stfu so no one can have tea on me and guess what. RYAN THE RAT???? [4/24/17, 8:52:11 PM] Dana Barry: So i know there's a vote split [4/24/17, 8:52:20 PM] Dana Barry: Not to be blunt [4/24/17, 8:52:49 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Okay :S [4/24/17, 8:54:07 PM] ~~Johnny~~: How do you know about the split? [4/24/17, 8:57:19 PM] Dana Barry: Ryan is blowing up your alliances game to gain favor on the other side [4/24/17, 8:57:31 PM] Dana Barry: They literally all know and have been in contact since the plan was conceived [4/24/17, 8:58:50 PM] Dana Barry: I know we havent talked a lot, but i really didnt think you were going to vote me [4/24/17, 8:58:56 PM] ~~Johnny~~: And I’m assuming that Ryan has been getting you guys to vote for someone else? [4/24/17, 8:59:00 PM] ~~Johnny~~: That isn’t LA? [4/24/17, 8:59:09 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Because Mitchell just said that he wasn’t voting for LA [4/24/17, 8:59:13 PM] Dana Barry: Nah it isnt [4/24/17, 8:55:19 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Why do you even think that though? [4/24/17, 8:55:36 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Is it not true though? [4/24/17, 8:56:42 PM] ~~Johnny~~: It is [4/24/17, 8:57:12 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: I figured lol [4/24/17, 8:57:25 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: If we're being honest I've never been voting for LA [4/24/17, 8:57:37 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Who were you voting for..? [4/24/17, 8:58:07 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: If y'all tryna sneak split vote me out why would I give that up ! [4/24/17, 8:58:40 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Well, I didn’t want you out, and you were getting 2, but now I’m being told information about how you guys found it out [4/24/17, 8:59:06 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Someone's got some pretty loose lips on ur side [4/24/17, 8:59:15 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Ryan? [4/24/17, 8:59:22 PM] Mitchell Kalabang: Not to name names but there's a reason this person went 6 times without making single digits idk mitchell and dana are savage as fuck fdkughdk (but yeah we all know the rest. and dana got voted out by someone who was too busy sleeping to know what the fuck was happening. if that is not me!) the alliance chat is popping tho of ryan and johnny arguing. turns out mitchell is just annoying and likes to spread shit so who is really the rat. hm. the answer to that is good ol' matt. the most annoying guy to talk to and the main person i have been dying to leave for ages. god. literally he has been against my side since the start of this game and he continues to make things hard for himself.... if you are going to be a rat dont be obvi? i still dont 100% trust ryan but i do trust that matt is fucking ratatouille in the flesh so there is that. cant even just pay attention to his own tribal ctfu. I HATE THESE PEOPLE ESPECIALLYLYLLYYLYLYL HIM

Well this has officially been the craziest episode whatever you can call it of the season. Jacob went home as planned after complete chaos with Willow. Basically she told him I was targeting him just because she felt bad and it's cute and all that she has a good heart, but seriously she needs to get it together before I vote her off too. I think I have a lot of enemies now, obviously Jacob voted me and RTP played an idol and saved his ass after somehow Mitchell and Dana got everyone to vote him which was wild. I am so sad about Dana it's unreal I loved that girl. Now I still have Mitchell who hopefully hasn't lost any faith in me after I told Willow he had the idol, oops, and then lied to him and said I didn't say that because I can't own up to anything I did. Right now I am cooking I think, I got numbers, Mitchell, Allie, Willow, Zak, Aro, and even Johnny, and hopefully when it comes down to it I will be at the tippy top of the alliance since I believe firmly I have close relationships with many of these people. I flushed two idols tonight btw, and Daisy who had one, so in my two tribal councils I've literally just triple flushed idols like a really stinky poo. Ryan is mad at me but is willing to play the game but I don't trust his ass really.

Final Confessional! I just got voted out, and I'm not actually very sad because i went out WITH A BANG and i'm on jury, where I will make it my mission to ruin lives. Effectively, nobody is this damn game can keep their mouth shut, which was both the best and worst part of this season. As I said in my last Conf., Matt was feeding us info, but basically fucked up that line of communication by getting himself caught as a snake. But about 2 hrs before tribal, Mitch and I get word that the other 5 on our tribe are splitting votes 3-2 for me to go out because they thought I could have an idol I guess. So at this point, Mitch and I were voting RTP and it looked like i was definitely goin. Mitch's idol wasn't going to be useful for us there, because even if he had given it to me (which he wouldn't have), there would have been a tie for him and RTP and his ass was grass at that point. So basically, we're tryin to think of options like 1.5hrs before tribal, and so Mitch and I just start goin nuts. I'm saying all this crazy shit to LA to make her vote with me: [4/24/17, 8:30:29 PM] Dana Barry: Listen- i know you guys are splitting for me tonight, but i wanted to talk to you first. [4/24/17, 8:39:09 PM] Dana Barry: I know we havent talked a lot- and there's not really much incentive for you to want to vote with me, but Ryan has been throwing you under the bus for days, basically since the game started. He wants nuTemoana to be a thing post- merge, which automatically leaves you out of any plan he has. [4/24/17, 8:44:06 PM] Dana Barry: I love ryan as a person- but he isn't with you long term, and i know you'd be taking a risk, but at merge we would have numbers. Also i'd be willing to vote whoever you are interested in taking out tonight, which would be a big move for you in this game, because inevitably you will make it far. This would build a lot of trust, which i DO NOT betray unless i find people are coming for me in this game. Sorry this is a lot, just something to consider as someone outside of the core alliance. [4/24/17, 8:45:53 PM] Dana Barry: Obviously this means I have no idol, so if you don't want me out and want options down the line, i'm here and i have no more options. And Mitch is on call with Johnny tellin him about how shady RTP is, and then eventually I get on with them where i'm literally hiding out in the bathroom of the bar to talk to them. So then we're all about to vote RTP, and for a minute there is some consideration for Lexi, but then Johnny is like nah RTP doesn't have an idol. OK-so at this point the four of us could just vote RTP. Then someone tells Lexi to also vote RTP, which she does. EXCEPT SOME FUCKER TELLS RTP TO PLAY HIS IDOL BECAUSE WE'RE ALL ABOUT TO VOTE HIS ASS OUT. LIKE OMG PLS EVERYONE HAVE SOME CHILL. So I know that Mitch has the idol, and i'm the only one on our tribe, so both he and RTP play idol, meaning that because Luca was asleep and voted me, my ass gets voted out. While I'm not sure how RTP found out he needed to play the idol, my best guess is Lex? Idk her well and she would be the most likely to be close to him and then just vote him as a cover for herself. Alternatively, some things were getting funky with the other tribe, where basically Matt and Willow (who was also being fed info by Johnny. like what?) also knew how desperately Mitch and I were trying to save me, and so maybe they reached out to RTP for some odd reason. Am I happy? NO.  But also I was so problematique tonight and really caused a problem, which is absolutely my aesthetic and i wouldn't have played it any other way. So, peace out Solomon, get ready for your most vocal juror. Please Mitch- you better be dancin and win this. 

Hey! Remember me! I'm still here! Barely.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3ykj-8n1M4&feature=youtu.be 

Mitchell is the gayest straight boy I know and I know myself when I was 12.

Yay I made both jury and merge! :D Double yayy for making merge with a majority alliance! :D First merge vote is looking like Ryan and even people outside our alliance wants him gone. Rip

This flag making challenge made me mad because I had an okay idea, but then the app I was using crashed like 50 fucking times, and so I lost all my progress. Since i kept loosing all my progress I didn't even finish with the extension oops. But if I had more time my idea was gonna be to also add quotes of what people have said in the tribe chat next to their icons.

Pino Noir Caviar, Myanmar, mid-sized car You don't have to be popular Find out who your true friends are Pino Noir In the boudoir (in the boudoir) Pino Noir, smoke a cigar Revenge can be spectacular Pino Noir x4 (Pino Noir) Pino Noir, leather bar Oh so close and yet so far Pino Noir x4 (Pino Noir) Pino Noir, you're a star Listen to Tom Berenger Pino Noir, Rosenbar Pino Noir Au Revoir

I won my first individual immunity !!! *screams* I didn't think I'd actually win this one but yay. I'm excited but I'm also really worried, people say I'm good at challenges and this win is definitely gonna put a bigger target on my back. It doesn't help that we tried to vote out Ryan either, cause obviously we are gonna have some trust issues now, we're still working together cause he says it's fine but he could just be saying that. It was weird having to talk to someone after voting them, usually the people I vote go home so this was the first time I had to talk to someone and try and fix the relationship and be like it was nothing personal. I'll see how this goes though, I need to try and be more social, its still my biggest problem.

ayo! its time to party aka have a heart attack for the rest of the night cause i hate major votes like this and this is the most important vote since the start of the game.... im gonna die. anyways so prior to the merge i guess some of the female newbies were tired of the attitudes given to them by the returnee males like matt and mitchell (which understandable lmao i hate being told what to do even tho i dont show it most of the time) so they came to pretty much everyone and expressed their interest in switching to the other side namely ryan johnny and i's side. the thing is, i know i can trust allie since she hasnt proven otherwise that she can't but willow is just a very shady person to talk to and she is very much not talking game with me so as of now, who knows what she is actually doing. it also concerns since she is the one that told mitchell and dana about the plan we had to split the votes so that obviously doesnt make me want to trust her to any extent. in hand with that, luca has also been very weird and i can't trust him as far as i can throw him which isnt very far since im barely 5 feet so... bleh. he was trying to get ryan out before the start of the reward challenge and i just do not know man! these newbies suck ass. and not in the good way! but yeah i won the reward hehe and got the idol clue hehe but found nothing... so 2/3 isnt bad i suppose for this round and i knew i wasn't winning immunity since everyone in this fucking community talks the exact same way like what is in the juice? speaking of the juice... these people got very drunk last night and normally i love drunk people but last night.. a moment in time. funny enough karen was also drunk but she was a nice convo to have. but yeah about the drunk people, i dont know if johnny is trying to be the next parvati or he actually believes what he is saying to me for some reason but i will not take the bait. at times like this i appreciate my lack of social skills. but thats all folks. hopefully matt leaves (or ryan tbh as long as it is NOT me) and that alliance is shook to the core.

So we just all said it's supposed to be Ryan and people are deadass so quiet rn that I'm like getting paranoid it's gonna be me but I don't wanna be that person who overthinks and then cut to me overreacting and making a dumb move and losing everyone's trust, so I'm just gonna keep my cool and if it's me tonight or something crazy allow this confessional to be proof that my ass ain't surprised.

DO I HAVE A LOT TO FUCKING SAY IF IM STILL HERE IN AN HOUR!!!

fuckfuckfuck the vote was set to be Ryan but apparently Willow told Zak something about another plan god im so nervous now

Episode 8 “Worst case scenario: Everything else”- Johnny

Well the last thing I thought would happen happened... my plan actually worked, like flawlessly. Everyone did what I wanted them to do, nobody turned on me, I didn't get a single vote, I can rest easy for two days at least. I got rid of a rookie, possibly an idol, and solidified something with Allie and Willow and even Aro and Zak. Jacob is on the outs now so I hope he feels bad. Hey Jacob, next time you're gonna throw someone under the bus make sure they're not driving it!! Would honestly love to vote him out soon, maybe we'll merge maybe we won't.

(a little bit later)

I think this is for sure going to be the biggest tribal(s) of the season. RTP seems ready to draw the line and get rid of Mitchell and has ordered me to get rid of a Makira, but I made the decisions to tell Mitchell that RTP is afraid of nuMakira, because I don't really see myself working with nuTemoana because I only trust RTP out of those people, like Jacob tried to throw me under the bus, Luca tried to throw me under the bus, Johnny and Lex both withheld from me that Luca was gunning for me even though I told Lex when Luca threw out her name, so really why would I wanna work with them? Like a number's only a number when it's specifically my number. I think come merge, if Mitchell or Dana gets voted out of Makira and Jacob gets voted out from Temoana it'll be Dana/Mitchell, Willow, Allie, Zak and Aro vs. RTP, Lex, LA, Johnny, Luca and me smack dab in the middle, or so it would seem, because even though I may be the swing vote I really am actually in a good spot with Dana and Mitchell, and I'm not a flipper, I'm actually leading the charge. Interesting...

(a medium sized bit later)

At this point even if I get blindsided tonight I'm probably playing the best game I've played so far, I've got solid alliances worked out where I am sort of the mastermind, yet at the same time I'm able to play both sides. Ryan trusts me and trusts that I'm gonna be all Temoana strong, but honestly everyone's a fake ass Temoana except me I've literally never left this beach. No one knows how far i'll go, except I hope it's final tribal. I think tonight may be drawing the line, maybe just pencilling it in a little bit if Mitchell plays his idol. I may still have a slight chance to pretend like it wasn't me who told him but who knows. If we go into the merge with a 7-4 advantage it doesn't necessarily matter. We can pick off whoever's left 1 by 1 and I can get to the end hopefully with Mitchell and Dana, or Allie and Willow, or Zak and Aro, haha I hope nobody catches on to how well I'm playing this game. Tonight for Temoana the plan is to blindside Jacob, he's really fake in my opinion, but honestly I'm lying to him too so I guess so am I? But he started it so that's his fault. I'd love to blindside him right after Daisy, especially since he got votes last tribal council like how could he actually think we just decided to switch to Aro, and then he's like dictating to me that we should split between Zak and Aro and I'm like a giggly little hyena bc you need more than one person to split, unless you're Debbie.

First off, I'm SHOOK that I won the first individual immunity of the season. Holy crapola I didn't see that one coming, so that's pretty good for me, even though it does put a HUGE target on my back, but I'm just hoping that my social game is strong enough to the point that people will forget about me winning the challenge. I really wanted Willow to win the challenge, so she could give immunity to Jacob, and now i'm really torn whether to give immunity to Jacob or not, considering he's my closest ally in this game, and now I really really have to think. The main issue is that giving immunity puts a HUGE target on Jacob and my back's as a duo later down the line, which is concerning. I'm not at all worried about this tribal council, even if I wasn't immune, which is why I'm a little pissed off that I won it, because I really didn't need it, it paints a target on my back, and Willow was going to give it to Jacob, but one thing I do know is that i'm guaranteed top 11 now, which is pretty good, and I'm about 2 more tribals away from beating my record from Survivor: Tibet (side season, placed 9th), so I'll take that. I honestly can see myself winning this game. My social connections are up to par, I have a really good connection with nearly everyone in the game, except Aro and Dana, and hopefully those are the two going home in both of these tribal councils, and funny enough, I'm pretty sure that both of them have immunity idols too, so worst case scenario, both their idols get flushed and Mitchell or Matt/Zak will go home, all of which I don't trust too much either. I think it'd actually be a travesty for my game if Mitchell went home, because I'm really really vibing with him well, and I'm hoping that this split vote doesn't cause any dissension, however, I think I can rebound and make sure I'm not one of his targets, if he survives this tribal council, which It's about a 50-50 shot whether he survives or not. As for my tribal, the plan is for LA, Luca and I (the people I trust most to not flip their votes and try something ballsy) to be voting for Dana, while Lex and Ryan are going to be voting for Mitchell. Just in case Ryan tried something ballsy, to keep Dana safe and take out Mitchell, who I know Ryan would prefer more to be voted out more, I need to keep Ryan's vote planted on Mitchell, so just in case he was supposed to vote Dana, and tried to switch the vote, he wouldn't even be able to switch his vote to Mitchell since he's already on Mitchell to begin with............ if that makes any sense. As for now, I'm hoping merge is around the corner, I'm ready to get this game REALLY on the road, and I am fairly confident in my abilities to make it to the final 8 of this game at least without getting targeted, and we'll see how it goes from there. I truly can see myself with one of the higher probabilities to win this game, and I think people are seeing that as well, and I just need to hope that it's not me at the final 6 or 5 getting blindsided, and throwing my ass onto the jury. It's gonna be a tough game, but I'm ready for it to pick up and start playing the way I know how to..... slick as fuck (throws sunglasses on). It's game time.

I'm zakriah and I can't even find an idol when I have a clue Also either Jacob is going or its tying with me and going to rocks tbh and thats all I have to say about that

I hate this. Being on Ulawa has fucked me over so much, everyone is well connected and has alliances and I'm basically on my own, all I can do is hope people want me as a number so they keep me around. I have a terrible social game, I'm a shy person, and being trapped on Ulawa for all those days has not helped my situation. Its down to Aro and me, and I have no interested in working with Aro, not that I had any interest in working with Aro but a lot of people are loyal to their second tribe and I'm not, I don't have that to fall back on. My goal is just to make jury at this point. It would be awesome to have at least one person I trust, but Jacob is being weird? We basically use each other for information and he said he'd bring me into whatever he had going on, AFTER the merge so I'm like okay.. We're one world but OKAY. All I can really do now is hope Ryan, Johnny and Luca are telling me the truth, that they want either Dana or Mitchell gone and not me. I hate it so much though, I kind of hate not having a say or level or control but this isn't like Ulawa so I can't just go for it, I need some tact here.

OKAY. WELL THIS MOTHERFUCKER (YES ME) FOUND THE IDOL!! I was screaming honestly, because according to what everyone had told me, I was 99% sure that Dana had it, according to what Willow told me. SO! I asked Willow where she thought the idol was, just so I could double back and see if it was really gone, so I'm casually searching, for the first time in forever, not using my random.org strategy of searching for idols, and I ask Willow where to look, and she tells me exactly where to look and then... On 4/23/17, at 5:13 PM, Andrew (Solomon Islands/Hawkins Host) wrote: > Congrats! You have found a hidden immunity idol! You must play this idol after the votes are cast but before the votes are read, this idol can be used to save anyone up until the final 5. I FUCKING LOST MY MOTHERFUCKING SHIT. All day I had been contemplating giving immunity to Jacob to ensure his safety, and now I am able to be so much smarter with it. So immediately my first thought is that I'm 100% giving Jacob the idol, keeping my closest ally in the game, and biting the bullet by losing the idol in the first place, but it's fine since any suspicion of having an idol can be a MAJOR hurt to my game, so I took it like a hot potato, threw it in Jacob's direction, and now he's going to play it at his tribal council, and idol Matt out of the game. Here's the sad thing about this (and by sad, I mean fucking hysterical). I told Ryan last night that he needs to message Matt, and make sure Matt understands that him and Jacob working together is the best move, and that if all six of us make the merge, then we're in an incredible position.......... WELL, Matt didn't take that advice, and instead lied to Jacob's face, telling him that him, Allie, Willow and Jacob were going to work together to 2-2 the vote, and then Matt went behind Jacob's back and said there was no chance he was doing that. So now, Jacob is going to use his idol, nullify the five votes against him (since Willow and Allie are bitches and would rather take the easy vote than stand up for a close ally of theirs), and take out Matt, and it is going to be GLORIOUS! This means that Matt's alliance with Allie and Willow frees them up into my hands, it frees up Ryan's previous allegiance to Matt, and focuses his attention more on Lex, Jacob, Ryan and I as a foursome, without Matt involved, and it basically gives me a severe amount of control in this game. As for my tribal council, finding the Makira idol means that there is a very slim chance that Dana actually has one, but I can't stop the splitting the vote plan I made up because then LA, Luca, Ryan and Lex are going to know I was the one who found the idol, and gave it to Jacob, and I don't really want that to happen. Jacob and I are the only ones in the game that fully 100% know what is going to be happening at both tribal councils tomorrow, and if everything goes according to plan: Matt and Dana going home, we are headed into a potential merge with 4 veterans and 7 rookies. TAKE THAT MATH! Honestly, I could see the split vote going poorly in a sense, but I do know that they're targeting LA, and personally I don't give too much of a shit if LA goes home, but the only way it wouldn't work is if Lex AND Ryan flipped on me, and considering Mitchell is trying to get LA to vote for Ryan, I don't entirely see anything going south this round. . However, if things do go south on my tribe with the split vote, I have a SHIT ton of quotes that Ryan has said about not trusting Mitchell that I can hopefully use against him. Either way, I've got Luca, Allie, Willow, Jacob and I working together, hopefully able to swing things at merge if things do go south, and I've still got six people on my side (hopefully), and potentially even swinging in Aro to get him to wanna work with the rookies he started this game with. I've got a plan B to my plan B in this game, but I'm hoping I don't have to drop to plan B. This is probably the only round of the game I can see things going south, but I highly doubt that things will actually go south, and I'm going to be more than okay this round with both tribal councils going exactly how I want them to. Best case scenario: Dana and Matt go home, with Aro burning his idol at tribal when Jacob whips his out. Next best case: Mitchell and Matt go home, with Dana's idol out of the picture. Worst case scenario: Everything else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VSwosbWktg&feature=youtu.be also this because YAS: [4/23/17, 2:09:11 PM] Matt: I want final 3 with you and Mitch [4/23/17, 2:10:17 PM] Dana: i would absolutely love that. like that’s an ideal situation for me, and i think it would be really fair 2 [4/23/17, 2:10:26 PM] Matt: I agree [4/23/17, 2:10:36 PM] Matt: I don't think we could beat RTP

ok so i havn't made a confesshy in a while but here we GO so the challenge was a load of barnacles but we won so idc??? and miss daisy goes home MAYBE with an idol so??? all good to me!! the important thing is that i've been talking to people. in particular, i've been tryna shore up relations w luca, johnny, and LA; been talking to them for a while, tryna establish trust... you know, dancin. and i think we've been vibing really well which made me feel good bc i like them!! i like people for the most part in one world, which is one of the most intricate elements of the game - from here on out, we all know each other. votes are gonna get harder for that reason. and then i'm dancin at junior prom, come back and see i may have been the first infected with the virus, and then we're goin to double trbal. FJWROIDHFLCUI i fucking hate double tribal. the whole point of the tribal stage is just that - you're a tribe. if you can come together and win, you get to stay a tribe. double tribals undermine that and punish everyone for nothing. it's ridiculous and goes against the very point of the tribal stage; they only work in seasons with more than two tribes. tribes are supposed to stay in tact if they win, but there's no chance to do that here, which is dumb!!!! but ANYWAYS idk what's gonna happen bc i'm all prom'd out and like everyone... but then miss matt, my BOY from day 1, pulls me and dana into a chat to say that RTP is gonna strike at us tonight. matt had already informed me that RTP wanted to me nuMakira vs. nuTemoana in the merge. there's no chance he'll know for sure how tight we all are so maybe he thought he could divide and conquer us, but if jacob goes home on makira, we might be seeing willow/allie/aro/zak/matt/dana/me kick some grassy ass post-merge!! and that's bc i'm playin my idol and gonna send RTP's ass home. i thought i had real relationships w the people here on nunuMakira, but I can't blame them for wanting to vote me out. RTP, on the other hand, is gettin too big for his britches and just had to fuck up a good thing. i knew this would come eventually - there's a reason this kid hasn't reached single digits in seven times playing and it's bc he sux - and of course he just has to fuck up somethin good and now he'll pay the price. either he votes for me w everyone else and i play the idol and he's gone and he feels a fool, or i play the idol and he votes dana and we both still here and he knows that his time is numbered bc matt is a good boy is it too much to ask to just get a good cute alliance together and ride it out??? why y'all got such a BONER for BIG MOVEZZZ and #BLINDSIDEZZ????? old school survivor is legit the best way to play the game and it was the best era of survivor too so fuck y'all goodbye mitchell kalabang ain't goin home tonite!!

Mitchell, stop telling me that I'm your ride or die. We've been on the same tribe for four days, and just because I smoke weed and I'm in a fraternity does not mean I trust your ass. Do you think I haven't heard stories of you leading a charge to take out Lex and Karen the first round of this game, and that you were the one calling the shots on the old Temoana, and that you probably have more connections in this game than anyone? I love that people in this game think I'm stupid. It's starting to fire me up... Let me tell you something. If you think I don't know what I'm talking about in this game, that means that you haven't had a strategic conversation with me yet, and that means I don't trust you. Everyone can take note of that for the future *puts on shades*

  We're getting at a pretty far moment in the game right now and I think it's showing, these votes will be crucial when determining which players will be in the right spots come merge. There's this feeling going around, a constant mash of anxiety and paranoia, nobody really trusts each other and it shows. Johnny is really well-placed right now but he's my closest ally at this point. There's a rumour going around that Jacob is going home in the Temoana tribal which will be a big, big warning sign. The issues with Matt still haven't fully healed and suffice to say, I don't trust him at all. As about our vote, I'm very paranoid. I'm being told it's a 3-2-2 vote split, with 3 on Dana and 2 each on Mitchell and LA. This plan should hold together but will it really? Dana is a huge threat to my game, she's been throwing my name around and she has much closer allies in this game than me. So I guess we'll see what happens.

Ok so currently I have like an insane Jacob who is like "It's 5-1 me, you targeted me, this is your plan!" which I mean, is true, but like what the fat hell who thought it was a good idea to tell this crazy ass twink that he was the target because now he could play an idol or do something or expose me to nuTemoana and now I wanna actually shoot somebody :)

this is so dumb but if it works i s2g i'm gonna LAUGH i've been telling like luca and LA that RTP threw their names out knowing that if they were with RTP that would get back to him, and matt confirmed to me that it did FJWMIDSOFJCW my plan's been to make RTP mad and since he's so arrogant he'd be like "oh well mitchell gotta go he's shady" well BITCH it's intentional shade you think i'd get caught??? the funny thing is that it's ridiculous. playing so bad on purpose to get caught without everyone else knowing it's a setup so they vote for you and you idol someone out.... i love the concept but then again it's so fuckin stupid there's no chance it'll work but if it DOES im gonna SCIOEFKNDCEWDISJ tribals gonna be fun bc i know im not dancin outta here yet :) oh and if jacob plays an idol and takes out like matt, and they split the votes and dana goes home here, and we merge right after and my numbers are me, aro/zak, and allie/willow against the world... worse shit could happen!! at least i'm beatin my previous placement know THAT ! (remember when i said the same shit in machu picchu but then actually did go home lol well at least this time i got mr idol :'] )

RIP ME. Stop being so casual Matt, because if you fuck up, I go home. They better be voting Mitch tonight so he can play his idol, because if not IM IN TROUBLE. Also if they split, i'm also probably in trouble unless we can talk LA and Luca into flipping in like a single minute. Basically Matt just told us that Willow and Allie told Jacob that Matt was targeting him for the vote- AND YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKING- WHAT DOES STUPID TEMOANA AND THEIR LAME ASS VOTE HAVE TO DO WITH THE MAKIRA VOTE?. THE ANSWER: LITERALLY EVERYTHING. Matt is the informant from Temoana lettin us know that RTP is coming for me and Mitch, and if this mix up with the Jacob vote got back to RTP then we're fucking screwed because Matt may have inaccurate information about who is going home on our tribe. Who knows what the odds that this happened are, or that RTP decided to flip the vote on me, but irrelevant, but i'm just hoping Mitch and I idoling out RTP doesn't backfire tonight. Here are the scenarios I see happening tonight: 1) Everyone actually is voting LA like RTP told Mitch and I. Mitch and I will still vote RTP, Mitchell will waste an idol, and we lose everyone's trust on this tribe forever (unlikely). 2) Everyone votes Mitchell, we vote RTP, Mitchell idols him out in the biggest heroic fuck-you RTP has ever seen. 3) Everyone votes for me and not Mitchell, I have no idol, and I leave here as a queen who has been wronged by her tribe. 4) They split votes (a big risk), and either i go home (again, as a queen who has been wronged)  if it is 3-2 for me, or if it is 3-2 Mitchell RTP and I will tie, at which point Mitchell and I start threatening Luca, LA, and Johnny to vote with Mitch in revote. 5) Something else upsetting happens and i die a spiritual death in the process. [4/24/17, 6:37:22 PM] Dana Barry: is you tribe solid for the vote? [4/24/17, 6:38:11 PM] Matt: Yeah except they decided to tel Jacob I organized the plan to get him out [4/24/17, 6:38:19 PM] Matt: They pulled a Laura Boneham [4/24/17, 6:38:27 PM] Dana Barry: who the fuck told him [4/24/17, 6:38:38 PM] Dana Barry: like that didnt need to happen [4/24/17, 6:39:47 PM] Matt: The girls [4/24/17, 6:39:54 PM] Matt: And like don't blame me [4/24/17, 6:40:06 PM] Matt: Because I was working as a spy to the other tribe and now they know I'm a flipper [4/24/17, 6:43:55 PM] Dana Barry: do people on our tribe from nuTemoana think you flipped? [4/24/17, 6:45:00 PM] Matt: I don't know [4/24/17, 6:45:05 PM] Matt: Jacob might have exposed me [4/24/17, 6:45:23 PM] Matt: in which case I'm worried [4/24/17, 6:45:24 PM] Matt: But idk [4/24/17, 6:46:00 PM] Dana Barry: yeah that would be worrisome, because if he did they could be lying to you about who is going on our tribe tonight so that we’ll waste an idol [4/24/17, 6:47:38 PM] Dana Barry: i wonder if there’s any other way to confirm [4/24/17, 6:49:21 PM] Matt: No clue WISH ME LUCK 2NIGHT CREW

Okay so I'm pretty sure our vote is gonna be a simple 5-1 vote for Jacob, which I feel really bad about. Because Jacob is someone who I really like and have wanted to work with from the beginning but I accidentally screwed that up. I hope I can be friends with him after the game, and hopefully backstab Matt because he's highkey a shady bitch. Allie thinks Matt is just trying to scare us into being his ally. Anyway I hope tribal over on Makira goes well, and that either Ryan or Lexi get voted out since I know them the least.

RTP i'm swingin my big ass dick w my idol around it and u ain't touchin me or that idol but i'll make sure to smack u with it on ur way out

Episode 7 “a clusterf*ck of paranoia”- Daisy

WEFUC K WE  SDFEDSX JUST VTOTED OUT KAREN FUCK AND I'M TRYNA RALLY OUR SPIRTS SBACK UP AND THEN ISAAC STARTS REMOVIN PEOPLE'S GRASSY ASSES FUCK FUKFCJD FUFK FUCK WE FEDS THIS HAS GOT TO BE A FUCKING MERBE A MERGE AT 14 HOLY GOLLY GOSH GOOD MOLLY MOSH WHAT THE FUCKDJX FUCK FUCK FKPDSOF I NEEDED MORE TIME FRIFODKF FCK

(a little bit later)

I'VE BEEN DYING TO MEET JOHNNY AND I FINALLY DID AND HE'S FUCKING EVERYTHING I'VE EVER FUCKING WANTED IN LIFE HE CALLS ME HOMIE AND I SWEAR TO GOD HE'S NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER FRAT BOY YOU'VE MET HE'S BEAUTIFUL AND GLORIOUS AND I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD WITH HIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO KILL HIM AND STRANGLE HIM BUT I FUCKING LOVE EVERY SECOND OF THE EXPERIENCE I LOVE HOW MUCH I HATE HIM

https://youtu.be/JNaS_mOM3yY

first off rest in peace karen i thought you were supposed to be good since you play so much but.. i suppose the mighty power of the chicken wing is not a force in tumblr survivor. anywho, so we switched like everyone expected but for some reason everyone thought it was a fun idea to freak out and be like "omg is it merge???" "WHATS GOING ON" "I DONT UNDERSTAND" ctfu yall literally knew damn well what was happening. its final 14 like it aint rocket science. as for my tribe, ive said it before and i will say it again - I HATE PURPLE!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! it is just not flattering against my skin tone and that is literally my number one concern at the moment. that might insult those who play this game like its life or death but to me... this is a very big aspect of my luck in the game. every time (literally not even joking) i get some ugly ass color, im fucked thats just the way it is and the weird blue that luca insists is cyan - get a crayon set pls - was working just fine for me! i was slayyyyinngggg without doing anything meaningful which is all that matters to me since its really fun watching people go crazy while i just sit here eating my nuggets in the break room. current thoughts of my tribemates and fellow one worlders: johnny - king of making final 2's and being in a frat. a dumbass who spilled his entire game once we swapped and got ratted out the second he did. stupid stupid stupid! i need him as a number tho so i cant be hasty with my opinions tho so like a 6/10 dana - has a paper to write. thats all i got right now 4/10 l.a. - A LITERAL FUCKING GODDESSSSSSS! all of the rookies should be bowing at her feet for trying so hard to make them safe cause if i was her... they would get a stern talking to and no help at all (plus she can clearly count which is more than i can do). 100000000/10 luca - literally victor next (i dont actually think he is victor but this dude is seriously wack like i just do not understand why he had the need to call me a grandma when im not even that old? like where is the residential hag when i need her zzzz. also he said he likes skype emojis and then used the cactus emoji which victor also uses so clearly something fucked up is happening!!!!!!!!) 1-ish/10 mitchell - fake hoe next (tho i do love the flattery so i guess they are right in saying it gets you everywhere cause ya got a ticket right on the bottom - word of the wise btwwww, next time you play pls stop taking advice from ya eggs cause they clearly do not help just ask karen in prejury hehe) 1-ish/10 ryan - king of all things survivor. how has he not won a ts season.... 10/10 allie - is from florida so either an icon like me or is like cole tbd. as luca said, can "air hump" really well??? not really useful info but thats all i got so next??? aro - im the 1. next. daisy - i hate the smell of flowers :| next jacob - legend was tagged in some nice pictures on facebook recently so he can stay. matt - lmao next willow - our friend willow teas? what comes after 6.gif. next. i really do not like talking to people and sadly i must. tho i just finished this one kdrama and it was like 50 episodes and the dad died literally in the last half hour of the entire show.... im crying i really am HE WAS A GOOD FUCKING PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the world is so cruel and so harsh to the loving but so kind to the evil where did we go wrong :'( PPPPPPPS : [4/18/17, 11:29:35 PM] nancy.sweitzer: shut up trump supporter [4/18/17, 11:29:42 PM] nancy.sweitzer: i have receipts of you supporting trump BB i need some food to watch this with so lets have reward hm?

I'm both so happy and scared about this swap. BLESS ULAWA BEING GONE. THAT WAS THE WORST TRIBE. IT DOESN'T DESERVE TO EXIST. But yeah, a few people came to me and were like you carried that tribe and are amazing, and as nice as that is, YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR IT ON SURVIVOR. Cause now I have a huge target on my back for being a "challenge icon". I do not trust Daisy or Aro at all either so I'm worried they will gun for me, but they are both on the other tribe so that's a plus... Maybe, this one world thing doesn't help me there. Now I have to catch up with Jacob, and the rest of the alliance and see where we all stand. I'm trying to set something up with Johnny as well cause we sort of clicked at the start and I need people.

im too sick to carry on. i cant even see the light im too far gone

Hi MTV welcome to my own private corner of Hell. Seriously I guess my burning desire for some action really warranted this swap that put me in a terrible ass position. I love the One World beach because I can wave to literally every single person I was working with as they wear their Makira buffs with pride and I am stuck with all Rookies and Zak! The only people I know are Zak and Jacob, and Zak threw Daisy's name out and Jacob says he trusts Daisy so I can't even wrangle all my loose allies to form a little alliance. I'm just going to use my social game to earn favor with people like Willow and Allie so that I can maybe survive juuuuuust long enough to make it to the merge and reconnect with my homies. I'm sort of praying for a miracle, but I'm also going to do whatever I can to survive, and if that means throwing Jacob or Zak under the bus then so be it. I am scrambling like eggs in the morning. Hopefully I can convince people to target Aro for his wishy washy nature and because I have planted the seed that he has an idol, and honestly maybe he does, so I smell a blindside coming up, but if they're not willing to budge then I could be a dead boy walken.

Dana mom doesnt approve of the act of sending nudes but like I don't spread em like seeds in a pumpkin patch (like this swap is doing w my alliance tbqh) or anything not everyone gets to see the goods

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All right binches here's the tea! Daisy has an idol, and is trying to get people to think aro has the idol bc he made up a lie about a fake idol that he doesn't have, which saved his ass a few rounds back, and Jacob and Allie are saying Aro is sketchy. NOW thats not what I like hearing because Aro is my husband and all, so automatically my Worry Senses are tingling as they usually are it would seem. What I'm tryna do is scrape together a me/willow/aro/Matt majority (since allie apparently doesn't trust aro so I can't trust her) but I suck at approaching people so it sucks that dana and Mitchell aren't on my tribe to help me :( but get for being the least experienced vet in tumblr left in this game I think I'm in a moderately decent position

Well Day 2 of NuNuTemoana is quite interesting, I'm starting to create scenarios that will hopefully put me in a good situation. A) NuNuMakira will throw the challenge and vote out Luca or LA and B) I create an alliance with Willow and Allie and we become the swing votes between Jacob/Daisy and Zak/Aro and if Daisy or Aro have idols they're shooting their bullets at each other and I've got a bulletproof vest. Fingers crossed.

I'm gonna model the rest of my game after Cirie bc boy does she have me fucked up seven ways to Sunday right-about-now o'clock Also I'm not gonna be home again after tomorrow until May except for one day in between so this whole new tribe/quickly approaching merge thing is gonna get really sad for me when I randomly just disappear forever :)

The past few days have been a whirlwind. From uncovering that dirty business with Matt to this One World swap, I find myself in a tribe in which I'm not sure if I can stay safe. It hurts that I can't compete in this next immunity too. I trust Johnny/LA, but as far as the rest? Question marks all over. I like Mitchell a lot, still haven't talked with Dana much, I have no clue about Ryan/Lexi but Johnny says Lexi is tight with him. So I'm really not sure what happens if we lose an immunity here, and winning challenges might be my only shot to stay in the game. So what happens next? No clue.

MMMMHMHMHMHMHMHM YES!!! Willow finally spilled the tea which confirmed our suspicions on Karen :))) now alls I need is Lexi to get the fuck out and I can be satisfied by outlasting all the snakes

So I've officially worked my way into an alliance with Allie and Willow, hopefully they're not playing me and we can actually work towards getting out Daisy or Aro. Now Mitchell wants me to get Daisy out so we can rope in Aro and Zak at the merge but I also have somewhat of a relationship with Jacob from nuTemoana and he seems to have a relationship with Daisy so I am hopefully safely in the middle of this tribe and will be deciding this vote, but there's also a large chance I'm gonna get squashed smack dab in the middle. I mean ideally we win immunity and the other tribe can get out LA or Luca which would be great. I need these rookie numbers thinned like the mints so that I have options if I'm in the merge. I have my Doofenshmirtz Evil Inc. Alliance which is Ryan, Mitchell, and Dana, I have nuTemoana which is Johnny, Jacob, Lex, and Ryan, and I have a possible alliance with Allie, Willow, and Mitchell. Preferably I wanna work with Mitchell because I trust him the most so far. But of course none of these numbers I'm running in my head matter if I can't make it until the merge which is crazy to me.

i wasnt successful in covering up my misery. i dont even know why i said i could do it since the only thing on that entire menu (all of the drink choices included) i actually do enjoy is the oreos so who knows what i was thinking. im going to get voted out i really am

tag yourself. im luca saying he cant compete cause they use blue solo cups instead of red solo cups in his country. isaac is la's roommate not letting her use her waterbottle. andrew is ryan only having glass in his house. pippa is matt actually doing this. stefan is willow beating the crap out of me. IM GOING HOME

Well I couldn't get it done today and that's a little disheartening, I definitely feel like I could be in danger and when you have the chance to save yourself and don't do it it sucks. I guess now my focus is on playing this game for like the first time this season honestly, a lot of things are at stake in this tribal, there's idols there's alliances there's tribe swaps, there's beef in this game, and I feel like hopefully I can shift the attention towards Daisy vs. Aro, but there's also a lurking nuMakira alliance that might form and getting an Ulawa out wouldn't do anything in the long run but I need to play to make it so that I'm safe until tomorrow or else there won't even be a long run. I wanted to be in a position where I could run a marathon but instead I'm like running a relay race tribal to tribal. If I get rid of Daisy Jacob may lose trust in me and join a Makira alliance, but also maybe I'll just join the Makira alliance myself? I mean I told myself I would do what it takes to win, my obligations are to myself at this point, not Temoana not Makira, not Vets, but MESELF. Well who knows at this point what's gonna happen, hopefully my plan works.

MATT STFU CALLING ME OUT IN THE MAIN CHAT YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Literally your ass would not be in this game right now if I didn't win the challenge where we counted in our confessional. The plan was in play, you were going to be gone, we had the numbers, and now you're on a tribe where it's minority veterans, so hopefully Allie and Willow aren't idiots, and they just take out Matt because he's kind of an arrogant prick, but I'm sure that something sketchy is going to happen, and they're going to take out a rookie, probably Aro or Daisy since apparently they're being sketchy motherfuckers. Grrrrrrrr Matt needs to stfu. I still have quotes of him talking about LA, so I might use that to my advantage, but we'll see how this goes for now. I'm not ready for merge and these unpredictable motherfuckers in Allie and Willow.... I have no idea where either of their heads are at. As for my tribe right now, I'm 99% sure that Lex, Ryan and I are in the driver's seat on this tribe, with Luca, LA, Mitchell and Dana all wanting to work with us. I wouldn't mind losing to get rid of Dana, because I really really really want her out, simply because I haven't spoken to her as much, and I'd prefer to have good relationships with everyone once we get to merge, and I don't want anyone to think about taking me out of this game because I don't have a good enough relationship with them, so we'll see for now. Ryan hinted this morning that he'd prefer Mitchell to go home over Dana, but I want Dana to go home, and I wanna keep my brolationship with Mitchell for as long as I can. This is just fuel for fire I can use against Ryan if I have to, to get Mitchell to trust me, since according to Ryan, Mitchell is obsessed with me.. I also won the challenge for my tribe single handedly because I'm the king of this game, and no one is on my level strategically, socially or physically if we're being honest. I just need to NOT be known as that big threat once I get to merge. Time to just pit people against each other and throw shit and sound dumb like I always  do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Fuck this is so nerve wracking. I hate that I'm at tribal again. And I've recently been really anxious about the fact that L.A. knows I have an idol, and just now I found out that a lot of people know that I have it. Which means L.A. has been telling people. Which also means that I'm kind of screwed. I want to get out Aro because I know how tricky he is and how terrible he is in challenges, but he has the idol and if he plays it I could very well be going home. Plus I'm realizing that I don't really have any solidified alliances with a lot of these people so I could easily be targeted, especially since they think I have an idol. Honestly part of me just wants to play it tonight and get rid of it and get it off my back. Or give it to someone. But if I give it to someone, then other people will still think I have it and I'll still be a target. I could try to split the votes, but that seems kind of aggressive and I don't want to make myself a target if I'm not one already. Ugh, fuck. I wish I had someone to talk this over with.

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Whew I know I just submitted but I have so many thoughts right now. Aro seems to think things are gonna go along tribe lines and it's gonna be me and him as swing votes. Willow brought up Aro's name to me. I'm nervous that Willow maybe brought up his name to make me feel more secure about it, and maybe I'm the target. Maybe Aro is right and things are gonna go along past tribe lines but I don't really want to work with him. Maybe I could try to split the votes between me and Aro and I'll play my idol and get rid of it. That would be dumb though, right? I hate that we have so little time and that like, no one is online right now. It's so hard to plan. Jacob told me he cast his vote for Aro because he only had a couple minutes before he had to leave and he wouldn't be gone. So theres gonna be at least one vote for him. Unless everyone is lying to me. Fuck I'm so paranoid right now, but I don't know how to figure out if its just paranoia or if there's actually something there. Also I'm trying to seem invested in planning out the vote with Aro so that he doesn't think I'm targeting him, but he could also quote me to others and make them think I'm targeting them. So now it seems like I have Willow, Matt, Jacob, and Allie all voting for Aro with me. Aro wants to target a vet and apparently he's close with Zakriah which means we may want to divert Zakriah too so that he doesn't leak to Aro and have him play an idol. But now I'm worried by suggesting that we divert Zakriah I'm playing too aggressively. Ugh. Aro said he's gonna talk to the rookies and see who they would rather vote for, I told them I'm trying to divert him so that they're not confused or surprised that he says I wanna vote for a vet when I already targeted him. This is a lot to deal with, and we don't have a lot of time. Tbh this confessional is a clusterfuck of paranoia.

Okay so I'm out with friends and don't have time to write a real confessional but I don't wanna get a strike. So if I get home in time I'll write a real confessional yeah

I think for the first time in Survivor history one of my plans is actually working, it seems that Daisy is totally sold that Aro is going and voting me and it's awesome if she ends up getting blindsided as intended. Jacob is getting two votes because he sucks and I want him to know he should be worried, he threw my name out, and he's untrustworthy, even after like I pretended like i was interested in his crush that he talks about at least once a day, it's almost more satisfying knowing that I can flip and get him out if I really wanted to. In fact I have my choice to vote Daisy, Aro, or Jacob, and if I'm not getting played that wold mean I've spun this terrible swap into a great spot for myself, and I love it. See what happens when I get a chance to really play?

I am so screeeeewed. So basically everyone except Daisy and Jacob wants to vote for Daisy but I am about 90% sure this is bs and I am getting set up for a big blindside. Well, it wont really be a blindside now but rip me

Okay so I only really have 13 mins to type out a fuck ton of information. This vote is crazy, so much has happened and we only had a few hours to strategize for this tribal. Anyway originally me and Allie were thinking about voting Daisy bc she told LA she has an idol, but then LA sent screenshots of Aro's idol. So I was panicking for a moment bc I thought it was real, but I talked to people, and he was probably really desperate, so i think were sticking to voting out Aro. I'm just typing out the short version of what actually happened, bc I don't have a lot of time, but basically me and Allie are the swing votes and I hope everything goes as planned.

As we near tribal Im starting to get the teeniest glimmer of hope. Willow, Allie and Matt seems to be pretty interested in working with me. If it goes according to plan its going to be 3 votes Daisy, 2 votes Jacob and 2 votes me. However Im still about 80% sure that Im going to get blindsided tonight so fingers crossed

Episode 6 “bye bye winning streak” - Karen

The complete opposite of what usually happens, Aro did my dirty work instead of me doing his! I'm so proud of him but I revealed a lot of stuff about our connection to Mitchell yesterday bc I was certain he wouldn't be able to pull off a change in the vote but I'm really glad he did anyways bc now I still have an unflappable ally in the game and someone who was actively targeting me like two weeks ago is gone instead! :)))

I can't believe that actually worked. We probably could have gotten out Daisy like planned but we thought she was gonna use her idol last minute so we switched to Monty. But either way, I live to see another day.

Also! I've outperformed myself in Arabia so that's lit! Day 16 y'all!

I know I say this in like all of my confessionals, but I'm really worried for this challenge. Like its so simple, but that's what makes it hard? and I mess up really easily too, so I'm a bit nervous.

Hi I'm zakrazzak and i think im in a good position in this game? i never feel like that in any game ever i always just assume im gonna be voted out should we end up at tribal but this time i feel... completely safe with just about everyone??? weird. i think me, mitch, and dana lowkey made a f3? but like dana hates duos and they both know me and aro are fuckbuddies so im a little concerned. they both kinda really want to get karen out because she and lexi are pretty much a duo and we all know it, no ones heard anything about the idol yet and im assuming someone has it to be honest so that could make things messy. I'm pretty much just assuming we're going to tribal at this point and, for me, the choice would be down to either Karen or Allie - Karen and Lexi are way too dangerous and were targeting me week one, Allie pretty much just doesnt talk. im kinda really worried about voting out another vet so soon seeing as Linus and Monty the traitor just left back to back but I'm hopeful a little i guess

Man, I gotta tell you... ok i just noticed the top of the confessional page is a gif??? Wtf!! Okay so where was I.......... during the challenge, I thought that Aromal needed to win it to be safe. He basically confirmed what we'd suspected - that he'd flipped to Linus and Monty, and then Monty had flipped on Linus, leaving him on the outs. Aromal seems like a great guy and a potential ally, so it definitely sucked sending him off to Tribal Council. It even got to the point where I saw if I could give him my Idol - the people who would survive on that tribe probably don't have my interests at heart, but Aromal might. I couldn't, and was resigned to the fact that Aromal, a good potential ally, would be going. But then Aromal survived and Monty got axed!!! I was absolutely FLOORED to see that. FLOORED. I liked Monty and think in another world we could've worked together, but it's about damn time the Karen/Lexi/Monty clique got taken out, and it's even better that I didn't have to do anything but stay immune for four consecutive rounds in order to make it happen. Aromal survives, a potential ally but admittedly a member of a threatening obvious trio went home, and I lived to see another day. And on another note... I hope that I don't start to get seen as a challenge threat. Admittedly, I did win the last two immunity challenges for my tribe by myself, but speed typing and Jeopardy! are like the only two challenges I'm good at. That's not necessarily true, as I proved in Malaysia that I'm a bit of a force in challenges from Snake to Touchy Subjects, but in a tribal setting, the two challenges I won are ones that I'm dominant in and can't hide if I want to protect my tribe. I'm hoping that I've created strong enough bonds so that people aren't seeing me as a challenge threat - they're seeing me as my ally Mitchell who's been doing good for our tribe. But it's going to come down to some point where I can't deny my challenge abilities, and I'm working to prepare myself for when that happens.

I FUCKED UP THAT CHALLENGE. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I just feel awful, even though I was the last one left, I just feel like Makira immunity was all on me, and I let everyone down. I know we haven't officially lost yet but it sorta feels like we have since we all fucked up early. I was looking at another number and got distracted, so I really have no excuse, and god I just feel awful about it idk. On another really terrible note, I think someone else has the idol. Because Allie looked in the plane wreck, and there was nothing there. Also when Karen sent us the spreadsheet that the vets made someone had looked in the plane wreckage, so that means one of the vets has the idol :////. I could be completely wrong about this but I don't think its Karen or Mitchell that have the idol because Karen sent the spreadsheet before she looked for the idol that round, and Mitchell made some joke about expired Walmart coupons, which was on Karen's spreadsheet for where the idol wasn't. So that must mean that either Dana or Zakriah have the idol. Also on the vets spreadsheet it has it as the idol is not in the plane wreckage, so whoever found the idol must be lying about it to the other vets. But I also could be completely wrong about this, so yeah.

Recently the game has been going pretty well for me. After losing Lily, two vets have gone home, which has put the numbers in our favor. I high-key hope that LA and Daisy lose that challenge for their tribe, and take out Aro for flipping on Lily, and it also seems like Daisy and LA left Aro out of the loop on the last vote, so getting rid of him would be like getting rid of a vet. Jacob made me aware that he fucked up on the immunity challenge, and I know my score was about average, so at this point, we're falling on Luca to do really well, and we're also falling on another tribe to fuck up, so I'm hardcore hoping at this point. I thought we were going to swap this past round, but we're still here, and if this tribe heads to tribal council, I don't entirely know what my plan is, BUT I do know that I was offered a f4 deal with the vets, which I might play up, but I'm not entirely too sure about it. I might cohesively vote out Luca, with the vets and Jacob, and hope that that's a good long term move on my part, with keeping Ryan, Matt and Lex trusting me, but I'm not entirely too sure how it'll all play out, but at this point, I am expecting to go to tribal council and have a crazy round of tribal ahead of us.

I think I just orchestrated a master plan, and I made this because I'm extra careful, and really covering all my bases, but if this works, I'm going to come out of this tribal with a strong alliance of four, consisting of two veterans, and letting all three rookies from this tribe stay in it, leaving me, and my closest ally, Jacob, in the power position in this game. First I need to backtrack. I spoke to Matt a few rounds ago, and he was badgering me about a final four alliance with the vets.... mkay dude. That's definitely going to happen *shakes head furiously behind his back.* However, apparently he had been having conversations with Luca, and Luca was insistent to Matt that Lexi needed to go home, and that it'd be easy since she was inactive, but that's not the path I'm looking to take here. Lexi is the veteran in the game I'm probably the closest to, and I would almost prefer Luca the rookie go home over Lex, because she's proven to be a great ally, and an incredible asset to my game. My plan was to approach Lexi, and go back to the relationship deal we made the night we swapped, go up to her, and make an approach of letting her decide whether she'd prefer Ryan or Matt to go home. Once she said she would prefer to vote for Matt, I knew that I could use a lot of what Matt said to Luca, against Matt. I told Lex that Matt said if enough votes were there to take out Lex, she would do it, which made Lex be more willing to take Matt out of the game, and I set the ball in motion to make it happen. I went to Jacob and Luca to explain the plan of Lex flipping to us, to vote out Matt, and that Luca needs to get the thought out of his head of taking Lex out of the game, mainly because she is one of my closest allies. As of right now: Lex is with me, and she is voting out Matt with Jacob, Luca and I, and hopefully, unless Matt has an idol, Matt is going to go home. HOWEVER, Matt thinks that I have a f4 deal with Lex, Matt and Ryan, and that we're all voting for Luca. Matt wants to vote for Luca because Luca is apparently threatening, for outright targeting Lex, and being too strategic, so that works out fine for me. Luca and Matt should be the only two targeted. My plan heading into this tribal, assuming we even lose the challenge, is for Lex to be the one to approach Ryan, and she is going to propose a four person alliance between Jacob, Ryan, Lex and I, and this way, we can make a chat, and rope Ryan in into voting for Matt, and letting him know that the four of us need to make sure that all of the votes, regardless of who goes home, the votes are on Luca and Matt. I don't see Lex, or Ryan for that matter, lying about their vote, because I don't get the vibe that they're super cutthroat, like I am, so hopefully we're going to be good. Five of us voting for Matt, and Matt thinking that the vets and me are voting for Luca. Time to pray that we don't lose immunity, but if we lose, I'm all planned out, in a very discrete manner as well To enable screen reader support, press shortcut Ctrl+Alt+Z. To learn about keyboard shortcuts, press shortcut Ctrl+slash.

Today was very interesting. It's been the first time in ages since we knew we did poorly in an immunity, and the swapped Temoana might be going to tribal council for the very first time. We're not allowed to share our scores but we know we did poorly. And something interesting, game-related finally happened. I was talking to Johnny and Jacob today in our three, and Matt apparently approached Johnny for an F4 because he wants the Vets and him to vote me out if we lose - he's saying I'm playing hard. I brought Lexi up to him before, and quite honestly that was because she wasn't online much. But now that she's back on, I think I'm gonna need to try and work with her. Matt is a snake and he's playing the game very hard right now. I trust Johnny/Jacob enough to tie it. Lexi promised me she wouldn't vote me, so I think I'm safe today. Hopefully. No idea on what Ryan is doing right now.

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Well this challenge has been really interesting, basically I was kind of already resigned to losing the challenge because I was under the impression we were gonna show some like single digit scores, but I guess we won. I'm happy about winning because we have six pretty good people on this tribe and if we swap I have this nuTemoana alliance and the old Vets who I could potentially align with, but who knows what's going to happen? Basically tho, I think I am in a good spot on this tribe because I pretty much orchestrated a blindside of Luca that we aren't actually going to be playing out but oh well... I'm kind of eager to play this game just so I can really get my finger on the pulse of this strategic game, but if I have to sit back and play from the shadows and just observe then so be it, call me the Shadow King, because I will be so god damn sneaky no one will see me coming until i slit their throats. Slice slice.

YO FOR REAL I'M ACTUALLY SO MOTHERFUCKING PISSED THAT OUR TRIBE LOST THIS CHALLENGE! I'M GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND THAT *ME* DOING WELL IN A CHALLENGE IS GOING TO BE THE DOWNFALL FOR MY GAME. I am 99% sure that Matt would've gone home, and that would've taken a vet out of the game, and now Willow or Allie is going to probably going home, unless they pull a horse shoe out of their ass, and those are two of my closest long term allies in this game, and all of a sudden, they're at risk, and my team is going to fucking be safe, when I had convinced Lex to make such a BIG move, and now, we can't even make the move, all because I fucking did too well in the challenge. I'm actually losing my mind how badly I fucked this up for my game, and I didn't MEAN to do well, it just fucking happened. I hate being good at shit! FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE SWAP ULAWA IS NOT GOING TO TRIBAL AND ITS ALL THANKS TO ME. I DON'T CARE HOW COCKY OR BRAGGY THAT SOUNDS BECAUSE MY SCORE ALONE BEAT THE OTHERS TRIBES TOTALS. And Aro fucking threw the thing, he told me he wanted to in order to make daisy use her idol but that was the stupidest fucking idea and I told him no, that we need to win for once and then he throws it anyways. Daisy's score wasn't the greatest either, IT MUST BE SO NICE HAVING AN IDOL CAUSE APPARENTLY IT MEANS YOU DON'T HAVE TO TRY. CAN YOU TELL HOW BITTER I AM?! Honestly though, maybe its because I game a lot, but I'm used to having teammates who actually help and put effort in. We might make jokes about one person carrying the team but its all in good fun and the rest of us do help, BUT NOT ON ULAWA. (still a little bitter over here) I'm worried this will put a bigger target on my back, if Daisy already considers me to be a challenge threat, this does no help my case at all and others might share that concern now too. At this point I'm just hoping the alliances I made before the swap are still there and I can move forward with them. I am happy we, I, won though. It might not seem like it but I am so relieved for once I don't have to stress about tribal.

Who're the three best challenge performers on NuMakira?? Me, Dana, and Karen. But all three of us were busy!! So Allie, Willow, and Zak came up to the plate. It's an easy challenge. It's... counting. It's literally fucking counting. I've won four immunity challenges in a row and all that stands between me and #5 is counting. All they gotta do is count. ...that's it. Now I've never done this challenge before, but I assume it shouldn't be that difficult to count, right?? WRONG WDFEWDFSDCEWDSAHONFWD within like 2 hours all three of them were out, so we had an entire extra day to prepare for Tribal Council. The results came in and our lowest scorer did better than both of Ulawa's lowest - AROMAL GOT A FUCKING 1 - but we STILL got obliterated, with LA and Johnny putting Ulawa and Temoana respectively into the thousands themselves. We got beat by a bunch of numbers. This sucks - going to Tribal Council is never a good thing. That being said... I've been on cruise control for a while, and now I get to actually play. I've harbored thoughts of making a move against Karen for some time, and now that we're actually going to Tribal - particularly as I suspect there is going to be a swap next - I'm excited that I've had the chance to shore up some trust. Willow and I have been good, but I had a very good and lengthy conversation with the ICON Allie last night. I really like Allie's energy and her vibe, but last night was our first real extended conversation, and it went really well. We talked a lot of game, she gave me a lot of insight into the rookies' tribe, and I feel... good about it. Allie and Willow have both said that this is, if not their first, ONE of their first ORGs ever. Now, they could be lying, and using this information to mislead my opinions of them, but I'm choosing to trust them. What benefit do they have in making up an entire backstory both for themselves and for the OG veterans' tribe? I like them, and so I believe them, and if Karen goes home 5-1, I will trust them without doubts. Moving into a swap, I'm piecing together who I can draft into a majority merge alliance - if everything goes smoothly at this Tribal Council, I'd say that the five remaining NuMakira plus Aromal would be my ideal. Relationships with Matt and Ryan will hopefully still be in tact and exploitable for the early merge. I truly think that, from the information I have - which is a lot, if it's all true - I'm sitting in a rather enviable position with Dana. We seem to be on the same wavelength on our own opinions and in the ways others feel to us. I hope that Dana doesn't try to bite the apple and oust me eventually for this reason; I like her a lot and I'd like to work with her for as long as possible. However, I can't help but have doubts about how good this partnership can truly be, and will remain vigilant to hopefully catch whenever this betrayal should arise, if ever. I will be shoring up my relationships with Allie and Willow for as long as we have left on this tribe, and will make sure Dana and Zak are okay with booting Karen. Then we dancin. Things are going so well I expect to get fucked up real good any day now.

It looks like it'll be Karen tonight but I trust not a single bitch until after tribal council results are read and I'm still in the game.

I'm honestly so worried about this vote, like it could go so many different ways fuck. I'm especially worried because I did so terrible in the challenge yesterday, and sorta all of the challenges in general. There are so many ways this vote could go right now and I'm not really sure what to do. Because its probably going to be me or Karen going home tonight. Okay so the first scenario is that Karen flips on a revote. She said she was trying to convince the other vets to split the vote in case we might have an idol (which we don't lmao). Then Karen said it would be 2-2-2 in which case it would go to a revote, and she would flip and it would be 3-2-1, or it would be tied. If me and Allie sided with Karen then it maybe wouldn't be me going home idk. Also I'm pretty sure we could trust Karen, at least for this vote. The other scenario would be going with Dana and Mitchell and Zakriah(?) to vote out Karen. So I'm hoping its a unanimous vote to get Karen out, or else I'm screwed lol. 

ANYWAY! bye bye winning streak......me when i thot we could go thruout for this whole tribe swap without going to tribal but ! here ! we! are! ugh ok so as far as i know, zak and mitchell were gonna vote for me the first tribal so i dont see a reason not to snatch them this round, u kno show them not to mess w me. ok so basically ive made fairly strong bonds with both willow and allie, and as far as i can tell we are a solid 3 and tbqh im not here for picking the rookies off one by one and obviously i gotta be friendly w everyone bc u never kno what circumstances youll end up in. so i have an all vet alliance and a rookie alliance, they both have docs with idol info on it and basically this is the best position for me bc i can find the clue faster, which! i did and i shared it with the rookies so that they can help me look. but the thing is tho the clue clearly says that it has something to do with the plane wreckage but its already been checked? so i think i may have to do it in order which is ok it guess but hopefully i stay on this tribe long enough to figure the rest out. so all day i was thinking of a way that me and rookies can get our way this tribal, and im talking to the vets about idols and such and basically scare them into thinking that one of them having it bc weve been flopping when it comes to looking for them so, i propose a 2-2-2 vote as an easy way to flush any idol and even if it ties, we'd have majority on revote but! jokes on them bc im flipping to the rookies to make it 3-2-1 for zak. this plan is one of my better simpler ones, but it relies on no idols actually being played and the vets being naive enough to think that we'd all be sticking together.

Episode 5 “I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON” -L.A.

Well I don't know what is going on with these other tribes, I'm confused how they went from voting a rookie to voting a veteran which makes me think I can't just rely on reconnecting with my veterans which means I might as well go ahead and lock in some alliances with the rookies on my tribe, who honestly I want out because they kinda annoy me. But I've learned a lot from my past experiences, I really feel like this is a redemption season for me, I have to suck it up sometimes that people rub me the wrong way, I have to play a game, lie to people, align myself with whoever will get me farther in this game. I'm not bringing the chaos this time I'm bringing the sneaky snaky self, hiss hiss. I've officially placed higher than 17th like I did last time which is good and right now I'm eager to make it to the merge so my game can really just explode and I can take control.

*SCREAMS* THAT WAS SO STRESSFUL, FUCKIN' HELL. AFTER I SAW MY NAME ONCE I WAS LIKE WELP I'M GOING HOME BUT NAH MONTY IS ACTUALLY TRUSTWORTHY. Looking back, I feel stupid for considering to work with Linus, but he was the person I talked to the most so I wanted to work with someone I liked. I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON. (that's a lie, i'll probably make a rookie mistake later on) But I can pretend I'm older and wiser for now.

I found out that Linus went home during my 11-hour to home from college today, so I was planning out some confessionals outlining my next-step strategies because Linus was a close and valuable ally for me in this game and someone I really liked, but I watched the Survivor episode I couldn't watch live as soon as I got home and... all I want to say is that this puts things in perspective for me, truly, about how this is a game, and the tears I cried tonight, in my opinion, will have a profound impact on how I will play out the remainder of this game. I was reminded in the most dramatic way possible how this is all a game. Especially being someone who has, at times, blurred the distinction between real life and game in things that I've said and done, I'm looking at things through a completely different outlook after what I just witnessed transpire on national television. This is a game. This is literally just an online game. I'm going to make sure that I keep people reminded of that, that the experience can be as fun and enjoyable for people as possible, and that should I come close to blurring the line between game and life again... that I think back to the raw emotions this evening incited among the Survivor community and I remember how low-stakes this all is. I hope that this experience brings all of us in this game together so that we may approach the remainder of the season with respect, passion, and fun. I'll get back to you on strategies when there are less tears running down my face.

https://youtu.be/Q1XPLeE__oc This one BETTER BE UNLISTED.

we won reward and slither.io is fucking terrible so fuck that and let's catch y'all up with my strategies Linus went home, which was truly a wake-up call. Linus was someone I trusted and someone that I was fully aligned with and vibed with, so losing him - potentially at, as Zakriah suspects, Monty's hands - was rough. I've been playing this game on Easy Mode; we've been on cruise control since Day 1, going to Tribal Council once where Chrissa self-voted herself out 10-0, and have been immune ever since. This is literally my longest immunity streak in Tumblr Survivor history - 3 rounds - and it hit me that I haven't even been playing. No votes, no alliance-building and strategic developments... I'd been just winning everything and not worrying about jack squat. And then I see that Linus' ass is gone and suddenly my ass is grass - I've got one less ally in this game. I got woke up real hard and have now attempted to get out of cruise control and start course-correcting. I approached Dana with all this, because she's my closest ally in this game, and she agreed. On my way home yesterday, I was planning it out - form positive working relationships with the rookies because, if we keep winning, why not feel good with them in a potential swap or merge? I was planning on getting info out of Willow, and striking a deal with Allie. Instead, after having more convos with Willow, I elected to strike a deal with her; it's not official, but we've both got each others' backs, which loosely means that we're working together. I'm happy that Willow is the one I've formed a stronger relationship with because I truly see Allie as the bigger threat; we can boot Allie if we need to, and I can keep Willow around as my Katie. In Malaysia, I had a great and honest partnership with Katie; we were each others' ride-or-die, Katie because I was loyal to her and me because I felt like I could beat Katie in the end. I've got the same vibe about Willow here. She can be my partner and extra vote to the end of this game where I'll beat her - it sounds good. Now, I wanted to form good relationships with both Allie and Willow for two reasons: if we keep winning they're good allies in the advent of an inevitable future swap or merge, and if we do lose, then they won't be targeting me. Now, should we lose, my thought was to get rid of bigger rookie threat Allie, and should we lose again, take out Karen; the Karen/Monty/Lexi obvious trio shouldn't have a chance to reunite, but at the moment Karen is still a number with me, even if we hardly talk. I could be convinced to oust Karen first because Allie, while a bigger threat, might offer more future connections for Dana and myself, while the only connections Karen has are to a well-known solid clique that may have already turned against the veterans. The time will come to decide that. Until future events come to pass, my head is now back and placed firmly and square on my shoulders. No more easy mode, no more cruise control, and hopefully more premeditated and beneficial progressions.

me: finds idol clue that says in no uncertain terms that the idol is in the plane wreckage me: checks the cute vets' idol hunting doc and sees that someone has already checked there and, presumably, found the idol me: what the fuck now i'm sAD me: checks the plane wreckage anyways me: ...............fINDS THEF UIEDHFCUIEWDHXJ FUCKING IDKJCIOKWDHFNCIWS IDOL HUDEUWSIDHXS JESS CHRIST 

This is legit so fucking weird. In the google docs, somebody searched there... and if they did they should have the idol... but I HAVE THE IDOL???... So someone's fabricating where they're searching??? On paper, that kind of makes sense; lie about where you've actually been to hide places that you haven't searched and leave open places where you know it's not, so your alliance can search there and not find it. That makes sense. But this edit was literally the second edit in the doc. It doesn't make any sense at all how that edit is in there and i have the idol rn. I'm legit sketched the fuck out LOL but... I lied to Dana that i searched the pile of ash (lol) and that I found the clue that I really found days ago there, and she's on a tear now. On the topic of vets being shady, she thinks that Karen's out to get her. now that i've got the idol and am feeling ballsy... karen's a lot more expendable to my conceited ass now than she was when i was vulnerable. i'll take an idol, allie, and the risk of allie's people being out to get me over an idol, karen, and a trio getting allowed to reunite. letting karen stay definitively gives a clear-cut clique the chance to reunite. there's nothing clear-cut about allie, but even if there was unbeknownst to me, i've got the idol as leverage and protection. without that protection, i would've taken the known of karen/monty/lexi over the unknown quantity of allie's allegiance, but now... karen's ass is grass. But this is all conjecture. The immunity challenge is Jeopardy!, with only one tribe representing. Kendall and I fucking dominated this challenge in Malaysia and I'm optimistic that I could do so again, so I'm thinking our chances of going to Tribal Council this round are less than likely. But if we do... Karen :~) maybe u should've tried talking to me or dana ever lol

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shitshitshithsit Im screwed ;_; ill try my best to try and create a legit looking fake idol but I dont see it working at all. Fuck you Mitchell!! Fuck you Ryan!!! and Fuck you Monty!!!! I hope you all get eaten by a bunch of crocodiles

mitchell: 2 tumblevivor jeopardy!: 1 :)

Okay so last night after we got the reward, I didn't get an idol clue, but I decided to look because it's smart to look every round. Anyway I went to the sunken ship again because me and Allie have been looking in there, and I went to the flooded control deck, and then to the old map, and I found a clue, I'm so excited! [Friday, April 14, 2017 12:22 AM] Isaac (Solomon Islands Host): <<< You pick up the map You notice something written on the backside Congratulations you have found the clue to the hidden immunity idol "While you want to be soaring and flying. These people did not and ended up dying"Isaac (Solomon Islands Host), Yesterday 12:22 AM I'm just really happy about finding this clue, because I think I know where to look now, but I'll just have to wait until next round. I told Allie about the clue and that she should look this round, so that we can find the idol faster, but I don't think shes looked yet. I'm just hoping whoever got the idol clue from the reward challenge doesn't find the idol before me and Allie. It's weird because at the beginning of this game I thought the idea of someone looking for the idol was crazy, but now I realize it's not, and I've been looking every round. On another note, Mitchell came up to me and told me that he got good vibes from me, and that he's got my back, which is really great because Mitchell is an awesome person, and hes someone that I really want to work with. To enable screen reader support, press shortcut Ctrl+Alt+Z. To learn about keyboard shortcuts, press shortcut Ctrl+slash.

Ok so Im ready to start throwing literally everything at the wall. I have a pretty cray cray move planned, hope it works out but atleast I would go down fighting.

Because Monty flipped on the vets - I already knew it, but Mitchell confirmed it after the jeopardy challenge - Aromal is screwed tonight and we got a rat in our midst. What Mitchell is thinking is since Monty is so quick to vote out a vet, we should scoop in Allie and Willow and take out some of his allies in a potential second swap situation. It's put me in a pickle bc I do want to work w Karen but I know I probably can't bc of the shit I've talked about Lexi already. So if worse comes to worst and we have to vote out a vet it'll be one of those three.

So while I am excited about winning immunity again I am kinda peeved that fricking Ulawa lost again and I can be expecting another vet to go which means the veterans are going to be down in numbers which I don't want because I want to be in a position where I can have both nuTemoana and the Veterans to work with, but if the rookies get the numbers than I may be at the mercy of the rookies in nuTemoana who I have been building bonds with slowly even though I will quickly get rid of any of them. I kinda wish Makira would like throw it or something because they have 4-2 over there and like again I find myself sitting back and waiting for the game to reach a point where I can be making moves and taking control. But if winning immunity every time is what gets me to the merge than I guess I'm okay with that because that would give me plenty of time to hide just how deceptive I can be.

So a lot has happened since the last tribal. Aro was our target - until he revealed that he has an idol, and showed us screenshots. Leaving us at a huge disadvantage, considering me, Monty, and L.A. have an alliance together and Aro is our only conceivable target. So Monty and I came up with a plan. Me and L.A. are voting for Aro, and him and Aro are voting for L.A. That way, if he plays his idol, L.A. goes home and not me or Monty (even though we don't really want her gone, at this point, we may not have a choice). And if he doesn't play his idol, me and Monty are the deciding votes and get rid of Aro instead. Our biggest worry is that Aro votes for Monty instead, meaning it ties between Monty and L.A., and then if Aro really wants Monty gone I have to make the decision of either voting out my closest ally, or going to rocks and risking myself. Actually no, if Aro plays his idol he'd be immune at rocks. So there's no way I wouldn't vote for Monty in that situation, because I'd be the only person pulling rocks. So really, this hinges on Aro doing what he's telling us he's doing, which is something really risky to bet on. I told Aro that I wanted to vote for L.A., just to solidify his vote for her. I really hope this goes as planned, and that Aro doesn't play his idol.

I need a better social game, coming into this game I knew it would be my tragic flaw and now I think I might go home because of it. It's already been established that Monty was unsure about me because we didn't talk a lot, and we don't. Daisy and I only became close-ish, after the Lily vote because we both felt in danger and needed someone to have our back but now she has an idol and better social game. The only person I talked to regularly, I voted out because I wasn't able to trust him and now I'm stuck with these people I am not close with at all and I get the feeling that they are close. Daisy and Monty seem to talk a lot and I'm not sure about Aro and where he stands. I feel like if I don't do something I'm going home tonight, Aro says he has an idol which I believe and Daisy and Monty are just saying lets vote Aro anyways, and it makes no sense. If he has an idol then he's going to use and since they aren't worried I'm clearly the target so now I have to do something to try and save myself. I'm worried about coming off paranoid, too aggressive, or untrustworthy but I have to do something, otherwise I feel like I'm just letting myself go home without a fight.

I talked to Aro, and basically told him everything. I wasn't wrong about possibly going home tonight, Daisy put my name out to him. Apparently, I'm good at challenges and that scares her. TBH, all I do is put effort in, I can go hard like I did with the word game, but besides that I haven't put that much effort in. I considered down playing when I first started but whats the point? I'd rather be seen as a strong challenge player rather than someone who doesn't try. At this point I can only hope Aro doesn't flip again, so we'll see how this all works out.

Okayyy I actually might have found an opening. Heres whats goin down tonight Daisy and Monty are voting me to try and flush my (very fake) idol. However they dont wanna be at the receiving end of my (very fake) idol so they told me to vote L.A . I figured out what they were planning and went straight to LA. We are now voting Daisy because she thinks both Daisy and Monty are voting for her. Oh and apparently Daisy has an idol too so if we manage to get rid of her we might send her packing with the idol. So the vote is gonna be 2-2 and L.A HAS to draw rocks or else Im screwed. PLEASE LET THIS WORK

okay okay me and LA are voting Monty not Daisy OH GOD PLEASE LET THIS WORK

I kinda feel bad for Ulawa since they've lost every immunity challenge. I'm also worried that after tonight's tribal there might be another tribe swap since Ulawa would be down 3 members (I think?). And if there is a tribe swap and I end up on a different "beach" then that'll be a little scary bc I'm so close to finding this idol. I know I used to complain about the first tribe swap but everyone on Makira has been really nice to me, even though I came into the swap down 4-2. Anyway I should I probably stop assuming that there might be a swap because I'll never know until it actually happens.

Rites Of Passage Jury

Allie: Out of all of the people that have been voted out this season, you leaving was one of the saddest for me. At the beginning of this season, I had no experience with ORGs whatsoever and I was so nervous, and you really took me under your wing and made me feel welcomed! Thank you for bonding with me over kpop and being so bright and wonderful. I hope that your musical went well and that your crush ended up liking you back!

Aromal: You were my winner pick after the first 3 days of the game. You were social af and everyone at Makira 1.0 seemed to rally around you. Hope your thing with your crush is going okay :O !

Mitchell: We're all in this together and all but i'm sorry when i found out that you played my fake idol I laughed so hard i cried. It was fun getting to know you but that moment was pure joy to me. Miss u

Willow: JACOB! Holy shit, let me first start out by saying that I literally love you so much! You were one of my first ally’s over on OG Makira. I remember on night 1 I was really confused how orgs worked and you explained a lot of stuff to me, like I didn’t even know how to screenshot stuff. I remember during the paint ball challenge all of the newbies did a tribe call so that we could focus, but we ended up flopping lmao. I remember you ended up getting stressed and accidentally resting your head on the keyboard and pressing send too early! I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you during the 2nd swap, but I still love you and hope that we can be friends once this is done. 

Allie: Your submission for the music video challenge was honestly the funniest and cutest thing in the whole entire world. Thank you for always being so pleasant to talk to and I hope you thesis is/ended up going well! You going home on accident was honestly tragic, but you seem super duper crazy smart and I know that you will succeed no matter where life takes you.

Aromal: That was the craziest unluckiest most unfortunate vote out I've ever seen tbh. Mitchell loves you so you're probably a great person but yeah you definitely deserved to get further.

Mitchell: DANA MY ROCK! I miss you so much and I'm sorry I had to do you like that. WE ALMOST HAD EM!!! And I so fucking wish you were still here instead of all these FAKES!! For real, you were my closest ally and my best friend from this experience, and I really wish we could've gotten to spend more time together as the true icons of this game. But I don't miss you enough to get voted out next so ! Distance makes the heart grow fonder !

Willow: Dana, you were a really fun person to talk to, and the name Dana is cool! I remember your video for the music video challenge was so good, and the “bye bitch” sign was hilarious. You were a really awesome person overall, and it sucks that you were voted out with only 1 vote since Luca had fallen asleep and didn’t get a chance to change it. 

Allie: As soon as we got on the same tribe together, you were completely down to work with me, so thank you for being so welcoming and fun to talk to! I met you really close to finals week and it was kind of de-stressing to be able to talk to someone about mac and cheese. That being said, you were also kind of the victim of a game move of mine, so I do feel like I need to say that it was purely a game move, and not because of your personality! I’m sorry that I wasn’t always completely honest with you and I only have the best wishes for you.

Aromal: Loved allying with you for 4 rounds! I really enjoyed your dry wit and I hope you get another chance because you were a solid player.

Mitchell: Matt, at times I feel like being close with you hurt my game more than it helped, but I got nothing but love for you, kid. I hate that you got done dirty the way you did and I hope Ponderosa is treating you well. I can't wait to catch up with you when this is all done!

Willow: Matt, the first memory I have is that during the 2nd swap you felt a little on the outs but then Mitchell recommended you to me. I thought overall you were a pretty chill person, and you had good survivor opinions. I remember you were asking for advice on what tumblr url to use, and you said ciriesuschrist was one of your options, which was crazy, bc that used to be my old url for my survivor sideblog. Sometimes you could be kinda shady, but I’m sorry for lying to you about you being voted off, bc I really didn’t wanna flip. 

Y’know, being in my first main org, the competition was stiff, and I thought I was smarter than everyone else, and it was my own doing. I guess being voted biggest hero, everyone’s best friend and hands down playing the best game didn’t do me any good. At the end of the day, I can only blame myself :/

Allie: I completely mean this when I say it: I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone quite like you. You are so funny and besides my dad, you’re also the only frat boy I’ve ever talked to lol. I really admired how hard you played, and how enthusiastic you were about the rookies vs. vets theme. I hope that you are that passionate and determined in all areas of your life! Also, thank you for being one of the first people to see me as a threat in this game – whether it was accurate or not, it was certainly flattering for me, so I really appreciate it!

Aromal: King Johnny <3 You were easily one of the best players of the season and I'm sorry we had to blindside you the way we did but if we hadn't taken you out then, you would've won :(

Mitchell: Bro, we coulda been a LEGENDARY pair in this game but I just couldn't trust you. Hope you're not too mad about all this and let's light up some time and get past all this. I really did love being on a tribe with you because we clicked so well, but I just could never tell if that clicking was gonna save me in this game or screw me, so I went to screwing you first! People can attest to how excited I was to meet you, and deadass bro, you lived up to it. Catch you soon. You really are unlike every other frat boy out there.

Willow: JOHNNY! Honestly at the start of this game based off your intro I thought you were gonna be a stereotypical annoying frat boy, but holy shit, I was so very wrong! You were honestly one of the most interesting people out here, like whenever we would talk it never got boring! I remember you were one of my first friends in this game, and I hope we can remain friends once this is all over. You were a really big threat though because everyone liked you and you were in control of the nuTemoana alliance and the “all newbie alliance”. Even though I love you it was pretty satisfying blindsiding you 4-3-2-1. 

Allie: First off, I would like to apologise for lying to you for like thirty minutes straight that one time. That wasn’t cool, but I was in panic mode and for some reason I thought that was the best solution. That being said, I think you were probably one of the biggest personalities cast in this game and I really enjoyed all the funny little things you would put in the main chats! I hope everything between you and Snapchat boy works out all romantic and such.

Aromal: WINNER OF SURVIVOR SUMBAWA WINNER OF SURVIVOR MOROCCO WINNER OF SURVIVOR RESURRECTION WINNER OF SURVIVOR IDALIA

Mitchell: The fact that you gave the flare to this straight white boy was the most touching moment of this game and I thank u for adding some... flair to my game

Willow: I know I’ve said this so many times but Zakriah is one of the coolest names! I remember after the first tribe swap, I was kinda scared of you for some reason, but then you ended up being a super awesome person. You were always really funny, and a good person to talk to. It sucks that you aren’t here right now since you were a part of the nuMakira alliance, and you were the one who originally had the flare. I’m really hoping we can be friends once this game is done. 

Allie: You get the longest message by far because you’re my favorite person in this game, and also one of my favorite people in my life. Thank you for suggesting to me that I sign up for this, because it’s honestly been so fun! We go way back to when I was a nervous wreck who couldn’t play clarinet and didn’t have any friends, and I really appreciate that you took me under your wing and talked to me about music and gossip. You turned what could have been a pretty awful experience in band into such a positive and amazing one for me, so thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin between all of the stupid, petty drama of highschool. That being said, you have been one of the best parts of college for me as well, and I’m so blessed that I’ve gotten to share so much of my life with you thus far. Even though we won’t be living together next year (a tragedy, tbh), I know I’ll see you lots and that we’ll have so many new and crazy adventures. That being said, you getting voted out was the saddest moment of this game for me, and I am really sorry things worked out the way they did. If I could go back in time and change it, I would. Sorry you got stuck with a friend who had no idea what she was doing in this game. Next time, let’s try not to have our premade exposed! You’re one of my best friends and I love you lots, see you soon! <3

Aromal: We didn't talk, like at all but you were a huge player in the season and your vote out changed the entire course of the game. 

Mitchell: Miss Lexi, I would've loved to work with you in this game bc you got a real cool job but you didn't talk to me that much and our interests never really lined up so that sucked! At least you got to go out voting for the truest icon of this game !

Willow: To be completely honest you didn’t put in a whole lot of effort to talk to me. Every once and a while I’d text you and after a while you’d just sorta stop replying, so I never got to know you very well. But I do remember competing against you in the gross food challenge, and you did so well, like I admire anyone who even attempts it bc it was so gross! 

Allie: Even though we were in this game together for quite awhile, you were one of the people I talked to the least, and I regret not getting to know you better! I admire you for being so good at the numbers challenge, and at all of the other challenges to be honest. In my opinion, you were one of the biggest comp beasts of the season. Thank you for being completely honest with me whenever we talked game, and I hope that you continue to kill it in your future endeavors like you killed it in those comps!

Aromal: Unfortunately we kinda lost contact after Ulawa, but honestly though working with you to blindside Monty was easily one of my favorite moments of the season. 

Mitchell: L.A., I was really excited to meet the icon that was you ever since the paintball challenge, and I loved connecting with you over things like Kingdom Hearts... but I also just couldn't trust you and it's unfortunate because I think we're really similar people with really similar interests. I hope everything is going well and I know you're gonna end up doing something great!

Willow: Aww LA, ily! You were also one of my first friends in this game, it was cool bc at the start neither of us really knew what was going on since neither of us had played in an org before. I enjoyed talking about video games with you, and you were a really fun person to talk to. You were always pretty good at challenges, like wow go LA! Even though we never really worked together at all after the merge I’m hoping we can be friends once this is all done. 

Allie: I know that by voting you out, you thought we were handing the season to Mitchell. But honestly, by not voting you out, I feel like we all would have handing this season to you. You were one of the last people in this season that I had the opportunity to talk to (I’m p sure we couldn’t talk until One World), and that’s a shame because you are so very nice, from how you talk to others to even your job, and that’s something I really look up to. Congrats on making it to single digits!

Aromal: The Jay Starret of the season. I definitely understand why you felt the way you did when you got voted out, but you were a huuuuuge threat too and you could've easily gone on an immunity run. Still played an awesome game though.Aromal:

Mitchell: We battled it out but at the end of the day did I want to be friends with RTP or be the last vet standing... Seriously though, you blew my game up so hard that my ass woulda been grass if not for my sea otter idol, and you're truly one of the most phenomenal people I've met in an ORG. It was an honor getting to take out the legend. We spent so much time talking about how cool it would be to vote together again but one of us was always lying. It's no lie when I say that ur a beast in this game and I'm happy i got you before it was too late. See u real soon.

Willow: RTP, you were such a nice person (even though you dragged me at your last tribal lol). But you were such a big threat, you had lots of friends on the jury, you were good in challenges, you successfully played an idol. I understand why you were frustrated at me for not taking out Mitchell, but you were just as big of a threat as he was. Anyway I really enjoyed playing this season with you, and once it’s the fall I’ll try applying to your side season series. 

Allie: If last round had gone as planned, you wouldn’t be on the jury, so firstly I just wanted to say that it sucks that you went home! I know that that couldn’t have been a very pleasant result to wake up to. Thank you for being so nice to me at the start of this game and for inviting me to play that mini game thing with you (even tho I flopped so hard adios). Also, you have a super soothing voice that sounds like it should be on candle commercials.

Aromal: I'm so sorry that the tribal went the way it did :( It was honestly our worst case scenario and I understand if you're super pissed about it. Hope you slay an all stars season here and kick ass in Idalia!

Mitchell: LOL WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED

Willow: I know I’ve probably said this too many times but you were also one of my first friends in this game lol. You were one of my favorite people to talk to in this game about none game related stuff lol. You were always a really interesting person to talk to and ily a lot! I remember you were also on the newbie tribe call during the paintball challenge, and you were really unintentionally funny. I asked how Zakriah was supposed to be pronounced and you starting spelling out his name bc you didn’t realize that I was asking how to pronounce it lmao. Half the time you were really confused about what was going on in this game, but ily anyway and I hope we can be friends once this whole game is done, bc you’re a really awesome person to talk to.

Episode 4 “We Dancin“ - Mitchell

Zakriah seemed convinced Aromal would flip to Linus since they're both from Wikia... where I played and I had no idea Linus won there???? Wtf!! But whatevs. Anyways, it looked like he did, and both Monty and Linus are safe with Lily going home. Even if I don't fully trust Monty/Karen/Lexi, I do know that I know Monty more than I know Lily, so inherently I trust him more and hopefully we just keep on ousting rookies until then. 

MEANWHILE they just had tribal but my ass is like ! it's a new round !! And I got a clue last time gabbin about some toxins. And I don't know where I'm gonna find dangerous toxins, in the volcano or the lagoon?? Well let's find OUT

Well fuck, that was a mess. I had been unsure about my spot before this tribal and now I know I'm at the bottom, maybe I should have let it go to rocks but I would have been so bitter if I went home. But, at least my debate about working with Linus is officially over because its very clear I can't trust him, I mean I'll work with him because I don't have much of a choice but he's definitely someone I want gone now. I respect his moves and shit and I'd do the same in his position but its VERY obvious he's dangerous. I MISS JACOB. Gotta be a try hard now and do my best to make sure we don't go to tribal again cause I'll probably be next.

So I go searching for the Idol and you know what? When they say someone's looking for an Idol, I'm gonna own up to it. Let's destigmatize Idol searching. If we make it casual and normative, we're creating a more open and honest tribal environment - even though I didn't find the Idol, I found something better, which was a more united tribe. The less paranoid we are about things like Idols the more time we can spend getting to know each other; if we're taking the game casually, it's going to be better for our mindsets moving forward. Familiarity is good for us to have in this game, and if we're familiar with each other, when there's another inevitable swap or merge, you're gonna stick with who you feel familiar with. Open trusting tribe = open trusting alliance, to some degree.

And ANYWAYS I just found ANOTHER clue to the Hidden Immunity Idol. This one basically says that it's in the plane wreckage... but in our cute vets Idol searching doc, someone marked off that the Idol wasn't there. Sneaky sneaky! I don't know, these two clues seem to conflict with each other, but it's definitely disconcerting to have a clue that basically says it's somewhere where we've already searched and nobody's stepped up to it. I mean, if I'd found it, I wouldn't tell everyone about it, but... I didn't find it. Someone else might've. That changes a lot - it's better to be on the outside looking at the person who might've found the Idol than on the inside not knowing that everyone else knows.

The game continues to move. All I can do is to continue to develop bonds with these people and trust that, in three or so days, I'll get some confirmation when I go and search that plane wreck myself. This is quite bonkers.

In this other game I'm in with Aromal we just blindsided this guy together and then that guy deactivated but Aro thought he blocked him and he goes "whew I wasn't tryna get blocked by TWO people i blindsided in one night" so S H O O K LILY FUCKING BLOCKED HIM lily is whitney duncan and aromal is cochran confirmed rkoghkwdjfklf hold me back I'm wylin

These challenges keep getting harder and harder what the heck. Like I'm trying but I'm just not fast enough, and right now we're in the lead, but we really need to keep this up so that I'm not voted out.

What was this tribe doin in this challenge before me?? bupkiss!! their asses were GRASSES!! and then i STARTED gettin into this challenge and you know where we at now???? a 22-point first place to a 16-point second and a 12-point 3rd with 2 and a half hours left to go. i rest my CASE.

my first ever tumblrvivor individual immunity was a speedtyping challenge after jimmy went home, so i really felt like i NEEDED it and i fucking - oops now it's 22-17-12... the last time this happened i SCORED mid-confessional FUCC - DOMINATED IT!!! and it's not as dominant this time, but i'm still leading my tribe to victory here, especially when ur considerin that two tribes are winnin and not just one. we'd have to lose the next 17 consecutive points without gaining a single one to lose and I just don't see that happening.

we dancin, and the longer we continue to dance, the less time i've got to worry and the more time i've got to build bonds with people. they're gonna see my value to this tribe and, the next few days, i'm gonna get the chance to sink my personal value to them individually even further. i'm COCKY and with SOME RIGHT to be and we gon DANCE all night LONG

Y'know, when I said I would be a try hard during this challenge, I didn't think would be on my own for 80% of it. So glad everyone but Aro could help out during the last two hours. Now, I have to see if I can get them to flip on Aro or vote out Daisy rather than me. 

Mitchell did so good in that last immunity challenge like he's the reason we won omg. Also Mitchell is such a cool person like he'd be one of the vets that I would want to work with but I don't wanna tell him that bc he seems to be in the majority with the other vets idk.

It's been a while since I did one of these and so much stuff has happened!

For starters, I'm really happy with my spot in Temoana. We've won the last two immunity challenges, everybody's active and trying, and I'm in a solid and most likely loyal three-person alliance with Johnny and Jacob. Ryan/Matt are really cool and I could see the five of us working together at merge. Six if Lexi decides to stop being inactive.

But I wonder just how long we can keep this immunity streak going. If Lexi shows back up, it's gonna be a 3-3 at the first tribal we go to. That never bodes well and honestly, either one of us 3 could get votes. I'm completely unsure what to think here.

Another day safe in the game, another day closer to the end!

So we lost that last immunity. Again. Which is great, because I have barely any idea where I stand with anyone. After Aro flipping on us, everything is a little sketchy. He said it was because Lily kept throwing out his name as a decoy without telling him, which seems like a shit reason to flip. I mean, if it happened a bunch of times, sure. But it only happened once, which kind of shows how paranoid he is and how easily he'll give up his alliances. I really wanted the newbies to come out on top, but that doesn't seem like an option anymore. I'm pretty sure he's aligned with Linus. I don't think he is, or at least not as strongly, with Monty. I talked with Monty a bit and it kind of seems like right now everyone feels a little bit on their own and confused with their standing. Even Aro said he still wants newbies out on top, and we should go for a vet, but I don't trust him. L.A. and I want him gone ASAP. He's just not trustworthy, plus he barely helped in the last challenge without even giving an explanation. I know I was barely there, but I explained before that I had to go to seder which is something I really can't get out of. Plus, I did the most work in the last challenge. Monty and I agreed we want to work together, and he thinks Aro is a good decision too. I think Linus is on that page too and L.A. definitely is. I'm being a bit wary because anyone could be lying to me, but I really hope this goes as planned, and that I'm not blindsided. I really do want to work with Monty, I think we could go far together but he might not trust me after voting for him last tribal. So we'll see what happens.

Well, after heading into the immunity challenge, seeing Lily gone, and KNOWING that she had the idol is really making me worried. I wouldn't be too surprised if Daisy ended up going home next, because I'm sure Daisy was one of the three votes to keep Lily, and I know that Daisy isn't the BEST when it comes to talking game with people, and having game awareness, so that's also really not working in her favor.

As for the immunity challenge itself, DAMN that was tough. I didn't want to seem like a try hard to the other tribe, but I honestly think I got about half of our points, I didn't really go back to check after the challenge was over, but I wasn't there the whole challenge, which hopefully made people not notice me too much, but I am thrilled we won immunity. I need our tribe to not go to tribal for just a little bit longer so I have time to prepare.

As for the Temoana tribe? I've still got Luca, Jacob and I as a tight three, and I don't see us breaking up, especially considering the fall of the rookies happening on the other tribes. Lex has been pretty fucking quiet, even though I continue to try to talk to her. She participated in yesterday's immunity challenge, but I don't think that she got one point for our team. Didn't she win a main already? What's up with this girl?

I've just made a tight New Jersey and Ginger connection with Ryan, but not only that.. I really like the guy. I think he's cool, and the fact that he really hasn't done well in games lets me think that he's going to do a lot of things to make sure it isn't the same this time as it was last time.

Matt has been pretty quiet, and at this point, I've just been doing mini prayers that we get to merge with at least five rookies still in the game. I'd love for those to be Luca, Jacob, Willow and myself, maybe with a splash of Daisy, but I don't see many high hopes for her going later in the game.

My game plan going forward? Get to another swap and make more solid connections with more vets. I think the merge is going to be crazy, and I really need to begin to start working my social relationships, while fading into the background, and I honestly think I can do it, on top of my killer personality, and trying to not be super intense when it comes to comps, hopefully I won't be seen as a threat for awhile, and my social connections can keep me going for a long long time in this game. I'm in it for the long haul, and I'm not going to go down without a fight, if that's what it comes down to...

Hi! So my plan is to still stick with Monty and Linus. Me and Linus are pretty sure either Daisy or LA has an idol, so the plan is to dupe them into thinking we're voting Daisy and then actually vote out LA. Hopefully everything works out ^_^

Well, wow, last round freaking worked  and Lily was maaaad which was pretty funny. Im worried this time around, L.A and Daisy know they are at the bottom, but like,  they aren't as nervous as they should be. The main reason for this confessional is so L.A can read it after the game though. I play this game aggressively, and it was a very hard choice for me to vote how I am. I think in the short time we spent on a tribe you have become one of my favourite people I've ever played with, however every single ounce of logic tells me that I have to vote you this round. I hope you end up reading this after the game so you know that I genuinely am sorry for this, and I hope we can stay friends down the line no matter what happens. You did amazing for your first org, and this was almost completely out of your hands, so I hope you play again in the future because I know you will completely crush it. You don't deserve this vote at all, but it's the only thing that makes sense for my game since I can't betray my alliance, and they aren't willing to vote Daisy out of risk of an idol. :( 

Im getting weird, very quiet vibes :/ . I don't like it one bit.

Episode 3 “WHITE GURL CAN TWERK” - Zakriah

Why do I feel like I just got saved from the most humiliating/awkward tribal council situation by a swap happening? Honestly I'm just worried about who I end up with but I know my days were numbered on temoana

I really don't want this tribe swap to happen, like I really like my tribe, oh well nothing I can do about it.

OKAY THIS IS AWKWARD i told karen mitchell was gunning for her but i wanna work with mitchell and karen osehfkjhkjfae and now tHEYRE BOTH ON MY TRIBE HELP MEEEEEEEE

So i already know whats gonna happen on that new tribe - Linus is gonna get in good with my Brown Arrow and the other vet is gonna get voted out, and after that I can totally see one of them whipping out an idol. I'm just worried Aro is gonna side with Linus over me now that they're on the same tribe, but I'm hoping not. TBH these tribes are gonna be quite a mess I can already tell.

so i'm all like :) :) :) just boppin about :) :) :) wonder who the rookies voted out haha :) :) :) hope it's not the icon L.A. lol haha :) :) )

then everyone's freakin out i'm like :) :) :) what's up dogs :) :) :) and they're like we switchin tribes :) :) :..................................???

AND I FUCKIN FREAKED THE FUCK OUT BC TRIBE SWAPS RARELY IF EVER ARE GOOD FOR MITCHELL KALABANG

IN MUCHACHU PIZZERIA I WAS THE ONLY FAN ON A TRIBE WITH 8 FAVORITES. IN MALAYSIA FANS AND FAVORITES WERE TIED AND WE ALMOST DREW ROCKS.

But I always found a way to survive, and I'll do so here, as for the first time in my Tumblr Survivor career, not only has the first tribe swap actually moved me to a different tribe, but it's done so while giving me a numbers advantage. The two people I most wanted to be here with (Dana, because we're tight, and Zak, because I know I've got him on lock and the other vets don't so he could've been fodder on any other tribe) are here and the one I was most wary of (Karen, because things were maybe awkward between us???) is here. We all seem on board with keeping the vets together. I like it. We're gonna be just fine so long as we stick together.

Allie and Willow... idk yall so goodbye. I'm gonna keep my ass' options open but this could be good and simple. I'm still wary of Karen but for now, there's no reason to get rid of her... so we'll do it later instead :)

i'm optimistic haha lol

Fuck my life...

Me and Willow are discussing my name and she got confused and asked if I had two middle names because I had said "zak" happens twice in my name and so I just go "Oh no it's zakriah wahid razzak" and if I had a nickel for every time ive heard that

It did come to mind, and I did kind of think that there's a small shot that Chrissa told her tribe about me, and honestly she probably went off about how much of a douche I am or how good of a player I was blah blah blah. I'm going to try to slide it into conversation with Lexi, Ryan or Matt, but so far, this isn't too bad of a swap. I'm with Jacob, which is great because I know he'd never vote me out, and also I know he's good at swaying people, and will hopefully be able to help get someone to swing onto our side, but I see it going 3-3 at the first vote, assuming our tribe even goes to tribal council, but I know Ryan is a consistent loser, and has been around for awhile, and that Lexi has won a season before, so I can use both of those facts to my advantage, and see where it takes me.

For now, I'm gonna socialize, wait to see how the immunity challenge goes, and take it from there. And now.... let's see if I can somehow scoop up an idol

(Slightly later)

So immediately getting to this new beach, I know I needed to jump, and I needed to do it FAST. I know Lexi is the winner of the bunch, so I proposed her a deal:

[4/5/17, 11:27:33 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Being alongside a past winner is certainly something that could benefit everyone [4/5/17, 11:27:37 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Or at least benefit me haha [4/5/17, 11:28:22 PM] lex: Haha most don't think that way so how can I benefit you ;) [4/5/17, 11:30:30 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Uhhhh [4/5/17, 11:30:32 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Well for starters [4/5/17, 11:30:38 PM] ~~Johnny~~: Working alongside a winner can teach you a lot [4/5/17, 11:30:44 PM] ~~Johnny~~: And I wouldn’t mind working alongside a winner ;) [4/5/17, 11:32:09 PM] ~~Johnny~~: I know that’s kinda jumping out of the gate, but I do think that in a swap like this, when it’s 3-3, having one REALLY strong connection with someone from the other tribe can really benefit both of the people involved, especially a relationship that people can’t see us walking into the woods and talking all the time, since we’re just kinda in each others DMs lmao [4/5/17, 11:34:04 PM] lex: Yeah I don't think anyone would suggest us as a duo lmao

Hook, Line and Sinker. I'm not entirely too sure how this will end up working out, but my new "Most Important Connection" has to be Lexi. Working alongside a past winner, and someone who has made merge twice is something that can be really valuable for my game, and I think that if she ends up sticking to her end of the deal, we'll both make it out of this tribe swap alive.

I'm completely tribe swap fucked which is what I was scared of most. Newbies are down 4-2 and there's nothing I can really do about it. The vets seem really close too, and I'm high key scared of them, so if we loose immunity then I'm fucked. So I'm gonna be overdramatic and cry, good night.

https://youtu.be/Hcp6Dthetcs

Whew! So much has happened since last round. Jacob, Johnny and I formed an alliance. We talked about adding other people, and eventually added Lily. Which I'm glad about, because I didn't want to end up with two conflicting alliances and Lily seems very trustworthy. Lily told me she has an idol, and Johnny and I are the only ones who know about it. It's crazy that she found it so early, but I'm glad I know where it is and that it's with someone I feel like I can trust. Star went unanimously at tribal - which I expected - and afterwards we found out we're switching tribes. We were all really sad, because I think we did feel a bit like a family even though we didn't know each other. Everyone was so nice and I don't think we would've wanted to vote out anyone else on our tribe. So we said our goodbyes, and we all decided to stick together as newbies on our new tribes to make sure that a veteran doesn't win. And although I'm feeling good about it, I'm nervous for the tribes that have two newbies vs four veterans, because they're either gonna go really early or they're gonna flip to stay safe.

I'm feeling good about my tribe though. We're four newbies, two veterans, and the newbies immediately got together and made an alliance chat. It's me, Lily, L.A., and Aro. I'm glad I've got Lily here, because you can never be 100% sure someone won't flip but I feel good about her, and I don't know the other two very well.

I talked to the two vets, Monty and Linus, who told me somewhat similar things about being on the Vet tribe? Linus said if Chrissa hadn't volunteered herself, he could've gone home. And Monty said that before she did, there were like, 5 different targets, and everyone was yelling at each other and it was messy. So it's nice to know that they're not as united as the newbies.

But now to the fun stuff...... Right when we got our new tribes, I go to search for the idol. And I found it, first try! This is my first ever idol and I'm so excited. And the fact that both Lily and I have one is crazy and so good on our part. Overall, I'm feeling good. But I miss the newbie tribe. We were all so pure and cute and not yet jaded to this game lmao.

So here we are all switched up and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little happy. I was in a pretty good spot with everyone on Temoana and was not about to lose that by like blindsiding Karen or something. Now I have Ryan and Lex who I'm very good and pretty good with respectively. I hope to Survivor Gods I can get this idol because that would be so ideal. I really don't want a 3-3 tie but I really wouldn't flip on the vets either, so I'm working my magic trying to sway Jacob who Lex might just be good with anyway and Johnny, the frat boy, which even though I don't like I think I can work to my advantage. I can tell if I just bro out with him we can vibe well together I can be bros with frat boys and be hunties with the more internetty people, I'm a social chameleon and I will do whatever it takes to put myself in the best position I can. So we'll see how this game goes. Hopefully they'll be smart and go with me because I plan on going far in this game with whoever benefits me the most.

WHEW! So, we swapped. It's me and Linus from the vets and Lily, Daisy, LA, and Aromal from the rookies, and at first this looks bad with me and Linus being down 4-2, but I really like this swap. I'm friends with Lily outside the game, and we have already talked about working together. On the old vets tribe, I was targeting Linus because I couldn't get a read on him, and you know what? Why stop now? I'd rather play with people I can predict and trust. Lily also mentioned that the rookies she liked the most are Daisy, who's on our tribe, LA, who's also on our tribe, and Johnny, who isn't. Which rookie is left out of that? Aromal. (Aromal also stans ugly Survivor players, so he can go?) So, Lily has gone to bed right now, but in the morning I am going to ask her if me, her, Daisy, and LA wanted to work together. I've already talked to Daisy for a good bit, and I just messages LA, so we'll see. Then from there, I can either play it off with Linus as "OMG WE FLIPPED THE NUMBERS!" or vote with all the newbies and play it off as "I needed to survive". TBH I don't know where that went, I stopped halfway through this confessional and restarted, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Ok so we had a tribe swap. Part of me felt it coming? But not like enough to think it would actually happen. I don't hate my tribe. I think we are strong challenge wise. I got put here with Lexi and Matt from the vets tribe and I feel okay about that? I did a lot of talking with Matt and a bunch before the swap with Lexi but I don't think they talked a lot. And we are split 3-3. So our goal is to get one of the newbies to flip to us and we already discussed going to rocks for each other. Then last night Lexi tells us the idol clue and we all go looking. Guess who fucking found it. This old idiot! Guess who isn't telling a soul about it. This old idiot! I feel bad because it was Lexi's clue and Matt's figuring out the clue that led me to it...but sucks to suck byeeeeeeeeeeeee

Well this swap ended up looking preeeeetty badly on the surface. A bit deeper down I may not be 100% fucked, but its uncertain. As it stands Im pretty confident I can play a better social game than Monty, so it's time to kiss some ass. I was at the bottom multiple times in Myanmar, but if there was one thing I could do it was get people from the other side to join forces with me. I swear to god I'm going to make these fuckers LOVE me! I know Aro from the wikia community, we played in Sumbawa together, and we've already talked and said we want to work together. On top of that, I've been talking to L.A a lot and we get along like a house on fire. When I asked her about working together though she did say she really got the same sense that we should work together, but is hesitant. To be fair from what she's told me this is her very first org so I can't blame her too much for wanting to play safe. Lily and that other girl I forget the name of are boring as fuck though, especially Lily, that other girl at least responds and is kind enough or whatever, its just clear she doesn't want to get too involved with the vets. I've never understood why you would play a social game though and just neglect that aspect completely. I dunno man. Anyways, L.A is apparently super tight with Lily, which means I have to kiss the ass of the person I've found it hardest to talk to since playing with fucking Ting Ting and Leah. I call my current plan the "Throw people under the bus for shit they didn't do strategy". Right now Im trying to sell that the freaking minority alliance on the Vets of Monty, Karen and Lexi were running the show over there, and that Karen being the ringleader tried to target me round one until Chrissa quit. Of course, I realize the dramatic irony for those watching that those three were on the outs and Karen was almost first boot haha. Next round, if I get get Monty out, Im going to start a rumour that Daisy and a Vet are irl friends, and try to stir the pot that way >:) . I just have to last a few rounds until a swap comes again and I can start a new. Wish me luck my dudes.

(please put this in bold on the tumblr post) Why The Hell Is It So Hard To Properly Edit Relationships In A Manner That Will Get The Right People Voted Out At The Right Times In This Damn Reward Challenge: a best-selling novel by Lily Owen

The swap came and I got on the Temoana tribe. I mean, it could have been worse. Imagine being in the 4-2 minority tribe, but I could also have been in the 4-2 majority one. Right now we're split 3-3 but it could all change.

The new tribe is cool and I like the vets who joined. Lex is really nice and is probably the vet I'd love to keep around here. And then of course I have my alliance with Jacob and Johnny from the original Makira.

The new reward challenge is up and I feel as if I'm one of the only two people actively trying alongside Ryan. I mean it's just a reward, but you could at least put some effort into it. I hate playing on a losing tribe, and it would suck in this situation because I might be in danger of being voted. I don't think anybody knows who might get votes if we lose the immunity challenge.

That reward challenge was really hard. Like last night when I was messing around with the simulator I was trying to make Eddie the first boot but then he ended up winning it all gjkhdlkfjhs

No but on a more serious note I worked with the simulator for like 2 hours and I think I ended up getting roughly like 50ish points its probably less though. But I'm really hoping we win this reward challenge because it'll give us a 10% advantage in the next immunity challenge.

(Slightly later)

SOIDFUASODIF I got a lot less than 50 points, I very much miscalculated it so please ignore everything I've ever said  

Well apparently Im a challenge beast so far this game, surviving the entire endurance and now getting almost as much as the next two highest scores combined in the brantesteele thing. I don't attribute that to me being good though, all these other people were god awful. Like, how the hell did Willow get 35?? Did she just run a completely random brantsteele once and be like "Meh good enough"?? I feel like it takes a person who is intentionally trying to make their team lose to do that bad, idk man. L.A pulled through on the challenge too though, same with Aro and even Lily kinda.

On that note I finally got in a decent conversation with Lily. Granted, she isn't much one to give me anything to talk about. When I ask a question she doesn't really ask anything back and that makes it hard for a conversation to flow, but she at least had some personality tonight so that was cool to not feel like I  was talking to somebody who was totally bored and seemed like they didn't even want to be here. I want to start an alliance with Aro, Lily and of course L.A. The 4 of us are the ones who want to and deserve to be here from what I can tell. If I had my way, Daisy would go first any day of the week, however, my best move is still to throw Monty under the bus, which sucks because he is probably more invested than Daisy, but hey, I gotta look out for number 1 first. Im winning this game, and if that means Monty gets sacrificed along the way so be it! That or Im going to be next boot and all these ranting about how awesome I am will be for not because Ill lose horribly and have been outplayed by almost everyone. Theres a good chance of that too :P .

SO we had a swap, that was terrible. I was lucky enough to get on the tribe where Rookies have the numbers so naturally we're working together. HOWEVER, the rookies I'm with are the ones I've bonded with the least, and nothing about that has changed since the swap. Maybe that's my fault, for not reaching out more but I also don't want to come across as annoying. Honestly, I would rather work with Linus, a VET. (gasp of horror) He is someone I actually talk to, it doesn't feel overly forced so he is someone I'd like to keep around. I realize this was probably his goal, be likable, flip a couple rookies and he's safe. Because in situations like this, its common for the original tribe to stick together when they have the numbers and he's smart enough to realize this. My problem now is do I wanna risk working with him? Or do the safe thing and just stay with my 'alliance' and get the two vets out if it comes to it, or try and make a move to work with people I like? Its tough because I don't wanna be the first rookie to flip, not after all our 'we'll stick together guys' that was happening in the tribe as we waited on swap results. 

If I work with Linus, he is potentially someone I could continue to work with into the merge, he SAYS he didn't have set alliances yet, do I trust him on that? Hell no. (But its doubtful I'll trust anyone in this game,  even Jacob.)  I'm just trying to decide if its worth the risk or not, he's good in competitions and I like that in someone I work it, even though later on it could become a huge problem as of right now its a good thing. He is also a very smart and social player and I feel like I could learn a thing or two from him. I don't know, I need to figure out how I wanna play this game, what will be best for me in the long run. 

No one in my tribe is being helpful for this challenge and its frustrating. Everyone is answering very limitedly, not answering any of my questions, barely doing any brainstorming with me... like how many times do I have to say that we should plan some of the shots we want before anyone starts giving suggestions? I'm trying really hard not to come off as bossy, but this is so frustrated. At this point I have no idea what the finished product will look like, or if everyone will even film something given Lily doesn't want to show her face on camera, L.A. is busy and Monty has barely said anything. That's half our tribe with big question marks on them. I'm so incredibly frustrated, I feel like we're gonna lose.

Daisy is pissing me off. I get that it's only the first fucking verse and chorus we need to learn, but it will look way better if we give people certain parts because then we can choreograph what we are fucking doing. Smh.

An extension of my last confessional. This wouldn't be so irritating if I felt like I had any power over here. Daisy is able to act like a total isolationist and doesn't have to worry at all about doing shit because of how the numbers of this fucking swap turned out. Meanwhile, Im here playing my ass off just to try and survive one more round.

In other news a pseudo alliance has started with Lily, L.A and myself I think. I don't get the best gut feeling that they intend to be fully loyal to it, I think both probably still intend to keep the fans strong, but I just have to have them think Im the better choice of veteran to keep for now. Grrr, I hope this works :( .

Honestly, going into this immunity challenge, I’m nervous as shit. I know that I’ve got Jacob, and hopefully still Luca. Matt tried to propose a four person alliance with me and the vets, and it’s something I might consider doing, depending how long it takes for our tribe to lose immunity, in order to keep Jacob and I safe, but I do know the rookies would be very mad with my decision to flip on the vets, so it’s a tough decision to weigh. I do have a very bad feeling that we’re going to end up hitting a 3-3, and it might come down to luck after that, but for now, I’m just trying to keep optimistic, but I’ve actually never been this scared in a game before, so only time will tell where everyone is going to end up.

I do have a lot of confidence in our music video, but I'm really not ready to see who gets the disadvantage, and also who ends up winning this immunity, so I'm nervous as shit. I hope the other teams don't have an editor like we do :S

allie seems like the most reserved girl on the planet and ive literally almost never spoken to her but she literally fucking POPPED AWF in her submission for the video like WHITE GURL CAN TWERK where has THIS ALLIE BEEN

I'm the worst because I keep forgetting to write confessionals oops. Anyway a lot has happened I guess, so there's a lot to talk about. First off Allie told me that there's a rumor/clue or whatever that the idol is hidden somewhere in the sunken ship. This is great news especially since we're down 4-2, but we both already looked this round and didn't find it, so we really need to win this next immunity challenge. Anyway I talked to Karen and she said that she's on the bottom of her tribe and that she might be willing to flip to me and Allie which is great news! I'm not 100% sure if we can trust her though, but she did give us the information that the vets had about where the idol isn't, so I'm really hoping me and Allie can trust her since she might be the only thing we have that'll keep us safe.

Anyway on a funny note, while I was trying to film my thing for the music video earlier today my neighbors were having some sort of picnic for their baby and dog, and so I completely embarrassed myself by lip singing to Potential Breakup Song oops.  

(Slightly later)

I'm so stressed that we're gonna loose this challenge because then there's a high likelihood that it'll be me or Allie going home and I don't want that. Our video is probably gonna turn out really good but Idk I'm just worried.  

ahhhhh i feel so bad, because our video lowkey sucks, and its lowkey my fault. i dont fault daisy at all, she did the best with what she had and could work with, but that wasnt a whole lot :///// anyways, i think we're gonna lose .-.

well, this was a fun game .-. can't wait to go home tomorrow

Its pretty frustrating that my alliance doesn't wanna split the vote. Why not take the safe route? Is a revote so inconvenient that you'd rather lose someone from your own alliance ?

Well I've been in sunny Mejico for the past few days so lemme fill everyone in with what I've been up to. It seems like I've actually convinced people I don't suck at challenges which is good, I spearheaded the Moana plan so I think I've tested my ability to take charge. I've pulled in fratty fratboy by saying bro and dude in all my convos and it seems like he'd really be down to work with me unless he is extremely crafty and is playing me, which is only really possible with an idol because I'm not flipping to the rookie side while he said he would definitely vote a rookie. Now we won but unfortunately it's 4-2 rookies on Ulawa so hopefully some magic saves a veteran but if not I'll probably work on aligning myself with more of these rookies just in case they have numbers.

Well, Aromal's got his work cut out for him tonight. He knows Linus is good at challenges so he may just keep him and vote out Monty, who was gunning for me earlier, or he could vote him out bc he knows he's good at making it to f3, or he could flip and take out a rookie and work with me at merge :) the last one is wishful thinking, but we aren't husbands for nothing

Hi it's me you're favorite rookie Jacob. So going into this new tribe I was fairly nervous. It could be worse, but at least the numbers are even 3-3! On one hand you have Lexi telling me she hates vets vs rookies and thinks its boring and on the other hand u have Matt telling Johnny how close he is too Lexi and Ryan and how much he trusts them. I would be feeling more comfortable if I was with more reliable rookies. Johnny is alright but Luca drives me nuts The other day he was talking all up in the main chat about how blackout wasted he was which screamed LOOK AT ME UNNECCESARY NEGATIVE ATTENTION! Works for me because If I have to, he will go to keep Johnny and I safe! I am just chilling we won the immunity and I am proud of us. The video wasn't the BEST but it was good enough to win which was nice! Ulawa lost which is the tribe of 4-2 rooks to vets and I am hoping that the rooks take out a vet because I know Monty doesn't like me because of past drama and Idk Linus. I know Lily has an idol so it should be good as long as the other rooks stick to the plan we made to stay together moving forward. I want to form an alliance with maybe Ryan Lexi Johnny and myself to have a majority 2 vets 2 rooks will be nice, so hopefully we can keep ourselves safe. The best bet is to keep winning immunities and keep beasting through until another tribe swap or merge

This tribal went from 0 to 60 in 3.5. So, it looked like it was down to the rookies deciding between me and Linus to go, and each of us having a 50/50 shot of staying. But see, I don't like passively sitting by hoping I come out on the better end of a 50% chance. So I decided to take matters into my own hands.

I first tried talking to Lily and Daisy to get an answer out of them on weather or not it would be me or Linus going, but they both talked in the tribe chat and ignored me, so that sent off red flags. If they had both just like, you know, messaged me back, I don't think this would be happening right now. I'd be voting out Linus and keeping my damn mouth shut and just letting come what may. Because I trusted Lily specifically and Daisy to a lesser extent, so if they said that Linus was the vote, alright, that's done, let's focus on winning the next challenge. But they didn't so here I am wondering what the fuck is going on.

So I started talking to Aromal. Nobody has really been talking to us and so he brought up the idea of voting out Linus now, and then teaming up to take out one of the three rookies. The problem with that is that there would be three of them and two of us, so I was like, "lol, Linus is probably desperate right now, too. Let's just fast forward that one week where we know we can get at least a tie vote." And it took some convincing, and some throwing Lily under the bus, but I think it worked. I just told him Lily has been wanting him gone, and we was almost sold. Wake up this morning, and he's totally on board. So then Linus seems on board, and we only need one more person to flip to get our way, or everyone to stay strong to just go to rocks. And tbh, I would much rather force a rock draw and get rocked out than let 4 rookies decide to send me home. First, rocks is a 1/4 chance, and second, getting rocks drawn means I did something to try and save myself, and it was the right move, I just pulled the wrong rock.

So, Lily. She's gonna get her own paragraph. I used to not understand why she was always an early boot/target, but I understand it now. She makes people sketched out. One moment, when we were just swapped, she was talking about how many connections she had on the tribe, and how she could mastermind this and mastermind that. And then we were talking, and I trusted her, so if she'd given me the ok, you're good, the numbers aren't going to you, then I would've been fine with it. There we go have a good day, let's not come back to tribal. But she didn't. And I knew she saw my message and left me on read because I saw her talking in the tribe chat after I sent my message, and I know she saw me in there too, because I was also talking. And then Aro is sketched out by her for good reason because she's been throwing his name around, and then who knows what LA and Daisy think of her. Lily says she close with those two, but Aro says they get kinda annoyed with her sometimes, so who knows. She's a great player physically, and probably strategically, and her social game isn't bad, it's just off. She could be a huge threat if she just changed her social game and her presence in chats a little bit. It sucks, too, because I was really excited to play with her, but I can't play with someone who talks sketchy.

So kiddos, heres the  scoop. Everyone was going to be voting Monty, but then Lily went and told Monty the vote was on Aro, and now Aro is freaking out and wants to target Lily with Monty and I. I'm undecided what to do at this point, Im technically in an alliance with Lily, so Im trying to weigh the options rn. Im going off of the  assumption that we attend one more tribal before a swap atm. Pros to keeping Monty. One, it means Im in the top 3 on the tribe with Aro and him. Two, He's indebted to me for a while at least. Three, Rocks are fun as hell :^) . four, if he goes I could be next, it would be between Aro and I. On the flip side, the disadvantages One, I ruin my chances of working with fans. two I could get rocked out. Three, if Aro gets rocked out I could very well be the next to go. four, Lily is better at comps than Monty I think.

Grr, I don't know what to do...

WE'RE GOING TO ROCKS MY STOMACH IS IN KNOTS I MIGHT LITERALLY PUKE FROM ANXIETY DURING TRIBAL TBH

Episode 2 “#NewQueenInTown” - Lily

hey hoes so ill do my first impressions or w/e chrissa- kween! i was hoping she'd stay awhile but u know when someone wants to be elimed then u gotta! dana- idk ha!hevjkbev i dont remember a dana in any of these so! idk how she plays so yikes but i wouldnt be surprised if shes close w the other newer people lexo- im love her! im hoping we can do #that for callie tru matt- i played a game with him once and he voted me out so :/ but i think we can work well together tbh mitchell- hes malaysia and thats all i know, im not sure how he played in malaysia and lowkey the only times i ever interacted with him he kinda annoyed me gtg monty- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh i love monty, i know he will be one of my closest allies for sure! i cant wait to slay w him linus- hes from winnipeg and he seems sneaky to me and hes a newer school player so he could be close w the others ryan tiddie palmer - i love my dadt sdhvbdfv but also im a little wary of him bc i have a feeling he would love to vote me out but as of rn i need him so, we'll see zak- i voted him out in palau and thats all i got kjehfvbjr i didnt even kno they played a game before anyway hes also part of the potential new school alliance

also heres the vote tea, basically mine and lexis names were being thrown around and i was like??? we aint even do anything so then we started throwing zaks and linus name around. anyway me and mont were freaking out bc we needed 2 more people to get majority and vote zak and save me and lex, so we recruit chrissa and we make an alliance chat w ha. we call and talk about who we can pull in and such. so come the next mornin i start talkin to matt who said he was down for voting zak. honestly i trust matt he seems more trustworthy than other people plus i dont think he knows a lot of the tribe members tru so if i keep him close then my alliance should be good tru. anyway i talk to lexi to figure stuff out, and i talk to zakriah and basically tell him that im willing to vote lexi next round or w/e, mind u this is after chrissa anounces that she wants to be voted out, and well hopefully by telling him this i can gain his trust a little and get some tea from ha. also zak knows that me mont and lexi were targetting him??? honestly idk who couldve told him unless it was chrissa??? no one else shouldve known tru, anyway so i get the tea from that mitchell is the one who told him that he heard my name being thrown around and kjefbv like i dont wanna confrontational or anything but i went to mitchell and asked him about it and he was "like honestly it was like a grapevine thing tbh like nobody was like "...how bout karen" it was more of "i've heard Karen"" LIKE??????????????????????????????? REALLY BITCH THAT DONT ANSWER MY QUESTION. grapevine my ass, like thats what zak told me too, like !!!!!!!!! just tell me bc if u dont then im gonna assume that ur ass is the one started the whole "i heard" thing nnnnn anyway!!!! im just relieved that chrissa is asking to be voted out bc this couldve been way more stressful aaaaaahhhhh  honslee i was scared this was all a ploy to throw votes but i genuinely believe ha and i love chrissa too much to ever disrespect her wishes so :/ bye bye chrissa we hardly knew ye!

Not much has happened so far. We won the first challenge, which is awesome, and kinda gives me this fire to keep winning just so that we can keep beating the vets. It's kind of fun to be the underdogs (considering we all have much less experience than the vets) and to win. As long as we don't get a flash challenge, I'm not too worried about how well we do. Or at least, how well I do. I just don't want to be the person with the lowest score. Anyways, on day 2 or something Lily messages me and says we should be in an alliance, since we knew each other from a chat. So I said sure, and she gives me an idol clue she found! Holy shit! Lucky for her, I don't have any other alliances, otherwise I could so easily just play her. I don't have any plans to though - she seems very trusting and kind and I respect that. I just have to be careful it doesn't get me in trouble as long as we're aligned. So I go to search for the idol, with the clue she gave me in mind, and somehow end up finding the exact same clue she did. Hopefully we don't make the same mistake again next round.

https://youtu.be/hCcal7QtHWY

OMG okay so first off... Daisy comes to me saying she likes Jacob. Okay. Perfect. He's my ride or die anyways, so now we have a mutual ally we can lean on, and she says she wants to be in an alliance. Cool. Even better. Let's officialize this shit.

So Daisy makes the chat, and she says "alright Johnny and Jacob, let's add Willow and Luca" and I'm internally freaking out with Jacob on the side here, and Jacob and I are losing it in PMs and we're like "I think that wouldn't be the BEST idea, just because adding people late can make them think that they're going to be 4th and 5th" So Daisy is going to stick with us three being a f3.

Little does Daisy know that Willow wanted a four person alliance with me and Jacob already, and it didn't include Daisy, so it'll be easy for Willow to think she's on the in, and same for Daisy, which can be GREAT for later.

All I know is I'm going to have to do a little educating to Daisy on how to play this game, and making an alliance with three people and then adding two people LATE is no beuno sweetheart... Thank God Jacob and I prevented that one. At least we know we're in a core for now, and we can start picking off the weaker rookies............... or maybe we go after someone who looks like they can be smarter, and an independent player. Maybe Aro for example? Let's see what happens after immunity (giggle)

So after Chrissa announced she wanted to be voted out, Karen and I were able to talk to each other for the first time this game. I pushed that I didn't want to target her if it wasnt out of hate, and targeting each other based on lack of communication could be easily fixed - after all, what's better than an unlikely duo? I'm in two right now if I'm not being played: as far as I know Linus wants to work with me to get out Karen, and Mitchell also thinks that's what I want. However, I want me an ally in Karen, and Lexi or Mo's gotta go next.

Something terrible happened to me irl yesterday and Im in a bad headspace right now. I really dont feel like talking to anyone besides Luca and Johnny(whos actually pretty cool) so I cant wait to get to the swap. I tried connecting with Kaya a bit but she doesn't seem to like me very much. I have a terrible migraine and everything kinda sucks right now but I'll fight through it. I can't wait for the time when I eventually look back on this confessional and cringe at the angst lmao

I low-key hope I get taken out of this challenge early so I don’t have to sit around all night doing it, but the only way that’d be able to happen is everyone just went after me to start the challenge, and no one knows I’m good at live challenges except Chrissa, and she’s bye bye

Aw Dana assigned me to shoot my fuckbuddy aromal in the first round of the IC :( like the opposite of the hunger games up in here :(

This paintball challenge is so fucking FUN! Like, it's so cool to keep on my toes and constantly be dodging/shooting paintballs. It's like my own sort of little endurance challenge. I just have to be sure I don't miss any dodges... That's why I changed the conversation notification settings to notify me every time my name is said. :P But it's fun, anyway. And if I lose, I can blame my team and use the machete I got. >:3c

So... let's play catch up!

Chrissa got voted out unanimously like she ASKED TO. It sucked bc I liked Chrissa but she was a lil strategically problematic so... whatevs. BUT then Karen starts being like "oh would you have voted for me? where'd my name come from?" and being kind of aggressive about it so... that turned me off. Honestly yeah I would've voted your ass out, you ignored me and continue to do so lol, but after that? I'm set. I think my allegiance with Dana is solidified by my complaining to her about Karen, and honestly? I see her as my #2 in this game.

Matt, the other option for my #2, also tells me he's ready to make a move  against the Karen/Monty/Lexi coalition when we next go to Tribal Council. We're slaying this challenge so that won't be tonight, but when it does, Karen's ass is grass if I've got anything to say about it!!

Karen and Lexi still make minimal effort to talk with me. Pretty much nobody has been 1-on-1 talking with me throughout this whole 3-hour-long-so-far challenge which is also kind of ridiculous but??? What are you gonna do. I'm still sick so hopefully when I recover I'll start schmoozing like I usually do and stop oozing like I don't wanna do.

also fuk u mangrove swamp

RETWEET IF YOU ARE ON TEAM LA NEEDS TO GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP.

This challenge is murdering me. 4.5 hrs left SO.

So, I quit during the paintball challenge. I was the last person left on my tribe and I just couldn't see myself pulling off a win, not against five people - I did manage to get one out on my own but it seemed very doubtful I could have gotten them all. I'm not sure how I feel about throwing it like that, I probably could have faked it and just posted a shoot at the 6 mark which might have been better for my game, cause I'm not sure how that will effect how the vets see me from this point on, or if my tribe finds out and gets mad at me for it, but Y'ALL SHOULD BE HAPPY I DIDN'T MAKE US SUFFER THROUGH ANOTHER FOUR HOURS OF THAT @ VETS. I hate giving up/losing but at the same time, this is only the second challenge of the game. If this has been an individual immunity challenge, damn right I would have stuck it out but it's still early on and I think this vote will be pretty straight forward. IF I manage to get voted out I'll feel so stupid for throwing it but as of right now I trust my alliance and feel safe. (famous last words)

So now Star wants to talk to me...... Tooo little too late bud. You've been talking to the least amount of people this whole game, you didn't even help with the immunity challenge, and now you're coming to me all worried about the vote? Sorry you're in this situation, but you made your own bed, and now you have to lay in it. 

On a different note, I was talking to Jacob, and we were thinking that two of us should throw our votes onto someone else, just in case of an idol play, but honestly, I don't wanna be that paranoid freak always worrying about an idol, but I also don't wanna a repeat of the last tumblr survivor I played in, where I got idol'd out of the game, so I'm trying to be careful. I might talk to Daisy about it, but I don't want to come off as paranoid, so it'll be an interesting talk if I choose to have it...

(Slightly later)

OMG LILY JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS THE IDOL I'M SCREAMING!! Now I don't have to worry about a fucking idol play. Not only that, but she tells me that I'm the only person in the game that knows about the idol, which is huge for me because it means that she trusts me the most, and this can be a relationship outside of Jacob, Daisy, Willow and Luca, so this is really good. I am going to focus on forming a broship with Aro too, just to have that connection, but I think that I'm starting to become very trusted in the tribe, which is good. 

I know my struggle is going to be when we switch tribes, and just hoping that the luck of the draw doesn't put me onto a tribe with bad numbers, but even if I do, I think I'll be able to charm my way out of it. The fact that I want to vote out most of these people, and they still continue to prove to me that they trust me the most is CRAZY, but Lily is definitely going to be a tool I'm going to utilize in the game for a long long time, and I hope she and her idol make it deep enough in the game to benefit me.

Sorry... rambling. My struggle now is whether or not to tell Jacob. I don't want to lose his trust later in the game by him finding out about this idol, and him knowing that I knew about it. I think I'm going to tell him about it later tonight, and I hope that he'll be thrilled, but he isn't even going to be back for day change... At least now I know that I don't have to worry about the idol, especially because I doubt there are more than one idols out there, from my specific tribe, so definitively, it's bye bye Star time :(

Jesus.... Karen and I survived that round.. In what world is that actually realistic? But we did and thankfully with little issues like messy thrown votes or Chrissa playing an idol on herself after misting us all. I was really nervous that it was all an actual trap because I have seen it happen before and boy is it terrifying but bless her heart for being true to us all.

The challenge was one that I have won before so I was not too nervous about the whole workings of the challenge but I was nervous about how long the challenge would go. I was so tired yesterday for some reason and I do not know if I could have lasted until 2 am with very little break. I would have tried my best of course so I could make sure Karen and I were safe but there is only so much a single person can do which L.A. ended up proving. The Veterans won the challenge THANK GOD and so we do not have to worry about one of us being voted out bless. Right now I would def consider Karen my final 2 because we do share the common homie of Callie and I do my best to trust Callie's judgement most of the time (the other times... I just can not defer from what god wants). My only issue is that Karen has a lot of friends on this tribe that I fear she might pick over me such as Monty and that makes me a bit scared of her but right now we sort of need each other in terms that we are both the most threatening ones on our tribe at the moment so if she gets rid of me, she does not have many people to hide behind and I have been known to be a very good meat shield for those that take advantage of it so here is to praying she is actually my final 2.

Okay I love my tribe now. Seriously though I was only disliking them because I was too mentally checked out to socialize. They're all really sweet people and omg it was all i could do to stop them from pronouncing Zaks name wrong lmao during the challenge. Even though I outta be pissed that more than half of us got eliminated for breaking simple rules, I loved that they were cheery about it.

For the vote ahead, it should be a smooth 9-1 against Star. He hasn't been too active thus far and everybody seems to be on board.

https://youtu.be/RpyYL7gVQEE

LAST ROUND VOTING: A SUMMARY We get back to camp after being beaten in the immunity challenge and things devolve into chaos. Mitchell starts whispering "Lexi" and then shouting "WHO SAID THAT! I HEARD YOU! lexi.... WHO WAS THAT!!!!" Lexi and RTP climbed into the shelter and started singing songs together, waiting for other people to join. Matt sat himself on a rock and just kinda sat there...waiting.... Zak was running around, talking to each and every person saying he heard something different to everyone, calling every guy Miss and every girl Qween. Karen was sitting trying to have sensible discussions, and Mitchell and Zak saw this and started freaking out. Mitchell kept his calm and kept whispering lexi... but Zak thought he said Karen and started freaking out. Meanwhile, I'm running around screaming at people that Zak is dead weight and Linus is a rat, but nobody is really listening to me. Meanwhile, Linus disappeared into the woods to maybe go try on some wigs or some shit, and Dana is off talking to anything that moves, with various degrees of success. In the middle of camp is Chrissa, just sitting. Me, Karen, Zak, and Mitchell are all screaming about who should go, and she silently raises her hand and says four words. "I. I will go." Everyone stopped and just kinda looked at her, and then started screaming. Not words, just incoherent noises, and that never stopped until Chrissa's torch was snuffed by Isaac

real confessional for this round: So, this has been a pretty chill round. As a tribe, our number one priority was winning immunity. I staying longer than a few people, until I had to go swim. I still need to talk to Dana, Lexi, and RTP this round to keep those connections alive, but other than that, my social game is less shitty than in the past! So, overall, this is not looking terrible for me!

IS DAISY FUCKING KIDDING ME?!? Daisy, girl, we spoke about this. Adding people to alliance chats can only cause problems. Making a brand new chat is the way that it has to be. I can't be closely tied with someone who is actually that oblivious to how this game goes. It's like telling someone that there's a three person alliance, and we just want them to be fourth on the ladder. THAT'S NOT HOW THIS WORKS. Luckily for me, it's someone as ditzy as Lily is, and it's someone who doesn't really talk to a lot of people, and she's someone who has an idol, and now Daisy and I were both told by Lily, which is why Daisy added her.

One thing that Lily and Daisy aren't aware of is that Jacob knows about the idol too, and that's because I told him, so with Jacob in the loop, and me being the one who told me, is PRIME. I need to be the barrier of communication between all of them, and right now I think I'm doing a steady job. One thing I need to work on is my relationship with Allie and LA, because they're two SMART girls, who I haven't been spending much time talking to, so I might work on that later today, even though I've spoken briefly about the vote to both of them, I need MORE!

Well after the mess with Chrissa we were lucky enough to win, and I think the challenge was a good bonding experience for the tribe. Now I'm kind of in the middle right now I like my alliance a lot but I think I could work with Karen and Lex in the future so I'm nervous about alienating them and I'm like back and forth back and forth like a metronome or some dumb swingy shit. So lemme just cross my fingers we don't have to go to tribal, and that somebody I know will get this damn idol ay dios bio

We lost the immunity challenge earlier. I'm super disappointed but I doubt I'm in any trouble at tribal council. I kinda messed up by posting early, lost my head and this probably was a factor in our tribe losing. On their tribe, only three people messed up.

But challenge aside, I feel I'm pretty safe for the time being here. I like Jacob, Willow, LA, Johnny and Allie and I think I'm getting along with Aromal too. Really the only people who I haven't really been talking with are Star (who's getting evicted today), Daisy and Lily.

I should probably talk more with the other two. All that said, this game is phenomenal. You can never know if you're really safe.

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA But like... wow. I find the idol clue on my very first search, and then on my second search, I find the idol itself. When will your fave... #newqueenintown

We won! Updates game wise so I'm just utr1 instead of inv. 

1. Zak is still a self righteous prick, but he's also smart enough to just flat out target me rn, so idk. 

2. Matt is easy to talk game with, he's seeming a bit paranoid though. 

3. Dana and Ryan, still love em both. 

4. Mitchell is everyone's best friend, hillarious dude. That also sadly means he is the biggest threat in the game. Of course, right now I want to work with threats, but eventually he will be scary. 

5. Karen is still my target. 

6. Gotta try and make Lexi and Monty not flip at a swap. 

7. Linus is the best, he's probably the front runner to win right now.

Okay so I keep forgetting about confessionals oops. But I'm going to my first tribal council ever tonight and I'm a little nervous. I feel like this vote tonight should be pretty simple because everyone in the tribe wants to vote out Star, but I'm worried that he might have an idol or something since 9/10 people in our tribe looked for the idol yesterday. Also I'm still a little bit irritated at myself from the challenge yesterday because it said 7:05 on my computer when I pressed send but it was still 7:04 on the skype clock or whatever Idk