You guys should totally give me doodle requests to draw later

ooooh aaah my first anonymous hate mail!

now i know i said i'd post this sort of stuff publicly to shame the sender, but i'm faaaaiiirly sure this is a kid. so! i'm not gonna post it, or engage, and have in fact already deleted it, because i really really suspect it's a kid.

i'll address one part: about me not tagging my work.

like many other things in the ask, that's an outright lie. i actually do my best to tag comprehensively and liberally, and if you're hatescrolling my blog you already know my tag for the shipaganza in particular is this: 🎀💖

i have put this tag (again, it's 🎀💖) on every post related to the shipaganza. even the explicitly non-romantic, platonic ones (like bandee's and kirby's) and the what the heck is that? ones (like marx's) so that people can liberally avoid it for any number of reasons. i'm just doing this event for fun, and want it to be fun for people viewing the work as well!

i also make it clear regularly that earnest folks can ask me to tag anything in particular and i will do so. however, i cannot control what tags are used on a post once it leaves my blog, so i recommend that you use this handy feature

to make sure you never have to see any of my content ever again, no matter who else might reblog it onto your feed!

if that's not enough and you're still finding mentions of me on your timeline (such as when other people @ me), you can also apparently use "filtered post content" and just put my username in there. now i haven't tried that in particular, but it seems comprehensive as it searches the entire post for instances of a phrase. here are the instructions on how to do that.

anyway! i hope these steps successfully help you to never see my content or mentions of me ever again!

my ouppydog :]

I know when a ship is MY ship when I phisically can not take any angst about it without getting AT LEAST the exact same amount of fluff afterwards.

For example: Whenever I read creek fanfiction and It has the angst tag on it I NEED to check for a hurt/comfort tag AND assure it is between them. My ass is NOT reading anything without them having a somehow happy ending. I would kill myself.

Style on the other hand?? Oh yeah Stan spends almost half his life unrequitedly in love w Kyle until he accepts it won't ever happen and gives it up, distancing himself from Kyle to help himself forget about him. Except that it's not really unrequited, and Kyle finds out about his own 10 ten year old and still growing crush on his best friend when said best friend isn't around anymore. It's too late now, so he just lets the growing apart thing go it's course and hope that maybe, one day, he'll forget about Stan. They never get to know it could've been possible. oooh I'm 100% eating that shit UP

evilest time of day is when it's too late to nap but too early to go to bed

There’s an idea that’s been on my mind for the last several months, and while it’s not FNaF related at all, I still want to share it because I like it.

It’s entirely fantasy—it would be surprising if it wasn’t, given everything that’s involved it, but, Anyways-

It follows Binx—an (anthro) jackalope, their sibling Rox, and a few others that I’ll eventually get to. But, for right now, I’m going to focus on these two. Getting straight to the point... Rox died.

Some time before the main plot would start happening, Rox proceeded to get captured by someone, lost her antlers and an arm, and then was killed. Binx found him—but it was too late.

And while, at first, Binx doesn’t do anything major, and simply grieves over their sibling, until they remember something—resurrection. Rox is gone for about a month before it happens.

Basically stealing something that can actually cause the revival, Binx immediately went into the process of trying to revive their older sibling, not wanting her gone any longer.

However, here’s the thing about resurrection in this world. It’s obviously a thing that can be done—it can be successful—but it’s not an easy thing. You could have whatever to cause a resurrection, but it has the possibility to not work.

There’s only about a 9% chance of any revival/resurrection actually ever succeeding—and Binx just happened to get lucky. But even then, there’s more problems going on.

While it brought Rox back, and healed the bare minimum, one: she’s still needing time to to actually recover. Two: Rox can barely remember anything after being brought back.

He still remembers certain things—who he is, going on adventures—dying, etc. However, Rox is unable to remember Binx at all, among other people and other certain things.

And then comes another problem. While actually being alive now, the whole resurrection doesn’t seem to be a permanent one. It basically worked, but only a little bit?

Think of it as a spell—Binx revives their sibling—she’s alive again—not a sort of zombie or anything—but slowly, the spell is disappearing, and soon, Rox will die again. But, clearly, Binx doesn’t want that.

...But, in other words: Never try to resurrect anyone here. It just sucks.

So, what follows is basically: Binx must try to find a way to fully save their sibling before it’s too late, as well as wanting to get Rox’s memories back—while Rox himself... doesn’t really want that.

I don’t think I’m doing that great at describing this—but, trust me, there’s a lot to it, but I just don’t know how to describe it the best.

That whole situation isn’t the only thing going on—because, at the same time as that, there’s a villain (of course) going around, and the siblings need to be protected.

Uhhh... yeah. That’s all I have to say.

anyway. unrelated to my lovecraftian horror sonic lore madness but hazbin hotel concluded today! my official take is that the show is actually pretty good when you don't have people yelling in your ear that it's the worst thing on earth and it's most certainly not perfect or even necessarily spectacular but like. it's fine. for what it is and what the team probably had to deal with it's a perfectly acceptable little series. its biggest issue is honestly just the pacing which i suspect is entirely down to amazon/publishing restrictions rather than any fault of the creators so i can't hold that against them too much in my judgement. if you can ignore that and keep a reasonable sense of expectations about its humor and plot i think you can have a pretty good time with it. TLDR, 7/10, really needed to be double the length but for what it is it's respectable and the songs are pretty bangin

i don't rlly care and even if i did it's none of my business what mitski's sexuality is but some mitski fans are jumping through HOOPS to make the female pronouns in my love mine all mine (and other lyrics/songs) straight. like........who cares interpret it how you like but you don't have to do all that to convince yourself your femcel manipulator female rage music isn't made by a queer woman 💀

everytime grizzly cuts his hair short it's the same feeling as an angle getting its wings ripped out of its back violently. bye the way.

look i love my asexual headcanons to death and what i’m about to say in no way discounts said asexual headcanons. with that disclosed i do not think aziraphale is a “virgin” (<- virginity isn’t real but you get my point) take one look at that angel and tell me he didn’t go to bacchanals i mean come the fuck on

What’s your favourite kind of wolf?

Oh hello there! Obviously I like gray wolves as a species (as opposed to say, red wolves), but I wouldn't say I have a favorite subspecies. I do have some favorite colors and markings though! While I think all wolves are beautiful, I particularly like black wolves, wolves with black and brown streaks/patches, and brown wolves with the almost "color-point" pattern where their faces and legs are darker than their main body. I'd say my "inner wolf" is black and brown.

[ID: Three photos of wolves. The first is standing in profile with its head raised and turned toward the camera. It has fur that is black on top, deep warm brown underneath, and with pale patches on its rump. The second wolf is walking through deep snow, with its tail raised and head facing the camera. It is mostly black, with streaks and patches of pale brown around its neck, chest, rump, and tail. The last wolf is walking in profile. It has mottled pale brown fur on most of its body, but its legs, face, and tail tip are almost black. /end ID]

Image credits: McKenzie Greenly, Conrad Tan, Ron Niebrugge

There's only one technician and there's a LOT of people here so it might take a while sobs.... I'm so glad I made an appointment bc she said walkins won't be seen until 130 😳

when i briefly mention cults i want to make it absolutely clear i mean literal cults. like not just extremist churches that are harmful and manipulative in their own way (although got that experience too) but like.

(general cult talk under cut)

going on ‘retreats’ since youre a child where members of your church would plan with your parents on a time to ‘abduct from your house because youre never prepared to be a testimony for god. literally being driven for hours until lost in a bus where they had the windows darkened in the back so it made it difficult to see especially with the rural surrounding. no phone service if you had a phone. where they would wake you up every half hour for a week or two (or a month if it was a summer) and had no clocks. being led to hike miles in the dark and mud as its 30 degrees and then shoving you in a rope maze in the middle of the woods for you to try and get through until sunrise and how it was a message about needing the light (god) or else you'll be trapped in darkness and that'll take you to hell. they emotionally berate you to give confessions and you had to list your sins outloud repeatedly over and over and then stand there as people tell you how youre a failure and disgrace. but no worries! jesus will fix that as long as you devote your life and happiness to him because your time on the earth has to be miserable to prove your dedication to the heavens and to get your crown of jewels.

i was “homeschooled” to be isolated further and because we couldn't afford the one public school, the people in the cult(s) were the only people i knew and got to see and several of them killed themselves and then the cult would spend a hour praying God has mercy but knowing prayers are not gods will and that our pleads for mercy are meaningless because they're in hell. my priest gave me modern study bibles with underlines on homosexuality said its disgusting and a sin and that suicidal people are weak and god is disappointed and how selfish it is because you're questioning gods judgement in creating you since the moment youre created, you are covered in the blood of sin and your life is a debt you will never pay off.

they would teach things that werent in the bible and if you said that's not true/the verses dont say that then you got belittled for being stupid and not understanding and gaslit to believe you cant trust your own judgement or thoughts because theyre always wrong or misguided. youre told you're empty and hollow without god and to purge yourself from your “sin” so that you can be a vessel for him while sobbing at the thought of what happens if god purges him from you because what will remain? youre empty without holiness but youre repeatedly taught you arent capable of being holy—what will fill the hole that is your self without this god and religion??

and again, i live in a VERY isolated area where we don't have buses or stores or anything. outside of this cult and self hatred and this god that needs you to be hollow for it to deem you worthy—there literally is nothing else. its isolating, its encouraging self hatred and misery to deem your worth, its dangerous as a disabled queer. I have never had a physical in person friendship but ive had more than 5 adults tell me how they would kill me in detail. i dont have family i can talk to. i dont have friends around me. i convinced my mother for me to stop going to the church in about 2019 or so because for a long time i would attend despite not believing in that shit purely because it was the only way i could get out of my extremely abusive household until it became too dangerous there too where i thought it would be SAFER to be in a house where a gun is pointed to my head every few months.

like i make jokes because lolz religious trauma ammirite! and its not a big sensitive topic despite... trauma. but like... when i say i was raised in cults i literally mean fucking cults LMAO

vaguely mentioned I struggle w eating yesterday, then immediately tried to back pedal bc I realized I didn't want everyone to know that. so I tried to make a joke and I was like "I mean look at me. I eat" and my DM was like that "Yeah. Well, I don't know, you could be losing weight. Are you like starving yourself?" and like. jolt of fear ran thru me being asked that in front of Everyone. and I kinda stuttered and said I eat and my bf goes "He eats like 2 meals a day, it's fine." (not true. but he thinks it is) but I'm still reeling that wad such a scary experience 😭

On one hand toya tenma hc is one of my favorite things ever and it’s very important to me but on the other part of me is coming to hate it bc fans are so insufferable about it

I wholeheartedly support the sharing of cursed/crack/odd thoughts in my inbox. Go nuts guys. Inflict me with as much psychic damage as you wish. Anon is on for a reason.