Holy fuck! Not one, but TWO milestones to celebrate!

Sometime in April I hit 5000 followers and I was gonna celebrate then, but with my one year fic anniversary gbu899i (< my cat Gizmo typed this, we're leaving it here. Everyone wave to him) and mostly because the end of the semester right around the corner, I decided to wait until May in order to give this the attention it deserves. Here we are! May 10th marks one year of me writing fic here on tumblr, and I want to celebrate both achievements.

Your support has played such a vital role in making writing such a gratifying hobby of mine. Whether you’ve been here since I started writing a year ago or just recently stumbled across my blog, it means the world to me. Having people read, like, reblog, comment, and engage with my fics is beyond fucking incredible. You keep me inspired to keep writing.

It’s not easy for me to stick to a hobby for a year. Ask the 20% finished afgan I started knitting two years ago that hasn’t been touched in months!! It’s beyond cool to have both a date on the calendar and such a pretty number to reflect how hard I’ve worked, and neither the date nor the number would be possible without you. Thank you 🩷

So we’re gonna celebrate. I haven’t done one of these before, unless you count the time I hit 2000 followers and said “send me requests!” and then did just one of them and zero others because I was so overwhelmed. So we’re taking a slightly different approach this time…

I’m thinking an extended sleepover, lol. Depending on how many participate, for a week or so you can send me asks from the prompts below and we’ll have some fun with them.

@noxturnalpascal and @beefrobeefcal heavily inspired these choices with their recent follower celebrations 🩵

🐈‍⬛ Show and tell - send me pics of your pets, or Pedro if you don’t have any pets, brownie points for Kieran Culkin pics, or anything else that you love. And tell me all about it, and I’ll show you something I love! 👯‍♀️ I want to get to know each other better, so tell something about yourself or ask something about me. If you want, you can use this and this (⬅️ two send an emoji posts) for prompts 🏞️ Request a Moodboard (my favorite) I love doing moodboards, just tell me what you wanna see and I’ll do my best. 🗳️Send me a poll that you wanna see! Ask any question, let us all decide the answer. 🍆 Send me your dirty horny old man headcanons. I’m a horndog for some old men and I can’t change who I am. 📖 Send me your own writing (or another’s work that you love) I actually have a summer reading project where I’ve tagged each and every one of my mutuals to send me their own works for me to read all summer. So consider this just an extension of that- please send me the links to works you’ve written and/or works you’ve read and enjoyed so that I can enjoy them too and support fellow writers ✍️ 🩷 I enjoy just about anything, but I have a soft spot for dark/dub-con, masturbation, uhhhh anything hot and dirty like that. 👩‍💻Request some writing. I can do Joel, Roman Roy, and I’m maaaybe feeling brave about Frankie. @beefrobeefcal has dibs on my first Frankie fic anyway. Horny and debauched thots encouraged, dare I suggest dark as well? Fluff too, though I think I suck balls at writing it. I’ve been told I should do drabbles,,, that’s not really how I roll with my writing but I’m willing to try. It’s entirely possible and actually likely you’ll get a full length fic, in which case, it’ll take some time to get those done so bear with me. Depending on how many requests for writing I get, I may cut off requests at a certain point too. *It’s also possible I won’t jive with your idea, in which case please don’t feel bad. I only want to write something I feel I can do well, and if I can’t, that’s not on you.

GOD I am a rambler. I could have said so much less. But I hope to hear from some of you all and have some fun! Love you love you love you.

Tagging some friends, readers, and mutuals who’ve made writing what it is for me 🩷 I love you all @ievutebebe @pinkypromisepascal @yazsos @heartfairy @magpiepills @medellintangerine @merz-8 @bitchesuntitled @theweedisasterxoxo @covetyou @theywhowriteandknowthings @futuraa-free @smok3r7 @toxicanonymity @atticrissfinch @xdaddysprincessxx @whatsnewalycat @addictedtotlou @littlevenicebitch69 @marisferasiop @joelsgreys @just-some-random-blogger @ghostlovesbaguettes @sweetenerobert @swiftiegirliepop @joeloverture @dorims @munsonhoneybaby @umnitsa @nostalxgic @yazsos @rainbowcosmicchaos @rav3n-pascal22 @604to647 @starry-eyes-love @paleidiot @bluecookies-and-ink @beardedjoel @aestheticisinq @corazondebeskar @axshadows @kyloispunk @survivingandenduring @pedroswife69 @bean-is-reading @pedroshotwifey @casa-boiardi @knittingandfanfics @molt3ngold @worhols @iknowisoundcrazy @nostalxgic @pattwtf @cerridwen007 @corozondebeskar @blackmetalamazon @jazzysnazzys @sheepdogchick3 @alltheseperfectimperfections @mermaidgirl30

I think it's valid to like a ship however you wanna like it but i genuinely get the impression you don't really like farcille at all. And if that is the case would you please stop tagging posts as farcille just to be negative about it?

that's where youre wrong

i actually enjoy farcille! it was originally mehtp for me but after i figured out that i do enjoy making them struggle with their relationship before they actually figure out how to love each other as equals i like them as otp

if you don't believe me, you can check my blogs for my other ships outside of dunmeshi: dazatsu from bsd where atsushi's patience runs thin everytime dazai tries to push him away, odazai also from bsd where i depict dazai as someone who falls in love with the idealized version of odasaku, not the real him, which explains why i love the idea of marcille idealizing falin, right?

i understand my taste is niche, people generally dont want to see their otp going through relationship problems stemming from not being able to communicate well with each other, but i'm not being negative about my own otp just because i want them to experience angst that stems from canon worldbuilding, i'm exploring how their relationship can survive even with their differences

so as spoiler for the ending im planning for my comic: kabru tells falin it's no good to decide whether she should continue her relationship with marcille or not at this point where she's still confused about her feelings. so he suggests falin should go on her travel around the world to see how she would feel when she's away from marcille. "marcille can be overbearing because she experienced almost losing you. i'm not saying what she's doing is right, of course, but i am saying that you'll have an easier time deciding whether you truly love her or not if you know how it feels like to be without her."

and in the end, falin realizes she wants to be with marcille, but she wants to start over first as friends, to get to know each other as proper equals, instead of a senior who took her of her junior, instead of a distressed savior and her damsel. "i don't want to lose you, marcille"

there lol is that enough to convince you i actually care about the ship

Loss

Word count: 951 ( kinda short sorry )

a/n: this is a bit short but please send requests or ideas I need some

You sighed turning off your TV, your girlfriend's team lost there game againist Iowa and it was a bad loss. You didn't go to this game when usually go to all of them, today you were modeling for Dior and it was around the same time as the game. Luckily you got home in time to turn your TV on and see who won, sadly it wasn't Uconn. You grabbed your phone immediately going to text your girl.

You scoffed at the dry messages from your girlfriend saying she will come over later. You knew Paige was going to be in a bad mood, because of the game. She hated feeling like she couldn’t do what she loved.

Groaning you get from the couch and walk over  to your closet, grabbing Paige's hoodie you slip it on over your tank top. The hoodie slides down your knees but you don't mind that it's too big, that fact that it is Paige's it brings you comfort. You lay down on your bed and scroll through TikTok seeing people have already started talking about UConn's big loss rolling your eyes you exit the app and start watching YouTube.

Around a half hour later you hear your door open and you see your girlfriend walk in with her shoulders slumped, defeated. You rush up to her and wrap your arms around her shoulders pulling you closer to her. Paige hugs you tighter as if you might disappear. You rock back and forth " I'm so tired baby " Paige mumbles not moving to pull away from you at all. Nodding your " I know Paigey come on wanna lay down? " you ask her moving your arms from her shoulders standing up straight bending your head back to look at her. Paige looks down at you and nods, grabbing your hand pulling you back to your bed. She kicks her shoes off and lays her head on your chest.

You play with her hair " Wanna talk about it Paige? " you ask running your hands through her blonde hair. She shakes her head and squeezes your waist " Not really I just wanna be here with you " she mumbles.

You nod and pull her closer to you continuing to play with her hair. Paige leans her head up and looks at you " How was your day baby? The photoshoot? " she asks wanting to think of anything but the game. You smile and cup her cheek " It was good, they really liked me and want me to come model again for them. My day could have been better if I was with you, I missed you all day " Paige smiles at your words.

She puts her big hand on your head and pats your head " That's good baby " she says looking down at your lips before kissing you softly. You kiss back smiling into the kiss. You hear a knock on your door and Paige groans as you get up and go to the door.

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Opening the door you see Nika standing out there looking down at you unshed tears in her eyes. Immediately you pulls her down into a hug " What's wrong? " you ask her concerned for your best friend. Nika shakes her head and mumbles something you can't hear. You pull her inside your dorm and close the door, Paige smiles sadly at Nika " I know the game was bad it's not your fault " Paige tells the other basketball player. Nika nods " Still we could have done better. I could have done better " she says disappointed. Going into the freezer you grab some ice cream and a few spoons before sitting on your bed motioning Nika to come too. You sit in the middle of the two girls and hand them spoons and turn on the TV to watch Shameless. Nika smiles at you and kisses your head " I love this show thank you " she mumbles.

You and Paige eat a few spoons of ice cream before hanging it Nika so she can the rest. Paige leans her head on your shoulder and kisses your neck, you push her off " Stop Paige our friend is right there " you whisper to the girl shaking your head. Paige groans and looks at Nika " Your the biggest cockblock you know that right? " Paige asks sarcastically.

The Croatian girl shakes her head " No Y/n is my best friend before you even started dating so I get first dips on her " she says smirking. Paige makes a face " No I'm the girlfriend I get first dips " she demands.

Groaning you look at both of them " How about I get first dips on myself thanks very much. Also Nika is single, she's lonely so Paige be nice to her please " you say. Paige flips you off as Nika moves to the couch eating the ice cream. As you lay with Paige she wraps an arm around you from behind " Your the best you know that " Paige says. Turning over you face her " No you are, I know you're disappointed from today but you will do so much better next game. Learn from your mistakes you the best player out there along your team and it was one off game it didn't define you. " you tell Paige brushing a loose strand behind her ear.

A tear leaves Paige's eyes and she wipes it fast and kisses you " I love you so much you always know what to say to me " she says pulling you into a tight hug. You smile and kiss her shoulder before turning back around to watch the show on TV. Paige rolls her eyes behind you and pulls you flush against her and closes her eyes and she slowly falls asleep.

I've noticed I seem to be the only one on Tumblr that actually talks about Roxy specifically. I feel like that can't be true yet I've so rarely seen it anywhere

Like maaan I'm sat here thinking about the possibilities of what Glitchtrap would learn getting control of Mimic's security node Roxy and yet I've basically never seen anyone else mention it. This is actual canon that she's Mimic's security node. It's implied an entire team of people from the Raceway died to Mimic and that she's keeping the Raceway closed on purpose.

Did no one else notice? Or am I just not seeing the other people talking about it?

i love seeing how much paratext i can fit into the tags. read my footnotes boy

Stupid silly sketchbook doodles of beloved basketball club shhdfbfbgby it’s so important 2 me that they act like annoying brothers to each other and also that everyone in nrc acts like they’d rather be shot than develop a crush on one of their bitch classmates

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

with the whole idea about our blorbo family, i don't really know how we're going to get started lmao, but i thought we could just maybe, talk about it in the comments or something and state what we wanted to do and what ideas we have so far so we can just all decide on who does what without causing a bloodbath. there's really only three positions that one person could only do which is don, underboss and consigliere but like we don't have to have every rank in the family etc etc.

im hoping everything just falls into place cause it seems like such a cute idea <3 we must get excited for what we can do not what we potentially can't do.

alright we're okay. it's all going to work out and happen. ive got my short film idea. i just have to make it absolutely perfect and then we're good to go

Feels like theres an insane missed opportunity about irida character in the game cuz shes picked as leader after the war, FOR A REASON

ah well gosh hi???

in what i said was gonna be a one day break from, well, life tbh, i seemingly realized that i don't just have school coming SOON, but that i wasn't prepared to wake up at 2pm to find out i only have a few days left of total free time not spent struggling and stressing out over exams of all things

so like any average person i went and made plans with friends to hang out and get my mind off of everything- and while it was good while it lasted, i really wanted to be, yknow, clear

i have artworks at the ready, and if i ever become desperate enough to start getting a hang on drawing with a mouse all the time i might as well, but as things stand i really do not know what the heck i am doing-

i'll try my hardest to at least look for a way to fix the pen cause that's just the most important and expensive part of the damaged stuff, but i'm thinking the cable is perma-broke so i'll have to look for a way to replace it

to cut right to the chase: i have some art i can post. but i dunno when, if, or which to post because most of them have some context that i would've normally been all too eager to explain, but as things stand? man i don't think i could muster the energy to try

so? i dunno yall- i mean i could start writing again? i've entertained the idea long enough and this might be just the opportunity to finally get some practice without getting distracted by drawing :'D

i could do small stuff with a mouse if i feel like sharing some art, but the illustrations? i feel like i can only post those once i feel a bit more alive mentally and physically to interact with others without feeling so drained all the time (but knowing that school's coming, i can't really promise anything :'))

thanks a lot for the sweet words and patience guys- it means a lot that you won't immediately, idk, ditch this blog once you realize i might not post much if not at all (hopefully not gosh) for an undetermined amount of time? you really made me realize this wasn't as bad as my mind's been pushing me to think,

so trust me i WILL bounce back and reblog stuff and have entire essays in your tags eventually- i just need to stop feeling like it has to be today, or tomorrow, or any days afterwards, just that it will happen when i feel like it<3

hey kings

it’s y’girl!

...Please accept a sub 3000 chapter as my formal apology for deleting myself for almost a year

looking for that one reblog where someone said something like... 'when i think of having sex i picture myself with a dick'.

i cant even remember if it was in response to a post abt trans ppls sexualities or abt why bottom surgery can matter or abt why the 'youre a [gender] bc you say so not bc you have [x] body parts !!!1!!' positivity can be alienating to some ppl...

maybe a mix of all or none at all but i wanna find it again so badly bc that sentence exists rent free in my brain like i have Never experienced such a feeling of simultaneous Being Understood + You Put It In Words as I did when i read that sentence

So apparently they are starting to let parents monitor your phones stuff.

This is of course google, however I know plenty of people who use google docs and are underage so I must warn everyone!

Your parents can monitor what you write!

They can read it!

It's not safe! Not anymore!

Please use something other than google docs!

I know most phones have notes use that instead!

Or even notes on the computer! But stay away from google!

Especially if you want your privacy! Otherwise your family can see it.

I didn't even know my mother's email was connected to my account so don't think your safe. I dunno if it is google, I just know that it's google products!

Only reason I even know this is because my mother saw something I wrote yesterday which was... (something for my eyes only)

I felt scared, I was scared that she saw something I searched but since I'm 18 today it makes it impossible for her to see what I search or do now without permission but that's not for definite.

I do not want anyone having to be exposed by google about anything so please use something else!

Or use a secret account that you made so your family cannot see what you are doing!

I dunno if she can see it still. I don't know how to make it so she can't.

I might have to just delete most my google docs or at least export them elsewhere.

I just want everyone to be safe. So please stay safe, stay away from google as much as possible!

I wish that I was more

i truly do love speculative biology for fantasy, like if i sat down and actually put time into it i could make a series exploring how different fantasy races would work. but it would genuinely be so long with me just explaining how i'd think the worldbuilding would work it's crazy