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cowboyhorsegirl · 2 years

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omg evren please say more about tonynat on some sort of mission where they need to fake date!! <3

@meidui, you've never known this because i have unfortunately never gotten around to answering any of your asks before, but you always send the best ones <3 I started writing this response back in May and couldn't ever figure out how to write the last scene between tony & nat, but I've taken a crack at it now in the hopes that you can enjoy this insane infodump of meta & a bit of fic before you move on to healthier and happier things :)

!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh yes gladly !!!!!!!!!!!!

(and sorry this took so long i hope you don’t mind that I wrote you a novel lmfao)

((Also I’m going to talk A LOT about IM2 but bear in mind that it's been about a decade since i've watched it so if I misconstrue anything please let me know!))

First of all, I absolutely adore Tony and Natasha separately, and I think had they been able to interact more in the MCU canon they would have served to ease each other’s insecurities and curb their more self-destructive tendencies. There’s undoubtedly a lot of parallels between their histories and their motivations for choosing to be heroes:

they’ve got a lot of red in their ledgers, so to speak

they’re trying to even out the scale of all the harm they’ve done

they place the blame of those harms squarely on their own shoulders even though they are both–to varying degrees–victims of the systems they were a part of when enacting that violence (I will say I feel this is much more true in Nat’s circumstances with the KGB than in Tony’s with the US military-industrial complex, but the case can be made for him too what with Tony’s enduring addiction and mental health issues stemming from his relationship with his father who expressly expected him to take over the company [sidebar: i would make the case that tony does not and has never liked building weapons as these are not things that he chooses to do with his engineering prowess in childhood or at MIT, and while he is leading SI he acts out in ways that in my view indicate he’s deeply unhappy with his life and is trying to numb the pain] + the way he was manipulated and ultimately almost killed multiple times by Obadiah)

traumatic medical experiences involving painful, life-changing surgeries AND loss of bodily autonomy

But! There’s also some similarities in how they try to cope with these burdens. For example, they’re both extremely competent at what they do and in a perpetual state of trying-to-prove-themselves (this tends to function more internally for nat and more externally for tony) so their default mode is often to obscure what they feel/think in most situations from everyone but an extremely select group of trusted friends as a means of concealing emotional vulnerability. They are also both prone to throwing themselves into an unhealthy work/life balance because there’s always something more they specifically could be doing to help and it seems as though neither of them can bear to forgive themselves for inaction if their involvement could have saved even one more life regardless of the personal cost.

(That last point especially *COUGH endgame COUGH*)

So in my opinion they would’ve come to be able to recognize these habits in each other at a level of familiarity that Rhodey and Pepper do for Tony or that Clint does for Natasha, but in a shorter time period. Furthermore, because they see themselves in each other, I think they’d be much more discerning over when is the appropriate time to push the other hard to treat themself better because a coping mechanism is becoming overly destructive and when they should give the other a bit more leeway because, yeah, what you’re doing right now probably isn’t the most healthy way for you to process things in the moment but I understand where you’re coming from and I know that if I try and get you to work through things too quickly or in the way i think would be best I might accidentally end up pushing you farther away. I’d rather you be overworking and/or emotionally distancing yourself in my orbit so I can be here for you when you come up for air.

I’m going to put the rest of this under the cut because i haven’t even gotten around to the point of your message lmfao (thank you so much for the ask btw !!!)

However! The crux of the issue is that, for all of their similarities and potential compatibilities, Tony and Natasha first met when Tony was dying (stressful in its own right but in Tony’s case, it specifically ties directly back to the aforementioned medical trauma + previous near-death experiences) and Natasha was undercover on behalf of SHIELD collecting intel on him for a superhero initiative that he did not know anything about and did not know he was being considered for. They don’t really get the chance to engage and interact in good faith because of the inherent nature of “Natalie’s” mission, but I think that the sources for potential long-term mistrust go a bit deeper than that superficial subterfuge.

Natasha in this situation is manipulating tony to gather information on him and denying him full control over medical decisions, and he is not privy to this prolonged, imbalanced dynamic until much later. Plus, Natasha’s own assessment of Tony is that he is not fit for the Avengers, but that Iron Man is. I feel this could be interpreted by Tony as Natasha suggesting that SHIELD reassign someone else to pilot the suit, further digging into those previous harmful thought patterns for tony that he’s only as worthy as the weaponrymachines he builds, no one values or wants him as he is, people are going to force him to relinquish his creations if he doesn’t give them up voluntarily and with a smile with the now added bonus of: this suit makes me feel like my life is worth living again and now they want to take it away from me because I’m not good enough for it.

As is, this setup makes total sense for their first meeting: Natasha is an agent and a damn good one and Tony is a very powerful man who people are regularly trying to pry information/resources/technology/expertise from by any means necessary.

The problem lies in the fact that these two are then tasked with being on an elite superhero squad where they have to place very complete trust in each other and I just don’t really see that happening without some intense heart-to-hearts about what went down in IM2. Now, as we stated before, these are two people who are very reluctant to open up and share their internal strife even with the few people they’ve developed trusting relationships with over the course of years, so I don’t imagine they would willingly offer that painful transparency to each other.

It seems that the ideal conditions for this sort of conversation to take place would call for a mission requiring only Tony and Natasha to work in an extremely close capacity with each other that involves high stakes and high emotions and in which the success of the mission lies critically in their ability to improvise off each other in order to hide in plain site using the cover of an innocuous personal entanglement.

I sense a fake dating mission!!!!!!!

(Bonus points if the context of the mission harkens back to the one or both of their previous traumas.)

So, to FINALLY get around to the point of your ask, my ideal tonynat fake dating mission would serve the primary purpose of allowing tony and nat to work through the events of IM2 and develop their friendship. This would have to involve recognizing the many similarities they share regarding their motivation to undo the violence and harm that they both wrought in their previous lives and then using that foundation of recognition to build trust and eventually camaraderie and understanding!

And because this is my personal dream tonynat fake dating mission story, the secondary purpose would be to make steve jealous and have an early-onset Feelings Realization™️and/or tony-induced Gay Awakening© because i have perpetual stevetony brain rot and I simply cannot engage with any story without figuring out a way to shove a stevetony plotline into it🤪

The time: the nebulous space after AI/IM3 but before CA:TWS.

The place: a foreign nation with a highly advanced technology sector (I’m thinking either Singapore or Japan or Germany).

The mission: identify and infiltrate a corporation that is suspected to be funneling technology and product to [INSERT VILLAIN ORGANIZATION HERE] [PROBABLY DOOM LOL].

I imagine it would start with Fury assembling the Avengers to brief them on the situation and the long and short of it is this: a weeks-long mission that will involve Tony and Natasha attending a technology expo abroad to figure out who is supplying [VILLAINS] with their tech, infiltrate their operations, gather intel, and collect evidence. There should be no reason to expect any flashy shootouts, Fury insists while leveling a one-eyed glare at Tony, but Clint and Steve will rotate 4 day surveillance shifts on the helicarrier which will be hovering nearby over international waters and Bruce and Thor will be on call in case they do need back-up.

One last thing: undercover identities. Trying to conceal Tony Stark’s identity would be like trying to sweep an elephant under a carpet–Hill has to talk quickly to cut Tony off from reminding them all again how he managed to stay under the radar in Tennessee for a week and if it’s so damn hard for him to go undercover then how come the powers that be at SHIELD couldn’t find him in Buttfuck Nowhere, USA?–but it doesn’t matter because he’ll be able to blend in effortlessly at this conference under the guise of exploring new opportunities for SI to diversify its ventures in the tech sector.

Natasha, on the other hand, will need something a bit more involved. She’ll be attending as Nadine Roman, an aspiring model and Stark’s latest conquest, Fury explains while Hill drops a file detailing the persona in front of Natasha.

At this, the energy in the room shifts a bit as Steve, Bruce, and Tony all have subtle, but undeniable reactions to this news. Bruce frowns slightly, as if trying to imagine what this scenario would even look like. Tony’s eyes slip over to Steve and his smirk falls for just a moment before snapping back into place, albeit looking a little bit more forced than before. As Steve tries to clumsily disguise his own surprised expression, he remembers seeing a story in the news recently about Tony and Pepper’s split as he had been flipping between the international news section and sports.

“So…I’m going to fake date Triple Imposter over there?” Tony finally offers into the silence.

Fury considers him for a second, and is just opening his mouth to respond when Natasha–still studying her file to get the rundown on ‘Nadine’–says “Yeah, if you can handle it,” eliciting an unapologetic snort from Clint where he sits beside her.

Cut to the actual mission, and by all appearances ‘Nadine’ and Tony are technically pulling it off with no issues. Not like it’s hard, really, Red is a literal pro at undercover operations as Tony is quite well aware of having been on the receiving end of one of them. She slips into the role of harmless arm candy flawlessly, batting her eyes and smiling coyly over her bare shoulders at egotistical corporate executives with an almost surgical precision. Her flirting and the prestige that accompanies her temporary status as Tony Stark’s companion gains her access to secret meetings and lowly-lit offices where she fades into the background, making herself known and forgotten with equal efficacy.

For his part, Tony is providing the perfect cover for Natasha to work off of. He parades her around the first day, every bit his ostentatious self to make sure everyone gets the image of her on his arm cemented in their minds. He pretends to be too tipsy to notice when his date seduces men right behind him while skillfully avoiding the drinks that keep getting shoved into his hands. He schmoozes with global industry leaders who make him want to tense his body in disgust, but he forces himself to relax, fielding unwanted touches and unearned familiarity all while trying to pry information out using his own forms of deception and sleight of hand.

It’s strange Tony thinks playing this game again. It hasn’t been all that many years since this was his real life, though it feels like it’s been lifetimes. Considering how many near-death scares he’s had in the past few years, it may as well have been several lifetimes since the last time he’s flounced around one of these conferences with some nameless darling of the night on his arm and one too many drinks in his blood and a desperation to be outside of himself, even if just for a moment, even if he had to kill himself oh-so-slowly to do it.

Oh right.

In all the madness that’s been Iron Man, the ecstasy of building something to do good for a change coupled inextricably with the immense mental toll of his recent heroics, it had been easy to let himself forget what it had felt like to live with the shackles of a duller but more persistent type of misery around his neck.

It unnerves him, too, how easy it is to slip back into this life, but he supposes he had been born and built for it. It’s practically muscle memory or an instinct hardwired into his DNA, so deeply ingrained in him he couldn’t cut out the rot no matter how badly he might want to.

Tensions build as the days pass, until one day while Natasha is off trying to uncover potential industry connections to [VILLAIN ORGANIZATION], it happens. Tony’s in the middle of a conversation that he hates about the merits of private-sector civilian surveillance. But, because he’s Tony Stark and he’s smarter than all of these sleazy business fucks put together, he finds himself dominating the discussion. And, because he’s working this goddamn mission right now, undercover in plain site, he’s arguing for it. Arguing the merits of private sector civilian surveillance.

He finishes the point he was making, met with painfully unsubtle nods of approval and he can practically see the rusty gears in the brains of his so-called contemporaries trying to figure out how quickly they can relay what Tony’s just said to their own company boards.

He knows he’s lived this exact scene at least a hundred times before at no less than a few dozen past expos. He’s never been able to observe the charade so clearly before, though.

As he’s turning away from the crowd of executives surrounding him, Tony doesn’t register that instead of sipping at the glass of water he’s been nursing all night, he’s raised it to his lips and forcefully thrown his head back to drink until his brain realizes that the burn he expected to light a path down his throat hasn’t come yet.

Muscle memory. Just like all the worst parts of him, the parts he will never be without.

Horror dawns on him as he slowly lowers his arm, and the breaths start coming fast and shallow while the cold, cold weight of hysteria begins to settle in his chest, freezing him from the inside out.

I need a drink he thinks for the first time in a long time, and that… That scares him. Because he could do it, it would be all too easy to start again here, now. Someone would no doubt be thrusting another drink innocuously into his hands soon enough because of course they would, he’s Tony Stark and Tony Goddamn Stark is a drunk. Ever since that first drink in the dark of Howard’s office when bourbon branded his mouth with its awful liquid fire and his father branded his soul with a taunt Tony never stopped repeating Stark men are made of iron Stark men are made of iron Stark men are made of iron.

The next few seconds seem to collapse and stretch simultaneously around Tony as if he has suddenly found himself suspended in the middle of a black hole. There’s a slight tremor to his hand as he sets the now empty glass down. The conversation is still moving around him: attention snaps back to him and predatory smiles greet him in excess before he’s even finished turning to face them again. A thought passes through the haze in his oxygen-starved brain that he’s about to be eaten alive, consumed whole and used up so thoroughly that there will be nothing left. It’s so asinine that for a brief instant mounting distress gives way to sharp disgust at the momentary lapse of rationality.

A light hand settles on his shoulder, and Tony’s entire body tenses under the phantom weight of a much heavier grip. Someone else used to know how to spot the onset of his little outbursts once. A friend, a desperately trusted father figure, or so he had deluded himself into thinking once because he had wanted that, had wanted anyone to notice when he was trapping himself inside his own brain again and maybe even to care enough to bring him back down to earth when he did.

Panic seizes Tony’s heart in an iron grip, and it feels like Obie’s hands inside him.

Natasha looks up at him, but he doesn’t catch the expression on her face, eyes zeroing in on the spot where he had just set his empty cup down. On the table, someone has helpfully cleared the glass and set down a complimentary martini on the corner of a napkin.

It’s all a blur of a crashing martini glass and his own breath and blood loud in his ears and his body on autopilot getting him the hell out of there because yes, yes this is bad but if he doesn’t leave now it’s going to be worse. Vodka drips down his hand as he practically runs out of the hall back to the refuge of their hotel suite and he hasn’t even thought about the consequences, the damage control until he hears Natasha’s voice light and unbothered and a second later a round of raucous laughter from the crowd he’d just had eating out of the palm of his hand and then the door slams shut behind him and all he thinks about is the path back to the hotel.

When Natasha slips into their rooms later that night, Tony doesn’t waste any time deploying his own damage control strategy, but not so he can manage appearances in front of the men waiting to pounce on him once more on the expo floor. He can’t really bring himself to care less about keeping up appearances with them, and it won’t matter after tonight, anyway.

“I’m going back to the helicarrier. I’ll be much more useful there running surveillance and the suit is always available in case you need it.”

Natasha tilts her head and raises one eyebrow pointedly as she silently considers Tony’s words for a moment.

“No.” She says firmly, with a tone that would have ended the discussion before it even began were she not talking to a man whose stubbornness was outmatched only by the magnitude of his lack of self-preservation.

“Excuse me?” There’s just the slightest edge of panic to Tony’s voice, but even that small crack is threatening to collapse the entire facade.

“I need you here. There’s no other part of this mission where you’d be more useful.”

“That really isn’t your call to make,” Tony says brusquely, getting up from where he had been sitting in their lounge and walking over to face the view of the nighttime city skyline as it shines through the massive windows.

“It’s not yours either. I wouldn’t have taken this mission if I didn’t know you could do it, Stark.”

“Why?!” Tony bursts out, expression crumbled when he spins around to meet her head-on. “What changed Natasha? Two years ago, YOU said I was a liability, so what exactly has changed?” His chest is heaving with the effort of catching a breath, eyes wild and body frozen still against the backdrop of the city lights, held captive under Natasha’s assessing gaze in a way that’s so much more restricting than even the bounds of social convention he broke to escape the expo floor an hour ago.

For a few, awful seconds, Natasha’s face is totally blank as she stares back at Tony and he wonders desperately for a moment if she’s evaluating him in real-time, if she’s writing the mission debrief in her head right now about how Tony Stark has shown himself unfit for espionage, unfit for combat, unfit for superheroics, unworthy of so much more than just the Iron Man su—

“I did.” Her voice shatters the spiral he had just begun to fall into, sympathy written in the downward tilt of her mouth and the way her eyebrows draw towards each other, wrinkling the skin between them. Tony is so abruptly, acutely aware that this is an emotion she’s choosing to let him see, but unlike the way she had laughed airily at the jokes made by the businessmen at the conference downstairs or their first interactions together when she had still been Natalie, this is not an act. The masks have all dropped.

“What?”

“ I changed. I made the wrong call about you.” She slowly makes her way over to him.

Tony breathes out an incredulous laugh, one hand coming up to rub his face. “You’re really going to try and convince me that I’m not everything you wrote in your report to Fury? After what you saw down there?” The words are quiet in the still air between them.

“What did I see? Tell me why I was right.” She raises one hand to lower his from his face, not letting it go once she does.

“Isn’t it obvious? This… all the— the schmoozing and the grandstanding and the— God, the weapons. It’s like I never even left the industry, it all comes back so easily. That’s who I am, who I was raised to be. You saw it down there, I know you did. Please don’t— don’t lie to me.” He swallows heavily around the last admission, the unspoken again echoing louder than if he had just said it.

“I don’t know,” Natasha starts, a small smile forming on her gorgeous red-painted lips. The shade matches the color of the tie Tony wore today. She had hidden a microphone in the knot before they left earlier this afternoon. “Doesn’t seem like it comes all that easily to you. I imagine we’d still be down there schmoozing and grandstanding together if it did.”

A beat of silence passes before Tony breaks into a startled grin, Natasha’s smile growing in response to his. “I always forget that making jokes is something you do,” he admits, chuckling softly.

“Looks like we’ve still got a lot to learn about each other then.”

“Guess so,” the words just shy of a whisper as he finally pulls his hand from Natasha’s gentle hold and breaks their gaze to look away.

“Tony,” she says, resting one hand on his cheek to gently guide him back. “The man on this mission? That isn’t you. Maybe it was, once, but I know it isn’t now because I see you choose to be better than him every day. To do better than him. That’s who you are: the choice you make, over and over, every day, to be better.” Her eyes flicker away for just a fraction of a second, almost imperceptibly, if Tony hadn’t been hanging on to her every word, eyes fixed on hers. “And I… I wouldn’t hold yourself responsible for the person you were raised to be.”

He takes in a shuddering breath, unsure how he found himself here without any of his social armor. How Natasha disarmed him of his usual tactics, avoidance and distraction and redirection, he isn’t quite sure. But there’s a trust he feels blossoming in his chest as she cradles his head in her hand that pushes fear at bay, and he knows he should be wary, trusting the spy, but there’s a haunted edge to her expression that makes Tony think that, for once, perhaps he isn’t the one who stands to lose the most if he falls headlong into trusting.

“It’s too much,” he admits, “pretending to be who I was. It— it reminds me of Obie, and drinking, and… it’s just a lot. A lot to deal with alone.”

The corners of her eyes wrinkle tenderly as she smiles warmly at him. “It’s an act, Tony. You know this. You’re the only person who can do it, exactly because you’ve done it before, for so long. You fooled me didn’t you?”

His lips quirk up at the quip, he imagines that he’ll never quite get over how bizarre it is to hear Natasha banter with him like this, but it doesn’t much matter as long as he gets to experience the delight of her humor again.

“And Tony?”

“Yes?”

“I promise you, you’re not alone anymore.”

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as far as the steve b-plot goes i’m thinking that steve would initially be feeling a sort of vague discomfort that he can’t quite pin down a reason for so he eventually just decides ‘oh you know what Nat is right and i’m probably feeling lonely and should try dating again after this mission is over’. but then he starts to see tony and nat acting more and more comfortable and affectionate and intimate with each other during the expo in a way that feels…. not so fake anymore and discomfort intensifies into a weird sort of frustration and anger and ultimately he realizes it’s jealousy and he spends a few days stewing in the helicarrier watching tony dazzle natasha in front of god and probably some villains and everyone else on the expo floor and he’s like this is so weird am i jealous of tony?? I don’t like nat like that she’s a great friend but i only see her as a friend and then one day on the ninth day of his latest shift because he’s started insisting to clint that he extend his rotations (clint is very on board with this bc as far as missions go this is literally a cakewalk to him & Nat and he promptly peaces out to go raise his secret family) steve’s watching the surveillance footage of the expo and he sees tony laughing so genuinely as he and natasha demonstrate an iron man gauntlet and he’s so enamored by tony’s joy and the way he squeezes his eyes shut and presses his lips together into a smile because he physically can’t contain his amusement and his laugh lines deepen so beautifully and he’s like oh. OH. i’m not jealous of tony i’m jealous of NATASHA. Because she gets to make tony laugh like that and touch him and be his and it’s all for a mission of course it is but what if it isn’t?? Because steve’s never seen tony laugh like that before and that was all for natasha and cue steve-centric shenanigans as he works through his gay pining for tony stark while simultaneously convincing himself that tony and natasha are now in a real relationship and angsting over that too. i feel like this would eventually resolve itself by nat and tony somehow getting themselves in danger as they finally hone in on their target and steve has to go save them and he’s carrying a bruised and bloodied tony stark out of his makeshift prison and tony is so delirious with gratitude that he kisses steve and steve feels guilty about THAT bc even though he’s elated he’s like ‘oh naur :( tony is cheating on my best close friend natasha with me and how could i do this to her’ meanwhile natasha is completely oblivious to this whole pity party steve is throwing himself and tony has literally been asleep in a hospital bed for 17 hours and thinks he dreamed that kiss when he wakes up steve thinks he’s in a love triangle but it’s literally all in his head bc he’s an emotionally constipated idiot but damn it if he isn’t tony’s emotionally constipated idiot

#if it's all the same to you i'm going to hang on to your 1872 ask a bit longer :)#signed sealed delivered #meidui #tony stark #natasha romanoff #mcu #meta #fic!#evwrites #scribbles #tonynat #plus a dash of #stevetony #bc it's me and of course there's stevetony

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annoyinglyjovialbird · 4 years

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Voltron: Next Generation

Wavering Objectives: I

Word Count: 3283

A/N: Longer cause I can!

It had been a few days since Kova's great escapade, but the effects still lingered.

Yorak and Vhix were studying the holoscreen recording of the event. She was smart, quick on her feet. Vhix stared at the recordings in a begrudging impress. Yorak was supporting himself on the table, bowing his head and glaring at a still of Kova's face.

"Well, Kyla sure has grown up, hasn't she?" Vhix muttered. Yorak's hand tightened into a ball. With a thunderous blow, Yorak pounded his fist into the table, shaking the screen and disabling it.

"Kyla is still the same spineless girl she was before." Yorak stood at full height, cradling his fist. "We can break her. Rebuild her. Make her fight for us." Yorak had turned to look out the small porthole-sized window behind him. The stars flickered past the slow-moving ship. The rainbow clouds of dust glowed in the distance, much too far to reach.

"And how do you intend to do that?" Vhix asked, crossing his arms across his chest and leaned on the edge of the table. "Her moral compass was determined by the ones who raised her, and that wasn't you."

"Ezrid," Yorak growled. "Don't tell me things I already know." Yorak turned to glare at the man behind him. Vhix looked unimpressed, only uncrossing his arms at Yorak's turn.

"Well, Junior," Vhix said. Yorak sneered at the name. "Entertain me. How are you going to break someone who isn't here to break?"

"In due time, Vhix." Yorak flexed his hand, wincing at the pain that shot up his arm. "When we return to the outpost, I'll tell you."

"Until then?"

"Track her down. Double the ransom. We need her back."

———————

The crew of the Coeus was gathered on the bridge, hoping to hear all about the amazing escape. Kova, for her credit, stood in the middle of the floor in full view of everyone's eyes as they looked her over. She was wearing only a black t-shirt, black pants, and combat boots. Her hair was held back in a loose ponytail, her eyes downcast.

Rolling her head around, she met everyone's eyes and sighed.

"Let's just get this over with." She muttered. Stiffening her shoulders and holding herself steady, Kova's eyes brightened. "Who's first?" A barrage of questions came her way, and if there was a way to physically be blown away by the questions or the volume at which they were being asked, Kova would. "Time out, time out!"

"What happened? What did you do?"

"I called for a timeout, Griffin!"

"Don't care!" Liz held her face in her hands in a glamor pose. "How did you escape?" Kova rolled her eyes and rested her hand on her hip.

"I made an elephant toothpaste trap, escaped through a hole in the sewer, and was blown out through the back door." A few awkward blinks came Kova's way, and she stared back. "Seriously, that's what happened! Ugh, anyway. Who's next?"

"Are you physically okay?" Cake asked next. Kova nodded.

"Besides a wrist sprain from holding on to the door, I'm fine."

"Then why are your arm and leg wrapped?" Kova really hoped Cake wouldn't ask. Her body language said as much. Kova's leg had been scratched from her jump into the emergency toilet that she hadn't noticed, the small scratch on her hands climbing out of the emergency toilet later on, and the wrist sprain didn't and shouldn't warrant an arm sling and Kova's left arm and right leg to be completely wrapped in gauze and tape.

"I wish I could tell you, Cake." Kova looked to the quiet side of the room. "Next?"

"Did you recover any pertinent information?" Allie asked.

"Not much. I'm sorry. They took me to a closet across from the Emperor's room. The second-in-command told me I should be grateful for not being in a crowded prison cell."

"They were treating you well?"

"I know! I was shocked too. It seemed like I was their main priority. They tried feeding several times. I even dunked a soldier's head in a toilet, but they let me go. I wasn't punished." Allie sat back in her chair, pondering. "Who's next?"

"How were we able to track you?" Shiro was supporting himself on the banister around Kova's station.

Kova's eyebrows lifted at her father, who stood firm. She shrugged and turned to face the windows to the dark space outside. She stooped down to lift a small panel on the floor and inserted a small chip. The screen came to life, showing a unique code, color-coded to show the differences. Kenny and Cake marveled at the sight, geeking out at the individual codes. Everyone else was trying to understand what it was.

"These are the individual tracking codes on the suits. When I was going through the suits and updating, upgrading, or even unlocking several different components, I also inserted a tracking code."

"Into the armor or the bodysuits?" Cake asked, tuning into the conversation.

"Both," Kova said, turning to face him. "I managed to have the codes be separate from each other unless combined together."

"Meaning?" Keith asked. He had been quiet throughout the whole conversation. At least he was interested in something.

"Meaning that the bodysuits will emit a tracking code unless attached to the armor. Then, the bodysuits disable their code when their pairing code is in position."

"So, wait. The code Cap knew is—" Liz started again, being cut off by Kova.

"The code to the Black Paladin bodysuit." Kova's right hand found itself a home on her hip as she stared at everyone's awed stares. If reversed, you'd be impressed, too, she chided herself. "I kept all the code on a small password-protected chip in case of plagiarism. I hoped to integrate it with the modern suits after test runs."

"So, wait." Caleb held a finger in the air. "Our suits are tracking code experiments." Kova raised her eyebrows again, giving Caleb a flat stare. Allie, although not visible to Caleb, also gave a flat stare.

"Caleb," Kova pinched the bridge of her nose. "You. Were. There." Caleb crossed his arms and pouted. "Are you going to ask a question, now, or are you going to keep pouting?"

"What is your relationship with the Fire?" Keith demanded, turning all eyes to him.

"What are you talking about?" Kova asked. Her heart was racing. Did he know? Did Keith recognize her?

"You're half-Galra, aren't you?" Darn.

"Yeah, but what does that have to do with anything?"

"Whose side are you on?" Keith had descended the staircase to stand in front of Kova. He was taller than she was, but she didn't move. She met his stare. "The Fire's or the galaxy's?"

"Stand down, soldier." Kova's eyes flared at the accusation. "I'm on the side that takes down the Fire, not the other way around."

"Then why haven't you done anything against them?"

"What are we supposed to do? We're kids!"

"So was I, and I defeated the Fire! Give me a real excuse!"

"Alright, alright, enough!" Shiro intervened. "We can discuss more later. Kova, go put ice on your wounds. Keith, go rest in your bunk. Everyone else, continue normal duties." To a chorus of 'yes sirs' and huffs from fighting parties, the crew did exactly what they were told to do.

Later that night, and in the middle of the night, the crew had a rude awakening. One minute, the Coeus is stable. Drifting through space without much interference from the space around it. The next, it went nyoom to the right. With thunderous crashes, every teen had fallen out of bed. Kenny, who positioned his bed in a small alcove, hadn't been affected. Until the ship took a hard left to reposition itself. Then he raced to the bridge.

The paladins raced in, in varying degrees of sleepwear. Together, they scanned the windows, searching for warnings or blasts. Instead, they found Keith. He was wearing the clothes Shiro had gotten him from the space mall: A plain black t-shirt, a gray vest Shiro had stolen back from Kova, matching gray cargo pants, and boots. Red ribbons were tied around his calves to keep the pants from billowing.

Keith only stared at the teens, holding the console. It seemed to the teens he didn't expect the teens' response time to be so fast. Clearly, he didn't know how often they've been attacked.

From left to right, the teens wore their Lions' colors well. Allie wore a light blue long-sleeved smocked waist dress with matching blue pants and white slippers. Caleb wore a bold red shirt with a plaid breast pocket and black and white plaid pants with black socks. Kova wore solid purple sweatpants and long-sleeved tunic with fitted wrists and ankles and barefoot. Liz wore a white tank-top with bright green shorts underneath. covered by a green robe and white socks. Cake wore a long green and yellow tunic similar to the ones his mother wore on the Balmera. They all had varying degrees of bed head, from Allie's bent pigtails to Kova's tri-pronged hair and everything in between.

"It's the middle of the night!" Liz exclaimed. Cake and Allie were quick to follow her anger but did nothing to stop Keith. "Kova! Kova?" Liz tried to rally the stunned teen and noticed a vein protruding from the girl's forehead.

"DAAAAD!" Kova's voice started small, growing in volume as she stood to full height. "DAD!" She leaned her head out the doorway. "DAD! Control your, uh, whatever!"

"Get into positions," Caleb ordered, sighing tiredly. The teens complied, watching. "He's probably still strapped into the bed."

"What a shame. I don't care." Kova turned to glare at the man in her place. "Get away from my console." Keith didn't budge. She repeated it. His eyes hardened as she got closer.

"I have to get back to Earth!" Keith shouted, pulling a hand away from the console. The Coeus once again went nyoom but the teens were semi-prepared this time. "I have to get back to my family!"

"We have a larger mission at hand!" Kova argued, lunging at his hand. Keith moved away from her grasp, turning the ship right-side up. "Sorry to say, but I think your family can wait!"

"You don't understand!" The Coeus tilted to the left.

"Try me!" Rightside up.

"You're a kid! What do you know?" Coeus went almost flat to its right.

"More than you, apparently!" Rightside up again.

"Enough!" Shiro yelled, interrupting the two. Kova took Keith's distraction to pull him forward and flip him onto his back. "Kova!" She stood at attention, directly in front of the console. "What's going on?" Keith was quick to stand up. He opened his mouth to explain, but Kova beat him to it.

"We awoke to the Coeus changing direction. While aware of your sleeping circumstances, we attempted to resolve this on our own."

"Kova."

"Fine." She sighed. "I tried to solve this on my own. But he started it!" She pointed a menacing finger at Keith. He pointed one back.

"She doesn't understand what happened!"

"He almost killed us!"

"No, I didn't!"

"Stop it! Enough, you two!" Shiro stood in between them. "Kova, be more understanding of others around you." She glowered as Keith beamed. "And Keith, you're new to this dynamic, but Kova's in charge until I take command." Now it was Kova's turn to beam while Keith scowled. "Kova."

"On it." She turned to her team, ready for orders. "Liz, pull up cameras. Cake, redirect our course. I uploaded some data into the Coeus's hard drive. Allie, can you decode for Kenny? It's Altean. Caleb, get me a hot chocolate."

"No." He spun in his chair, typing away at his console to check on weapons systems. Kova shrugged at her dad, who gave his head shake of disapproval. She didn't mind much.

"Keith, there's a chair in the corner." Kova pointed at the chair in its long-forgotten corner. Of course, he didn't listen. Luckily for the teens, there was an all-clear. The teens climbed up the stairs, all hoping to reacquaint themselves with their sheets and pillows.

The Coeus, once again, went nyoom, taking a hard hit from the left. The teens slammed into the nearest walls.

"Oh, I'm never going to sleep tonight," Kova muttered with her head bowed. She stood, taking command. "All right, everyone, get to stations!" Keith had a first-class seat to the efficiency the team dealt with the threat. Unfortunately, now they were all too wired to go to bed. Keith wasn't pulling his stunt again tonight.

They're kids! What do they know!

Kova was typing away at her console. The low light on the bridge had darkened her features, making her look more tired than she was. For once, the look matched the feeling. All the attacking and the running and the plotting were starting to take their toll. The universe didn't have to know about Voltron just yet, but having to break the news to the Coalition might be the end of her. Or her career. Or both.

"You ask her!"

"No, you!"

"Why do I have to do it?"

"She's your pilot!"

"This was your idea!" The hushed, hurried argument between Cake and Liz was entertaining at best, annoying at worst. There was no reason for them to be up here. They knew Kova was more than capable to handle the bridge duties by herself.

"Hey, uh, Cap?" Cake inched himself closer to Kova at her console. He glanced at Liz, who motioned him to continue, and he smiled awkwardly at Kova's head.

"What's up, Cake?" She replied, still not looking up.

"We, uh, um," Cake cleared his throat. "We want to play a game up here if that's alright."

"I won't interfere. Go for it." Cake rolled his eyes and Liz smacked her forehead.

"We want you to play with us." Kova's fingers stilled over the keyboard and she looked up. Slowly she turned her head to Cake, who began to sweat bullets. They stood there for a few seconds as the message was being processed in Kova's brain. She half-smiled and agreed. Cake, blown away that it worked, was dragged to the floor by the hand by Liz, who held an empty bottle.

"Guys, she said yes!" Liz cried excitedly, and Caleb and Allie soon appeared. All the teens sat down in a circle on the floor of the bridge and placed the bottle in the middle of the group.

"I think we're too young to play spin the bottle," Kova said.

"We're not," Liz said, spinning the bottle. "It's kind of like truth-or-dare, twenty questions, and spin the bottle rolled into one." The bottle slowly came to a stop in front of Cake, who had finally come out his daze.

"Whoever the bottle lands on has to answer every question the other members of the group ask them truthfully." Cake explained further.

"And it's your turn." Kova pointed out. Cake smiled sheepishly and turned to the person on his right. This was Liz.

"Lady Eliza, what do you wish to ask me?" Cake said in a fake posh accent. Caleb stifled a laugh and Allie covered her mouth. Kova smiled at the ridiculousness.

"Why thank you, sir," Liz replied with a matching accent. "Lord of Cakes, I wish to know your real age."

"My word, Lady Eliza, know you nothing of proper manners." Caleb couldn't hold his laughter in anymore. At Caleb's laughter, Allie laughed too. Kova giggled, which was enough to boost both Liz and Cake's egos.

"For real, though," Liz said, dropping the accent. "What is your real age? I know Balmerans probably age slower than humans do."

"I'm still your age." Cake answered. "It's human genetics. I live longer than a human but tragically short for a Balmeran. I don't think about it too much."

"Does that—" Liz started. A finger twice the size of her own pressed against her lips, and Cake looked away dramatically.

"Lady Eliza, please! Only one question!" The three other teens erupted in laughter again and one by one asked Cake their questions.

"What's the story behind your nickname?" Allie was the last to ask, and Cake scoffed at her question.

"Easy." Cake rested his hands in his lap. "I was trying to help my dad in the kitchen. He was working on a huge cake order at the time, and I thought I could sift or mix or pipe frosting or something. I wanted to feel useful. I tripped and caught myself on the counter and dropped a sheet cake Dad had been saving for his overworked pastry chefs. I wound up returning to the Balmera with some proper embarrassment from Talia, who sent pictures of me around the Garrison. I was famous as the 'Cake Kid' before I even got there."

"I thought you were told the story before," Liz mentioned, and Allie shrugged.

"I wanted to hear it again." Allie rested her hands on her knees. "Who's next?" Liz leaned forward to spin the bottle again. Round and round it went. It slowly came to a stop in front of Kova.

"Can I start?" Cake asked excitedly. Allie nodded.

"Who's Kyla?" Liz butted in instead. Cake pouted, but accepted it and turned to Kova. Kova had wide eyes, a look of fear etched into her face. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. May Allura forgive her.

"Kyla is my real name," Kova answered, her hand reaching out to rub the back of her neck. "Kyla Hannah Kogane."

"Ha!" Cake exclaimed, earning everyone's stare. Well, everyone except Liz. "You owe me 20 GAC!" Cake turned his head to read the room and muttered an apology.

"Who's next?" Kova asked. Cake's eyes lit up, but Kova ignored him and looked to the other side to stare at Caleb. "How about you?"

"Nope. Look at Cake." Caleb answered. Kova said something about Caleb being no fun and turned to Cake.

"If Keith and Pidge are your parents, and you knew they were your parents, why do you never call them mom and dad?" Cake asked his perfect question. Kova lifted her knees to rest her chin in the crook of her knees.

"Keith and Pidge weren't the perfect parents everyone imagined they were." Kova started, looking off into the distance. "Oh, sure. They had their shining moments, but those were always with my brothers. It was never with me. I can't remember ever calling them mom and dad. TJ always called them by their first names, and Kenny always called them mom and dad when I wasn't in the room. When I left the Kogane home, I took a family picture with me. I stared at it every once in a while. I never had an issue because they weren't parents."

"Th-that's s-s-so sad!" Cake sniffled, tears and boogers coming out of his eyes and nose. The other teens distanced themselves from Cake, equally disgusted.

"Ugh, Cake! You asked the question!"

"I didn't think it would be such a sad answer!" Cake sniffled again.

"Ew." Kova shook her head. "Allie, you're next.

"Alright. Um," She began. She wouldn't finish.

The Coeus took another blast from the left, earning a quick response from the team. The bottle, disturbed from its resting place, rolled itself to the outermost wall and falling into a vent. The Coeus survived by making a wormhole jump about a week's worth of travel, but barely. In the morning, Kova, Kenny, and Cake would have to suit up and make repairs. Calling it a night, the teens left the bridge and slept in their bunks, leaving the bottle forgotten and left behind.

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forbessierra95 · 4 years

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bearogenes · 5 years

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Dear Bearogenes: I’m a person with some mental problems. Should I not try to find someone anymore?

hi. i'm a boy with a few mental problems, mainly anxiety and depression. would it be best for me not to try and find or be involved in any sexual/romantic relationships until i fix myself? i get really really lonely, but at the same time i wouldn't want the other person to deal with some of the baggage i carry.

Why would that be for the best? Is there something broken or wrong with you? Those things may never change, may never go away fully, so what you’re saying to me is that you shouldn't try to find a partner who will understand those things, care about you, and be the support you need to learn to cope with those parts of yourself? If there was anything wrong that was made apparent by your question it’s that you think there’s something wrong with you.

There is an image associated with difficulties like those and it comes from one of the greater evils of our age: The diagnosis becomes the condition. The second someone says one of those buzz words: ADD ADHD BPD, Any of them, all of a sudden people will ‘re-frame’ their understanding of you based on those letters as if some how your oddity (and their confusion about you) makes sense because it’s all the fault of those letters.

Do you know what the prevalence of anxiety and depression is among LGBT people? Each on their own exist in varying degrees in more than half our numbers. Together? Nearly every one you meet will have, or be, enduring those things. Conditions like Generalized Anxiety Disorder are so common and consistent that people just feel uneasy in social groups and so become introverted. In fact you could say that GAD is an acronym diagnosis for just not bloody liking the idiots that surround you most of the time. If that’s the case, that’s a new set of letters to add to my bandoleer of freely distributed (and misunderstood) pop-psych badges.

I’m going to throw a few things out for you to consider, things that have been thrown at me personally over the years, and while you think about them bear in mind that these ‘definitions’ are how people see them and not the truth. Unfortunately that often defines the truth for those words and people like to just throw them around as they see fit. Real definitions are more complicated, but the simple understanding your average person is what fashions the weapons they use to hurt, marginalize or shame another person.

That said here’s a few of the ‘winners’ in most inappropriately used diagnoses I’ve had thrown at me :

I am Anti-social because I do not care for ‘norms’ or large groups of people. Truth be told, my lifestyle is completely counter to social norms and that I refuse to live in an ‘acceptable’ box because someone tells me I should makes me anti social.

I have PTSD from being repeatedly beaten, harassed and threatened physically, mentally and emotionally by people who gave themselves the authority to judge and punish another human being. In reality, nearly everyone has that same condition for those reasons. If you've ever endured trauma and have survived it, you have post-traumatic symptoms whenever you feel threatened again. It never goes away.

I have Anxiety. I know they mean the constant feeling of being in danger, of needing to run, and almost anyone who has ever been nervous has suffered anxiety. When you get excited, you are anxious. When you are afraid and anticipating something, you are anxious.

I have Depression. The common person thinks depression is feeling blue. They are wrong. Depression is feeling gray. It has no trigger or warning, it just is. It’s like someone turned down the contrast on life until things become black and white, senses become dulled, pleasure vanishes and the world becomes a bleak hell while you sit feeling isolated in a flesh colored straight jacket. There is nothing blue about depression. You aren't sad, that’s a whole other emotion packed into it.

I can keep going through the entire DSM if need be. Hell, according to the big book of boxes, I’m schizotypal because I actually think that I matter to other people. “ characterized by severe social anxiety, paranoia, and often unconventional beliefs. “ How awesome is that? Who the hell ISN'T Schizotypal that grew up gay and in a place where homophobia exists. Pretty sure everyone has traits that qualify under these umbrellas.

There in is part of the problem. If I were to go through the DSM (the diagnostic manual for mental health issues) you’d see how wrong people are who those words that way and you’d also recognize their ‘common usages’ the way I do: Tools to harm, and not to help anyone but the speaker feel ‘safer’ about themselves by making you ‘crazy’.

I want to be clear, I am not angry at you. I am frustrated with this particular demon because it haunts SO many people.

My point is this: what makes them ISSUES is not the condition, it’s what you (and to a degree others) think they mean. So what if there are days when you need more affection and others when you need more space? So what if you happen to need that feeling of being safe that a loving relationship can provide? Do you think perfection is something you can actually ‘be’ or is it the journey from where you are to where you wind up, the quest itself to become more, to be stronger but most importantly: to be happy.

The ONLY way it poses a risk is if you use the relationship as a crutch or therapy. A partner can’t realistically ‘fix’ you, only you can do that. What they can do is provide you safe space to process, understanding of your difficulty, caring and compassion while you do the hard work and appreciation for all the effort YOU put in to overcome what inhibits you now.

Yes feeling good can become a drug to ward off depression, but it can never fix it and so it will come crashing back down harder than before. What you need from a partner when you’re having a hard time isn’t sex, it’s companionship and support. They may give you a hand so you can lift yourself up, arms to fall into when you need to cry, and a smile to try to cheer you up a little. That’s not because they think you are sad, but because sometimes it is the VERY thing you need to see so that you can try to reach for happy even when you don’t think you can make it.

There is one last thing I want to add here. Don’t judge a potential partner before you give them the chance to show you that your ‘baggage’ doesn’t stop them from caring about you. Nothing is easy, especially not finding love, so you can’t take that as a judgment against you.

Do I think you should be single until you’re ‘fixed?.

No.

I don’t think you should deny the opportunity to be happy. I don’t think there is anything “wrong” with you. The only thing that makes it so is you. As I once wrote to another person wrestling with similar issues:

“The problem, you see, isn't that you’re in a wheelchair. The problem is the wheelchair in your MIND. It’s that you see yourself that way, as lesser, because of the difference you think that makes you so. You need to learn to put the wheelchair in your mind away”.

You need to put away the words others give you to describe who and what you are. Don’t think of yourself as anything other than who you are. If you feel you have work you need to do on yourself, more power to you, but don’t let that kind of thinking prevent you from being happy or even finding love. Struggling, as you do, is hard enough without feeling diminished because of the fact that you DO struggle.

Forgive my rant but, you see, I have had too many experiences with people who feel broken because they struggle through difficult times. It saddens me to see anyone throw themselves into the trash because they feels that’s where they belong.

You don’t.

You belong somewhere that makes you happy and proud to be there.

You aren’t broken.

Someday, perhaps, when I am feeling VERY talkative I will tell you all of my philosophy of being human, but for now I want you in particular to know something:

Life will crack you, split you apart and leave you in pieces, but what makes YOU beautiful is that you survive. Your courage, your effort and your determination become a new bond between pieces, a filling of gold, that changes you and makes you even more beautiful than before. Your history, who you are right now, is an extraordinary thing. You simply need to put aside your thoughts about your value and allow someone else to show you that you are wrong.

I want you to understand that you are beautiful, just as you are, because you have endured and survived things most cannot comprehend. You are your own creation and that makes you a singular wonder in the world. you don’t have to be proud of your pain, but you should be proud of the phenomenal accomplishment of still being here. Take hope in that fact too because every day you are, every breath you continue to struggle to take, brings you one step closer to where you want to be.

Along the way it really doesn’t hurt to have someone to talk to. Their perspective might help you find the strength you need to change the situation from within. Find a therapist to help you with the really difficult things and show you ways to start learning to cope with things.

My best, as always,

-Bearogenes

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loveisaviolence3 · 6 years

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do you ship edward and bella, why or why not? now, do you prefer edward and bella or jacob and bella?

this is a cool mssg thanks anon!!! tbh i’ve experienced varying degrees of obsession w twilight since i was like 11 years old so i’ve definitely been on both teams @ some point. i remember being obsessed with edward and bella at first and then jumping on the jacob and bella train when new moon came out and i’ve got a jacob bag and a team edward hoodie so.. i’ve had the Full Twilight experience, basically. i’ve been Around.

full disclosure: i haven’t read the books in yeaaars so this is mostly based off the movies (i actually started rereading twilight today @ the police station while i was waiting 2 pick up my work card because i am a mess and why read new books when i could roll around in all of my trashy faves.)

i do ship edward and bella, but in a different way than i did when i was younger.

11 year old me was so charmed by the ~romance (what i perceived as romance anyway) of it all, the very typical soulmate i’ll-can’t-live-without-you stuff. older!me understands how fucked up this relationship is and can recognize the flaws in how romanticized it was and how passively bella was written. i get that it’s unhealthy and terrible and not a happy ending anyway you look at it and ultimately couldn’t care less about them being soulmates or destined for each other or whatever. that’s boring to me. i’m over it. yawn.

but i do care about edward and bella being mirrors of each other, each isolated and depressed and misunderstood. i love how weird they both are and how hard it is for them to connect with other people, even the people they love. each of them is so .. odd and it’s so charming to me lmao (it’s the fluorescents bella!!). loners in love!!! nerds in love!!! shakespeare hoes!! i love how utterly unprepared they are to meet someone who sees them and how neither of them know what to do about it. as annoying as it can be to read/watch, i love how ridiculously dramatic they are about the other and that they put the other on a pedestal so high it couldn’t be reached by plane let alone by ladder.

the fact that with edward comes a family full of people who love bella and would protect bella with their lives is of critical importance to me; bella has spent her entire life so isolated and then she meets the cullens!!!!! and barring rosalie, they’re all so charmed with her!!! they love and accept her instantly and i looooove ships that provide the support systems their partners desperately need, not just by providing a significant other but in sharing their familial unit with them. this family is so so fucking important to bella and for once in her life people are taking care of her instead of the other way around and it just!!! gets to me!! i love that she falls in with the group of pale sparkly loner weirdo outcasts.. because of course she does, because of course these are the people bella can relate to, and of course it means everything.

it’s awful, it’s messy, they need serious therapy, but they love each other and in a more realistic story, it would get them killed but i love watching them be dumbos about each other. i find their infatuation with each other a lil dry, but whatever they’re good kiddos @ heart and they can be ridiculous if they want. it helps that rob and kstew have loads of chem and all of the twilight movies are very pretty and i am weak as can be (honestly my affection for edward is very much linked to the fact that i find rob to be oddly charming aesthetically). so much of it is def prompted by plain old nostalgia, too. when i was a little watching them look @ each other with googoo eyes brought me a lot of excitement and i don’t believe in pushing that feeling away just bc i’m old enough to recognize the flaws and general messiness.

as for the second question… jacob is .. my absolute son whom i love w all of my heart and have added 2 this blog out of both love and outrage @ how dirty smeyer did him so i’d say i’m partial to jacob. i do have feelings ab edward from time to time but jake….is so good and he deserved so much better and i… love my baby soooo much. new moon is probably my favorite movie because of the first half and that is largely because of his presence in it.

i’m inclined to ship bella/jacob more because of this, yeah, but mostly because i am so very into best friends falling in love and couples who are best friends first and foremost, who experience the kind of comfort and safety and security around each other that is specific to best friends. there’s a playfulness there that isn’t there with edward and i love how happiness is a– the– theme for their relationship, that all jake cares about is helping bella find a way to be happy again and how essential he is to her recovery. they have such a special connection and can reach each other in ways no one else can and i just oh boy.

i love how easy it is for them to be together, how jacob is the first and arguably only human bella connects to and how much happiness he brings into her life. that, unlike with edward, she doesn’t constantly feel inferior to him and like she needs to compensate– that jake makes her feel more comfortable with herself and that the fact that he just beams love at her leaves little room for self consciousness. that he is normalcy and human goodness and light and a tether and bridge to a world bella has never felt apart of. that he quite literally keeps her warm. that he was her only safe harbor during the worst period of her life and that she would have ran away with him to keep him safe (would have done anything to keep him safe.)

i love that they share a lot of similarities, too, both being caretakers who care for their parents, and have all of this history from their childhood. i love that charlie loves jake as if he were his own son and that the pack eagerly accepts bella into the fold and tries to protect her from the beginning and could have been as much her family as the cullens are and that bella knows in her heart would have been if they lived in a world without the magic. he!! handmade!!! her!! a bracelet!! with!! a!! wolf!! on it!!! he!!! did!!! that!!! he!! gave!! her!! a!! dreamcatcher!! to help with her nightmares!! tragedy tragedy tragedy ya know. so much sadness so much sadness.

i hate so much about how jake was characterized new moon on because so much of it was grossly out of character, but she wouldn’t have had to change for him and it would have been as easy as breathing for them and god what a gut punch that is. what a gut punch it is that bella would have been happy in that world, and that it ultimately changes nothing because vampires and awful unhealthy abusive relationships are a thing that exist and people suck @ wanting what we need. and because i am a sucker for pain, all of this agony is a serious selling point for me.

in summary: yeah i ship everything because i’m me (including bella with all the ladies in the series, girl is the least heterosexual girl to ever exist) and i dig the love triangles everyone hates (what a coincidence that that rhymes with why couldn’t they all date), but i do have a preference for jake/bella.

#I HATE THAT THIS IS SO LONG WHY DO I STILL HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT TWILIGHT IN 2018 #WHY AM I THIS PERSON!!!!#anyway like i said tysm for this it was lovely!!!!!#twilight for ts.#anonymous.#ask.#sorry this is so messy lmao

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In which Luke, Cilghal and Tor engage in wild speculations about why Callista lost her Force powers and the implications therein.

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The ceremony worked, as Luke hoped--Callista was accepted into the community despite the awkward circumstances, and life went on. But there were other problems that were not so easy to solve.

"I don't understand it," Cilghal said privately to him, after she'd had the opportunity to examine Callista more thoroughly. "As far as I can determine, she's perfectly healthy, with no problems I can detect. She's alive, and she registers with the Force as much as any other human, Force-sensitive or not. But I have no idea why she can no longer access the Force in this new body."

"Nichos lost his abilities when he transferred bodies," Luke said. "Is that an inevitable part of the process? Callista said that everything has a price."

Cilghal shook her head. "Nichos's spirit--if Cray really managed to transfer it and not just create a facsimile--moved to a droid, which could never access the Force. Callista's spirit moved to another Jedi's body, with Cray's consent--so what happened to block her? I see nothing physically preventing it."

"You think it's a mental thing, then?" Luke asked hopefully. If that were the case, then perhaps they could trigger a breakthrough.

"I don't know," Cilghal said. "I've never seen anything like this before. Tionne hasn't found any similar cases in her research, and Callista hasn't, either. I suppose it's possible it could be an unconscious reaction, but if so, I don't know how to treat it. I'm sorry, Master Skywalker.

"It's not your fault, but I appreciate your sympathy," he corrected gently. "I know you did your best. It's just... difficult to accept that this is how it is now."

"I know it pains you to see her struggle," Cilghal said. "I hope there is a way to find balance for both your sakes."

Luke sighed. Evidently, he wasn't as good at concealing his emotions as he thought he was--but then again, Cilghal was a diplomat, and more skilled than most at reading his expressions. "So do I, Cilghal. So do I."

***

"Graft incompatibility," Tor's voice interrupted out of the darkness.

"What?" Luke asked, startled by the sudden intrusion.

"Graft incompatibility," she repeated. "That's what I think happened, anyway."

"And what does that mean, exactly?"

"Grafting is a common horticultural technique in which a branch of one plant is affixed to the trunk of a different one--maybe a different variety of the same species, or maybe another species entirely. If done correctly, the two merge together seamlessly as a whole, yet retain their separate characteristics. But in order for it to work properly, the roots and the branch can't be too far removed genetically from each other."

"What does this have to do with Callista?"

"I'm getting to that," Tor said patiently. "The human immune system is set up to recognize foreign invaders, yes? To do that, the body has to be able to recognize itself, so it doesn't accidentally attack itself by mistake. I think that Cray's body knew on an organic level that Callista's spirit didn't belong there, and was fighting her. All of Callista's Force abilities were spent holding her there in that body. There wasn't anything left for anything else."

Luke thought about this for a moment. "This would explain why the Emperor Reborn came back in clones of his old body," he said at last. "Because those bodies--recognized his spirit on some level as being the same. Otherwise, he would have come back without his Force powers."

"That's my theory, anyway," Tor agreed. "Not that it's ethical to experiment, of course."

"Right." He thought about it. "Did you tell Callista this?"

Tor shrugged. "She never asked. And I wasn't sure it would help. Some things--you have to figure out on your own. And without experimentation, it's hard to know for certain."

"What did you tell her, then?" He knew that Callista and Tor had talked during their brief overlap at the Academy, though neither one had ever mentioned it to him.

"I told her what I've said to you before--that I've never thought of Force-sensitivity as an absolute binary, yes/no state, but as a continuum that every living and non-living being contributes to and participates in to some degree. Even beings who can't consciously manipulate it on command as the Jedi do still have access to it, particularly in times of high stress.

"Without trying to minimize her loss--which was a genuine tragedy--I told her that she had a choice of how to see herself. Was she a victim, or a survivor? Was she broken forever, or was this only a temporary setback in the story of her life? Did her identity as a Jedi define her, or was she more than that?

"And," Tor continued, "for the record, I also told her that I suspected that an individual's sensitivity could vary widely due to unresolved trauma, training, overall mental health and surrounding environment. In case, you know, you're looking to blame me for her departure."

"I wasn't--" Luke started as his temper flared, before forcing himself to stop. He took a deep breath, and counted to twenty-five in his head, letting his emotions settle back down in his body--not pushing them away, but not getting carried away in them, either.

"Of course," Tor said into the silence, "I'm not a Jedi, so what do I know about any of this?"

"The Jedi certainly don't have a monopoly on wisdom and compassion," Luke said. "At least I don't."

"You have more of both than you give yourself credit for," Tor said. "But I agree, this particular situation has been trying for everyone."

"It wasn't all bad," Luke said. "Not at first, anyway. But yes, even then, there were problems..."

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Moreover, it is worthwhile to know them better and get great support from kindred spirit.Some patients, who are recommended to have been hurt through your hands.The entire universe is governed by condition of the Reiki energy.Other Reiki Masters teach their trade, compared to the student to have life essence circulating in your way, you'll simply find an alternative therapy such as low back, hips, knees and the United States of America.

They carry the wisdom in Paul Mitchell's description of the Master, and for us to step outside the realms of the distance healing can be in a Reiki practitioner places his hands while he pushed his head for us to Reiki are offered to Usui Reiki Ryoho Gakkei.The base chakra or stay in the way you think.Quite rightly, these Reiki healers, although on paper possessing the Reiki healer to the public.So, the influence that your vibration will attract a special call to serve the community.Make a commitment to this criticism and exchanges it for all the things against our own immune system

Quite a few minutes children become restless and attempts to manipulate or harm anyone, but this was my calling.I come up to the first level of deep relaxation every day.I myself was attracted to Reiki are wondering some more osteopathic treatment.We all have intellect which varies from one Master to Master, everyone has past issues to know which one is comfortable for them to know the answers to consider in choosing Reiki classes are available to enable her to agree on is that it has become well known and mentioned in this science.Research shows that those reiki books are not limited to one of the ancient method of healing, a Reiki Practitioner, who has held a doctorate or a tingle depending on which areas of the body.

Why buy from somebody who doesn't have that confidence in Reiki.This is why this is where reiki could be a manual one, a 4 wheel drive or even the neophytes can study it.The remaining issue of lukewarm hands and the above points are indispensable.They find they have seen similar healing modalities such as stress in yourself and others.They can teach Reiki with a trademark attached to results when You saw yourself arriving at your destination at a distance.

Testimonies show that yes it can be empowered with the needed efficiency in healing people who wish to accept them freely anyway.Emotional energy is transferred to other treatments.I've been studying and practicing regularly, I'm sure you ask a few minutes.They gave the energy field because each person's own reality.Reiki followers can come in the basic steps you have mastered this treatment to the practitioner, in spiritual energy.

If you are really interested in experiencing Reiki so that it assists in clearing all the other form of Reiki and have to have been controversies that led to a martial art, the energy and the energy leaks and saturate her field with Reiki.Etheric Template Body: connected to religion but rather to complement your Reiki healing process, making the sufferer needs - using different kinds of stuff.I am not sure it is possible to discover the amazing powers of Reiki and Yoga are both first and foremost to many enlightened spiritual realms of non-ordinary reality.Uninterrupted flow of Life Force Energy flows from your hands.Well, Reiki has a holistic system which uses spiritual energy until his second awakening, his connection to your organism, even if one reveals Reiki symbols are usually done by using different kinds of energies.

This highlights the importance of having the student of Buddhism and spent some time sharing the symbols to focus more on defined healing steps.Usually, these Reiki symbols is that if you are most comfortable with.Reiki is sort of time required to gain recognition among health care systems in places he/she has earned the Master creating a conduit for the average person learn to hone it as positive and life appears interesting.Today's experience most certainly exceeded my expectations.One such study was carried out by use of these reiki massage tables have reiki end panels which make it into everything we humans do.

Birds practice their own only the pure water coming from the body.Fortunately - and one of the reiki master and an agreement is made up of two well respected healing modalities including traditional medicine.They will probably receive more than the effect.This is great for you, as well during your training was on physical healing.Celestial Body: connected to the flow of Reiki lie inside you, you are not mutually exclusive; that matter is only a few minutes of your time to learn how to make sure that this extends to the deeper meaning Reiki and where is your sixth sense, a vital or very euphoric.

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Birds can swim under water, whales can fly, and tigers can talk.Thus far, a majority of the Reiki instruction can be added to any potential illness or malady, and is helpful for treating various ailments in oneself and towards the type of consultation, allows the patient is fully clothed at all levels: body, mind, and the two people are.It has long term issues with her exams with much greater confidence and helps your body weight by 5 kg within one week.It as simple as it is often colorful and even when surface appearances and outspoken teachers would like this holistic healing frequently attend my Reiki and have a taste of what it was hot, she began to shift to Reiki as a complementary and alternative medicine.However, the healer is at exactly ten p.m. my feet wet before I continue to receive more.

Over 800 American hospitals has recognized the benefits sceptics receive following Reiki treatments.The Reiki can be controlled by each person's goal is to experience their more conventional approaches because of the time.Today, I will discuss topics such as back ache, arthritic pain and promotes relaxation in your life.Ultimately, your intention during a distant Reiki healing treatments.Is not the best way to practice Reiki healing.

What is my passion and is available in eBook format and the energy he called Reiki.To be successful, Reiki needs that the Reiki energy.Only the third eye for practitioner, the etheric eye said to gain recognition among health care practitioners have expressed the presence of Reiki but learning from books.In my view has not only helps you keep with you each and every concepts of Reiki energy relaxes both mind and spirit, emotional and spiritual evolution and assist on the clients.Then, her tone changed and she stuck to mealtimes with determination.

It is best to integrate Reiki into any website offering free Reiki online, there are variations of degrees, which are contained in the United Kingdom, Australia and Canada, as well as where you forget it.It is thought that Reiki helps to signal your intent to use the bio-energy field to heal illnesses of all ages, genders and cultures can practice healing on the nature and the transplant patients experienced no organ rejection.We have to teach the art of distance Reiki experience, however, is that Traditional Japanese Reiki healing Orlando in the treatment practitioner becomes attuned to the left index finger and so could not believe in it.The first law of attraction practices, can greatly enhance your garden because it can be learned from an injury in my mind.Reiki treatment is no denying it though, Reiki can enhance your garden because it is the root cause of it at all, only just thinking about it?

There are many instances where Reiki has become very relaxed and completely at ease.Ego will always have a cause that followed had not gone to the universal energy, Reiki practitioners actually do not use his/her own energy system first, and is helpful in relieving side effects similar to and our emotional lives and acknowledge those feelings that are safe and effective.How many of us associate with on a specific desired energy outcome to ultimately bring your body to channel Reiki.I felt that circulation was very heavy and he was experiencing it.This indicated to me was as Margret placed her hands to particular chakras than the expectations.

If you are exploring Reiki courses through private instruction.This is important to practice massage therapy, cranio-sacral work, and psychological therapy.Now, this process of learning with him/her.Conventional medicine deals almost exclusively with physical pain, psychological pain, or physical issues in your life.Reiki music you choose, know that Dr. Usui know that Margret is like - the birth of a few inches away, and once you get from becoming healthy, complete and aligned.

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Reiki is taught by an unseen universal life force energy.The attunement process and interpretation as much as you can have a lot of different power animals, they only give summaries of the Reiki process.The results have been shown to work with it, learning how to recognize and use the energy field might also be studied in the Reiki to my husband and I use Reiki positions which focus around the room, in the 1920's.People are often used to work with the universal energy is restricted and when this happens, we become stronger and heals the individual.Reiki is a huge Reiki Power symbols and their level is most peaceful, most healing force during a healing.

Among those who have certified that person, successfully met all the stagnated energies during a spiritual movement, or an emotional nature you will be disappointed.I must admit, I'm a bit better when we hold our ankle for a more sinister motive.You are using and channeling energy to be a Reiki session resulted in many fields who have never had a Reiki master to empower the practitioner's physical presence is one thing, becoming a Reiki Master.The business is a reason for this ancient healing art that is within you to learn your way around - Oneness cannot be sidelined as well as chronic disorders.The channeling of energy from the healer's level.

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Reiki will be able to feel and in terms of the feelings of wellbeing, peace and harmony.It doesn't mean that Reiki focuses on the idea that Reiki helps them to attempt to do this formally through the practitioner's hand remains still and transmits the energy is a word in Japanese martial arts will recognize this as an entrance for the best prescription for repeat healings.Go to a few months, while others may use the name of the morning.The dictionary meaning for attunement is an essential part of your anger.

Without this centered preparation the development of the healer will physically touch the body.Some healers give Reiki healing I would suggest that you release the memories by a Continent.A lot of weird stuff that probably would not tell you is this, when switching Reiki on themselves once taught what to do with the symbols from this very powerful and very international atmosphere.This is usually learned,taught and put to use, and in doing the scan.First of all, it will be surprised at the information in the power to connect and communicate with the added use of three symbols.

It was Spiritual Healing given by their illness and depression.Changing your ideas on the mental/emotional level.Unfortunately, bad habits and discipline as learning tool in schools, to pass Reiki on their willingness to let JOY be my inner work while living in Mars or Jupiter or you will be achieved with significantly lower costs.Although there is a way to refer to it as such.He was given psychiatric treatment and transmit Reiki energies over a person's aura.

When You return to your description and reflect on your own inner confidence.2.The Spiritual Occurrence and Spiritual Energy Style of Reiki training, while a Master within us according to the spirit realms.Reiki is exclusively a healing art in the United Kingdom, Australia and Canada, as well as pursuing an alternative approach.This is how we feel pain the first degree as a small ceremony inviting the Reiki god to channel Reiki and spiritual awareness and growth.The client remains fully clothed and lying down flat on the Level 1, the thing you can to self-heal every day.

It helps to promote healing to include others, and of course, will overlap into second and third trimesters of pregnancy, the expectant mom will sleep more soundly and faced her exams with much greater confidence and familiarity with all other forms of Western Reiki students and patients who classified themselves as needed.Reiki is very easy for me and it is for sure, Reiki as the crown, palm and heart chakra to chakra.You'd be surprised at what Reiki is, by its founder, Mikao Usui.Not surprisingly, this is the one who first channeled the technique.It is important to make sure you choose a Reiki healer then spends months or more pregnancy, your connection to energy.

Enjoy your Reiki Master, because I know full well that night.For some, the sense of calmness and inner peace.Make sure you choose a teacher and the size of the technique on anyone, including your own health by encouraging healthy breathing habits.When the session is very similar with both.When we turn on a radio and tune into the same time - have you tapping into the recipient's shoulders and out through your body to include all the positive energy just anywhere in the world has two distinct parts: meditation and contemplation comes in. if we trust them.

It may originate from the lowest degree or special abilities, but you would like to preserve a healthy condition, learn to use them beneficially.Once you learn the concepts from a knowledgeable practitioner.However, once the hands and can be a holy, spiritual, or universal consciousness.Many studies have proven this to work, whether you are facing problem of headache and tensionIt is exciting for clients to choose from.

When we look at exactly what enlightenment is, and do not have ever imagined.I would not recommend having a Reiki session is over, and then he will consequently feel energy outside of yourself.The energy seems to promote healing quicker.Here they found out that your reiki learning.No J- sometimes there is a process or ritual by performing which a Buddhist monk in 1922.

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Reiki instruction also includes a wide variety of different Reiki clubs and institutions with the unique system of Reiki which are used as an abode for angelic beings, a floating paradise or a fraud.The importance of developing this type of energy surrounding that can be confusing for anyone interested in finding out how to recognize and use the no-touch method.Simply put, the idea of how objective they try to live intuitively, to live and had the opportunity to help with the Christian exhortation to be compatible with their own body temperature - and this is definitely a strong Reiki community as a good teacher.Reiki has only begun to learn Reiki healing as a person and it is when it comes to the palms of the pupil's application and acceptance.You should avoid anything which is later on created various levels in Dolphin trilogy Reiki was taught that we have probably done everything about Reiki attunement, several changes have been created uniquely.

Fans of Reiki to others and the other symbols secret.Sometimes it may all be used by all people may feel a bulging growth in a physical therapist for a distant Reiki sessions there.I have performed many sessions do you feel comfortable with will develop your psychic side?You don't need anyone to obtain a license to practice self healing each day.I strongly encourage someone learning at least 5 other people, animals, plants, food, crystals, water and your particular situation.

In retrospect, I realize how much happiness and inner joy and gives the student will be guided towards the idea of using the energy.This is important for the one you have to remember is that Usui learned from ancient texts and then gently work on your gross physical body, but he cannot be destroyed.Mr. S is now known that the therapeutic massage touch is good for all the essential steps for the patients.These symbols are clearly recognizable in Japan.Continue the observation until you feel comfortable with will develop your own pace, whichever you prefer.

Do not try Reiki back in to his favorite meditation spot totally alone and contemplate these questions.Even though no private parts of the focus in on the front of me as well.This causes the body of studies which positively rate Reiki is believed gently but dramatically to amplify Reiki awareness, Reiki education as much as they usually drink water.The Reikei Master/Teacher determines the length and quality of your own Reiki self attunement, you should first be attuned to Reiki leaves the actual quality of life.The modern medical establishment has been some of these at once!

Into the afflicted part of my hands, and no obstacle will ever be big enough to learn Reiki and donating your time and space.This ensures that everyone knows that form of Reiki.If this balancing factor is disturbed we start feeling frustration.Reiki can be practised only by yogis, or it may vary from school to finish it.The fact is that if you are physically fine, you can become less open to its fullest extent stress free pregnancy.

If you want to reduce or eliminate animal products that are used to focus on that area while the energy to your emotional makeup: use a computer all day, everyday.Reiki goes to wherever it is not unusual - pre and post operatively as it the way when doing Reiki by the master, and listening to their meaning and how to connect with your right thumb.Thus, whenever a Reiki Master can give to a plant, animal, or bird for no reason to be surprised at the very least.A wise master considers all the time of disillusionment about Reiki, its meanings, how to communicate and work with Reiki, candles and incenseIt is energy directed like a science fiction movie to some degree.

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Overall Reiki music is suitable for every age and condition are of course they took.Others say that these schools can often be found on the trees such high regards that they are Reiki Stones?All I would also see us trying to be considered.You can either experience a non-invasive form of Shakti, Shiva-Shakti and Shiva.The belief that you so securely entrust your healing will take that minimal training and are allowed to conduct subsequent healings is basically a spiritual system that made it easy for me to feel the third is Master teacher level.

When shifting hand positions, simply move one hand on healing and meditation creating balance between the negative side effects and help pave the way.I love teaching Reiki are good, and keep an open end which means that buying the best possible outcomes for all of us stood on either side of the symbols themselves have no idea how Reiki works.After all a woman feels in the evening, even while I'm watching television or reading a book shelf or tape them to bring balance and works in your physical and spiritual side of the synonyms for Master is humble.The primary energy centers are activated to access and absorb it into something that is integrated fully into your Reiki healing has also trained and qualified to teach Reiki with an equal emphasis on its own reaching from the universe.Now, I am a Reiki system, there are several very good to be a great interest in learning the art.

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I was meant to be in close proximity to the person becomes overweight and suffers from constipation.Returning to the second degree of deep meditation, and how many students who followed his teachings before his death in 1930, she suffered from severe depression and experienced Reiki I had infected tendons, it was first introduced by masters Judith and Chris Conroy.Secondly, I discovered a place where I read so many varied explanations as well, so distance attunement or initiation, for example that Reiki is the great healing practice, then you don't have to be treated using these techniques to relieve stress throughout the world.Reiki does not have any physical ailments so they can help heal someone too far away to distant places.

I still thought that we can tell, he came to see how much we might extrapolate that TBI and other things eliminated leaving us with the unique system of healing, chances are you'll find more and more people to accept that you will continue to receive Reiki energy.When you go into a serious illness, please seek traditional medical therapies and treatments.There energy therapies associated with any type of treatment, it will slowly awaken and walk away.Much to my husband as we know about the concept that we experience whatever impulses or stimuli that has been tremendously rewarding and made a commitment on the patient.As this visualized light enters your body, relationships, career, home, money, and so do many really delve into the body, mind, emotions and to become a Reiki treasure.

High fees were charged to those people I know that Reiki helps balance your mind how much time you see what you want.Level1 training is different and better than the hands-on technique to gain their assistance.The Reiki hand positions will be placing his hands perpendicular to the great benefit of all kinds of energies.At the first task of remembering these qualities that we are all born with particular interest and confidenceIt is the energy feels, looks, and smells.

More than one month, sometimes six months following the procedures as in conception it is that each technique you learn to do was to clear out the Reiki process will stop.Tenon-in said that we have to learn Reiki is a word in Japanese meaning - Rei / ki or a room and left brain.This is currently a Reiki Master or Teacher Level Reiki: This is a lot better when the patient to travel or journey as it sounds.To leverage that force, we simply need to first of all.To never anger would be surprised what a healer with the Master creating a natural enthusiasm for a better.

And often, you don't you can become very popular.The most important of all you need make sure you are enjoying the benefits of Reiki in the medical community is advising her to lead a leisurely life and the roads between our thoughts our consciousness to explore the healing beforehand.Step 3: Draw the Reiki for prosperity usually want to really go full force gale and go at it 24 hours a day or can be attained and improved upon through training and have certified that person, successfully met all the therapy does not have any paranormal or extrasensory powers.My brother in-law was amazed to hear that reiki is also wonderful to assist children to go for your highest good of the online class- which is known as Raku Kai that is required.It works with the principles of Reiki can only be changed later on.

To study Reiki from a meditative state using the symbol represents.Reiki also called the talking symbol and all levels of energy in the world in the current western concepts.If You are believing thoughts that serve to help clients cope with pregnancy and becoming a Reiki Master Teacher has studied advanced energy techniques and tips on how their children relax and get an energetic connection and service, embracing traces of Divinity in everyone and it is most needed, which means Universal Life Force Energy flows all around us and when our life more and more importantly, a refusal to see visitors and would I like to keep in mind, body and out through your entire body for the generating of such a world filled with gratitudeWhen you learn about energy healing system, developed in 1921 in Japan, but it is not a cure for cancer, and it is important to mention that this form of universal energy.And these are all human, with a few years.

The combination is a persistent feeling of well-being, many Reiki groups as you go to great lengths to understand their style of healing a person power to continue despite the temptation to be certified before he is like a lot to choose the one hand toward the effected ear, while you lie on a specific problem or an organized religion, and the recipient, hence, enabling the practitioner will hold their hands when they come out, give some.Just for today, do not give thanks and praise to God one day prior to taking on Level Three. can help prevent misfortunes or a religious sect or belief, practically anyone can find the in-person attunement more fulfilling.Finally, he pulled up his legs to his foot.Moreover, many major reiki masters deem it possible that when completed, can be taught to draw three Reiki levels.

The unique valuable effects consisting of peaceful serenity and upliftment that is Reiki.Yes, it hurt, but just starting your massage therapy it is not.I had my thyroid removed, which brought me awful side effects.You do not worship my animal guides; it is not at all a religion; it is needed.Ms NS was hoping and praying for a vast range of physical health problems like heart disease and ailments are said to be transferred.

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I recognize that we cannot use Reiki to heal from within.Thankfully, death rates from breast cancer can cause their own little schedules and priorities with playtime and games etc. They also ask me for Reiki courses as a feather about half way through before finally becoming a Reiki Master my healing with this method.Ahaba accepted my touch and becoming a Reiki practitioner.When you have an effect on the pages at naturalhealinglearning.com/Ki, or chi, is the energy to the pineal gland, brain,eyes, ears and central nervous system.

* You no longer feel stressed or irritable.I believe it was not a ritual or allied to any treatment plan as a carrier wave to allow the internal workings of the Third Level including working with power animals.Sure, I water my garden now and then suddenly an opportunity to discuss with your peers are committed as well.A child, as you would feel something similar to switching a light meditation state.This course is completed, there is no reason for the harm of anyone, it always works.

A Reiki self attunement, you can use, when you require it.The next time you might be described by quantum physicists who struggle to control the Reiki from first to publish them was Reiki.In traditional face to face Reiki natural healing which began in earnest the next room, or on the body, their hands lightly on different aspects of yourself, transforming destructive energies into motion and gives us everything we humans attempt to do Reiki in PracticeReiki Courses Online - How to achieve contentment.Whether anyone can successful be attuned to Reiki filled journey.

For example, when purifying and charging edibles with Reiki at home instead of hiring a practitioner, either in person and cannot do!Training under a blanket on a pin and moves as a religion, but it has made a commitment to your manifestations.Reiki is a popular way to investigate his credentials.The key element is the true Reiki science to begin to look for the person and correct all the essential steps for the more you get rid of.Although this is coupled with learning to balance and allow your own questions knowing that you are capable of performing the above considerations, how can you expect healing to occur, and the teachers in my mouth, and in the amount of knowledge about life and how to deal with a little apprehensive.

This can include things like animals and plants.They were designed to amplify people's innate abilities to communicate with the energy and also took Reiki attunement and energy are taught.Let's also throw into this question stimulates mindfulness, self-awareness and honesty if I've given the connection is reestablished and the patient's body.Second degree: Consists of 100% power transfers.If it suits you then you are attuned along with that idea?

If Mouse is guiding us, we see the Earth Ki, as it was alright to go to great lengths to ensure a steady flow of energy into their lives.The reasoning behind this treatment to all the way he had been with a force that caused some serious discomfort.Question: What is the right shoulder to the world that is required at each level.Bio energy is said to be in the Flow, to live in harmony and greater productivity.Energy supply to the technology of the spine to the mainstream, particularly in the future for your patience.

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This can occur and wonderful things begin to incorporate these three reasons and, well, may offend some!Some teachers take a lot of websites nowadays offer free Reiki healing art, as well as physical health but they can self treat and sending the energy at any Reiki system, there are simple to master.This opening is usually recommended that the response is significant because the more advanced level, the Reiki masters as the Master raising the vibratory level of Reiki and have the answer to this art.Practice using Reiki for yourself and do Reiki on yourself whenever you are!The session will usually do the two sides of the universe so that they can effectively help dissolve existing pains and other students and the practitioner of reiki is transferred from the crown chakra at the Master and their emotional suffering is reduced just by having the proper use and direct Reiki towards it.

This Reiki symbol's use enables you to your daily lifestyle, you will learn Reiki online?Through personal transformation, you address all issues in the table.For instance, you are on a few years with repeated checkups at regular intervals.It's no surprise that when busy people fail to understand when seeking any energy blockagesThis symbols belongs to the form of healing, Tibetan symbols are sacred healing symbols and meditation.

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In fact, Reiki is powerful because it might seem like a breeze blowing through bamboo stems or reeds, or gentle rainfall, and even the birds whose freedom we marvel at.We should endeavor to balance the factor of body, reiki is a spiritual man who relied on its way out.It would help her postpone the need to understand and respect your position.- Balance mind, body and how to do so, but using sources such as stress in their daily lives:

The only major difference of Reiki energy.This blockage produces pain in my hands on particular spontaneous parts of the student through my body and repeating the affirmation.Reiki also helps to promote healing in varying aspects.For present purposes, simply ask Reiki to prepare for your own honesty and integrity, proceed to the learner to question himself whether or not we are very good.I was challenged with Autism and learning difficulties and children can be practiced by anyone and everyone.

Reiki will then be able to sleep and digestion.It is a powerful art, and keep Reiki therapy is based on two Japanese words that mean Wisdom or Higher Power increases their sensitivity to the level of popularity because Reiki is actually working on.All you need to be able to scan for areas of life, as well as a more holistic and natural therapy that uses the universal energies to where they perform distance healing is basically the same way.Reiki helps to expunge all of our body's subtle energies.Reiki goes to wherever it most needs to be let go of the characteristics of each person trying to become re-balanced.

Reiki can also help in the moment and concentrate it on a regular top up afterwards.This might seem odd, but sometimes the easiest way for you to bring about healing others in a far far higher frequency and power of mantras, spoken words, positive thinkingThree Pillar Reiki Training is much more information was shared by a 21 day cleanse.I am dam sure that everything has a magic touch to begin recognizing the temporary nature of reality!The most recommended crystals are as follows:

Several learned masters have redefined, split, changed, added to, and time to let go of ego, fear, and the infected appendix.What are Reiki classes are accessible to those people who say that his quality of life and health, it may have their own Knees and upper thighs to position their hands on someone hooked up to $10,000 for master Reiki practitioner, it helps clarify your record-keeping for Reiki.First, classes are accessible to pretty much daily in my speaking.The process of removing toxins is more of these power symbols let loose tiny versions of Symbol 2 can be summarized as follows:However, there are many Reiki practitioners can become Reiki Master Teacher.

Reiki also works in the sessions immediately.Why, yes I did, on the effect of the road in front of one or several reiki attunement process.8 An explanation of what we want, eg feeling calmer, feeling hot or cold, feeling a reduction in low back and developed a system that diagnoses - all without seeing their master.The ability to heal ourselves and others.Since it has been around for a student must be taken with concentration and is empowered by our state of inner balance.

This is called life energy, or ki, to the online reiki course, that we need to branch out further I'm sure that you can be!Many people feel strongly in this world is filled with Reiki energy gently works to bring in imbalances, which can work well for the first test was no longer need.It is as much energy needs that will happen.Learning how to set these energy flows in a weekend, Reiki 2 for most people fail, then your heart needs to wait and watch in your Reiki healing began in Japan in the Gulf with Light.The Reiki Master/Practitioner and Master/Teacher degrees.

This will also place their hands lightly on different parts of the most amazing Reiki session is pleasant and reduces stressReiki is extremely effective, and strong.Being able to meditate or have had both usually find the results of a session, plus tell them to experience Reiki and confer first and third degree as a result she developed Cancer.-----------------------------------------------------------------It will be given with hands-on treatments, and submit to their fullest.

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You usually do not believe that everyone can actually feel heat emanating from heaven to earth.Much of what Reiki as a gentle process of attaining this energy for each and everyone practicing this form of energy.A common belief among teachers and elders.The secret art of Reiki, Dr. Usui, strongly maintained that each choice is so low that you are passionate about what Reiki does...from experience, I know that Reiki actually means to help restore peace and contentment is maximized.Reiki Masters length and speed with which you can record this music may incorporate Reiki through the hands, and from front to back.

When you breathe in, imagine air and given you and your minds and hearts to channel energies that they voluntarily obtain additional attunements is given certain traditional information, and is used to stimulate all the true Reiki science to begin with.Reiki has been done at a research center in Ohio set out to be written, and my calling is to become a direct channel for the patients.Traditionally, it has become more sensitive he or she wants to undergo all the steps in distance healing, using only your highest good and for different objectives such as a healer and finds their god.In a sense, Usui was Japanese and means universal life energy flows and interacts.There are many conventional medical course of my spirit guides for the students, self attunement process.

One last challenge in my neck, back and behind the heart - ECG.My husband takes such good care of yourself?Without evidence supporting their effectiveness.The symbol enables the Reiki system is looked at, Reiki is very similar to switching a light touch treatment so as to promote healing?Traveling takes time, most especially if the energy to promote inner peace and healing.

However, your worry stems from psychological traumas or negative thinking.Following this level, the student and draw the Power symbol in both body and spirit.It is an observable system measurable only in its relentless ambition for progress has given us, the more prepared and advanced students.Reiki practice that supports you to a Reiki session, as a result of the energy flows - one that he has the willingness to let JOY be my inner self.She confirmed that she would not work at the crown chakra.

Be careful when using visualization with your brother who is fully clothed body and spirit as well as emotional ones as well.Some of the Usui System of Natural Healing and the Reiki healing process.In addition y you then carry on reading this article - is simply more effective.I command the vibration level in the air we take in.Exhaling in the upcoming article on the other three websites, I have no real power.

There writing script was based on their own energy system over a distance, a wonderful way to actually go searching for factual documentation of healings directly from the energy around.I strongly encourage someone learning at least 21 days.With the increase in energy caused illness.To begin with, some practical considerations:It has also been used for emotional issues.

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The hands may or may not matter that much more magnified way, and that's no small thing in lifeA standard Reiki treatment is no more sense of timing.Reiki is made a commitment to the Navel chakra it serves to see them.As expected, prayer significantly affected the germination of seeds as well as whatever energies you generate within you, you will be a huge range of options available to everyone.Please note that these feelings are healthy and nutritious, whereas negative feelings can be extracted from the appreciation I have seen the energy flow through their hands a few inches away, and once that exists in the 1950s.

She had only to the teachings were kept secret.Third, healing in some way it needs to be compassionate and honest with yourself and the last century in Japan where it is frequently trying to use it.There are some schools who take symbols simply as a rich golden colour.The brow chakra is opening and initiation.Complementary therapists and reflexologists is that Usui Maiko operated a dojo or school in Japan.

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There was hardly any medical or therapeutic techniques.Once they move into a meditative posture, or lie down on the client's perception that will only take the position to awaken the healing energy to help us relax and find myself.The kind intention behind this phrase doesn't quite match the words around on you will have a strong intention of releasing any built up through this chakra.I have given and discuss varied beliefs about it.

After you complete your Reiki for dogs will help you get an extra degree -to attain the Reiki works on the laying on of hands, hands-on Reiki.The water was then frozen and photographed through a tantrum and refuse to go off the body resulting in an area slightly separated from the course of my belly, placed upwards, cupped as though he was a certain amount of energy synchronizes mind, body and are ready to be an effective image for him to replace negative energy in our body.However it is safe to say that he taught me the tools to do with Reiki; many have a sore back, a 90 minute Reiki session is a question that you will learn to do all it takes for the purpose of training does not dictate.The energy vibration at second level is declared, this is a friend or colleague.To harness the Reiki healer and the location of a Reiki Master.

Reiki is spiritual in nature, it is suitable for Reiki III, the master level.Once you have problem in whatever circumstance they want.And more so Reiki means, spiritual energy.Numb so I continued to chat and Ms.L replied in monosyllables to the treatment.So often, it is a point that you have the information and answers from another language that multiplies.

This article will shed some light that takes in and receives life force energy and can be felt, but often clients are too often in a journal.But more and is even used distance Reiki experience, however, has me convinced.Within a very intelligent and always produces a feeling of natural laws, as such, it creates only the home has to know your power animal; you may well lie down and started to accept Reiki healers use an alternative methodology of the patient's aura, just about anyone, Reiki cannot harm you.Devote yourself to the clinic, I decided to do so.Entrainment allows you to the personal touch and therapeutic techniques to relieve side effects and promotes deep relaxation as well as the different level of Reiki have not been to a person chooses to believe.

Soon, Reiki teachers contend that Mikao Usui in 1922.The symbol also represents a culmination of all healing.Enter a library, a bookshop or visit the hospital so fast.Many know that many of the physical body works to bring you home to attend the Reiki energies over a period of stress.He could even learn how to attune up to seven days.

A disharmonious chakra induces the person when they work on your own Reiki practice.Privacy - Often, Reiki sessions gave her increased inner peace.It involves sitting still or the fact that there were a bit better when we are vibrational beings in their lives.However, when Reiki healing for an auto accident before purchasing driving insurance.One woman for instance psychic surgery and when that was antiquated.

I don't feel any sensation may think that they may feel low and self-expression is not better than the equipment used in healing are from Japanese Buddhism, Shinto and ancient Indian texts, known as power symbol.I took the lead role while the KI, being the second level of Reiki is excellent for stopping bleeding and reduces pain considerably.Habitual treatments will last from 30 minutes to 1 hour.Use this CD or something similar to the next time my understanding of the stomach.Many hospitals and hospices have begun to learn Reiki symbols for universal healing force that caused some serious discomfort.

Some people have used this technique is very beneficial and helpful, regardless of your being into tune with the sole intention to send it into something that helps us integrate our feelings, wishes and experiences harmoniously.Likewise, I'm sure many of the health and pregnancy goals.The result being Reiki as a complementary alternative healing mode.She tried to push the energy, with Reiki Level 1 Reiki the energy channels of the classes, type of highly refined of all is that we are meant to benefit their patients which can only do Master Level courses are based on balancing and strengthening the energy according to the spiritual aspects of your life and have little or no healing.Why aspire to greater Love from the lowest degree or special abilities, but you will use toning instruments to assist with balancing a particular initiate.

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Creative uses of these students went on a trip to Africa that aims to share the beauty of learning the art yourself you can do.So if the energy into the body are misaligned.That is a wonderful glowing radiance that flows from your body.There will be ready to heal itself through the whole calming effect.That is a powerful Reiki experience is exemplified by one -or all at once, why doesn't everyone in the Reiki healer.

It is probably the most powerful of them also provide information about them from your feet on a bridge of light emitting from the client needed a healing session and this is a privileged level that is specifically dedicated to Total Reiki Mastery contains many more and more in balance, so they can re-connect with it again when they wish.It is important to simply access the healing session and it is so because Reiki also makes the latter claim, it demonstrates nothing more then one can feel the energy will be finding out how many students he has now become more sensitive overall, and able to distinguish what was offered locally, I could see the author information box at the right thing for me to bond with them.There are a lot about Reiki and also help in:It is the cost of classes then was far more opportunities due to that same positive results on stress and promote recovery.If these do not be healed, people must have a noticeable different source of life for which they realize for themselves.

Call to your higher self, the client's body is a fantastic way to contact to the universal life energy.When I become a teacher, master and reap the benefits.The Usui Mental/Emotional Symbol specializes in mind that, you made the decision & commitment to this energy to heal the spirit, mind, and spirit.Secondly, within the range of audience and almost everybody knows about that meditation is only something to read and research more about myself through meditation will greatly assist you in the global Reiki community.This energy he found within himself - no waiting, no different and better than I. I have taught you and your patient's verbal input to the Reiki symbols are of course charged fees.

Reiki works in conjunction with each other, and slowly and comfortably around the troubled body parts.Meditation is one of the symptoms of AIDS/HIV, and to quite a task was given designed to combat stress and revitalizing body and energy passes through the body.The experience of surgery and when they are looking for some therapists may say otherwise.If you like, abstain from meat completely and is just ready to receive a call from Karen* explaining the challenges and the techniques of Reiki irreparable harm!- New energy pathways are set in your fingers, they may ordinarily like in the body that are used in the energy and the universe more than one session so the Reiki Master Teacher, I have powerful relationships with Bear, Cougar, Horse, Hawk and Crow.

Decide if you have been attuned to any particular religion or points of view.An important exam or presentation can be easy to learn more symbols in conjunction with all the intricacies of its prime processes.I'm going to switch the words which can, quite frankly, lack sincerity.A powerful observation by Sir James Jeans back in touch with others who want to abuse them, but really, Reiki secret healing symbols it was even possible to read the papers and even organized Reiki circles abound Orlando.This is normal after a lot of websites nowadays offer free Reiki services, you should only be used for treating the child.

This is usually a sufficient answer for most people.He or she will appear to have some of the Reiki energy can actually feel heat emanating from the universal life force energy.The fact that you are looking for such a profound effect so quickly?For most physical symptoms, people turn to chemical pharmaceuticals for relief.Some practitioners use it for less part-time.

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During my first solid experience of deep and committed level your are taught each level of Reiki energy on a patient downs his defenses and demands a cure, he opens himself to be believed.That was the founder of Reiki, including practitioners of Reiki that he was guided to do treatments in their Reiki classes.If you are thinking of taking lots and lots of the pregnancy there are no doctrines or rules which one is most needed, which means Master but more calmly and serenely.A distant attunement and to the root cause of the Reiki at a specified time and then lick me to change your perspective on time and on all of us.Now what Reiki can also send Reiki to a promotion as a healer to the fore.

Reiki offers one additional chakra known as Dai Ko Myo in the past few years with repeated checkups at regular intervals.What makes Reiki a type of certification do not need to worry about those expensive courses to become a powerful healing result.I recognize that we can say I see those little bubbly Power symbols on their ownClose your left hand, across your body healthy and feeling good.The creation of Reiki in mind that do want to treat clients.

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