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youretoosweetforme · 6 months

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These alternatives are looking better and better

#they’re only for if I can’t get my energy back up #but I have to decide kinda soon #I’ve got lots of thinking to do #though. it involves less parents. which is a major pro #it would also be great for character building #anyways #Juno if you see this don’t worry okay?#antiopa

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kheprriverse · 7 days

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Did I ever tell y’all Tekoha has kids? Idr tbh but I'm doing that now lol

They’re twins; Tefke and Safiya!

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#Tekoha (Kheprriverse)#rambling mood today #i decided on a whim to work on Tefke’s ref last night as an indulgent thing since ive been working on comic pages all week #and i havent given him or safiya any attention sicne i first designed them #theyre twins but theres no ‘whos gonna take over the throne when the time comes’#because twili just live an incredibly long time. so theyre both kinda doing their own thing #but the answer would be Safiya #Safiya is a researcher focusing on the relationship between tech and magic #Tefke went military mode and trains army recruits--much like his dad he doesnt have very good magic attunement and makes up for it in comba #tefke is also resident little guy #Tefke is gonna be the one with a little bit more spotlight tho coz of the current conflict but i promise Safiya will appear as well #i'll share their wips soon when theyre both done. but if yall wanna see Tefke early just lmk ig

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profounddefendorcrusade-blog · 8 days

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I feel bad for Starlo. (pt. 6)

I think the main thing we were supposed to see as Star's character flaw wasn't that he was acting proud/arrogant/reckless/badass (I mentioned that it's fine for him to act that way because he deserved it after everything good he did and obviously I still mean it 110%), but how that proud, charming guy was never the real him. He literally lost himself trying to feel worthy and please everyone in town. For years he's been acting the role (for a noble cause) but the price was him losing touch with the nerd he is.

Yet STILL, if only everyone had been a bit more gentle with him, I bet he'd have toned it down during the WE section, and even before that. But they all decided to let him know the truth at the worst possible time, right when he was supposed to make Clover his deputy. Right after they attacked the kid because they were jealous. It was supposed to be the PEAK of Starlo's day and they randomly threw the "we never liked any of this" bomb at him instead of trying to talk it out BEFORE things escalated. I'd be pissed too.

Oh yeah...

... his brother doesn't take him seriously apparently and doesn't realize that staying positive and strong 24/7 is tougher than it looks, especially with Starlo's insecurities (and yeah being a farmer is hard work, but so is being in Star's position; on the contrary, it's even TOUGHER) ...

Orion should try being an entertainer for a day and see what it's like, let alone doing it for years

...Solomon says how Star thought him and Crestina didn't support his life choices...

... and how he rarely talks to his family...

...and it suddenly came to me: in all these years, they didn't ever bother telling him that they did support him? They didn't bother trying to reach out to him more? Understand his passion (Ceroba doesn't get it either; once again, I don't blame Starlo for caring about Clover so much, that kid understood)? Have an honest talk?

No wonder Star stopped interacting with them for the most part. Maybe him feeling worthless came from his family? Who knows (or he was bullied as a kid for being a nerd). In any case, he clearly had to deal with these feelings by himself.

This man's been through some stuff.

P.S. I know he has flaws like everyone, but you've gotta ask yourself the important question: WHY? where did all this come from? But clearly nobody in his life ever asked themselves this. So it all kept building up till he almost killed his deputy for... status. He was SO desperate to feel valued and get his friends back (who made him feel less alone.. but ultimately just left when he needed someone the most, at least ONE person) that he was ready to go all the way to achieve what he'd been lacking his entire life: *feeling like he MATTERED.*

I wonder If he'll ever go 100% back to being his true self. Slim chances :'( this is him now. Half farmer half sheriff

#undertale yellow #uty #starlo uty #uty starlo #why is this character so tragic #without being tragic #i mean the “Ceroba” type of tragic #I'm no psychologist but I sure know feelings like this stem from childhood/adolescence #I'm talking bout the fact starlo literally decided that his life purpose would be pretending to be a sheriff. I repeat. PRETENDING #aka someone important #bc he never felt important #he tried lying to everybody and especially himself #that he was 'great' and 'cool'#bc nobody ever made him feel that way #plus ceroba ditched him for someone more 'serious' she had just met #I have to write about the sentence above soon #like I'm not saying Solomon & crestina are terrible people #But parents..?#Wellll...#I kinda sometimes imagine Star being made fun of by his peers and so he'd always retreat to his room and cry alone #That is #Until he found those western cassettes (I imagine it happened when he was a teen)#So instead of crying #He'd just distract himself for hours and hours #And pretend he was someone with more value who everyone respected #That's how the persona came to be #And so he began to lose touch with his real self more and more #As well as his feelings and problems #Until he just snapped #I can't anymore

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skrrtscree · 5 months

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Akishinji to me feels like being in love with your best friend in middle school, finally admitting those feelings in your first year at highschool, never feeling so right before everything is wrong again. He disappears afterwards and doesn't even say goodbye, or say your over. Even when you find him, he's distant. Of course he would be, he believes he's a murderer, that he'll hurt anyone that comes too close. You wish he'd come back home with you and ask for your help but he doesn't.

You're stubborn so you keep coming back but he's equally stubborn so he continues you push you away. You're both stuck in this cycle, neither of you want to give in to what the other says so there's not much you can do. You both don't mention what you ha(d)ve, it never comes up. You both stay like this, no new teammate enticing him back until him.

He's still plagued with gulit, he knows this won't help him but the least he can do is protect the kid he unintentionally orphaned. And all of a sudden, you have him back. And it's like he never left. Sure, there is some awkwardness, some things left unsaid between you, he still has problems problems you don't even know about at first and he refuses to elaborate on them but you don't care too much for now. You have him back and you won't lose him again. You can't lose him again.

But the universe isn't kind, you've known this for a long time yet you keep standing strong, you can't falter because then everyone else will.

But he slips away, and you crumble.

#persona #persona 3 #p3 #akishinji #akihiko sanada #shinjiro aragaki #me again hi #sorry for dropping off the face of the earth for most of the month ive been on the art grind #ryomina week is next week and ive actually like half way done i think with my pieces for them #its been a month since i posted anything art related hopefully i can get back soon😭#but anyways i basically had thoughts abt akishinji and decided to write them down #uh note: im not an akishinji/akihiko expert or anything thats mirus ballpark #im also not obessed with akishinji unlike other ppl in the p3 fandom theyre kinda in the same space as akeshu for me #but i do like the idea of akishinji being ex boyfriends who mever relaly broke up still want eachother but circumstances never let them #like ooh doomed yaoi.. maybe somedayill make one of these posts for every p3 ship who knows😭#i do have quite a few thoughts on souyos dynamic along with my werid feelings toward the ship itself #anyway byyeee see ya in like 7 dayss #minnitalks

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entropyvoid · 1 year

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Pom of Peace | Rainbow Hamsa

In Jewish culture, pomegranates traditionally symbolize fertility and love, and are often said to have 613 seeds, one for each mitzvah. They are a common theme in Jewish art and are often mentioned in Jewish texts.

The hamsa is a symbol of luck and protection shared by many cultures with middle eastern roots. It has been interpreted as a Jewish, Christian, Islamic, and Pagan symbol. In Judaism in particular, it is sometimes referred to as the hand of Miriam, and has been very popular with Sephardic Jews.

#judaica #judaism #jewish #jumblr #my art #cherallart #so like I've been kinda ~reconnecting with my jewish heritage and upbringing~ a lot more over the past year or two #I decided that the lack of jewish art that fit my very particular aesthetics is an issue that i have decided to solve #more where these came from. I have a list of like 20 more ideas for a judaica art series #and I might start selling prints of them soon?#also this is hands down the best hand I've ever drawn. Lol #anyway as per usual #support my art reblogs are better than likes

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silenthillbunni · 3 months

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📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk.....#rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right?#i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

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codecicle · 7 months

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worlds teeniest tiniest vent but i think all transphobic lawmakers should get their balls put in a panini press and get run over by cars so perfectly that their pussies get roadburn actually. they don't deserve happiness or respect and i hope they all die <3 <3 <3 <3

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#if a future employer sees this: this is slash silly #slash joking if you will #anyway point is i am the worlds specialest little guy and i shouldnt have to decide what colleges im going to #based off how deadly the state is.#fuck that man.#i shouldnt have to deal with bullshit like this because i was born and had the audacity to try and be happy and comfortable in my own skin #anyway im fine i just had to get into a small argument with my mom by accident this morning and i hate fighting with her shes too kind she #doesnt deserve it #if the country could stop the genocide pretty soon thatd be kinda pogchamp or something. idk.#i am genuinely fine now btw dw 👍 we all good just felt like i needed to get this off my chest or something #^_^

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mossflower · 6 months

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ok while i’m ignoring the fact that i have a 9am lecture in six hours does anyone want to listen to me rant about nanowrimo

#so. last year i decided to do it very last minute with zero planning #it was not a good story but i had a lot of fun writing it and!! i actually finished it!!#this year i have planned a story. i have a plot. i have characters that i like. i have themes and settings and all that jazz #but i kinda just want to abandon it and work on an older project!! which is very annoying #the older project is part of a whole damn universe i’ve been developing the past few years. i am Obsessed obsessed with everything abt it #it’s very close to my heart and i really want to make something of it! and i don’t think i’m a competent enough writer to do it justice atm #also if i abandon my current nano project i highly doubt i will ever actually write it #which would be a shame because i like it! it’s a story i would have liked to read when i was like fourteen fifteenish #and tbh would still like to read now #i think actually writing it would be good practice! and i know i would enjoy it #when have i ever not enjoyed anything featuring magic time travel and lesbians. like honestly #i don’t think it’d take long for me to start writing the older project after nanowrimo either #i have a tendency to get stuck in brainstorming hell but i know how it ends. which makes everything much easier to sort #also if i don’t write something featuring the love of my life maria soon i think she will physically claw her way out of my brain #so there’s that <3 #morganposting #nano 2023 #now thats a scary tag to be using

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nerdnag · 8 months

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Crashed real hard with my bike this morning when a car suddenly drove out from a parking zone and stopped literally in the middle of the bike lane without caring to look first 🙁

Also the driver left without checking up on me. I was on the ground with my legs tangled around the bike and he literally just. Drove away.

#I'm fine so you don't have to worry #But I took the brunt of the force with my elbows which proceeded to start bleeding and then hurt all day #Also I was in shock for a few hours #So scary when you're like. Saying words and doing stuff and yet your brain isn't keeping up #So you end up not being able to trust yourself and what you do and say #I had a work meeting where I was like. Speaking words. But as soon as I spoke them I kinda lost track of them.#(I would have been allowed to go home but I decided to give it a shot and it got a lot better after a couple hours)#Anyway now my arms just hurt. And I'm tired.#Nagnerd #Tw accidents #Tw injury

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steakout-05 · 23 days

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headcanons i have about Craig the scientist :)

as are most of the characters i have headcanons for, Craig is on the autism spectrum. he has a flat effect to his voice and facial expressions, doesn't really get most social cues, doesn't know how to react to others in pain the "right" way, misunderstands metaphors and speaks in quite a direct manner because it makes the most sense to his brain. he's quite a literal thinker. he also tends to hyperfixate so hard on a task that he forgets his basic needs and hygene, and thus has quite an unkempt look underneath that hazmat suit of his (which i will get into later!). Barry often ends up needing to get Craig something to eat because of how long he hyperfixates on something.

Craig sometimes doesn't exactly pay attention to his tone of voice, so sometimes he can say something that, to him, sounds completely normal, but because of his tone, can end up sounding really ominous to other people by accident ("We know who you are, Barry.")

Craig has traumatic cataract in his left eye (or wherever the fuck craig's visor crack is supposed to be in canon lol) from the explosion in 'Level 2' and is half blind in that eye. his eye has a very clouded look as a result of the injury. he's also got a huge scar there too that required some pretty gnarly stitches later, and his skin is almost completely numb around that area.

Craig also never really had the best eyesight before the injury, so he's always wearing these big ol' nerdy glasses underneath his helmet. and yes, they are tacked together with a band-aid lol

Craig is one of the few scientists who is not a clone of Peter Simpkins, the late friend of both Professor Brains and (in my headcanon'd canon) Craig. i like to think that Craig and Simpkins knew each other when they were first recruited by Legitimate Research and was pretty close to both him and Brains, and since Simpkins died, Brains has kind of taken more of a liking towards Craig (mostly out of loneliness and needing someone to help around at the lab, but he has a genuine fondness for him under his demanding and angry exterior).

There's a bit of a fan theory that Craig is the same guy as the scientist in the 'Robot Bird' rock opera, which i like to believe is the case. i mean, he's got the same monotone voice as Craig, it's gotta be him. i hope this does end up becoming canon because i think it'd make for an interesting conflict between Barry and Craig!!

Craig may or may not be related to Lab Lady.

Craig's counterpart in the mirror universe is named Kayla.

Craig is demiromantic and is questioning his sexuality (he thinks he might be bi or pan), though he definitely knows he loves Barry <3

Craig has an unhealthy habit of wiping his embarrassing memories, like, a lot. he wipes memories of awkward accidents in the lab, particularly painful failures, and most importantly, the memories of losing literally all his stuff and his career to Barry, which is why he doesn't immediately recognise him in the shorts. Craig has a lot of trouble recounting stories from the past because of this memory-wiping and felt a sense of emptiness, which getting hit in the head certainly didn't help with, so he tried inventing that apple in the Multiverse Madness event to get some of them back. it was pure dumb luck that Barry didn't end up witnessing what happened to Craig in the 'Robot Bird' opera and both are completely unaware of the disastrous can of worms that could have opened. bro's gonna end up like wallflower blush if he doesn't keep that memory erasing under control

and finally...

under his helmet, Craig has messy dirty-blonde hair, a rounded face that has a few stray facial hairs he forgot to shave, a long scar down the left side of his face, hazel coloured eyes and pale skin. this design is inspired by the designs made by @dexterno-artz and @schnabel53 respectively :D

this is a sketch of my finalised(ish) craig design!!! i've shown earlier versions of this guy in a couple of older posts but i haven't really revised his design much until now. i kinda had the idea of him looking like a stereotypical nerd and then made him messier. i might tone the amount of hair he has down a tiny bit but also i really like the nerdy bird's nest thing he has goin on :) i like to think he literally hasn't brushed his hair in several weeks and it's just become a bird's nest from nights of staying up doing science stuff

how i feel about barry tbh. he's literally so dumb i love him

(also apologies for the photos being kinda blurry and me forgetting to turn off the filter. again. in my defence it looks really nice and orange on my phone)

sometimes i like drawing him saying stuff from the shorts to get a feel of how he'd look when talking and make sure he looks juuuust nerdy enough for me to go "yep that's craig". also his big,g, handns,s,

drew this as a quick side profile sketch to get a general idea of how i want to draw him from this angle. he's talking to barry offscreen and falling in love with him <3

stupid little comic with a stupid little interaction that would definitely happen between these stupid little guys <3 barry being a little asshole every now and then is very entertaining to me. i need to see him antagonising craig and starting an old couple bickering argument with craig, that would heal me i think

i think i'll post more of this design in the future, i really quite like it a lot :)

#jetpack joyride #craig jetpack joyride 2 #jetpack joyride 2 #headcanon design #yeag sorry the photos are so fucked looking #my room does not have good lighting.... like..... at all #my sketchbook is also literally falling to pieces lmao #i'm gonna get a new one soon but damn. my poor sketchbook #i didnt even do anything to it....... why must it fall apart and die on me..........#anyway YEAH craig design!!!!#i quite like this design a lot #i feel like there's something that could be added to it but i don't wanna make his design more complicated than it already is #that first drawing of him kinda looks like his eye is bleeding lol #it's just a really big scar dw #craig having traumatic cataract was inspired by my dog getting traumatic glaucoma in his eye #also i think craig would go hard as like. a character who's similar to wallflower blush #except instead of everyone forgetting her but her remembering them #it's craig forgetting everything that happened to him and then finding a way to restore the memories and then he gets SO PISSED at barry #they'll sure need a lot of couple's counselling after that blunder #i kinda wanna make designs for steve and toni #especially steve!!!#how do you think they'd identify steve from the other scientists. would barry just stick a big piece of paper with an S on it to his face #answering my own question: yes he would absolutely do that #steve is the one i feel like both barry and craig tease the most #i find steve literally being so nervous about being perceived that he runs away and damages property to be extremely relatable #also fun fact: craig's hair and eye colours are kinda based off the colour i see the word craig in???#ok this is gonna be tricky to explain but i think i might have grapheme colour synesthesia #it's basically a condition where you can see or VERY heavily associate colours to a specific number or letter #and for some reason my brain has christened 'craig' as being a very specific sort of yellowy green! it's what i see in my head when i think #-of the word 'craig' so i decided to make him kinda blonde and have hazel eyes (which is basically a mix of green and yellow)!! neato!!

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funerals · 8 months

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official announcement to all my mutuals: I apologize and warn u in advance that I'm off my meds and will not stop fucking rambling sorry for the literal paragraphs I'm leaving in ur replies I just can't shut up okay love u bye

#decided im om too many fucking meds and have been for so long like since i was 16 ive been heavily medicated on so many different meds #like i dont even know what im like as a person not heavily medicated like idk who i am naturally so ive decided to stop taking most of them #except like the ones for my heart and stomach and shit that i need to live #even got my birth control implant removed and am off birth control for the first time in like 7 years #my life is like seriously changing so much currently im gonna be a completely different person so soon i feel like so im kinda .... weird rn #weirder than fuxking usual like by a lot #THERE I FUCKING GO AGAIN WHY CANT I SHUT THE FUCK UP NO ONE CARES #anyway okay love u bye smooches if u actually read all this fucking mess

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hauntingblue · 1 month

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ZORO LORE FINALLY ⁉️