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jazzytrait · 1 year

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I'm drinking and rambley so how about a non-sims, Jazzy-gives-advice-no-one-asked-for post? No? We're doing it anyway!

So, my friend just told me about another friend of hers who has been asking her for money on the regular and I had to tell her this story because it's...

a lesson I had to learn the hard way:

Story time! Once upon a time I had a close friend. We'd known each other for years. When he finally moved out of his parents' house he had no end of financial trouble.

(This is gonna get long and rambley... so adding a cut)

Now, I'm no stranger to that... I'm disabled and have no college degree. I've struggled to make ends meet my whole life. I have gotten very good at churching up ramen noodles and rice/bean dishes. For reference: I've been under or only slightly over the poverty line for the majority of my life. Sucks when you feel like you're making a little progress and then they take away your health insurance because you made $1k more a year. (and I have to have my medications, so forgoing medical treatment is not an option)

Anyway, my friend got into a bind when he quit a job because the manager was rude to him. He was slightly younger than me and new to "real life", so I gave him a pass. Life is rough and adjusting is hard. I helped him out with a couple hundred dollars that I barely had because that's what friends do, right? Right.

A couple months later, I found out that instead of paying his rent with that money he had taken his gf out to dinner a few times and now he was getting kicked out. Luckily, he was living with roommates and it wasn't an actual eviction. But he did have to find somewhere new to live. He asked to come stay with me and I had to decline because my place was extremely tiny (300sq ft) and I didn't even have a couch for him to surf on.

He found someone else to couch surf with rent free until he could find another job and another place. He kept talking about all the job hunting and how hard it was. A few months later his gf confessed to me that he hadn't been looking or putting in applications because he thought he deserved more money than the going rate for his education level (no hs diploma or GED). His friend eventually kicked him out and he found ANOTHER place to couch surf. He did eventually take another job.

A few months later he was in trouble again because he had to go to the doctor and was short on rent. My other friend helped him out with some money. This time he spent it on his rent. But lo and behold, the next month he said he needed help again. A different friend helped him out with some more money. The next day he, I and his gf were online together gaming in Discord. He said "brb I'm gonna order some food". He ordered $60 of sushi for he and his gf to split (she didn't work btw, so he paid). I asked him "Didn't [friend] just lend you money for your rent? Why are you ordering sushi?" and he replied "All I have is sandwich stuff and I don't feel like eating a sandwich". This was the first time that red flag really went up for me, even though it should have been sooner.

It continued this way. Every month he had some new sob story of why he needed money from people and even though our friend group had long since ceased helping him, he always found someone new to help him out (he was charming and had a knack for making friends and sounding genuine).

He went through job after job. He'd quit after a month or so because he didn't like the work or didn't like his boss or didn't make enough money (which... any money is better than no money). I'm not saying that adult life isn't soul-crushing. It is and it sucks, but we do what we have to do to survive. To him, he was victim forced to do something he didn't want to do and so he refused to do it. He had a million and one excuses for how his joblessness and constant need for assistance wasn't his fault.

One time, I was in town visiting and we met up to get a burger. I offered to split the bill and he said after we'd already eaten "Oh, I don't have any money". I bit my tongue and paid because it was too late anyway. Afterwards, as we were walking back out through the mall he said he wanted to stop and look in a couple stores. He asked me to buy him things three separate times. I declined because I could barely afford my own rent and expenses and I worked my ass off to get what little I had. He was pretty frustrated by my refusals and even called me "stingy".

To this day (5 years later) he is famous amongst our friends for always asking for money, always spending it carelessly and then just asking people for more... he doesn't have to work his ass off because people keep giving him things to the point that now if you say "no" to him he gets offended and feels entitled to whatever money you have.

The moral of the story is: One time is a mistake. Twice is a pattern. Three times is a problem. Some people can't be bothered to help themselves as long as others are willing to prop them up and do it for them. Don't get suckered into every sob story you hear and feel obligated to help. We want to be good people and helping out isn't wrong. Help should be available to people in times of crisis... but keep an eye out for the ones who seem to always need help. Some people are very good liars.

#not sims #Jazzy Rambles

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luminous-shifting-vibes · 3 years

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*sequel* to actual fucking quotes from the shiftblr coffeehouse discord server

once again, it's out of context because x1000 funnier

also x1000 longer than previous post

"ur satan is gnc af"

"Bestie I’m already having gender envy over a fucking demon please"

"O_O ODEPIJHFbavevisdpvfhzdcnjawedsidjksjdkoeirjfmkdsoeirujdksodifjndmksoidfjdksidfj ITS" NOT IN MY FRAFTS IS SPEDNT 1 hour PN THAT SHIT"

"AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

"ohoho sexy"

"I am very proud of myself"

"himbo x edgy fuck"

"YOU COULD SQUISH HES CHEECKS"

"he has teefs"

"SQUASH"

"good for biting 📷"

"he's a himbo basically"

"B͂̒̄iͫ̍̈tͧ̓ͯè̄̇"

"bifth"

"i havent watched blue exorcist in years but mr okumura my beloved </3"

"MY LIFE QUESTIONS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED"

"is it important information to mention that the person i put up for my turn is the son of satan" "I know like 1 thing about everyone who isnt ranboo lmfao"

"crimes"

"tumblr sexyman"

"idk why but my first thought was cowboy onceler"

"I vibe with him but he is very long and twisty"

"steampunk e-girl"

"steampunk tumblr sexyman"

"Canonically bi crimelord I agree!!"

"OOO FRIEND SHAPED"

"ARTIST SIGHTED"

"they look like someone i would want to be friends with but is way cooler than me so i'd never actually talk to them"

"babby..... would die for him"

"honestly i probably kin him"

"i'm sure he's lovely but he looks way too much like my ex i'm sorry-"

"i'd be down for another rotation! i have another twink to show y'all"

"Also :00 blonde friend"

"Let us all infodhmo"

"Hsjagdvbs shhh im on phone"

"Nix woukd you like to joon?

"skitters away"

"I have two braincells and they both drink dumb bitch juice"

"oof wait whats the order again i have 0 memory"

"i want to bond with him over cosplay-"

"Awkwardly watches in band kid"

"One day I'm gonna a broadway star"

"which isnt to say they were bad. they were just fortnite dancing during rehersals"

"I threw it so hard my glasses flew off and slid under the stage right divider"

"anyway heres my boi"

"emo"

"haha emo"

"virgil sanders kinnie"

"he looks like he listens to my chemical panic at the fallout boy"

"Bro I bet he'd kick my ass with his deck"

"bird man my beloved"

"fuck i had so much to say and then i forgot it all"

"Birds!!"

"guiguhuh"

"crabrave"

"She sounds like someone I would end up stealing her personality"

"yess name collector gang"

"alias glass aiden haven absinthe fish brick rice"

"But I have Cypress, Remure, Genesis, Lemres, and Comet"

"And she's named after a mars candy bar bc alien"

"Hey, if plato went by plato, you can be king thief"

"im not dissing my gramma like that shfojd"

"My dad has seven legal names" "bitches be like *looks at fictional character* *steals their name* it's us we're bithces"

"coraline lowkey traumatized me but i adore it regardless"

"mmmmmm magic man :]"

"°0° green man"

"criminal (affectionate)"

"he would shoplift a candy bar from walmart and then brag to all of his friends about the sick stealing he did"

"despite the fact he's canonically been capable of overpowering a minor deity"

"i would commit so many crimes for him"

"Very babey"

"Yes please tell green man he is very pog"

"he also keeps a lot of dumb secrets"

"but I will sorely miss the chaos and energy of this here chat until I wake again" (by request XD)

"i just say words and if they're funny then they're funny"

"* or extremly chaotic either works"

"at this point we are just taking turns rambling"

"oH--"

"bc my brain has a schedule"

"Hopefully they have gyoza there or I will lose my mind"

"hehe yes spooky man"

"my ghost glucose guardian"

"the head of the undead group that lives there, and we end up dating. (yes I date a ghost, no I will not be taking constructive criticism /lh)"

"ghosts r just inherently sexy"

"i mean im becoming a squid thing so"

"Raven quirk raven quirk!!"

"ł â m p"

"łæmp"

"mothman: ooh lamp you look very nice today! do you come here often? mothman: wait shit no"

"I'd date a ghost"

"mine is still accurate, i am still sobbing (/j)"

"p e e p e e"

""@nick wilde is a tumblr sexyman" is the best thing i have ever seen"

"im sorry im cackling like a dying hyena"

"you're all 12 year olds"

"PEENIE"

"He once caused global warming on accident so he could get a tan"

"god, what a himbo. i love him"

"that reminds me of my friends kin assigned me jesus"

"Man outside of battle be like: princely crying but then in battle hes like: "CATACLYSM! DISASTER! DEVASTATION!" Chill out man"

"Every time I talk about satan it never fails to shock people it's my favorite thing to do"

"im kin assigning him roman sanders" ""Oh yeah he caused global warming because he wanted to get girls" "he what""

"oh damn i forgot satan was straight"

"twink appreciation club"

"give us the twinks"

"my first thought was bottom-"

"so many people to try and get his dad to love him"

"daddy issued"

"OH MY GOD ITS WILBUR"

"Big boy but"

"anyways janus is swagggg"

"........................."

"gib twink"

"give twink then i will share"

"holds him gentle like hamburger"

"This dumb bitch opened a book that said "do not open" and got possessed by a little bastard"

"he is. fragile creachur"

"klug is beauty klug is grace i would let him step on my face"

"If I'm playing swap and I have to hear one more "Pwanet Powew" Im gonna lose it"

"Who is to blame? Pandora or the box?"

"Bakugo isnt my type but I respect the drip"

"i say like my type isnt long-haired pretty boys and girls that look so gnc that people have a history of confusing them for men"

"hes a gremlin and i can appreciate a pretty gremlin"

"that is to say i am attracted to VFlower vocaloid. This is a confession."

"note i am a lesbian"

"You may like Schezo wegey"

"why does he have one single expression"

"soul soul eater passes the vibe check"

"magic wand"

"I Want To Hold His Hand"

"i would commit a war crime for him any war crime idc which one"

"my favorite one is when he sounded rlly gay because he said "Muscular bodies keep me satisfied""

"p e a n u t"

"Klug is a homophobic homosexual its just facts"

"grug from the croods is peak male performance"

"jaw drops to floor, eyes pop out of sockets accompanied by trumpets, heart beats out of chest, awooga awooga sound effect, pulls chain on train whistle that has appeared next to head as steam blows out, slams fists on table, rattling any plates, bowls or silverware, whistles loudly, fireworks shoot from top of head, pants loudly as tongue hangs out of mouth, wipes comically large bead of sweat from forehead, clears throat, straightens tie, combs hair Ahem, you look very lovely."

"tag yourself im the fireworks shooting from the top of the head"

"i like essays"

"central time gang"

"11:11 pog-" (wait... is that a suprise angel number?? yes it is lovelies just for you <3)

"Then again im also a dumbass bitch who wonders what the souls in soul eater taste like. SERIOUSLY THOUGH. THEY LOOK TASTY AS HELL!!!! LIKE GODDAMN BRO YOU'RE MAKING ME FUCKING HUNGRY. Like. that shit- it's Bone Apple motherfucking Teeth. hell yea my guy. Im hongy now.... shlorp I'm seriously considering this. Like. They seem kinda like a liquid? But a solid? Are they like jello? The fuck they taste like my guy???? I keep imagining they're like sour, like sour candy maybe? Or do they taste salty? Sweet? Maybe some combo of two? Do they even have a taste or is it about the texture? The sensation? God my mouth is watering what the hell. I am starving. I think I need to go get a cookie. I'm gonna go get a cookie. Brb. I'm better. I'm still craving souls though. Which is a weird-ass cringey thing to say but I'm being dead-ass rn. They just.... look tasty???? And I wanna eat one. Thus. I am shifting to Soul Eater for the express purpose of satisfying my fucking cravings. enjoy"

"points were made"

"jello? more like helloooo schloooAHFJDSDAIDWNALDHSJKDAIDANDM"

"WAIT I THINK I HAVE AN ANIME GIRL BITING VIDEO TOO"

"anime girl voice: mmm! mm... ahhhhmp!! mmm, mmm... aaahmp!"

"i think it sounds great i'm going to start eating like that"

"several people are typing"

"do these look edible to you"

"forbidden gummies"

"when I was on lsd I couldn't eat my fruit gummies because I thought they were alive because they had little faces on them"

"oh shit yeah don't do drugs"

"anyways general consensus is puyos are edible, ty for your input everyone"

"everypony is a word so powerful it can bring nations to its knees"

"pls the self control it's taking me not to say "hewwo everypony" in gen chat when someone new joins-"

"hewwo evewrypony uwu deaw cewestia i hopwe it doewsnt wain owo"

"ive cooked up a sowution wiwth the knowwege ive acwued. they say a kitcwen time saves niwne, but im just savwing two. Ive gathewwed the inwedients to make a time sowbet. Thewe's hawdly woom fow seconds when the seconds mewt away."

"I had a ten year old sister... you know what happened to her??? very sad, very tragic... she turned eleven....."

"NIIICE"

"Guts dont say the secks word :( /j"

"watch your fucking language in front of the president"

"im so sorry lumi"

"i think you're like ehhhh 8/10 funny"

"now me???? 10/10. Hilarious"

"sometimes i have to take a step back and remember that this is the same guts i follow on tumblr /lh"

""ok every here's some good shifting advice!!! uwu have a good day" "yeah i did lsd and ate fruit gummies""

"i have one setting and it's whatever this is"

"my bitch ass cat just pushed the door open with his fuzzy face and now my sleeping dad is being lulled into dreams by Cosmo Sheldrake's 'Pliocine'."

"me on discord: nick wilde"

"me on tumblr: shifting water! haha funne! me on here: my hermit crabs are cannibals also i want to eat souls."

"im sorry yOUR VIBESA RE JUST SO DIFFERNT"

"u give off older cousin ive never spoken to but always admire at the family gatherings vibes"

"what the fuck"

"BC I HAVE LIBERTU"

"If you adopt me then yes"

"am I qualified for dad jokes???"

"we're all a lot smarter on tumblr"

"I'm like "awww... sweet... sweet little shiftlings... posting such sweet shiftling content... so pure, so wholesome... does not even know abcs....""

"can't think before you speak if you never think B)"

"I'm not responsible enough to be a mom"

"cat pet"

"show us pictures of the cat or i will do Crime"

"maybe thats me being a coward tho"

"MOTH!!!! MOTH MY BELOVED"

if y'all want I can make this a series bc shiftblr keeps giving me more content

#tw drugs #tw swearing #tw cannibalism #tw crime #tw food #tw homophobia #shitpost #out of context #out of context quotes #lumi's quotes

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elyvorg · 2 years

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elyvorg’s Great Ace Attorney Liveblog - Case 2-4 Part 3

This is a transcript of a liveblog that I originally did on Discord, having played a fan translation of the first game years ago and knowing a spoiler for the second game. I do not recommend following along with this on your first playthrough!

[[Please also bear in mind that I’ve long since finished the game by now, so if past-me wildly misinterprets something here (and I often did), no need to correct me, I already know!]]

Live reactions: 2-4, second investigation day

elyvorg

(I really need to sit down with Kazuma and try to understand what he's going through...)

YES RYUNOSUKE, TALK TO YOUR FRIEND ABOUT HIS ISSUES, you are FRIENDS

oh geez, Gregson's been getting Vigil to give him alibis, has he?

goddammit Kazuma, stop LEAVING, just TALK TO YOUR FRIEND

guhhhhh this rift in their friendship

he's not even in his office yet, game sure knows how to tease me

Gregson is the leader of the Reaper organisation? oh boyyyyy

A. Shinn, right?

I FUCKING KNEW HER FIRST NAME WAS ASA

figuring out plot points through Ace Attorney pun names!

but if she's the Reaper, why did she Reaper Wilson?

also, uh

the Names on the List

are they

all parts of the Reaper or something somehow

and Kazuma's supposed to be one of them too?

not entirely sure that makes sense when Wilson's been in Japan for ten years but you know

also if Gregson was the Reaper (one of them), what was up with the upcoming transfer to France?

oh whoops let's not talk about Iris's dad being murdered in front of her lol : >

yeah, reeeeaaally getting the sense that Genshin wouldn't have murdered Klint even if he did the others

of COURSE Genshin had Karuma!

also did he have magical fluttery ponytail-band aura too, it looks like he might've, guess that's an Asogi genetic thing

nice job, Mikotoba, not letting on that you were friends with Iris's dad

aww, he's proud that Ryunosuke did so well against Kazuma!

some day we really gotta find a way to tell Iris the bad news somehow

wait, Wilson only came to the Yumei University four years ago, but has been overseas doing Important Things for Iris's entire life, hmmmm

Wilson... wasn't Sholmes's partner?

what the heck, that's not how Sherlock Holmes works, you can't just do that

or I guess there's just two different Dr. John H Wilsons, so Iris's dad is actually still alive, hmmmm

oh no, Ryunosuke feels kind of like a loose end now that Kazuma's alive after all! D:

Ryunosuke you were never here to replace Kazuma, he brought you along himself to help him

what does Sholmes know about Asa Shinn? :O

man, Kazuma even brings his absolute banger of a new theme into his office, it almost feels like too much, heh

he DID steal himself away from Hong Kong!

I'm sorry, if he had AMNESIA, then how did he know BRITISH LAW, hm? That... feels like a thing that would be erased through general amnesia? Maybe? Probably? ...I'm not actually sure.

OH MY GOD SMOL KAZUMA HE'S ADORABLE

hmmmm I wonder who sent that letter to him about his dad's crimes

(god, what a dick thing to send to the guy's teenage son)

examining stuff around his office and discussing it with Kazuma and they're just BANTERING like FRIENDS :3

Kazuma... really is doing this for revenge like van Zieks thought, aaaaaaaaa

(and YET. Kazuma helped us get van Zieks to agree to let us defend him, by giving us the photo of him and his brother to show him and remind him of what it felt like to believe in people. That's the only reason van Zieks agreed. Kazuma gets it about believing in people; surely that means that he also knew van Zieks is someone worth believing in, or he wouldn't have done that?)

one of Genshin Asogi's apprentices took the sword's name for a surname, DID HE NOW, hahaha, that's that connection solved

Bench

>:3

elyvorg

smh, von Karma, you're such a disgrace to your ancestor's master, how could you :/

anyway brb sobbing over Kazuma's MASSIVE DAD COMPLEX and that's why the sword's so important to him and oh god, this poor kid

no longer want to believe Genshin murdered anybody at all because I don't want to believe little Kazuma's judgement of his dad could be wrong, aaaa, he's going to be devastated if it turns out he did do any of the murders

I, uh... might be begrudgingly accepting the amnesia was real. It felt a lot like he was being completely earnest and truthful throughout this conversation.

...Genshin admitted in confidence to Vigil that he took somebody's life (but not necessarily the people he was accused of killing), huh. That sounds like he meant it. I wonder what's up with that.

(I wonder if Vigil told Kazuma that part where he was here asking questions. : > )

you'd think if they'd made a point of confiscating anything from Genshin in prison it would have been his sword

...was the letter Kazuma received from his dad?!? Did he know his son would stop at nothing to avenge him and find the truth if he heard about it? aaaa, I want that to be it now

game, are you really not going to let me show Kazuma's father's will to him to see how he reacts? really. :(

haha, someone tried to throw off the time of death by freezing the body!

...oh. Wilson autopsied Klint, huh.

and Mikotoba, too

what the fuck was Sholmes up to

man, this is making all the characters I trust look super sus!

IRIS what are you hiding, MAN

EVERYONE IS SUS SUDDENLY

Bench

Has the word "Indeterminate" come up yet?

elyvorg

In the autopsy report, yes.

Bench

You just updated the autopsy report yourself.

elyvorg

pfft, I guess we did!

Bench

It's a small moment, but I really liked how Maria decided to not follow the path of her mother, and chose to not falsify the autopsy report anymore.

elyvorg

Yeah! She's actually a good person! If still rather terrifying because she grew up around corpses, yeesh.

Bench

Yeah.

elyvorg

wait, suddenly Gina can read, when eight days ago-ish she was only just working on learning

Gregson was out to reap someone non-English on the day he died, was he, hmmm.

PUPPY

I have this horrible wild theory that the gash in Gregson's trunk was made by Karuma. I hope that is not true but god

(it's just, Kazuma was also AWOL on the day Gregson died, what is up with that, aaaaa. I refuse to believe he did it, he wouldn't have, but, geez this is concerning.)

was this non-English person Gregson was going after Kazuma, oh god. I'd initially assumed Gina would recognise his name, but maybe not, she's not so good at paying attention to people's names.

geez no I'm looking at the tip of the blade in the trunk and I really think it might be from Karuma, the shape matches, most blades are much pointier than this, aaaaa

Gregson and one additional person were going to France - was that meant to be Kazuma?

(welcome to my everything was Kazuma paranoid theorymongering apparently)

that's Susato's dad on the couch in Kazuma's mask, he is not singing German, what the FUCK is going on, don't tell me he's dead, oh god

OH are we gonna Great Deduce this! Excellent, it's about time!

also love how we're apparently in an anime universe where wearing a mask over the top half of your face instantly makes you unrecognisable

examined the mask during the deduction and Ryunosuke was all "wait I know this mask, COULD IT BE...?" Bro, it is literally not Kazuma, he does not have a moustache

"I've encountered somebody else whose behaviour became very strange indeed whilst wearing this." as I try to present the mask as an explanation for the singing, heh

haha, love how the answer of the gramophone is actually kind of non-obvious for Ryunosuke, because he's not heard of a machine that sings before

GASP I could never have guessed who this person was

hee, Susato gets to do some poses!

also yes, very logic, we looked at him

this Great Deduction is a good one already

love how they keep referring to all their ridiculous twirling and posing as literal dancing, these dorks

"Miss Susato... sometimes a man needs to point his finger first and think later." xD

SUSATO DOES THE FAILURE DIALOGUES while Sholmes is knocked out, heee

(complete with his poses, too!)

surely the mask did not land on his face, it was under his hat

anyway that was a 10/10 Great Deduction, top marks

NOPE NEVER MIND WE'RE NOT DONE

...Iris's dad isn't Wilson, is it, it's Mikotoba.

the person actually doing an autopsy wouldn't be the one taking notes

he just signed it at the end

also I want Iris to talk to Kazuma sometime, I think she'd be able to relate to his Dad Feelings

YES SUSATO RECOGNISES HER DAD'S HANDWRITING I KNEW IT

So Sholmes was there on the ship to protect Kazuma, because Mikotoba - his actual "Watson" - cares about him...?

maaaaan I didn't see this twist coming (until like two minutes beforehand), nice

wait, that's the END OF THE CASE?

what do you MEAN

(does this mean I don't get to defend Kazuma in case 5? DDDD: )

...or, case 5 is going to still be Gregson's murder the whole way through, but the defendant's going to change partway, because I'm RIGHT about Karuma, and Ryunosuke's going to accidentally make it seem like Kazuma did it in the middle of court? oooooh please let that be it

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Bench

What did you think of Twisted Karma overall?

elyvorg

I mean, apparently it's only half a case, so I can't quite have a full opinion yet! But VERY GOOD YES

Bench

Case 5 is my favorite in the franchise, though AAI2-5 may dethrone it.

elyvorg

see right now I'm already thinking that GAA2-5 is gonna end up being my favourite case and GAA is gonna end up being my favourite game! ;P I love AAI2 an awful lot too and I really hope you enjoy how it ends, but MAN.

Bench

I think I will!

elyvorg

maaaaaan I was all ready to take a break between cases trying to get myself to catch up on Doing Other Things a little bit because, hey, there'd be a good stopping point in the story so I'd be slightly less hyperfixated, but then THIS HAPPENED IT'S NOT OVER aaaaaaa

Bench

I hope you enjoy the ending of this, too!

elyvorg

If I'm right about Kazuma having been with Gregson on the day he died, and at this point I'm like 90% sure of that, I KNOW I'm going to fucking love this >:3

Bench

Thoughts on Daley Vigil?

elyvorg

I like him and feel bad for him! All these people being screwed over by the cover-up, man. (And Vigil didn't murder someone over it like Drebber did, so, plus.)

Bench

Same here! He's one of my favorite side characters. I feel really bad for him.

Interim thoughts: vengeful Kazuma

elyvorg

I made the very sensible decision to rewatch the second recess scene of trial 1-5, aka the scene where Ryunosuke reminisces adorably about how good it felt to realise how much Kazuma believed in him in 1-1, complete with both the normal and the sadder variant of Kazuma's regular theme, and I was in floods of tears again despite knowing how perfectly alive Kazuma was gonna turn out to be. This is what Kazuma's supposed to be like, not... *gestures wildly at prosecutor-Kazuma* that. Man, the composer of Revival of the Prosecutor knew exactly what they were doing with it, it fucking hurts so much, I love it.

Anyway, you know how we've been talking about that "whoops I turned into the kind of monster I hated" theme? I... I'm pretty sure that's in the process of happening to Kazuma right now. D: It's becoming clear that he knows enough about this case that he surely must have always known van Zieks was obviously framed, and yet he's determined to wrongly pin the crime on him anyway, all in revenge for van Zieks having wrongly pinned a crime on his father, and no, Kazuma, that is not the right way to deal with this, aaaaaa. Ryunosuke needs to save him from this and snap him out of it before it's too late.

However, I do think there's a small part of Kazuma that he's not allowing to have much say which does realise that what he's doing is wrong and is hoping Ryunosuke can save him from this. I still can't let go of the fact that he gave us the photo which we needed to get van Zieks to trust us. Kazuma wouldn't have done that if there wasn't some part of him deep down that understands van Zieks really is trustworthy and wants Ryunosuke to prove it to him, even while the rest of him is just a wall of unrelenting vengeance, aaaa.

Interim thoughts: KAZUMA RAMBLE EARLY DRAFT

[[I just know I’m gonna write a proper full Kazuma Ramble for this blog at some point okay, I was literally thinking of this here as being effectively a partial early draft of such a thing when I wrote it]]

[[Future edit: I finally did! Here it is.]]

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During this break in playing, I have been articulating some more lengthy Kazuma Thoughts, as if I haven't already had enough Kazuma Thoughts yet (I definitely have not and probably never will). See, the conversation in his office, in which he finally just talked to his friends about his issues to a reasonable extent while seeming earnest and truthful, has let me finally get a decent, proper picture of what's going on with him and what his issues are. (Mind you, pretty sure there's a bunch of important things he still wasn't telling them there, but we'll get into those in case 5 won't we >:3)

Most of my prior ideas about what Kazuma's up to seem to have turned out to be pretty off the mark now, but I put that down to the fact that this whole time I've been fixated on these Big Conspiracies to the point that I assumed Kazuma was in on some of that somehow, working with others to achieve some overarching goal (especially thanks to his name being on The List, still not sure what's up with that). But no, actually; he's working entirely alone on a personal mission that nobody but himself put him on. This isn't what I ever imagined, but I think I like it more this way; it just goes to show how deeply important this is to him and how impressively determined he is to do it no matter what.

So, okay, fine, FINE, I will shut up about the things that made me think the amnesia could have been fake and accept it was real, because I finally understand its narrative purpose, which is to play a part in the story's presentation of Kazuma's issues. Kazuma's dad complex and fervent Mission as a result of that is so powerful that it manages to persist in some vague, subconscious form even when he's consciously forgotten who he is. He was so intensely determined to get to London and find out the truth about his dad and punish the ones responsible that not even amnesia managed to stop him from throwing himself halfway across the world to do so while he didn't even remember his own name. Damn, that's some compelling determination right there. I can dig that.

Also, can we please talk about when teenage Kazuma found out all of this horrible stuff about his dad, because oh my god, this poor kid. Especially how the two adults who were part of events and could have told him the truth made it clear that they had no intention of doing so. Kazuma had nobody he could turn to or share this incredible burden with; it must have been so lonely. No wonder it festered inside him to the point that he got this single-mindedly determined to sort it out all on his own. He never even confided in Susato about it, perhaps because she was a fair bit younger than him, or because she's the daughter of one of the men who seemed intent on hiding it.

Interestingly, Kazuma came closest to confiding in Ryunosuke out of anyone - not completely, but he mentioned the "something very important" he needed to do in England, which Susato remarked he'd never once mentioned to her. Perhaps it's Ryunosuke being completely unconnected to this whole mess that let Kazuma feel slightly more able to possibly trust him with it; maybe he'd have managed to work up to doing so sometime during the voyage if he hadn't been bonked into a coma partway.

We can blame the accident for the way he's acting right now, for that matter. If Kazuma had arrived in England as planned with Ryunosuke and Susato, I'm not sure exactly what he'd have been planning to do from there re: finding the truth about his dad, but at least he'd have been with his friends and probably assimilated into the Sholmes found family. From that position, when the truth about his dad began to come out, he wouldn't have gone so rogue, because his friends would have been there to offer to help investigate and to talk him out of anything drastic before he tunnel-visioned on it too hard.

But, because of the accident and the amnesia, while Ryunosuke's been accumulating a lovely found family, Kazuma's spent the past year completely alone. He wasn't only travelling alone, but he'd literally forgotten he had any friends; all he had was that single-minded subconscious drive of a Very Important Mission in London somewhere. So, even when he regained his memories and his friends were right there, he was happy to see them, but they didn't seem nearly as important as his Mission that he now finally understands and is face-to-face with. Hence, awkwardly leaving to go focus on that after some short obligatory greetings, without explaining things to them until much later when they're already halfway into van Zieks's trial. He is evidently never really one for talking to his friends about his issues even at the best of times, but that was also definitely quite far from the best of times.

With all that in mind, some plot speculation that I'm now pretty sure is on the money or at least close to it. Because Kazuma is, by his own account, apparently not working for anyone but himself towards anything but his own goals, any idea that he's co-operating with Stronghart's goals or trying to double-agent against Stronghart no longer really works. Instead, it seems worringly like Stronghart's using Kazuma, pointing this seething ball of dad complex-fuelled anger and vengeance in just slightly the wrong direction and watching the carnage ensue while keeping his own hands clean. Ryunosuke's gonna have to save his best friend from that and I am here for it. Stronghart's absolutely gonna be the Big Bad (to nobody's surprise). He might even prosecute when Kazuma almost certainly ends up as the final defendant? We have heard that he used to be a prosecutor.

Sus things about Stronghart: on the day of the incident, he claimed Kazuma had "gone missing" yesterday as if he had no idea where or why, but then later that day, we overheard Kazuma talking to him and it sounded very much like he'd left London and returned on Stronghart's orders, hmmmm. Also the argument we overheard after the first trial day where Stronghart was all "stop going down unnecessary tangents, leave your ulterior motives out of this", and Kazuma was all "Yes, sir (but I won't, though)". Meaning, Stronghart wants to use Kazuma's anger at the person who condemned his dad to get van Zieks convicted, but he does not like how Kazuma's using this trial to dig further into what actually happened to his dad. Hmmm I wonder who might have something to lose if more of that gets uncovered.

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It’s not the end, just brb.

This will probably be incredibly long so I don’t blame anybody for just yeeting past this but I really urge you to read this. Because I do feel like a lot of people gloss over my personal posts but just once, just once read through this. If there’s anything and anytime I’d like you to read my words, just read this once. Please.

I don’t want there to be anyone taking pity on me, I don’t want anyone hunting down anyone. None of that. I do not want to have to come back and have to defend myself or anything. Anything that I say is just me telling my story, explaining why I’m making this decision. The tumblr layout change is almost like a universal nudge to take an indefinite hiatus.

I’ve been on this site since I was 16. And being that i’m 25 now that’s nearly 10 years. And I can definitely say that I’ve grown and evolved over the time that I’ve been on this hellsite. I’ve made some of the most amazing memories and had some of the most amazing times. I have friends that I have still now, some after 8 years of being around each other, who I know are going to be my friends for life. I’ve loved a lot, and I have lost a lot. My first real relationship was on here, my first real heartbreak was on here. I’ve lost so many people that I’ve loved with all my heart, some as close as months ago, but all of those heartaches and self reflections have made me into more of a person that is stronger and doesn’t let anyone trod on them.

This isn’t some move I made in a day. I have been considering leaving the platform all together since December of last year. Which, I technically am not? I would call this an indefinite hiatus. But I definitely won’t be here.

In late 2017, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. I won’t say which one, but in the process of a year, I lost 40 pounds. Added with the stress of what was going on with my, at the time, breakup and losing someone very close to me to cancer, I was a wreck. It was only in early 2018 that I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. It’s literally 2020, and I would say I’m still in recovery from the ED and I still struggle with my depression and anxiety. I have been suicidal, more than once, and it is why I’m worried about my mental health now and why I am making this decision to take care of myself first.

In February, I had a very bad relapse. There were events surrounding that, but that was only small things in what caused me to do what I did and not the reason. More like the straw that broke the camel’s back if you get me? And I literally have my friend Ashley to thank for staying up with me all night and making sure that I was still alive and for defending me when I could not, when people were getting angry with me while I was down. Letting me call her, despite that she doesn’t like to do calls, and just letting me talk and get my frustrations out and letting me cry on the phone? She is easily and forever my best friend. I do not deserve Ashley in the least bit and yet here she is, being the most wonderful person and I owe it to her that I didn’t take my life back in February.

I’ve felt for the last few months that there have been eyes on me, that there have been people waiting for me to make a move and that is not what i’ve ever wanted. There were never sides to anything. At all. The moment that I was made aware that there were “sides” going on to an internal conflict when I was trying so fucking hard to get past everything and not relapse again, was insane. I remember laying in bed, absolutely shaking and sobbing because I felt like I was being indirectly harassed and gossiped about behind my back and there was no way for me to defend myself. I spent nights talking to Chae and Ashley, crying and begging them to somehow tell the people involved to stop, that I couldn’t take it anymore. I had an emotional breakdown over this, like? And that is very telling of my mental health and my mental stability. And I still don’t feel like I’m okay. I need to take a step away from this platform for a little bit, for no one’s sake but my own.

I am not going to stop writing. Writing is such a therapeutic outlet for me, I enjoy making the ships that I do and I so very much enjoy writing with people and listening to them. So I’m going to post here my discord as well as my twitter rp accounts if anyone is into twitter rp. On these platforms, I’m able to be incredibly choosy with who I write with and I feel safe, if that makes any sense at all.

so this isn’t goodbye, but brb. I’ll be back eventually, I don’t know when. but when i do, those who don’t want to do discord or twitter, i’ll be happy to see you again :) i love you all so so so so much, okay?

Lucky.

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