— I was supposed to be drawing a DirkJake drawing but I didn't have time to do so. Take this doodle of Tom and older Tord. (It was supposed to be WTFuture Tom but I got lazy)

no touchy

being a transfem teen and being half in, half out of the closet, and most of the people who find you and comfort you are adults who only want to use you. its a special kind of fucked up that sticks to you like sweat or sugar and it doesnt wash off. i *wish* my experience was unique

I know it's not healthy to compare my work to others, but. Man. I feel like such an amateur compared to so many of the skilled people on online. Especially on Twitter.

I'm following so many skilled people, and some of them are even following me back! I feel such gratitude for it! But lately, when I post my stuff... I feel this sort of embarrassment...

Yknow that 2 cakes meme? It's good! But... even though I'm *technically* bringing a cake to the potluck, I can't help but feel like I've got one of the worst ones at the table...

Anyway sorry for venting, I'll delete this later. Just havin some 1 am imposter syndrome, yknow?

im the prettiest canary in this mine

I wish I wasn't scared of the basement late at night.... sucks. My work desk and all my supplies are down there...

it literally HAS to be okay to choose to be fat in order for fat liberation to mean anything at all tbh

sleeb time

polls reveal just how many people use tumblr without interacting with posts. these polls with 100k votes but 10k reblogs, if that... it's been obvious for a few years just how many people have come from other websites and refuse to learn how to use tumblr based on the reblog to like ratio skyrocketing in likes' favor (when reblogs used to be higher than likes on popular posts) but seeing these actual numbers revealed by polls (since few can resist voting on a poll) is crazy

Love how they used just a side view of the creek to minimize this. This is what the whole area looks like:

Here’s aerial footage:

https://twitter.com/NebPubMediaNews/status/1601676294638690304

Oh, and by the way, they said “barrels” because that sounds smaller since that’s over 500,000 gallons.

But it’s a “leak”. “...the affected segment being ‘isolated’ and the drip contained.” Just a liddle whoopsie doodle, tee hee. And of course there’s virtually no coverage on any news site. It’s already off the front page of The Guardian.

boybutch / girltwink

Shadow who knows fuck-all about how to hedgehog properly (only small bits from books) because he spent most of his time around humans and thus socializes more like a human.

Shadow who can't purr like all hedgehogs do because his vocal cords are a tad different (cuz alien genes) but who can actually produce a mean alien-ish growl.

Shadow whose teeth and claws are too sharp and whose quills are too tough to be like ones of a normal hedgehog.

Shadow who has heightened senses of smell and hearing and perfect eyesight, but most of the food tastes like slightly-flavored cardboard for him.

Shadow who isn't nocturnal but also not diurnal - he just sleeps whenever he's too exhausted to function.

The Ultimate Life Form but a very weird, fucked-up hedgehog.

i can regret the situation without regretting my choices. i would never take it back.

I choose to believe Hodgson said this after consuming the flesh of James Fitzjames

I really hate the idea that likes are useless or don't tell you anything. they tell you somebody liked your post! you did good and somebody liked it so they gave it a like! the constant cries of "only reblogs actually Do something" feels very… hmm, how do I phrase this?

it's rooted in a sort of warning that tumblr functions differently than other sites in that the number of likes on a post doesn't necessarily contribute to an algorithm that pushes forward certain content (algorithms which, tbh, create a weird sort of feedback loop in which content that is already popular becomes even more popular by getting boosted on the merits of already being popular, but I digress), and so reblogging is the only way to actually spread a post. likes don't make a post "breach containment."

but if likes are equivalent to "positive emotional response" and reblogs are equivalent to "exposure," then discouraging likes in favor of reblogs is discouraging enjoyment of your post in favor of promotion of your post. okay... why? to what end? if the only "correct" mode of engagement is an expanding fractal web of reblogs, and the point of a reblog is only to beget further reblogs... what's the goal?

you've deemed the like as an expression of pleasure useless, so it's kind of difficult to argue that "reblogging a post means they enjoyed it more than if they'd just simply liked it." the quantity of pleasure expressed doesn't matter if you've already devalued the concept of "expressing pleasure and doing nothing else." you can't earnestly say "expressing pleasure is important to me but only if it's accompanied by exposure." so your goal isn't for more people to delight in your content; it's for more people to see your content, and for each of them then to make even more people see your content in turn. and so on. infinitely. just sharing. just exposure.

is that how we got to this point wherein people are genuinely writing essays about how liking a post is actually a backhanded passive-aggressive insult? you think I click the little red heart because I hate you? the logic is so contorted. it relies on the assumption that everyone around you is operating in bad faith, that everyone's intentions are bad until proven good.

what a bitter, paranoid way to live.