Confession: I like imagining that the Illithids would hate it if you call them squidward, i don't know if it would lead to angry sex or not but it sure is a funny thought
So whatever you do, don’t end the final fight with Orpheus as a displacer beast because the game will decide TAV IS ILLITHID EVEN THOUGH IM VERY MUCH NOT and doesn’t recognize Orpheus being there. I started screaming HE’S RIGHT THERE LOOK. Got the illithid ending achievement and had to reload the save and I had cleared it on the first try and now of course it keeps going off the rails.
all i've been able to get off to for weeks since playing this game are fantasies of being nonconned by illithid. i keep thinking about being held down by tentacles and struggling so hard, only to be enthralled by their psionic powers, and everything in my mind is screaming no, no, but outwardly i'm melting into it and turning into a filthy whore begging for that tentacle multi-penetration...
Just another day thinking about how having sex with a mindflayer -The Emperor- must be the most intimate thing alive.
You bare everything you are with eachother.
Things probably you don't realise, have forgotten.
Things you only want to relinquish to them.
Secrets lost, words afraid, desires untouched, dreams unreached, shames bared, feelings unleashed all together in chaos.
Those ones knotted into a ball, unwound with a claw. Understood now. Overwhemling you in a way you think you'll bleed and burst, but in this moment, there's nothing more sublime beneath their jaw, and their instinct to devour you.
You.
The four tentacles of bliss smother you; cover you; your body, mind, heart. The trust a tether, a bloom between you. Monster (are you really) and you, whatever you think you are, it doesn't matter anymore.
i am at a point in Astarion's personal quest which like... I have to make a decision that me, as a human person, wouldn't make, but my character will need to if I'm going to keep Astarion around. realizing i'm having legit roleplay struggles, balancing everything. my character is literally just defined by, when do i need to lie to make sure everyone is still happy with me (while still trying to be a swarthy dickish bard to npcs). my character reeks of desperation, which actually fits really well with me (as a player) wanting to pursue the illithid powers, my character trying to seize power to manipulate people to their will.
what's amazing about the writing is the game actually takes this seriously. i actually feel like the game is forcing me to roleplay out a character rather than just saying "oh you're the player, so it will always turn out ok and your companions will stay with you"