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ickypuppi3 · 1 year

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be mine.

billy sighs. rests his forehead against the cool metal of his locker. tries to ignore the hum of people talking around him. holding hands. cuddling. it’s a shitty day. it’s a shitty day and billy knew it was going to be a shitty day before it even started.

he knew because he had been the one to say it. yesterday. to tell steve that they’re not- that billy doesn’t need to be treated like a fucking girl. that they’re just screwing around. that he doesn’t give a shit if steve wants to fuck someone else today.

that steve might as well go crawling back to wheeler because billy sure as shit can’t hold his hand or call him sweetheart in the hallways. that he gets enough heat at home without the whole of hawkins high knowing how much of a queer billy hargrove is.

and then billy had walked off. slammed the door behind him and gone home. had picked a fight with neil just to top it off.

all because he was scared.

is scared. scared of steve harrington with his preppy fuckin’ polos and dumb hair. his pretty eyes and pretty smile and ability to tilt billy’s world on its axis just by looking at him. scared that steve will get bored of him. that he’ll realise billy isn’t worth the effort.

scared.

billy sighs again. shuffles back slightly and glares down as he twists the lock. the door swings open and billy is halfway to grabbing the book he needs when something falls out. a scrap of paper. no bigger than the palm of his hand. a note.

it lands on billy’s boot.

he looks around. wonders who had felt brave enough- dumb enough to shove a note through billy’s locker on a day like today. he bends down. picks it up. reads the words in front of him.

quarry, 9.

there’s a little heart scribbled on the top right hand corner. billy traces the familiar writing with a thumb. feels that all too familiar feeling in his chest. he clenches his fist. hears the crinkle of paper as he does.

then he looks up again. into his locker. really looks, this time.

a pack of marlboro reds lay on top of his books. unopened. new.

next to those, something smaller. candy, billy realises. a sweetheart, specifically. the words kiss me etched in pink.

billy smiles. can’t help it, really. it’s restrained. barely there. just a small twitch of his lips but a smile nonetheless. his first smile of the day. credit to steve fuckin’ harrington and his inability to leave well alone.

billy smooths the note out. places it next to the reds. next to the heart. tries to tamp down on the butterflies swarming in his chest. he takes a deep breath before stuffing the cigarettes and note into his pocket.

his hand hovers over the sweetheart.

“hey.”

billy pulls his hand back. fast. as if he’d been burned. he looks to his left. locks eyes with the boy now standing next to him. feels his heart stutter. “hey.”

steve gives him a knowing smile. “good day?”

“no.” billy frowns. you already knew that. “pretty shitty actually.”

steve leans. folds his arms. “that bad, huh?”

better now that you’re here. billy swallows. turns away from steve. back to his locker. “did you want something, harrington?”

“nah, just..” steve smirks. reaches out. billy feels his breath hitch. steve’s smile gets wider. he flicks billy’s earring. once. before turning on his heel with a see you around thrown billy’s way.

a promise. something deeper to them but. casual. friendly to anyone watching.

billy watches him leave. wonders if steve might be okay with them having to do things differently. wonders if this might be enough for steve. for them. wonders if he could be enough for steve. hopes-

billy jumps when the bell rings.

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they meet up later. at the quarry like steve had said. neil under the assumption that billy’s seeing some girl. steve’s parents likely thinking the same.

billy feels as though a weight has been lifted as soon him and steve tumble into the back of the beemer. all cold hands and fumbling with belts. awkward limbs and steamed up windows. and billy lets it happen. lets himself be held. lets steve be sweet to him.

billy lets it happen. finds himself thinking that today might not be all bad. and that he might be more than a little bit in love with steve harrington. he pushes the second thought down. focuses on winding a hand into steve’s hair and sucking a mark into the soft skin just below his jaw, instead.

not all bad.

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later finds them huddled under a blanket in the back of steve's beemer. sharing a cigarette. marlboro. red. steve nudges billy after a few minutes. doesn't say anything just. nudges him. billy tilts his head to the side. gives steve a look. steve just looks down as his hand finds billy's under the blanket.

then he presses something small into the palm of billy’s hand.

billy raises an eyebrow in question but steve’s already looking away. staring out into the night. cigarette glowing in the dark. billy rolls his eyes. wiggles his arm free and holds the object up to the window to get a better look.

be mine.

he laughs. loudly. tries to hide the racing of his heart. calls steve a fuckin' cheese. and a sweetheart. waits until steve turns to face him again before pressing the candy to steve's lips and pulling him in to exchange kisses that are almost too soft. too sweet for whatever this is. whatever they agreed for this to be.

steve pulls back first. whispers against billy’s lips “hey, baby?”

“yeah?”

“happy valentine’s day.”

“…yeah.”

almost.

steve grins and reaches out to play with one of billy’s curls. billy laces their fingers together under the blanket.

or maybe it’s just right.

#billy ‘i’m too hard to love’ hargrove and steve ‘i’m literally so in love with you’ harrington #the queers are queering #billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #my words #i was thinking of those love heart sweets we have here and found out sweethearts are a thing so here we are #i haven’t done my research so idk if they were a thing then but i assume they were #so #suspend your disbelief if you must #anyway #i think it’s fun to imagine steve’s biggest gripe being his sexuality crisis at the begging of them hooking up #but once that’s out of the way he’s just got billy on the brain #but billy’s problems come later when he has to be like #vunerable with his emotions #and he immediately tries to build the walls he knocked down back up #because it’s safer that way #but steve just won’t have any of it #yeah that #also he feels bad because steve can’t be all steve with him in public and it’s like #a thing #but steve finds ways to work around it

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significant-ace-nnoyance · 4 months

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"leah is playing annabeth like an centuries old being in a 12 year old body haha" NO. ANNABETH CHASE THE CHARACTER IS PROJECTING AN EXTERIOR PERSONA OF 1000 YEARS WORTH OF CONFIDENCE AND BOTTLING UP HER INSECURE TRAUMATIZED 12 YEAR OLD SELF INSIDE AND YOU ARE ALL FALLING FOR HER INTENTIONALLY CRAFTED TRAUMA RESPONSE FACADE

#shes literally trying to make everyone aroun d her think she doesnt need the help or affection that a child her age deserves #because she believes its easier and safer for her emotionally to do everything herself #AND YOUARE ALL FALLING FOR IT #NO. STOP. SHE IS A CHILD #SHE IS A TALENTED CHILD #BUT WHY ARE YOU NOT GIIVNG HER THE SAME EMPATHY AND UNDERSTANDING AS PERCY SHE IS JUST AS CLUELESS AND SMOL #JUST IN A DIFFERENT WAY #AND SHE HAS PRACTICE NOT SHOWING IT #BECASUE SHE DIDNT HAVE A SALLY TELLING HER IT WOULD ALL BE OKAY #sorry i just HAD to say something i cannot take it when people slightly misunderstand my favs #and leah ofc is playing the multi layered character of leah playing annabeth playing Strong and Confident annabeth with ABSOLUTE PERFECTION #annabeth chase #leah sava jeffries #percy jackson #pjo <3

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elizabethemerald · 1 year

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DP X DC Prompt: The New King's Fright Knight

Clockwork tells the newly crowned High King Phantom that he needs to name a Fright Knight to serve and protect him. The title comes with responsibilities and benefits. The Fright Knight must defend the King and fight challenges by the King's side. If a challenger can't defeat the King's Fright Knight than they have no right to challenge the King.

Among the benefits of the Title are a custom weapon that can take any form the Knight desires and is capable of sending any injured by the weapon to a dimension under the Knight's control and design. It could be a realm of nightmares or a realm of cotton candy, or anything in between as the Knight desires.

Danny, of course, being some what infamous for saying the first thing on his mind immediately blurts out a name when Clockwork asks him to think of the person who makes him feel the safest.

The newly named Fright Knight gets immediately summoned into the Ghost Zones to be offered the job, no matter where they were or what they were doing.

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cock-holliday · 4 months

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While I do think the internet has the unique opportunity to amplify brain-poisoning, I wish discourse wasn’t so heavily split into “online vs irl” when it’s much more an issue of…exclusionary politics and idpol hierarchy brainrot.

“This doesn’t happen offline” the problem is, it does. Because people who captain themselves the arbiter of validity on tumblr dot org are possibly also going to be a self-righteous dorkass at your DEI training, or when organizing lesbian night at the bar, or being president of a queer org on campus, or running LGBT orgs people rely on for survival. Many of the most exclusionary queer spaces were made offline first. Offline spaces organized by young folks from online spaces with no grasp of offline history are going to be just as rife with “terminally online” takes as any website.

Your local steel mill line is both likely to be violently homophobic out of bigoted ignorance AND supremely immune to microidentity politics because it means absolutely nothing to Joe Factory, who will shrug and go “hey man whatever makes you happy.”

Your liberal arts college is both likely to be aware of the niche politics of queer identity and will have heard of and be welcoming to your set of neopronouns AND will find new and cruel ways to be bigoted while smiling in your face because their flavor of queer is celebrated by the city mayor and so LGBT-phobia (please don’t say q***r) ended with marriage equality.

LGBT community that refuses intersectional lenses will always be rife with bigotry, both directed at minorities within this space and indirectly hitting people they think belong (ie assigning masculinity to Black queer women due to racism but then also exhibiting butchphobia/antimasculism at all masculine women, man-hating directed at cis men to “punch up” being weaponized against trans folks, etc)

Cishet society is still not safe for LGBT people, but has gotten better in some areas and worse in others as visibility has increased. Which means micro-infighting potentially is a non-issue in a space that is tolerant to other (more visible) forms of queerness, AND if there is a problem there with family friendly gays and lesbians then they will absolutely take issue with polyam genderfluid aces.

“In real life” has near nothing to do with it. If your space, online or in real life, is neither radically intentionally inclusive or tolerantly indifferent it’s gonna be bigoted—intentionally or not, queer or not.

#LJsm #‘this doesn’t happen irl’#elder trans woman at the potluck called herself transsexual and young trans guys pitched a fit #elder trans man at a picnic asked why bother with bottom surgeries that weren’t phallo since #‘everyone’s goal is to look cis’#he got chewed out by younger trans guys #went to a lesbian night at a bar that flipped shit over bisexuals being there #know a trans woman who speaks at terf events shitting on trans people #also idk if people forgot but you can still very much get murdered irl #like online has so many issues but that doesn’t make offline easy either—especially for folks who cannot even be out as mainstream queers #and none of this is to say ‘oh online is way safer than offline’#just that the split is misleading because it has less to do with where the space is and more what are the values/goals/tone of the space

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transvarmint · 1 month

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Being a woman does not make you immune to being misogynistic, nor does it make you any less prone to being misogynistic.

You are not less misogynistic by virtue of being a woman. You are not any less capable of perpetrating it.

To believe that being a woman in and of itself makes you less likely to be misogynistic is just essentialism. It implies that other genders are more misogynistic solely only the basis of their gender, rather than being misogynistic based on the choices they actively make.

To not be misogynistic, you must actively choose to fight against it, everyday. You must actively make choices that challenges systemic and social misogyny. You must question your own biases and how they influence your behavior.

You cannot be passively anti-misogyny. Your gender does not give you a free pass.

And importantly, women can absolutely perpetuate misogyny against other women, AND people who are not women. So you must be checking yourself for misogynistic bias in ALL interactions.

*** Before anyone comes at me, YES this applies to men and all genders as well. No, I'm not blaming women for systemic misogyny. I'm simply pointing out that everyone plays a role in it. Women are capable of perpetuating bigotry, especially if there are other intersections at play. Women are not perfect victims, they are human beings who have autonomy, and that autonomy includes the capability to uphold harmful institutions. ***

*** Also yes, experiencing misogyny on a daily basis will cause you to have a different relationship to it. Some folks respond to that by fighting against misogyny, but others respond to that trauma by continuing the cycle of abuse. This is just a fact. ***

#transandrophobia #won't be remotely surprised if we get harassment and death threats over this one #but we're gonna try to stick to our guns here #because it needs to be fucking said #trans women deserve to speak about the way cis women enact [trans]misogynystic violence on them #and transmascs deserve to speak about the way cis women enact transphobic + misogynystic (transandrophobic) violence on us #sorry not sorry!#this is why I don't think women only or 'no men' spaces are inherently safer for women #in fact it often just creates an environment where more marginalized women are targeted under the guise of creating a 'safe space'#not to mention fucking over anyone who has a complicated gender or doesn't pass or is closeted etc #like this is the entire conceit of rad/fem shit #the idea that women are inherently safer or inherently less capable of perpetuating harm #on the basis of their victimhood under the patriarchy

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zedif-y · 29 days

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"wow the emotions in this feel so REAL" thanks i yanked that out from my ribcage for the world to see

#ryan's screaming #this isnt in a bad way btw . its just. gestures . you know #visceral writing can come from a really personal place and ive been feeling that a lot lately.#art and creation really is about baring your soul to the world and it's honestly a little terrifying #like yeah. yeah this is what hurts me this is what makes me tick and this is what keeps me going. this is my heart. i hope you enjoy.#and for fanfic its under a lens of a fictional character so its like.#safer to put out there but in the end their hurts are my hurts because i wrote the words in my blood. or something .#i cant say shit normally LKSJDGHKJSDHG anyway writers u get it i think. hope this makes sense

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wr-n · 1 month

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GOD i love dustard,,,,, GOD,,,,, yeah,,, yeag,,,,

they're just,,, SO GOOD i cant even,,,,

#i think that the way they look at each other post genocide route is so complicated and exciting #because classic had always been the one to soften fell from how tense his world had made him #gave him a reason to hope for a brighter future #and to suddenly find your lover CHANGED in such a deep way is very jarring #id imagine its the same kind of shock value as finding out that Killer in Underverse is an alternate timeline Classic #but also now that Dust is far more unstable than fell is fell is left to pick up the pieces and finds himself in a strange position #now HE has to function as a buffer for Dust #i said this already in a distant similar post but GOD i LOVE fell trying to draw out his Classic from inside Dust #and maybe it works to slowly guide Dust into safer waters #wraith notes #dust sans #fell sans

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kingkatsuki · 10 months

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Does anyone else think about breaking up with their self-ships? Like scenarios for when, how or why it might happen and for how long. Whether you remain friends or cut each other off completely, and if fate will bring you back together later?

#I’ve just been having a lot of thoughts about this lately #like breaking up with Bakugou because things aren’t working no matter how hard we try #conflicting work schedules paired with external factors trying to pull us apart #he thinks I’m safer— better without him #and there’s nothing that can change his mind #so we go our separate ways and it’s hard esp when we share the same friends #having to be together at gatherings when you’re not really together #and it hurts #maybe we both try other relationships but it’s not the same #and maybe it’s years until we rekindle #but somehow the love is still there and it’s just as strong #idk the falling in love again trope hits so hard I love it #like just knowing there’s no one else in this world for you?#and even though years have passed you still find each other

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beanghostprincess · 3 months

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when dragon gave him to garp he expected luffy to have a similar upbringing to dragon: with garp maybe not winning the (grand)father of the year award but still being a loving (grand)parent, living near a navy base and maybe some training and going to fight wild animals at dawn island's jungle during vacations (family tradition going back multiple generations) but the child wouldn't be essentially abandoned and left to fend for himself

meanwhile garp was like "hmm, my son went off to start a rebellion, maybe i was too involved and not harsh enough on him?" and proceeded to do the whole "leave two kids with bandits and hope they're good marines in the future" thing,

I know he's very silly and tbh I actually love him as a character, I enjoy him a lot and I adore some relationships he has during the manga. I'm very fond of him. But his way of raising the kids was so fucked up and so so wrong and negligent and it makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs because,, What ASL needed was a home and a normal family or, well, at least a family. They're so full of love they end up making a family for themselves. And then you wonder why Luffy has so many abandonment issues, Ace kept doubting if he should've been born, and Sabo turns every little thing that happens into his responsibility. It's just so-- I don't know. Garp should've known better. But I think he knows he should've known better. At least I think he's aware that he fucked up big time.

#i understand also why he wanted them to be marines because although it's a fucked up job they'd be safer that way #and i understand garp but damn dude could've gone softer on the kids #i talk a lot of shit about garp but i think he already tortures himself enough with this #it still makes me mad though #one piece #monkey d. garp #asl brothers

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t4transsexual · 27 days

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Out of curiosity- what's the weirdest thing another trans person has told you regarding transhetness?

probably the most offensive one has to be that time someone said i would never have to worry that people wont accept my sexuality. because in my life that has not been the case lmao. like i am still TRANS so generally someone who doesnt accept homosexuality isnt gonna be thrilled with trans ppl either, like those kinds of people who are homophobic but not transphobic really only exist in terfs brains lol

and the least personally offensive one would have to be that one person who said "you cant be straight as a trans person, this push for sameness is really hurting our community" like damn rly didnt think i was gonna get called an assimmilist for like, being a heterosexual lmao my bad

also im not straight passing irl either, but i am cis passing, so whenever i bring up that im dating a girl i get to visibly watch the gears turn in peoples heads as they try to figure out how this little gay boy fucks women which is always fun

i think generally a lot of weirdness i get probably comes from the fact that for one, a lot of people view queerness and gayness as the same, and queerness and heterosexuality as opposites, and especially people in my specific generation (older gen z) and especially the cis people/recently cracked eggs rly have put emphasis on "gayness" and "being gay" and take on "being gay" as the same meaning as being queer, so when they meet someone who is queer but is explicitly NOT gay (and this is more than transhet people, this can be anyone who is queer but doesnt identify as gay, including same gender attracted people of all sorts of sexualities/genders), they really dont know what to do with us, and for two im southern and live in the south and people here are not usually very imformed about different flavors of queerness and for some people im lucky if i get them to understand that im trans at all, let alone telling them im a heterosexual, because im not exaggerating when i tell you that pretty much everyone expects me to be gay no matter the fact that i have a girlfriend and havent dated a man since 2021 lol

and heres a photo of me close up if that helps you understand why everyone thinks im gay (i really dont get it myself but)

#straight yapping on this one lol #also to be clear #i dont actually get mad at people who assume im gay #and as a cis passing trans man im happy that i still at least trigger the gaydar #and being preceived as a cis gay man is way safer than being preceived as a trans man of any sexuality #but also if me triggering the gaydar for some reason #makes me appear safer to people who need it #like other trans/queer people #then like im fine w that #however when i tell you im not gay and im straight #and that i dont want to be called gay because its invalidating to my sexuality #and this is important to me bc i spent so much of my life #experiencing extreme comphet #and i still had to overcome that #it was NOT easier to accept i dont like men now that im a man #in fact in my experience i was kinda scared to be a straight trans man #so that's why i really feel strongly about it #trans #t4t #transhet #st4t #t4t mlw #t4t wlm #trans man #transgender

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anendoandfriendo · 4 months

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PPL WHO HAVE NEVER SEEN SNOW BEFORE HERE IS ONE TIP FOR TRAVEL IF IT IS SNOWING OUTSIDE A LOT SINCE THERE'S ALWAYS NEW PPL WHO DO THIS:

❄️❄️ UNLESS YOU ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY MUST. DON'T. ❄️❄️

We don't care if it's just groceries. Get that shit delivered. It is going to be late but it will get to your home. Your car appointment is probably okay to be rescheduled. That's better than your car being smashed because you traveled in snow. If that doctor appointment being delayed won't literally kill you then delay it.

Seriously.

Do not fuck with the snow.

#sure there are ways to drive in it. we won't be sharing them because YOU DO NOT FUCK WITH SNOW AND ICE.#Your drivers ed folks are/were right on this one we promise.#if someone else wants to be our guest #we might renlog it who knows!#but it's literally just safer to be inside if your job is not driving #at the risk of doxxing ourselves. that weather alert has been extended TWICE now which is ins*ne #and another addition here: the only time we have ever gotten clipped by a semi has been in the winter on ice.

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mueritos · 1 year

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an assortment of musings and scribbles...been listening to a lot of blood girl (the first drawing is based off blood girl lyrics), mormor, and moses sumney. been thinking and thinking and thinking....will be back to posting normie and sane shit soon

(last pic is a baby picture of my twin @fatsmyname and i)

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#muertodraws #digital art #trans art #queer art #introspective art #unless u guys like my introspective art #i feel its a tad different from what i usually do #the last one is me and my twin as babies #ive been going thru a lot to say the least #things have settled now but my brain has a chokehold on me unfortunately #and it will never stop analyzing the hierarchies and dynamics that have been launched at me #the burdens and the baggage of others to carry....#thanks a lot im already a trans faggot raised by mexican immigrants now i have to shoulder how white people have hurt me #and i have to shoulder how their hurt will forever be examined by myself and never by the people who committed that harm #because they would absolutely destroy themselves before taking accountability #sigh #anyway #all of my friends are brown now and thank fuck #if ur interested in my art i have been posting more regularly on my patreon #been talking to more indigenous and brown people and i feel way more safer and understood by them #spending time with my boyfriend as well #im still in therapy....yea...

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wereshrew-admirer · 6 months

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conflicting desires for lyke and duvall in sangfielle season 2:

-duvall low-key resenting lyke over the chine thing

-lyke high-key resenting duvall over the oratorio thing and EXPECTING duvall to resent him over chine but instead it's the same one-sided tension that they had on the jade moon

i want them to be involuntary friends. I want it to look like a huge 8ft tall straight* guy calling his obviously gay best friend a wretched bitch and everyone is a little uncomfortable about it except for duvall, who may or may not be behind lyke's bizarrely bad luck when it comes to flies landing in his drinks.

(*i don't think lyke is straight but i do think he's the type of bisexual man that people assume is straight)

#broken record voice #i don't often have trans headcanons actually but sangfielle is an exception...#to me the blackwick group is T4TvsT4TvsT+ marn #lyke is joyfully trans - he's 8 ft tall because he went overboard with the transition magic #pickman and duvall are both stealth because they grew up in oppressive societies #pickman is deeply uncomfortable how vulnerable it makes her feel - she doesn't exactly hide it but will kill u for mentioning it #duvall does hide it but only because he's been hate crimed #until sapodilla - after which he receives the most idealized form of instant-srs from the bugs that his gender euphoria sky rockets #and he doesn't tell anyone exactly but everyone in the blackwick group clocks him on the change #pickman hates it and thinks he doesn't deserve such an easy out #lyke wouldprobably be happy for him if he wasn't pissed over the oratorio #es is the most well adjusted and is privately very happy for him but polite enough not to mention it #chine is trans but in the “this animal does not experience human gender and it's inappropriate to even try to make sense of it” way #chine is also the only one who has seen duvall in every stage of transition and has been enthusiastically supportive the whole time #marn is cis but if any of them hadn't already transitioned then she'd be trying to treat it like a curse to be cured.#i think pickman has had the most traditional medical transition because she distrusts magic - until she meets marn who absolutely #already has a recipe for an hrt-charm and gives one to her #duvall did some sort of terrible black-market medical transition in aldomina - the kind where he had to lie to ten thousand therapists #to convince them that he was actually a straight man and so he should be allowed to transition because a straight trans guy is safer #to society than a lesbian?? that type of horrorshow. meanwhile he's exclusively mlm (or as exclusive as he can be while fucking chine)#which pickman would have respected because to be trans is to suffer for it but nooo instead she didn't even know he was trans until the bug #transition #es is just chill. duvall eventually got a magical bug transition? well es is the magical bug for syntyche #sorry this went way off topic #i am avoiding going to work can you tell? woops #this was all to basically say that i think it'd be funny if #before the bug transition duvall low-key resented lyke for having been able to access magic transition. some guys have all the luck

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bandtrees · 6 months

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iv been doing a lot of ddadds reminiscing lately. that game is very very close to my heart and has been for years - it's kind of surreal to return to the fancontent i made for it having grown a bit, and seeing precisely why i latched onto mary as a character as much as i did. (hmm, the guy who'd just gotten out of a bad relationship and was also an unknowing aroace latched onto the character with relationship troubles and conflicts about presenting as someone in love, who would've thought?) (also she's autistic) (i'll still fight people on this)

mary still continues to be one of my favorite characters of all time - and i still have dream daddy to thank for a lot. it's just such a genuinely warm and sweet and funny game. it's got such a kind and lackadaisical approach to adulthood that spoke to and continues to speak to me a lot as someone kind of terrified of growing up, in a lot of ways. and despite being such a silly game, joseph's ideals of the "margarita zone" spoke to me way more than i care to admit.

i wonder if the people i'd shared ddadds servers with and the like, way back in 2019, are doing well. i wonder if the old friend i did that batshit insane mary-damien cult ending rp with that read like a damn slasher film remembers it at all. i hope the people i talked about my ocs with are doing well. i hope the mary rper i lurked on the blog of is doing well. i hope the person who made the official character spotify playlist knows how much they shaped my music taste and how much i listen to them to this day. i hope the developers of this game know it's more than a silly gimmick dating sim that was popular for a year to people. (i hope they know how much damn gender euphoria it gives me lol)

i'm a huge sap with my fandoms in general. but dream daddy's such a spot of comfort for me even now. i still think about it, and maybe one day i'll properly revisit it. and i know i'm going to be so insufferable about it when i do. my own special little margarita zone.

#babbles #ddadds #dream daddy #dream daddy a dad dating simulator #mary christiansen #comfort characters #its so funny to reread on the rocks (my old robert/mary postdivorce fic)#not because im embarrassed of it or anything but the recurring themes in it in retrospect #of love and romance being a scary evil construct and its so much safer and happier to just be close with your friends and not worry about #defining it...#Bestie you were talking about a qpr. You're aromantic.#its the most 'the author of this hasnt realized theyr aro' fic ever. i love it so genuinely #i was cooking though MORE FRIENDS TO LOVERS ROBERT AND MARY PLEASE GOD. THEY ARE SO BI4BI IS ANYONE HEARING ME #this is kind of embarrassing to post but i would rather be full of love and cringe than have people not know how much i love things #INCLUDING the silly dad dating sim from 2017.#that i still hold to people being way too hard on etc etc but you could figure that by how much i sing its praises haha

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novelconcepts · 2 months

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Being married to someone who also wears glasses, but doesn’t need them HALF as much as I do is wild. Like she’ll just take off her glasses and hand them to me for cleaning. While. She is driving. If I do that? Congrats, I’ve killed us both before the next cross street. With glasses off, my world is shapey blobs of color. I haven’t been able to make sense of distance objects since I was like ten. She? Is fine! (But I’m still instinctively clutching the dashboard in a panic.)

Similarly, she’ll be talking about something in the new shower, and I’ll just be nodding sagely along. And then, five minutes into this convo, she realizes: “You can’t see in the shower, can you?” No. No, my love. I certainly cannot. Saved me SO much stress immediately after surgery, I can tell you. Couldn’t have told you WHAT my incision situation looked like. Also might as well be doing the whole thing with my eyes shut, but y’know. We take what we can get.

#my wife #true hilarity #I did wear contacts for a number of years because it was a safer way to play basketball than uh. it could have been #but then they stopped letting me on teams because I was famously only interested in ball handling if no one came near me #and it turns out no one wants a point guard who is terrified to leave the bench #and then I started taking an insane number of naps with contacts IN which. fun fact. don’t do that.#anyway. all that said. love a pair of glasses. means I don’t die within moments of leaving my bed each morning #but her being able to just get ready and nearly forget hers altogether? what a world she occupies. I love her.

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the finale was very powerful, and the moment-to-moment was superb. still, i still can't shake the feeling that rasputin got done dirty in the grand scheme of things. i've been playing and following the lore since the D1 beta, and the idea that one day we'd get to see the warmind(...s at the time,) play a major role in the story was the most exciting prospect ever. yet, despite /technically/ having multiple seasons and an expansion, his arc played on a loop... only breaking it right before dying.

I agree! I think this all could've played out pretty much the same without outright killing him. Obviously the proper sacrifice makes a bigger impact, but I genuinely feel like it would've been the same if he just lost his Warmind powers and was stuck being just an Exo for the rest of his life.

One issue that I have is that this is the second time we've built him up only for him to eventually die after making a grand gesture. In Worthy, we built him up and then he got shut down immediately after, which led to him being gone from the story for three years.

Then we had a story of building him up and then he dies immediately after. It feels like a repeat. There's obviously differences, especially with us actually being able to interact with him this season and learning so much more about him and our past and his actions that had so much influence. But at the end of the day, he died and his story is over before we really got a chance to experience him as a character.

I really would've preferred if he got a chance to be a person after spending so long trying to attain personhood. Again, obviously it's more of an impact if his sacrifice is complete instead of him just giving up the power he has but still being able to walk around and live, but you know. A part of it feels like Bungie really wants to wrap up some of the plots, permanently, and limit the amount of characters we have left to follow. Which is also just how narratives work when we near the end, but people are reasonably upset that Rasputin is the one that had to be on the receiving end, mostly because of how incomplete his story has been right up until he was about to die.

I guess there's always hope that he can be rezed, especially after doing the Guardian thing about sacrifice, but I doubt they'll be bringing him back. This definitely felt like a goodbye to him.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of the seraph spoilers #rasputin #ask #i feel like rasputin to bungie is like. a 'safe' character to kill #it's impactful and a devastating blow to our defenses but he's an AI #obviously he's more than that but at its core this is safer than killing someone like zavala #also rasputin may have a dedicated fanbase but that fanbase isn't on the same scale as any other #also ofc rasputin IS a character that always protected humanity. that is his core. so if he had to take a bullet for us he would #in that way it makes sense for him to do this. its not out of character #but its frustrating! because it could've definitely been written without killing him for good #i completely understand people being upset

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