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thinking about tfem4tfem davekat
#dave would realize 1st#Karkat would take while cause like years of repression (“didnt need another target on my back”)#like so repressed forgot they were likedysphoric cause it just one other thing in the high stress cluster that is kars life until after s#after sburb#idk dave is some kinda of fem-gender leaning nonbinary#karkat is hmm well they thought they were binary when they were younger but has spent so long like pseudo closeted they grew kind of#attached maybe theyre not sure#definitely an all pronouns gal#atleast for a little while#thoughts#< both organization tag and call to action
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valentine, you're a horse ❤️
#my little pony#mlp g3#wish-I-may#wish-I-might#ok so. I'm gonna ramble for a sec#normally when I post on valentine's day I complain in the tags about being single. but I won't this year!#I've recently realized I'm definitely somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. and that I'm perfectly content without a partner#in the past I've described myself as 'emotionally unavailable' or having 'commitment issues' but neither of those things were ever true#I'm a very loving and loyal person!#I've always been extremely affectionate with friends and family but unable to have the same level of love for potential partners#unsure if I'm just demisexual/demiromantic or actually aroace but I'm definitely not the default settings type of gay lol#I'm a big fan of romance and sex in fiction! but irl? 😅😬 idk about that fam! idk!#hypothetically I would like to have a gf one day and maybe fall in love but now I understand why that may not happen#or atleast is gonna take a while. and that's fine :)#tldr; if your top song on spotify last year was Cupid by Fifty Fifty it's time to do some soul searching lol#happy valentine's day!! 💕
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the way u draw toby gives me sm life. truly the silliest i wanna kiss him on the forehead frfr!!! i hope you’ve been having a good month :3
daww u shouldn't have
#but tysm!#genuinely <33#tbh this month has been a lil rocky but i feel rly lucky that i can just log onto this silly little app and be happy for atleast a lil while#thxz for going out of ur way to send me this <3#made my day#my art#creepypasta fandom#creepypasta#creepypasta fanart#fanart#slenderverse#ticci toby#ticci toby hc#ticci toby x reader#ticci toby headcanons#ticcy toby#ticci toby fanart
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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.
#jrwi show#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying#nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess#ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so#i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair#both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home#but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again#not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO#i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED#all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis#but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum#and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it#youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes#BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply
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I don't mind giving a lil sneak peak since I've already shared my sketches on my IG stories so here's a pinkie pie redesign :D
(+ some rambling in the tags)
#Yes I gave her dreadlocks. Atleast tried#Mads says i should make them puffier to fit Pinkie's big hair vibe and she's not wronG- so I might change it#I just love people's take on her human design and make her black- that's something that makes me incredibly happy for some reason#ANYWAY HER#Fun fact : I used to run around YouTube as an MLP speedpaint person named RainFly Production a WHILE ago#That channel still exists#But I've gotten rid of most of the old videos on there#BUT YEAH#Used to be an MLP artist 👌#my art#doodle#my little pony#mlp fim#mlp#pinkie pie#mlp redesign#pinkie pie redesign
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the besties!
them!
alt barnaby that i didn't have the heart to discard
#saying i am back to my bullshit would imply that i ever come off my bullshit#ruminated for a while on these ones#wally is inspired by parrots squirrels and my little pony a little bit#barnaby is straight up a ram dragon dog combo#they are so far the only ones with actual people items and there is a reason for that in my mind#headcanon that barnaby breathes colourful smoke and wally can do a sonic thing like a thunderdrum that can shatter things#cause parrots are Loud#also yes wally does have fucked up parrot feet :D#couldn't incorporate the soles hearts because of it but there is a sneaky white one on the chest so i count that as a win#wh dragon au#welcome home#welcome home au#wally darling#barnaby b beagle#my art#finally more or less pinned down the hight chart so far atleast until i do eddie and have to balance him between barnaby and frank#without making frank too damn tall#almost the whole beta gang is here#poppy is almost here her design is done she just doesn't have a render yet
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Finally time to start prepping for the finals and sorry for the vent but omfg
The timetable has completely fucked me over and Law class has gone from rude and unaccommodating (scoffed in my face when I had to take a day off for my BROTHER'S WEDDING) to just straight up impossible
This is maddening
#I just#sorry for the vent#but jesus fucking christ I hate this stupid fucking university#my art#me#vent#furry#fursona#furry art#I'm genuinely good at understanding concepts and shit#but memorisation has always been a weakness of mine to the point of neurology referrals#and apparently they decided that that should count for 50% of my grade#I may not be as active as I'd like to be on here for a while#jesus fucking christ#god I hope next semester is atleast a little better than this#university vent#university stress#tw university stress
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Im soooooo hungry i neeed.... gaming trivia. tO live 😺
i mostly just have TF2 trivia, as its history has always been something ive always been fascinated with, so i hope these suffice:
The Pyro's Beta Head: While 8 of the 9 classes had their heads redone throughout development (to better show off Valve's new facial flex system), only the Pyro was left untouched, leaving them as the only class to still have their beta head.
Reference Posing Medics: In "Trailer 2", there are two Medics who are in their reference pose, during the first-person sequence of the Scout running through RED's base. While their role isn't clear, one likely theory is that they were meant to be camera positions for shots that were ultimately removed, in favour of the Scouts perspective, and Valve just forgot to remove or hide them. The second Medic even turns to look at the Scout as he runs by, maybe further proving their original purpose.
The Teaser Corkboard: While we don't have a clear idea as to what Valve had been planning with the "Teaser Corkboard", one likely theory is that it was created for the proposed update that would've included both Asteroid and Cactus Canyon, due to the few mentions of "Future", the blueprint of the rocket engine from Half Life 2 Episode 2, and Poopy Joe. Also worth noting, the two posters that were added with the corkboard share similar styles Asteroid and Cactus Canyon.
The Balls of Steel Taunt: Originally, The Love & War update was meant to include a lot more taunts than what ultimately shipped. One of the few to get scrapped is a taunt called "Balls of Steel", where the initiator would dare other players to kick them in the groin. While we don't have footage of this taunt, we do have voiceline files that reference the taunt's intention, as well as the name. The few files that remain were reused for other contexts, such as the Soldiers Conga taunt, where his "Ooh!" and "Ahh!" lines were originally his pain sounds for the taunt.
#ask#anon#im a little late to respond to this. so i hope you didnt starve anon#if you did. whoopsies. uh oh. oh well anyway#i didnt want this to be too long so i left it to just 4 trivia pieces#was gonna answer this earlier but my phone died of low battery. so instead i took the time to get images for all the bulletpoints#i'm still kinda sad thinking about Asteroid and Cactus Canyon#also ik the blue poster isnt as clear to Asteroid. but to me it lines up more with the maps original idea of being a moonbase#and said poster has the moon.... i know. grasping for straws.#also for those interested. the corkboard deciphers to ''be sure to drink your jarute/jarbate''#its unclear if the mispelling is intentional or accidental. given how the spellbook pages translate weirdly#theres also the red herring on the corkboard itself. maybe as a way for valve to have a way out if development doesnt go as planned#thats just my interpretation of it atleast. the corkboard was added in december of 2013 iirc.#while Asteroid was teased in April. and later released as a beta map a few months later with Cactus Canyon#anyway thats all my brain could muster for trivia#i havent thought about this kind of stuff in a long time. so searching through the file cabinet in my brain is a little tough#i hope these were interesting. or were new information to people#thank you for your ask anon!
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I AGREE its so crazy how zap gags weren't a thing.... like TTCC really popped off with that one! i understand TTR is moreso sticking closer to the way TTO was but WOW zap just feels so natural with a REALLY good mechanic that uses strategy in using squirt and its just so good.... also my favorite track
YEEEPP!! That's how I feel about it. Squirt and zap just mix well together. I also think the addition of an 8th gag track was also a good move, allowing for a nice rotation of combinations (like how lure-trap and throw-drop are together as a combo). And also its a nice even number. I also think it helps utilize squirt, idk just feels good to do in general. Of course, I don't really have anything to compare this to and it's just me speaking as a player of (currently) one server, so take what I say with a grain of salt.
It's my favorite too, zap warriors UNITE!!
#clemask#clemramble#this is also not me hating on tt r either#actually i probably dont have to space that out because this is going to appear in word search anyways but still#i know sometimes there's a little bit of competition (is that what youd call it)? between the two servers. i want it to be stated that#i do not care about server comp. play what you want. who cares. i think both servers have their pros and cons and finding value in what YOU#like is more important than which one is the “”best“”. I think TR does an amazing job of taking TTO and transforming it into something more#while also staying true to the original game. i love the fact it brings some of the old concepts that were originally scrapped or lost#i also like the toon events that they have. like there was the halloween one and if i believe correctly it had a parade in it?#SUPPPERR COOL. i shouldve atleast played a little during that time just to experience it. but to be fair during the school year my#playing in general is toned down a lot. im sure everyone reading this knows how it is#and obviously i like ttcc. it has mac and winn. i mean what who said that.theres a ghost in here....#and i can understand why people like or dont like each server. they all have pros and cons. but to me its like the two cakes image#sorry i felt the need to clarify bc i know im kindof exclusively a ttcc guy and me going 'ummmm well tt r doesnt have zap' might sound#like im hashtag hating but im not. tt r is awesome ok. i need to try it out one day.#i just really like zap as a gag. like anon stated i think it just really feels natural to the game#that water electric combo does wonders
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It took
SEVENTY EIGHT
Tickets to get this guy
And I'm a new player
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This worries me.
#is this what playing a hoyoverse gacha game is like#the obscene amount of luck needed to get a character is#just wow#out of all the gacha games ive played this one worries me the most#but lets just see where this goes#and atleast i got him#so i wont hv to worry about hving a strong dps for a while#yanqing is good#but dan heng is better#sorry little man#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr dan heng#dan heng
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i swear theres something that being in less than ideal circumstances does to your writing
#sodaramblestoomuch#nothing like being up 3-4:30am about to vomit and deciding i should atleast get some writing down while i was there#anyways it was good writing#halfway decent#i like it even if its a little rough#cw vomit mention
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I'm out of the hospital, turns out I have some kind of emotional trauma that's making my body try to suffocate itself, honestly same but what a bitch way to do it. Making it so I can barely breathe but I still have 99% oxygen and my vitals are good. Fuckin' hell dude. Anyways wish me luck in figuring that out, didn't make a lot of progress crying in the parking lol at 4am while waiting for an Uber after the news that my mind and body have disconnected or something, but check the bracelet swag
Nice
#hell yeah#im going to explode#literally i was so chill#i do get stressed at work but i love my job#i had a really bad dating experience the month before but that's not it i think#i was waiting for my uber home while still suffocating and some random dude started playing music#i have no idea what the lyrics were#i dont even think it was English#but i was thinking about how frustrated i was and i felt my face get wet#just uncontrollable tears#4 minutes straight of crying#head looking up and wiping away every few seconds#paused so my driver didn't see me sobing but they did here me sniffing and trying yo breathe. not the best look#got upstairs and home#picked up a back of nerd candy and i fell apart#ive been chill for atleast a week#yeah i couldn't breathe but nothing came up#alll of this to say...#it was April 2nd#and unless my bodys a prankster#the only other thing from today was the end of the boop#i miss the boop so much#not it but holy shit it brings a little silly smile#boop
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Would you mind if I asked you about your OC Ner Wanless? I'm a bit curious about what could possibly drive him so far down that Caine would raise his blade at him 🕺🕺🕺 Had he left the Shepherds by then? Did he become a vigilante? Where are the other Shepherds (Blade, Chase, etc.), and if they were still around and not, you know, Dead, had they cut ties with Ner? WHAT WAS HE DOING? 🗣🗣🗣
Staring intensely at your OC. Thinking. Rotating him in my head like a microwave. But a sleepy microwave. Because it's 4am and I fear I'm about to pass out, gnight 😔💔
cringe story blurb incoming
My story is just a lil au add on to shoh :))
This story happens when the whole magic ban by the autarchy is lifted akjdjdhd. Also, in my au, nobody in the Shepherds die ajjsjd i love them all. Ner cut ties with them instead.
The Shepherds were kinda just like a passing phase for Ner
(He knew he wouldn't stay that long, and that he would leave someday. Only for the protection from the autarchy and money). It was mostly a bad choice in his part to not say anything to anyone, except Caine and Blade. To Caine, whom he left a short letter (A letter in which I have already written out kajdjjd) and his weapon too. So he became a sort of vagrant (Wayfarer, traveler ect, ect. He prefers the life of never settling down.)
Along the way, he got himself some sort of curse that forces him to kill to sate the curse's bloodlust. Nobody could lift it because it's so old and archaic. So he starts taking mercenary requests, but I like to think the curse has its periods where it's strongest that he needs to kill more. But mercenary work takes a while. Him being good at psionic magic, he could dig deep inside peoples minds to find their wrongdoings that haven't yet faced consequences. He didn't find a fault in it; it helped him, and it rid the world of someone terrible, regardless whether the killed tried to repent for it or not. So in part, yes he became a vigilante, but to an outsiders pov, he's straight up just a murderer.
Ofc, a random, dangerous Aetherai-Psionic mage killing seemingly innocents periodically would find themselves facing the Shepherds best one day. Which Ner found himself in the unlucky battle between caines team and himself. I would imagine the battle would be Ner holding back while Caine has to begrudgingly admit that his old best friend is a murderer. Ner refuses to explain himself, he thought it was probably too late anyway. He was already a bad guy to everyone. So it was a battle of *Emotional damage* Lots of stuff said, maybe a lot of cuts and cruises and blood spilled.
but the real damage done was to Ner's insides. Cause you know, he ends up dead anyway.
But ofc, this all would be irrelevant if Lena gives us the option to let MC die. I'll probably do that, but it's always nice to have my own interpretation of what could happen.
So yeah, nothing really that crazy. Just something self indulgent I thought of a while back.
#snowthornes#ygblorbos#i forehead kiss caine#while it'd be easier for me to just make ner a really bad boy and starts killing everyone because he can#kansjdajdhd#i want to atleast stay in the vicinity of what i pictured his character to be#its a little flawed yes#but hopefully i can cultivate it into something coherent in the future#its like drawing kajdjdjd#slowly improving how you do things that it could look completely different by the next month
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I think "countdown to his final show" and its direct continuation, "and i'll be in denial for atleast a little while" by drewsterling on ao3 are the only fics to send me on the verge of tears. Not like. Full on crying but I teared up a lot. I don't cry over books, let alone fanfiction, but these fics have DESTROYED me mentally I cannot stop thinking about them
This is a recommendation if you love heavy angst and pain and suffering and misery because that's the only thing you'll find. no happiness. no joy. only sadness and grief and it's written beautifully
I could talk about these fics all day they have hurt me SO MUCH and I LOVE THEM
#THESE FICS DO INCLUDE A TW FOR DETAILED SUICIDE!!!#you probably should not read these if youre extremely sensitive to heavy and dark topics#you can look at the fics tags to figure out what you might get yourself into#im so miserable about these fics#its basically just jakes life disintegrating into shambles. but more realistic than most fics about it and way more painful#''and ill be in denial for at least a little while'' isnt finished yet but the author is still updating#they updated like. 2 days ago? 3?#im making this post because i just read chapter 3 of the sequel/aftermath and it fucking killed me#especially drew and haileys argument. it was so toxic but interesting holy fuck#i wish to write angst as well as this author does. one day ill get there#fic recs#fanfic recs#fanfiction recommendation#tmf#the music freaks#tmf fanfiction#tmf fanfic#tmf fanfic rec#i started reading “and ill be indenial for atleast a little while” (i hate typing all of that repeatedly) chapter 3 at like 5:00am#or maybe like 5:30 am idk#and its like 6:00 am and i just want to go back to sleep because i can barely process what happened#these fics have hurt me emotionally they are amazing!!!#the music freaks rosyclozy#tmf rosyclozy#the music freaks fanfic#the music freaks fanfiction
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seeing those edits with the sturniolo triplets and the dolan twins makes something inside me ache so bad,, guess they were right about the dolan twins to sturniolo triplets pipeline
#“in the back of my mind.. you died” 😭#“and i’ll be in denial for atleast a little while what abt the plans we made” STOP😞😞😞#sturniolo triplets#nick sturniolo#matt sturniolo#chris sturniolo#dolan twins#grayson dolan#ethan dolan#youtubers
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#FUMMY FUNNY#ranting time guys 💔💔#i hate how im getting more tklsh each year#like WHEN DOES IT STOP??#DO I HAVE TO DO SOMEGHING TO STOP IT???#CAUSE AT THKS POINT I FEEL LJKE A GUST OF WIND PASSING BY CAN TKL ME#LIKE DUDE??#I remember not being tklsh or atleast just a little bit#BUT NOW??#WGAT THE FUCK JS HAPPENING???#IS THERE LIKE A STOP BUTTON??#I CANT LIVE WHILE BEING THKS TKLSH (no one saw this)#SCREAMS CRJES THRKWS UP#no one saw this#do a backflip#i ate lunch today
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