Dreamt one of my teeth fell out and then while I was trying to check why it had a bunch of others felt loose so I started pulling one out and it kept coming and coming until I actually pulled out an old little pencil case I had when I was a kid and obviously was perplexed but everyone else thought it was really funny and then I woke up

Thoughts on the Alysanne is Maegor's daughter AU? I feel like it has some interesting potential, and it vastly recontextualizes different parts of Jaehaehae (I do not like him sjsjsjs) and Alysanne's relationship (such as Jaehaehae's treatment of their daughters) but I wanna hear what you think about it!

I’ve touched on this a bit before but since you actually want to hear my thoughts, allow me to present to you my Jaehaerys Is The Goddamn Worst, And Alysanne Annoys Me Too: An Essay lmao but my answer is basically “yeah all of what you just said.”

I think it makes Alysanne much more palatable (to me) as a character because as she stands, she just fixates on forcing her daughters through these fucked up marriages at too young an age bc it traumatized her to be married and pregnant at 15 too but she’d never admit that being a willing participant in her own kidnapping by her brother-husband was the single worst thing that ever happened to her, and because Alysanne doesn’t want to admit it (and Jaehaerys would never see it as wrong or a mistake) F&B really shies away from delving into the fact that Alysanne is as deranged of a mother as Cersei is. So as she stands, she’s very flat to me because she’s presented very flatly and inconsistently. She’s so in love with Jaehaerys, she’s maritally raped by Jaehaerys, she’s a loving and doting mother, she forces her daughters into marriages when they’re the same too young age she was, she accuses her teenage girls of being scheming whores then gets angry when her husband accuses their teenage girls of being scheming whores, and worst of all we are just told “Maegelle tells them to make up so they do” so we don’t know why Alysanne gets over all of this. What is the point of riding a dragon when you never use that dragon to protect your daughters from unwanted teen marriages? We’re just not given a good enough justification for why her behavior is so weird and frustrating towards her daughters.

Make her Maegor’s daughter though…most of her behavior as an adult makes more sense. Like a worse version of Rhaenyra’s childhood almost - a father desperate for a son, but lowkey obsessed with his daughter, who makes all his hang ups about his parents the problems of every woman around him, except Maegor is out here blood sacrificing and torturing and starting wars and forcing babies on wives he discards quickly and brutally. Then here comes Jaehaerys on a white horse green dragon to save her from the horror her life has become, and he loves her so much he runs away with her even though Alyssa says they shouldn’t marry because people won’t like it. And they have beautiful children, and a beautiful marriage, and build a beautiful kingdom.

Then her pregnancies start getting dangerous. Gaemon, then Valerion, die. Alysanne thinks of the shriveled up mutants she called brothers, if Maegor’s taint has passed to her. Her perfect husband ignores her no, and forces Gael on her. Alysanne remembers that he said nothing to Rogar when Alyssa died, merely wept. Then her daughters start to die. Daella, Alyssa, Viserra, all within a few years. Then Jaehaerys makes Saera watch as he murders her boyfriend, calls her a whore, and says Alysanne cannot follow Saera to Lys. Alysanne thinks of Maegor torturing the Harroways over Alys’ presumed infidelity. Jaehaerys says he’s sorry, and her daughter badgers her into forgiving him, and she remembers how she helped Jaehaerys badger Alyssa into forgiving Rogar. Not two years later, Jaehaerys passes over Rhaenys. Alysanne thinks of how she was never enough for her father, how she felt so superior to Rhaena banished to Dragonstone and resented by Aerea, yet there she is dragging Gael away from court because she can’t stand to be with Jaehaerys. How her father was surrounded by dead women and dead babies and how Jaehaerys is surrounded by his own dead daughters, but surely she did the right thing, surely Maegor was worse, surely the realm is better off? Is he right to pass over Rhaenys? Is she enabling a man just as monstrous as her father? She will never decide, because Maegelle will guilt her about keeping Gael isolated at Dragonstone, and Alysanne will do as she’s told, just like Rhaena, and Alyssa, and Jeyne, Elinor, Ceryse, Alys, and Tyanna, just like every one of her daughters.

I do get why Alysanne is Alyssa & Aenys’ and not Maegor’s. The weird Targ babies, the line not descending from Visenya, Jaehaerys and Alysanne being held up as the perfect Targaryen couple specifically because they are brother and sister and dragon riders. I do even think canon Alysanne is likely traumatized by her time as a hostage on Dragonstone, and the ensuing war, and the trauma bond that caused with Jaehaerys, and it makes her idolize Jaehaerys, and then he isolates her at Dragonstone so he can swiftly and safely marry, groom, and knock her up. It’s not like,,,, a fun time, and it’s enough to make anyone crazy and weird about their daughters, but I think having her father be Maegor makes Alysanne herself much deeper because it gives her, as the most beloved Targaryen queen, a blood tie to the most hated Targaryen king, and a marriage to the most beloved Targaryen king. It fits better with a lot of the themes of the main series (again, imo) - forcing the spotlight on the outsiders to see how the affect the story from behind the scenes. The fall of Aegon’s sons, and The Long Reign, not told from the PoV or to serve the PoV of any of the kings or princes, but of the queen that tied them all together.

Mysterious Lotus Casebook, Ep. 40 // The Acts of King Arthur and His Noble Knights, John Steinbeck

fake mash plot — “ happy birthday , henry “

hawkeye and trapper find out henry’s birthday is approaching , but find it difficult to plan a surprise party when henry keeps a close eye on them as punishment for their most recent caper . they manage to enlist margaret and a few other nurses to help , but a sudden influx of casualties derails their big plans . radar and klinger barter and trade for the ingredients to what klinger insists is the perfect birthday cake .

DAY 149…

it feels so wierd watching new people join the fandom, like im scrollong and ive never seen you before but you drew the oakworthy scene iv been cooking up in my mind, just for me?????? who art thou?????

Semi-urgent commissions open!

After many long years of use, my laptop has finally given out and totally broke. Tech support said there was nothing they could do, and it would be close to $300 just to repair it, so I should probably just buy a new one instead.

I really need a laptop to help me with writing and job-hunting, so I'm opening commissions in hopes of raising the funds for a new one.

Expand to see a price sheet and art examples :)

There are more examples on the rest of my account if you'd like to see!

I can do both PayPal and Venmo, and the slots are unlimited until I can hopefully reach or get close to the funds necessary for a new laptop (around $250-$300).

All prices are in USD.

Thank you for reading!

exhausted by people saying cory has a big ego, like 70% of these house guests have a big ego that’s what you need to win this damn game. why are people so mad at Him specifically?!

im so fucking mad

FAGGIE PLEASE AM I EMO????? i feel like. i was edgy emo at like thirteen-fourteen and now i'm musically emo. i dress too camp to look it most of the time tho like. if emo was green/brown old man style i'd totally pass

u don’t have to dress emo to be emo. it’s just like part or the scene. if u vibe with the music that’s enough u don’t have to dress any certain way there’s no uniform lmao. if u wanna say ur emo then u can if u don’t u can just say u like the music there’s no rigid box of a label or anything

its genuinely astounding how many people are in thr notes of my Fanon Sucking post like "uuugggghh this is EXACTLY how i feel about the marauders fandom" like. maybe be a fan of something else then

does anybody know how to manage arachnophobia? i'm physically shaking, covered in snot and tears, tired, but unable to go to sleep because i don't know where the spider in my room went

Anyway I have no one else sooo

What happened to the wattpad writers who wrote "lemons" or as it is well known as, smut. Because now, as a former wattpad writer, I'm realizing how much better I could have been, while I rizz up SM64 Mario, and I am in fact planning on once again revealing that he was hallucinating, he is in a mental hospital, and he was NOT getting pounded by Bowser somewhere in Mushroom Kingdom.

Or I may not, I might just delete everything from a point and try again, hopefully without the memories of my past.

I could be doing SO MUCH right now, I would be so amazing at what I do, but nooo, I'm not cool enough to know the good fandoms.

me when. me when they're on their own for the next step

Fuck you *gives your oc a healthy relationship to at least one parent*

I think we all gotta learn to be less mad at ourselves, for taking a first step. I don't give a shit if you fucked it up entirely, if you immediately backpedaled or decided that it could wait 'til another day -- if you take even a single step towards doing something good, good for you, or good for those around you-- you need to show respect to the effort you put into that.

Change is hard. Give yourself some grace, & some time to not do it quite right, or you're going to forever be frozen in place.