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luvonmes-blog · 3 months

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sucking gojos nipples😋

- i honestly have no motivation to write rn but this came to my mind. nipple sucking, handjob

gojo has sensitive nipples, i’ll die on this hill

maybe yall just started dating, y’all been tg for like three, four months?

you’re sitting on his lap one day jus talking when you look down, you notice you can see smt thru his shirt. you pull the fabric down a bit, not noticeable to toru and that’s when you notice the metal bars thru his chest.

while y’all have done stuff, it hasn’t called for y’all to get naked tg, nothing past blowjobs and him fingering you/eating you out. he’s saying smt to you but it’s all going in one ear and out the other. all you can think about is his pierced nipples, you want to see.

“how long have you had these?” your mouth lets out before you brain can catch up. gojo looks down to where you’re pointing at. he chuckles a little bit, cheeks turning pink.

“a year or two maybe.”

“mm.” you hum. you’re still staring, eyes not leaving his chest. “can i see?”

“uh- s-sure.” he stutters a bit, not exactly expecting you to be so intrigued by the metal in his chest. he takes off his shirt and lets it fall to the side of his bed. then, his pretty pink nipples are exposed to you. you stare for a bit before you’re hands trail up his body, over his abs to his nipples. your fingers trail over them and his nipples hardens under your touch and before you can stop yourself, you’re pulling on the metal just slightly. satoru lets out a groan and you pull your hand away almost immediately.

“sorry. i didn’t mean to do that. did it hurt? i’m sorry.” you stare at him wide eyed.

“it’s fine.” he sounds a little out of breath and his cheeks are redder than before. his pupils are blown out, almost completely black. “it didn’t hurt it’s ok.” that’s when you notice the slight chub that’s formed in his pants.

“you like that?” you swear his eyes turn into saucers.

“what?” his voice raises a pitch. “no, why- why would i like that? that’s so weird.”

“it’s ok if you do, toru’. i don’t think it’s weird.” you can feel his body relax beneath you and he lets out a breath.

“fuck, yeah. i do. i really fucking like it.” you hum again and your hands are back on his nipples. you tweak the metal on his chest, twisting and pulling on it and satoru pants beneath you. both your hands are occupied with playing on his nipples and you stare at his face, he looks so pretty like this. you wonder how many other people have seen him like this, that causes jealousy to boil in the pit of your stomach.

“how many other people have seen you like this, toru’? how many people know you turn into a slut when you get your nipples played with?” he moans and arches his back.

“jus’ you. jus’ you. promise.” he slurs his words. you smile at the admission. a thought crosses your mind and you remove your hands from his chest and wait for him to open his eyes and look at you. when he does, everything is a little bleary for a second. “why’d you stop?” he whines, a pout taking place on his lips.

“can i suck on them?” his breathing stutters for a second and then he’s nodding. you slide down his lap a little ungracefully, eager to get his nipples in your mouth. you’re eye level with his chest and you look up at him for confirmation, he’s staring down at you, waiting. waiting to feel your mouth around his nipples. he knows how good your tongue feels on his own, would it feel good on his chest? your left hand comes up to pinch the metal in his chest and you inch closer to the other. your tongue flicks out and you lick his nipples just slightly. he whines a bit, just wanting for you to do something already.

“come on.” he voice is drawn out, begging. he’s about to speak again but before the words can fall from his lips, your mouth wraps around his nipple and you suck harshly. his mouth drops open and his eyes roll back. a high pitched moan, almost squeal, escapes his lips. you swirl your tongue around his nipple and his back arched into your mouth. god, he was right, no, no. this was better, your tongue feels great on his nipples. you take the ball of the metal between your teeth and pull it back, satoru keens above you, he swear he’ll see heaven if you keep going like this.

you’re pinching and sucking at him and he’s never felt so good, he wonders how your cunt will feel wrapped around him while you suck on his nipples. his dick is so hard in his pants, you feel it too, jammed between your bodies and with satorus constant movement, he’s getting a little bit of friction.

you decide to help him, the one hand that was pinching at his nipples trails down his body and under the loose fabric of his pajama pants. no underwear, of course, your hands grab hold of his cock and he chokes on a moan. he’s leaking so much pre his pants are practically soaked thru. your hand cups around his tip and you move it over that only. thumb running over his slit and frenulum, he’s so sensitive and with you playing with the most two sensitive parts on his body, he won’t last long.

“baby, baby please, slow down.” his voice breaks as he tries to speak to you, you ignore him tho, your hand moving over his cock faster and you bite down on his nipple. his eyes roll back and his leg twitches underneath you. you stroke him faster, fist becoming tighter around his tip, mouth hollowing on his nipples, he’s becoming overstimulated very quickly, approaching his orgasm even faster. he has no time to tell you he’s cumming. before yk it, white streaks are being spurted on your hand. even after he orgasms, you don’t let up. still jerking him off and sucking on his nipples. he’s whiny above you, incoherent noises and babbles.

you don’t let up until you get another orgasm out if him. his body caves in on itself and his cock pushes out more ropes of cum, throbbing in your hand. you finally sit back when he’s coming down and you look over him. his cock soft and flaccid against his thigh, both nipples red from your torture but one more swollen than the other from your relentless sucking. he looked so fucked out, you love it.

when he finally comes to, you’re still sitting atop him. “you ok?” he nods, a slight jerk of his head but a nod nonetheless. “good.” a wicked smile takes over your face and you lift your shirt off, flinging it somewhere into the darkness. “let’s see what your mouth can do.”

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i just nutted

#gojou satoru x you #gojo x y/n #gojo satoru x reader smut #gojo smut #jjk gojo #gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo satoru #gojo satoru smut

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birlwrites · 5 months

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my mind took "you're a mckinnon now" and ran and i've spent the last 3 days trying to make my thoughts into somewjat coherent, okay, i'm going to try to explain it now:

the mckinnons sort of… absorb families/bloodlines. that's why it's not very common for other sacred 28 purebloods to marry a mckinnon, and if they do, it's always a woman bc she's expected to give up her family name when she marries anyways

what i mean by absorb is that many of their spouses—both husband's & wives—are either only children (so the bloodline & family name continues thru them) (ends w them) or (esp for the men) don't mind giving up or don't want to keep their fam name

it isn't meant malicious now, when the mckinnons aren't sooo idk. extreme? but a few centuries ago? maybe their spouses weren't so cool with their kids being mckinnons…with being the last of their family (bc we know names & bloodlines are really important in wizarding britain)

and their family magic is spiritual, right? idrk how you mean by that, maybe you'll expand further as marlene gets a bit more involved in ttdl? but rn i've sort of related it like spirit→magic→blood. so if they're like, collecting? magical bloodlines? maybe that'd influence some magic & rituals. + old-age ideas of like absorbing magical bloodlines into your own

did that all make sense? i'm sending this to you because it won't leave me alone and ive got no one else to tell it to, sorry

ajglshkdjfsd ive been trying to think of like, a Deep and Intelligent response and i s2g the only image in my brain is the mckinnons' house opening its front door and going 'om nom nom' whenever one of the mckinnons brings their s/o home to meet the family

one very important thing about the mckinnon family specialty is that it is large-scale. on the most fundamental level, the more people they have, even if not all of their people were born with an affinity for their specialty, even if not all of their people have ties to any other important people, the more powerful they are as a family. the mckinnon specialty doesn't really require a powerful innate affinity in order to be used, although that helps - what it does require is LOTS OF PEOPLE

dark affinities will... decline if they're not used, if that makes sense? it's a combination of the dilution of successive generations having a smaller and smaller share of that affinity, and the lack of usage meaning that the body's capability for that magic decreases over time. this is why the specialties are still so distinct between different families, even after generations of intermarrying - you have to practice your specialty to keep your affinity for it strong and ensure that you'll pass it on to your kids. that's only passingly related to what you were talking about but since you mentioned collecting bloodlines i thought i'd mention it

the mckinnons are collectively like one enormous sponge for magical knowledge as well afjshglksjdf - oh you want to marry a mckinnon but you also want to keep the details of your inherited specialty secret from them because of loyalty to your original house? Too Bad. They're Gonna Find Out One Way Or Another And You Probably Won't Even Regret Telling Them

#dark lord wip #should i make an inbox tag #atfhv worldbuilding

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menalez · 25 days

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https://www.tumblr.com/unabombastic/746727361545895936/httpswwwtumblrcomvvitchscvm-deactivated202306?source=share

thoughts

whew u gave me a lot to go thru and it was difficult going from link 1 to more links but. anyways

i didnt mind this article at first bc i did read a lot of research arguing lesbians were exposed to more testosterone in the womb etc and show some masculinised traits. as an example women with hyperandrogenism or PCOS are more likely to be lesbians iirc. but i started to take issue w the link at this point:

this just seems like a subtle way of saying gnc women are more male somehow. and it hasn’t been true for my experience. i can only think of one butch lesbian i’ve been with that had a more masculine voice & body than me. only one! the rest had bigger boobs, narrower shoulders, are shorter than me, have higher pitched voices, etc. they just had more masculine style & mannerisms compared to me. i’ve also come across bisexual women who are quite masculine, more masculine than many lesbians. soooo while i think there’s a link, i think it’s frankly offensive that this paper framed butch lesbians as somehow more male biologically. it seems like bias that they tried to confirm with research.

honestly i don’t fully disagree here. clearly some ppl are naturally quite gnc bc some people refuse to be masculine/feminine regardless of socialisation and pressure. many butch lesbians & feminine gay men will have stories about rejecting gender roles from a very young age. i don’t know what aspect of it is innate bc i doubt its as simple as liking dresses being innately feminine but perhaps more like, ur preferences from childhood are associated with which group you feel more kinship with somehow perhaps? idk. but to me it’s clear there’s something innate to gender non-conformity. not to say if a woman likes dresses & heels & shaving then she must be Innately Feminine or sth or that a woman liking suits must be Innately Masculine, but there’s sth beyond socialisation playing into certain preferences in gendered items at a young age.

i think intersex disorders are very broad & have a massive variation that making blanket statements about someone’s sexuality based on whether they could or could not be into someone who’s intersex but genetically male doesn’t make sense. someone who’s genetically male but assigned female at birth could very well look very much female in every sense & is socialised as female, or they could be visibly different from other women. so i don’t think it’s logical to argue someone has to be bi or can still be a lesbian bc we do not know specifics here. like the wife of caster semenya said she’s only ever been into men iirc.. in her case maybe she’s just straight or perhaps bi with strong preferences for men ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ idk. seems like a weird thing to debate someone’s theoretical sexuality

i have no opinion on this.

i mean i also think if someone is genetically male but was raised & assigned female then calling them men & arguing they can’t possibly actually be a woman is weird? like they have a medical condition that made their bodies develop a certain way which resulted in them being assigned a sex that doesn’t match their genetic sex but it does match their phenotypic one, & they were raised the same as someone whos female so like… why argue they’re men? who does it benefit? who are they hurting for this to be a very important distinction to make & hill to die on?

btw why does it seem like ppl are trying to cancel vvitchscum rn? what got people so heated?

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bearr02 · 7 months

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BTS song inspo series | Jungkook - You are the reason by Calum Scott |

Warnings: angsty? Slight fluff at the end <3

Pairing: Jungkook x f!reader

Word count: 1.8k

A/n: so uh..got that out quick umm

I was restless and kinda couldn’t stop writing once I started..

I mean of course I did eventually cause like I got tired last night but y’know what I mean

Happy ending-ish! Yay!!

Also, like, I didn’t read thru it yet and I’m tired as fuck rn so I’ll do it tmrw

There goes my heart beating

‘Cause you are the reason

I’m losing my sleep

Please come back now

He said he would never hurt you. He told you he never would. He promised himself he wouldn’t.

He did.

He didn’t mean to.

He never meant to.

He hasn’t been right since that fateful day. That one, damn day. The one day he unknowingly broke your heart.

He furiously wipes at the tear that slips down his cheek. He shouldn’t be crying, he did this to himself. If anything you’re the only one who has the right to tears.

Not him. He has the right to beat himself up, to get in his head, talk himself down.

And there goes my mind racing

And you are the reason

That I’m still breathing

I’m hopeless now

He sighs frustratedly, running a hand over his face as he gets out of bed, heading out of his room and straight for his front door. He grabs his hoodie on the way, opening the door and closing it behind him, not bothering to lock it as he slips his hoodie on.

He starts walking to who knows where. Somewhere that’s not his house. The house he heard your laugh in so many times. The house that held so many memories of the two of you together.

He groans, running a hand through his hair as he blinks the tears away. He debates on calling you. Again. Knowing he will have the same outcome. It’ll ring, and ring, and ring, and ring.

Then it’ll go to voicemail.

Like every other time he called. He just wanted to talk to you. Tell you to do anything to him, punch him if it means you’ll talk to him. Cut an arm off if it meant you’d talk to him. Even if it’s just a single word.

He knows he’s probably being dramatic, but if that’s what he has to do he’ll do it. As long as he could tell you how much you mean to him, even if you choose not to listen.

He’d do anything to see you. To talk to you. Even if it’s just one more time.

I’d climb every mountain

And swim every ocean

Just to be with you

And fix what I’ve broken

Oh, ‘cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

He shouldn’t miss you. He knows he shouldn’t. He didn’t have the right to. “Fuck it.” He curses under his breath, slipping his phone out of his pocket and going straight to your contact. He presses call and brings his phone to his ear, pressing it firmly against it as he listens to the stupid. Fucking. Ringing.

It stops.

Earlier than it should have.

“Y/n?” He tentatively calls out, stopping dead in his tracks.

Nothing.

“Are you there?” He whispers, nervously toying with his lip rings. He hears an exhale from your end and presses his phone impossibly closer to his ear, his knees buckling in relief.

He leans against a nearby tree, his eyes sliding shut. “I thought I’d never get to talk to you again.” He croaks, slowly sliding down the tree. “You weren’t supposed to.” You say, your voice oh so cold making his heart clench.

“I’m sorry.” He whispers, “God I’m so fucking sorry.” He runs a hand through his hair as he blinks his tears away for the second time in 5 minutes. “That’s not enough, Jungkook.” He purses his lips, looking at his thighs. He picks at some imaginary lint before running his hand over his sweats.

“I know.” He eventually whispers. “Is that why you called? Why you won’t stop calling? Just to say sorry? Do you think that will fix shit, Jungkook?” You ask. “No.” He croaks.

There goes my hands shaking

And you are the reason

My heart keeps bleeding

I need you now

“Then why do you keep calling?” You ask. “I don’t know.” He answers truthfully, nervously playing with his shirt. He hears a sigh from your end before he hears shuffling then the faint sound of a door closing. “That’s not a reason, Jungkook.” You say. “I know.” He mumbles, a tear slipping down his cheek. “I’m sorry I was such an asshole. If I could go back and undo that mistake I would.” He croaks, sniffling afterwards.

And if I could turn back the clock

I’d make sure the light defeated the dark

I’d spend every hour, of every day

Keeping you safe

You keep quiet. “I’m sorry.” Jungkook mumbles again, a small sob escaping his throat. He tries to cover it up with a cough, but you heard it. You don’t comment on it but you heard it.

You both sit there for a moment.

Nothing but silence coming from both ends.

“I love you.” Jungkook mumbles, pulling the phone away from his ear and ending the call, letting his phone fall into the grass beside him as he cries.

He doesn’t hold his tears back for once.

He lets them come.

He doesn’t hold in a sob, just pulls his knees up to his chest and buries his head in his arms, sobbing into them.

He doesn’t know how long he’s been there for. Long enough for the sun to rise and people to emerge from their homes. He finally raises his head from his arms, wiping his runny nose with his sleeve and wiping away his tears.

He looks at his phone. He picks it up before he stands up, sliding it into his hoodie pocket, walking down the street.

He gets a few glances. Some with curiosity, some with sympathy. He doesn’t know how people can notice puffy eyes so easily, plus notice it’s from crying. But alas, they do.

He eventually finds himself at a park, sitting at one of the benches as he watches ducks swim in a pond. Oh he’s so tempted to jump in and never come back out. He doubts anyone would miss him. Maybe Bam but he’d have others.

He sighs, slumping against the bench.

He feels his phone start to buzz in his pocket but he ignores it. He doesn’t want to talk to anyone. He just wants to be left alone to his thoughts. He’s tired of people. He’s tired of himself. He’s tired of everything.

He groans, running a hand through his hair as he throws his head back, staring up at the sky. Why can’t life be simple? Why does he have to fuck everything up?

His phone starts buzzing again, yet he ignores it. Again. He doesn’t care why people keep calling him. He just doesn’t wanna talk to people right now. Maybe you. But only you. Only to try and convince you that he’d do absolutely anything to get you back in his life.

And I’d climb every mountain

And swim every ocean

Just to be with you

And fix what I’ve broken

Oh, ‘cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

As soon as the buzzing stops, it starts again. He takes his phone out of his pocket and sets it on the bench beside him, lifting his head up to look back at the pond. The ducks are still swimming around. Happily. Without a single worry.

He wishes he could have that.

Not have to worry about life.

That’s paradise. Heaven. Something too far out of reach for him. He sighs, moving to lay down on the bench, his eyes roaming the park.

There’s a few people here, not enough to make him want to leave, but still a decent amount.

He brings a hand up to rub his eyes, pushing himself off of the bench with a groan. He should probably head home before he falls asleep on a bench like a homeless person.

He grabs his phone, slipping it into his hoodie pocket along with his hands as he starts to walk back to his house.

He doesn’t know what he expected to see—probably nothing—but cop cars certainly were not it. “Jungkook!” A voice yells, a body hurrying toward him. He doesn’t have time to step back when he’s pulled into a tight embrace. The body starts to shake, something wet hitting his chest. He furrows his brows, about to ask who it is when someone else speaks, “Well, considering he’s returned, we’re going to be on our way and not file a missing persons report.” A cop says, coming to stand beside Jungkook and the mysterious person still hugging him.

“Missing persons report?” Jungkook questions, frowning as he looks at the cop. “Ah, this lady claims she’s been trying to reach you since you talked last night but you wouldn’t answer. She said when she came to your home to see if you were alright she found the door unlocked and tried to contact you again. When you continuously wouldn’t answer, she called us and would not let us live until we came down here.” The cop says, shaking his head slightly.

“Oh.” Jungkook mumbles, glancing at the top of your head. “Have a good day, sir. And please do not go under the radar with this one.” The cop pleads before walking away.

“Y/n?” Jungkook asks when the car is gone. “I fucking hate you.” You mumble through sobs, holding him impossibly tighter. “You’ve been fucking MIA since like 1am!” You say, smacking his arm. He winces slightly, a small ‘sorry’ slipping from his lips.

“I didn’t think you’d care if I was MIA.” He mumbles, his arms hesitantly wrapping around you.

He can feel you relax almost immediately, melting into his embrace. “Just because we broke up doesn’t mean that I don’t fucking care if you die.” You say, sniffling hard after. “I didn’t die though.” Jungkook whispers.

“I don’t wanna fight no more.” You whisper, your arms wrapping tighter around him. “I don’t either.” Jungkook whispers.

I don’t wanna hide no more

I don't wanna cry no more

“I missed you.” You whisper, “So fucking much. I missed your cuddles. How you would always hug me when I was scared.” You whisper. “I really needed one of your bear hugs when you went MIA. You really freaked me out.” You croak.

Come back I need you to hold me

“I’m sorry.” He whispers, hugging you tighter.

Be a little closer now

Just a little closer now

Come a little closer

I need you to hold me tonight

“I missed you too.” He mumbles, hiding his face in your hair as a tear slips down his cheek.

I’d climb every mountain

“I swear I’ll do anything to make it up to you,”

And swim every ocean

“If it means you’ll stay with me.”

Just to be with you

And fix what I’ve broken

“I'll stay. No conditions. I just want you back.”

‘Cause I need you to see

That you are the reason

A/n: I really hope this was good cause like I don’t really know how to feel abt it tbh

Mini series taglist:

@mochilatae

Permanent taglist:

@viankiss @lizzymizzy-blogg @teddymoon06 @rln-byg

#bts #jungkook #Jungkook x reader #song inspo series

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house-of-daena · 7 months

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ahem. anyways. i think dottore would be deeply inquisitive as to the nature of love, as well as disgustingly romantic in some ways once u slip thru all the walls he sets up... sending u brain scans of himself when he's thinking about you, highlighting all the parts that light up in adoration, labeling sections of the brain and telling you about the ways you live in it. giddy recordings of your heart racing for him stored right alongside his most well-kept secrets. he keeps a research file on you that's really just an excuse to gush about you and the funny things you do to his heart filtered through science lingo. simultaneously appreciating and despising the human's naturally social nature because it both sickens and softens him when he melts into your fingers combing thru his hair, sighing softly for a moment before returning to rubber-ducking the results of an experiment at you in a frustration that no longer seems as harsh or lingering as it used to be

THE TIKTOK......... WHY HE PISSING LIKE A GARDEN HOSE 😨😨

also ,, u just caught in like one of the worst times 2day,, literally was soooo sad then you come here and hit me with this. its like you shot me with doses of serotonin and im shaking so hard rn... literally sobbing at how disgustingly fucking sweet this is im. gfrghj. literally observes u so much. piles and piles of research files he's been writing for like. centuries. he knows your body more than you do like. im🥺🥹

of course the doctor would investigate on something he doesn't know about!!! especially when he's experiencing abnormalities!! he's asking you so many questions, asking others, and readings soo many books. writing more as he figures it out. n when he conducts 'experiments' ("zandik im pretty sure this is called a date."). he's so romantic in his own way im gonna throw up 🥹🥹🥹 N TALKIN BOUT U IN HIS PAPERS.. literally u could be doing anything.. like setting something on fire inside the lab,, n while the report may sound condescending to others. they literally have no idea what that the many ink splotches on the paper was him getting too excited while writing that he fucking breaks the pens, or his writing gets so messy bc he has sooo many many thoughts about you to write and and and fhsjdk,as.

sending u brain scans of himself when he's thinking about you, highlighting all the parts that light up in adoration, labeling sections of the brain and telling you about the ways you live in it.

this sounds so fucking weird but you have no idea how ridiculously fucking romantic this sounds to me. like even if my wife wasn't dottore i'd be so fucking giddy if someone does this because im a huge fucking nerd about human bodies and this make me SICK in the head.

his research for his love for u will go on for as long as you still love him and him still loving you which will be forever (even tho as a scholar he knows nothing lasts forever. he will make sure it does) and im in my knees on the floor crying about this post i will think about this everyday and sob ilysm 🐺 anon please never approach me with this fucking fluff or ill lose my mind /lh

#» asmo talks about wife (sfw)#» 🐺 anon #even my friend that's not that into him agrees #fuck you 🐺 anon. die 🥺 /j /pos #im biting this ask like a chew toy #gnawing and chewing with tears in my eyes #i cannot rn im collapsing #cw kinda disturbing the rest of the tags #has diagrams of all of your organs and nervous systems hidden somewhere #think it's so romantic how he could tell every single unique feature #would really wanna hold your heart in his hands while its beating #he would want to do the same for you

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lobotomycase · 10 months

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ok but you are so right, thanks for giving me your point of view regarding sugi! i guess i felt the ending was a little anti-climatic, because as you said, it went from cliffhanger to sudden chillness, but- that was the point wasn't it. it was over.

as for the persimmons i guess i didn't want it to be a big thing, just. i like suffering HAHAH i liked how sugimoto grieved, but at the end of the day that's just how life is, you have to move on there is no real *big* moment of enlightenment, he just *shrugs* was ready to start moving on, thanks to asirpa and the experiences he had thru the story 😊

what do you think abt people wishing he had died tho? i personally don't think much about that, i like that he's alive, and i would also have liked if he died 🤔 both outcomes are good for his character

wait omg tumblr glitched! im only getting this rn!!!!!!!

but yeah yeah that's exactly it no? moving on, sometimes it isn't like this big thing, this like huge revelation moment. sometimes it just... is. sometimes you change and you don't really realise how much you have changed until you look back. and i think at the end thats just such a good ending for gk to have. because its fundamental message isnt about the grief of human existence but that change is good. like especially taking into account asirpa deciding to dedicate her life to fighting for her people's rights and moving on from the shadow of her father it ties in real nicely with sugimoto's own narrative too.

see, my main issue with the asirpa and sugimoto ending is that.... even tho i dont think noda intended it like that, its too... ambiguous for my taste? like ppl who ship them (🤢🤮) could totally look at that ending and see them as canon. which um. yeah 😐

BUT as for sugimoto being alive im also so glad hes alive and people who say he should have died are just haters u_u

i will admit that i thought he WOULD die for most of the series. the whole "immortal" sugimoto things just felt like foreshadowing to me sjdksjdnks and noda had very obviously planned his story out so the constant bringing up of it just felt like it was setting up hid death. and during the entire last arc i was biting my nails the whole time because i was SO convinced noda would kill him i wasnt relieved until i saw him in the last chapter haha

but looking back now, i think we should have known he would survive when he completely gave up on the gold and decided to help asirpa. bc like i said the core message of gk isn't suffering its that people are able to overcome their past and move on. i mean, most of the major characters's arcs revolve around this (tanigaki, tsukishima, inkarmat, asirpa, sugimoto, i guess even ogata to an extent (tho his would be more about how he DOESNT move on))

so for all of this character development to be poured down the drain at the last moment....... that would have sucked more tbh. it would have felt empty and out of the blue.

but im also biased so if noda had decided to kill him off i would be saying the opposite lmao

it really is just the sugimoto asirpa shippers that have me -_- there were too many moments in the manga that made me go: "hm. -_- " for me to be able to rest easy with them going back to live together. maybe if everyone were normal and didnt ship them i wouldn't mind bc they both have an incredibly strong bond and they changed each other fundamentally so them having parted ways in the end would have broken my heart. but it was too damn vague..... like i said, i dont think (at least i hope NOT) noda intended it like that, but...... i cant trust people not to be weird about it. noda i need you to confirm sugimoto gay RIGHT NOW pls pls pls.

#ty for the ask!!!! i will now be having much golden kamuy thoughts ^_^#talking noize

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OKAY im finally alone so TW for anyone reading this, i will be mentioning rape & knives/scars.

i'll try to make this short but the summer before i went into 10th grade, i had hung out w this guy and i really did just wanna hang out and go for a drive, but he thought i wanted to hook up. i definitely did not because i was a virgin and never done anything with a guy at all. he was a senior and a lot bigger than me and forced me into having sex w him, i kept saying no and stop and take me home but he just kept getting angrier and eventually held a knife to my like pubic bone? pelvis? just down there idk. so i caved. i hated every second and cried but i stopped fighting. i haven't had sex since then, im 20 years old now and i haven't even been fingered by a guy, never given or received head, and never given a handjob. and im honestly really embarrassed about it and wanna have sex with someone SO BADLY but im scared.

the main reason i'm scared isn't because i'm scared i'll be forced into it again, although that is absolutely in the back of my mind. i'm completely fine now and over the situation, but it does worry me that i could get overwhelmed and the guy im with wouldn't wanna stop. but my bigger fear which im 100x more embarrassed of, is what a guy is gonna think when he sees my pussy. now hear me out bc i know that sounds weird😭 but all throughout high school i always heard guys make comments about how ugly this girls pussy is or how gross this girls is and it terrified me. but now i'm even more scared because of what that guy did to me, he literally cut into my skin and left scars. what is a guy gonna think when he sees that? how am i supposed to explain all this? i just i have a lot of questions and concerns but i'm a fucking 20 year old "virgin" if i can even call myself that, i've technically had sex but i didn't want it so idk if i even count that as a body. i just have been panicking over this for forever and have no idea what to do, if you have any advice at all i'd really appreciate it so so much

- 🌙

Oh baby :-(. Im so sorry this happened to you. You were really young and you didn’t deserve that whatsoever, if you can feel it im giving you a hug thru the phone. Im so so so sorry and i hope that man is dead in a ditch somewhere 🤍

On the other hand, i promise you you have nothing to worry about at all. Im telling you rn and i know it sounds so corny and lame and everybody always says this but its true, the right person is not going to judge you for anything and im so Fr when i say that. Trust when i was in high school guys would say all kinda stupid shit like that about girls in the school and it never bothered me because i knew there was at least one person out there who wouldn’t care about anything other people would talk shit about, and i was right 🤷🏻‍♀️ There’s so many people out there who would find u beautiful the way u are and just because some guys in the past thought in that immature goofy ass way doesn’t mean every guy will you know what i mean?

Babe, my only advice for you is to stay the way you are, hang out w ur frennies and the right person is gon come trust. It’ll come when you aren’t looking for it or worrying about it, when you least expect it to be honest. What you went through was horrible and it might be the worlds way of saying you gotta give yourself time before exploring that area of your life yanno. There’s NOTHINGGG wrong with being a virgin at any age let alone 20. You’re still young and you have ur whole life ahead of you. Don’t worry about this, when it happens it’s gonna be fine you’ll see it

Thank you so much for trusting me to be vulnerable with, im sorry if im treating you too delicately im just speaking thru the soul rn 😭 And again im sorry this happened to you. Even if i dont know u i love u a lot and im proud of you for moving past the situation despite how hard it might’ve been

Also im sorry for taking awhile to get back to you, i just scrolled through my inbox and finally found this

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snow-licity · 1 year

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The ways Ted Lasso has changed my life!!

Ted Lasso is the reason I started therapy again and decided to actually fix all the things I've suppressed and not wanted to fix!

This week there are two things that happened that made me go: if this happened even 6 months ago I would be a wreck and I wouldn't even be functioning right now!

The first thing was at work on Monday I had a long day and had to leave, we were screen printing and started late, so I had to leave in the middle of it, now I'm there to help out bc my friend owns the business and they're really busy rn so they need people, but the guy I was working with was told really late that we were screen printing so he was frustrated that he wasn't told till just before.

However, normally in my head I internalize and think people are mad at me all the time for everything, so I literally said to myself "he's not mad at me, he's annoyed that they were starting late and he wasn't informed and I've been there all day, and I'm helping out, they appreciate any time I can give them.

All of which are not things I would normally tell myself and a behavior I wouldn't normally stop in the middle of

The second thing that happened was today, I was in the drive thru line in starbucks (mind you the starbucks that MY MOM WORKS AT, while she was working, and where I'm FRIENDS WITH ALL THE EMPLOYEES) and there's this guy behind me, he honked and was waving his hand out of his window, I could hear him through my closed window and I'm thinking "he's crazy, idk who he's talking to" then he GETS OUT OF HIS CAR, a litteral shiver goes down my spine bc I don't know what he's gonna do and I'm in shock, he gets up to my window and yells at me to move forward bc the person behind him can't order, I moved forward AN INCH bc there wasn't that much space ahead of me. He walks back to his car.

I'm frozen by the way, then I start crying bc it's traumatizing and I'm trying to be fine so I don't meltdown before work, but I get to the window and just start sobbing, I tell my mom and one of my friends, they deal w it

Apparently he acted like nothing happened and was gaslighting my mom, but the lady behind him (who he was doing this for) said that it made her uncomfortable and she almost called the police, and she felt so bad that this happened. Like im not overreacting, even someone who didn't have to take the brunt was uncomfortable (that's very validating)

But later I calm myself down and I'm thinking about in terms of "what's going on in his life where he thought that was okay" and "he must be having a shitty day to act like that" and this is something that would've made me INCONSOLABLE for a very long time about 6 months ago, but I'm not, I think I'm more level headed about it looking back even several hours after it happened than most people probably would've

Anyway all this to say that Ted Lasso has helped me in so many ways that I'm really starting to see a difference in the ways I react to traumatic situations and when it comes to generally overthinking things!

#ted lasso #therapy things #its crazy the ways shows can make you see the world differently #and even seeing other people differently #be curious not judgmental

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new-dawn-au · 10 months

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Am I going to make Apis and Saki canon? Hell yeah, they're too cute not to! Don't blame me, blame the little demon pulling my heart to make this happen X3

Bold = texting

"Italics with quotation marks = thinking"

This was not good.

It was supposed to be a normal day, but of course, something had to go wrong. The thunder was too loud, too near, too…. Familiar. And Apis was not a fan.

He could feel tears building up in his eyes and his own grip on reality or any sense quickly slipping away as he tried to find somewhere to hide from it all.

He had stupidly forgotten his house keys, and Adonis was working that day so he couldn't unlock the door for him, leaving him in a bad situation of having to wait for hours to go home. And it sucked.

But just as he was about to break down, he heard a voice he had grown fond of over the past few months. "Apis? Are you okay?" Saki asked her friend, visibly worried about him.

Apis looked to his friend and tried to muster a smile but miserably failed, letting tears fall as he clung onto her.

"Please… don't let them hurt me again. I can't go back, I can't, they'll hurt me, I just know it. I'm dead if they find me, please don't make me go back… help me, please." He mumbled through his tears, he couldn't control himself when he was like this. He felt embarrassed, embarrassed that he was breaking down like this and having a breakdown in front of someone he considered a good friend.

Surprisingly to him, Saki had not pushed him away, instead pulling him closer and taking him to her house. Despite her knowing little to nothing about what he was talking about, she still comfored him. "It's okay, I won't let them take you. You'll be safe here."

By the time they had both entered her room, Apis had fainted from panic, leading Saki to lend him her bed and pull the covers over him whilst she went to get something for the both of them to eat and drink.

Nobody was home today so it left her to watch over her friend without interruptions. Suddenly, his phone received a message.

Adonis: That thunder is really loud isn't it? Hope you're ok❤️

Yikes, it was going to be complicated to explain that Apis wasn't actually seeing this message and that he had passed out. But Saki did it in the best way she knew how to.

Apis: this is Saki Tachibana, a friend of Apis from school! He's at mine rn bc he got scared by the thunder and he's sleeping thru it srry do you want me to wake him up? :)

Adonis: no, it's fine. It's nice to know that he has many good friends now. Or maybe you're more than friends🤨? Jkjk

Wait, what?

Was Apis's dad trying to suggest that they were… dating?! Saki had never even considered dating him! However..

She did find him very kind and cute. And it was so fun messing with his hair, it was always so soft and he always reacted so cutely when she accidentally touched his neck when playing with his hair with his little giggle and nose scrunch followed by his insistence that he was most definitely not ticklish on his neck despite him obviously being so. And his face was attractive as well, she had thought of kissing him before…. Wait, kissing?!

Okay, so she might like him, but there was no way that he felt the same!

Apis: omfg no💀 were not dating but Im flattered that you think I cud end up with sum1 like him XD

Adonis: uh huh, sure thing lol. If he isn't up or still at yours by half 4 then give me your address and I'll come for him.

Apis: will do.

A few hours later, Apis stirred awake and looked around before seeing Saki and realising what just happened. "Ah, Saki! I'm sorry for falling asleep in your bed, it won't happen again!" "Haha! It's fine, you were scared and you needed it, I don't mind." Saki smiled, handing him a rice ball.

"I assumed that you'd be hungry when you woke up so I made some rice balls for you, do you like it?" Apis took a bite and smiled back at her, blushing slightly. "Mmhmm! It's really nice, thank you."

There was that look again, that smile and those rosy cheeks. And those eyes… it made Saki truly realise her feelings for him.

She loved him, she actually loved someone again. She didn't even think she could love like this after her last relationship, but here she was, basking in Apis's presence, loving his existence, loving being around him.

Nope, she had to stop herself there. She was supposed to be looking after him, she could crush over him another time! "Hey, are you thirsty? I have some apple juice downstairs that I can go get if you want." Apis nodded and followed her to the kitchen, holding her hand to keep his balance stable

Saki could just feel herself overheating, his hands were strangely soft in comparison to her rough ones up, they felt like heavenly buttercream to her and she adored it.

But all of a sudden, she heard whimpering coming from him as he pulled his hand back, covering his white eye. "It must be that scar again! But how can I help him?" Saki thought, coming to a reckless conclusion.

She held his wrists gently so as to not hurt him, leant near his face and placed a gentle kiss on his white eye and scar, gaining a squeak from him. "E-Eh?! Saki, what are you doing?.."

"Oh shit! I am so sorry, I didn't know what to do and I thought that if I kissed it then the pain would go away! That was really stupid, I'm so sorry again." Saki apologised profusely before Apis interrupted. "You don't have to apologise! I… um.. actually kind of liked it.. it made me feel safe, and warm and fuzzy inside and I don't know why.. is there something wrong with me?"

Saki widened her eyes, could he feel the same thing towards her as she did to him? She had to test it.. "Hey, is it okay if I try something? You can stop if you feel weird or uncomfortable."

Apis nodded his head. Granted, he didn't know what was going to happen, but he put all of his faith and trust in Saki.

She leant near his face again, kissing his lips as she closed her eyes. She was taken by positive surprise when she felt Apis kiss back slightly, so he did feel the same way! His lips were just as soft as the rest of him, it was clear that they had been bitten out of anxiety and overall stress,but it wasn't unpleasant, it was kind.

Apis pulled away to catch his breath, his cheeks now a bright red. "I.. enjoyed that… a lot. I think that I… love you."

Saki smiled wide, her cheeks the same as his as she wrapped her arms around him, pulling him I to a hug. "I love you too, Apis."

IT'S DONE AND NOW I'M GONNA BURRY MY HEAD IN FLUFF OVERLOAD, GOOD BYE

#holy shit it's finally done😭#new dawn au #zexal #astral zexal #zexal ocs #saki tachibana oc #don thousand

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golbrocklovely · 1 year

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when I saw that post sincerely my heart dropped so bad.. I haven’t stopped crying for colby tbh.. I know he would want me to stay positive about his situation but holy shit I could never expect him to have cancer.. I seriously lost my appetite like I’m just so worried.. the thought of losing him shatters me. I know I don’t know him personally but still, he’s such an amazing and kind person. no one deserves to have cancer. I just don’t know what to type rn I’m just rambling my feelings and thoughts because I’m just scared. I hope he’s doing okay. and the thought of him going through chemo scares me too because it can take such a huge toll on a person. lord I just wish I can hug him irl and comfort him. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to sleep tonight because he’s gonna stay on my mind.

oh yeah, while colby can remain positive about this, i think we're all allowed to be shocked by this. bc i know my immediate thought to seeing the announcement was "he could die" and that just made me start crying immediately.

i can't imagine a world without him. truly. that's like taking away the sun for so many ppl.

but again, i think it's good to remember that if he's in high spirits, we should do the same for him. but this is why i also mentioned that if colby behind the scenes is freaking out, i hope he knows that that is normal. like, i truly hope he has shed some tears over this. this is a complete life changer and it's okay to be sadden by that.

and i agree with you, i hope he doesn't have to go thru chemo. i hope they caught it early enough that they don't have to worry about that. i've seen what chemo can do to a person and… it's rough to say the least.

if i ever get to meet him, i'm giving him the biggest fucking hug. omg i might not ever let go either lol

#ask #personal #colby brock

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poems-of-a-lover · 1 year

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nick watches spiderman (cont.)

im gonna make another post bc i have a feeling im close to hitting the text limit on my other one but we're still on the first movie!! im gonna try and get thru this movie soon bc i HAVE to get to the second ones before my demons get me

okay where we are rn ben just died and peters in his evil era tryin to find the guy who did it

like hes just goin up to random dudes and beating them up bc he thinks its The Guy when its not

and every time i watch this movie i forget if they find him or if the plot point is abandoned bc peter has bigger problems by then KJGSHLKGJHSKH guess we'll remember together

peter falls thru a roof and these guys just let him go. like they leave him there. to be fair what were they supposed to do but still.

this is where we get the inspo to make a suit!! he sees a wrestling poster and is like "that could be me =D"

agh i wanna look like him so BAD bro i wish that were me

shoutout to him STEALING FROM OSCORP to make his web fluid thats so funny

this handstand moment is apparently judged by a lot of fans as him becoming spiderman but theyre SO wrong that doesnt happen until later in the film in my opinion

like thats just my opinion but other ppl can be wrong ig /lh

also how did he get this police radio. how do any of the spidermans get their radios. did they take them from officers. can u buy them. whats goin on here.

omggggg its captain stacyyyyy he'll be important later

like. incredibly important. GKJHSGKJSHGKJ we'll get to him in a minute.

"spandex.....spandex.......everything.......spandex......" i love peter so much

HE'S MAKIN THE SUITTTTT HES GOT THE SUIT NOW!!!!! THE SUIT OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!!

i love this suit sooooo much its so textured and i love the logo its so fun

this car thief scene is rlly the scene of all time i love it

so many good peter lines from this scene

"seriously? u rlly think im a cop? a cop in a skin tight red and blue suit? yknow, u have got the mind of a true scholar, sir" PETER PLEASE BE NORMAL

this head tilt. the peter head tilt. in this context its kinda menacing but hes so me coded bc i also do the head tilt thing KHGSKJDHGKJ

the first time i saw this scene and for a while after i thought he told the cop "i just TOOK 80% of ur job" after he took the gun but he actually says "i just DID 80% of ur job" bc he webbed the criminal and i was so disappointed bc i rlly thought he was making a solid dig at the police force but hes just being petty KJGHSKJGHKSJ

ugh him talking to may here makes me sooooo sad. "u dont have to wait up for me, yknow" "yes i do" SHE LOVES HER NEPHEW PLEASEEEE

shes so worried for her nephew. seeing him hurt just destroys her. this boy is all she has. she lost her husband, her brother, her sister in law, and seeing her nephew come home at god knows what time just beat up and wounded must be so heartwrenching and she cant do anything bc he wont talk to her. i love tasm may shes so interesting.

"aunt may please, please go to sleep." "i cant sleep! dont u understand? i cant sleep! peter, listen to me. secrets have a cost, theyre not for free. not now, not ever." SOOOOO TRUE QUEEN. I SENSE A THEME.

AND THEN HE JUST WALKS OFF. LEAVES HER THERE. AJHGJSKGJAGFSJHF

oh yeah they're pushing curt to start human trials when they cure isnt ready, oscorp is so incredibly corrupt and its done so well in both films

"people die. even norman osborn." AKJGHKJSAGH SOOOOOO TRUE. YES. I HATE NORMAN SO MUCH.

also sorry for just quoting this movie so much it has so many good lines that i could talk about for the rest of my life

oh yeahhhhh this guy wants to start human trials??? at the veterans hospital?????

ugh theyre talking about plot that we dont learn until like the second film so its not important yet but its such a cool thing later on

PETER AND GWENNNNN I LOVE THEM

she really cares about him and it makes me so happy

shes inviting him to dinner!!!! with her family!!!!! its a family hes never met eating a meal hes never heard of but still its with the girl he really likes so hes gonna just deal with it and show up anyway

ugh normans doing things /neg

hes doing human trials. on himself. lets see how this goes HGKJSDHGKJL

oh hi peter. dinner date time.

he brought gwens mother flowers???? KWHGKSJGHSKJHGK theyre a little messed up bc they were in his bag while he was swinging but still!!! he brought flowers for this girls mom hes so sweet

"you must be peter" "dad this is. peter." thank u gwen

oh yeah i failed to mention that the captain of the police department is gwens dad if u didnt catch that from his last name

curt has his arm back!!! the cure worked!!!! hoping and praying that nothing bad happens and he just gets to live a normal life and be happy from now on

he has to go catch the one guy that i forgot the name of (edit its dr ratha) from going to the veteran hospital but the cure is backfiring so hes like. goin thru it. lizard moment.

anyway peter cant cut fish corrcctly

hes never had a fancy meal like this!! hes a little dumb!!!

uh ohhhh theyre talking about spidermannnnn yikes

this is what it feels like to talk politics with relatives

"if i wanted the car thief off the street, he wouldve been off the street" "so why wasnt he then?" PETER. CHILL. UR TRYING TO DATE HIS DAUGHTER PLS BE NICE

"its called strategy, im sure ur aware of the term strategy? maybe u learned about that in school?" MR STACY U ARE ALSO NOT HELPINGGGG

"i think he stands for what u stand for, sir. protecting innocent people from bad guys." banger line right there skajfhksjd

peter still apologized and said that he didnt mean to insult mr stacy but still ksajdfhkjsd cmon peter be nice

BIG PLOT HOLE HERE. peter webs gwen and pulls her closer and she goes "youre spiderman?" before he kisses her. HE HASNT GOTTEN THAT NAME YET. NO ONES CALLING HIM SPIDERMAN YET. WHERE DID SHE GET THAT.

ugh it gets me every time like where did that come frommmm

peter pulling away completely and turning around when her mother catches them is so funny hes trying to be respectful

uh oh crime time

HE JUST JUMPS OFF THE ROOF. BYE.

so yeah curt connors is now a giant lizard monster thing trying to find dr ratha and?? kill him???? okay yeah kill him he just threw his car off the bridge

peter has this moment of either going after lizard or helping save this mans son and he goes to save the kid and i love peter so much

hes also very very good with kids. he convinces this little boy that his mask has special powers to help the kid get out of the car safe and its so sweet

like this kid is terrified and honestly so is peter but hes staying calm and convincing this kid that this mask will make him stronger so he can save him. THIS is the moment i was talking about. this is when peter becomes spiderman.

the moment he gave that kid back to his father alive and safe is when he became a superhero. thats also when he coins the name. but this exact moment is what made him into the actual hero rather than just having the name. he gets home and he stares at his mask bc now he knows he has an immense responsibility to save peoples lives and keep them safe.

i love this movie

oh yeah mr stacy issued an arrest warrant for spiderman after the bridge attack thats so silly of him.

more petergwen lets goooo

"does it scare you? what you can do?" "no." "...youve got to lay low." "no, cant do that." "youve got to. i mean, why?" "because of last night. those people on the bridge. whatever was attacking them wouldve killed them. so i gotta go after it." "thats not your job." "maybe it is." SUCHHHHH A GOOD CONVERSATION. UGH.

OKAY IM GONNA. LEAVE THIS ONE HERE. ive finally got motivation so im gonna keep it going in a reblog like right away but im gonna stop this post here before it gets too long skjhfksjd

#nick watches spiderman

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