so i was thinking abt the old brokeback mountain forum threads i had stumbled upon last yr and i remember coming across a very lengthy one where people were debating the nature of ennis and jack's relationship during their days on brokeback mountain. specifically, people were debating about whether or not ennis and jack kissed at all during those first few months of friendship and fucking.
i know what y'all may be thinking: but nickie, didn't they literally kiss, like, super passionate style during the unfamous second-night-in-the-tent (or SNIT, as the BetterMost forum users dubbed it) scene?
but see, the thing is that in the original short story Annie Proulx never mentioned them kissing during their time on the mountain. In fact, the first (and only) time kissing is mentioned is during their reunion. In an interview, Ang Lee had said that the whole SNIT scene was written into the film to help audiences better understand the budding passion and love between Ennis and Jack. Otherwise, they felt viewers wouldn't quite get the depth of feelings that they had for each other, and thought they would've been lost as to why it hurt them both so bad to be separated earlier than they'd anticipated.
of course i love the idea that they eased into intimacy so early on in their relationship that they made out a ton while herding on the mountains, but imo, it's also kind of interesting to think about the reunion scene being their first kiss.
in her Story to Screenplay book essay, Annie Proulx said that ranchers would often hire two guys to tend a flock together so that they could 'poke each other' on the lonesome days in the mountains. In some ways, Ennis and Jack fucking was a normal and anticipated part of the job—a 'one-shot thing' that would occur simply due to circumstance. She said what was unusual about Ennis and Jack's case is that the two had fallen into a deep, once-in-a-lifetime kind of love during their time together, thus negating the whole 'one-shot' thing Ennis had declared it to be.
with that in mind, i can see why so many people believed that they never kissed during their initial months of relationship building. They both could have justified it by thinking that as long as they didn't kiss, their tryst didn't mean anything special, nor would it make them queer for going at it like rabbits. Then they both go through the turmoil of losing each other, not knowing why it was they felt so bad about going their separate ways, and go through four long years of silence before "the first sign of life" appears in the form of a postcard.
Jack pulls up in Ennis' driveway, and Ennis is so overcome with joy and desire that first thing his (alcohol-muddled) mind thinks to do is kiss the living daylights out of Jack, and in that moment—as those old forum users had put it—that was basically the first time either of them were able to acknowledge to themselves that the summer on the mountain in '63 meant a whole lot more to them than it should have.
i dunno. i think it's a really interesting subject to think about, one that gets broached in fics very rarely. would like to hear your all's thoughts, if any!
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im all for making fun of and criticizing the way booktok (and booktube) aestheticize reading to an insane degree, making it more about being percieved as a reader more than like. actually reading. but some people on here lump the most normal things ever into the booktok consumerism pile?
like yes, booktok/tube places a lot of emphasis on the visuals of "reading", but then someone on here just went and said that simply "not wanting to damage your books" is a stupid booktok thing??? what? it's not vain or pretentious to care about your posessions, especially if they mean a lot to you. simply wanting your books to remain in good condition is not the same as having 100 unread books, or five editions of the same book, or books you hated, purely because they look nice.
and someone else said that having a yearly reading goal was also a stupid booktok/tube thing? since when? i've met people who set themselves yearly reading goals before youtube even existed. it's literally just a new years resolution, but tailored to a specific hobby?
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Seeing Haruka repeatedly stand on the backs of his shoes in his second trial sprite/the 3rd anni art/AKAA makes me think he'd enjoy the freedom of crocs
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Great just end it with fucking genocide, make that seem fine to write. Totally not like living poc have trauma surrounding that. Fuck you to every fucking writer who saw a show that finally had a poc queer cast and decide "you know what this needs? the blood of asian women" and then to fucking gloat that brits will never be fucking slaves as if- you know what if you don't know history and about the trans atlantic slavery and the issues we currently have with human trafficking at this point and you're a fucking adult, that's on you and fuck you if you don't give a shit about this
once again to every single fucking person who greenlit this or heard this idea and went "yes, good."
fuck you
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making more lesbian Falin icons until I find one I want to replace my current Marcille one with
[ID: Two icons of Falin in front of the lesbian pride flag. She's wearing purple and white clothes and holding a hammer over her head, while her hat is falling off. She looks a bit surprised. The second image is more zoomed in than the first one. End ID]
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WELL just got the most delightful person who replied to something I reblogged and added the stupidest comment in the universe- who, turns out, was a big ol t/erf, so!
Just to make myself abundantly clear (since I don't think I have outright before), my blogs are safe spaces for trans people! All of my endless love and support to all of you, forever and always.
Fuck t/erfs, radf/ems, or whatever you wanna call yourselves- you're not welcome here! Ever! My art/posts are not and never will be for you. Unkindly take your sorry hateful asses elsewhere
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istg I have to contact tumblr support on a monthly basis to report my posts not showing up in tags. i've been on this website for almost a decade at this point and I've never had to contact staff until like last year everything breaks so often now T<T
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There was a conviction in his voice now, that he had held back before, scared to let show. Because for so long, he felt he didn’t have the right to love Arven like a father loved his son. Was told he was just a copy, albeit a perfect one.
So he had spoken for a dead man, trying to assure the young man of the feelings he’d shared with the Professor. But now, he …
Could say it for himself. Mean it for just himself.
“…I … I love you, Arven.”
Ever since he woke up in that small lab, buried in crystal, he’d always known…
“…I’ve always loved you.”
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